WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

OKAY... SO I HAD LIKE 3 IDEAS FOR TOPIC THIS WEEK BUT THEN I SORTA FORGOT ABOUT THEM AND I DONT REALLY FEEL LIKE WRITING ABOUT WHAT I HAVE ON MY MIND SO THATS SAVED FOR ANOTHER DAY... UNTIL I FORGET ABOUT IT AGAIN HAHA. ANYWAYS... THIS HAS BEEN TOUCHED UPON IN THE PAST BUT LATELY ITS BEEN COMING BACK INTO MY HEAD AND IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT QUITE A BIT. SO WHAT DO YOU WANT? I MEAN WHAT DO I WANT? THATS THE HARDEST QUESTION TO ANSWER. IVE HAD AN IDEA OF WHAT I WANT FOR THE LONGEST TIME BUT THINGS KEEP HAPPENING AND CHANGING THAT WHAT I WANT KEEPS CHANGING ALONG WITH IT. RIGHT NOW, WHAT IS IT THAT I REALLY WANT? I DONT THINK THERES REALLY ANYTHING I REALLY WANT EXCEPT WHERE I REALLY WANT TO GET TO. EVERYTHING I WANT IS MORE OF THE MATERIALISTIC THING BUT DONT EVERYONE WANT MATERIALISTIC THINGS? THATS REALLY WANT WE WANT, BUT WHAT DO WE REALLY NEED? SOME PEOPLE WANT NICE CARS AND A BIG HOUSE BUT DO WE REALLY NEED IT? WHAT I REALLY WANT IS TO BE IN THE POSITION I WANT, DOING WHAT I WANT, AND NOT ANSWERING TO ANYONE. IM WORKING ON THAT BUT LATELY IT JUST SEEMS LIKE ITS BEEN GETTING PUSHED FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY. THE MOTIVATION AND DETERMINATION IS STILL THERE, JUST THAT THE TIME AND ENERGY IS NOT. BETWEEN WORK, LIFE, FAMILY, AND ALL THE RANDOM STUFF I DO IN BETWEEN, I DONT HAVE TIME TO PUT MYSELF IN THE PLACE WHERE I CAN MOVE FORWARD. I KNOW THAT SOUNDS LIKE AN EXCUSE AND IF I REALLY WANTED IT, I WOULD MAKE TIME FOR IT. I REALLY NEED TO GET BACK INTO THAT HEADSPACE TO GO AND GET WHAT I WANT. SOME OF YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT I GAVE MYSELF 1 YEAR FROM MY BIRTHDAY LAST YEAR TO GET TO WHERE I WANT TO BE, BUT THAT IS LOOKING FARTHER AWAY AND LESS LIKELY I WILL BE THERE BY MY BIRTHDAY. EVERYONE HAS DREAMS OF SOMETHING. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN DREAMING AND MAKING IT A REALITY, IS ACTION. RIGHT NOW THERE IS A LACK OF ACTION...I REALLY JUST NEED TO GET BACK TO IT. ANOTHER THING IS WHAT YOU WANT CHANGES WITH TIME, WHAT I WANTED BEFORE IS NOT WHAT I WANT NOW AND SOMETIMES ONCE ITS PAST THAT TIME, WHAT I WANT I CANT HAVE... YA YA I KNOW THIS POST IS ALL OVER THE PLACE BUT IM REALLY JUST DUMPING EVERYTHING ON TO THIS RIGHT NOW. WHEN DO WE STOP WANTING WHAT WE WANT??? WHEN WE CANT HAVE IT? WHEN ITS GONE? WHEN YOU KNOW IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE? SOMETIMES THAT MAKES YOU JUST WANT IT MORE AND SOMETIMES IT JUST MAKES YOU REALIZE YOU JUST HAVE TO MOVE ON. I THINK THOSE WHO LET GO OF WHAT THEY WANT ARE ALL THOSE WHO GET STUCK IN WHERE THEY ARE. YOU CANT LET GO OF WHAT YOU WANT. I DONT KNOW... I JUST REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT ANYMORE. LIFE IS ALREADY CONFUSING ENOUGH, THEN THROW IN EVERYTHING THAT YOU WANT JUST MAKES IT EVEN WORSE. I REALLY JUST WANT TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND REALLY THINK ABOUT WHAT I WANT AND WHERE I WANT TO BE. NO ONE CAN TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT, NO ONE CAN DECIDE ANYTHING FOR YOU. I JUST NEED TO KNOW WHAT I WANT. WELL... I WISH YOU ALL FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU WANT, WHAT YOU REALLY WANT. SO, WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

