TALKING TO YOURSELF

EVERYONE TALKS TO THEMSELVES, AND IF YOU SAY YOU DONT THEN YOURE JUST LYING. EVERYONE TALKS TO THEMSELVES IN SOME FORM OR ANOTHER. YOU CAN JUST BE TALKING TO YOURSELF TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THE ANSWER TO A PROBLEM, OR TALKING TO YOURSELF TO MENTALLY PREPARE YOURSELF FOR SOMETHING. THERES JUST TOO MANY INSTANCES THAT IM JUST NOT GOING TO BOTHER WRITING THEM ALL. TALKING TO YOURSELF CAN BE CALMING AS WELL, BUT IM MORE INTERESTED IN THE FULL ON CONVERSATIONS YOU HAVE WITH YOURSELF. THE TYPE THAT YOU TALK FOR THE OTHER PERSON TOO AND REACT FOR THEM TOO. LIKE THE ONES WHERE YOU KNOW THERES GOING TO BE A CONFRONTATION AND TRYING TO FIGHT FOR YOUR POINT. OR THE ONES WHERE YOU JUST PLAY OUT A SITUATION AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS. THE FUNNY THING IS THAT THE RESPONSES IN YOUR HEAD ARE OF THE PERFECT RESPONSES THAT FIT YOUR VIEW OF THE SITUATION. IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN LIKE IT WILL IN YOUR HEAD, BECAUSE YOU ARE YOU AND YOU ARE NOT THEM. HUMANS ARE THE MOST UNPREDICTABLE CREATURES IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE. YOU CANNOT PREDICT WHAT THEY WILL SAY OR DO. YOU CAN PLAY EVERY POSSIBLE SCENARIO OUT IN YOUR HEAD BUT WHEN IT COMES TO THAT MOMENT, IT WILL NEVER GO THE WAY YOU THINK IT WILL. YOU CANNOT SEE HOW THEIR THOUGHT PROCESS WORKS AND HOW THEY WILL CONNECT THE THINGS YOU SAY TO THEIR OWN VIEW OF THE SITUATION AND REACT. YOU CAN THINK YOURE RIGHT ALL THE WAY AND THEY COULD THROW A WRENCH IN THE WHOLE THING AND TURN IT ALL UPSIDE DOWN. IF THATS THE CASE THEN WHY DO WE EVEN BOTHER TALKING TO OURSELVES... MAYBE ITS A COPING MECHANISM BECAUSE WE KNOW THAT THE PERFECT RESPONSE WILL NEVER HAPPEN, MAYBE ITS TO GIVE US HOPE OF WHAT COULD BE, MAYBE ITS A VISION OF ANOTHER REALITY THAT IT ACTUALLY HAPPENS. PERSONALLY... I TALK TO MYSELF ALL THE TIME. I LOVE HEARING MYSELF TALK LOL. WHAT ABOUT THE REST OF YOU ALL? ANY OF YOU TALK TO YOURSELVES? HOW ABOUT TALKING TO YOURSELF TO THE POINT WHERE YOU LOSE? THAT WOULD BE INTERESTING...

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HOW DO YOU THINK?

HOW DO YOU THINK WHAT YOU THINK... HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT HOW YOU ACTUALLY THINK? FOR EXAMPLE IF SOMEONE ASKED YOU A QUESTION, SAY HOW ARE YOU? DO YOU JUST HAVE A REGULAR ANSWER THAT YOU SAY NO MATTER WHAT? DO YOU ACTUALLY THINK ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL? DO YOU THINK ABOUT WHAT YOURE DOING AT THAT MOMENT IN TIME OR PREVIOUSLY TO MAKE YOU FEEL WHAT YOU ARE? OR IS IT SOMETHING ELSE? WHEN YOU APPROACH A PROBLEM DO YOU LOOK AT IT FROM THE BEGINNING TO END? DO YOU SEE WHAT YOU KNOW FIRST? DO YOU TRY TO SOLVE THE PROBLEM? DO BREAK THINGS DOWN? OR DO YOU JUST DECIDE TO LEAVE IT AND COME BACK TO IT LATER... LIKE SOME PEOPLE... NOT SAYING WHO... BUT... SOMEONE... LOL. THERES SO MANY WAYS OF THINKING AND EVERYONE THINKS DIFFERENTLY. THERES NO CORRECT OR INCORRECT WAY OF THINKING. ITS ALL A MATTER OF OPINION, AND THERES NO RIGHT OR WRONG OPINION EITHER. EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN THINKING AND THOUGHT PROCESSES AND OPINIONS. JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE YOU WAY OF THINKING AND OPINION, DOESNT MEAN THAT OTHER PEOPLES IS WRONG OR RIGHT. SURE, THERES THINGS THAT ARE RIGHT AND WRONG BUT THATS NOT WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT, YOU GET MY POINT, AND IF YOU DONT, THEN YOURE WRONG :) JKJK. THINKING HAS A LOT TO DO WITH HOW YOU WERE BROUGHT UP, SO A LOT TO DO WITH NURTURE INSTEAD OF NATURE. HOWEVER YOU WERE TAUGHT TO THINK WOULD MOST LIKELY BE HOW YOU ACTUALLY THINK NOW. YOU MIGHT HAVE CHANGED YOUR WAY OF THINKING OR HOW YOU THINK BUT THE METHOD AND PROCESS WOULD MOST LIKELY BE THE SAME. IF YOU WERE TAUGHT TO THINK PROCEDUREALLY THEN THE ODDS ARE THATS HOW YOURE GOING TO THINK. IF YOU WERE TAUGHT TO THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX THEN THATS HOW YOU WOULD MOST LIKELY BE. YOU CAN TRY AND MAYBE BE TAUGHT HOW TO DO THE OTHER BUT SOMETIMES YOU JUST CANT SINCE IT HAS BECOME SECOND NATURE TO YOU. THATS WHY THERES PEOPLE FROM BOTH SIDES THATS NEEDED TO MAKE THINGS WORK. THOSE THAT ANALYZE AND THOSE THAT THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX. THINK ABOUT HOW YOU THINK... THINK ABOUT HOW OTHER PEOPLE THINK... YOU KNOW YOURSELF BEST BUT ITS ALWAYS INTERESTING TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW OTHER PEOPLE THINK. I DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT THEY ARE THINKING ABOUT, I WANT TO KNOW HOW THEY ARE THINKING ABOUT IT. THERES JUST SO MUCH MORE TO IT AND EVERYONE THINKS DIFFERENTLY. PERSONALLY... I THINK IM A MIX OF ALL OF THEM... I LOOK AROUND FOR WHAT I KNOW AND ANALYZE THE WHOLE THING AND DECIDE TO LEAVE IT FOR A WHILE AND THEN COME BACK TO IT LOL. HEY, IT WOULDNT BE CALLED RICKYS RANDOMNESS IF RICKY WASNT RANDOM LOL. SO HOW DO YOU THINK?

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WHY?

ITS SUCH A SIMPLE QUESTION... BUT THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS SO COMPLICATED. IT IS ALWAYS THE QUESTION, AND NEVER THE ANSWER. PEOPLE HAVE SPENT THEIR LIFETIME TRYING TO UNDERSTAND IT AND TO ANSWER THAT QUESTION. ITS ALSO THE QUESTION WE ALWAYS ASK OURSELVES... WHY? IT IS THE BIGGEST MYSTERY IN THE UNIVERSE. IT KNOWS NO BOUNDS, IS NOT RESTRICTED BY ANYTHING, AND CROSSES ALL PLAINS. HOW CAN SUCH A SIMPLE QUESTION CAUSE SO MUCH HEADACHE? SO MUCH TROUBLE? SO MUCH... EVERYTHING! TO UNDERSTAND IT, IS TO UNDERSTAND YOURSELF, AND ITS NOT A SIMPLE TASK. SOMEHOW IT DICTATES EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING WE DO... SOMETIMES THERE JUST ISNT AN ANSWER, SOMETIMES ITS JUST THAT, ITS JUST WHAT IT IS, BUT WHY? AND TO THAT I ANSWER:

WHY NOT?

