WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

OKAY... SO I HAD LIKE 3 IDEAS FOR TOPIC THIS WEEK BUT THEN I SORTA FORGOT ABOUT THEM AND I DONT REALLY FEEL LIKE WRITING ABOUT WHAT I HAVE ON MY MIND SO THATS SAVED FOR ANOTHER DAY... UNTIL I FORGET ABOUT IT AGAIN HAHA. ANYWAYS... THIS HAS BEEN TOUCHED UPON IN THE PAST BUT LATELY ITS BEEN COMING BACK INTO MY HEAD AND IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT QUITE A BIT. SO WHAT DO YOU WANT? I MEAN WHAT DO I WANT? THATS THE HARDEST QUESTION TO ANSWER. IVE HAD AN IDEA OF WHAT I WANT FOR THE LONGEST TIME BUT THINGS KEEP HAPPENING AND CHANGING THAT WHAT I WANT KEEPS CHANGING ALONG WITH IT. RIGHT NOW, WHAT IS IT THAT I REALLY WANT? I DONT THINK THERES REALLY ANYTHING I REALLY WANT EXCEPT WHERE I REALLY WANT TO GET TO. EVERYTHING I WANT IS MORE OF THE MATERIALISTIC THING BUT DONT EVERYONE WANT MATERIALISTIC THINGS? THATS REALLY WANT WE WANT, BUT WHAT DO WE REALLY NEED? SOME PEOPLE WANT NICE CARS AND A BIG HOUSE BUT DO WE REALLY NEED IT? WHAT I REALLY WANT IS TO BE IN THE POSITION I WANT, DOING WHAT I WANT, AND NOT ANSWERING TO ANYONE. IM WORKING ON THAT BUT LATELY IT JUST SEEMS LIKE ITS BEEN GETTING PUSHED FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY. THE MOTIVATION AND DETERMINATION IS STILL THERE, JUST THAT THE TIME AND ENERGY IS NOT. BETWEEN WORK, LIFE, FAMILY, AND ALL THE RANDOM STUFF I DO IN BETWEEN, I DONT HAVE TIME TO PUT MYSELF IN THE PLACE WHERE I CAN MOVE FORWARD. I KNOW THAT SOUNDS LIKE AN EXCUSE AND IF I REALLY WANTED IT, I WOULD MAKE TIME FOR IT. I REALLY NEED TO GET BACK INTO THAT HEADSPACE TO GO AND GET WHAT I WANT. SOME OF YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT I GAVE MYSELF 1 YEAR FROM MY BIRTHDAY LAST YEAR TO GET TO WHERE I WANT TO BE, BUT THAT IS LOOKING FARTHER AWAY AND LESS LIKELY I WILL BE THERE BY MY BIRTHDAY. EVERYONE HAS DREAMS OF SOMETHING. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN DREAMING AND MAKING IT A REALITY, IS ACTION. RIGHT NOW THERE IS A LACK OF ACTION...I REALLY JUST NEED TO GET BACK TO IT. ANOTHER THING IS WHAT YOU WANT CHANGES WITH TIME, WHAT I WANTED BEFORE IS NOT WHAT I WANT NOW AND SOMETIMES ONCE ITS PAST THAT TIME, WHAT I WANT I CANT HAVE... YA YA I KNOW THIS POST IS ALL OVER THE PLACE BUT IM REALLY JUST DUMPING EVERYTHING ON TO THIS RIGHT NOW. WHEN DO WE STOP WANTING WHAT WE WANT??? WHEN WE CANT HAVE IT? WHEN ITS GONE? WHEN YOU KNOW IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE? SOMETIMES THAT MAKES YOU JUST WANT IT MORE AND SOMETIMES IT JUST MAKES YOU REALIZE YOU JUST HAVE TO MOVE ON. I THINK THOSE WHO LET GO OF WHAT THEY WANT ARE ALL THOSE WHO GET STUCK IN WHERE THEY ARE. YOU CANT LET GO OF WHAT YOU WANT. I DONT KNOW... I JUST REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT ANYMORE. LIFE IS ALREADY CONFUSING ENOUGH, THEN THROW IN EVERYTHING THAT YOU WANT JUST MAKES IT EVEN WORSE. I REALLY JUST WANT TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND REALLY THINK ABOUT WHAT I WANT AND WHERE I WANT TO BE. NO ONE CAN TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT, NO ONE CAN DECIDE ANYTHING FOR YOU. I JUST NEED TO KNOW WHAT I WANT. WELL... I WISH YOU ALL FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU WANT, WHAT YOU REALLY WANT. SO, WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

REST OF LIFE IS WHAT YOU EXPECT. NOTHING REALLY NEW, KEEPING BUSY, KEEPING DISTRACTED. OH I WENT TO NIGHT MARKET :) THAT WAS NICE. BIG LINE UP TO GET IN AND THEY RAISED THE PRICE OF ENTRY AGAIN... IT WAS $3.25... THEN BOUGHT A BUNCH OF FOOD AND PLAYED THOSE CARNEY GAMES LOL. THAT QUARTER TOSSING ONTO A PLATE AND MAKE IT STAY IS THE EASIEST GAME EVER HAHA. WELL... AS LONG AS YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING HAHA. 1 ON PLATE WINS SMALL AND 4 WINS A LARGE. WELL I GOT 6 IN ABOUT 40 TRIES SOOOOO WINNER!!! ANYWAYS NOW IM OUT OF HERE. GOT PLACES TO GO, PEOPLE TO SEE, STUFF TO DO. THIS IS ALSO WHY THIS WEEKS POST IS SO EARLY. PEACE.

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IM SITTING HERE...