REST OF LIFE IS WHAT YOU EXPECT. NOTHING REALLY NEW, KEEPING BUSY, KEEPING DISTRACTED. OH I WENT TO NIGHT MARKET :) THAT WAS NICE. BIG LINE UP TO GET IN AND THEY RAISED THE PRICE OF ENTRY AGAIN... IT WAS $3.25... THEN BOUGHT A BUNCH OF FOOD AND PLAYED THOSE CARNEY GAMES LOL. THAT QUARTER TOSSING ONTO A PLATE AND MAKE IT STAY IS THE EASIEST GAME EVER HAHA. WELL... AS LONG AS YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING HAHA. 1 ON PLATE WINS SMALL AND 4 WINS A LARGE. WELL I GOT 6 IN ABOUT 40 TRIES SOOOOO WINNER!!! ANYWAYS NOW IM OUT OF HERE. GOT PLACES TO GO, PEOPLE TO SEE, STUFF TO DO. THIS IS ALSO WHY THIS WEEKS POST IS SO EARLY. PEACE.

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GOALS

GOALS... HAVE ONE AND GO FOR IT!!! NEED I SAY MORE? IVE TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE SOMEWHAT AND RIGHT NOW I FEEL ITS MORE IMPORTANT THAN EVER. I FINALLY HAVE THIS GOAL AND I WANT TO ACHIEVE IT. ITS A BIG GOAL, ITS A HIGH GOAL, AND ITS GOING TO TAKE A LOT OF WORK TO GET THERE, BUT ITS WHAT I WANT. EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE HIGH GOALS. SET RIDICULOUS GOALS AND SEE HOW FAR YOU CAN GET, SEE WHAT YOU ARE MADE OF, AND WHAT YOU ARE CAPABLE OF, AND YOU WILL SURPRISE EVEN YOURSELF. IVE BEEN WORKING ON SOMETHING FOR A WHILE NOW AND ITS ABOUT TO BECOME REAL. SO LET SEE WHAT WILL HAPPEN THEN. EVERYONE NEEDS A GOAL, YOU CANT JUST GO AROUND AIMLESSLY WITHOUT KNOWING WHERE OR WHAT YOU ARE DOING. THE PROBLEM IS GOALS ARENT EASY TO OBTAIN AND LOTS OF PEOPLE ARE AFRAID THAT THEY WILL NEVER ACHIEVE THEIR GOALS. PEOPLE ARE AFRAID OF FAILING... IF YOU JUST KEEP GOING THROUGH LIFE AFRAID OF FAILING AND NEVER TRYING THEN YOU WILL ONLY GET STUCK IN WHERE YOU ARE. YOU CANT BE AFRAID, YOU HAVE TO TRY, YOU HAVE TO BE WILLING TO RISK SOMETHING TO GET WHAT YOU WANT. YOU REALLY GET WHAT YOU PUT IN, AND IF YOU DONT PUT IN MUCH THEN YOU WONT GET MUCH. AGREED, SOME PEOPLE ARE CONTENT WITH EVERYTHING... BUT ARE YOU? IF NOT THEN HAVE A GOAL TO CHANGE WHAT YOU WANT TO CHANGE AND DO WHAT YOU NEED TO, TO ACHIEVE YOUR GOALS. A GOAL IS YOUR OWN AND ONLY ONE PERSON CAN HELP YOU ACHIEVE IT, NO ONE ELSE WILL ACHIEVE IT FOR YOU, AND WHEN THEY DO WILL THEY SHARE IT WITH YOU? NO, BECAUSE THEY MADE IT. IF YOU WANT IT, GO AND TAKE IT, GO MAKE IT HAPPEN. RISK IT ALL KNOWING THAT YOU DIDNT LEAVE ANYTHING BEHIND, AND IF YOU DO FAIL, AT LEAST YOU KNOW YOU TRIED YOUR BEST, BUT NEVER GIVE UP ON IT. IF IT IS A GOAL YOU WANT THEN ALWAYS KEEP WORKING AT IT. RARELY ANYONE EVER SUCCEEDS ON THE VERY FIRST TRY, SO KEEP GOING, KEEP TRYING, KEEP WORKING, KEEP GRINDING UNTIL THE DAY YOU CAN FINALLY SAY THAT YOU MADE IT TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE AT, AND NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU. GO GET IT!!!