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RUNNING LOW ON MATERIAL

SOOOO THIS WEEK THE POST IS LITERALLY ABOUT A POST TO HAVE A POST. I DIDNT WATCH A MOVIE, I WATCHED THE NEPHEW, I HUNG OUT, I WORKED AND I DIDNT DO MUCH ELSE... IT WAS A PRETTY QUIET WEEK. EARLIER TODAY I WAS THINKING I AM GOING TO FINALLY WRITE A MORE MEANINGFUL POST TONIGHT! THEN ALL THE MOTIVATION AND WILL TO WRITE JUST FADED AWAY LOL. TOO TIRED AND TOO LAZY... BUT I NEEDED A POST SO YOU ALL GET A HALF-ASS POST. NOTHING REALLY GOING ON IN HERE AND NOW IM JUST ADDING MORE WORDS IN TO FILL UP THE PAGE. SAY I WASNT TIRED AND WAS ACTUALLY GOING TO WRITE SOMETHING... IM SORT OF NOT SURE WHAT I WOULD WRITE ABOUT LOL. I HAVE A LIST BUT A LOT OF THE TOPICS OR ISSUES I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT SHOULDNT REALLY BE WRITTEN LATE AT NIGHT WHILE IM PASSING OUT. THIS BLOG HAS BEEN AROUND FOR ALMOST 7 YEARS... YES... THATS RIGHT... 7 YEARS! I HAVE WRITTEN WEEKLY FOR THE PAST 7 YEARS. OF COURSE THERE WERE A FEW POSTS THAT I HAD TO FUDGE BUT THAT WAS BECAUSE I WASNT AROUND OR WHATNOT. LOOKING AT SOME OF THE POSTS IVE WRITTEN YOU CAN TELL THAT I LITERALLY WROTE IT JUST TO GET SOMETHING OUT... JUST LIKE THIS ONE... THE TOP PART WAS JUST THAT... BUT NOW IM REALLY QUESTIONING IF I SHOULD CONTINUE... ITS GOOD TO HAVE SOMETHING LIKE THIS BUT AT THE SAME TIME SOMETIMES IT FEELS LIKE A CHORE... BUT SOMETIMES I REALLY WANT TO WRITE SOMETHING. RIGHT NOW IT SEEMS LIKE THAT SPARK IS GONE... I USE TO REALLY GET INTO MY TOPICS, GET INTO ARGUING WHATEVER, THINKING DEEPLY AND HOPEFULLY GIVING EVERYONE SOME INSIGHT INTO MY THOUGHTS AND MAKES YOU THINK ABOUT IT TOO. NOW THE REVIEWS ARE JUST LIKE FILLERS... ITS JUST THERE TO TAKE UP SPACE UNTIL THE REAL POSTS COME BACK. THERE ARE THOSE REVIEWS THAT I REALLY WANT TO WRITE ABOUT BUT I STILL DONT REALLY WANT TO SPOIL THE MOVIE FOR PEOPLE. IM NOT A SPOILER AND I DONT REALLY REVIEW IT PROPERLY. THE LEVEL OF EFFORT I PUT INTO THOSE REVIEWS IS MEDIOCRE. MAYBE IL JUST STOP WRITING THIS BLOG... MAYBE IL JUST WRITE ONCE IN A WHILE... WHAT DO YOU ALL THINK I SHOULD DO? ITS NOT LIKE I HAVENT DISCUSSED THIS BEFORE... BUT I ALWAYS END UP JUST KEEPING ON... I REALLY THINK THIS TIME SOMETHING IS GOING TO CHANGE... SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE... YOU KNOW WHAT... SOMETHING IS CHANGING! IVE MADE MY DECISION, MOVING FORWARD THE NEW POSTS WILL BE SHORTER AND ABOUT WHATEVER. I MIGHT DO A REVIEW BUT IL ACTUALLY DO A HELPFUL ONE... MAYBE... OK. THATS MY DECISION. LETS SEE HOW THIS WORKS OUT... THEN AGAIN I MIGHT JUST CHANGE MY MIND NEXT WEEK AND THEN WE WILL BE BACK TO SQUARE ONE AGAIN... IN THE MEANTIME... IM GOING TO SLEEP. THINK ABOUT THIS NEXT WEEK LOL. OH AND HAPPY BDAY FRED! LOL LETS SEE IF YOU SEE THIS HAHA.

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JUST ANOTHER TITLE

COME TO THINK OF IT, IT TAKES QUITE A BIT OF TIME THINKING ABOUT A TITLE FOR THE POSTS... I MEAN IT ALREADY TAKES TIME TO THINK ABOUT WHAT TO WRITE, BUT A TITLE THAT DESCRIBES THE POST PERFECTLY IS HARD AS WELL!!! ITS NEVER JUST A TITLE, ALL THE TITLES I COME UP WITH I TRY TO MAKE IT UNIQUE AND STANDS OUT REGARDING THE POST. SOMETIMES THE TITLE IS EVEN ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU WONDER AND THINK ABOUT IT BEFORE EVEN READING. DONT REALLY LOOK AT THE RECENT ONES... CAUSE THOSE ARE MOSTLY OF REALLY BORING TITLES... MOSTLY ABOUT ME BEING TIRED AND PASSING OUT HAHA. I WAS ACTUALLY GOING TO WRITE A REAL POST TODAY... HOWEVER... I PASSED OUT FOR A BIT BEFORE I STARTED WRITING THIS... SO THERE YOU GO... BECAUSE OF THAT... IM TIRED AND ITS LATE AND I NEED SLEEP. I REALLY WONDER HOW MANY OF YOU READ THE POST BECAUSE OF THE TITLE??? DO YOU LIKE MY TILES??? DO YOU EVEN CARE??? HOW DOES IT MAKE YOU FEEL??? WISH MORE OF YOU WOULD REPLY... BUT THEN YOU WOULD HAVE TO ADMIT THAT YOU READ THIS HAHA. ALL GOOD, IF AT THE END OF THE DAY, SOMETHING I WROTE MAKES YOU THINK OR WONDER OR QUESTION WHAT I WROTE THEN IM ALREADY HAPPY. SO KEEP READING BECAUSE I PROMISE THAT THE REAL POSTS WILL BE RETURNING SHORTLY!!! :)

LOTS BE CHANGING THIS LITTLE WHILE. MY ORIGINAL PROJECT IS STILL IN THE WORKS BUT I ALSO STARTED A NEW PROJECT AS WELL. ITS QUITE INTERESTING. IVE STARTED RESEARCHING AND JUST NEED TO SEE IF ITS A NEW VIABLE ADVENTURE. WORK HAS BEEN LIKE WORK SO JUST BUSY AS ALWAYS. LIFE, NOT MUCH REALLY, JUST HERE DOING WHAT IM DOING. REST OF IT ALL? SOME STUFF HERE AND THERE AND STILL WORKING ON THAT AS WELL. OH LAST WEEK WAS LOBSTERFEST, THAT ANNUAL THING WHERE WE GO AND JUST EAT PEOPLES LOBSTERS HAHA. 3RD YEAR IVE GONE AND THIS YEAR THEY TRIED TO PUT A LIMIT ON HOW MANY WE COULD EAT... THEY SAID 2 ONLY... SINCE I ATE 3.5 THE FIRST YEAR AND 4 LAST YEAR. APPARENTLY THEY WERE SHORT SOME FOR THE PEOPLE... HEY... NOT MY FAULT YOU DIDNT GRAB IT EARLY ENOUGH HAHA. WHATEVER, THEY SAID IT HAD TO DO WITH THEM... WHO KNEW 400 LOBSTERS WOULD JUST GO LIKE THAT RIGHT??? THIS YEAR I ONLY HAD 3 LOBSTERS :) AND A BUNCH OF THE OTHER FOODS. THATS REALLY THE RIGHT AMOUNT... TOO MUCH YOU START FEELING WEIRD. JUST TOO MUCH... TOO MUCH OF EVERYTHING HAHA. 

OH OH OH IT WAS ALSO MY GOD DAUGHTERS 100 DAYS CELEBRATION. SO HAD DINNER WITH ALL THEIR FRIENDS AND FAMILY. IT WAS NICE SEEING A BUNCH OF PEOPLE I DONT SEE MUCH OR HAVENT SEEN IN A WHILE. BESIDES THAT JUST THE SAME OLD... UNTIL EVERYTHING ELSE IS ON ITS WAY.

SO I HAD TO GO GET MY NEW PHONE FIXED... IT KEPT DROPPING MY NETWORK, TURNING OFF MY DATA, DROPPING CALLS, FORWARDING TO VOICEMAIL, AND THE FRONT CAMERA HAS THESE 2 WEIRD BLACK LINES... TRIED EVERYTHING PREVIOUSLY. GOT NEW SIMCARD, REFORMATTED, EVEN THE NETWORK WAS REBOOTED 2X... SO FINALLY TOOK IT TO THE SHOP TO GET IT SEND IN TO GET FIXED AND I JUST GOT IT BACK.......................... HOWEVER... THE BACK PLATE HAS THIS TINY SCRATCH... ON THE INSIDE OF IT... SO IT HAD TO DO WITH HOW THEY PUT THE PLATE BACK ON... OMG SINCE YOU ALL KNOW IM OCD... IM BRINGING IT BACK IN TOMORROW TO MAKE THEM GIVE ME A NEW BACK PLATE HAHA.

