TOO MANY IDEAS...

WELL HERES A SURPRISE... QUITE IRONIC ACTUALLY... LAST WEEK I WAS OUT OF IDEAS, THIS WEEK I HAVE TOO MANY... NOW I DONT KNOW TO WRITE ABOUT... I GUESS IL JUST WRITE A BIT ABOUT A FEW... SOME TOPICS WILL PROBABLY OVERLAP WITH ALL THE OTHER STUFF THAT I HAVE WRITTEN IN THE PAST BUT MEH... ITS MY BLOG AND IL WRITE ABOUT WHATEVER I FEEL LIKE WRITING ABOUT :)

ASPECTS OF LIFE
FOR ME THIS IS THE WEIRD THING... IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS... ONE ASPECT OF MY LIFE WILL BE GOING WELL AND ANOTHER WILL ALWAYS BE GOING POORLY. THATS JUST THE BALANCE OF LIFE... CANT FORCE AND CANT DO MUCH ABOUT IT. KARMA IS BIG ON THIS. THERE HAS TO BE A BALANCE. THEN WHILE TRYING TO TIP THE BALANCE TO ANOTHER ASPECT OF MY LIFE, A DIFFERENT PART OF LIFE WILL ALWAYS SURELY FALL... ITS JUST THE NATURAL ORDER OF THINGS. YOU CANT HAVE IT GOING WELL IN ALL ASPECTS BUT YOU CAN MOST DEFINITIVELY HAVE ALL ASPECTS GOING BADLY. MURPHYS LAW ALL THE WAY. WHILE SEEKING TO MAKE ONE ASPECT BETTER, YOU LOSE SIGHT OF WHAT WAS REALLY IN FRONT OF YOU, WHAT REALLY MATTERED, AND WHEN YOU REALIZE IT... ITS TOO LATE. THEN WHEN YOU TRY TO GO BACK TO IT... THE DAMAGE IS DONE OR EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED SO MUCH THAT THE ASPECT NO LONGER EXIST. I AM ALWAYS TRYING TO GET TO THAT BETTER SPOT, AND I FINALLY THERE, FINALLY IN A PLACE WHERE ONE ASPECT IS GOING WELL, BUT LOOKING BACK I REALIZE SOMETHING IS DIFFERENT, SOMETHING CHANGED, SOMETHING LOST. AT LEAST NOW KNOWING THAT I CAN TRY TO GET THAT OTHER ASPECT BACK AND BALANCE IT BACK OUT. THIS TIES INTO MY THOUGHTS ON TRADE-OFFS, YOU ALL KNOW HOW I FEEL AND ITS TRUE. EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS A TRADE-OFF, EVERYTHING YOU DO IS A TRADE-OFF. ITS JUST A MATTER OF WHAT YOU ARE TRADING OFF.

REALIST
TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE AS WELL... OR MAYBE NOT BUT WHO KNOWS THESE DAYS... A LOT OF POSTS WILL OVERLAP AND THAT CANT BE HELPED. I USE TO BE A DREAMER, THEN A OPTIMIST, AND NOW A REALIST. I KNOW WHATS POSSIBLE AND WHATS NOT EVEN FEASIBLE. IM NOT JADED... WELL SORTA... BUT IM MORE OF A GUY THAT HAS SEEN ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT IN THE END EVERYONE IS LOOKING OUT FOR #1... YOURSELF. ITS TRUE AND DONT EVEN TRY TO ARGUE WITH ME ON THIS BECAUSE YOU WILL LOSE. IF YOU REALLY WANT TO THEN TALK TO ME ABOUT THIS IN REAL LIFE BECAUSE IT CAN GO ON FOREVER. I DONT SEE A POINT IN CARING ANYMORE... NOT TO SAY THAT I DONT CARE BUT MORE THAT IF IT DOESNT AFFECT ME THEN IT DOESNT REALLY MATTER. THINGS ARE THE WAY THEY ARE. THERES NOTHING MORE TO IT. AFTER THEY ARE DONE, THERES NO POINT IN ANYTHING AFTER IT.

