FREE TIME

SO SIMILARLY TO THE POST ABOUT WHAT DO YOU DO, I WANT TO KNOW WHAT YOU DO IN YOUR FREE TIME WHEN YOURE NOT WORKING. EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN FREE TIME, BUT HOW YOU SPEND IT IS THE INTERESTING PART. SOME PEOPLE GO OUT, SOME READ, AND SOME HAVE A HOBBY. THERE ARE COUNTLESS WAYS TO SPEND YOUR FREE TIME, SO WHY DO YOU DO WHAT YOU DO... IN YOUR FREE TIME? PERSONALLY I THINK IT SAYS A LOT ABOUT A PERSON. I LIKE TO WATCH TV/MOVIES, HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS, AND DO MY OWN THING. BY THAT I JUST MEAN THINGS TO LEARN, ADDING TO MY RANDOMNESS, AND THIS BLOG. FOR ME I JUST WANT TO DO THINGS THAT ARE RELAXING, ESPECIALLY AFTER WORK. IM TOO TIRED AND LAZY TO DO ANYTHING ELSE OR AFTERWARDS. I CAN ESCAPE INTO A SHOW OR A MOVIE AND JUST RELAX. THERE IS A TON OF OTHER THINGS I DO IN MY FREE TIME BUT THIS IS BASICALLY WHAT I DO IN MY FREE TIME. SO WHAT DO YOU DO IN YOUR FREE TIME AND WHY? LET ME KNOW IN THE COMMENTS BELOW.

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WHY?

ITS SUCH A SIMPLE QUESTION... BUT THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS SO COMPLICATED. IT IS ALWAYS THE QUESTION, AND NEVER THE ANSWER. PEOPLE HAVE SPENT THEIR LIFETIME TRYING TO UNDERSTAND IT AND TO ANSWER THAT QUESTION. ITS ALSO THE QUESTION WE ALWAYS ASK OURSELVES... WHY? IT IS THE BIGGEST MYSTERY IN THE UNIVERSE. IT KNOWS NO BOUNDS, IS NOT RESTRICTED BY ANYTHING, AND CROSSES ALL PLAINS. HOW CAN SUCH A SIMPLE QUESTION CAUSE SO MUCH HEADACHE? SO MUCH TROUBLE? SO MUCH... EVERYTHING! TO UNDERSTAND IT, IS TO UNDERSTAND YOURSELF, AND ITS NOT A SIMPLE TASK. SOMEHOW IT DICTATES EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING WE DO... SOMETIMES THERE JUST ISNT AN ANSWER, SOMETIMES ITS JUST THAT, ITS JUST WHAT IT IS, BUT WHY? AND TO THAT I ANSWER:

WHY NOT?