YA... THIS WEEK POST IS A LITTLE WEAK BUT............... HEY IL WRITE WHAT I WANT TO WRITE. ITS MY BLOG LOL. ALSO CAUSE IM PASSING OUT AGAIN. SOOOO TIME TO GO SLEEP. NEXT ONE SHOULD BE BETTER... I THINK... I HOPE... IT BETTER BE!!! LOL :P

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SHORT AND SWEET

WELL... NO REAL TOPIC, NOT MUCH TO UPDATE, TIRED AND LAZY... SO THIS WILL BE ONE OF THOSE WEEKS WHERE THE POST IS REALLY LACKING MUCH SUBSTANCE LOL. ACTUALLY A BIG THING IS ONE OF MY CLOSE FRIENDS GOT ENGAGED. WE WERE ALL PRESENT WHEN IT HAPPENED AND IT WAS PRETTY COOL. MAKES THE REST OF US REALLY THINK THOUGH... WE ALL GETTING OLDER AND AND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHERE WE ARE GOING... I HAVE OTHER FRIENDS WHO ARE MARRIED ALREADY AND SOME OF THEM EVEN HAVE KIDS, AND ITS JUST SO WEIRD THAT THIS IS WHAT IM THINKING ABOUT THESE DAYS... THE DAYS OF PLAYING GAMES AND JUST HAVING FUN ARE OVER... GOTTA START THINKING ABOUT DIAPERS AND MORTGAGES... I REALLY CANT BELIEVE THAT THIS IS LIFE NOW... WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT... GOTTA BE A GROWN UP NOW... TRYING TO LOOK DOWN THE ROAD TO SEE WHATS NEXT AND I REALLY DONT KNOW... REALLY JUST DOING WHATEVER I CAN TO JUST MAKE IT TO THE NEXT STAGE. IVE SAID ALL THIS STUFF BEFORE BUT IT HITS YOU MORE WHEN THINGS HAPPEN AND THEN YOU START THINKING MORE ABOUT IT AND NEXT THING YOU KNOW YOURE STRESSING ABOUT IT... THEN YOU START STRESSING ABOUT STRESSING AND IT WILL JUST CONTINUE AS A VICIOUS CYCLE... UNTIL THAT DAY WHERE IT BUILDS UP SO MUCH THAT YOU JUST CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE AND YOU JUST BLOW... YOU REALLY JUST NEED TO RELAX, YOU CANT LET THINGS GET TO YOU, AND WHEN IT DOES THE RESULT IS NEVER PRETTY. JUST DO WHAT YOU NEED TO, TO KEEP YOURSELF HAPPY. REMEMBER... IN THE ENDS ITS ALWAYS ABOUT YOU :)

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THE FUTURE'S NOT OURS TO SEE

IVE BEEN LOOKING AT THE PAST AND THINKING ABOUT THE FUTURE QUITE A BIT RECENTLY... ESPECIALLY WHEN I WAS ON MY TRIP A FEW WEEKS AGO. ONCE AGAIN IVE REACHED THE AGE WHERE ITS TIME TO SERIOUSLY THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING AND WHERE I AM. IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH MY POSTS THAT IVE WRITTEN OVER THE PAST 4 YEARS AND YES, SOME ARE RANDOM AND DONT REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING WHILE BUT THERE ARE THOSE THAT MAKE ONE THINK MORE DEEPLY. IVE WRITTEN ABOUT A LOT OF DIFFERENT TOPICS BUT THE SAME THOUGHTS KEEP COMING BACK UP OVER AND OVER. I DONT REGRET ANYTHING IVE DONE IN THE PAST BUT THERE IS THE THOUGHT OF ALWAYS WONDERING WHAT IF... WHAT IF I DID THIS INSTEAD, WHERE WOULD I HAVE ENDED UP THEN? WOULD I STILL BE HERE DOING THE SAME THING? WOULD I BE BETTER OFF OR WORSE OFF? THESE QUESTIONS WILL NEVER BE ANSWERED. THE SAME NOW GOES THROUGH MY HEAD BUT MORE OF WHATS NEXT AND WHERE WILL I BE? I THINK IT JUST HAS TO DO WITH MANY OF MY FRIENDS GETTING OLDER AND EITHER GETTING MARRIED OR HAVING KIDS. THINGS WERE SO MUCH SIMPLER BACK THEN... LESS WORRIES AND RESPONSIBILITIES, BUT NOW IT SEEMS THAT IM ALWAYS WORRYING ABOUT SOMETHING. THATS JUST PART OF LIFE I SUPPOSE. WHATS NEXT FOR ME? DONT GET ME WRONG, IM HAPPY WHERE I AM AND WHAT IM DOING BUT SOMETIMES I REALLY WISH THERE WAS A CRYSTAL BALL TO SEE WHERE I END UP. I HAVE A PLANS AND GOALS FOR MYSELF, BUT IT WOULD BE NICE TO FIND OUT IF EVERYTHING THAT I WANT AND AM WORKING TOWARDS REALLY DO COME TO FRUITION. I GUESS ITS JUST THE WANT... NO, THE NEED TO KNOW IF I AM GOING TO ACHIEVE MY GOALS OR IF IM ACTUALLY JUST WASTING TIME. I REALLY HATE WASTING TIME THESE DAYS, I REALIZE THAT THERES NEVER ENOUGH OF IT... I GUESS THIS IS REALLY SHOWING MY AGE NOW... I REALLY HAVE TO START ON MY PLAN TO GET THE FUTURE I HAVE PLANNED AND ENVISIONED. THEN AGAIN... WHO KNOWS... THE FUTURES NOT OURS TO SEE...

WORK, TV, FRIENDS, FAMILY, AND THE REST IS THE SAME OLD. WE DID HOWEVER START A VOLLEYBALL TEAM :) LOL THE LAST TIME I PLAYED VOLLEYBALL WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL GYM CLASS... DECIDED TO MAKE A TEAM SO WE CAN KEEP ACTIVE UNTIL FOOTBALL STARTS BACK UP AGAIN. VOLLEYBALL IS THE ONE SPORT THAT WILL HURT ME THE MOST... MY SHOULDER IS SO SCREWED UP THAT SPIKING THE BALL WILL BE INTERESTING. YOU ALL KNOW THAT IVE DISLOCATED MY SHOULDER MORE THAN I CAN EVEN REMEMBER AND ANYTHING THAT REQUIRES ME TO THROW OR HIT A BALL IN THAT MOTION IS JUST ASKING FOR TROUBLE HAHA. JUST GOTTA BE MORE CAREFUL THAN NORMAL. THIS IS GOING TO BE FUN SINCE THERES ONLY A FEW PEOPLE THAT HAVE ACTUALLY PLAYED BEFORE. OH WELL LOL.

ITS STARTING TO GET DARK PRETTY EARLY THESE DAYS AND ITS ALSO GETTING COLDER TOO... STARTING TO FEEL LIKE DOING LESS AND LESS AND EVERYTHING SEEMS QUIETER AS WELL... EVERY YEAR THERES LESS GOING ON AND PEOPLE JUST DONT WANT THE HASSLE ANYMORE, OH WELL. LIFE GOES ON... C'EST LA VIE

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BEEN THINKING... BEEN PLANNING... WHATS NEXT

