NEW ADVENTURES

HELLO ALL!!! WELCOME BACK. SO THIS IS MY FIRST POST OF BEING 30 YEARS OLD... HOW DO I FEEL, YOU ASK? NOT REALLY THAT MUCH DIFFERENT... PART OF ME FEELS LIKE EVERYTHING JUST KEPT ON GOING AND NOTHING CHANGED, WHILE THE OTHER PART OF ME FEELS LIKE EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED... I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO SEE THINGS DIFFERENTLY NOW. I JUST HAVE TO GROW MORE. JUST LIKE THAT 30 YEARS HAVE COME AND GONE. NOW MOVING FORWARD TO THE NEXT 5 OR 10 OR 30. DUE TO THIS, I REALIZE THAT I HAVE TO DO MORE... MORE I HAVE TO DO IN THE SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT AND GOALS. THERE SO MUCH I WANT TO DO, AND IM FINALLY STARTING TO DO THEM. THERES GOALS FOR FAMILY AND FRIENDS, GOALS FOR WORK, GOALS FOR LIFE, AND JUST GENERAL GOALS FOR MYSELF. SOME YOU COULD SAY IS MORE OF A BUCKET LIST OF THINGS I WANT TO DO. SINCE I AM 30 NOW... ITS A GOOD OF TIME AS ANY TO START CROSSING THINGS OFF. WHATS THE POINT IN WAITING ANY LONGER? JUST START DOING IT!!! IF AN OPPORTUNITY PRESENTS ITSELF, TAKE IT. IF IT DOESNT, MAKE IT HAPPEN. ITS THE START OF A NEW AGE FOR ME, AND IM GOING TO MAKE THE BEST OF IT. ITS ONLY BEEN A DAY OR 2 SINCE TURNING 30 BUT LOTS HAVE ALREADY HAPPENED, AND I ONLY SEE MORE TO COME. SO IVE SAID IT BEFORE AND IL SAY IT AGAIN... NO PAIN, NO GAIN. LIVE WITH NO REGRETS, AND EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

HOW WAS MY BDAY YOU ASK? WELL, MY FRIENDS PLANNED DINNER FOR ME AND I DIDNT KNOW WHERE OR WHEN OR WHO WAS GOING TO BE THERE. BASICALLY I SHOWED UP AND THEY TOOK ME TO JOE FORTES AND IT WAS MY CLOSE GROUP OF FRIENDS. ITS WAS A NICE SURPRISE. ATE AND THEN SOME GOT ME SOME PRESENTS THAT I REALLY DIDNT EXPECT!!! IF YOU KNOW ME, YOU WILL KNOW THAT I LIKE GUNDAM, AND MY FAVOURITE GUNDAM SERIES IS GUNDAM WING, AND THE FAVOURITE GUNDAM IS WING ZERO!!! SO THE ONE MODEL THAT IS LIKE THE HOLY GRAIL, IS THE WING GUNDAM ZERO CUSTOM - PERFECT GRADE. ITS HUGE AND ITS AWESOME AND MY FRIEND ACTUALLY GOT ME IT!!! I ALSO GOT A SHIRT. DID I MENTION SOME OF MY FRIENDS ENDED UP GETTING ME A SAMSUNG GALAXY S7!?!?!?!?! HOLY CRAP!!! TOTALLY SURPISED ABOUT THAT ONE. ESPECIALLY SINCE I DIDNT REALLY MENTION I NEEDED A NEW PHONE. IT WAS MOST DEFINTIVELY A SURPRISE. THEY ARE PRETTY AWESOME :) I ALSO GOT A GOKU SAIYAN GOD SUPER SAIYAN FIGURE FROM MY COUSIN. OH AND I GOT SOME SOCCER TICKETS AS WELL FROM OTHERS. LETS JUST SAY IT WAS QUITE SPECTACULAR :) THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!

OH ALSO DID HAVE FAMILY DIM SUM AND DINNER, IT WAS NICE JUST CATCHING UP AND BASICALLY EVERYONE ASKING HOW I FEEL... THEN LOTS OF TALK ABOUT HOW LIFE IS AND THEN LOTS OF REMINISCING OF THE OLD DAYS. AHHH THE GOOD OLD DAYS HAHA.

I ACTUALLY WATCHED STAR TREK BEYOND LAST WEEK AND IT WAS OK... I FELT THERE WASNT ENOUGH FIGHTING. THE MOVIE WAS ALRIGHT BUT I JUST DONT KNOW. I JUST THINK THEY SHOULD HAVE DONE MORE. IT WAS MISSING SOMETHING AND I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT IT WAS. OVERALL AN OK MOVIE, DIDNT THINK MUCH OF IT, SO I WOULD GIVE IT A 6.67/10.

I JUST WATCHED SUICIDE SQUAD LAST NIGHT AND I PERSONALLY LIKED IT VERY MUCH. LOTS OF ACTION, JUST THE RIGHT AMOUNT OF BACKSTORY, SOME TIE INS TO OTHER SERIES, AND ACTORS WERE PRETTY GOOD. IM ALSO A FAN OF WILL SMITH SO THAT HELPS, AND THE MOVIE LARGELY CIRCLED HIM I WOULD SAY. THE OTHER ACTORS WERE GOOD TOO. MARGOT ROBBIE WAS HOT, JARED LETO WAS INTERESTING, I THOUGHT HE WOULD HAVE HAD A BIGGER ROLE BUT IT WASNT REALLY ABOUT HIM. THE REST  WAS PRETTY GOOD TOO. DONT REALLY KNOW WHY THEY HAD CAPTAIN BOOMERANG IN THERE... THEY REALLY COULD HAVE HAD ANYONE ELSE BUT WHATEVER. ALL IN ALL... I WOULD GIVE IT A SOLID 7.98-8.32/10. YA ITS A RANGE CAUSE I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT IT. ITS GOOD BUT PARTS MEH AND ITS FUNNY BUT PARTS MEH HAHA.

WELL, ITS BEEN GOOD SO FAR. FEELING GOOD AND JUST GOING TO HAVE TO SEE WHATS NEXT. ITS GONNA BE A GOOD ONE. SO STAYED TUNED!!!

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WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

OKAY... SO I HAD LIKE 3 IDEAS FOR TOPIC THIS WEEK BUT THEN I SORTA FORGOT ABOUT THEM AND I DONT REALLY FEEL LIKE WRITING ABOUT WHAT I HAVE ON MY MIND SO THATS SAVED FOR ANOTHER DAY... UNTIL I FORGET ABOUT IT AGAIN HAHA. ANYWAYS... THIS HAS BEEN TOUCHED UPON IN THE PAST BUT LATELY ITS BEEN COMING BACK INTO MY HEAD AND IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT QUITE A BIT. SO WHAT DO YOU WANT? I MEAN WHAT DO I WANT? THATS THE HARDEST QUESTION TO ANSWER. IVE HAD AN IDEA OF WHAT I WANT FOR THE LONGEST TIME BUT THINGS KEEP HAPPENING AND CHANGING THAT WHAT I WANT KEEPS CHANGING ALONG WITH IT. RIGHT NOW, WHAT IS IT THAT I REALLY WANT? I DONT THINK THERES REALLY ANYTHING I REALLY WANT EXCEPT WHERE I REALLY WANT TO GET TO. EVERYTHING I WANT IS MORE OF THE MATERIALISTIC THING BUT DONT EVERYONE WANT MATERIALISTIC THINGS? THATS REALLY WANT WE WANT, BUT WHAT DO WE REALLY NEED? SOME PEOPLE WANT NICE CARS AND A BIG HOUSE BUT DO WE REALLY NEED IT? WHAT I REALLY WANT IS TO BE IN THE POSITION I WANT, DOING WHAT I WANT, AND NOT ANSWERING TO ANYONE. IM WORKING ON THAT BUT LATELY IT JUST SEEMS LIKE ITS BEEN GETTING PUSHED FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY. THE MOTIVATION AND DETERMINATION IS STILL THERE, JUST THAT THE TIME AND ENERGY IS NOT. BETWEEN WORK, LIFE, FAMILY, AND ALL THE RANDOM STUFF I DO IN BETWEEN, I DONT HAVE TIME TO PUT MYSELF IN THE PLACE WHERE I CAN MOVE FORWARD. I KNOW THAT SOUNDS LIKE AN EXCUSE AND IF I REALLY WANTED IT, I WOULD MAKE TIME FOR IT. I REALLY NEED TO GET BACK INTO THAT HEADSPACE TO GO AND GET WHAT I WANT. SOME OF YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT I GAVE MYSELF 1 YEAR FROM MY BIRTHDAY LAST YEAR TO GET TO WHERE I WANT TO BE, BUT THAT IS LOOKING FARTHER AWAY AND LESS LIKELY I WILL BE THERE BY MY BIRTHDAY. EVERYONE HAS DREAMS OF SOMETHING. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN DREAMING AND MAKING IT A REALITY, IS ACTION. RIGHT NOW THERE IS A LACK OF ACTION...I REALLY JUST NEED TO GET BACK TO IT. ANOTHER THING IS WHAT YOU WANT CHANGES WITH TIME, WHAT I WANTED BEFORE IS NOT WHAT I WANT NOW AND SOMETIMES ONCE ITS PAST THAT TIME, WHAT I WANT I CANT HAVE... YA YA I KNOW THIS POST IS ALL OVER THE PLACE BUT IM REALLY JUST DUMPING EVERYTHING ON TO THIS RIGHT NOW. WHEN DO WE STOP WANTING WHAT WE WANT??? WHEN WE CANT HAVE IT? WHEN ITS GONE? WHEN YOU KNOW IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE? SOMETIMES THAT MAKES YOU JUST WANT IT MORE AND SOMETIMES IT JUST MAKES YOU REALIZE YOU JUST HAVE TO MOVE ON. I THINK THOSE WHO LET GO OF WHAT THEY WANT ARE ALL THOSE WHO GET STUCK IN WHERE THEY ARE. YOU CANT LET GO OF WHAT YOU WANT. I DONT KNOW... I JUST REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT ANYMORE. LIFE IS ALREADY CONFUSING ENOUGH, THEN THROW IN EVERYTHING THAT YOU WANT JUST MAKES IT EVEN WORSE. I REALLY JUST WANT TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND REALLY THINK ABOUT WHAT I WANT AND WHERE I WANT TO BE. NO ONE CAN TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT, NO ONE CAN DECIDE ANYTHING FOR YOU. I JUST NEED TO KNOW WHAT I WANT. WELL... I WISH YOU ALL FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU WANT, WHAT YOU REALLY WANT. SO, WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

REST OF LIFE IS WHAT YOU EXPECT. NOTHING REALLY NEW, KEEPING BUSY, KEEPING DISTRACTED. OH I WENT TO NIGHT MARKET :) THAT WAS NICE. BIG LINE UP TO GET IN AND THEY RAISED THE PRICE OF ENTRY AGAIN... IT WAS $3.25... THEN BOUGHT A BUNCH OF FOOD AND PLAYED THOSE CARNEY GAMES LOL. THAT QUARTER TOSSING ONTO A PLATE AND MAKE IT STAY IS THE EASIEST GAME EVER HAHA. WELL... AS LONG AS YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING HAHA. 1 ON PLATE WINS SMALL AND 4 WINS A LARGE. WELL I GOT 6 IN ABOUT 40 TRIES SOOOOO WINNER!!! ANYWAYS NOW IM OUT OF HERE. GOT PLACES TO GO, PEOPLE TO SEE, STUFF TO DO. THIS IS ALSO WHY THIS WEEKS POST IS SO EARLY. PEACE.

