TIRED AND LAZY

WELL... YOU KNOW HOW I SAID IM GOING BACK TO QUALITY POSTS ABOUT VARIOUS TOPICS??? LETS JUST SAY IM TIRED AND IM LAZY RIGHT NOW... AND THAT I CAN BARELY KEEP MY EYES OPEN... SOOO UNFORTUNATELY QUALITY POST WILL HAVE TO WAIT... MY BAD...

FRIENDS PLAYED VOLLEYBALL TOURNAMENT, I WATCHED. REALLY MAKES ME MISSING PLAYING SPORTS. NOT ONLY HAVE I GAINED WEIGHT I CANT HAVE FUN. IT WAS FUN WATCHING MY BUDDIES WHO HAVENT PLAYED ANY SPORTS SINCE HIGH SCHOOL, JUMP IN AND PLAY A TOURNAMENT. AT THE END, THEY DIDNT WIN, BUT THEY DID QUITE WELL WITH SUCH LITTLE TO NO PREPPING. OH FOOTBALL IS BACK!!! ONCE AGAIN IM WATCHING THAT TOO... THIS INJURY IS SERIOUSLY PISSING ME OFF!!! I JUST WANT TO PLAY SPORTS!!! :(

OK A SHORT REVIEW OF WAR DOGS. WATCHED IT YESTERDAY AND I LOVED IT :) ITS THAT KIND OF MOVIE THAT SURPRISES YOU AND IS FUNNY AND MAKES YOU THINK AS WELL. YA I KNOW... YOU DONT EXPECT IT EH. ITS JUST MORE LIKE YOU ASKING REALLY... YOU DID THAT OR YOU CAN DO THAT OR WHY AM I NOT DOING THAT!?!?!?! JONAH HILL GOT FAT FOR THE ROLE BUT HES FUNNY AS HELL IN IT. MILES TELLER IS FUNNY AND WIMPY. ANA DE ARMAS IS HOT AS USUAL. BRADLEY COOPER IS A BADASS. YOU CAN JUST SIT THERE AND ENJOY THAT MOVIE AS WELL. THERE WERE A FEW QUESTIONS AT THE END OF THE MOVIE AND JUST REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED BUT I GUESS WE NEVER WILL... I WAS WILLING TO PAY FULL PRICE FOR THE MOVIE BUT THIS WAS ACTUALLY DISCOUNTED REGULAR TICKET!!! THE MOVIE WAS BASED ON A TRUE STORY SO THAT MAKES YOU WONDER, HOW MUCH IS TRUTH AND HOW MUCH OF IT IS MADE UP... ANYWAYS I GIVE IT A 7.8-8.2/10 I LIKED IT SO YOU CAN ALL JUST SHUT UP :) LOL