LETTING GO / MOVING ON
EVERYONE AT ONE POINT IN THEIR LIVES HAS COME TO THE CONCLUSION OF HAVING TO LET GO OF SOMETHING OR SOMEONE, TO MOVE ON AND MOVE PAST WHAT HAS HAPPENED. THE QUESTION IS HOW DO YOU... EVERYONE HAS A DIFFERENT WAY OF DOING THAT OR COPING WITH IT. SOME PEOPLE GET DRUNK, SOME PEOPLE EXERCISE, SOME PEOPLE WORK, AND OTHERS JUST DO WHATEVER THEY CAN TO STOP THINKING ABOUT IT OR DWELLING ON IT. THE ONLY CONSTANT THAT DETERMINES HOW LONG IT TAKES IS TIME... TIME DETERMINES EVERYTHING. THERES ALSO STAGES... THAT EVERYONE GOES THROUGH BEFORE BEING ABLE TO LET GO AND MOVE ON. IT JUST HAPPENS OVER TIME... THE PAIN GOES AWAY... THE MEMORIES FADE... THE FEELINGS CHANGE... EVENTUALLY SLOWLY YET SURELY YOU WILL LOOK BACK ONE DAY AND REALIZE THAT YOURE NO LONGER WHERE YOU WERE BEFORE, AND THAT YOURE AT A BETTER PLACE NOW, AND WONDER HOW YOU WERE EVER AT THAT POINT. AS USUAL... EVERYTHING TAKES TIME...

WHY... WHY NOT...
IM ALWAYS ASKED THIS QUESTION... WHY... WHY THIS... WHY THAT... WHY... WHY... WHY AND THE ANSWER IS SIMPLE... WHY NOT. YOU NEVER HAVE TO HAVE REASON TO DO ANYTHING. NO ONE CAN TELL YOU WHAT TO DO. WHO CARES IN THE END ANYWAYS. THE ONLY PERSON THAT WOULD CARE IS YOURSELF. SO DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY AND DONT CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE SAY OR DO. IN THE END ITS YOU LIVING YOUR LIFE AND NOT THEM. 

FOCUS / GOALS
EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE A GOAL OR SOMETHING TO FOCUS ON. A FINISH LINE OF WHERE YOU WANT TO BE OR SOMETHING YOU WANT TO ACCOMPLISH. IT GIVES YOU SOMETHING TO DIRECT YOUR ENERGY INTO. YOU DONT WANT TO JUST STAY STAGNANT... YOU ALWAYS WANT TO STRIVE FOR SOMETHING BETTER, SOMETHING THAT GIVES YOU THAT MEANING YOU ARE SEARCHING FOR. SOMETHING TO SHOW THAT ALL THAT TIME AND ENERGY SPENT WAS NOT WORTH NOTHING AND THAT IT ALL MEANT SOMETHING.


SO THERES A FEW THOUGHTS THATS BEEN ON MY MIND THE PAST WEEK. WORKS BEEN BUSY WITH MEETINGS AND REPORTS AND WHAT NOT. BESIDES THAT WE ALSO MADE A FOOTBALL TEAM :) SO NOW IM GOING TO BE PLAYING AMERICAN FOOTBALL OR AS I LIKE TO CALL IT "HAND EGG" AND EUROPEAN FOOTBALL OR AS MANY PEOPLE CALL IT "SOCCER" LOL. ALWAYS WANTED TO MAKE A FOOTBALL TEAM BUT NEVER FOUND ENOUGH PLAYER OR GIRLS TO PLAY. SO ME AND A FEW COWORKERS JOINED UP A MENS LEAGUE AND AFTER LOOKING AROUND IT TURNS OUT THERES ENOUGH INTEREST IN PLAYING SO WE MADE OUR OWN TEAM :) ITS GOING TO BE GREAT. ITS ALSO GOING TO BE TIRING... PLAYING BOTH FOOTBALLS IN ONE DAY... YAY... BESIDES ALL THAT NOT MUCH ELSE HAS BEEN GOING ON. WELL TIME TO CALL IT A NIGHT. GOT MORE WORK TO DO TOMORROW... SEEMS LIKE THE WORK NEVER ENDS EH... LOL

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AMAZING START TO THE YEAR!!!