ANDDDDDDDDDDDD I DONT REALLY HAVE A TOPIC TODAY... LOL. IVE BEEN TOO BUSY THE PAST WEEK WITH WORK AND REST OF LIFE THAT I DIDNT REALLY THINK OF A TOPIC TO WRITE... I COULD USE ONE OF MY BACK UP TOPICS BUT I REALLY DONT WANT TO WASTE THEM ON A HALF ASS-ED POST LIKE THIS ONE IM TYPING UP RIGHT NOW HAHA. IVE SORTA HAVE HAD A LOT ON MY MIND AS WELL SO IM REALLY ALL OVER THE PLACE... IM EVEN MORE RANDOM THAN NORMAL I THINK... IF THATS POSSIBLE. ANYWAYS... WHAT CAN I SAY... THATS LIFE. LETS SEE IF I CAN SALVAGE THIS POST...

PAST WEEKEND JUST HUNG OUT WITH FRIENDS AND WATCHED THE FOREST, WATCHED MY FOOTBALL TEAM PLAY, AND SUPERVISED MY FRIENDS MOVE. SO BASICALLY I SAT AROUND WATCHING THINGS HAPPEN ALL WEEKEND... OH OH OH THE FOREST MOVIES WAS MEH... NOTHING REALLY SCARY... OR SCARY SO, SO THAT WAS NO FUN. WENT TO ANTON'S, AND ATE TOO MUCH PASTA. WAITED ABOUT AN HOUR IN LINE SO THAT WASNT TOO BAD. ALSO HAD LEFTOVERS FOR BREAKFAST. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH IT SUCKS JUST SITTING AROUND, STANDING AROUND, NOT BEING ABLE TO DO ANYTHING. EVEN SITTING HERE TYPING THIS OUT RIGHT NOW MY BACK IS HURTING AND SO IS MY NECK... STILL GOING TO PHYSIO ABOUT 2/3 TIMES A WEEK. THEN WORKED THE REST OF THE WEEK UP TO NOW AND JUST SITTING HERE, TYPING THIS...

WELL... BEEN THINKING ABOUT THINGS AND IN THE END I CAME  BACK TO THE SAME CONCLUSION OF JUST DO WHAT I WANT AND WHO CARES ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE. JUST DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY, YES YES IVE SAID THIS BEFORE AND YES YES EVERYONE SAYS IT AS WELL. WHY NOT BE HAPPY? YOU DESERVE IT! IF YOU DONT DESERVE IT, THEN WHO DOES? IN THE END ITS ALL ABOUT YOU, SO DO WHAT YOU WANT AND DONT LET ANYTHING STOP YOU FROM GETTING TO WHAT IT IS THAT YOU WANT. THERES A FEW THINGS I WANT RIGHT NOW AND IM CONSTANTLY WORKING ON ONE AND ITS GOING WELL, JUST WORKED ON ANOTHER AND ITS GOING WELL SO FAR, AND THE REST... WELL... THEY ARE IN THE WORKS. OK...

IM PASSING OUT RIGHT NOW... SO ITS TIME TO GET OUT OF HERE AND THIS SAD SAD POST LOL. 

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366 DAYS UNTIL DEADLINE

SO GUESS WHAT!!! IT'S THAT TIME OF YEAR AGAIN :) YES!!! ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE ITS ANOTHER YEAR THAT SOON... IT SEEMED LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I SAID IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY POST AND NOW HERE WE GO AGAIN. LOOKING BACK IT WAS A BIG YEAR!!! I WAS A REAL GROWN UP ADULT... HAHA. ITS THE FIRST YEAR THAT IVE ACTUALLY WORKED FULL TIME THE WHOLE YEAR AT THE SAME JOB, I ALSO FINALLY FINISHED ALL MY SCHOOLING, AND TONS OF RANDOMNESS HAPPENED THROUGHOUT. FRIENDS WERE MADE, EVENTS WERE ATTENDED, AND I LEARNED A LOT ABOUT MYSELF THIS YEAR. I REALLY FOUND OUT WHAT I WAS MADE OF, AND NOW LOOKING FORWARD TO THE COMING YEAR I GOT BIGGER DREAMS AND BIGGER PLANS. IM AT THE AGE WHERE I REALIZE I HAVE TO BE MORE GROWN UP AND THINGS ARENT EASY LIKE THE WAY THEY WERE BEFORE. I CANT KEEP DOING WHAT IM DOING AND IN ORDER TO CONTINUE I NEED TO CHANGE. I HAVE TO BE BETTER, I HAVE TO LEARN MORE, I HAVE TO BE DIFFERENT. WHICH BRINGS ME TO THE TITLE... 366 DAYS UNTIL DEADLINE... FROM MY BIRTHDAY THIS WEEKEND I AM GIVING MYSELF 1 YEAR TO GET TO WHERE I WANT TO BE. ITS AN AMBITIOUS GOAL AND I KNOW THERES A LOT OF HARD WORK AHEAD OF ME IF I WANT TO BE ABLE TO ACHIEVE WHAT I WANT IN THAT SHORT TIME, BUT THERES NO POINT IN JUST THINKING AND HOPING FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN. ITS 366 DAYS SINCE ITS A LEAP YEAR THIS YEAR LOL SO TECHNICALLY I GET A BONUS DAY ACTUALLY LOL. I FIGURE THERES NO BETTER TIME THAN NOW AND SINCE ITS MY BIRTHDAY, THE MORE REASON TO START. YOU CAN ALL HOLD ME TO THIS AND I WILL LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW IT GOES IN A YEAR. WELL... IM GOING TO KEEP THIS BLOG GOING SO I GUESS YOU WILL STILL GET UPDATES AND I HOPE THAT THROUGH THE YEAR THE UPDATES WILL ONLY GET BETTER AND BETTER TOWARDS MY GOAL. THIS IS GOING TO BE MY YEAR AND JUST LIKE I HAVE SAID IN MANY OF MY PREVIOUS POSTS, THERES NO ONE ELSE THAT CAN DO IT FOR YOU EXCEPT FOR YOURSELF, IN THE END YOURE THE ONLY ONE THAT MATTERS, NEVER GIVE UP ON WHAT YOU WANT, DO WHAT IT TAKES TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE, HARD WORK PAYS OFF, AND NEVER LET ANYTHING STAND IN YOUR WAY OF OBTAINING YOUR GOALS AND DREAMS. EVERYONE IS CAPABLE OF DOING ANYTHING, AND IM GOING TO START TAKING MY OWN ADVICE AND DO WHAT I WANT. I REALLY CANT WAIT TO SEE WHERE I WILL BE IN A YEAR, AND I CANT WAIT TO SHARE WITH YOU ALL TOO :) SO LET THE COUNTDOWN BEGIN!!!

