THATS ROUGH

SO TOTALLY GOING TO LIVE UP TO THE NAME OF RANDOMNESS TODAY. BASICALLY MY FAMILY HAS BEEN HAVING WEEKLY FAMILY DINNERS SINCE MY NEPHEWS BEEN BORN. I GET TO SEE MY NEPHEW AND HANG OUT AND PLAY WITH HIM. PLUS GET TO HAVE DINNER WITH EVERYONE AND JUST CHILL OUT. SINCE THIS ONE RESTAURANT WAS HAVING RENOVATIONS, WE ENDED UP TRYING DIFFERENT PLACES. THIS ONE CHINESE PLACE WAS ALRIGHT AND WE WENT BACK A COUPLE OF TIMES. FIRST TIME THERE WERE 2 TABLES IN THERE. SECOND TIME THERE WAS NO ONE, AND LAST WEEK THERE WAS NO ONE EITHER. I JUST GO IN TO PICK UP TAKEOUT. I DONT HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THEM NOT BEING BUSY BUT THAT MUST BE ROUGH. AN ENTIRE NIGHT WITHOUT A CUSTOMER, OR JUST ONE. YOUR OVERHEAD WOULD BE KILLING YOU. TAKE PAY AND ALL THAT OUT AND JUST SAY ITS A FAMILY BUSINESS. MY ONE TAKEOUT ISNT GOING TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN THE LONG RUN. MY QUESTION IS HOW THE HELL DO THEY SURVIVE... THERE IS A TON OF CHINESE RESTAURANTS NEARBY AND THEY ALL SELLING THE SAME THING. HOW DO THEY SURVIVE. LETS JUST SAY THEY ARE ALL LEGAL AND UNDER THE SAME CIRCUMSTANCES. CHINESE RESTAURANTS ARE USUALLY QUIETER ON MONDAY AND TUESDAY, DEPENDS WHERE WEDNESDAY IS A HIT OR MISS. WEEKEND AND SO ON SHOULD BE BUSY. THERE ARE EXCEPTIONS WHERE THEY ARE JUST BUSY ALL THE TIME. THE WHOLE POINT OF THIS IS DO ANY OF YOU EVER FEEL SAD FOR THEM? FOR EXAMPLE YOU SEE THEM WITH NO CUSTOMERS AND ITS SUPER QUIET. IT ALMOST MAKES YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT AND TRY TO HELP, BUT THAT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE. HOW DO YOU DETERMINE WHO GETS HELP AND SO FORTH. YA IT SUCKS THAT NOT EVERY PLACE CAN BE BUSY AND MAKING MONEY BUT THERES JUST TOO MANY OF THEM. WE DIDNT END UP GOING THAT PLACE, WE WENT TO A NEW PLACE, BUT I WONDER WHAT THAT RESTAURANT THINK... I WONDER IF THEY WERE ASKING WHERE I WAS...

THE SAME GOES TO BUSINESSES. YOU KNOW SOMETIMES YOU SEE BUSINESSES AND YOU THINK "HOW ON EARTH ARE THEY SURVIVING" ITS THE SAME AS ABOVE. ITS HARD TO BE SUCCESSFUL. ITS JUST ROUGH. THEN THERES THE OTHER TYPE OF BUSINESS AND YOU JUST THINK THEY SHOULDNT BE IN BUSINESS LOL. NOT QUITE IF THIS MADE SENSE SINCE I JUST WOKE UP FROM A NAP AND IM HELLA TIRED. BOTTOM LINE IS THAT THERE IS NO WAY YOU CAN HELP EVERYONE, AND ITS KINDA SUCKS BECAUSE YOU CANT HELP THEM. THEN AGAIN HOW MUCH CAN YOU REALLY HELP... AND YOURE STILL BUSY HELPING YOURSELF.

