TALKING TO YOURSELF

EVERYONE TALKS TO THEMSELVES, AND IF YOU SAY YOU DONT THEN YOURE JUST LYING. EVERYONE TALKS TO THEMSELVES IN SOME FORM OR ANOTHER. YOU CAN JUST BE TALKING TO YOURSELF TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THE ANSWER TO A PROBLEM, OR TALKING TO YOURSELF TO MENTALLY PREPARE YOURSELF FOR SOMETHING. THERES JUST TOO MANY INSTANCES THAT IM JUST NOT GOING TO BOTHER WRITING THEM ALL. TALKING TO YOURSELF CAN BE CALMING AS WELL, BUT IM MORE INTERESTED IN THE FULL ON CONVERSATIONS YOU HAVE WITH YOURSELF. THE TYPE THAT YOU TALK FOR THE OTHER PERSON TOO AND REACT FOR THEM TOO. LIKE THE ONES WHERE YOU KNOW THERES GOING TO BE A CONFRONTATION AND TRYING TO FIGHT FOR YOUR POINT. OR THE ONES WHERE YOU JUST PLAY OUT A SITUATION AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS. THE FUNNY THING IS THAT THE RESPONSES IN YOUR HEAD ARE OF THE PERFECT RESPONSES THAT FIT YOUR VIEW OF THE SITUATION. IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN LIKE IT WILL IN YOUR HEAD, BECAUSE YOU ARE YOU AND YOU ARE NOT THEM. HUMANS ARE THE MOST UNPREDICTABLE CREATURES IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE. YOU CANNOT PREDICT WHAT THEY WILL SAY OR DO. YOU CAN PLAY EVERY POSSIBLE SCENARIO OUT IN YOUR HEAD BUT WHEN IT COMES TO THAT MOMENT, IT WILL NEVER GO THE WAY YOU THINK IT WILL. YOU CANNOT SEE HOW THEIR THOUGHT PROCESS WORKS AND HOW THEY WILL CONNECT THE THINGS YOU SAY TO THEIR OWN VIEW OF THE SITUATION AND REACT. YOU CAN THINK YOURE RIGHT ALL THE WAY AND THEY COULD THROW A WRENCH IN THE WHOLE THING AND TURN IT ALL UPSIDE DOWN. IF THATS THE CASE THEN WHY DO WE EVEN BOTHER TALKING TO OURSELVES... MAYBE ITS A COPING MECHANISM BECAUSE WE KNOW THAT THE PERFECT RESPONSE WILL NEVER HAPPEN, MAYBE ITS TO GIVE US HOPE OF WHAT COULD BE, MAYBE ITS A VISION OF ANOTHER REALITY THAT IT ACTUALLY HAPPENS. PERSONALLY... I TALK TO MYSELF ALL THE TIME. I LOVE HEARING MYSELF TALK LOL. WHAT ABOUT THE REST OF YOU ALL? ANY OF YOU TALK TO YOURSELVES? HOW ABOUT TALKING TO YOURSELF TO THE POINT WHERE YOU LOSE? THAT WOULD BE INTERESTING...

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BLACK HOLE!!!