AUGUST IS ALWAYS THE BEST MONTH OF THE YEAR, BESIDES THE MASSIVE AMOUNT OF FRIENDS BDAYS THAT I HAVE, THE SUN IS OUT AND TIME TO PLAY :) JUST THE OTHER DAY I HAD THE MOST PACKED DAY EVER... BARELY SLEPT SINCE I PARTIED THE NIGHT BEFORE... WENT TO DENNYS IN THE MORNING, THEN HIT UP THE GOLF RANGE, GRABBED SOME STARBUCKS, THEN WENT TO SING KARAOKE FOR 3...4... HOURS..., GRABBED SOME DINNER AT QUIZNOS LOL, WENT GO-CARTING, AND ENDED THE NIGHT UP WITH SOME BOWLING HAHA. THAT WAS A LONG DAY AND MOST OF IT WAS RANDOM, WE DIDNT END UP WHERE WE WANTED TO FOR DINNER BUT ENDED UP WITH SOME RANDOM GOOD TIMES INSTEAD. ITS WAS A LONG WEEKEND AS WELL SO HAD BBQ FOR ONE OF MY FRIENDS BDAY. LASTLY AND OBVIOUSLY I WOULD MAKE SURE THAT I MENTION IS THAT TOMORROW IM GOING TO WATCH THE NEW DRAGONBALL MOVIE!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! DRAGONBALL Z: RESURRECTION "F" AHHHHH FRIEZA IS BACK... AGAIN... HAHA. I GREW UP WITH DRAGONBALL AND HAVE TONS OF FIGURES AND SUCH AT HOME TOO. I ALSO CANT WAIT TIL I GO BACK TO HK IN OCT SO I CAN GET MORE STUFF TO ADD TO THE COLLECTION. OH OH OH YA SO DID I MENTION I FINALLY FIGURED OUT WHERE IM GOING FOR VACA? WELL IM GOING TO TELL YOU AGAIN EITHER WAY IF I DID HAHA. TICKET FROM HERE TO CHINA TO HK BACK TO CHINA TO HOME, PLUS 7 DAYS TRIP IN CHINA, 5 STAR HOTELS, 3 MEALS A DAY, ALL TRAVEL AND ENTRANCE FEES PAID FOR, GUESS HOW MUCH??? ITS REALLY CHEAP!!! WHATEVER YOU ARE THINKING, GO AHEAD AND HALF THAT AND PROB TAKE SOME MORE OFF WHAT YOU ARE THINKING. YA!!! THAT CHEAP!!! ITS NUTS!!! SO CRAZY THAT HOW COULD WE NOT GO!!! IVE ONLY BEEN TO 1 OF THE LOCATIONS THAT THEY ARE INCLUDING IN THE TRIP BUT WHO CARES, SINCE I HAVENT BEEN TO THE OTHER PLACES AND THAT ITS SUPER CHEAP!!! THIS ENDED UP AS A FAMILY TRIP ALONG WITH MY AUNT AND COUSIN AND SOME OTHER FAMILY FRIENDS. THEN I GET SOME TIME IN HK TO CHILL WITH MY FRIENDS THERE. IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS VACA CAUSE I REALLY NEED IT. JUST NEED SOME TIME TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND RELAX AND JUST RECHARGE. ITS BEEN A LONG YEAR... SO I ALSO HAVE THAT TO LOOK FORWARD TO :) WELL THATS ALL FOR NOW, SEE YOU ALL NEXT WEEK WHERE I WILL BE ANOTHER YEAR WISER................. AHEAHEHAHEA