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DISTRACTED

SO I HAD A TOPIC BUT THEN I FORGOT IT AND THEN I HAD ANOTHER BUT NOW I DONT WANT TO WRITE ABOUT IT... IM A LITTLE BIT TOO DISTRACTED TO WRITE WHAT I WANT ANYWAYS. SO INSTEAD YOU GET THIS POST ABOUT DISTRACTIONS :) LOL. THE PAST LITTLE WHILE IVE BEEN BUSY WITH WORK AND EVERYTHING ELSE GOING ON THAT IVE NEGLECTED WHAT I REALLY WANT TO DO. IVE BEEN DISTRACTED BY SOMETHING ELSE AS WELL. ITS FUNNY HOW SOMETHING CAN CONSUME YOUR THOUGH ALL DAY AND ALL NIGHT. THEN EVERYTHING YOU DO SOMEHOW COMES BACK TO THAT ONE THING AND EVEN THOUGH ITS NOT EVEN REMOTELY RELATED, YOUR BRAIN WILL SOMEHOW MADE A CONNECTION TO THAT ONE THING AND THEN BAM YOURE DISTRACTED FROM WHAT YOU WERE DOING. ITS ALSO NOT THAT HARD TO DISTRACT ME... I HAVE A SHORT ATTENTION SPAN... SO FOR SOMETHING TO KEEP MY ATTENTION LIKE THAT, IT REALLY MUST BE SOMETHING. I EVEN WANTED TO WRITE MORE ABOUT ADULTING, BUT NOW IM JUST TOO DISTRACTED AND I ALREADY WROTE ABOUT THE MAIN POINTS. I GUESS DISTRACTIONS ARE ALSO NICE, THEY TAKE YOU AWAY FOR A MOMENT AND MAKE YOU FORGET ALL YOUR WORRIES AND WHATNOT, BUT THE MOMENT YOU ARE BACK YOU REALIZE THAT NOTHING HAS HAPPENED OR CHANGED. ITS TIME TO FOCUS BACK, FORGET THESE DISTRACTIONS, AND GET BACK ON TRACK TO WHAT I WAS DOING AND THINKING.

IT WAY MY BEST FRIENDS BABY SHOWER THE PAST WEEKEND, SO THAT WAS FUN. GOT A CHANCE TO SEE A BUNCH OF OLD FRIENDS I HAVENT SEEN IN A WHILE. ITS ALSO BEEN A WHILE SINCE WE ALL GOT TOGETHER LIKE THAT. EVERYONE IS TOO BUSY THESE DAYS. SOME OF THEM HAVE LEVELLED UP AND ARE FATHERS NOW AND AS EXPECTED, PRIORITIES CHANGE. ITS ALL UNDERSTANDABLE, THATS JUST HOW LIFE IS, BUT THINGS SURE HAVE CHANGED. SOMETIMES I LOOK BACK AND LIFE WAS JUST SO MUCH EASIER, BUT OF COURSE WE ALL HAVE TO GROW UP, AND NOW ITS JUST SO MUCH HARDER AND EVERYTHING ALWAYS JUST SEEM SO MUCH MORE COMPLICATED. WELL... WHAT CAN YOU DO... RIGHT... JUST KEEP AT IT... I SUPPOSE. EVERYTHING WILL JUST FALL IN PLACE LIKE IT SHOULD.

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ITS NOT ABOUT HOW YOU START, ITS ABOUT HOW YOU FINISH

SO THE TITLE IS ALSO THE QUOTE THAT I HEARD THE OTHER DAY WHILE WATCHING "COOK VS CON." ITS A COOKING CONTEST SHOW LIKE IRON CHEF AND PASTRY CONTESTS. ANYWAYS SO I THOUGHT IT WAS ABOUT COOKS VS CONS AS IN CRIMINALS... TURNS OUT ITS REAL LIFE COOKS VS CONS AS IN FAKE CHEFS LOL. HONESTLY YOU WOULD THINK THE SAME AS ME IF YOU JUST LOOKED AT THE PEOPLE ON THE SHOW... THEY ALL LOOK LIKE CRIMINALS LOL. ANYWAYS THATS NOT THE POINT. AT ONE POINT OF THE SHOW THE GUY SAYS THAT HES SHOWING EVERYONE THAT ITS NOT ABOUT HOW YOU START, ITS ABOUT HOW YOU FINISH. HE SAID IT BECAUSE HE WAS ALMOST IN LAST PLACE AND HE WANTED TO LET HIS SON KNOW THAT YOU CAN ALWAYS COME BACK OR DO BETTER OR EVEN WIN... WHICH HE DID END UP WINNING THE SHOW. SO BACK ON TOPIC... THE STATEMENTS PRETTY TRUE AND FOR SOME REASON IT STUCK WITH ME. IN LIFE IT REALLY ISNT ABOUT HOW SOMETHING STARTS, ITS ABOUT HOW IT ENDS OR HOW YOU MAKE IT END. TAKE SCHOOL FOR EXAMPLE, YOU CAN START AND NOT KNOW WHERE OR WHAT YOU WANT TO STUDY. SOMEHOW YOU END UP SOMEWHERE STUDYING SOMETHING, AND GUESS WHAT? WHEN YOU GRADUATE YOURE FINISHED. SOMEHOW IT ALL JUST WORKS OUT. SURE THERES HARD WORK IN BETWEEN AND WHATEVER ELSE YOU NEEDED TO DO TO GET THERE, BUT THE MAIN POINT IS THAT YOU FINISHED AND GOT TO THE END. STARTING A NEW JOB, YOU START IT AND IT MIGHT NOT BE WHERE YOU WANT TO BE OR WHAT YOU WANT TO DO BUT SAME THING YOU HOPEFULLY END UP WHERE YOU WANT TO BE. EVERYTHING IN LIFE STARTS WITH YOU STARTING, YOU MIGHT NOT HAVE HAD THE BEST START, OR YOU JUST FELL INTO IT, OR YOU JUST HAD TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO, BUT SOMEHOW... EVENTUALLY... INEVITABLY... YOU GET TO THE FINISH LINE, YOU GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO GO, YOU DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO. THERES A LOT IN BETWEEN TO GET YOU FROM POINT A TO POINT B, BUT YOU CANT GIVE UP. NO ONE EVER ACHIEVED WHAT THEY ACHIEVED WITHOUT STARTING, AND THEY ONLY ACHIEVED WHAT THEY ACHIEVED BY FINISHING. THIS TIES INTO EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE SAID BEFORE ABOUT DOING WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, IT WILL ALL WORK OUT EVENTUALLY, AND LIKE A DOZEN OTHER POSTS. THINK ABOUT IT, YOU STARTED YOUR DAY AND THEN A BUNCH OF THINGS HAPPEN DURING THE DAY, AND THEN YOU FINISH THE DAY. EVERYTHING IS ALL ABOUT STARTS AND FINISHES. IVE STARTED MANY THINGS, AND I HAVE A GOALS SET IN MIND, A PLACE I WANT TO BE, A THING I WANT TO DO, AND IN ORDER TO GET THERE I NEED TO DO A LOT. IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THE DAY THAT I GET TO THAT FINISH LINE AND SAY THAT I DID IT AND I MADE IT. EVERYTHING I DO IS WORKING TOWARDS THAT FINISH LINE. NOT MANY PEOPLE REMEMBER HOW SOMETHING STARTS, BUT EVERYONE REMEMBERS HOW IT ENDS. YOU NEED TO FINISH STRONG, DONT LET ANYTHING GET IN YOUR WAY, DO IT AND PROVE TO YOURSELF THAT YOU CAN DO IT. BESIDES DOING IT FOR YOURSELF, ITS A GOOD TRAIT TO HAVE, BEING ABLE TO SEE THINGS THROUGH TO THE END. YOU JUST HAVE TO SURVIVE IN THE MEAN TIME. LIFE IS ONE WHOLE PROCESS AS WELL. YOU DONT HAVE A CHOICE OF WHEN YOU WERE BORN, YOU GO THROUGH LIFE, AND IN THE END WHAT WILL YOU BE REMEMBERED FOR? MY ADVICE... DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO, SO AT THE END OF THE DAY, YOU CAN SAY TO YOURSELF THAT YOU GAVE IT YOUR ALL.

SO HONESTLY THE POST COULD HAVE KEPT ON GOING I THINK IT WILL GO IN CIRCLES AND CIRCLES. WELL GUESS IL STOP THAT THERE LOL. OH I WENT TO THE VAISAKHI FESTIVAL ON THE WEEKEND AND IT WAS PRETTY COOL. WE ATE A LOT OF CURRY LOL. WENT TO WATCH THE FOOTBALL GAME AND WE WON. WORK IS STILL WORK AND IM TIRED AND IM FALLING ASLEEP, SO GOOD NIGHT IT IS :) ALSO THE POST WAS ACTUALLY ON TOPIC AGAIN... FINALLY A REAL POST LOL

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SO I JUST SAW SOMETHING...

NO ITS NOT WHAT YOU THINK... WHATEVER YOURE THINKING THATS NOT IT LOL. ANYWAYS I JUST SAW SOME INSPIRATIONAL PICTURE AND THE CAPTION WAS: "SELF DISCIPLINE BETTER PREDICTS SUCCESS THAN IQ." I THOUGHT ABOUT IT A TOTAL OF 2 SECONDS AND I TOTALLY AGREE WITH IT. I TALKED ABOUT THIS HERE AND THERE BEFORE BUT ITS REALLY PERTINENT TO ME RIGHT NOW. IF YOU ARE REALLY SMART OR HAVE A HIGH IQ BUT YOU DONT DO ANYTHING WITH IT THEN YOURE NOT SUCCEEDING NOW ARE YOU? YOURE WASTING ALL THAT POTENTIAL. ON THE OTHER HAND, IF YOU HAVE GREAT SELF DISCIPLINE THEN ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. YOUR SELF DISCIPLINE KEEPS YOU WORKING HARD, MAKES YOU STUDY MORE, CONTROLS HOW MUCH YOU PUT IN, AND PUSHES YOU FARTHER. THATS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN HAVING SELF DISCIPLINE AND NOT HAVING IT. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE PEOPLE WHO DO SOMETHING THAT MAKES A CHANGE AND THOSE WHO DONT OR JUST SAYS THEY WILL BUT NEVER DOES. GRANTED THERE ARE A LOT OF REASONS THAT CAN STOP YOU FROM TAKING THAT FIRST STEP AND MOVING FORWARD TOWARDS WHAT YOU WANT, BUT IN THE END ITS ALL JUST EXCUSES. IF YOU REALLY WANTED TO DO SOMETHING JUST DO IT. ONES OWN SELF DISCIPLINE DECIDES WHERE YOU GO AND WHAT YOU DO. YOU CAN DO IT, BUT ITS ALL UP TO YOU TO SEE IF YOU HAVE THE CONTROL TO ACTUALLY GO AHEAD WITH IT. WHEN YOU FINALLY ACTUALLY HAVE THE SELF DISCIPLINE OR THE DETERMINATION TO DO SOMETHING OR KEEP ON DOING SOMETHING, THERE IS NO WAY YOU CAN FAIL. EVEN IF YOU DO FAIL THE FIRST TIME, YOU DONT QUIT, YOU JUST KEEP GOING UNTIL YOU SUCCEED, AND THATS WHAT THE DIFFERENCE IS BETWEEN THOSE WHO DO AND CAN TO THOSE WHO DONT AND CANT. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT SELF DISCIPLINE, SELF CONTROL, DETERMINATION, AND MOTIVATION. IF YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING OR MAKE A CHANGE JUST DO IT ALREADY!!! THERES NO POINT IN PUTTING IT OFF OR SAYING YOU CANT, THERES ONLY ONE PERSON IN THE WORLD THAT CAN STOP YOU FROM ATTAINING WHAT YOU WANT, AND THATS YOU, THE PERSON LOOKING BACK IN THE MIRROR. LIKE RIGHT NOW, AFTER 4 YEARS IM STILL WRITING THIS BLOG, WEEK IN AND WEEK OUT, 4 YEARS STRAIGHT WITHOUT FAIL. EVEN ON VACATION I STILL FOUND A WAY TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN. ITS ALL ABOUT HOW MUCH YOU WANT IT. YOU HAVE TO FORCE YOURSELF TO DO IT. EVEN THOUGH A LOT OF TIME I RATHER JUST SIT THERE AND WATCH TV OR PLAY GAMES, I TELL MYSELF NO! I HAVE TO DO IT! TURN OFF THE TV AND GO WRITE THE POST!!! ITS ACTUALLY HARDER THAN YOU THINK SITTING HERE AND DOING THIS EVERY WEEK. YOU GUYS OUT THERE HAVE NO IDEA HOW MANY TIMES I WAS DEBATING AND THINKING ABOUT STOPPING THIS OR SLOWING DOWN. YOU HEARD IT ALL BEFORE, BUT IN THE END YOU STILL SEE ME POSTING EVERY SINGLE WEEK. THIS ISNT ALL I DO YOU KNOW... BESIDES WORK FULL TIME YOU ALL KNOW IM WORKING TOWARDS SOMETHING AND THAT WAS WHAT THE 1 YEAR DEADLINE WAS FOR, FOR MYSELF. THAT WAS ME FORCING MYSELF, MOTIVATING MYSELF, DISCIPLINING MYSELF TO GET THAT DONE. NOW RECENTLY IM THINKING AND RESEARCHING ABOUT SETTING BACK UP A YOUTUBE CHANNEL, ALL THE MEANWHILE A NEW POST IS STILL BEING WRITTEN EVERY WEEK. THATS 4 THINGS THAT IM MAKING MYSELF DO, KEEPING THAT DISCIPLINE AND NOT LETTING ANYTHING MAKE ME WAIVER IN MY PURSUIT OF EVERYTHING. THERES LOTS OF WAYS TO MEASURE SUCCESS, AND EVERYONES DEFINITION OF SUCCESS IS DIFFERENT. THERES TOO MANY EXAMPLES I COULD GIVE AND THERE WOULD BE NO WAY TO POSSIBLY COVER THEM ALL EITHER. SO IN WHATEVER YOUR QUEST IS, DONT FRET THAT YOU ARENT THE SMARTEST PERSON IN THE WORLD, BECAUSE HARD WORK DOES PAY OFF AND THE SELF DISCIPLINE YOU HAVE TO CONTINUE WILL ALLOW YOU TO SUCCEED IN THE FUTURE. THEY SAY IT TAKES ROUGHLY 10,000 HOURS TO BECOME A MASTER AT SOMETHING OR A SKILL. THATS ABOUT A YEAR AND A BIT STRAIGHT. IF ALL IT TAKES IS A YEAR THEN WHY NOT GO FOR IT. A YEAR IS REALLY SHORT AND A YEAR FROM NOW YOU WILL LOOK BACK AND REALIZE THAT IT WAS THE BEST DECISION OF YOUR LIFE, AND THAT DISCIPLINE WILL TAKE YOU ACROSS THE FINISH LINE.