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HAPPY HOLIDAYS

WELL I HOPE EVERYONE HAD A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY. IT FELL ON AN INTERESTING DAY THIS YEAR AND LETS JUST SAY WE ENDED UP GETTING 5 DAYS OFF. NICE TO JUST RELAX AND HANG OUT. I THINK IVE SAID THIS BEFORE... IM PRETTY SURE I SAID IT BEFORE... CHRISTMAS SEEMS LIKE ITS GETTING QUIETER AND QUIETER EACH YEAR. IT SEEMS LIKE THERES LESS AND LESS THINGS GOING ON AND PEOPLE DO LESS AND LESS. PERSONALLY ME AND MY FAMILY HAVE NEVER BEEN BIG INTO THE WHOLE CHRISTMAS THING. WE HAVE NEVER HAD A TREE AND WE HAVE NEVER DONE ONE OF THOSE BIG FAMILY PARTY. I MEAN WEVE BEEN TO FAMILY PARTIES BEFORE BUT WE NEVER HOSTED THEM... THEN AGAIN WE LIVE IN AN APARTMENT SO THERES THAT LOL. EVEN WHEN WE LIVED IN A HOUSE WE NEVER HAD A TREE, WE NEVER HAD A FAKE ONE EITHER, OR A SMALL ONE. IT WAS NEVER REALLY A THING FOR US, ALSO SINCE WE CHINESE. ALTHOUGH ONE YEAR OUR NEIGHBOUR DID COME OVER DRESSED AS SANTA AND GAVE ME PRESENTS LOL. ALSO, I WAS NEVER ONE OF THOSE KIDS THAT BELIEVED IN SANTA EITHER. TRUE STORY... WHEN I WAS YOUNG, I DONT REMEMBER WHEN OR HOW OLD... I THINK IT WAS AT SCHOOL, I BASICALLY SAID THAT THERE WAS NO SANTA AND SANTA DIDNT EXIST. LETS JUST SAY SOME KID CRIED LOL. IT WAS SOME WHITE KID. CHRISTMAS IS SUCH A WHITE THING TOO. YOU NEVER REALLY SEE OR HEAR OF OTHER CULTURES LIKE REALLY INTO SANTA. EVEN IF THEY ARE THEY ARE MORE WESTERNIZED IF ANYTHING. THE WHOLE HOLIDAY THING IS JUST LIKE ANY OTHER HOLIDAY. OUR FAMILY WAS NEVER BIG INTO IT AND IT DOESNT REALLY MATTER IF WE DO ANYTHING. WE CAN DO THINGS BEFORE OR EVEN AFTER THE ACTUAL THING. WE JUST DO WHAT WE WANT, WHEN WE WANT. I NEVER REALLY GOT PRESENTS EITHER AND I WAS FINE WITH THAT. UNLIKE HOW SOME OF THE KIDS I SEE THESE DAYS THAT GO CRAZY AND THEY GET A TON OF GIFTS. IT WAS NEVER REALLY ABOUT THAT FOR US. I DONT KNOW... YOU MIGHT SEE IT WEIRD, BUT THATS JUST MY FAMILY. EVERY FAMILY IS DIFFERENT. THIS YEAR WE WENT OVER TO MY BROTHERS PLACE AND HAD LUNCH AND HUNG OUT WITH THE NEPHEW. I SEE SOME PEOPLE MAKING IT REALLY BIG AND HAS TO BE A THING BUT THATS JUST NOT US.

TODAY WAS BOXING DAY AND AS BOXING DAY TRADITIONS GO, I GO TO THE MALL AND SEE HOW BAD IT IS. ONCE AGAIN, THE MALL WAS PACKED, AND THERES A TON OF PEOPLE. I DONT LIKE LINES AND I DONT LIKE CROWDS, AND THIS IS THE WORST DAY TO GO TO THE MALL. THERES REALLY NOT MUCH TO BUY AND LOTS OF STUFF ISNT EVEN ON SALE. EVEN IF IT IS IT MIGHT NOT FIT, THERES NO EXCHANGES, NO REFUNDS, LINE UPS, CANT TRY IT ON, AND SO ON AND SO ON. EVEN ELECTRONICS THERES NOT MUCH OF A SALE... THE SALE GOES ON TO AFTER THE NEW YEAR... SO WHY WOULD I BOTHER TO LINE UP AND FIGHT WITH PEOPLE WHEN I CAN GO TOMORROW OR THE DAY AFTER TO GET SOMETHING THAT DOESNT CHANGE PRICE... THERES REALLY NOTHING TO GET AND ITS NEVER REALLY WORTH IT. YOU MIGHT GET LUCKY AND FIND SOMETHING BUT OVERALL... ITS JUST A WASTE OF TIME.