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CRIMINAL LIFE

IVE ALWAYS WONDERED ABOUT BEING IN THE CRIMINAL LIFE, AND I DONT MEAN BEING A LOW LEVEL DIME BAG PUSHER. I MEAN ABOUT ME BEING A BOSS OR AT LEAST SOME HIGH RANKING LIEUTENANT, OR AN ASSASSIN. FORGET ABOUT BEING KNOWN TO POLICE OR THE THREAT OF GETTING KILLED BY A RIVAL, THERES LOTS THAT I WONT BE ABLE TO DO. I WOULD HAVE TO SPEND THE MONEY BECAUSE OF THE LIFESTYLE, BUT I CANT BUY TOO FLASHY OR GO OVER THE TOP CAUSE THAT WOULD ATTRACT TOO MUCH ATTENTION AND I WOULD GET LOOKED INTO. I CANT REALLY HAVE A NORMAL RELATIONSHIP JUST CAUSE OF ALL THE RISKS. I CANT REALLY HAVE A FAMILY, ONCE AGAIN BECAUSE OF THE RISKS. IT WOULD BE HARD TO GET OUT OF THE LIFE TOO... ESPECIALLY IF I WAS THAT HIGH UP. ALSO THE FACT IL PROBABLY END UP IN JAIL OR DEAD. OF COURSE THERE ARE THOSE WHO DO IT AND HAVE WHAT THEY WANT LIKE CARTEL BOSSES OR LIKE TRIADS AND MOB BOSSES BUT I MEAN HOW MANY OF THEM ARE THERE. THERES THE FEW UP TOP AND MANY BELOW. I WOULDNT MIND BEING AN ASSASSIN... THAT WOULD BE COOL. I REALLY DONT CARE FOR A LOT OF PEOPLE AND IF I GET PAID TO KILL THEM THEN ITS JUST A BONUS ON TOP. I WOULD JUST HAVE TO MAKE SURE THAT THERES NO WAY FOR IT TO TRACE BACK TO ME, BUT I GUESS THATS WHAT WOULD MAKE ME A GOOD KILLER. FORGET ABOUT THIS GANG TYPE OF CRIMINAL... EVEN OTHER CRIMINALS LIKE A CON ARTIST, FORGER, WEAPONS DEALER, THIEF, THESE ALL HAVE PROBLEMS. IF IM DOING WELL THEN SOONER OR LATER SOMEONE MIGHT TRY TO KILL ME FOR MY POSITION. IF THEY DONT AND SOMETHING WENT WRONG WITH A DEAL OR IF I AM ON MY WAY TO GETTING BUSTED THEN I WOULD HAVE TO HIDE OR LEAVE THE COUNTRY. I WOULD HAVE TO START MY LIFE ALL OVER AGAIN. I WOULD NEED A NEW IDENTITY AND THAT PRESENTS A WHOLE NEW PROBLEM. IN THAT CASE I AM A COMPLETELY NEW PERSON, THE OLD ME IS DEAD. I CANT CONTACT MY OLD FRIENDS, BE SEEN WHERE I LIKE TO GO, DO WHAT I USE TO DO. I HAVE TO BE THIS NEW PERSON TO SURVIVE. NO ONE WILL KNOW WHO I USE TO BE OR WHAT IVE DONE. I WOULD MOST LIKELY HAVE TO BE SOMEONE BORING AND AND COMPLETE OPPOSITE OF MYSELF JUST TO HIDE. IF I MEET SOMEONE THEN BASICALLY MY WHOLE LIFE WILL BE A LIE TO THEM. WHAT IF I END UP WITH SOMEONE AND HAVE A KID, THAT WOULD BE AN EVEN BIGGER LIE, AND WHEN THEY GROW UP THEY ARE LIVING A LIE ON TOP OF A LIE AND IT JUST KEEPS GOING ON AND ON. WHAT IF SOMEONE FINDS OUT... WHAT IF THE PAST COMES BACK...??? WHAT IF THE FAKE PERSONS ID DOESNT HOLD UP? THERES SO MANY QUESTIONS AND SO MANY ISSUES. IT SEEMS LIKE IT WOULD ONLY WORK IN THE SHORT RUN AND I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO LIVE OUT MY REAL LIFE. I COULD PROBABLY GET OUT OF THE COUNTRY WITH ALL THE MONEY I MADE AND JUST ENJOY IT ALL OVER THE WORLD BUT I WOULDNT BE ABE TO SETTLE DOWN. IT WOULD BE THE SAME IF I HAD A GIRL OR IF THE GIRL WAS ACTUALLY A CRIMINAL TOO. THERES JUST TOO MANY THINGS THAT DONT WORK. THE ONLY REAL WAY IS IF IT IS KEPT HIDDEN AND I LIE TO EVERYONE BUT BE ABLE TO BACK IT UP. SO LIKE A NIGHT JOB, KEPT QUIET, OUT OF SIGHT. LIKE MY REAL LIFE WOULD BE MY COVER STORY WHILE SECRETLY IM A BOSS OR A KILLER OR AN ASSASSIN AND ALL THE MONEY IS LAUNDERED SO THEN I CAN ENJOY IT. CRIMINALS DO IT ALREADY I KNOW, BUT I JUST WANT ALL THE MONEY. IT TAKES A LOT OF WORK TO BE A SUCCESSFUL CRIMINAL... NOT GETTING CAUGHT OR KILLED. MAKING A LIVING HONESTLY IS A BITCH... LIVING AS A CRIMINAL IS A BIGGER BITCH. WHITE COLLAR CRIME... SAME THING... INSIDER TRADING GETS YOU IN TROUBLE, SAYING SOMETHING THAT DID OR DID NOT HAPPEN GETS YOU IN TROUBLE... EVERYTHING ENDS IN TROUBLE. SIGH... THERES JUST NO WINNING IN LIFE... BEING LEGIT OR NOT. YA... THIS IS THE KIND OF STUFF THAT GOES THROUGH MY HEAD ON THE REGULAR... LOL