AS FOR THE USUAL UPDATES...WORKS GETTING BUSY AGAIN DUE TO STUFF THAT NEEDS TO GET DONE AND ALL THE MEETINGS THAT I HAVE TO HAVE. SLOWLY GETTING BETTER FROM THE ACCIDENT, IM ON THE ROAD TO RECOVERY!!! LOL. WORKING ON ALL THE THINGS IM WORKING ON. OH I DID GO WATCH THE BOY OVER THE WEEKEND AND IT WAS A BAD BAD MOVIE... LOL IT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE SCARY BUT MEH... ONLY SMALL PARTS HERE AND THERE AND ENDING WAS HMM... WELL... THATS ANOTHER WEEK FOR YOU. SO WISH YOU ALL A GREAT WEEK.

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CHANGE OF VENUE

SO YOU ALL KNOW HOW IVE BEEN THINKING REALLY HARD WHETHER OR NOT I AM GOING TO CONTINUE THIS BLOG... WELL... I THINK IVE FINALLY COME TO A CONCLUSION. IN ONE SENSE I REALLY DO WANT TO KEEP WRITING, THIS IS JUST AN OUTLET AND I REALLY JUST WRITE WHAT I WANT. I HAVE NO FILTER ON THIS AND THIS IS PURELY WHATEVER IS ON MY MIND AND MY OPINIONS. I HAVE TOPICS HERE AND THERE BUT THE ISSUE IS TRYING TO KEEP UP WEEK AFTER WEEK AFTER WEEK. I AM LAZY... LETS JUST LEAVE IT AT THAT... LIKE THIS POST I AM LITERALLY WRITING IT ABOUT HALF AN HOUR BEFORE MIDNIGHT BECAUSE I WAS TOO BUSY WATCHING VIDEOS INSTEAD LOL. I THOUGHT ABOUT ONLY UPDATING ONCE IN A WHILE, PERHAPS ONCE EVERY 2 WEEKS OR ONCE A MONTH OR WHENEVER I JUST FEEL LIKE IT, BUT THEN THAT JUST SORT OF DESTROYS THE POINT OF HAVING SOMETHING WEEKLY. SO IVE DECIDED TO DO SOMETHING THAT IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT FOR A WHILE. I WANT TO GET BACK ON YOUTUBE. YA... YOU HEARD RIGHT... BACK ON YOUTUBE, NOT GET ON YOUTUBE, BUT BACK ON YOUTUBE. FOR A BRIEF MOMENT IN TIME NNNNNNNNNN YEARS AGO I HAD A YOUTUBE PAGE. IF YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH IN CREEPING PERHAPS YOU WILL FIND IT LOL. I WANT TO START DOING VIDS AGAIN OF JUST RANDOM STUFF AND EVERYTHING. VIDS IN A WAY IS MUCH EASIER THAN TYPING AND FIGURING OUT WHAT I WANT TO WRITE AND ITS ALSO MUCH QUICKER FOR ME TO ACTUALLY SAY EVERYTHING... BUT THEN AGAIN ITS ALSO A LOT MORE WORK SINCE I HAVE TO FILM IT, EDIT IT, UPLOAD IT, AND DO A BUNCH MORE STUFF TO IT. I THINK I WILL HAVE TO DO A MIX OF YOUTUBE VIDS AND BLOG POSTS. WHEN IM ACTUALLY CREATIVE AND HAVE STUFF TO DO THEN IL VID IT AND WHEN IM LAZY AND WANT TO JUST GET SOMETHING OUT, IL JUST DO A QUICK POST. NOW HERE COMES THE PROBLEM... LIKE I JUST MENTIONED, I USE TO HAVE A YOUTUBE PAGE... THIS WAS BEFORE IT WAS BOUGHT OUT BY GOOGLE... AND I KNOW MY USERNAME... BUT I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA WHAT MY PASSWORD IS... WORST OF ALL, ITS PART OF A RECOVER LEGACY THING AND THE EMAIL ADDRESS I USED BACK THEN IS EITHER NO LONGER IN SERVICE OR I ALSO FORGOT THE PASSWORD FOR THAT TOO... IM PRETTY SURE IT IS WITH AN EMAIL ADDRESS THAT I NO LONGER HAVE ACCESS TO... SO IVE BEEN LOOKING INTO IT FOR A WHILE AND BASICALLY THERE IS NO WAY TO GET IT BACK... IVE TRIED MULTIPLE TIMES AND I JUST CANNOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME REMEMBER THE PASSWORD OR THE EMAIL ADDRESS I USED. IVE TRIED EVERYTHING FROM THAT PERIOD OF TIME AND EVEN ONES FROM BEFORE AND AFTER. THAT USERNAME ISNT THE GREATEST ANYWAYS SOOOOOOO AS IT STANDS I AM LOOKING AT MAKING A NEW PAGE AND GOING TO HAVE ALL NEW CONTENT. AS FOR MY OLD PAGE... WELL... LETS JUST SAY THERE ARE A FEW VIDS UP THERE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO FORGET ABOUT OR HAVE REMOVED LOLOL. THOSE WILL BE UP FOREVER AND ONE DAY IL LOOK BACK AND LAUGH... ACTUALLY ALREADY DID LAUGH... BECAUSE ITS SORTA SAD... *SIGH... NOW I HAVE TO THINK IF IM ACTUALLY GOING TO GET NEW EQUIPMENT FOR THIS OR USE SOMETHING I CURRENTLY HAVE... OHHHHH THE DEBATE OF HAVING TO DECIDE THINGS... THE BLOG I CAN JUST KEEP ON DOING WHAT IM DOING AND ALL I NEED IS MY LAPTOP, BUT VIDS WELL... I HAVE A CAMERA THAT I CAN USE BUT LIGHTING AND MICROPHONES AND THE REST WELL... HMM... I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE DONT ACTUALLY READ THIS BECAUSE IT IS JUST A BIG WALL OF CAPSLOCK AND A LOT OF PEOPLE CANT STAND IT... VIDS HOWEVER YOU CAN DO WHAT YOU WANT. ALSO YOUTUBE I WOULD REACH MORE OF A GLOBAL AUDIENCE COMPARED TO THIS PAGE WHERE ITS LIMITED TO THOSE WHO ACTUALLY COME HERE AND OR SEARCH OF THIS. SO THE FINAL DECISION IS IM GOING TO ACTUALLY START DOING VIDS :) I REALLY DO FEEL THAT THE CONTENT THERE WILL BE OF A MUCH HIGHER QUALITY THAN MY WRITING HERE.

REST OF LIFE YOU ASK??? WELL STILL INJURED, STILL DEALING WITH EVERYTHING, BUT I HAVE GONE BACK TO WORK ON A PART TIME BASIS JUST CAUSE I CANNOT SIT STILL SINCE EVERYTHING HURTS. ALSO, BECAUSE I NEED MONEY... GOTTA PAY THE BILLS!!! OH OH OH SO I GOT A NEW CAR FINALLY :) GOT THE MONEY FROM THE WRITE OFF AND THAT BARELY COVERED THE CAR, INSURANCE, AND THE REST OF THAT STUFF SO YAY... CARS MUCH BETTER THAN MY OLD LOVE BUT THIS ONE IS QUITE FUN. SHE HAS ALL THE NICK NACKS AND GADGETS I LIKE AND OMG!!! SATELLITE RADIO IS THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!! I JUST DISCOVERED IT AND ITS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!! HAHA. CAN YOU ALL GUESS WHAT MY FIRST VID WILL BE ABOUT??? NO... SERIOUSLY CAN YOU GUESS... HAHA. BESIDES THAT IM STILL BUSY DOING MY OWN THING AND TRYING TO SET THINGS UP. WORK... WELL... LETS JUST SAY THAT I AM BEHIND... VERY BEHIND... TRYING TO CATCH UP IS HARD ESPECIALLY WHILE I STILL HAVE STUFF COMING IN, SO ITS JUST A CONSTANT STREAM OF WORKKKKKKKKKKKKK... JUST GOTTA KEEP ON GRINDING. BESIDES THAT ITS BEEN PRETTY QUIET SINCE IVE JUST BEEN AT HOME HEALING AND GOING TO PHYSIO... WELL... SLOW AND STEADY AS THEY SAY, AND UNTIL NEXT TIME :)

OH I GUESS I SHOULD FIGURE OUT WHEN IM GOING TO START THAT VID THING... HMMM... IN THE NEAR FUTURE... IM SORTA ALL OVER THE PLACE RIGHT NOW DUE TO THE ACCIDENT AND WORK AND MY OWN PLANS... BUT THATS NO EXCUSE SOOOO GET ON IT ASAP!!!