WELL... I TOTALLY HAD A QUALITY POST READY TO GO TODAY BUT THEN THIS NEWS CAME OUT AND I JUST HAD TO WRITE ABOUT IT WHILE ITS HOT. HERES A LITTLE KNOWN FACT ABOUT ME... I READ... SOMETIMES... ABOUT NEWS... AND RANDOM STUFF... ANYWAYS IM PRETTY SURE YOU ALL HAVE HEARD THE NEWS BY NOW, OR MAYBE I SENT YOU ALL THE LINK ALREADY... THE FIRST EVER BLACK HOLE WAS PHOTOGRAPHED AND RELEASED!!! OMG OMG OMG AHHHH!!! IM A SCI-FI GUY AND THE WHOLE NOTION OF BLACK HOLE INTRIGUES ME. IL GIVE MY VIEWS ON THIS IN A MOMENT, BUT FIRST LETS JUST GO OVER THE SPECS. THEY HAVE BEEN SAYING THEY COULDNT PHOTOGRAPH A BLACK HOLE BUT THEY HAVE NOW AND ITS A HUGE STEP FORWARD FOR SCIENCE. ANYWAYS... IT TOOK 8 CRAZY TELESCOPES, DECADES OF RESEARCH, MILLIONS AND MILLIONS OF DOLLARS, TO FIND A BLACK HOLE THATS 55 MILLION LIGHT YEARS AWAY, 40 BILLION KM ACROSS, 3 MILLION TIMES THE SIZE OF EARTH, AND HAS A MASS 6.5 BILLION TIMES THAT OF THE SUN. ITS A BEAST OF A BLACK HOLE! WE KNOW VERY LITTLE ABOUT BLACK HOLES AND WHAT WE DO KNOW IS A LOT OF THEORIES. WE KNOW ITS DENSE, WE KNOW NOTHING CAN ESCAPE IT... NOT EVEN LIGHT, GRAVITY AND SPACE TIME IS AFFECTED, BUT WHAT ELSE DO WE KNOW. ITS NOT LIKE WE HAVE ACTUALLY WENT AND LOOKED AT ONE. THERES APPARENTLY A BLACK HOLE CLOSER TO OUR MILKY WAY BUT ITS NOWHERE THE SIZE OF THIS BEAST AND DOESNT HAVE AN ACCRETION DISC LIKE THIS ONE. YES I KNOW WORDS LOL. THE PROBLEM IS THAT THERE IS SO MUCH MORE THAT SCIENCE DOESNT KNOW. THEY EVEN ADMIT THAT IF LIGHT CANT ESCAPE IT, THEN HOW IS THE LIGHT PRODUCED... WHAT IS THE LIGHT THAT WE SEE... THEN THERES THE ALL IMPORTANT QUESTION OF... WHERE DOES THE BLACK HOLE GO... THERES TONS OF SCHOOLS OF THOUGHT. SOME SAY THAT IT GOES TO ANOTHER UNIVERSE, OR THAT IT ESCAPES OUR REALITY, ANOTHER DIMENSION, ANOTHER TIME AND SPACE, WHO KNOWS AND WHO WILL EVER KNOW... WHAT IS AT THE CENTER OF THE SINGULARITY... WHAT HAPPENS PAST THE EVENT HORIZON... ITS SUPPOSED TO BE DENSE, SO DENSE THAT IT JUST COLLAPSES IN ON ITSELF... BUT THEN WHERE DOES EVERYTHING GO? EVEN IF WE WANTED TO FIND OUT WE WOULDNT BE ABLE TO... SAY WE CAN MAKE IT TO THE BLACK HOLE, THE ISSUE IS THAT WE WOULD BE CRUSHED BEFORE WE EVEN GET CLOSE TO IT, AND IF SOMEHOW WE WERE ABLE TO MAKE IT TO THE BLACK HOLE THERES NO WAY BACK. SHOWS LIKE STARGATE AND ANDROMEDA AND MOVIES LIKE INTERSTELLAR GIVE US A GLIMPSE OF WHAT COULD POSSIBLY BE ON THE OTHER SIDE, BUT THATS ALL FOR ENTERTAINMENT. THEN AGAIN WHO KNOWS. MAYBE IT REALLY IS A DOORWAY TO ANOTHER UNIVERSE. IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT, IT CANT JUST GO NOWHERE... EVERYTHING IS EVERYWHERE AND MATTER IS EVERYWHERE... IT CANT JUST BE GONE... IT REALLY COULD BE A HIGHER PLAN OF EXISTENCE OR CONSCIOUSNESS AS WELL. MAYBE THE BLACK HOLE IS ALIVE AND IS A LIVING ENTITY... WHO KNOWS. IF I COULD, I WOULD TOTALLY VOLUNTEER TO GO AND FIND OUT WHATS ON THE OTHER SIDE. I DONT CARE IF NO ONE EVER FINDS OUT THE ANSWER, AS LONG AS I KNOW, THATS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME. I THINK I WOULD WANT TO KNOW TO SATISFY MY OWN CURIOSITY. THEN WHAT ABOUT A WHITE HOLE... I GUESS THATS A TOPIC FOR ANOTHER TIME. AND WITH THIS BLURRY PHOTO, IT HAS MADE HUMANITY QUESTION SO MUCH MORE AND REALIZE HOW LITTLE WE REALLY KNOW ABOUT SPACE AND THE UNIVERSE. IT REALLY SHOWS HOW INSIGNIFICANT AND SMALL WE ARE IN THE WHOLE SCHEME OF THINGS. WHILE WE ARE ALL WORRYING ABOUT WHAT TO EAT NEXT OR WHERE TO GO FOR VACATION, AT THE END OF IT ALL, OUR EXISTENCE WONT EVEN REGISTER AS A BLIP IN THE COSMOS. SO IN THE FRACTION OF A SECOND THAT WE ARE HERE, MAKE THE BEST OF IT, AND MAKE IT COUNT!