OH YA THE WORK CHRISTMAS PARTY WAS A GREAT SUCCESS!!! EVERYONE HAD FUN WITH THE GAMES AND PRIZES AND EVERYTHING. I REALLY AM OUT OF IDEAS FOR GAMES NOW SO I ALREADY SAID IT, NEXT YEAR SOMEONE ELSE IS TAKING OVER LOL. WHOEVER IS TAKING OVER WILL HAVE BIG SHOES TO FILL LOL. IT WAS THE BIGGEST AND BEST PARTY EVER! OH AND FOR MY SECRET SANTA GIFT I GOT THIS COOL BUDDHA BOARD. ITS LIKE A ZEN THING AND YOU PAINT IT ON A STONE THING THAT DRIES AND THEN YOU CAN KEEP REUSING IT. SOMEONE KNOWS ME WELL. I WONDER WHO GOT ME THAT...

OH YA WATCHED THE MULE AS WELL. CLINT EASTWOOD, ALISON EASTWOOD, BRADLEY COOPER, LAURENCE FISHBURNE, ANDY GARCIA, MICHAEL PENA, AND A FEW OTHERS IN THIS MOVIE. BASICALLY CLINT IS OLD, AND A FAILED FATHER AND HUSBAND. HE TRIES TO HELP THE FAMILY OUT WITH MONEY AND HE DOES IT BY RUNNING DRUGS, HENCE THE MULE. HE DOES WELL AND ITS THE STORY OF HIM BEING A MULE. THE MOVIE IS BASED ON THE TRUE STORY ABOUT A 90 YEAR OLD DRUG SMUGGLER FOR THE CARTELS. THE MOVIE WAS ALRIGHT, THE ENDING COULD HAVE BEEN BETTER. IT NEEDED MORE KILLING AND MORE INFO ON SOME OF THE OTHER STORY LINES. ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE CLINT HAS BEEN IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA. I MEAN HES DONE STUFF BEHIND BUT IN FRONT ITS BEEN A WHILE. HE WAS BUSY WITH THIS ONE, HAVING PRODUCED, DIRECTED, AND STARRED IN IT. I GIVE THIS A 7.2-7.5/10. ITS CLINT!!! WHAT ELSE DO I NEED TO SAY LOL, BUT YA IT COULD HAVE BEEN  BETTER.

LASTLY, THIS IS THE LAST POST OF 2018. CANT BELIEVE I MADE IT ANOTHER YEAR. WHAT HAPPENED IN 2018... WHO KNOWS LOL. 2019 SHOULD BE A BIG YEAR, I HOPE ITS A BIG YEAR, LETS MAKE IT A BIG YEAR! WISH EVERYONE A HAPPY NEW YEAR AND SEE YOU ALL NEXT YEAR.

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SO I JUST SAW SOMETHING...