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THE FUTURE'S NOT OURS TO SEE

IVE BEEN LOOKING AT THE PAST AND THINKING ABOUT THE FUTURE QUITE A BIT RECENTLY... ESPECIALLY WHEN I WAS ON MY TRIP A FEW WEEKS AGO. ONCE AGAIN IVE REACHED THE AGE WHERE ITS TIME TO SERIOUSLY THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING AND WHERE I AM. IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH MY POSTS THAT IVE WRITTEN OVER THE PAST 4 YEARS AND YES, SOME ARE RANDOM AND DONT REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING WHILE BUT THERE ARE THOSE THAT MAKE ONE THINK MORE DEEPLY. IVE WRITTEN ABOUT A LOT OF DIFFERENT TOPICS BUT THE SAME THOUGHTS KEEP COMING BACK UP OVER AND OVER. I DONT REGRET ANYTHING IVE DONE IN THE PAST BUT THERE IS THE THOUGHT OF ALWAYS WONDERING WHAT IF... WHAT IF I DID THIS INSTEAD, WHERE WOULD I HAVE ENDED UP THEN? WOULD I STILL BE HERE DOING THE SAME THING? WOULD I BE BETTER OFF OR WORSE OFF? THESE QUESTIONS WILL NEVER BE ANSWERED. THE SAME NOW GOES THROUGH MY HEAD BUT MORE OF WHATS NEXT AND WHERE WILL I BE? I THINK IT JUST HAS TO DO WITH MANY OF MY FRIENDS GETTING OLDER AND EITHER GETTING MARRIED OR HAVING KIDS. THINGS WERE SO MUCH SIMPLER BACK THEN... LESS WORRIES AND RESPONSIBILITIES, BUT NOW IT SEEMS THAT IM ALWAYS WORRYING ABOUT SOMETHING. THATS JUST PART OF LIFE I SUPPOSE. WHATS NEXT FOR ME? DONT GET ME WRONG, IM HAPPY WHERE I AM AND WHAT IM DOING BUT SOMETIMES I REALLY WISH THERE WAS A CRYSTAL BALL TO SEE WHERE I END UP. I HAVE A PLANS AND GOALS FOR MYSELF, BUT IT WOULD BE NICE TO FIND OUT IF EVERYTHING THAT I WANT AND AM WORKING TOWARDS REALLY DO COME TO FRUITION. I GUESS ITS JUST THE WANT... NO, THE NEED TO KNOW IF I AM GOING TO ACHIEVE MY GOALS OR IF IM ACTUALLY JUST WASTING TIME. I REALLY HATE WASTING TIME THESE DAYS, I REALIZE THAT THERES NEVER ENOUGH OF IT... I GUESS THIS IS REALLY SHOWING MY AGE NOW... I REALLY HAVE TO START ON MY PLAN TO GET THE FUTURE I HAVE PLANNED AND ENVISIONED. THEN AGAIN... WHO KNOWS... THE FUTURES NOT OURS TO SEE...

WORK, TV, FRIENDS, FAMILY, AND THE REST IS THE SAME OLD. WE DID HOWEVER START A VOLLEYBALL TEAM :) LOL THE LAST TIME I PLAYED VOLLEYBALL WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL GYM CLASS... DECIDED TO MAKE A TEAM SO WE CAN KEEP ACTIVE UNTIL FOOTBALL STARTS BACK UP AGAIN. VOLLEYBALL IS THE ONE SPORT THAT WILL HURT ME THE MOST... MY SHOULDER IS SO SCREWED UP THAT SPIKING THE BALL WILL BE INTERESTING. YOU ALL KNOW THAT IVE DISLOCATED MY SHOULDER MORE THAN I CAN EVEN REMEMBER AND ANYTHING THAT REQUIRES ME TO THROW OR HIT A BALL IN THAT MOTION IS JUST ASKING FOR TROUBLE HAHA. JUST GOTTA BE MORE CAREFUL THAN NORMAL. THIS IS GOING TO BE FUN SINCE THERES ONLY A FEW PEOPLE THAT HAVE ACTUALLY PLAYED BEFORE. OH WELL LOL.

ITS STARTING TO GET DARK PRETTY EARLY THESE DAYS AND ITS ALSO GETTING COLDER TOO... STARTING TO FEEL LIKE DOING LESS AND LESS AND EVERYTHING SEEMS QUIETER AS WELL... EVERY YEAR THERES LESS GOING ON AND PEOPLE JUST DONT WANT THE HASSLE ANYMORE, OH WELL. LIFE GOES ON... C'EST LA VIE

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366 DAYS UNTIL DEADLINE

SO GUESS WHAT!!! IT'S THAT TIME OF YEAR AGAIN :) YES!!! ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE ITS ANOTHER YEAR THAT SOON... IT SEEMED LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I SAID IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY POST AND NOW HERE WE GO AGAIN. LOOKING BACK IT WAS A BIG YEAR!!! I WAS A REAL GROWN UP ADULT... HAHA. ITS THE FIRST YEAR THAT IVE ACTUALLY WORKED FULL TIME THE WHOLE YEAR AT THE SAME JOB, I ALSO FINALLY FINISHED ALL MY SCHOOLING, AND TONS OF RANDOMNESS HAPPENED THROUGHOUT. FRIENDS WERE MADE, EVENTS WERE ATTENDED, AND I LEARNED A LOT ABOUT MYSELF THIS YEAR. I REALLY FOUND OUT WHAT I WAS MADE OF, AND NOW LOOKING FORWARD TO THE COMING YEAR I GOT BIGGER DREAMS AND BIGGER PLANS. IM AT THE AGE WHERE I REALIZE I HAVE TO BE MORE GROWN UP AND THINGS ARENT EASY LIKE THE WAY THEY WERE BEFORE. I CANT KEEP DOING WHAT IM DOING AND IN ORDER TO CONTINUE I NEED TO CHANGE. I HAVE TO BE BETTER, I HAVE TO LEARN MORE, I HAVE TO BE DIFFERENT. WHICH BRINGS ME TO THE TITLE... 366 DAYS UNTIL DEADLINE... FROM MY BIRTHDAY THIS WEEKEND I AM GIVING MYSELF 1 YEAR TO GET TO WHERE I WANT TO BE. ITS AN AMBITIOUS GOAL AND I KNOW THERES A LOT OF HARD WORK AHEAD OF ME IF I WANT TO BE ABLE TO ACHIEVE WHAT I WANT IN THAT SHORT TIME, BUT THERES NO POINT IN JUST THINKING AND HOPING FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN. ITS 366 DAYS SINCE ITS A LEAP YEAR THIS YEAR LOL SO TECHNICALLY I GET A BONUS DAY ACTUALLY LOL. I FIGURE THERES NO BETTER TIME THAN NOW AND SINCE ITS MY BIRTHDAY, THE MORE REASON TO START. YOU CAN ALL HOLD ME TO THIS AND I WILL LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW IT GOES IN A YEAR. WELL... IM GOING TO KEEP THIS BLOG GOING SO I GUESS YOU WILL STILL GET UPDATES AND I HOPE THAT THROUGH THE YEAR THE UPDATES WILL ONLY GET BETTER AND BETTER TOWARDS MY GOAL. THIS IS GOING TO BE MY YEAR AND JUST LIKE I HAVE SAID IN MANY OF MY PREVIOUS POSTS, THERES NO ONE ELSE THAT CAN DO IT FOR YOU EXCEPT FOR YOURSELF, IN THE END YOURE THE ONLY ONE THAT MATTERS, NEVER GIVE UP ON WHAT YOU WANT, DO WHAT IT TAKES TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE, HARD WORK PAYS OFF, AND NEVER LET ANYTHING STAND IN YOUR WAY OF OBTAINING YOUR GOALS AND DREAMS. EVERYONE IS CAPABLE OF DOING ANYTHING, AND IM GOING TO START TAKING MY OWN ADVICE AND DO WHAT I WANT. I REALLY CANT WAIT TO SEE WHERE I WILL BE IN A YEAR, AND I CANT WAIT TO SHARE WITH YOU ALL TOO :) SO LET THE COUNTDOWN BEGIN!!!

AUGUST IS ALWAYS THE BEST MONTH OF THE YEAR, BESIDES THE MASSIVE AMOUNT OF FRIENDS BDAYS THAT I HAVE, THE SUN IS OUT AND TIME TO PLAY :) JUST THE OTHER DAY I HAD THE MOST PACKED DAY EVER... BARELY SLEPT SINCE I PARTIED THE NIGHT BEFORE... WENT TO DENNYS IN THE MORNING, THEN HIT UP THE GOLF RANGE, GRABBED SOME STARBUCKS, THEN WENT TO SING KARAOKE FOR 3...4... HOURS..., GRABBED SOME DINNER AT QUIZNOS LOL, WENT GO-CARTING, AND ENDED THE NIGHT UP WITH SOME BOWLING HAHA. THAT WAS A LONG DAY AND MOST OF IT WAS RANDOM, WE DIDNT END UP WHERE WE WANTED TO FOR DINNER BUT ENDED UP WITH SOME RANDOM GOOD TIMES INSTEAD. ITS WAS A LONG WEEKEND AS WELL SO HAD BBQ FOR ONE OF MY FRIENDS BDAY. LASTLY AND OBVIOUSLY I WOULD MAKE SURE THAT I MENTION IS THAT TOMORROW IM GOING TO WATCH THE NEW DRAGONBALL MOVIE!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! DRAGONBALL Z: RESURRECTION "F" AHHHHH FRIEZA IS BACK... AGAIN... HAHA. I GREW UP WITH DRAGONBALL AND HAVE TONS OF FIGURES AND SUCH AT HOME TOO. I ALSO CANT WAIT TIL I GO BACK TO HK IN OCT SO I CAN GET MORE STUFF TO ADD TO THE COLLECTION. OH OH OH YA SO DID I MENTION I FINALLY FIGURED OUT WHERE IM GOING FOR VACA? WELL IM GOING TO TELL YOU AGAIN EITHER WAY IF I DID HAHA. TICKET FROM HERE TO CHINA TO HK BACK TO CHINA TO HOME, PLUS 7 DAYS TRIP IN CHINA, 5 STAR HOTELS, 3 MEALS A DAY, ALL TRAVEL AND ENTRANCE FEES PAID FOR, GUESS HOW MUCH??? ITS REALLY CHEAP!!! WHATEVER YOU ARE THINKING, GO AHEAD AND HALF THAT AND PROB TAKE SOME MORE OFF WHAT YOU ARE THINKING. YA!!! THAT CHEAP!!! ITS NUTS!!! SO CRAZY THAT HOW COULD WE NOT GO!!! IVE ONLY BEEN TO 1 OF THE LOCATIONS THAT THEY ARE INCLUDING IN THE TRIP BUT WHO CARES, SINCE I HAVENT BEEN TO THE OTHER PLACES AND THAT ITS SUPER CHEAP!!! THIS ENDED UP AS A FAMILY TRIP ALONG WITH MY AUNT AND COUSIN AND SOME OTHER FAMILY FRIENDS. THEN I GET SOME TIME IN HK TO CHILL WITH MY FRIENDS THERE. IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS VACA CAUSE I REALLY NEED IT. JUST NEED SOME TIME TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND RELAX AND JUST RECHARGE. ITS BEEN A LONG YEAR... SO I ALSO HAVE THAT TO LOOK FORWARD TO :) WELL THATS ALL FOR NOW, SEE YOU ALL NEXT WEEK WHERE I WILL BE ANOTHER YEAR WISER................. AHEAHEHAHEA