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THE BRIDGES YOU BUILD

SO I JUST LOOKED BACK TO SEE IF I WROTE ABOUT THIS TOPIC BEFORE CAUSE I VAGUELY REMEMBER WRITING SOMETHING LIKE THIS ALREADY... ANDDDDD I DID... SORTA... NOT REALLY. THIS ONE IS A LITTLE BIT DIFFERENT FROM WHAT I WROTE ABOUT LAST TIME. THE BRIDGES YOU BUILD, IM REFERRING TO THE RELATIONSHIPS YOU CREATE. THIS APPLIES TO BOTH YOUR WORK LIFE AND PERSONAL LIFE. IM WRITING THIS POST MORE FOR THE WORK SIDE OF THINGS BUT IL WRITE ABOUT PERSONAL SIDE TOO. IVE SAID IT BEFORE IN THE OTHER POST, YOU NEVER WANT TO BURN ANY BRIDGES WITH ANYONE. ESPECIALLY SINCE MY CITY IS SO SMALL WHERE SOMEONE KNOWS SOMEONE WHO KNOWS YOU, YOU REALLY DONT WANT PEOPLE TO START TALKING. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO IN YOUR PAST WILL ACTUALLY HELP YOU IN THE PRESENT OR EVEN THE FUTURE. THROUGH SOME STRANGE EVENT YOU MIGHT END UP DEPENDING ON SOMEONE FOR SOMETHING, WHETHER FOR AN INTRODUCTION, OR PROMOTION, OR JUST TO HELP YOU OUT. IF YOU BURNED THAT BRIDGE, ODDS ARE THEY WONT HELP YOU WHEN YOU NEED IT. IVE BEEN DEALING WITH A LOT OF DIFFERENT CLIENTS AND CONTRACTORS THROUGHOUT THE YEARS AND A LOT OF THEM HAVE ONE THING IN COMMON, THEY TRY TO KEEP GOOD RELATIONS WITH ME. THEY WOULD JUST GIVE ME A CALL, SEND AN EMAIL, OR JUST GRABBING A COFFEE, THEY WOULD MAKE AN EFFORT TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH ME. GRANTED ITS MORE FOR A BUSINESS REASON THAT THEY KEEP IN TOUCH, BUT THIS IS HOW THEY MAKE SURE THAT THEY ARE ON YOUR MIND. THEN WHEN THE TIME COMES, YOU KNOW WHO TO CALL. IF THEY NEVER EVEN TRIED TO BUILD THAT RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW THEM, WHAT ARE THE ODDS OF YOU EVEN BOTHERING LOOKING FOR THEM? LOW!!! MAKING THAT FIRST STEP AT LEAST GETS YOUR FOOT IN THE DOOR, AND POSSIBLY MORE BUSINESS IN THE FUTURE. EVERYTHING IS CALCULATED, AND IT ONLY MAKES SENSE TO INVEST IN RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE YOURE INVESTING IN YOUR OWN FUTURE, AND THATS HOW YOU SURVIVE. FOR PERSONAL LIFE??? IM GETTING TO THE AGE WHERE MY GROUPS OF FRIENDS ARE GETTING MORE SET, SETTLING DOWN, GETTING MARRIED, AND HAVING KIDS. ITS HARDER AND HARDER TO MEET NEW PEOPLE. OF COURSE I HAVE MY MAIN CORE GROUP OF FRIENDS, AND THEN THOSE FRIENDS IM FRIENDS WITH, AND THE FRIENDS OF FRIENDS THAT IM FRIENDS WITH, AND THOSE FRIENDS WHO ARE ACQUAINTANCES AND I DONT REALLY HANG OUT MUCH WITH OR AT ALL. IT JUST SEEMED SO MUCH EASIER BACK IN THE DAY WHERE YOU JUST MEET EVERYONE AND JUST HAD A GREAT TIME, YOU END UP SEEING THEM ALL THE TIME AND THEN FROM THEM YOU MEET MORE PEOPLE AND THEY MEET YOUR PEOPLE AND SO ON AND SO ON. THESE DAYS HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSE TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS... GO OUT AND SAY, HEY! LETS BE FRIENDS? YOU WOULD JUST END UP WITH A WEIRD STARE AND THEY WOULD RUN AWAY FROM YOU. WHEN YOU DO END UP JOINING A NEW GROUP OF PEOPLE, ITS ALWAYS HARD TOO BECAUSE THEY ALREADY HAVE THAT BASE AND HISTORY WITH EACH OTHER THAT YOU DONT HAVE. THEN WHEN SOMEONE BRINGS YOU INTO THEIR GROUP, ITS JUST LIKE... WHAT ARE THEY DOING HERE, OR WHO IS THIS THAT IVE NEVER MET BEFORE. THEN WHEN YOU FINALLY ARE IN THE GROUP IT FEELS LIKE YOU HAVE TO START EVERYTHING AGAIN WITH THE NEW PEOPLE, AND LEARN EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM. MAKING NEW FRIENDS AND BUILDING NEW RELATIONSHIPS TAKES TOO MUCH TIME, ENERGY, AND MONEY... ALL OF WHICH I DONT HAVE ENOUGH OF. YOU ALL KNOW IM A SOCIAL GUY AND WILL JUST TALK AND TALK AND MEET NEW PEOPLE OR GROUPS, BUT SOMETIMES ITS JUST REALLY HARD, AND SOMETIMES I JUST THINK WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER...