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GOALS

GOALS... HAVE ONE AND GO FOR IT!!! NEED I SAY MORE? IVE TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE SOMEWHAT AND RIGHT NOW I FEEL ITS MORE IMPORTANT THAN EVER. I FINALLY HAVE THIS GOAL AND I WANT TO ACHIEVE IT. ITS A BIG GOAL, ITS A HIGH GOAL, AND ITS GOING TO TAKE A LOT OF WORK TO GET THERE, BUT ITS WHAT I WANT. EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE HIGH GOALS. SET RIDICULOUS GOALS AND SEE HOW FAR YOU CAN GET, SEE WHAT YOU ARE MADE OF, AND WHAT YOU ARE CAPABLE OF, AND YOU WILL SURPRISE EVEN YOURSELF. IVE BEEN WORKING ON SOMETHING FOR A WHILE NOW AND ITS ABOUT TO BECOME REAL. SO LET SEE WHAT WILL HAPPEN THEN. EVERYONE NEEDS A GOAL, YOU CANT JUST GO AROUND AIMLESSLY WITHOUT KNOWING WHERE OR WHAT YOU ARE DOING. THE PROBLEM IS GOALS ARENT EASY TO OBTAIN AND LOTS OF PEOPLE ARE AFRAID THAT THEY WILL NEVER ACHIEVE THEIR GOALS. PEOPLE ARE AFRAID OF FAILING... IF YOU JUST KEEP GOING THROUGH LIFE AFRAID OF FAILING AND NEVER TRYING THEN YOU WILL ONLY GET STUCK IN WHERE YOU ARE. YOU CANT BE AFRAID, YOU HAVE TO TRY, YOU HAVE TO BE WILLING TO RISK SOMETHING TO GET WHAT YOU WANT. YOU REALLY GET WHAT YOU PUT IN, AND IF YOU DONT PUT IN MUCH THEN YOU WONT GET MUCH. AGREED, SOME PEOPLE ARE CONTENT WITH EVERYTHING... BUT ARE YOU? IF NOT THEN HAVE A GOAL TO CHANGE WHAT YOU WANT TO CHANGE AND DO WHAT YOU NEED TO, TO ACHIEVE YOUR GOALS. A GOAL IS YOUR OWN AND ONLY ONE PERSON CAN HELP YOU ACHIEVE IT, NO ONE ELSE WILL ACHIEVE IT FOR YOU, AND WHEN THEY DO WILL THEY SHARE IT WITH YOU? NO, BECAUSE THEY MADE IT. IF YOU WANT IT, GO AND TAKE IT, GO MAKE IT HAPPEN. RISK IT ALL KNOWING THAT YOU DIDNT LEAVE ANYTHING BEHIND, AND IF YOU DO FAIL, AT LEAST YOU KNOW YOU TRIED YOUR BEST, BUT NEVER GIVE UP ON IT. IF IT IS A GOAL YOU WANT THEN ALWAYS KEEP WORKING AT IT. RARELY ANYONE EVER SUCCEEDS ON THE VERY FIRST TRY, SO KEEP GOING, KEEP TRYING, KEEP WORKING, KEEP GRINDING UNTIL THE DAY YOU CAN FINALLY SAY THAT YOU MADE IT TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE AT, AND NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU. GO GET IT!!!

WELL, FINALLY GETTING BACK INTO MEANINGFUL POSTS :) AT LEAST THIS IS THE START OF IT HAHA. LETS SEE HOW LONG I CAN KEEP THIS GOING BEFORE I START RUNNING OUT OF TOPICS AGAIN. ANYWAYS WORKS STILL BUSY AS USUAL, HUNG OUT WITH FRIENDS ON THE WEEKEND, HAD A BBQ, AND WENT TO THE NIGHT MARKET. 1ST TIME OF THE YEAR TO THE NIGHT MARKET, WENT TO GET SOME FOOD AND SHOP AROUND. THEY HAVE THIS CORK GUN GAME AND IT WILL PISS PEOPLE WHO LIKE SHOOTING, THE CORK HAS TO PUT IN PERFECTLY STRAIGHT AND TIGHT, WHILE THE SIGHTS ARE BULLSHIT AND THE GUN SHOOTS LOW. YOU HAVE TO SHOOT OFF 3 GOLF BALLS ON GOLF TEES WITH 4 SHOTS. YOU COMPENSATE AFTER THE 1ST SHOT AND IT STILL GOES WORSE AND WORSE. YOU LEVEL EVERYTHING AND GO SIGHT TO SIGHT AND IT WILL MAGICALLY GO ABOUT 2 FEET LOW... ITS THE BIGGEST GAME THAT WILL PISS YOU OFF... I SPENT... SOME... MONEY... ON THAT AND DIDNT WIN LOL. HATE THAT GAME SO MUCH THAT I WANTED TO BREAK EVERYTHING THERE LOL. ANYWAYS SO PLAYED THIS OTHER GAME WHERE YOU TOSS A QUARTER AND YOU HAVE TO MAKE IT LAND ON A PLATE, THE ISSUE IS THE QUARTERS SLIDE OFF OR BOUNCE OFF. AFTER PLAYING A FEW I GOT MY FIRST ONE ON THE PLATE, AND A SECOND ONE... AND A THIRD... AND A FORTH!!!!!!! HOLY CRAP!!! I FIGURED OUT HOW TO DO IT AND WON AN AWESOME DRAGONBALL PLUSHIE :) HEHE. SO FROM NOW IF I EVER GO BACK IM JUST GOING TO WIN THE WHOLE STUPID SHACK OF PLUSHIES BECAUSE THAT GUN GAME SUCKED AND PISSED ME OFF!!! LOL. WELL IM GONNA GET SOME SLEEP EARLY TODAY, GOT LOTS OF DRIVING AROUND TO PLACES TOMORROW AND THEN IM GOING TO HIT UP ANOTHER BASEBALL GAME :) SEE YOU ALL NEXT WEEK.

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WHY DO I KEEP WRITING...