A CONSTANT THOUGHT THAT KEEPS RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND IS WHATS NEXT... IVE BEEN THINKING AND IVE BEEN PLANNING BUT I CANT REALLY FIGURE IT OUT. CURRENTLY EVERYTHING IS GOING GOOD AND IM IN A GREAT PLACE IN MY LIFE FINALLY BUT IM ALWAYS WONDERING WHATS NEXT... YOU KNOW HOW IN THE OLD INTERVIEW DAYS EVERYONE ASKS YOU "WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF IN 5 YEAR?" THAT QUESTION IS SO HARD TO ANSWER. OF COURSE IN AN INTERVIEW YOU ALWAYS ANSWER THAT YOU SEE YOURSELF IN A MANAGEMENT ROLE OR EXECUTIVE LEVEL BLA BLA BLA AND PERHAPS ITS TRUE, BUT HOW MANY OF US CAN REALLY SAY WHERE WE WILL BE IN 5 YEARS. WE CANT EVEN TELL YOU WHERE WE WOULD BE IN A YEAR. SO MUCH CAN CHANGE IN A YEAR, A MONTH, A DAY, A MINUTE... SURE YOU CAN TRY TO PLAN THINGS OUT AND THATS WHAT IVE BEEN TRYING TO DO, BUT THERES JUST TOO MANY VARIABLES, TOO MANY QUESTIONS, TOO MANY DECISIONS TO MAKE TO REALLY KNOW. IF I LOOK BACK 5 YEARS AND THINK IF I HAD ANY IDEA THAT I WOULD END UP WHERE I CURRENTLY AM NOW THE ANSWER WOULD BE NO. I REALLY HAD NO IDEA WHERE I WOULD END UP... I HAD A PLAN AND HAD HOPE TO END UP AT POINT BUT THINGS CHANGE. THE SAME COULD BE SAID ABOUT NOW LOOKING FORWARD AND TRYING TO SEE WHERE I WILL BE. ONCE AGAIN I HAVE A PLAN AND HOPES BUT WHO KNOWS IF ITS GOING TO CHANGE. IN A WAY THIS REALLY PISSES ME OFF NOT KNOWING. I JUST REALLY WANT TO KNOW IF THINGS WILL END UP THE WAY I THINK AND HOPE THEY WILL. 5 YEARS IS SUCH A LONG TIME AND SO MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN BETWEEN. MAYBE WHAT I THOUGHT CANT EVEN HAPPEN OR WONT OR SHOULDNT EVEN HAPPEN. WHO REALLY KNOWS... ONLY THING I DO KNOW IS DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO, TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE, AND DONT LET ANYTHING STOP YOU. THERES NO POINT IN WAITING FOR 5 YEARS TO SEE IF YOU END UP WHERE YOU THINK YOU WILL END UP... START NOW AND MAKE SURE YOU END UP WHERE YOU SAID YOU WOULD END UP 5 YEARS AGO.

EVERYTHING ELSE? WORKS BETTER, EVERYTHING IS FINALLY FINISHING UP AND IT LOOKS LIKE NOT MUCH MORE OT :) PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS HAVE BEEN ROUGH... JUST TOO MUCH TO DO, BUT THE REST OF THE YEAR IS LOOKING GOOD AND ESPECIALLY GOOD SINCE ITS SUMMER TIME WOOOOOOOOOO. FOOTBALL IS GETTING INTENSE... PLAYING TO MAKE IT INTO THE PLAYOFFS RIGHT NOW AND LETS JUST SAY THE LAST GAME GOT REALLY REALLY LOUD AND ALMOST PHYSICAL... MULTIPLE TIMES... AND PEOPLE GOT KICKED OUT. SO NOW WE JUST CONCENTRATING ON FINISHING THE SEASON IN A PLAYOFF SPOT. THIS WEEK IS A MUST WIN NO MATTER WHAT AND WE GOT THIS!!! NOTHING IS GOING TO STOP US!!! I SAY NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOCCER SEASON IS OVER... TURNS OUT OUR VERY LAST GAME THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN JUST FOR FUN SINCE WE LOST THE QUARTER-FINALS WAS CANCELLED... THE FIELD WAS BOOKED FOR THE AUSTRALIAN NATIONAL SOCCER TEAM FOR PRACTICE... SURE... AND THE REST OF LIFE IS THE SAME. JUST HERE AND THERE DOING THIS AND THAT. ENJOY YOUR WEEK EVERYONE AND SEE YOU NEXT TIME.

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THOUGHT OBSESSED THOUGHTS

HONESTLY IF YOU CAN BELIEVE IT OR NOT... TODAY THERE REALLY IS NO POST... I COULDNT COME UP WITH A TOPIC AND THE TOPIC I CAME UP WITH TURNS OUT I WROTE ABOUT IT ALREADY... IVE BEEN QUITE BUSY AT WORK THAT I REALLY HAVENT DONE MUCH BESIDES THAT... BETWEEN WORKING LATE AND THE MEETINGS, I COME HOME AND JUST CHILL OUT... EAT A BIT AND WATCH A BIT OF TV BEFORE PASSING OUT... LOL. LAST WEEK WAS A LONG... LONGGGGGGGG WEEK... AT THE END OF LAST WEEK I WAS JUST SO BEAT THAT I NEED TO JUST PARTY IT ALL OUT HAHA. LAST MINUTE DECISION AND ENDED UP GOING TO MARK SIXMA. HIS STYLES A BIT DIFFERENT THAN EVERYTHING ELSE BUT IT WAS A GOOD PARTY. JUST HUNG OUT WITH THE BOYS AND FOR $25 IT WAS WELL WORTH IT. THE RECOVERY THOUGH... LETS JUST SAY IM NOT AS YOUNG AS I USE TO... RECOVERY TIME IS A BIT SLOW NOW... LOL. WELL COMING UP I DO HAVE 2 PARTIES... GET TOGETHER WITH GARETH EMERY, MS54, AND ILAN BLUESTONE WHO I HAVENT SEEN YET AND ITS GONNA BE A GOOD PARTY :) GOT SOME TIME TO RECOVER SINCE ITS GOING TO BE OVER THE FAMILY WEEKEND AND NEXT WEEK I GOT ORJAN NILSEN ONE OF THE DJS I REALLY LIKE AND I FINALLY GET TO SEE HIM TOO WOOOO AND THATS GOING TO BE ON VALENTINES DAY... LOL THATS QUITE INTERESTING... PARTY ON THAT DAY??? WELL NOT LIKE I HAVE ANYTHING ELSE BETTER TO DO OR HAVE ANYONE TO SPEND IT WITH... HAHA........... WAIT... *CRIES A BIT* LOLOL JKJK ACTUALLY IVE BEEN SO BUSY AND FOCUSED ON WORK THE PAST LITTLE WHILE THAT ITS HASNT REALLY BEEN ON MY MIND... I HAVE TONS TO DO RIGHT NOW AND I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT END OF FEBRUARY WILL BE CRAZY BUSY FOR ME... DONT GET ME WRONG I MEAN I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT BUT ITS DIFFERENT... I DONT REALLY KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT... WELL I DO... SORTA... BUT HEY THATS FOR ME TO KNOW AND YOU TO FIND OUT HAHA.

BESIDES HOW MUCH FUN WORK IS OCCUPYING MY EVERY THOUGHT... THERES ACTUALLY ANOTHER THOUGHT THATS BEEN ON MY MIND NONSTOP... AND THERES NOT MUCH I CAN REALLY DO ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW... HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT SOMETHING SO MUCH THAT IT CONSUMES YOUR ENTIRE DAY??? THE FIRST THOUGHT IN THE MORNING WHEN YOU WAKE UP, AND THE LAST THOUGHT BEFORE YOU FALL  ASLEEP IS OF THAT... THE THOUGHT JUST POPS UP NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO AND THERES NO WAY TO SHAKE IT... THE MORE YOU TRY, THE HARDER YOU THINK ABOUT IT AND THEN BEFORE YOU REALIZED IT YOU ARE OBSESSING OVER IT AND EVERYTHING ABOUT IT... IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT YOU DO... SOMEHOW THAT AMAZING GREAT BRAIN OF YOURS IS ABLE TO LINK WHATEVER YOU DO TO WHAT YOU ARE OBSESSING OVER... DOESNT MATTER IF YOU ARE WALKING OR DRIVING OR EATING OR WATCHING TV OR PLAYING SPORTS OR WATCHING A MOVIE OR ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING... EVEN OBJECTS... EVERYTHING REMINDS YOU... SOMEHOW YOUR MIND JUST WANDERS BACK TO IT AND YOU WONT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT... WRITING ABOUT IT REALLY DOESNT HELP EITHER SINCE NOW IM FOCUSED SOLELY ON IT... AND I PROBABLY WONT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT... GOOD JOB RICKY... SHOULD YOU JUST STOP THINKING ABOUT IT... WELL YOU CANT... EVEN IF NOTHING REMINDS YOU OF IT, FEELINGS OR EMOTIONS AND JUST GENERAL CURIOSITY WILL BRING YOU BACK TO IT... YOU KNOW WHATS FUNNY... SONGS... SONGS ARE THE WORST!!! EVEN WHEN YOU ARE NOT ACTUALLY THINKING ABOUT IT A SONG AND THEIR LYRICS WILL TRIGGER SOMETHING AND WOOOO HERE WE GO AGAIN... WHAT DO YOU DO... WHAT CAN YOU DO... WHAT SHOULD YOU DO... I GUESS THERES NOT MUCH YOU CAN DO... YOU JUST HAVE TO WAIT... WAIT FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN... WAIT FOR IT TO CLEAR UP... OR DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT... BUT CAN YOU??? WHAT IF ITS NOT UP TO YOU... HOW CAN YOU DO SOMETHING THATS OUTSIDE OF YOUR CONTROL... IS TRYING ENOUGH... IS HOPING ENOUGH... IS ANYTHING ENOUGH... THERES A REASON WHY IT IS SO... AND I GUESS ONCE AGAIN... IT COMES BACK TO MY GOOD OLD FRIEND... TIME...... AND EVENTUALLY... IT WILL WORK ITSELF OUT AND YOU WILL SEE WHAT IT IS FOR WHAT IT IS... BUT UNTIL THAT TIME... I GUESS IL JUST SIT HERE AND OBSESS ABOUT IT...