NO ITS NOT WHAT YOU THINK... WHATEVER YOURE THINKING THATS NOT IT LOL. ANYWAYS I JUST SAW SOME INSPIRATIONAL PICTURE AND THE CAPTION WAS: "SELF DISCIPLINE BETTER PREDICTS SUCCESS THAN IQ." I THOUGHT ABOUT IT A TOTAL OF 2 SECONDS AND I TOTALLY AGREE WITH IT. I TALKED ABOUT THIS HERE AND THERE BEFORE BUT ITS REALLY PERTINENT TO ME RIGHT NOW. IF YOU ARE REALLY SMART OR HAVE A HIGH IQ BUT YOU DONT DO ANYTHING WITH IT THEN YOURE NOT SUCCEEDING NOW ARE YOU? YOURE WASTING ALL THAT POTENTIAL. ON THE OTHER HAND, IF YOU HAVE GREAT SELF DISCIPLINE THEN ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. YOUR SELF DISCIPLINE KEEPS YOU WORKING HARD, MAKES YOU STUDY MORE, CONTROLS HOW MUCH YOU PUT IN, AND PUSHES YOU FARTHER. THATS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN HAVING SELF DISCIPLINE AND NOT HAVING IT. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE PEOPLE WHO DO SOMETHING THAT MAKES A CHANGE AND THOSE WHO DONT OR JUST SAYS THEY WILL BUT NEVER DOES. GRANTED THERE ARE A LOT OF REASONS THAT CAN STOP YOU FROM TAKING THAT FIRST STEP AND MOVING FORWARD TOWARDS WHAT YOU WANT, BUT IN THE END ITS ALL JUST EXCUSES. IF YOU REALLY WANTED TO DO SOMETHING JUST DO IT. ONES OWN SELF DISCIPLINE DECIDES WHERE YOU GO AND WHAT YOU DO. YOU CAN DO IT, BUT ITS ALL UP TO YOU TO SEE IF YOU HAVE THE CONTROL TO ACTUALLY GO AHEAD WITH IT. WHEN YOU FINALLY ACTUALLY HAVE THE SELF DISCIPLINE OR THE DETERMINATION TO DO SOMETHING OR KEEP ON DOING SOMETHING, THERE IS NO WAY YOU CAN FAIL. EVEN IF YOU DO FAIL THE FIRST TIME, YOU DONT QUIT, YOU JUST KEEP GOING UNTIL YOU SUCCEED, AND THATS WHAT THE DIFFERENCE IS BETWEEN THOSE WHO DO AND CAN TO THOSE WHO DONT AND CANT. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT SELF DISCIPLINE, SELF CONTROL, DETERMINATION, AND MOTIVATION. IF YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING OR MAKE A CHANGE JUST DO IT ALREADY!!! THERES NO POINT IN PUTTING IT OFF OR SAYING YOU CANT, THERES ONLY ONE PERSON IN THE WORLD THAT CAN STOP YOU FROM ATTAINING WHAT YOU WANT, AND THATS YOU, THE PERSON LOOKING BACK IN THE MIRROR. LIKE RIGHT NOW, AFTER 4 YEARS IM STILL WRITING THIS BLOG, WEEK IN AND WEEK OUT, 4 YEARS STRAIGHT WITHOUT FAIL. EVEN ON VACATION I STILL FOUND A WAY TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN. ITS ALL ABOUT HOW MUCH YOU WANT IT. YOU HAVE TO FORCE YOURSELF TO DO IT. EVEN THOUGH A LOT OF TIME I RATHER JUST SIT THERE AND WATCH TV OR PLAY GAMES, I TELL MYSELF NO! I HAVE TO DO IT! TURN OFF THE TV AND GO WRITE THE POST!!! ITS ACTUALLY HARDER THAN YOU THINK SITTING HERE AND DOING THIS EVERY WEEK. YOU GUYS OUT THERE HAVE NO IDEA HOW MANY TIMES I WAS DEBATING AND THINKING ABOUT STOPPING THIS OR SLOWING DOWN. YOU HEARD IT ALL BEFORE, BUT IN THE END YOU STILL SEE ME POSTING EVERY SINGLE WEEK. THIS ISNT ALL I DO YOU KNOW... BESIDES WORK FULL TIME YOU ALL KNOW IM WORKING TOWARDS SOMETHING AND THAT WAS WHAT THE 1 YEAR DEADLINE WAS FOR, FOR MYSELF. THAT WAS ME FORCING MYSELF, MOTIVATING MYSELF, DISCIPLINING MYSELF TO GET THAT DONE. NOW RECENTLY IM THINKING AND RESEARCHING ABOUT SETTING BACK UP A YOUTUBE CHANNEL, ALL THE MEANWHILE A NEW POST IS STILL BEING WRITTEN EVERY WEEK. THATS 4 THINGS THAT IM MAKING MYSELF DO, KEEPING THAT DISCIPLINE AND NOT LETTING ANYTHING MAKE ME WAIVER IN MY PURSUIT OF EVERYTHING. THERES LOTS OF WAYS TO MEASURE SUCCESS, AND EVERYONES DEFINITION OF SUCCESS IS DIFFERENT. THERES TOO MANY EXAMPLES I COULD GIVE AND THERE WOULD BE NO WAY TO POSSIBLY COVER THEM ALL EITHER. SO IN WHATEVER YOUR QUEST IS, DONT FRET THAT YOU ARENT THE SMARTEST PERSON IN THE WORLD, BECAUSE HARD WORK DOES PAY OFF AND THE SELF DISCIPLINE YOU HAVE TO CONTINUE WILL ALLOW YOU TO SUCCEED IN THE FUTURE. THEY SAY IT TAKES ROUGHLY 10,000 HOURS TO BECOME A MASTER AT SOMETHING OR A SKILL. THATS ABOUT A YEAR AND A BIT STRAIGHT. IF ALL IT TAKES IS A YEAR THEN WHY NOT GO FOR IT. A YEAR IS REALLY SHORT AND A YEAR FROM NOW YOU WILL LOOK BACK AND REALIZE THAT IT WAS THE BEST DECISION OF YOUR LIFE, AND THAT DISCIPLINE WILL TAKE YOU ACROSS THE FINISH LINE.