IVE BEEN WRITING THIS BLOG FOR 3.5 YEARS NOW... EVERY WEDNESDAY WITHOUT FAIL... SO THE QUESTION IS WHY DO I KEEP WRITING... HONESTLY SOMETIMES I DONT KNOW... SOMETIMES I DONT HAVE A TOPIC OR I FEEL LAZY AND I JUST DONT WANT TO DO IT... BUT I HAVE TO!!! ITS JUST SOMETHING THAT I FEEL HELPS ME. NOT THE FACT THAT I EXPECT TONS OF PEOPLE TO ACTUALLY READ THIS... I DONT EVEN EXPECT 10  PEOPLE TO READ IT... I THINK MAYBE LIKE 5 PEOPLE EVER READ THIS... AND HALF OF THEM ARE PART TIME READERS TOO HAHA. I JUST DO IT FOR MYSELF. ITS SOMETHING THAT GETS WHATEVER IM THINKING OR RANTING ABOUT OUT. SOME PEOPLE READ AND SOME PEOPLE WORK OUT, I WRITE THIS ALL CAPS LOCKED GIANT RUN ON PARAGRAPH LOL. I LIKE BEING ABLE TO PUT MY THOUGHTS OUT AND JUST HAVING IT OUT THERE. I KNOW LOTS OF PEOPLE MAY AGREE AND LOTS MAY DISAGREE BUT THATS NOT THE POINT, THIS IS MY OPINION AND IF YOU DONT LIKE IT THEN LEAVE!!! THE MAIN REASON IVE ACTUALLY KEPT UP WITH THIS WEEK AFTER WEEK IS THAT ITS LIKE A GOAL... YOU HAVE TO WORK HARD AND KEEP AT IT OBTAIN IT, AND I KNOW THAT IF I CAN DEDICATE TIME EVERY WEEK WITHOUT FAIL TO WRITE SOMETHING DOWN AND POST IT THEN I CAN PUT THAT KIND OF ENERGY, EFFORT, MOTIVATION, AND DETERMINATION INTO ANYTHING ELSE I WANT. IF I CAN DO THIS THEN I CAN REALLY DO ANYTHING ELSE I PUT MY MIND TO. ITS AS SIMPLE AS THAT.

OTHER NEWS... OUR FOOTBALL TEAM WON AGAIN :) WE STANDING AT 2-2 AND AFTER WE WIN THIS WEEK WE GOING TO BE 3RD IN THE DIVISION AND GONNA MAKE PLAYOFFS. HALF OF THE TEAM HAS SAID THAT THIS IS WHAT THEY LOOK FORWARD TO ALL WEEK AND THAT THEY CANT WAIT TO PLAY AND I HAVE TO ADMIT THAT I LOVE PLAYING FOOTBALL. OUR TEAM IS JUST AWESOME!!! WE HAVE A GREAT BUNCH OF GUYS WHO GET ALONG WITH EVERYONE AND HAS EACH OTHERS BACK. WE ARE IMPROVING WEEK AFTER WEEK AND YOU SHOULD SEE HOW LOUD I GET AT THE GAMES... ITS SO INTENSE!!! ITS JUST SOMETHING ABOUT PLAYING THAT GETS YOU SO FIRED UP AND READY TO GO. PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN A 5 BLOCK RADIUS OF THE PARK IS ABLE TO HEAR ME... IM NOT EVEN KIDDING... LOL. MY SOCCER TEAM HOWEVER LOST THE QUARTER-FINALS GAME SO NOW WE JUST PLAY FOR PRIDE IN THE CONSOLATION GAMES. WORK.... WELL WORKS BEEN MAD BUSY... MEETINGS ALL OVER THE PLACE AND WORKING LATE EVERYDAY THAT SEEMS TO BE THE NORM... FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS... I THOUGHT AFTER THE RUSH WHICH WOULD HAVE BEEN FEBRUARY I WOULD BE GOOD... BUT NOPES... THERES A RUSH IN APRIL AND A BIT IN MAY/JUNE ALONG WITH ALL THE OTHER STUFF IN BETWEEN... BUT I CAN SEE THE LIGHT!!! AFTER MID JUNE IT WILL ALL CALM DOWN... I WILL FINALLY HAVE TIME AND BE MORE NORMAL LOL. THERES JUST TOO MUCH TO DO AND TOO LITTLE TIME... AND WITH THAT SAID IM GOING TO SLEEP CAUSE IM TIRED... THEN BACK TO IT AGAIN TOMORROW............

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THE HEART WANTS WHAT IT WANTS