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31 DAYS TO THE FINISH LINE...

WELL... LONG STORY SHORT... BOSS IS GIVING ME 30 DAYS TO GET MY LICENSE FOR WORK... SOMETHING THAT DIDNT NEED TO BE RUSHED IS NOT RUSHED DUE TO CIRCUMSTANCES OUTSIDE OF OUR CONTROL... I HAVE TIL SEPTEMBER TO FINISH ALL THE ASSIGNMENTS AND PREPARE FOR THE TEST. I WOULD HAVE PREFERRED TO TAKE IT IN OCTOBER WHEN I WOULD BE MORE READY BUT NOW THERES NO CHOICE BUT TO DO IT EARLY AND HOPE FOR THE BEST... NO PRESSURE EH... LOL. SO NOW ITS ALL DOWN TO TIME... IF IM ABLE TO FINISH READING EVERYTHING, ALL THE ASSIGNMENTS, AND PREPARE. TIME IS ALWAYS AN ISSUE ISNT IT... IVE WRITTEN ABOUT THIS IN PARTS BEFORE IN PAST POSTS BUT ITS ALWAYS AN ISSUE THAT COMES UP. HISTORY ALWAYS TEND TO REPEAT ITSELF EH. TIME IN REGARDS TO ME AND THIS SITUATION IS THAT I HAVE NO TIME... WORKING FULL TIME AND GOING TO MEETINGS AND EATING AND SLEEPING AUGUST IS A BUSY TIME. I HAVE MY BDAY, MOMS BDAY, DADS BDAY, FRIENDS BDAY, FRIENDS BDAY, FRIENDS BDAY, AND GUESS WHAT... MORE FRIENDS BDAY. ITS ALSO AUGUST WHICH MEANS PARTY SEASON... OH AND SOCCER. SO BETWEEN THE STUFF THAT I NEED TO DO AND THE STUFF I WANT TO DO, THERES NO TIME TO ACTUALLY GET EVERYTHING DONE. YA YA... WELL GUESS WHAT IM ACTUALLY CUTTING EVERYTHING DOWN. IM PROBABLY JUST HAVE DINNER FOR MY BDAY AND GO OUT ONCE OR TWICE AND THATS ALL. UNFORTUNATELY AND LUCKILY I AM GIVEN AN OPPORTUNITY RIGHT NOW TO MOVE UP IN THE COMPANY ITS SOMETHING I CANT PASS UP. YOU ALL HAVE READ THAT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THAT ONE CHANCE TO FINALLY GET TO WHERE I WANT TO BE... WELL... THAT TIME HAS FINALLY COME :) THIS JOB AND THIS POSITION IS MINE... ALL I HAVE TO DO IS PASS THE EXAM. TIMES RUNNING OUT AND THERES JUST SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH TO DO... ITS ONCE AGAIN THAT CRUNCH TIME, THAT CLUTCH TIME, THAT MAKE IT OR BREAK IT TIME, AND IM GOING TO MAKE IT. NOT MUCH RIDING ON IT... JUST EVERYTHING LOLOL. FRIENDS, SHOWS, GAMES, AND EVERYTHING WILL HAVE TO BE PUT ON HOLD AND WAIT CAUSE ALL THAT STUFF CAN COME BACK, THIS CANT, OR AT LEAST WONT FOR A WHILE. SO HERE GOES NOTHING, TO A MONTH OF HIBERNATING. YOU GOTTA DO WHAT YOU GOTTA GO, TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANNA GO. SO SEE YOU ALL IN SEPTEMBER :) OF COURSE IL STILL BE POSTING... IM GONNA SOUND CRAZIER AND CRAZIER AS I GET CLOSER AND TIME RUNNING OUT... SO ENJOY WATCHING ME TURN MAD... BUT NO MORE THAN USUAL EH HAHA.

SO REGARDING TIMING... A LOT OF THINGS IN LIFE IS ABOUT TIMING... WHERE YOU GO, WHAT YOU DO, HOW YOU GET THERE AND WHY YOURE THERE. YOU MET SOMEONE WHO HELPED YOU, BUMPED INTO SOMEONE WHO WAS ABLE TO DO SOMETHING, AVOIDED AN ACCIDENT, OR YOU WERE THERE TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE. WALKED A BIT FASTER OR A BIT SLOWER, WOKE UP EARLIER OR LATER. IT ALL MAKES A DIFFERENCE. SO MANY THINGS IN LIFE IS ABOUT TIMING. MAKING A MOVE EARLY OR LATER CAN HAVE SUCH A BIG EFFECT ON THE OUTCOME YOU WANTED. MEETING SOMEONE AT THE RIGHT OR WRONG TIME CAN CAUSE YOUR LIFE TO GO IN TOTALLY DIFFERENT AND OPPOSITE WAYS. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN LIFE AND DEATH. HONESTLY THIS IS WHY I REALLY DO BELIEVE THAT EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON, AND HAPPENS AT THE TIME THAT IT NEEDS TO HAPPEN. ITS LIKE THE GALAXIES WAY OF TELLING YOU EITHER NO YOURE NOT READY OR YES YOU CAN DO IT NOW. SOMETIMES YOU CAN CONTROL WHEN, WHERE, HOW AND WHY SOMETHING HAPPENS, BUT ITS HARDER TO CONTROL WHEN THINGS HAPPEN TO YOU. THE ONLY THING YOU CAN DO IS HOPE THAT YOU ARE PREPARED ENOUGH WHEN THE TIME COMES AND IT HAPPENS. GOOD THINGS, BAD THINGS, THEY ALL HAPPEN FOR A REASON, AND THEY HAPPEN AT THE TIME THAT NEEDS TO HAPPEN.

RANDOM BIRDIE MISSING ITS HEAD AND TAIL... HMMM LOL

SO THIS HAPPENED LOL NO MORE PARTYING... YA... THAT LASTED A WEEK... HAHA

MMM YUMMMMM

THE GATHERING LOL

AWWW YEAH BDAY BUNS :)

CAKE AND MIX THINGY

SPOT THE DBAG? YA RIGHT THERE LOL

WTF!!! I WANT MY 50 POINTS ARGGGG

WORKS FINE, JUST NOW I GOT MORE TO FOCUS ON. HAD SOME PROBLEMS WITH THE EMAILING TODAY AND THAT WAS FUN... RECEIVING EMAILS HOURS LATER AND OUT OF ORDER SO IT WAS LIKE WHY ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT... LOL. THEN REPLYING TO SOMETHING THAT DOESNT NEED TO BE REPLIED TO CAUSE I DIDNT GET THE OTHER EMAIL YET THAT ALREADY COVERED IT HAHA.

YA... LIKE I SAID I THOUGHT I COULD FINALLY STOP PARTYING AND TAKE A BREAK... WELL THAT BREAK LASTED 1 WEEK... WEEKEND TECHNICALLY HAHA. SOMEHOW ENDED UP PARTYING... I DONT KNOW HOW... DROVE A FRIEND DOWN... THEN SOMEHOW FOUND PARKING... OH LOOK NO TICKET YAY I DONT HAVE TO GO... OH WAIT... FRIEND HAD EXTRA TICKET... FUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!! PARTY PARTY PARTY... BUT NOW IM GOOD. NO MORE... TIL AFTER MY EXAM... WHICH I ALREADY HAVE TICKETS FOR HAHA. NOT EVEN MY BDAY OR MY BUDDIES BDAY, GONNA HAVE TO LAY LOW TO STAY AWAY FROM THE PARTY SCENE HAHA. EVERYONE ELSE HAVE FUN :P

HAD A FAMILY GATHERING FOR THE AUGUST BDAY PPL. HAD ABOUT 25 PPL IN MY AUNTS PLACE... AND MAN WAS THERE A LOT OF FOOD. THE PIC ABOVE ONLY SHOWED 1/3 TABLES... OTHER TABLE HAD SNACKS AND SOME MORE SNACKS ON THE OTHER ONE. IT WAS NICE SEEING A BUNCH OF PEOPLE I HAVENT SEEN IN A WHILE AND PEOPLE THAT I DIDNT KNOW... LOL

ALSO WATCHED LUCY YESTERDAY. I LIKED THE STORY LINE, MY KIND OF THING. IT WAS FILMED IN A WAY THAT WORKED FOR THAT MOVIE. SCARLETT JOHANSSON... HMMMM SHE WAS OK... NOT SURE IF IF I WOULD HAVE CASTED HER INTO IT. MORGAN FREEMAN... YOU CANT GO WRONG WITH HIM LOL. A FEW QUESTIONS ABOUT THE MOVIE BUT WHEN ISNT THERE A QUESTION RIGHT? WITHOUT SPOILING ANYTHING A MAJOR THEME THATS TALKED ABOUT MAKES YOU REALLY WONDER WHAT WE ARE DOING HERE... WHERE ARE WE GOING... AND ONCE AGAIN THE SUBJECT OF TIME. EVERYTHING EVENTUALLY IRREVOCABLY ALWAYS COME BACK TO... TIME.