SO WHATS YOUR TAKE ON BLACK HOLES?

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IN BETWEEN

WELL IM BACK, BACK TO REALITY. IT WAS A TIRING TRIP. IT WAS NICE SEEING FAMILY AND HANGING OUT BUT IT WAS NONSTOP. I ACTUALLY GOT BACK MONDAY MORNING, THEN I WENT HOME, CHANGED, AND WENT STRAIGHT TO WORK LOL. ENDED UP STAYING UP SOMEWHERE AROUND 35... 40... HOURS? I WOULD HAVE TO CALCULATE WITH THE TIME DIFFERENCE AND ALL. THIS POST IS IN BETWEEN 2 POSTS... TECHNICALLY ALL POSTS ARE IN BETWEEN 2 POSTS LOL BUT I MEAN THIS POST IS BETWEEN LAST POST AND NEXT WEEKS POST. THERE IS SOMETHING SPECIAL ABOUT IT. CAME BACK AND HAVE TO CATCH UP WITH WORK AND YOU KNOW HOW THERES THAT LULL AFTER A VACA WHERE YOU JUST WISH YOU DIDNT HAVE TO DO ANYTHING? WELL THATS WHERE I AM AT AGAIN LOL. JUST PUSHING THROUGH TIL THE NEXT THING. THEN AGAIN WHO KNOWS... MAYBE THIS LULL IS ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE... HMM...

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WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

OKAY... SO I HAD LIKE 3 IDEAS FOR TOPIC THIS WEEK BUT THEN I SORTA FORGOT ABOUT THEM AND I DONT REALLY FEEL LIKE WRITING ABOUT WHAT I HAVE ON MY MIND SO THATS SAVED FOR ANOTHER DAY... UNTIL I FORGET ABOUT IT AGAIN HAHA. ANYWAYS... THIS HAS BEEN TOUCHED UPON IN THE PAST BUT LATELY ITS BEEN COMING BACK INTO MY HEAD AND IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT QUITE A BIT. SO WHAT DO YOU WANT? I MEAN WHAT DO I WANT? THATS THE HARDEST QUESTION TO ANSWER. IVE HAD AN IDEA OF WHAT I WANT FOR THE LONGEST TIME BUT THINGS KEEP HAPPENING AND CHANGING THAT WHAT I WANT KEEPS CHANGING ALONG WITH IT. RIGHT NOW, WHAT IS IT THAT I REALLY WANT? I DONT THINK THERES REALLY ANYTHING I REALLY WANT EXCEPT WHERE I REALLY WANT TO GET TO. EVERYTHING I WANT IS MORE OF THE MATERIALISTIC THING BUT DONT EVERYONE WANT MATERIALISTIC THINGS? THATS REALLY WANT WE WANT, BUT WHAT DO WE REALLY NEED? SOME PEOPLE WANT NICE CARS AND A BIG HOUSE BUT DO WE REALLY NEED IT? WHAT I REALLY WANT IS TO BE IN THE POSITION I WANT, DOING WHAT I WANT, AND NOT ANSWERING TO ANYONE. IM WORKING ON THAT BUT LATELY IT JUST SEEMS LIKE ITS BEEN GETTING PUSHED FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY. THE MOTIVATION AND DETERMINATION IS STILL THERE, JUST THAT THE TIME AND ENERGY IS NOT. BETWEEN WORK, LIFE, FAMILY, AND ALL THE RANDOM STUFF I DO IN BETWEEN, I DONT HAVE TIME TO PUT MYSELF IN THE PLACE WHERE I CAN MOVE FORWARD. I KNOW THAT SOUNDS LIKE AN EXCUSE AND IF I REALLY WANTED IT, I WOULD MAKE TIME FOR IT. I REALLY NEED TO GET BACK INTO THAT HEADSPACE TO GO AND GET WHAT I WANT. SOME OF YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT I GAVE MYSELF 1 YEAR FROM MY BIRTHDAY LAST YEAR TO GET TO WHERE I WANT TO BE, BUT THAT IS LOOKING FARTHER AWAY AND LESS LIKELY I WILL BE THERE BY MY BIRTHDAY. EVERYONE HAS DREAMS OF SOMETHING. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN DREAMING AND MAKING IT A REALITY, IS ACTION. RIGHT NOW THERE IS A LACK OF ACTION...I REALLY JUST NEED TO GET BACK TO IT. ANOTHER THING IS WHAT YOU WANT CHANGES WITH TIME, WHAT I WANTED BEFORE IS NOT WHAT I WANT NOW AND SOMETIMES ONCE ITS PAST THAT TIME, WHAT I WANT I CANT HAVE... YA YA I KNOW THIS POST IS ALL OVER THE PLACE BUT IM REALLY JUST DUMPING EVERYTHING ON TO THIS RIGHT NOW. WHEN DO WE STOP WANTING WHAT WE WANT??? WHEN WE CANT HAVE IT? WHEN ITS GONE? WHEN YOU KNOW IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE? SOMETIMES THAT MAKES YOU JUST WANT IT MORE AND SOMETIMES IT JUST MAKES YOU REALIZE YOU JUST HAVE TO MOVE ON. I THINK THOSE WHO LET GO OF WHAT THEY WANT ARE ALL THOSE WHO GET STUCK IN WHERE THEY ARE. YOU CANT LET GO OF WHAT YOU WANT. I DONT KNOW... I JUST REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT ANYMORE. LIFE IS ALREADY CONFUSING ENOUGH, THEN THROW IN EVERYTHING THAT YOU WANT JUST MAKES IT EVEN WORSE. I REALLY JUST WANT TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND REALLY THINK ABOUT WHAT I WANT AND WHERE I WANT TO BE. NO ONE CAN TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT, NO ONE CAN DECIDE ANYTHING FOR YOU. I JUST NEED TO KNOW WHAT I WANT. WELL... I WISH YOU ALL FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU WANT, WHAT YOU REALLY WANT. SO, WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