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GOALS

GOALS... HAVE ONE AND GO FOR IT!!! NEED I SAY MORE? IVE TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE SOMEWHAT AND RIGHT NOW I FEEL ITS MORE IMPORTANT THAN EVER. I FINALLY HAVE THIS GOAL AND I WANT TO ACHIEVE IT. ITS A BIG GOAL, ITS A HIGH GOAL, AND ITS GOING TO TAKE A LOT OF WORK TO GET THERE, BUT ITS WHAT I WANT. EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE HIGH GOALS. SET RIDICULOUS GOALS AND SEE HOW FAR YOU CAN GET, SEE WHAT YOU ARE MADE OF, AND WHAT YOU ARE CAPABLE OF, AND YOU WILL SURPRISE EVEN YOURSELF. IVE BEEN WORKING ON SOMETHING FOR A WHILE NOW AND ITS ABOUT TO BECOME REAL. SO LET SEE WHAT WILL HAPPEN THEN. EVERYONE NEEDS A GOAL, YOU CANT JUST GO AROUND AIMLESSLY WITHOUT KNOWING WHERE OR WHAT YOU ARE DOING. THE PROBLEM IS GOALS ARENT EASY TO OBTAIN AND LOTS OF PEOPLE ARE AFRAID THAT THEY WILL NEVER ACHIEVE THEIR GOALS. PEOPLE ARE AFRAID OF FAILING... IF YOU JUST KEEP GOING THROUGH LIFE AFRAID OF FAILING AND NEVER TRYING THEN YOU WILL ONLY GET STUCK IN WHERE YOU ARE. YOU CANT BE AFRAID, YOU HAVE TO TRY, YOU HAVE TO BE WILLING TO RISK SOMETHING TO GET WHAT YOU WANT. YOU REALLY GET WHAT YOU PUT IN, AND IF YOU DONT PUT IN MUCH THEN YOU WONT GET MUCH. AGREED, SOME PEOPLE ARE CONTENT WITH EVERYTHING... BUT ARE YOU? IF NOT THEN HAVE A GOAL TO CHANGE WHAT YOU WANT TO CHANGE AND DO WHAT YOU NEED TO, TO ACHIEVE YOUR GOALS. A GOAL IS YOUR OWN AND ONLY ONE PERSON CAN HELP YOU ACHIEVE IT, NO ONE ELSE WILL ACHIEVE IT FOR YOU, AND WHEN THEY DO WILL THEY SHARE IT WITH YOU? NO, BECAUSE THEY MADE IT. IF YOU WANT IT, GO AND TAKE IT, GO MAKE IT HAPPEN. RISK IT ALL KNOWING THAT YOU DIDNT LEAVE ANYTHING BEHIND, AND IF YOU DO FAIL, AT LEAST YOU KNOW YOU TRIED YOUR BEST, BUT NEVER GIVE UP ON IT. IF IT IS A GOAL YOU WANT THEN ALWAYS KEEP WORKING AT IT. RARELY ANYONE EVER SUCCEEDS ON THE VERY FIRST TRY, SO KEEP GOING, KEEP TRYING, KEEP WORKING, KEEP GRINDING UNTIL THE DAY YOU CAN FINALLY SAY THAT YOU MADE IT TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE AT, AND NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU. GO GET IT!!!

WELL, FINALLY GETTING BACK INTO MEANINGFUL POSTS :) AT LEAST THIS IS THE START OF IT HAHA. LETS SEE HOW LONG I CAN KEEP THIS GOING BEFORE I START RUNNING OUT OF TOPICS AGAIN. ANYWAYS WORKS STILL BUSY AS USUAL, HUNG OUT WITH FRIENDS ON THE WEEKEND, HAD A BBQ, AND WENT TO THE NIGHT MARKET. 1ST TIME OF THE YEAR TO THE NIGHT MARKET, WENT TO GET SOME FOOD AND SHOP AROUND. THEY HAVE THIS CORK GUN GAME AND IT WILL PISS PEOPLE WHO LIKE SHOOTING, THE CORK HAS TO PUT IN PERFECTLY STRAIGHT AND TIGHT, WHILE THE SIGHTS ARE BULLSHIT AND THE GUN SHOOTS LOW. YOU HAVE TO SHOOT OFF 3 GOLF BALLS ON GOLF TEES WITH 4 SHOTS. YOU COMPENSATE AFTER THE 1ST SHOT AND IT STILL GOES WORSE AND WORSE. YOU LEVEL EVERYTHING AND GO SIGHT TO SIGHT AND IT WILL MAGICALLY GO ABOUT 2 FEET LOW... ITS THE BIGGEST GAME THAT WILL PISS YOU OFF... I SPENT... SOME... MONEY... ON THAT AND DIDNT WIN LOL. HATE THAT GAME SO MUCH THAT I WANTED TO BREAK EVERYTHING THERE LOL. ANYWAYS SO PLAYED THIS OTHER GAME WHERE YOU TOSS A QUARTER AND YOU HAVE TO MAKE IT LAND ON A PLATE, THE ISSUE IS THE QUARTERS SLIDE OFF OR BOUNCE OFF. AFTER PLAYING A FEW I GOT MY FIRST ONE ON THE PLATE, AND A SECOND ONE... AND A THIRD... AND A FORTH!!!!!!! HOLY CRAP!!! I FIGURED OUT HOW TO DO IT AND WON AN AWESOME DRAGONBALL PLUSHIE :) HEHE. SO FROM NOW IF I EVER GO BACK IM JUST GOING TO WIN THE WHOLE STUPID SHACK OF PLUSHIES BECAUSE THAT GUN GAME SUCKED AND PISSED ME OFF!!! LOL. WELL IM GONNA GET SOME SLEEP EARLY TODAY, GOT LOTS OF DRIVING AROUND TO PLACES TOMORROW AND THEN IM GOING TO HIT UP ANOTHER BASEBALL GAME :) SEE YOU ALL NEXT WEEK.

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NOTE

OK... I PASSED OUT 2 TIMES BEFORE I EVEN GOT THIS POST STARTED... I REALLY NEED TO START WRITING THIS EARLIER LOL. SO THERES NOT MUCH OF A TOPIC TODAY AND ITS MORE OF A NOTE TO EVERYONE. IF YOU HAVE NOTICED, I HAVENT REALLY EVER WRITTEN ABOUT THE OBVIOUS TOPICS SUCH AS LIFE, FRIENDS, AND EVERYTHING LIKE THAT. THE PROBLEM IS THAT THERE IS SO MUCH TO WRITE ABOUT THEM AND I REALLY DONT KNOW WHERE TO START... WELL IF I DID START IT WOULD BE A EVEN BIGGER MESS OF JUMBLED WORDS. THE MOMENT YOU WRITE IT DOWN IS THE MOMENT IT BECOMES REALITY AND FOR SOME OF THE STUFF I RATHER NOT SAY.

TIRED, PASSING OUT, BUSY AT WORK, OUT OF THE PLAYOFFS FOR FOOTBALL, HANGING OUT AND JUST REALXING. NOT MUCH ELSE RIGHT NOW, STILL WORKING ON HAVING SOME OF THINGS RUNNING BUT THATS TAKING SOME TIME IT SEEMS. WELL THERE YOU GO, A VERY VERY VERYYYYY SHORT POST LOL.

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WHY DO I KEEP WRITING...

IVE BEEN WRITING THIS BLOG FOR 3.5 YEARS NOW... EVERY WEDNESDAY WITHOUT FAIL... SO THE QUESTION IS WHY DO I KEEP WRITING... HONESTLY SOMETIMES I DONT KNOW... SOMETIMES I DONT HAVE A TOPIC OR I FEEL LAZY AND I JUST DONT WANT TO DO IT... BUT I HAVE TO!!! ITS JUST SOMETHING THAT I FEEL HELPS ME. NOT THE FACT THAT I EXPECT TONS OF PEOPLE TO ACTUALLY READ THIS... I DONT EVEN EXPECT 10  PEOPLE TO READ IT... I THINK MAYBE LIKE 5 PEOPLE EVER READ THIS... AND HALF OF THEM ARE PART TIME READERS TOO HAHA. I JUST DO IT FOR MYSELF. ITS SOMETHING THAT GETS WHATEVER IM THINKING OR RANTING ABOUT OUT. SOME PEOPLE READ AND SOME PEOPLE WORK OUT, I WRITE THIS ALL CAPS LOCKED GIANT RUN ON PARAGRAPH LOL. I LIKE BEING ABLE TO PUT MY THOUGHTS OUT AND JUST HAVING IT OUT THERE. I KNOW LOTS OF PEOPLE MAY AGREE AND LOTS MAY DISAGREE BUT THATS NOT THE POINT, THIS IS MY OPINION AND IF YOU DONT LIKE IT THEN LEAVE!!! THE MAIN REASON IVE ACTUALLY KEPT UP WITH THIS WEEK AFTER WEEK IS THAT ITS LIKE A GOAL... YOU HAVE TO WORK HARD AND KEEP AT IT OBTAIN IT, AND I KNOW THAT IF I CAN DEDICATE TIME EVERY WEEK WITHOUT FAIL TO WRITE SOMETHING DOWN AND POST IT THEN I CAN PUT THAT KIND OF ENERGY, EFFORT, MOTIVATION, AND DETERMINATION INTO ANYTHING ELSE I WANT. IF I CAN DO THIS THEN I CAN REALLY DO ANYTHING ELSE I PUT MY MIND TO. ITS AS SIMPLE AS THAT.

OTHER NEWS... OUR FOOTBALL TEAM WON AGAIN :) WE STANDING AT 2-2 AND AFTER WE WIN THIS WEEK WE GOING TO BE 3RD IN THE DIVISION AND GONNA MAKE PLAYOFFS. HALF OF THE TEAM HAS SAID THAT THIS IS WHAT THEY LOOK FORWARD TO ALL WEEK AND THAT THEY CANT WAIT TO PLAY AND I HAVE TO ADMIT THAT I LOVE PLAYING FOOTBALL. OUR TEAM IS JUST AWESOME!!! WE HAVE A GREAT BUNCH OF GUYS WHO GET ALONG WITH EVERYONE AND HAS EACH OTHERS BACK. WE ARE IMPROVING WEEK AFTER WEEK AND YOU SHOULD SEE HOW LOUD I GET AT THE GAMES... ITS SO INTENSE!!! ITS JUST SOMETHING ABOUT PLAYING THAT GETS YOU SO FIRED UP AND READY TO GO. PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN A 5 BLOCK RADIUS OF THE PARK IS ABLE TO HEAR ME... IM NOT EVEN KIDDING... LOL. MY SOCCER TEAM HOWEVER LOST THE QUARTER-FINALS GAME SO NOW WE JUST PLAY FOR PRIDE IN THE CONSOLATION GAMES. WORK.... WELL WORKS BEEN MAD BUSY... MEETINGS ALL OVER THE PLACE AND WORKING LATE EVERYDAY THAT SEEMS TO BE THE NORM... FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS... I THOUGHT AFTER THE RUSH WHICH WOULD HAVE BEEN FEBRUARY I WOULD BE GOOD... BUT NOPES... THERES A RUSH IN APRIL AND A BIT IN MAY/JUNE ALONG WITH ALL THE OTHER STUFF IN BETWEEN... BUT I CAN SEE THE LIGHT!!! AFTER MID JUNE IT WILL ALL CALM DOWN... I WILL FINALLY HAVE TIME AND BE MORE NORMAL LOL. THERES JUST TOO MUCH TO DO AND TOO LITTLE TIME... AND WITH THAT SAID IM GOING TO SLEEP CAUSE IM TIRED... THEN BACK TO IT AGAIN TOMORROW............

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TOO MANY IDEAS...