OMG SO MANY EPISODES OF PERSON OF INTEREST!!! THERE WERE 3 THIS WEEK AND ITS JUST AHHHHHHHHH!!! FANBOY!!!!!!!!!!! LOL. I REALLY JUST WANTED TO WRITE ABOUT THE TOP ONE CAUSE ITS BEEN REALLY RELEVANT LATELY SO YA... REST OF LIFE? WORKS BUSY, AS A MATTER OF FACT I HAVE MEETINGS ALL DAY AND MEETINGS TO PREPARE FOR. WORK WORK WORK... LONG WEEKEND WAS FINE, JUST HUNG OUT AND ATE A LOT LOL. IM TRED AND TOMORROW IS THE BIGGEST MEETING FOR MY PORTFOLIO SO IM GONNA GO SLEEP. SEE YA NEXT TIME.

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THAT HEADSPACE...

ONCE AGAIN INEVITABLY YOU WILL REACH THAT HEADSPACE WHERE YOU WONDER... WONDER ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE DOING... WONDER WHERE YOU ARE GOING... WONDER WHAT IT ALL MEANS... ITS A NATURAL PART OF LIFE, AND IN EACH OF YOUR MINDS A STORM IS BREWING AND A BATTLE IS WAGED. HOW DO YOU LOOK FOR ANSWERS AND WHERE DO YOU DO THAT... ANSWERS THAT CANT BE ANSWERED BY ANYONE BUT YOURSELF. IVE WROTE ABOUT THIS BEFORE BUT LIKE CLOCKWORK THESE QUESTIONS WILL CREEP BACK INSIDE YOUR HEAD AND MAKE YOU WONDER... MAKE YOU QUESTION IT ALL... QUESTION EVERYTHING YOU KNOW AND EVERYTHING YOU ARE. NO ONE CAN ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS AND THATS WHATS FRUSTRATING... EVERYONE IS ON THEIR OWN PATH... THEIR OWN JOURNEY... AND NO ONE KNOWS WHERE IT BEGINS OR ENDS. SOME PEOPLE FIGURE IT ALL OUT QUICKLY AND OTHERS TAKE A LIFETIME TO KNOW, AND SOME WILL NEVER FIND OUT THE ANSWER. PEOPLE TAKE TIME OFF TO FIND THEMSELVES AND SOME ARE LUCKY ENOUGH TO FIND THE ANSWERS THEY ARE LOOKING FOR. ANSWERS CAN COME FROM ANYWHERE, IT MIGHT BE SOMETHING YOU READ OR SEE OR HEAR, IT COULD BE A MEMORY, OR IT COULD COME TO YOU IN A DREAM AND WHEN YOU WAKE UP, ALL IS CLEAR. ANSWERS COULD COME FROM INSPIRATION, PASSION, LOVE, HATE, HAPPINESS, SADNESS, AND A MILLION DIFFERENT FEELINGS AND PLACES. POETS AND PHILOSOPHERS HAVE ALL TRIED TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS AND EVEN TO THEM THE ANSWERS ARE NOT CLEAR. TOO MANY QUESTIONS IN LIFE AND TOO LITTLE TIME TO FIGURE IT ALL OUT AND WHAT IT ALL MEANS. I GUESS IL LOOK WITHIN AND SEE IF IT COMES TO ME IN MY DREAM TONIGHT. I JUST NEED TO GET LOST TO FIND MYSELF. IN THE END, DONT WE ALL JUST WANT ANSWERS TO THE QUESTIONS THAT WE HAVE???

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TOO MANY IDEAS...