OH OH OH SO MY VOLLEYBALL TEAM WON OUR LEAGUE!!! WOOOOOO!!! WE ONE OUR SEMI-FINALS GAME NO PROBLEM. OUR FINALS GAME WAS INTENSE!!! SET 1: 21-14 LOSE. SET 2: 21-14 WIN. SET 3: THERE WAS ONLY 5 MINUTES LEFT AND THE HIGHEST POINT WINS. IT WAS EVEN AND THEN WE HAD A BIT OF A LEAD AND THEY CAUGHT UP. SO NOW ITS 6-6 AND TIMES RUN OUT SO LAST POINT WINS. SUPER INTENSE... AND........ WE WON 7-6!!! OMG SO CRAZY!!! IT WAS AWESOME. SO WE GOT OUR TSHIRTS FOR WINNING AND ITS NOT ABOUT THE SHIRTS BUT ITS ABOUT THE FACT WE WON. THE DIGGERS ARE CHAMPIONS THE FIRST SEASON WE ARE TOGETHER WOOOOOO :) IM A CHAMPION TOO... EVEN THOUGH I DIDNT PLAY A SINGLE MINUTE ALL SEASON CAUSE OF MY INJURIES... LOLOL

FOOTBALL HAS STARTED!!! WE ARE CURRENTLY UNDEFEATED LOL 1-0 RECORD SO FAR HAHA. WATCHING MY TEAM PLAY I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO PLAY!!! YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW BAD I WANT TO PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CANT EVEN PLAY IF I WANTED TO... MY NECKS STILL MESSED UP, MY BACK IS SCREWED, MY HAND IS STUPID. IM IN NO CONDITION TO PLAY. I CANT WAIT TIL THE DAY IM ALL HEALED UP AND GOOD TO PLAY AGAIN. I MISS FOOTBALL :(

SOCCER IS STARTING UP AS WELL... AND GUESS WHAT... I ALSO CANT PLAY!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS!!! IM CURRENTLY GOING TO PHYSIO ABOUT 2-3 TIMES A WEEK AND IM GETTING AND FEELING BETTER BUT RECOVERY IS SLOW AND MY RANGE OF MOTION FOR EVERYTHING IS STILL SO LIMITED. I CANT REALLY LOOK UP, I CANT LOOK RIGHT, I CANT MAKE SHARP TURNS, MY NECK HURTS, MY BACK HURTS, MY HAND IS NUMB... IM SUPER GIMPED RIGHT NOW. THIS WHOLE THING PISSES ME OFF... BUT WHAT CAN I DO... THINGS HAPPEN... AND NOW IM PAYING THE PRICE.

WALKING DEAD JUST FINISHED AND IT WAS PRETTY GOOD. LAST EPISODE WAS A BIT SLOW, THE ENDING WAS DRAGGED OUT TOO, BUT IT WAS PRETTY GOOD. A NEW SHOW CALLED THE CATCH STARTED AND PART OF THAT SHOW MADE ME THINK ABOUT BEING A THIEF BASICALLY AND WRITING THIS POST. I THINK A LOT ABOUT A LOT OF THINGS AND THIS JUST WORKED OUT. IT STARTS A BUNCH OF PEOPLE I DONT KNOW BUT ITS NOT BAD SO FAR. COULD BE BETTER AND THEY SHOULD ACTUALLY CUT ONE OF THEM

REST OF LIFE IS BUSY, FRIENDS, AND FAMILY. WORK IS EVEN MORE BUSY AND THATS NOT GOING TO CHANGE ANY TIME SOON.., SOOOO WITH THAT BEING SAID, IM GOING TO SLEEP... MUCH LESS TO THINK ABOUT :)

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POSITIVE POSITIVITY

I REALLY DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO WRITE ABOUT THIS WEEK AND EVEN HAD TO ASK SOME FRIENDS FOR TOPICS. LETS JUST SAY THIS WAS THE ONLY ONE THAT I DECIDED THAT ITS A PRETTY GOOD ONE. I WAS ALSO LAZY AND DIDNT WANT TO TYPE ANYTHING UP. I ACTUALLY PASSED OUT TRYING TO GET THIS POST GOING...