WELL, FINALLY GETTING BACK INTO MEANINGFUL POSTS :) AT LEAST THIS IS THE START OF IT HAHA. LETS SEE HOW LONG I CAN KEEP THIS GOING BEFORE I START RUNNING OUT OF TOPICS AGAIN. ANYWAYS WORKS STILL BUSY AS USUAL, HUNG OUT WITH FRIENDS ON THE WEEKEND, HAD A BBQ, AND WENT TO THE NIGHT MARKET. 1ST TIME OF THE YEAR TO THE NIGHT MARKET, WENT TO GET SOME FOOD AND SHOP AROUND. THEY HAVE THIS CORK GUN GAME AND IT WILL PISS PEOPLE WHO LIKE SHOOTING, THE CORK HAS TO PUT IN PERFECTLY STRAIGHT AND TIGHT, WHILE THE SIGHTS ARE BULLSHIT AND THE GUN SHOOTS LOW. YOU HAVE TO SHOOT OFF 3 GOLF BALLS ON GOLF TEES WITH 4 SHOTS. YOU COMPENSATE AFTER THE 1ST SHOT AND IT STILL GOES WORSE AND WORSE. YOU LEVEL EVERYTHING AND GO SIGHT TO SIGHT AND IT WILL MAGICALLY GO ABOUT 2 FEET LOW... ITS THE BIGGEST GAME THAT WILL PISS YOU OFF... I SPENT... SOME... MONEY... ON THAT AND DIDNT WIN LOL. HATE THAT GAME SO MUCH THAT I WANTED TO BREAK EVERYTHING THERE LOL. ANYWAYS SO PLAYED THIS OTHER GAME WHERE YOU TOSS A QUARTER AND YOU HAVE TO MAKE IT LAND ON A PLATE, THE ISSUE IS THE QUARTERS SLIDE OFF OR BOUNCE OFF. AFTER PLAYING A FEW I GOT MY FIRST ONE ON THE PLATE, AND A SECOND ONE... AND A THIRD... AND A FORTH!!!!!!! HOLY CRAP!!! I FIGURED OUT HOW TO DO IT AND WON AN AWESOME DRAGONBALL PLUSHIE :) HEHE. SO FROM NOW IF I EVER GO BACK IM JUST GOING TO WIN THE WHOLE STUPID SHACK OF PLUSHIES BECAUSE THAT GUN GAME SUCKED AND PISSED ME OFF!!! LOL. WELL IM GONNA GET SOME SLEEP EARLY TODAY, GOT LOTS OF DRIVING AROUND TO PLACES TOMORROW AND THEN IM GOING TO HIT UP ANOTHER BASEBALL GAME :) SEE YOU ALL NEXT WEEK.

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