WELL AFTER LAST WEEKS POST I WENT TO SLEEP AND WOKE UP EARLY TO GO TO MY EXAM. WHILE DRIVING I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO FOCUSED IN MY LIFE!!! I SO WAS READY TO GO INTO THE EXAM AND DESTROY IT. I GO IN AND I GET MYSELF READY, THEN THE LADY COMES TO SIGN ME INTO THE COMPUTER AND SHE TELLS ME THAT I CANT USE MY OWN PERSONAL PEN OR PENCIL FOR THE EXAM AND THAT I NEED TO USE THE PROVIDED ONE... SO SHE TOOK IT AND SAID THAT I COULD PICK IT UP FROM THE FRONT DESK WHEN I FINISH MY EXAM. I WENT THROUGH THE EXAM 3 TIMES TO MAKE SURE I WAS GOOD BUT AFTERWARDS COUNTING UP THE ONES THAT I WASNT SURE ABOUT... MADE ME A LITTLE BIT UNSURE AS WELL... LOL. ANYWAYS... FAST FORWARD 3 HOURS LATER... I FINISH AND GO TO CLAIM MY PEN AND PENCIL... SHE SAYS ITS RIGHT THERE... NO... ITS NOT... WTF... ITS NOT ON THE SIDE... ITS NOT IN THE BOX... ITS NOT IN THE DRAWER... ITS NOT IN THE CASE... ITS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND... WTF!>!?!@>?!#>$??@?! SOMEONE STOLE MY FREAKING PEN AND PENCIL!!!!!!!!!! WHAT IS THIS!!!!!!!!!! OMG... SO ONLY 3 PEOPLE LEFT THE EXAM BEFORE ME AND THEY SAID WOULD YOU LIKE US TO CALL THEM TO CHECK... OF COURSE I WANT YOU TO CHECK!!! YOURE THE REASON WHY ITS GONE!!! 2 OF THEM PICK UP AND SAID THEY DONT HAVE IT BUT THE THIRD PERSON DIDNT ANSWER... THAT MEANS ITS HIM!!!!! HE STOLE MY AMAZING PEN AND PENCIL!!!!!!!!!! SIGH... :( I LEFT DETAILED DESCRIPTION REGARDING THE PEN AND PENCIL AND TOLD THEM TO CALL ME... WHICH THEY HAVENT SOOO BASICALLY ITS GONE :( ITS THE JAPANESE STYLE BLUE GEL INK PEN THATS SUPER SMOOTH. THE PENCIL IS ANOTHER JAPANESE MECHANICAL LED PENCIL WITH GRIP... THAT... I... ACCIDENTALLY ON PURPOSE LEFT WITH FROM SOMEWHERE OVER 5 YEARS AGO LOLOL YES YES... BASICALLY SOMEONE STOLE THE PENCIL I STOLE HAHA. WELL THATS KARMA FOR YOU EH BUT MY PENS GONE... OH WELL. ANYWAYS THATS NOT THE MAIN POINT HERE... I THINK I DID WELL... I HOPE I DID WELL... I REALLY HAD NO CHOICE... I HAD TO MAKE IT!!! SO AT WORK FRIDAY IT WAS THE MOMENT OF TRUTH... I FINALLY CHECKED IT ANDDDDDDDDDDDDD WOOOOOOOOO :) I PASSED LOL ALL THAT HARD WORK FINALLY PAID OFF!!! ITS LIKE A WEIGHT WAS FINALLY LIFTED... YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH PRESSURE YOU PUT ON YOURSELF TO GET SOMETHING YOU WANT... IT TAKES SO MUCH OUT OF YOU JUST TO TRY AND GET IT AND THE FEELINGS AMAZING FINALLY GETTING TO THE POINT THAT YOU WANT. OH YA AND WITH THIS I ALSO GOT PROMOTED AT WORK!!! :) WOOOOO I AM HAVING A GREAT START TO THE NEW YEAR :)

NOW THAT IVE FINISH ALL THIS AND EVERYTHING ELSE I CAN FINALLY START DOING EVERYTHING ELSE THAT I WANT :) THIS WAS ONLY 1 OF THE MANY THINGS I HAVE ON MY LIST OF THINGS TO TRY AND ACCOMPLISH THIS YEAR, BUT YOU ALWAYS NEED TO MAKE THE FIRST STEP IN GOING FORWARD TO ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING. THIS WAS THE LAST SCHOOLING THAT I WILL EVER EVER FREAKING DO!!! NEVER!!! NO MORE!!! THATS IT!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL NEVER GO BACK TO SCHOOL EVER AGAIN............!!!!!!!!!!!! UNLESS... I END UP BEING SOOOOO SMART AND GOING BACK TO LEARN SOMETHING ELSE... WHY DO I KEEP DOING THIS TO MYSELF... MEH MAYBE I JUST LOVE BEING IN SCHOOL... THAT CANT BE IT... MORE LIKE I JUST LOVE PUTTING MYSELF THROUGH THE PAIN OF LEARNING LOL. WELL... I DO WANNA LEARN DUTCH AND GERMAN AND RUSSIAN... SOOO I GUESS THATS NEXT ON THE LIST OF THINGS TO GO TO SCHOOL FOR HAHA. IVE BEEN TO ALL THE BIG 3 SCHOOLS IN THIS TOWN... SO LETS SEE WHATS NEXT EH... HAHA. NOW, TIME TO GO AND ENJOY MYSELF AND DO WHAT I WANT TO DO... LIKE CATCH UP ON ALL MY TV SHOWS THAT IVE BEEN NEGLECTING FOR THE PAST MONTHS HAHA. REST OF MY LIFE??? JUST HANGING OUT WITH FRIENDS AND ENJOYING MYSELF. COULDNT ASK FOR ANYTHING BETTER :)

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