IM A PRETTY POSITIVE PERSON... EVEN THOUGH IT MIGHT NOT SEEM LIKE IT ESPECIALLY SINCE I LOOK AND SOUND MORE LIKE A PESSIMIST... I WOULD CONSIDER MYSELF MORE OF A REALIST... I KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT AND WHAT THE LIMITS OF REALITY REALLY SHOULD BE... WITH THAT BEING SAID... IM STILL REALLY OPTIMISTIC ABOUT MY ABILITIES AND WHAT I REALLY CAN DO. YOU HAVE TO BE POSITIVE TO ACHIEVE ANYTHING IN YOUR LIFE. ITS LIKE THE THE WORLD KNOWS WHEN YOU ARE BEING A DOWNER AND EVERYTHING JUST GOES THAT WAY AS WELL, BUT WHEN YOU ARE POSITIVE EVERYTHING JUST SEEMS TO WORK OUT SOMEHOW. NOT ONLY THAT BUT BEING POSITIVE IS STRONG CHARACTERISTIC TO HAVE. IT ALLOWS YOU TO BE ABLE TO HANDLE SITUATIONS THAT DONT GO YOUR WAY. WHEN THINGS DONT WORK OUT YOURE ABLE TO KEEP GOING AND SURVIVE. BEING POSITIVE ALSO LETS YOU KEEP SEEING ALL THE DIFFERENT POSSIBILITIES THAT THERE COULD BE, COMPARED TO JUST GIVING UP. EVEN PEOPLE AROUND YOU CAN FEEL THE POSITIVITY ABOUT A PERSON, AND THAT POSITIVENESS ATTRACTS ALIKE. THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU WILL BE ABLE TO HELP YOU STAY POSITIVE, AND REMIND YOU WHEN THINGS DONT GO AS PLANNED. ITS A CIRCLE, POSITIVITY BREEDS POSITIVITY WHICH BRINGS POSITIVENESS.

YA... THIS WASNT MY BEST POST BUT I GOTTA STAY POSITIVE :) RIGHT!!! REST OF LIFE IS AS USUAL. STARTING TO GET CHIRSTMAS STUFF FROM CLIENTS AND BEEN EATING A BUNCH OF CHOCOLATES AND COOKIES LOL. SO I WAS DESIGNATED THE SOCIAL COORDINATOR FOR THE OFFICE AND ITS FUN. I ORDER FOOD OR SET THINGS UP, BUT THE MAIN THING IS THE COMPANY CHRISTMAS DINNER WHERE I GET TO MAKE GAMES AND MAKE SURE THE DINNER ISNT BORING LOL. ALSO I GET SECRET SANTA GOING. ITS ACTUALLY HARDER TO THINK OF GAMES FOR A WORK APPROPRIATE DINNER SETTING THAN YOU THINK... YOU HAVE TO HAVE GAMES THAT EVERYONE CAN UNDERSTAND AND THAT THEY WOULD KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING. A LOT OF TIME THERES GENERATIONAL GAPS BETWEEN COWORKERS AND THAT CAN MAKE IT LOB SIDED AND THAT IS WHY ITS HARD TO MAKE GAMES THAT EVERYONE UNDERSTAND, BUT SINCE I AM RUNNING THIS FOR THE 2ND TIME, I GOT THE HANG OF IT HAHA. DONT REMEMBER IF I MENTIONED WE MADE A VOLLEYBALL TEAM... BUT ANYWAYS ITS PRETTY FUN. WE DROPPED IN ON SOME GAMES AND HONESTLY IT DEPENDS ON THE TEAM THAT YOU GET DROPPED INTO. MY TEAM WELL... LETS JUST SAY NEEDS A LOT OF PRACTICE HAHA. ISSUE IS THAT WHEN I WENT UP FOR A BLOCK I MADE THE BLOCK, BUT THE OTHER GUY LANDED 1ST AND THEN I LANDED ON HIS FOOT AND I TWISTED MY ANKLE... SO THAT WAS FUN... IT BRUISED UP A BIT AND WAS TENDER FOR A FEW DAYS AND ACTUALLY THERES STILL SOME PAIN IF I BEND MY FOOT THIS ONE WAY.