WELL HERES A SURPRISE... QUITE IRONIC ACTUALLY... LAST WEEK I WAS OUT OF IDEAS, THIS WEEK I HAVE TOO MANY... NOW I DONT KNOW TO WRITE ABOUT... I GUESS IL JUST WRITE A BIT ABOUT A FEW... SOME TOPICS WILL PROBABLY OVERLAP WITH ALL THE OTHER STUFF THAT I HAVE WRITTEN IN THE PAST BUT MEH... ITS MY BLOG AND IL WRITE ABOUT WHATEVER I FEEL LIKE WRITING ABOUT :)

ASPECTS OF LIFE
FOR ME THIS IS THE WEIRD THING... IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS... ONE ASPECT OF MY LIFE WILL BE GOING WELL AND ANOTHER WILL ALWAYS BE GOING POORLY. THATS JUST THE BALANCE OF LIFE... CANT FORCE AND CANT DO MUCH ABOUT IT. KARMA IS BIG ON THIS. THERE HAS TO BE A BALANCE. THEN WHILE TRYING TO TIP THE BALANCE TO ANOTHER ASPECT OF MY LIFE, A DIFFERENT PART OF LIFE WILL ALWAYS SURELY FALL... ITS JUST THE NATURAL ORDER OF THINGS. YOU CANT HAVE IT GOING WELL IN ALL ASPECTS BUT YOU CAN MOST DEFINITIVELY HAVE ALL ASPECTS GOING BADLY. MURPHYS LAW ALL THE WAY. WHILE SEEKING TO MAKE ONE ASPECT BETTER, YOU LOSE SIGHT OF WHAT WAS REALLY IN FRONT OF YOU, WHAT REALLY MATTERED, AND WHEN YOU REALIZE IT... ITS TOO LATE. THEN WHEN YOU TRY TO GO BACK TO IT... THE DAMAGE IS DONE OR EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED SO MUCH THAT THE ASPECT NO LONGER EXIST. I AM ALWAYS TRYING TO GET TO THAT BETTER SPOT, AND I FINALLY THERE, FINALLY IN A PLACE WHERE ONE ASPECT IS GOING WELL, BUT LOOKING BACK I REALIZE SOMETHING IS DIFFERENT, SOMETHING CHANGED, SOMETHING LOST. AT LEAST NOW KNOWING THAT I CAN TRY TO GET THAT OTHER ASPECT BACK AND BALANCE IT BACK OUT. THIS TIES INTO MY THOUGHTS ON TRADE-OFFS, YOU ALL KNOW HOW I FEEL AND ITS TRUE. EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS A TRADE-OFF, EVERYTHING YOU DO IS A TRADE-OFF. ITS JUST A MATTER OF WHAT YOU ARE TRADING OFF.

REALIST
TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE AS WELL... OR MAYBE NOT BUT WHO KNOWS THESE DAYS... A LOT OF POSTS WILL OVERLAP AND THAT CANT BE HELPED. I USE TO BE A DREAMER, THEN A OPTIMIST, AND NOW A REALIST. I KNOW WHATS POSSIBLE AND WHATS NOT EVEN FEASIBLE. IM NOT JADED... WELL SORTA... BUT IM MORE OF A GUY THAT HAS SEEN ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT IN THE END EVERYONE IS LOOKING OUT FOR #1... YOURSELF. ITS TRUE AND DONT EVEN TRY TO ARGUE WITH ME ON THIS BECAUSE YOU WILL LOSE. IF YOU REALLY WANT TO THEN TALK TO ME ABOUT THIS IN REAL LIFE BECAUSE IT CAN GO ON FOREVER. I DONT SEE A POINT IN CARING ANYMORE... NOT TO SAY THAT I DONT CARE BUT MORE THAT IF IT DOESNT AFFECT ME THEN IT DOESNT REALLY MATTER. THINGS ARE THE WAY THEY ARE. THERES NOTHING MORE TO IT. AFTER THEY ARE DONE, THERES NO POINT IN ANYTHING AFTER IT.

LETTING GO / MOVING ON
EVERYONE AT ONE POINT IN THEIR LIVES HAS COME TO THE CONCLUSION OF HAVING TO LET GO OF SOMETHING OR SOMEONE, TO MOVE ON AND MOVE PAST WHAT HAS HAPPENED. THE QUESTION IS HOW DO YOU... EVERYONE HAS A DIFFERENT WAY OF DOING THAT OR COPING WITH IT. SOME PEOPLE GET DRUNK, SOME PEOPLE EXERCISE, SOME PEOPLE WORK, AND OTHERS JUST DO WHATEVER THEY CAN TO STOP THINKING ABOUT IT OR DWELLING ON IT. THE ONLY CONSTANT THAT DETERMINES HOW LONG IT TAKES IS TIME... TIME DETERMINES EVERYTHING. THERES ALSO STAGES... THAT EVERYONE GOES THROUGH BEFORE BEING ABLE TO LET GO AND MOVE ON. IT JUST HAPPENS OVER TIME... THE PAIN GOES AWAY... THE MEMORIES FADE... THE FEELINGS CHANGE... EVENTUALLY SLOWLY YET SURELY YOU WILL LOOK BACK ONE DAY AND REALIZE THAT YOURE NO LONGER WHERE YOU WERE BEFORE, AND THAT YOURE AT A BETTER PLACE NOW, AND WONDER HOW YOU WERE EVER AT THAT POINT. AS USUAL... EVERYTHING TAKES TIME...

WHY... WHY NOT...
IM ALWAYS ASKED THIS QUESTION... WHY... WHY THIS... WHY THAT... WHY... WHY... WHY AND THE ANSWER IS SIMPLE... WHY NOT. YOU NEVER HAVE TO HAVE REASON TO DO ANYTHING. NO ONE CAN TELL YOU WHAT TO DO. WHO CARES IN THE END ANYWAYS. THE ONLY PERSON THAT WOULD CARE IS YOURSELF. SO DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY AND DONT CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE SAY OR DO. IN THE END ITS YOU LIVING YOUR LIFE AND NOT THEM. 

FOCUS / GOALS
EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE A GOAL OR SOMETHING TO FOCUS ON. A FINISH LINE OF WHERE YOU WANT TO BE OR SOMETHING YOU WANT TO ACCOMPLISH. IT GIVES YOU SOMETHING TO DIRECT YOUR ENERGY INTO. YOU DONT WANT TO JUST STAY STAGNANT... YOU ALWAYS WANT TO STRIVE FOR SOMETHING BETTER, SOMETHING THAT GIVES YOU THAT MEANING YOU ARE SEARCHING FOR. SOMETHING TO SHOW THAT ALL THAT TIME AND ENERGY SPENT WAS NOT WORTH NOTHING AND THAT IT ALL MEANT SOMETHING.


SO THERES A FEW THOUGHTS THATS BEEN ON MY MIND THE PAST WEEK. WORKS BEEN BUSY WITH MEETINGS AND REPORTS AND WHAT NOT. BESIDES THAT WE ALSO MADE A FOOTBALL TEAM :) SO NOW IM GOING TO BE PLAYING AMERICAN FOOTBALL OR AS I LIKE TO CALL IT "HAND EGG" AND EUROPEAN FOOTBALL OR AS MANY PEOPLE CALL IT "SOCCER" LOL. ALWAYS WANTED TO MAKE A FOOTBALL TEAM BUT NEVER FOUND ENOUGH PLAYER OR GIRLS TO PLAY. SO ME AND A FEW COWORKERS JOINED UP A MENS LEAGUE AND AFTER LOOKING AROUND IT TURNS OUT THERES ENOUGH INTEREST IN PLAYING SO WE MADE OUR OWN TEAM :) ITS GOING TO BE GREAT. ITS ALSO GOING TO BE TIRING... PLAYING BOTH FOOTBALLS IN ONE DAY... YAY... BESIDES ALL THAT NOT MUCH ELSE HAS BEEN GOING ON. WELL TIME TO CALL IT A NIGHT. GOT MORE WORK TO DO TOMORROW... SEEMS LIKE THE WORK NEVER ENDS EH... LOL

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2014 IS FINALLY OVER!!!

WOW!!! JUST WOW!!! ANOTHER YEAR HAS COME AND PAST AND EVERYONE IS ABOUT TO WELCOME IN ANOTHER NEW YEAR. THIS WAS A HUGEEEEEEEEEE YEAR FOR ME!!! LITERALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED AND SO MUCH HAS CHANGED THAT HONESTLY IM SORT OF GLAD THE YEAR IS OVER AND DONE WITH... THE START OF 2014 WAS ROUGH... LIKE REALLY ROUGH... AND IT REALLY DIDNT GET ANY BETTER... BUT... EVENTUALLY... INEVITABLY... LIKE I ALWAYS SAY... WITH TIME... THINGS CAN ONLY GET BETTER... AND IT DID. THINGS TURNED AROUND AND WITH HARD WORK THE YEAR IS ENDING OFF WAY WAY WAYYYYYYY BETTER THAN HOW IT STARTED. SO AS USUAL HERE ARE SOME HIGHLIGHTS OF THE YEAR... IL TRY TO KEEP IT IN ORDER SO YOU CAN SEE IT GOING FROM BAD TO BEST :)

• STARTED THE YEAR OFF WITH AN END TO A RELATIONSHIP
• STUCK IT OUT THROUGH IN A JOB THAT DRAINED ME BOTH MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY... 
• LOST TOUCH WITH SOME FRIENDS, AND SOME CAME AND WENT
• STARTED NEW JOB AND GOT THE OPPORTUNITY TO WORK WITH AN AWESOME GROUP OF PEOPLE
• KEPT UP WITH THE SCHOOLING AND I FINALLY JUST FINISHED THE CERTIFICATE PROGRAM A FEW WEEKS AGO :)
• GREW EVEN CLOSER WITH SOME OF MY FRIENDS, AND MADE NEW ONES TOO
• KEPT UP WITH THE BLOG, AND ACTUALLY HAD MEANINGFUL POSTS ALL OVER THE PLACE
• I DID THIS CHALLENGE WHERE I TRY TO WRITE A JOURNAL FOR EVERY DAY OF THE YEAR... AND IVE DONE IT!!! ALL 365 DAYS ARE FILLED!!! YOU CAN ASK ME WHAT I DID ON ANY DAY OF 2014 AND I CAN TELL YOU!!! LOL YA SOMETIMES I FORGET TO WRITE IT BUT WRITE IT BACK IN THE NEXT DAY SO I WROTE ABOUT EVERY DAY :P HAHA
• LEARNED ALOT ABOUT MYSELF AND WHAT I CAN REALLY DO 
• AND LASTLY... PARTIED MY FACE OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY... I PARTIED SO MUCH IT WASNT EVEN FUNNY... 

AFTER ALL THIS TIME I THINK I AM FINALLY IN A GOOD SPOT... I MEAN... THERE WERE A FEW HICK UPS AND MISTAKES ALONG THE WAY BUT HEY... NO ROAD IS STRAIGHT RIGHT?!?!?!?! I FINALLY KNOW WHAT I WANT AND NOW I KNOW HOW TO GET IT. THERES STILL A FEW THINGS THAT IM WORKING TOWARDS BUT SLOWLY YET SURELY EVERYTHING IS COMING TOGETHER. FAMILY AND FRIENDS WERE THERE THE WHOLE WAY TO SUPPORT ME AND IM THANKFUL FOR THAT. ITS BEEN A BUSY LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS FOR WORK AND LIFE AND ITS ONLY GOING TO GET BUSIER IN THE NEXT FEW MONTHS BUT WITH THAT ALSO COMES OTHER SURPRISES THAT IM WORKING TOWARDS. IL FINALLY HAVE MORE FREE TIME SINCE THE PROGRAM IS DONE BUT IL HAVE LESS TIME ONCE AGAIN. I CAN FINALLY DO WHAT I WANT TO, WHEN I WANT TO, AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING. WHO REALLY KNOWS WHAT 2015 HAS IN STORE FOR ANY OF US ANYWAY... THE FUTURE HAS YET TO BE WRITTEN, WE ARE THE AUTHORS OF OUR OWN STORY. I HAVE LOTS OF BIG PLANS PLANNED FOR THE NEW YEAR AND I HOPE THEY CAN ALL COME TO PASS. 

SO TONIGHT IM JUST GOING TO GO HANG OUT WITH SOME FRIENDS AND HAVE A NICE NIGHT WITH THEM. I DONT EVEN WANT A BIG PARTY OR ANYTHING... JUST TIRED OF IT... THEN AGAIN PROBABLY CAUSE IVE BEEN PARTYING SO MUCH HAHA. IVE SLOWED DOWN BUT THEN SOMEHOW LAST MIN I DECIDED TO GO CONTACT FESTIVAL... AND IT WAS AWESOME. SOMETIMES THOSE ARE THE BEST PLANS... THE PLANS UNMADE HAHA. NEW YEARS THOUGH I JUST LIKE IT CHILL, SO GONNA EAT SOME FOOD, DRINK SOME DRINKS, PLAY SOME GAMES, AND HANG OUT WITH THE FAM. 