WELL HERES A SURPRISE... QUITE IRONIC ACTUALLY... LAST WEEK I WAS OUT OF IDEAS, THIS WEEK I HAVE TOO MANY... NOW I DONT KNOW TO WRITE ABOUT... I GUESS IL JUST WRITE A BIT ABOUT A FEW... SOME TOPICS WILL PROBABLY OVERLAP WITH ALL THE OTHER STUFF THAT I HAVE WRITTEN IN THE PAST BUT MEH... ITS MY BLOG AND IL WRITE ABOUT WHATEVER I FEEL LIKE WRITING ABOUT :)

ASPECTS OF LIFE
FOR ME THIS IS THE WEIRD THING... IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS... ONE ASPECT OF MY LIFE WILL BE GOING WELL AND ANOTHER WILL ALWAYS BE GOING POORLY. THATS JUST THE BALANCE OF LIFE... CANT FORCE AND CANT DO MUCH ABOUT IT. KARMA IS BIG ON THIS. THERE HAS TO BE A BALANCE. THEN WHILE TRYING TO TIP THE BALANCE TO ANOTHER ASPECT OF MY LIFE, A DIFFERENT PART OF LIFE WILL ALWAYS SURELY FALL... ITS JUST THE NATURAL ORDER OF THINGS. YOU CANT HAVE IT GOING WELL IN ALL ASPECTS BUT YOU CAN MOST DEFINITIVELY HAVE ALL ASPECTS GOING BADLY. MURPHYS LAW ALL THE WAY. WHILE SEEKING TO MAKE ONE ASPECT BETTER, YOU LOSE SIGHT OF WHAT WAS REALLY IN FRONT OF YOU, WHAT REALLY MATTERED, AND WHEN YOU REALIZE IT... ITS TOO LATE. THEN WHEN YOU TRY TO GO BACK TO IT... THE DAMAGE IS DONE OR EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED SO MUCH THAT THE ASPECT NO LONGER EXIST. I AM ALWAYS TRYING TO GET TO THAT BETTER SPOT, AND I FINALLY THERE, FINALLY IN A PLACE WHERE ONE ASPECT IS GOING WELL, BUT LOOKING BACK I REALIZE SOMETHING IS DIFFERENT, SOMETHING CHANGED, SOMETHING LOST. AT LEAST NOW KNOWING THAT I CAN TRY TO GET THAT OTHER ASPECT BACK AND BALANCE IT BACK OUT. THIS TIES INTO MY THOUGHTS ON TRADE-OFFS, YOU ALL KNOW HOW I FEEL AND ITS TRUE. EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS A TRADE-OFF, EVERYTHING YOU DO IS A TRADE-OFF. ITS JUST A MATTER OF WHAT YOU ARE TRADING OFF.

REALIST
TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE AS WELL... OR MAYBE NOT BUT WHO KNOWS THESE DAYS... A LOT OF POSTS WILL OVERLAP AND THAT CANT BE HELPED. I USE TO BE A DREAMER, THEN A OPTIMIST, AND NOW A REALIST. I KNOW WHATS POSSIBLE AND WHATS NOT EVEN FEASIBLE. IM NOT JADED... WELL SORTA... BUT IM MORE OF A GUY THAT HAS SEEN ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT IN THE END EVERYONE IS LOOKING OUT FOR #1... YOURSELF. ITS TRUE AND DONT EVEN TRY TO ARGUE WITH ME ON THIS BECAUSE YOU WILL LOSE. IF YOU REALLY WANT TO THEN TALK TO ME ABOUT THIS IN REAL LIFE BECAUSE IT CAN GO ON FOREVER. I DONT SEE A POINT IN CARING ANYMORE... NOT TO SAY THAT I DONT CARE BUT MORE THAT IF IT DOESNT AFFECT ME THEN IT DOESNT REALLY MATTER. THINGS ARE THE WAY THEY ARE. THERES NOTHING MORE TO IT. AFTER THEY ARE DONE, THERES NO POINT IN ANYTHING AFTER IT.