WELCOME BACK EVERYONE TO THE 1ST POST OF 2015 :) HOPE EVERYONE HAD A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY, I KNOW I DID. NOW BACK TO IT!!! SO... YES... THE TITLE IS FROM SELENA GOMEZ... YES I WATCHED SOME OF WIZARDS OF WAVERLY PLACE... SO WHAT!!! SHES HOT!!! LOL AND ACTUALLY THIS HAS BEEN A TOPIC THAT I WANTED TO WRITE FOR A WHILE AGO TOO AND IT SEEMED LIKE NO BETTER TIME THAN NOW... RIGHT??? I ACTUALLY DONT HAVE MUCH TIME TONIGHT TO WRITE MUCH EITHER BECAUSE I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY FOR AN EXAM, BUT THAT ALSO TIES INTO THIS... BASICALLY IL SPARKNOTES THIS POST LOL. ITS QUITE FUNNY EH... YOU REALLY CANT HELP BUT WANT THE THINGS YOU WANT IN LIFE... OR EVEN KNOW WHEN YOU WANT IT... SURE THERES THINGS YOU WANT BUT HOW MANY THINGS DO YOU ACTUALLY NEED? WANTS AND NEEDS ARE SO FAR APART FROM EACH OTHER BUT SOMETIMES THEY ARE BOTH EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT AND NEED. YOU GO THROUGH LIFE NOT KNOWING WHAT YOU WANT OR NEED AND THEN ONE DAY YOU WAKE UP ONLY TO REALIZE THAT YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT AND NEED. WHAT IS IT THAT MAKES YOU WANT SOMETHING ANYWAYS... I GUESS THATS WHERE THE TITLE COMES IN... YOUR HEART... THAT TELLS YOU WHAT YOU WANT... IT SORT OF RIDICULOUS... THE HEARTS JUST A MUSCLE... AN ORGAN... A PIECE OF MEAT... IT DOESNT WANT ANYTHING EXCEPT OXYGEN AND BLOOD... IT CANT TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT... BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT DOES... AND DOES SO ALL THE TIME... SO WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU FINALLY REALIZE YOU WANT WHAT YOU WANT??? WELL... YOU DO EVERYTHING YOU POSSIBLY CAN TO GET IT, YOU WORK HARD FOR IT, YOU DONT GIVE IT, YOU DONT SURRENDER, YOU FIGHT FOR IT BECAUSE YOU KNOW YOU WANT IT AND DESERVE IT. SOMETIMES IT MIGHT SEEM IMPOSSIBLE TO GET WHAT YOU WANT... THAT THE ROAD SEEMS SO FAR TO GET TO WHAT YOU WANT... YOU MIGHT STUMBLE ON THE WAY THERE... YOU MIGHT WANT TO GIVE UP... BUT IF YOU REALLY WANT IT... JUST KEEP GOING FOR IT UNTIL THE VERY END. YOU ALL KNOW I LIVE BY 3 MOTTOS FOUND IN THIS POST: "NO PAIN, NO GAIN" "LIVE WITH NO REGRETS" AND "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON" AND THESE ALL HOLD VERY VERY TRUE TO WANTING WHAT YOU WANT. NOTHING YOU EVER WANT COMES EASY... GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT AND DONT REGRET HAVING GONE FOR IT... AND YOU WANT WHAT YOU WANT FOR A REASON. THERES LOTS OF THINGS I WANT... THAT IM TRYING TO GET... AND EVEN SOME THINGS THAT I BASICALLY HAD... BUT JUST ENDED UP LOSING THEM. SO WHAT NOW... SHOULD I GIVE UP? SHOULD I WAVE THE WHITE FLAG? SHOULD I JUST MOVE ON? NO!!! NOW IT MAKES ME WANT TO WORK HARDER FOR IT, TO GET IT, TO GET IT BACK. IT REALLY IS QUITE FUNNY... THE SAYING: "YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOUVE GOT UNTIL ITS GONE" AND YOU REALLY DONT REALIZE IT UNTIL YOU DONT HAVE SOMETHING... YOU REALLY DO TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED... ITS AMAZING WHAT PEOPLE REALIZE AFTERWARDS... THE SOONER YOU REALIZE WHAT YOU LOST, THE SOONER YOU CAN WORK TO GET IT BACK... AND IF YOU DESERVE IT THEN MAYBE... POSSIBLY... HOPEFULLY... YOU CAN GET IT BACK. IF OR WHEN YOU GET IT BACK YOU REALLY DO AND WILL APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE. WELL... WITH THAT ALL BEING SAID IM GOING TO SLEEP, I GOTTA GO GET WHAT I WANT TOMORROW LOL.

OH AND EVERYTHING ELSE THE PAST WEEK? NOT MUCH... FOR NEW YEARS JUST HUNG OUT WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY. HAD A PARTY AT ONE OF MY BUDDIES PLACE WHICH WAS FUN AND THATS ABOUT ALL. I HAVENT GONE OUT ALL WEEKEND OR WEEK CAUSE IVE BEEN STUDYING. SO NOTHING INTERESTING HAPPENED LOL. WITH THAT I BID YOU GOODNIGHT... UNTIL NEXT WEEK OF COURSE :)

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LIFE'S ROAD IS NEVER STRAIGHT

SO I GUESS THE TIME IVE BEEN WAITING FOR HAS FINALLY COME. WENT AND DID THE LICENSING EXAM ON MONDAY... IT WAS HARD... I HAD ANSWER I KNEW, ANSWERS I WAS SORTA OK WITH, ANSWERS IM NOT TOO SURE ABOUT, AND ANSWERED I HAD NO FREAKING CLUE ABOUT... ALSO I KNEW I GOT 2 QUESTIONS WRONG SO AUTOMATICALLY I CAN ONLY GET 98/100... I WAS PREPPED AND KNEW MY STUFF. FIRST 20 QUESTIONS I WAS LIKE OH YAAAA NO PROBLEM :) THEN AS IT WENT FURTHER IN... FROM ABOUT 40-80 IS WAS SORT OF A BLUR... WTF!!! SOME HAD MULTIPLE RIGHT ANSWERS AND THEY DIDNT TEST ON THE INFO FROM THE BOOK... IT WASNT EVEN APPLY THE LEARNING, IT WAS SOME RANDOM CRAP... SOME I DONT EVEN THINK I READ ABOUT!!! MAN I WAS PISSED OFF AFTER THE EXAM... I REALLY HAD NO IDEA HOW I DID... LIKE SERIOUSLY I HAD NO IDEA... ARGGGG WELL ANYWAYS THE MARKS CAME OUT YESTERDAY AND I REALLY DIDNT WANT TO CHECK IT... FINALLY HAD TO ANDDDDDDDDDDD I FAILED... YAY... I NEEDED 65 TO PASS AND GOT MYSELF A 59... SO EVEN WITH THE 2 ANSWERED THAT I NEW I GOT WRONG IT WOULD ONLY BE 61 AND I WOULD STILL BE MISSING A FEW MARKS. I WOULDNT EVEN KNOW WHICH ONES I COULD HAVE CHANGED OR ANYTHING... I TOOK THE WHOLE 3 HOURS TO WRITE IT AND I EVEN CHANGED A BUNCH OF ANSWERS AND I WENT OVER THE EXAM TWICE SINCE I FINISHED AN HOUR AHEAD OF TIME. WELL... I WAS PISSED YESTERDAY AS WELL. TODAY SOME OF THE RAGE CARRIED OVER. IM JUST SO FREAKING PISSED AT IT ALL. I KNEW I WAS GOING TO BARELY PASS OR JUST FAILED... WELL... NOT MUCH I CAN DO ABOUT IT NOW SINCE ITS DONE... IM HAPPY THAT I WAS SOBER AT A PARTY OVER THE WEEKEND. AT LEAST I CANT BLAME MYSELF FOR PARTYING OR WHATEVER. MAYBE I RUSHED IT TOO MUCH... DOING IT ALL IN A MONTH... WHO KNOWS. ALL THE QUESTIONS COME FROM A TEST BANK SO THEY JUST PICK 100 OUT OF LIKE 1000. WHY DID THEY ASK ME THAT INSTEAD OF THIS... ITS LIKE TRIGONOMETRY... YOU HAVE TO PASS IT BUT WHEN THE HELL ARE YOU EVER GOING TO USE IT? AND IF YOU NEED IT JUST LOOK IT UP? WELL THAT WAS LIKE THIS COURSE... I KNEW IT ALL AND IM JUST PISSED AT THE RESULT OF HOW IT WENT DOWN. LIFES ROAD IS A MYSTERY AND IT IS NEVER A STRAIGHT LINE. I HAVE HAD QUITE A FEW HICK UPS HERE AND THERE AND I FINALLY GOT TO A POINT WHERE I LIKE HAPPY AND THIS CRAP HAPPENS...WHAT CAN I DO NOW? GET UP, PREP MORE, AND WORK HARDER. THIS IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE OF HOW LIFE NEVER PROGRESSES IN A STRAIGHT LINE. SOMETHING ALWAYS HAPPENS AND THROWS YOU OFF. ITS THE UNIVERSES WAY OF SCREWING WITH YOU. YOU JUST HAVE TO PICK YOURSELF UP, DUST YOURSELF OFF, AND GET BACK AT IT AGAIN. NEVER GIVE UP. MY LIFES ROAD HASNT BEEN STRAIGHT ONE EITHER. I HAVE HAD SETBACK, ISSUES, AND FAILURES AS WELL. ITS ABOUT HOW YOU CAN OVERCOME IT AND  CONTINUE TO MOVING FORWARD. JUST BECAUSE THERES A DETOUR DOESNT MEAN GIVING UP, YOU GO BACK AT IT EVEN HARD. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. THE REASON MIGHT NOT BE THAT CLEAR RIGHT NOW OR MAYBE I AM SUPPOSE TO STAY WHERE I AM RIGHT NOW...