AS ONE DOOR CLOSES, A NEW ONE OPENS. AND WITH THAT, I WISH ALL MY READERS AND EVERYONE OUT THERE A HAPPIEST OF NEW YEARS AND SEE YOU ALL NEXT YEAR :) 

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JUST AROUND THE CORNER

WELL... THE TIMES FINALLY COME :) IN JUST A FEW SHORT DAY I WILL SEE IF ALL THIS HARD WORK HAS PAID OFF. LICENSING EXAM IS SCHEDULED FOR MONDAY. IM EXCITED AND THERE IS QUITE A BIT TO GO OVER STILL. I READ EVERYTHING AND NOW IM READING THIS OTHER THING AND I JUST REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT THEY WILL ASK. I GUESS THATS WEHRE ALL THE HANDS ON EXPERIENCE WILL HELP... I HOPE. SO TODAY THE COWORKER LEFT AND BRIEFED MY BOSS AND I ON EVERYTHING THATS HAPPENING... THERE QUITE A BIT TO DO ON TOP OF THE STUFF IM ALREADY DOING LOL... THIS IS GOING TO BE INTERESTING LOL NO BIGGIE EH. JUST CANT WAIT TIL I GET THIS OVER WITH!!! ACTUALLY ONCE THIS IS OVER WITH I START MY LAST HR COURSE AS WELL... SOOO SOMEHOW SCHOOL CONTINUES... I REALLY NEED TO STOP GOING TO SCHOOL LOL. THEN AGAIN NEVER STOP LEARNING EH... HAHA. I REALLY CANT WAIT TIL THIS IS OVER ALSO CAUSE THERES SOME PARTIES LINED UP TOO LOL. WHICH IS FUNNY... SINCE SOMEHOW I ENDED UP AT ANDREW RAYEL THE PAST WEEKEND... YA... THAT WAS A BLURRY NIGHT... LETS JUST SAY I HAVENT PARTIED IN A WHILE AND I WENT A LITTLE BIT TOO HARD... TO ALL THOSE WHO I TRIED TO REPLY... YOU KNOW WHAT I MEANT... WELL... NOT WHAT I MEANT BUT THAT YOU KNOW I WAS NOT SOBER CAUSE MY REPLIES WERE INCOHERENT LOLOLOL :) 

SO YA... THE MINI FRIDGE WE HAVE AT WORK IS SMALL AND THE FREEZER PART IS COVERED IN ICE FROM ALL THE OPENING AND CLOSING AND STUFF SO THE ICE IS BUILT UP REALLY BIG... IT PROB HASNT BEEN CLEARED IN A YEAR... ANYWAYS ITS TO THE POINT WHERE THE FRONT DOOR COULDNT CLOSE... SO I GOT MY TRUSTY FRIEND... MR. HAMMER AND MR. CHISEL TO CHISEL IT :) IT WAS GOING REALLY GOOD... UNTIL SOMEONE... AND STRESS SOMEEEEEEEEONEEEEEEEEEEEE ACCIDENTALLY HIT IT TOO HARD AND CRACKED A THE METAL THINGY AND ALL OF A SUDDEN GAS STARTED SHOOTING EVERYWHERE!!! I FIND OUT LATER ITS FREON SO ITS NOT THAT BAD FOR YOU... BUT YOURE NOT SUPPOSE TO BREATHE IT IN FOR LIKE MINS ON END... HAHA. SOOOOO AFTER THAT I DID SOME GOOGLING ON WHAT THE GAS WAS AND WHETHER THE THE MINI FRIDGE IS STILL OK... BASICALLY I KILLED IT... SEE I WOULD HAVE DEFROSTED IT OVER THE WEEKEND OR MELTED IT SOMEHOW BUT WE DONT HAVE A SINK IN THE OFFICE... OR SOME PLACE WHERE WE COULD PUT IT WITHOUT IT BEING TAKEN OR LEFT IN THE OPEN... SO THE FUN PART WAS TELLING MY BOSS I BROKE THE FRIDGE HAHA. LONG STORY SHORT... WE GOT A NEW FRIDGE :) AND ITS AMAZING!!! IL SHOW YOU ALL NEXT TIME HAHA. THE FRIDGE AND THE FREEZER IS SEPERATED OMG!!! AND IT HAS A SCRAPER FOR THE ICE!!! AHHHHH :) WE WERE ALL JUST TALKING AND IT WAS BECAUSE THE CHAIR I WAS SITTING ON BROKE, THAT WE GOT NEW CHAIRS... IT WAS BECAUSE I BROKE THE FRIDGE, THAT WE GOT A NEW FRIDGE... SOOOO WHAT DO WE WANT NEXT??? LOL I SAID I NEED A NEW MONITOR LOL WHICH I JUST SORTA SWAPPED OUT FROM THE COWORKER THAT JUST LEFT, BUT WE COULD USE A NEW MICROWAVE TOO I SUPPOSE HEHE.

IT WAS MY BEST BUDDIES BDAY OVER THE WEEKEND SO WE JUST HAD A NICE DINNER WITH THE CLOSE FRIENDS AND MAN IT WAS A GOOD DINNER. IT HAD EVERYTHING WE WANTED. THEN WENT TO DRUNKEN SING K :) ANOTHER BUDDIE AND I SUNG LIKE 3 ALBUMS WORTH OF LINKIN PARK SINCE OTHER PEOPLE WERE TOO BUSY DRINKING HAHA. IN THE END (PUN INTENDED) MY THROAT WAS SHOT AND I WAS BEAT HAHA.

BOX O SUSHI :)

FREE ICE CREAM AT WORK :) WOOOO

SCORE!!!

YA... FRIDGE A LITTLE ICED UP...

AFTER I CHISELLED IT... AND BROKE IT... LOL SEE THAT TINY CRACK IN THE MIDDLE... YA... 

NEW RAMEN PLACE

NICE ART DECO

MISO RAMEN... HMMM NOTHING SPECIAL... PORK WAS REALLY THIN AND NOODLES WERE NOTHING SPECIAL... EGG WAS OVERDONE AND NO SEAWEED :(

YOURE MINE!!! LOL

HEHE AWWW YEAHHH

CRAB CLAW

MY BUDDIES EPIC ONE PIECE CAKE

ANDREW RAYEL :)

VEGGIE BBQ PORK OR SOMETHING MEAT :) 

GREEN TEA CAKE MMMMMMMM SO GOOD

TIRAMISU HEHE

SESAME LOL

I REALLY HAVENT WRITTEN ABOUT THOUGHTFUL STUFF LATELY... BUT THATS CAUSE IVE BEEN BUSY WITH WORK AND STUDYING. THAT ALL SHOULD CHANGE SHORTLY... I HOPE. WITH THAT SAID I REALLY WANT TO START WRITING ABOUT THOUGHT PROVOKING IDEAS AND TOPICS.

I WILL SAY HOWEVER SHOWS ARE BACK SO YAY!!! I HAVE A FEW SHOWS TO WATCH HAHA AND IM STILL BURNING THROUGH NARUTO WHICH IM ABOUT TO BE CAUGHT UP ON... SOOO NEW SERIES HERE I COME :)

ONE THING I FORGOT TO MENTION IS THAT YOU MIGHT HAVE NOTICED THE PICTURES ARE REALLY CLEAR AND SHARP THESE DAYS... WELL THATS BECAUSE ITS TAKEN WITH MY NEW SAMSUNG GALAXY S5 :) WOOT WOOT. ITS SO CLEAR AND CRISP EXCEPT WHEN I MOVED... LOL BUT YOU WILL NOW BE ABLE TO ENJOY HIGH QUALITY PICS HAHA.

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THAT TIME OF THE YEAR AGAIN

WELL... IT SEEMS THAT ITS THAT TIME OF YEAR AGAIN... NO, NOT CHRISTMAS... BUT BIRTHDAY. HONESTLY ITS TRUE... THE OLDER YOU GET THE LESS YOU CARE AND THE MORE YOU STRESS HAHA. I SEEM FINE BUT SOME OF MY OTHER BUDDIES STARTING TO HIT THAT AGE WHERE ITS LIKE YA... UMMM LETS NOT REMIND EACH OTHER HAHA. DAYS GO BY AND EVENTUALLY WE END BACK UP HERE. SO ALMOST ANOTHER 365 DAYS HAS PAST AND GONE AND I MUST SAY THAT THIS YEAR SURE WAS AN INTERESTING ONE... THROUGH EVERYTHING THAT IVE DONT AND GONE THROUGH IVE FINALLY ARRIVED AT A PLACE THAT MAKES ME HAPPY. SO I GUESS HERES SOME HIGHLIGHTS FROM LAST BIRTHDAY TIL THIS ONE:

• FOUND A JOB, LEFT THAT JOB... LOL
• GOT THE JOB THAT I NOW LOVE
• GOT CLOSER WITH MY FRIENDS
• MET NEW PEOPLE
• HAD A RELATIONSHIP
• KEPT WITH THE HR PROGRAM
• GOT TO KNOW MYSELF BETTER
• THINGS FINALLY COMING TOGETHER
• PARTIED SO FREAKING HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I MEAN THERES LOTS MORE BUT JUST THE HIGHLIGHTS. IM HAPPY FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED THIS YEAR AND ONCE AGAIN ITS BECAUSE OF IT THAT IT HAS BROUGHT ME TO THE PLACE THAT I AM TODAY. IM FINALLY AT A PLACE WHERE I CAN DO WHAT I WANT AND NEED TO GET DONE. JUST A LITTLE BIT MORE TIME AND IL FINALLY GET IT ALL LOL.

SO HOWS THE MONTH GOING SO FAR? WELL I WAS BEHIND SCHEDULE FOR A BIT BUT THE LONG WEEKEND ALLOWED ME TO CATCH UP. I LITERALLY DID SO MUCH WORK DURING THE WEEKEND I COULDNT BELIEVE IT. CAUGHT UP A LOT BUT STILL HAVE A LOT TO DO TO BE PREPARED. LIKE I SAID YOU GOTTA DO WHAT YOU GOTTA DO, AND CAUSE OF IT I REALLY AM NOT GOING OUT MUCH THIS MONTH. KEEP ON GRINDING. AUGUST IS THE WORST MONTH TOO CAUSE I HAVE SO MANY OF MY FRIENDS BDAYS AND MINE AND NOT TO MENTION THE FACT ITS AUGUST... BUT HEY, KEEP YOUR EYE ON THE PRIZE, STARING AT THAT FINISH LINE. THENNNNNN I CAN DO WHAT I WANT LOL. WORKS BEEN BUSY, BEEN RUNNING AROUND ALL THE TIME. JUST TODAY I WAS ALL OVER THE PLACE AND ITS ALSO HOT TOO... OH AND I WASNT EVEN IN MY OWN CAR CAUSE THATS IN THE SHOP FOR CHECK UP SOOO IM USING A COURTESY CAR AND DAM... ITS UMMM BEATED UP LOL. 