WELL... THIS POST WAS MORE REMINISCENT OF MY EARLIER POSTS IN THE YEAR... WHERE IT WAS MORE THOUGHT PROVOKING EH.

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RIDE OX FIND HORSE

NO I HAVENT GONE CRAZY... OR AT LEAST NO MORE THAN NORMAL... LOL. TO SOME I SUPPOSE THE TITLE IS A LITTLE ODD SOUNDING BUT IF YOUR ARE CHINESE OR MORE SPECIFICALLY CANTONESE THEN DO A STRAIGHT TRANSLATION AND YOU WILL GET IT. FOR EVERYONE ELSE LET ME CLARIFY THIS A BIT BETTER... RIDE OX FIND HORSE SHOULD BE WRITTEN MORE LIKE TO RIDE AN OX LOOKING FOR A HORSE WHICH IS A CHINESE PROVERB WHICH MEANS WORK THE JOB YOU HAVE WHILE LOOKING FOR A BETTER ONE. MUCH CLEARER EH? HAHA. I GUESS THIS POST ALSO TIES INTO A FEW OTHERS... MOSTLY THE PART ABOUT DREAMS AND ALWAYS TRYING TO DO BETTER AND GET BETTER AND TO GO TO BETTER PLACES. 

BEEN THINKING LATELY AND THERES SO MUCH I WANT TO DO AND JUST SO LITTLE TIME. IVE BEEN SAYING THAT THERES A BUNCH OF STUFF THAT I WANT TO DO AND THAT I WAS GOING TO SHARE SOME OF THE LIST WITH YOU ALL... I GUESS THIS IS AS GOOD AS TIME AS ANY... AT 3:45AM... LOL. SO HERES A LITTLE LIST OF THE STUFF I WANT TO GET DONE:

• LEARN DUTCH
• LEARN RUSSIAN
• LEARN GERMAN
• LEARN TO SURF
• TRAVEL THE WORLD
• CLIMB UP A MOUNTAIN (NO NOT THOSE EASY ONES OR THE ONES YOU SNOWBOARD)
• DIVE DEEP INTO AN OCEAN (SCUBA DIVE AND SNORKEL TOO)
• GO ON A SAFARI
• LEARN TO PLAY THE VIOLIN
• JUST DISAPPEAR FOR A WHILE

SO THIS IS JUST A LIST OF STUFF THAT I WANT TO DO NOW... THESE ARE THE REALISTIC ONES LOL. OF COURSE THERES TONS MORE THAT I COULD SHARE... BUT I DONT FEEL LIKE IT HAHA. I MEAN THOSE "WHAT I WANT TO DO" IS MORE OF THE WHERE I WANT TO GO AND WHAT I WANT TO BE... IN LIFE "TO DO" LIST. 

ANYWAYS... WHAT WAS I TALKING ABOUT... OH YES... JOB. WELL WHAT CAN I SAY. JUST RIDING AN OX LOOKING FOR A HORSE, WAITING FOR THAT BETTER THING TO COME. TRYING TO MAKE THINGS HAPPEN BUT SOMETIMES ITS JUST OUTSIDE OF YOUR CONTROL. ANOTHER PROBLEM IS DONT WE ALL BELIEVE WE DESERVE BETTER? WE DO DONT WE? I MEAN THATS WHAT WE ALL WANT. NONE OF US JUST EVER WANT TO SETTLE... BUT SOMETIMES YOU JUST HAVE TO TAKE WHATS GIVEN TO YOU... UNTIL THE DAY COMES WHEN YOU FINALLY GET WHAT YOU WANT. AS ALWAYS THE COMPANIES THAT YOU WANT TO WORK FOR OR THE JOB YOU WANT... THEY MIGHT NOT WANT YOU... YOU KNOW YOU WILL DO GREAT IN THAT POSITION BUT THEY NEVER GIVE YOU THE CHANCE, THEY NEVER CALL YOU FOR THE INTERVIEW AND THEY NEVER WILL KNOW HOW AWESOME YOU COULD BE. I DONT KNOW... I MEAN SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE... SOMETHING HAS TO GIVE... WE ALL CANT JUST GO DAY IN AND DAY OUT... THIS ISNT LIFE... THIS ISNT WHAT ITS SUPPOSE TO BE ABOUT... IS IT??? CAN IT??? SHOULD IT??? WELL... I GUESS ITS BACK TO THE PART I HATE MOST... WAITING... NO CHOICE BUT TO WAIT AND SEE.

MMMM SUSHI :)

YA... STUDYING AND EATING PIZZA AND CHEESE BREAD LOL

WINGS ROUND 1

WINGS ROUND 2

NOW THATSSSSSSSS LOADED WITH SALT LOL

INCEPTION YO!!! OF A COOKIE 

MY ASIAN PLATES LOL AND LUNCH...

PIZZA WITH CHOPSTICKS!!! THATS HOW I ROLL LOL

OH I HAD AN ONLINE MT... WE HAD 2 DAYS TO DO IT... HONESTLY I RATHER DO IT IN CLASS... I WOULD PROBABLY WRITE LESS AND GET A BETTER GRADE LOL. I MEAN THE TEACHER KNOWS THAT YOU ARE PRESSED FOR TIME SO THE QUALITY MIGHT BE A LITTLE LOWER... BUTTTTTTTT WITH MORE TIME SHE EXPECTS IT TO BE OF A HIGHER QUALITY... ALSO LONGER LOL. OH WELL. I HAVE MY OTHER PART OF MY MT TOMORROW AND INSTEAD OF STUDYING I WATCHED SOME TV AND WROTE THIS HAHA. IL BE OK CAUSE ALL I HAVE TO DO IS JUST LOOK OVER A FEW THINGS AND IM GOOD.

SO THIS POST WAS MORE OF THE REGULAR RAMBLINGS OF ME... BACK TO THE OLD STYLE IN A WAY... MOSTLY CAUSE IVE BEEN THINKING LATELY... THINKING ABOUT LIFE AND THE CHOICES I MADE... NOT EVEN GOING TO START ON WRITING ABOUT THAT CAUSE THERES NEVER GOING TO BE ENOUGH CAPS LOCK FOR THAT HAHA. YA... SO LETS JUST LEAVE THAT TOPIC FOR SAY... NEVER!!! HAHA. SOMETIMES I JUST WISH I COULD DO WHAT I LIKE... BUT THAT DOESNT PAY THE BILLS... OH WELL... BACK TO THE GRIND... BACK TO THE OX UNTIL I FIND THAT FREAKING HORSE LOL :)

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WHAT ARE YOU LEAVING BEHIND???