HEHE YAY MOON CAKE A WORK LOL TO MANY

ALL YEAH ALL FOR ME LOL

MMMM YUMMY HAWAII COOKIES :)

AWWW YEAH GOT MY FIXING :)

DOGGY STAYED THERE FOR A WHILE LIKE THAT LOL

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HERE WE GO :) AND I WAS SOBER... ALL... NIGHT... LONG LOL

WOOOOOOO

THEY PLAYED LIKE HARDSTLYE ALMOST THE WHOLE NIGHT AND MAN ITS HAD TO RAGE OUT ALL NIGHT TOO LOL

NICE CAPTAIN :)

SIGH... TINY AS HELL ICE CREAM LOL

MY POT :)

ALL THEM POTS LOL

I GOT A CRAB LOL HALF OF 1... QUARTER ACTUALLY... LOL

CRAB CLAW AND ABALONE FOR BREAKFAST :) WHAT YOU GOT HMMM? 

YAY NEW SHOES :) CEPT FOR THE CREASE BUT THATS FROM THE BEND AND WALKING

WOW PRETTY CLEAN BOTTOM TOO 

UMMM YA I ENDED UP AT EUISU MONE THAN ONCE

HAHA

DINNER AFTER MEETING

MMMMMMMMMMM EVEN BETTER WOOOO :)

OH MAN TOO TIRED... I KEPT PASSING OUT TRYING TO WRITE THAT PARAGRAPH UP TOP... UMMM HAVENT DONE MUCH SINCE I WAS STUDYING AND GETTING READY FOR THE EXAM BUT WE ALL KNOW HOW THAT WENT... ALSO WENT TO THE MYON AND SHANE 54 CONCERT AND THAT WAS FUN. ALMOST ALL HARDSTYLE. BESIDES THAT REALLY NOTHING ELSE CEPT HUNG OUT WITH SOME FRIENDS. OH OH OH SAW AS ABOVE, SO BELOW YESTERDAY AND IT WAS PRETTY COOL. I LIKE THAT KIND OF STUFF SO YA FOR $7 SURE WHY NOT HAHA. WELL GUESS IM FREE NOW TO GO BACK OUT AND ALL... NOT REALLY SINCE MY HR COURSE IS STARTING SOON AND ALSO I GOTTA START LOOKING EVERYTHING OVER AGAIN CAUSE IM PISSED THAT I DIDNT GET IT... BLA... LIFE... WHAT A BITCH.