LETTING GO / MOVING ON
EVERYONE AT ONE POINT IN THEIR LIVES HAS COME TO THE CONCLUSION OF HAVING TO LET GO OF SOMETHING OR SOMEONE, TO MOVE ON AND MOVE PAST WHAT HAS HAPPENED. THE QUESTION IS HOW DO YOU... EVERYONE HAS A DIFFERENT WAY OF DOING THAT OR COPING WITH IT. SOME PEOPLE GET DRUNK, SOME PEOPLE EXERCISE, SOME PEOPLE WORK, AND OTHERS JUST DO WHATEVER THEY CAN TO STOP THINKING ABOUT IT OR DWELLING ON IT. THE ONLY CONSTANT THAT DETERMINES HOW LONG IT TAKES IS TIME... TIME DETERMINES EVERYTHING. THERES ALSO STAGES... THAT EVERYONE GOES THROUGH BEFORE BEING ABLE TO LET GO AND MOVE ON. IT JUST HAPPENS OVER TIME... THE PAIN GOES AWAY... THE MEMORIES FADE... THE FEELINGS CHANGE... EVENTUALLY SLOWLY YET SURELY YOU WILL LOOK BACK ONE DAY AND REALIZE THAT YOURE NO LONGER WHERE YOU WERE BEFORE, AND THAT YOURE AT A BETTER PLACE NOW, AND WONDER HOW YOU WERE EVER AT THAT POINT. AS USUAL... EVERYTHING TAKES TIME...

WHY... WHY NOT...
IM ALWAYS ASKED THIS QUESTION... WHY... WHY THIS... WHY THAT... WHY... WHY... WHY AND THE ANSWER IS SIMPLE... WHY NOT. YOU NEVER HAVE TO HAVE REASON TO DO ANYTHING. NO ONE CAN TELL YOU WHAT TO DO. WHO CARES IN THE END ANYWAYS. THE ONLY PERSON THAT WOULD CARE IS YOURSELF. SO DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY AND DONT CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE SAY OR DO. IN THE END ITS YOU LIVING YOUR LIFE AND NOT THEM. 

FOCUS / GOALS
EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE A GOAL OR SOMETHING TO FOCUS ON. A FINISH LINE OF WHERE YOU WANT TO BE OR SOMETHING YOU WANT TO ACCOMPLISH. IT GIVES YOU SOMETHING TO DIRECT YOUR ENERGY INTO. YOU DONT WANT TO JUST STAY STAGNANT... YOU ALWAYS WANT TO STRIVE FOR SOMETHING BETTER, SOMETHING THAT GIVES YOU THAT MEANING YOU ARE SEARCHING FOR. SOMETHING TO SHOW THAT ALL THAT TIME AND ENERGY SPENT WAS NOT WORTH NOTHING AND THAT IT ALL MEANT SOMETHING.


SO THERES A FEW THOUGHTS THATS BEEN ON MY MIND THE PAST WEEK. WORKS BEEN BUSY WITH MEETINGS AND REPORTS AND WHAT NOT. BESIDES THAT WE ALSO MADE A FOOTBALL TEAM :) SO NOW IM GOING TO BE PLAYING AMERICAN FOOTBALL OR AS I LIKE TO CALL IT "HAND EGG" AND EUROPEAN FOOTBALL OR AS MANY PEOPLE CALL IT "SOCCER" LOL. ALWAYS WANTED TO MAKE A FOOTBALL TEAM BUT NEVER FOUND ENOUGH PLAYER OR GIRLS TO PLAY. SO ME AND A FEW COWORKERS JOINED UP A MENS LEAGUE AND AFTER LOOKING AROUND IT TURNS OUT THERES ENOUGH INTEREST IN PLAYING SO WE MADE OUR OWN TEAM :) ITS GOING TO BE GREAT. ITS ALSO GOING TO BE TIRING... PLAYING BOTH FOOTBALLS IN ONE DAY... YAY... BESIDES ALL THAT NOT MUCH ELSE HAS BEEN GOING ON. WELL TIME TO CALL IT A NIGHT. GOT MORE WORK TO DO TOMORROW... SEEMS LIKE THE WORK NEVER ENDS EH... LOL

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