SO CONTINUING ON WITH SOME DEEP THOUGHTS OF MINE IS THIS WEEKS TOPIC OF "WHAT ARE YOU LEAVING BEHIND" AND I MEAN AT THE END OF YOUR LIFE... WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WANT TO BE REMEMBERED FOR OR WANT TO HAVE ACCOMPLISHED IN THE END. WHATS YOUR LEGACY BASICALLY. IF YOU REALLY THINK ABOUT THIS, ITS ACTUALLY REALLY HARD TO ANSWER... I MEAN IM IN MY MID 20'S AND I HAVE THE REST OF MY LIFE AHEAD OF ME STILL TO DECIDE WHERE TO GO AND WHAT TO DO... ITS HARD TO THINK WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN IN THE NEXT 50-75 YEARS, I PERSONALLY PLAN TO LIVE FOREVER CAUSE I WANT TO SEE THEM FLYING CARS AND SPACESHIPS LOL. SO MAYBE A LITTLE BIT MORE DOWN TO EARTH OF WHATS ACTUALLY GOING TO HAPPEN. HONESTLY I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE I WILL BE OR WHAT IM GOING TO DO BUT I THINK ITS GOING TO BE SOMETHING LIKE THIS:

• MARRIED WITH 2 KIDS - A SON THATS THE OLDER ONE, AND A DAUGHTER FOR THE YOUNGER
• LIVE IN A HOUSE IN WHO KNOWS WHERE
• DOING SOMETHING I LIKE AND NOT JUST A JOB THAT I HAVE TO
• STILL HAVE THE SAME FRIENDS I HAVE NOW BUT HAVE EVEN MORE FUN CAUSE OUR KIDS WOULD PLAY TOGETHER AND BE BEST FRIENDS WITH EACH OTHER
• HAVE VACATIONS TO AWESOME PLACES AROUND THE WORLD

THATS ABOUT HOW FAR IT GOES... EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN I HAVE NO CLUE. SO THATS THE PART OF WHAT IM LEAVING BEHIND, BUT WHAT ABOUT HOW IM GOING TO BE REMEMBERED? SOME PEOPLE ARE CONTENT WITH WHAT THEY HAVE OR WHERE THEY ARE. SOME PEOPLE WANT THE WORLD AND HAVE THEIR NAMES IN THE STARS. SOME PEOPLE WANT TO BE FAMOUS AND HISTORY WILL REMEMBER THEM. WHERE DO I FALL UNDER? I DONT KNOW... I GUESS I WANT TO BE REMEMBERED FOR... BEING AWESOME :) LOL. I DONT KNOW... WHAT WILL PEOPLE SAY ABOUT ME AFTER IM GONE... I MEAN I DONT WANT TO BE REMEMBERED FOR ANYTHING BAD OF COURSE, BUT I KNOW I WONT DO SOMETHING LIKE CREATING A CURE FOR SOME DISEASE... OR BE THE 1ST PERSON TO DO SOMETHING NEVER DONE BEFORE... ACTUALLY... NOW COME TO THINK OF IT, I KNOW I CAN BREAK SOME OF THOSE GUINNESS WORLD RECORDS... SOOOOOOO TIME TO GO READ THE BOOK AND BREAK A BUNCH OF RECORDS SO AT LEAST MY NAME WILL BE IN THERE :) YA!!! THATS WHAT IM GOING TO DO LOL. MY NAME WILL BE THERE AND OF COURSE THIS BLOG WILL STILL BE UP SOMEWHERE ON THE INTERNET SO I GUESS IN A WAY THIS IS WHAT IM LEAVING BEHIND... ME SCREAMING AND YELLING AT EVERYONE HAHA. 

MMMMM BEANS AND CHOPS :) CEPT RICE WAS MEH LOL

CLAN FOOD!!!!!!!!! WOOOOO LOVE THIS STUFF HEHE

YA... SO THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED... I HAVE A LACK OF PHOTOS... JUST BEEN BUSY WITH WORK AND SCHOOL AND SOMETIMES I WISH THERE WAS MORE TIME IN THE DAY FOR EVERYTHING I NEED TO GET DONE...

SO THERE YOU GO, A SHORT POST :) BUT BEEN THINKING A LOT ABOUT A LOT OF THINGS THESE DAYS. WHICH HAS BROUGHT US TO THIS POST, LIFES HARD AND IT SUCKS A LOT OF THE TIMES. I JUST SEE PEOPLE GOING DAY IN AND DAY OUT GRINDING AWAY... THERE HAS TO BE SOMETHING BETTER AND THERE IS!!! PROBLEM IS THAT EVERYTHING REQUIRES MONEY... ISNT IT FUNNY HOW IT ALWAYS ENDS UP BEING ABOUT MONEY? GUESS WE CAN ONLY WAIT TO SEE WHERE IT ALL LEADS TO EH...

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FINAL EXAM TOMORROW SO IM GOING TO SLEEP

FIRST OFF IM GONNA SAY IS HAPPY BDAY TO MY BROTHER :) EVEN THOUGH ODDS ARE HES NEVER GONNA SEE THIS CAUSE HE BARELY USES FB AND HE TRIED TO READ MY BLOG ONCE... ONCE... TRIED... YA... LOL BUT HERE YOU GO. ALSO HAD DINNER WITH HIM TONIGHT SO DINNER WITH THE FAMS NICE.

NOT REALLY GONNA SAY MUCH TONIGHT SINCE I HAVE MY FINAL EXAM TOMORROW AND GOTTA FINISH READING A BIT MORE TOMORROW. NOTHING REALLY BESIDES THAT... I MEAN I DID HAVE AN INTERVIEW THE OTHER DAY... LASTED 3.5 HOURS LONG... YA... 1ST INTERVIEW LASTED LIKE 30 MINS AND 2ND LAST ANOTHER 30 MINS AND THEN MET ANOTHER MANAGER AND SAT IN ON THE JOB. MAN ITS HECTIC!!! NONSTOP AND ITS JUST CONSTANT SOMETHING. SEEMS COOL THOUGH. GOT CALLED BACK FOR FINAL INTERVIEW ON FRIDAY SO WE SHALL SEE. THIS IS THE PROBLEM... I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO GIVE ME THE CHANCE TO INTERVIEW AND I CAN SHOW YOU WHAT I CAN DO... THE PROBLEM IS THAT I DONT EVEN GET THE CHANCE TO GO INTO THE INTERVIEW... *SIGH... I KNOW ONCE YOU INTERVIEW ME YOU WILL KNOW THAT IM PERFECT FOR THE JOB. BLA... BUT THIS COMPANYS PRETTY GOOD. LOTS OF ADVANCEMENT AND MOVEMENT SO LETS SEE WHERE THIS LEADS TO :)

DISH OF SILVER FISH FOR DINNER LOL

DECO AT SCHOOL

THANKS LADY... MAKING CARAMEL ALL OVER THE PLACE LEAKING...

INDEED

I GOT HUNGRY... JK JK ITS FOR 2 PEOPLE

OH MIRANDA YOU SO PRETTY :)

HOT POT AT THE AUNTS PLACE

JUST THE POT... LOL

SUSHI FOR LUNCH

SUSHI FOR ANOTHER DAY AT LUNCH

MMM TWICE COOKED PORK THE RIGHT WAY LOL

FAMILY DINNER... LOOKS SORTA BLEH HAHA 

FOUND MYSELF THINKING ALOT THIS WEEK... ITS INTERESTING WHERE THE MIND GOES WHEN YOU JUST LAYING ON THE GROUND NOT DOING ANYTHING... SOME GOOD, SOME BAD, SOME JUST WTF... ONE DAY IL LET YOU ALL INTO THE MIND THAT WHICH IS RICKY... LOL. UNTIL THEN... SEE YOU ALL NEXT WEEK. 

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I HAVE A PAPER TO WRITE... I SHOULD GO DO IT...

SOO... YA... I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT TO DO THATS DUE TOMORROW AND IM HERE WRITING INSTEAD OF DOING THAT HAHA. I KNOW WHAT IM GONNA WRITE SO ITS GONNA BE EASY HEHE. THIS WEEK WAS A QUIET WEEK. WENT TO SCHOOL AND JUST BEEN APPLYING TO SOME JOBS. I SWEAR IM PERFECT FOR THOSE JOBS JUST FREAKING CALL ME AND INTERVIEW ME JEZZ!!! IM PRO IN INTERVIEWS!!! I GET ALMOST ALL THE JOBS I GO INTERVIEW FOR HAHA. LIFES BEEN QUIET BESIDES THAT CAUSE ITS DARK AND BORING THESE DAYS. DONT REALLY FEEL LIKE DOING MUCH EITHER HONESTLY... GOTTA SAVE MONEY HAHA. OH OH OH ESPECIALLY SINCE EDC TICKETS ARE COMING OUT ON MONDAY... SOOO ROUND 3 HERE WE GO :) WOOOO, BUT FIRST... BACK TO MY ASSIGNMENT LOL

CARAMEL MACCHIATO WITH EXTRA CARAMEL AND A CRANBERRY SCONE CAUSE IM HUNGRY!!!

LOL CHURCHES FOR SOME JALAPENO BOMBERS HEHE

HAHA MY COMPUTER IS SAD

WTF... TINY ASS ICE CREAM SANDWICHES :@ GRR

CHIPS, SALSA, AND PARMESAN CHEESE AEHAHEAH :)

FINDING MYSELF ONCE AGAIN IN THAT BLANK OF A PLACE STARING OUT THE WINDOW OR AT THE FIRE AND REALIZING WHAT THIS REALLY IS... AND WHEN... WHEN WILL IT ALL COME TOGETHER... PATIENCE I SUPPOSE... SOONER OR LATER... BUT IT BETTER BE SOONER THAN LATER...