FACEBOOK IS STILL LOCKED... WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!!! ARGGG I DONT USE FACEBOOK MUCH BUT I DO NEED IT TO LINK THIS BLOG TO IT!!! ALSO LOTS OF GAMES ARE LINKED TO THAT ALONG WITH SITES SO I DONT HAVE TO CREATE AN ACCOUNT HAHA. I AM WHO I AM AND WHO CARES JEZZ AND I ALREADY VERIFIED SO WHO CARES IF MY LAST NAME IS JUST 1 LETTER!!! ARGGGG!!!

SO THE CRA SENT ME A LETTER BASICALLY SAYING THAT MY TAXES IS WRONG AND IM BEING REASSESSED... MY NUMBERS ARE BEING CHANGED BECAUSE I CANT SUPPORT THAT CLAIM... AND THAT I CANT CARRY FORWARD MY SCHOOL CREDIT... WHICH IS BULLSHIT BECAUSE YOU CAN. ANYWAYS... SHOULD BE ALL GOOD SINCE I GOT PROOF, SO ONCE AGAIN GOVERNMENT YOU CAN GO SUCK IT!!!

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FACEBOOK IS BEING A DOUCHE

SO... I DONT USE FACEBOOK ANYMORE EXCEPT TO LINK WEEKLY BLOG POSTS, LINK INSTAGRAM PICTURES, AND TO SAY HAPPY BDAY TO PEOPLE... BUT GUESS WHAT... THEY HAVE FINALLY LOCKED ME OUT AND WANT ME TO PROVE MY IDENTITY BEFORE THEY LET ME BACK IN AGAIN. I AM ONE OF THE VERY FEW PEOPLE TO HAVE MY FACEBOOK NAME WITH ONLY MY FIRST NAME AND 1 SINGLE LETTER FOR MY LAST NAME. I FIRST SIGNED UP FOR IT WITH 1 LETTER AND HAVE BEEN USING THAT SINCE I STARTED. IVE ONLY SEEN 1 OTHER FRIEND WHO WAS LUCKY ENOUGH TO DO THAT TOO. ANYONE WHO TRIES TO DO THAT THESE DAYS IT SAYS THAT YOU CANT HAVE A LAST NAME WITH 1 LETTER. SO IN ORDER TO GET MY ACCOUNT BACK I HAVE TO PROVE THAT I AM WHO I AM. I SENT IN MY DRIVERS LICENSE WITH EVERYTHING REDACTED EXCEPT MY FIRST NAME, 1 LETTER LAST NAME, PICTURE OF ME, AND BDAY SHOWN, AND THEY LET ME BACK IN................ UNTIL THEY ACTUALLY REVIEWED IT AND SENT ME A MESSAGE SAYING THEY COULD NOT VERIFY WHO I AM AND NEEDS ME TO SEND IN MORE VERIFICATION ID... SO I SENT THE SAME THING IN AGAIN AND NOW I DONT HAVE FACEBOOK UNTIL THEY VERIFY THAT AGAIN... THIS IS SO STUPID... JUST BECAUSE I WANT 1 LETTER FOR A LAST NAME THEY WONT LET ME BACK... WELL THATS JUST BULLSHIT!!! I KNOW A BUNCH OF PEOPLE WITH FAKE NAMES AND FAKE ACCOUNTS AND NOTHING HAPPENS BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THE ONE GUY WHOS HAD FACEBOOK WITH 1 LETTER FOR THE PAST 10 YEARS GETS CHECKED... AND BLOCKED... I SWEAR IT MUST BE BECAUSE IM ASIAN!!! THATS ALWAYS THE REASON!!! FACEBOOK IS RACIST!!! LOL. SEE I DONT USE FACEBOOK MUCH WHICH IS ALRIGHT, BUT THE ISSUE IS THAT THERE ARE A LOT OF APPS AND SITES THAT I CAN USE FACEBOOK TO LOG IN AND NOW I CANT... OMG!!! IM NOT GOING TO MAKE AN ACCOUNT FOR THIS AND AN ACCOUNT FOR THAT!<>?%*#@)$(@!9 ARG!!! THIS IS JUST SO STUPID BECAUSE THAT MEANS THIS POST ISNT GOING TO BE LINKED EITHER... I SWEAR I BETTER BE ABLE TO GET MY NAME BACK WITH 1 LETTER... REALLY... FACEBOOK HAS NOTHING BETTER TO DO... SIGH...