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DREAMING DREAMER'S DREAM

I FIND IT FUNNY HOW OVER TIME ONES DREAM CHANGES... RIGHT NOW IM TALKING ABOUT YOUR DREAMS AS IN ASPIRATIONS AND GOALS. WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG WHAT DID YOU DREAM OF BECOMING??? AN ASTRONAUT? A PRO SPORTS PLAYER? A MOVIE STAR? WELL I ACTUALLY WANTED TO BE A FARMER... A LAWYER... A PILOT. SINCE WHEN DO OUR DREAMS DIE? AND WE HAVE TO MOVE ON TO REALITY? WHY DO WE HAVE TO GROW UP AND REALIZE THAT WE CAN NEVER LIVE OUR DREAM OUT? KIDS HAVE AN ENDLESS IMAGINATION THAT CANT BE COMPARED TO, AND ITS TRUE... THE OLDER YOU GET THE LESS IMAGINATIVE YOU GET. FORGET ABOUT ALL THE DREAMS ABOUT HAVING MAGICAL POWERS OR A PET DRAGON OR POKEMON OR SOMETHING... BUT MORE ATTAINABLE DREAMS. LIFES ABOUT POSSIBILITIES AND DREAMS... THEN WHY IS IT IMPOSSIBLE TO GET IT? EVERYONE HAS THE DREAM OF WINNING THE LOTTO AND BEING ABLE TO ACTUALLY LIVE OUT THEIR DREAMS BUT CAN YOU REALLY BUY YOUR DREAM WITH MONEY??? WELL... THE OBVIOUS ANSWERS YES!!! LOL. BUT LETS BE REAL, HOW MANY OF US WILL ACTUALLY WIN THE LOTTO IN OUR LIFETIME? PROBABLY NONE OF US, THATS WHY DREAMS ARE SO HARD TO OBTAIN. YOU CAN WORK ALL YOUR LIFE FOR YOUR DREAM BUT IN THE END CAN YOU REALLY SAY YOUVE FINALLY REACHED YOUR DREAM? THEN THE PROBLEM IS IF YOU FINALLY DO REACH YOUR DREAM IS IT THE DREAM YOU HAD OR HAVE YOUR DREAM CHANGED ONCE AGAIN AND THAT IS NO LONGER YOUR DREAM... IVE BEEN TOLD BEFORE THAT IM A DREAMER... AND THAT I HAVE TO BE PULLED DOWN TO REALITY CAUSE LOTS OF THE THINGS I WANT ARENT ATTAINABLE... WELL... NOT THAT ITS UNATTAINABLE BUT THAT EVEN WITH HARD WORK AND DEDICATION IT IS NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE. SO THEN... WHY DO WE DREAM? IS IT ALWAYS THE THOUGHT OF WHAT COULD BE, WHAT SHOULD BE, AND WHAT WOULD BE? DREAMS I CAN SAY ARE WHAT KEEPS US GOING, WHAT WE STRIVE FOR, WORK FOR AND IS MOTIVATED FOR. SOMETIMES IT TAKES TIME TO REALIZE ONES DREAM AND TO REALLY KNOW WHAT YOU WANT, UNTIL THEN... JUST KEEP ON DREAMING TIL YOU GET THERE. SO, THIS IS FOR ALL YOU DREAMERS OUT THERE!!! NEVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAM, DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO GET YOURSELF THERE :)

AND NOW ONTO DREAMS THAT YOU DREAM WHEN YOU SLEEP. LATELY IVE BEEN REMEMBERING MY DREAM A LOT MORE AND ITS INTERESTING WHAT YOU DREAM ABOUT. SO FAR ITS BEEN A MIX OF ZOMBIES, RANDOM CARS, HANGING OUT, PARTYING, AND THINGS THAT DONT MAKE SENSE. THERE ARE HOWEVER PEOPLE I KNOW IN MY DREAM, AND THEN THERE ARE THE FACELESS/I DONT REMEMBER WHO THEY ARE PEOPLE IN THE DREAM. ITS BEEN SAID THAT EVERYONE YOU SEE IN YOUR DREAM IS AN ACTUAL PERSON YOU HAVE MET OR SEEN IN REAL LIFE BUT WHEN YOU TRY TO REALLY REMEMBER WHO THEY ARE CAN YOU? I CAN SAY I DONT RECALL WHERE OR WHEN IVE SEEN THEM, AND THATS KINDA FREAKY... LOL. WHY CANT OUR DREAMS BE OUR REAL DREAMS IN REAL LIFE? LIKE... WHY CANT OUR DREAMS BE REALITY? MOST DREAMS ARE GREAT AND YOU ARE ON TOP OF THE WORLD, AND EVERYTHING IS JUST THE WAY YOU WANT IT. JUST WHEN YOU HAVE EVERYTHING YOU HAVE EVER WANTED BEEP BEEP BEEEEEEEEEEEEP YOUR DAM ALARM GOES OFF AND YOU SNAP BACK TO REALITY... WAKE UP AND REALIZE YOU ARE BACK IN THIS RAT RACE YOU CALL LIFE. I GUESS THAT ONLY MAKES SENSE SINCE YOUR DREAMS ARE YOUR DREAMS AND THOSE ARE DREAMS YOU CAN ONLY DREAM ABOUT. SOMETIMES I JUST WISH WE CAN DREAM FOREVER AND JUST BE HAPPY.

WELL... THIS IS A DEEPER POST THAN NORMAL EH... THINGS YOU THINK ABOUT...

THANKS FOR LETTING ME KNOW... LOL

TOO HUNGRY TO TAKE PICS LOL

HAPPY BDAY BUDDY :) AND YES HES KOREAN LOL

JUST PHO LOL

SPRING ROLLS... OK I GUESS... BUT SHRIMP ROLL... WTF HAPPENED... SO SMALL...

FUEL DOOR NOT WORKING??? 

NO WORRIES :) I GOT THIS!!! LOL FIX IT YOURSELF :) AND YES I BRUISED MY THUMB FIXING THE DAM THING... FEELS FUNNY ACTUALLY HAHA

OK ANOTHER THING ABOUT DREAMS... HOW MANY OF YOU ARE ACTUALLY WHERE YOU THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE TODAY??? I CAN SAY IM NOT WHERE I THOUGHT I WOULD BE AT ALL... LOTS HAVE HAPPENED TO CHANGE MY COURSE AND I HAVE NOT YET REACHED WHERE I WANT TO BE... AND YET I STILL KEEP DREAMING. SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST FINE WITH WHERE THEY ARE AND SOME DREAM OF BIGGER AND BETTER THINGS. SO, DREAM THE DREAM EVERYONE, DREAM THE DREAM.

ALSO, LUCID DREAMS ARE SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!! IN THOSE DREAMS YOU REALLY DO GET TOO DREAM WHAT YOU WANT TO DREAM :) LOL.

AS FOR THE REALITY OF MY LIFE??? WELL... WORKS WORK AND THE REST IS JUST LIFE. NOTHING NEW, NOTHING TO SAY.

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