I CANT BELIEVE I HAVENT PARTIED LATELY!!! OMG!!! ITS UNBELIEVABLE!!! JUST PARTIED OUT... FOR NOW I GUESS HAHA. ALSO GOTTA FOCUS ON WHAT I NEED TO GET DONE RIGHT NOW. I GUESS THATS WHY THERES NOT MUCH TO WRITE ABOUT... WELL THERE ARE TOPICS I WANNA WRITE ABOUT BUT MEH YOU KNOW... LOL MAYBE IL WRITE IT AFTERALL LOLOLOL. ACTUALLY I THINK I WROTE ABOUT THIS ALREADY... OR ON SOME SIMILAR LINE. WELL IL JUST SAY IT AGAIN THEN :) THE THINGS YOU DO IN LIFE IS ALWAYS A TRADE OFF. EITHER TO DO THIS OR TO DO THAT. TO GET THIS OR TO GET THAT. ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS. LIKE RIGHT NOW WELL IM TRADING OF PARTYING AND HAVING FUN TO STUDY AND PASS MY LICENSING... WHICH LEADS TO LOTS OF FUTURE PARTYING LOL. SOME TRADE OFF HAPPINESS FOR MONEY AND OTHERS TRADE OFF TIME FOR OTHERS. EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS A TRADE OFF. IT JUST DEPENDS WEATHER OR NOT YOU ARE TRADING OFF THE RIGHT THING FOR THE OTHER. WHICH LEADS ME TO ASK CAN YOU REALLY HAVE IT ALL??? I THINK SO... I MEAN PERSONALLY I WOULD NEVER SETTLE. WHO WOULD? AND I SUGGEST YOU NEVER SETTLE EITHER. YOU DESERVE THE BEST SO WHY NOT REACH FOR IT. IT MIGHT TAKE YOU LONGER THAN EXPECTED BUT SOONER OR LATER, EVENTUALLY IT WILL APPEAR BEFORE YOU, IF YOU HAVE THE DRIVE AND WANT FOR IT. THATS WHAT HAPPENED TO ME, I GOT TO ONE POINT IN MY LIFE WHERE I WANT. WITH THAT SAID ALWAYS KEEP MOVING FORWARD, ALWAYS KEEP SEARCHING, NEVER GIVE UP, NEVER SURRENDER :) SO I GUESS I DID END UP TALKING ABOUT IT HAHA.  

NOMSSSSS LOL

MY BLACK PEN BROKE :( NOW IM USING A BABY BLUE ONE LOL

ANTS GOING CRAZY OVER... CANDY??? WHATEVER THAT THING IS LOL

XLB!!!

MMMM FATTY THINGY YUMMMM

DEEP FRIED CHICKEN HEHE

BIG CAN OF FROZEN ICE TEA AND ORGANIC BEER. IT WAS REALLY COLD... LIKE FROZEN ICED COLD AND I COULDNT EVEN REALLY HOLD IT LONG TO TAKE A PIC HAHAHAHA

CHURCHES COUPON FOR BOGO SPICY CHICKEN THIGH AND DOUBLE YOUR ORDER FOR JALAPEÑO BOMBERS OMG THE BURGER IS HOT HEHE BUT GOOOOD 

HEY LITTLE... WELL... NOT REALLY LITTLE... JUST THERE... HAHA

THE INFAMOUS LA CHICKEN... NOTHING REALLY SPECIAL... I DONT GET IT... IT WAS OK

HONESTLY, IVE GROWN A LOT AND MATURED A LOT THIS YEAR. IVE ALSO BEEN TOLD THAT BY PEOPLE I SEE RARELY. YOU GET TO A POINT WHERE YOU JUST HAVE TO CHANGE. THE VIEWS YOU TAKE JUST SHIFT. I GUESS IT ALSO HAS TO DO WITH YOUR PRIORITIES AND GOALS. I STILL HAVE A LOT OF GOALS I WANT TO BE ABLE TO ACHIEVE. 

SO I WAS TAKING A BREAK THE OTHER DAY AND GUESS WHAT I STARTED WATCHING AGAIN??? NARUTO SHIPPUDEN!!!!!!!!!!! LOL THIS TIME IM SKILLING ALL THE FILLERS AND GOING STRAIGHT TO THE MAIN STORYLINE. BURNING THROUGH IT PRETTY FAST ACTUALLY, BUT STILL GOT OVER 150 EPS SO THATS GOOD LOL. I WONDER HOW MANY ARE FILLERS THOUGH... SHOULD REALLY CHECK HOW MANY IN THE MAIN ARC... LOL. I GUESS WHEN I RUN OUT I CAN GO BACK TO BLEACH AND FAIRY TAIL LOL. 

OH AND WHAT AM I DOING FOR MY BDAY YOU MIGHT HAVE ASKED? WELL FRIDAY FAMILY DINNER AS USUAL, SOME OF MY FRIENDS WANT TO GET ME DRUNK BUT LIKE MANY OF YOU KNOW... I DONT DRINK... WELL I DONT LIKE IT HAHA. YA FUNNY EH CAUSE I ALWAYS PARTY TOO. JUST ENOUGH DRINKING TO HAVE FUN AND NOT GET SLOSHED HAHA. SO FRIDAY IS STILL UP IN THE AIR AND IL JUST WING IT... OR MAYBE COME HOME AND STUDY :) SATURDAY IM GONNA STUDY FOR SURE!!! UNLESS IM HUNGOVER... LOL BUT YA SATURDAY NIGHT DINNER WITH MY FRIENDS. I NEVER LIKED BIG PARTIES AND HONESTLY I REALLY RATHER JUST HAVE A NICE SMALL DINNER. THATS WHAT I LIKE LOL ONCE AGAIN FUNNY BECAUSE I LIKE TO PARTY SO I BUT I ONLY WANT A SMALL PARTY FOR MY OWN BDAY... AFTER DINNER??? SOMETHING RANDOM LIKE GOOD OLD BOWLING!!! HAHA BUT WE SHALL SEE ABOUT THAT. USUALLY WE END UP MAKING BETS AND 1 BET THATS ALWAYS BEEN STANDING IS WHOEVER BEATS ME IN BOWLING, IL DRINK. THAT USUALLY IS ABLE TO LIMIT ME TO 1... OR 2... DRINK HEHE. WOOOO :) SO WE SHALL SEE CAUSE I REALLY WANTED TO GO ARCHERY TAG AND SHOOT MY FRIENDS IN THE HEAD... BUT DONT THINK THATS GONNA HAPPEN NOW... HAHA MAYBE NEXT TIME ;)

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RIDE OX FIND HORSE

NO I HAVENT GONE CRAZY... OR AT LEAST NO MORE THAN NORMAL... LOL. TO SOME I SUPPOSE THE TITLE IS A LITTLE ODD SOUNDING BUT IF YOUR ARE CHINESE OR MORE SPECIFICALLY CANTONESE THEN DO A STRAIGHT TRANSLATION AND YOU WILL GET IT. FOR EVERYONE ELSE LET ME CLARIFY THIS A BIT BETTER... RIDE OX FIND HORSE SHOULD BE WRITTEN MORE LIKE TO RIDE AN OX LOOKING FOR A HORSE WHICH IS A CHINESE PROVERB WHICH MEANS WORK THE JOB YOU HAVE WHILE LOOKING FOR A BETTER ONE. MUCH CLEARER EH? HAHA. I GUESS THIS POST ALSO TIES INTO A FEW OTHERS... MOSTLY THE PART ABOUT DREAMS AND ALWAYS TRYING TO DO BETTER AND GET BETTER AND TO GO TO BETTER PLACES. 

BEEN THINKING LATELY AND THERES SO MUCH I WANT TO DO AND JUST SO LITTLE TIME. IVE BEEN SAYING THAT THERES A BUNCH OF STUFF THAT I WANT TO DO AND THAT I WAS GOING TO SHARE SOME OF THE LIST WITH YOU ALL... I GUESS THIS IS AS GOOD AS TIME AS ANY... AT 3:45AM... LOL. SO HERES A LITTLE LIST OF THE STUFF I WANT TO GET DONE:

• LEARN DUTCH
• LEARN RUSSIAN
• LEARN GERMAN
• LEARN TO SURF
• TRAVEL THE WORLD
• CLIMB UP A MOUNTAIN (NO NOT THOSE EASY ONES OR THE ONES YOU SNOWBOARD)
• DIVE DEEP INTO AN OCEAN (SCUBA DIVE AND SNORKEL TOO)
• GO ON A SAFARI
• LEARN TO PLAY THE VIOLIN
• JUST DISAPPEAR FOR A WHILE

SO THIS IS JUST A LIST OF STUFF THAT I WANT TO DO NOW... THESE ARE THE REALISTIC ONES LOL. OF COURSE THERES TONS MORE THAT I COULD SHARE... BUT I DONT FEEL LIKE IT HAHA. I MEAN THOSE "WHAT I WANT TO DO" IS MORE OF THE WHERE I WANT TO GO AND WHAT I WANT TO BE... IN LIFE "TO DO" LIST. 

ANYWAYS... WHAT WAS I TALKING ABOUT... OH YES... JOB. WELL WHAT CAN I SAY. JUST RIDING AN OX LOOKING FOR A HORSE, WAITING FOR THAT BETTER THING TO COME. TRYING TO MAKE THINGS HAPPEN BUT SOMETIMES ITS JUST OUTSIDE OF YOUR CONTROL. ANOTHER PROBLEM IS DONT WE ALL BELIEVE WE DESERVE BETTER? WE DO DONT WE? I MEAN THATS WHAT WE ALL WANT. NONE OF US JUST EVER WANT TO SETTLE... BUT SOMETIMES YOU JUST HAVE TO TAKE WHATS GIVEN TO YOU... UNTIL THE DAY COMES WHEN YOU FINALLY GET WHAT YOU WANT. AS ALWAYS THE COMPANIES THAT YOU WANT TO WORK FOR OR THE JOB YOU WANT... THEY MIGHT NOT WANT YOU... YOU KNOW YOU WILL DO GREAT IN THAT POSITION BUT THEY NEVER GIVE YOU THE CHANCE, THEY NEVER CALL YOU FOR THE INTERVIEW AND THEY NEVER WILL KNOW HOW AWESOME YOU COULD BE. I DONT KNOW... I MEAN SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE... SOMETHING HAS TO GIVE... WE ALL CANT JUST GO DAY IN AND DAY OUT... THIS ISNT LIFE... THIS ISNT WHAT ITS SUPPOSE TO BE ABOUT... IS IT??? CAN IT??? SHOULD IT??? WELL... I GUESS ITS BACK TO THE PART I HATE MOST... WAITING... NO CHOICE BUT TO WAIT AND SEE.

MMMM SUSHI :)

YA... STUDYING AND EATING PIZZA AND CHEESE BREAD LOL

WINGS ROUND 1

WINGS ROUND 2

NOW THATSSSSSSSS LOADED WITH SALT LOL

INCEPTION YO!!! OF A COOKIE 

MY ASIAN PLATES LOL AND LUNCH...

PIZZA WITH CHOPSTICKS!!! THATS HOW I ROLL LOL

OH I HAD AN ONLINE MT... WE HAD 2 DAYS TO DO IT... HONESTLY I RATHER DO IT IN CLASS... I WOULD PROBABLY WRITE LESS AND GET A BETTER GRADE LOL. I MEAN THE TEACHER KNOWS THAT YOU ARE PRESSED FOR TIME SO THE QUALITY MIGHT BE A LITTLE LOWER... BUTTTTTTTT WITH MORE TIME SHE EXPECTS IT TO BE OF A HIGHER QUALITY... ALSO LONGER LOL. OH WELL. I HAVE MY OTHER PART OF MY MT TOMORROW AND INSTEAD OF STUDYING I WATCHED SOME TV AND WROTE THIS HAHA. IL BE OK CAUSE ALL I HAVE TO DO IS JUST LOOK OVER A FEW THINGS AND IM GOOD.

SO THIS POST WAS MORE OF THE REGULAR RAMBLINGS OF ME... BACK TO THE OLD STYLE IN A WAY... MOSTLY CAUSE IVE BEEN THINKING LATELY... THINKING ABOUT LIFE AND THE CHOICES I MADE... NOT EVEN GOING TO START ON WRITING ABOUT THAT CAUSE THERES NEVER GOING TO BE ENOUGH CAPS LOCK FOR THAT HAHA. YA... SO LETS JUST LEAVE THAT TOPIC FOR SAY... NEVER!!! HAHA. SOMETIMES I JUST WISH I COULD DO WHAT I LIKE... BUT THAT DOESNT PAY THE BILLS... OH WELL... BACK TO THE GRIND... BACK TO THE OX UNTIL I FIND THAT FREAKING HORSE LOL :)

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