ITS FINALLY DECEMBER AND YOU ALL KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS!!! ALL THE SHOWS GO ON MID-SEASON BREAKS!!! BOOOOO!!! LOL OH AND ALSO XMAS... YA THAT TOO... BUT ONCE AGAIN IL BRING YOUR ATTENTION TO MY PREVIOUS RANTS ABOUT HOW CHRISTMAS IS GETTING QUIETER AND QUIETER AND NOT AS MANY PEOPLE WANT TO DO ANYTHING THESE DAYS. THERES LESS TO DO, LESS PEOPLE TO HAVE THE PARTIES, AND JUST THE ATMOSPHERE HAS QUIETED DOWN. I PERSONALLY DONT REALLY CARE... IM FINE EITHER WAY... IM NOT SUPER CRAZY INTO AND IF ITS GONE THEN MEH. CHRISTMAS IS JUST LIKE ALL THE REST OF THE HOLIDAYS WHERE THE GOVERNMENT MAKES A HOLIDAY UP TO CELEBRATE AND FOR PEOPLE TO BUY THINGS TO HELP THE ECONOMY. THERES REALLY NOTHING DIFFERENT ABOUT THAT DAY FROM ANY OTHER NORMAL DAY. SURE YOU GET THE DAY OFF AND THAT HELPS BUT ITS ALL REALLY THE SAME. I MEAN YOU CAN MAKE ANYDAY YOUR CHRISTMAS DAY. YOU CAN MAKE CANADA ANYDAY. IT DOESNT EVEN REALLY MATTER. SAME WITH YOUR BIRTHDAY. YOU DIDNT REALLY DO MUCH EXCEPT SURVIVE. YOU CAN HAVE YOUR PARTY ANY DAY YOU WANT. THERES NOTHING SPECIAL ABOUT IT. ESPECIALLY VALENTINES DAY... THATS THE WORSE!!! THERES NOTHING SPECIAL AND IT IS A HALLMARK HOLIDAY THAT THEY MADE UP TO SELL THINGS TO PEOPLE. IF YOU REALLY CARE FOR THE PERSON THEN ANY DAY AND EVERYDAY CAN BE VALENTINES DAY. I JUST FIND IT ALL SO STUPID AS WELL. WHATEVER... I GET A DAY OFF ON TOP SO IM FINE WITH IT LOL.

ENOUGH OF THAT CRAP... LETS SEE WHATS NEW WITH LIFE... WORKS WORK... NOTHING NEW THERE EXCEPT BUSY AS USUAL... STARTED A VOLLEYBALL TEAM AND STARTING TO PRACTICE TO GET READY SINCE IT STARTS IN JANUARY. THIS IS A BIT BETTER THAN THE FOOTBALL TEAM SINCE MOST OF THE TEAM HAS PLAYED SOME VOLLEYBALL BEFORE... COMPARED TO FOOTBALL WHERE NONE OF US HAVE... HAHA. ALSO THIS IS CO-ED TEAM SO ITS A LITTLE DIFFERENT. OH WENT SHOPPING AND WASNT LOOKING FOR ANYTHING AND FOUND SOME SHIRTS... THEN WENT SHOPPING AND WASNT LOOKING FOR ANYTHING AND ENDED UP WITH A SUIT... ITS FUNNY LIKE THAT EH LOL. LASTLY, STARTED WORKING ON WHAT I WAS SUPPOSE TO BE WORKING ON FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS. ITS GOING A LONG SLOWLY... WELL KEEP WORKING AT IT I SAY... RIGHT?