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ANOTHER YEAR WISER

CAN YOU BELIEVE ANOTHER YEARS GONE BY ALREADY??? IT JUST SEEMED LIKED YESTERDAY WHEN I WAS TELLING YOU ALL ABOUT GRADUATING SCHOOL AND STARTING THE NEW JOB OR GOING ON VACATION TO EUROPE OR EDC OR THE BEST PART IS TELLING YOU ALL ABOUT THE FOOD I EAT LOL. NOW, A YEAR LATER AND A YEAR OLDER IM STILL SHOWING YOU PICTURES OF MY FOOD HAHA. HOW MUCH HAS CHANGED THIS YEAR??? BELIEVE IT OR NOT... IT ACTUALLY CHANGED QUITE A BIT... I GOT A JOB... THEN LAID OFF THAT JOB... STARTED CERTIFICATE PROGRAM... WENT ON VACA AND NOW DOING MY OWN THING. BETWEEN THAT PEOPLE CAME AND GONE, THINGS WERE SAID AND DONE, AND A LOT AND I MEAN A LOTTTTTT OF PARTYING ALL YEAR LOL.

WELL I PARTIED HARD THIS WEEKEND... NOT TO MENTION THE USUAL TUESDAY... SOOO YA... ALSO WENT TO SING K TWICE THE PAST WEEK... THATS 2X MORE THAN THE PAST YEAR I THINK... I LIKE SINGING K BUT JUST NOT MANY PPL WANT TO GO. JUST A LOT OF LATE NIGHTS... IM GETTING OLD... I SHOULD REALLY SLEEP EARLIER LOL PARTY TIL 3... EAT GO HOME AND SLEEP AROUND 5 IF ITS EARLY HAHA.

WELL I GUESS I HAVE TO MAKE A LITTLE BIT OF A SHOUTOUT TO EMI SINCE SHE WAS SUPER SNEAKY AND BAKED ME SOMETHING THAT I WANTED FOR A LONG TIME... RAINBOW CUPCAKES!!!!!!!!!!!!! IVE WAITED A LONG LONG TIME AND AFTER NAGGING HER FOR IT SHE FINALLY DID IT!!! WOOOOOO... IM ACTUALLY PRETTY SURE SHE DIDNT DO IT JUST FOR ME BUTTTTTT SHES GONNA BE SMART ENOUGH AND SAY SHE MADE IT JUST FOR ME RIGHT RIGHT NYA??? HAHA. SO I THOUGHT IT WAS ACTUALLY JUST RED VELVET CUPCAKES AND WHEN I PEELED THE PAPER OFF IM LIKE OMG!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! AND I JUST HAD TO POST SOME PICTURES OF IT LOL. WELL PLAYED EMI, YOU SHOULD UPDATE YOUR BLOG TOO. MAKE IT INTO A FOOD BLOG AND IL TASTE TEST ALL YOUR CREATIONS :)

WOOO 1.5 LEMONS IN MY PHO :) HEHE

TRIPPY KARAOKE CEILING

GETTING MORE DEMOLISHED EVERYDAY

MIDNIGHT SNACK MY ASS... 3AM... THIS WAS MORE LIKE A MEAL LOL 9 DISHES FOR 6 PPL... 3 GIRLS AND 3 GUYS LOL HALF THE STUFF WAS DEEP FRIED LOL

I THINK THIS WAS MY 1ST TRIPLE-OS LOL

AWESOME SURPRISE FROM AN AWESOME FRIEND :) WOOO RED VELVET HEHE

OH WAIT IT WASNT RED VELVET!>>!>!>!?!?!?!? ITS A RAINBOW CUPCAKE!!! YAAAAAA WOOOOOOO EVEN BETTER LOLOLOL

AFTER TELLING HER TO MAKE IT FOR A REALLY REALLY LONG TIME SHE FINALLY MADE IT HEHE AWESOME :)

MANGO SALMON SALMON ROLL HAHA

ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE FENCE HEHE

SIDENOTE... CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS IS GOING TO BE POST #97... ALMOST 100 POSTS... ITS ALMOST BEEN 2 YEARS SINCE IVE STARTED THIS THING AND THE PEOPLE WHO GOT ME INTO IT STOPPED UPDATING AND DOING THINGS TO THEIRS. EVERY WEEK YOU ALL GET A SNEAK PEEK INTO THE MIND THAT IS I, I SUPPOSE THIS IS MORE OF AN OUTLET... OR MAYBE ITS A VANITY THING HAHA. IVE ACTUALLY THOUGHT OF STOPPING AT 100 AND JUST DOING IT WHENEVER... OR JUST SLOWING DOWN... WELL WHO KNOWS WHAT WILL HAPPEN. YOU ALL GET A FEW MORE POSTS BEFORE THAT HAPPENS AND WHEN IT DOES YOU WILL SEE AND SO WILL I.

SPEAKING OF VANITY... ITS WEIRD CAUSE FOR ME... BDAY ITS HONESTLY JUST ANOTHER DAY... IT JUST MAKES YOU THINK  MORE ABOUT WHAT YOU DID THE PAST YEAR... WHERE YOU THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE... AND YOU GETTING ANOTHER YEAR OLDER... THATS THE SAME WITH MY "PARTY" I REALLY ONLY HAVE DINNER WITH THE FEW CLOSE FRIENDS. I NEVER REALLY LIKED BIG PARTIES... MEH. WHAT I HAVE TO LOOK FORWARD TO THIS COMING YEAR??? WHO KNOWS... GUESS WE WILL JUST HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE HAHA.

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IM RICH!!! EI JUST KICKED IN!!! WOOO :)

SO FINALLY!!! AFTER A MONTH AND A BIT MY FIRST EI DEPOSIT CAME IN!!! :) IM RICHHHHHHHHHH HAHA... IF ONLY :( BUT MEH ITS PARTY MONEY JKJK. ALSO ON ANOTHER NOTE... SCHOOLS DONE!!! TIME TO HAVE A SUMMER WOOOO. FINAL PRESENTATION AND FINAL EXAM WAS THE PAST FEW DAYS. ACTUALLY... THE FINAL EXAM ONLY LASTED 25 MINS... THATS A RECORD FOR ME... I COULD HAVE BEEN DONE EARLIER BUTTTTT CHECKED OVER THE ANSWERS. NOW TIME TO ENJOY MY SUMMER.

LATELY JUST BEEN GOING OUT WITH MORE FRIENDS AND ENJOYING THE SUN AND JUST RANDOM CATCHING UP. NOTHING BIG PLANNED FOR THE REST OF THE SUMMER SO JUST GONNA GO WITH THE FLOW. WATCHED A FEW MOVIES AND HAD A FEW PARTIES. HOW ABOUT SOCCER YOU ASK??? WELL... WE WON OUR LAST GAME... BUT I COULDNT CAPITALIZE ON MY MANY CHANCES... ESPECIALLY THE HEADER :( THATS THE MAIN ONE IM UNHAPPY ABOUT... BLA... BOTH MY TEAMMATE AND I HAD A COUPLE OF GOOD CHANCES AND JUST COULDNT FINISH ARGG!!! OH WELL THERES ALWAYS NEXT GAME LOL.

DUCK BUTT :)

BRIDGE LOL

BLACKENED ARCTIC CHAR MMM :)

DAM... DIDNT KNOW IT WAS BLURRY :(

YEAHHHHHHH GOT ZEE CAR BACK :) I WISH IT WAS THE NSX LOL

SUNSET

TESLA MODEL-S... NO BIGGIE, ITS ONLY A 17'' TOUCHSCREEN... LOL

HEHE SNACKS

AHHH BLURRY SKEWERS :(

WOW... DAFT PUNK ON VINYL AND CHECK OUT THE POSTER IN THE BACK LOL

PORSCHE LOT... GO AWAY CHEVY BOARD... YOU DRUNK LOL

HAHA BATMAN: THE DARK KNIGHT RETURNS PART 2 LOL OH FUNNY

THERE WE GO... OVERLY MANLY PATRIOTIC SUPERMAN WITH A OPEN CHESTED SHIRT LOL

OH SELENA... YOU LET YOURSELF GO... :S

LOOKS LIKE BATTLE OF THE CHUNKIES... LOL

THERES STRAWBERRIES IN MY SUSHI... HMMM...

PROGRESS

WHAT ELSE IS THERE REALLY TO WRITE ABOUT... NOT MUCH SINCE NOT MUCH IS HAPPENING... PARTYING... EATING... GOING OUT... AND THINKING... YA I GUESS THATS WHAT BEEN HAPPENING. LOTS OF THINKING AND LOTS TO THINK ABOUT. ALSO PLANNING... LOTS TO PLAN HAHA. SHOULD START GETTING ON THAT ACTUALLY... UNTIL NEXT TIME~

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