AS FOR THE USUAL UPDATES...WORKS GETTING BUSY AGAIN DUE TO STUFF THAT NEEDS TO GET DONE AND ALL THE MEETINGS THAT I HAVE TO HAVE. SLOWLY GETTING BETTER FROM THE ACCIDENT, IM ON THE ROAD TO RECOVERY!!! LOL. WORKING ON ALL THE THINGS IM WORKING ON. OH I DID GO WATCH THE BOY OVER THE WEEKEND AND IT WAS A BAD BAD MOVIE... LOL IT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE SCARY BUT MEH... ONLY SMALL PARTS HERE AND THERE AND ENDING WAS HMM... WELL... THATS ANOTHER WEEK FOR YOU. SO WISH YOU ALL A GREAT WEEK.

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1ST PAPER IN A WHILE...

WELL... I JUST FINISHED MY 1ST PAPER IN A LONG LONG TIME... LOL. ACTUALLY THIS IS THE 1ST PAPER IVE WRITTEN BY MYSELF IN LIKE 2 YEARS I THINK... IVE WRITTEN PAPERS RECENTLY BUT THAT WAS WITH OTHER PEOPLE SO ITS LIKE HALF A PAGE HERE A PAGE THERE. WELL... 5 PAGES LATER IM DONE YAY :) HONESTLY IM NOT REALLY SURE WHAT I WROTE NOW... AND HERE I AM WRITING THIS TOO... HAHA

SO I REALLY DIDNT WANT TO READY MY TEXTBOOK THE OTHER DAY SO I LOOKED TO SEE WHAT I HAVENT WATCHED ON MY PVR... TURNS OUT I STILL HAD "DEFIANCE" ON IT. SO I WATCHED THE PILOT AND I LIKED IT... SOOOO I DOWNLOADED THE WHOLE SEASON AND BURNED THROUGH IT HAHA. ONLY 12 WELL... TECHNICALLY 13 EPISODES SO THATS NOTHING. BUT NOWWWWWW I HAVE A STASH OF NEW SHOWS ON MY PVR THAT I NEED TO WATCH AWWW YEAH :)

SO I FINALLY STARTED WHAT I WAS GONNA START THIS WEEK. DAY 1 WAS SUCCESSFUL, DAY 2 WAS ALSO SUCCESSFUL, DAY 3... TODAY... WELL... IT WAS BUT THEN HAD A LITTLE HICKUP SOOO YA... BUT ITS STILL ALL GOOD HEHE. STILL ON TRACK.

WINGS LOL

THE MATTRESS IS ACTUALLY SMOKING LOL 

THIS LADY WAS BREAKING INTO HER OWN STORE LOL OR HER NEW STORE... BUT SHE WAS TRYING TO HACK SAW A THICK KEY LOCK... YA... YOURE NOT GONNA MAKE IT LADY... SORRY HAHA

HEY MISTER I SEE YOU ON YOUR PHONE WHILE DRIVING LOL 

WORKING ON THE RAILLLLLLLLLLLLWAY ALL THE LIVE LONG DAY LOL

SOOO HUNGRY!!!

YA... SORTA DESTROYED THE DISH HAHA

HAHA... WE CANT COUNT APPARENTLY LOL

AWWW YEAHHH CHICKEN AFTER WORKOUT. THEM PROTEIN LOL

ROTI :) YUMMM

I LOVE FALL FOR 1 REASON AND 1 REASON ONLY... SHOWS ARE BACK!!! LOL. TUESDAYS IS CURRENTLY MY FAVE DAY OF THE WEEK. TONS OF SHOWS I WATCH ARE BACK AND ITS A SLACK DAY LOL.

BLA... SO TIRED FROM READING AND WRITING PAPER... K... IM DONE... THATS ALL FOR NOW. SO SEE YOU LATER... MAYBE... PROBABLY... :P

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