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THE FUTURE'S NOT OURS TO SEE

IVE BEEN LOOKING AT THE PAST AND THINKING ABOUT THE FUTURE QUITE A BIT RECENTLY... ESPECIALLY WHEN I WAS ON MY TRIP A FEW WEEKS AGO. ONCE AGAIN IVE REACHED THE AGE WHERE ITS TIME TO SERIOUSLY THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING AND WHERE I AM. IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH MY POSTS THAT IVE WRITTEN OVER THE PAST 4 YEARS AND YES, SOME ARE RANDOM AND DONT REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING WHILE BUT THERE ARE THOSE THAT MAKE ONE THINK MORE DEEPLY. IVE WRITTEN ABOUT A LOT OF DIFFERENT TOPICS BUT THE SAME THOUGHTS KEEP COMING BACK UP OVER AND OVER. I DONT REGRET ANYTHING IVE DONE IN THE PAST BUT THERE IS THE THOUGHT OF ALWAYS WONDERING WHAT IF... WHAT IF I DID THIS INSTEAD, WHERE WOULD I HAVE ENDED UP THEN? WOULD I STILL BE HERE DOING THE SAME THING? WOULD I BE BETTER OFF OR WORSE OFF? THESE QUESTIONS WILL NEVER BE ANSWERED. THE SAME NOW GOES THROUGH MY HEAD BUT MORE OF WHATS NEXT AND WHERE WILL I BE? I THINK IT JUST HAS TO DO WITH MANY OF MY FRIENDS GETTING OLDER AND EITHER GETTING MARRIED OR HAVING KIDS. THINGS WERE SO MUCH SIMPLER BACK THEN... LESS WORRIES AND RESPONSIBILITIES, BUT NOW IT SEEMS THAT IM ALWAYS WORRYING ABOUT SOMETHING. THATS JUST PART OF LIFE I SUPPOSE. WHATS NEXT FOR ME? DONT GET ME WRONG, IM HAPPY WHERE I AM AND WHAT IM DOING BUT SOMETIMES I REALLY WISH THERE WAS A CRYSTAL BALL TO SEE WHERE I END UP. I HAVE A PLANS AND GOALS FOR MYSELF, BUT IT WOULD BE NICE TO FIND OUT IF EVERYTHING THAT I WANT AND AM WORKING TOWARDS REALLY DO COME TO FRUITION. I GUESS ITS JUST THE WANT... NO, THE NEED TO KNOW IF I AM GOING TO ACHIEVE MY GOALS OR IF IM ACTUALLY JUST WASTING TIME. I REALLY HATE WASTING TIME THESE DAYS, I REALIZE THAT THERES NEVER ENOUGH OF IT... I GUESS THIS IS REALLY SHOWING MY AGE NOW... I REALLY HAVE TO START ON MY PLAN TO GET THE FUTURE I HAVE PLANNED AND ENVISIONED. THEN AGAIN... WHO KNOWS... THE FUTURES NOT OURS TO SEE...

WORK, TV, FRIENDS, FAMILY, AND THE REST IS THE SAME OLD. WE DID HOWEVER START A VOLLEYBALL TEAM :) LOL THE LAST TIME I PLAYED VOLLEYBALL WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL GYM CLASS... DECIDED TO MAKE A TEAM SO WE CAN KEEP ACTIVE UNTIL FOOTBALL STARTS BACK UP AGAIN. VOLLEYBALL IS THE ONE SPORT THAT WILL HURT ME THE MOST... MY SHOULDER IS SO SCREWED UP THAT SPIKING THE BALL WILL BE INTERESTING. YOU ALL KNOW THAT IVE DISLOCATED MY SHOULDER MORE THAN I CAN EVEN REMEMBER AND ANYTHING THAT REQUIRES ME TO THROW OR HIT A BALL IN THAT MOTION IS JUST ASKING FOR TROUBLE HAHA. JUST GOTTA BE MORE CAREFUL THAN NORMAL. THIS IS GOING TO BE FUN SINCE THERES ONLY A FEW PEOPLE THAT HAVE ACTUALLY PLAYED BEFORE. OH WELL LOL.

ITS STARTING TO GET DARK PRETTY EARLY THESE DAYS AND ITS ALSO GETTING COLDER TOO... STARTING TO FEEL LIKE DOING LESS AND LESS AND EVERYTHING SEEMS QUIETER AS WELL... EVERY YEAR THERES LESS GOING ON AND PEOPLE JUST DONT WANT THE HASSLE ANYMORE, OH WELL. LIFE GOES ON... C'EST LA VIE

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