REST OF LIFE IS WHAT YOU EXPECT. NOTHING REALLY NEW, KEEPING BUSY, KEEPING DISTRACTED. OH I WENT TO NIGHT MARKET :) THAT WAS NICE. BIG LINE UP TO GET IN AND THEY RAISED THE PRICE OF ENTRY AGAIN... IT WAS $3.25... THEN BOUGHT A BUNCH OF FOOD AND PLAYED THOSE CARNEY GAMES LOL. THAT QUARTER TOSSING ONTO A PLATE AND MAKE IT STAY IS THE EASIEST GAME EVER HAHA. WELL... AS LONG AS YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING HAHA. 1 ON PLATE WINS SMALL AND 4 WINS A LARGE. WELL I GOT 6 IN ABOUT 40 TRIES SOOOOO WINNER!!! ANYWAYS NOW IM OUT OF HERE. GOT PLACES TO GO, PEOPLE TO SEE, STUFF TO DO. THIS IS ALSO WHY THIS WEEKS POST IS SO EARLY. PEACE.

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DREAMING DREAMER'S DREAM

I FIND IT FUNNY HOW OVER TIME ONES DREAM CHANGES... RIGHT NOW IM TALKING ABOUT YOUR DREAMS AS IN ASPIRATIONS AND GOALS. WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG WHAT DID YOU DREAM OF BECOMING??? AN ASTRONAUT? A PRO SPORTS PLAYER? A MOVIE STAR? WELL I ACTUALLY WANTED TO BE A FARMER... A LAWYER... A PILOT. SINCE WHEN DO OUR DREAMS DIE? AND WE HAVE TO MOVE ON TO REALITY? WHY DO WE HAVE TO GROW UP AND REALIZE THAT WE CAN NEVER LIVE OUR DREAM OUT? KIDS HAVE AN ENDLESS IMAGINATION THAT CANT BE COMPARED TO, AND ITS TRUE... THE OLDER YOU GET THE LESS IMAGINATIVE YOU GET. FORGET ABOUT ALL THE DREAMS ABOUT HAVING MAGICAL POWERS OR A PET DRAGON OR POKEMON OR SOMETHING... BUT MORE ATTAINABLE DREAMS. LIFES ABOUT POSSIBILITIES AND DREAMS... THEN WHY IS IT IMPOSSIBLE TO GET IT? EVERYONE HAS THE DREAM OF WINNING THE LOTTO AND BEING ABLE TO ACTUALLY LIVE OUT THEIR DREAMS BUT CAN YOU REALLY BUY YOUR DREAM WITH MONEY??? WELL... THE OBVIOUS ANSWERS YES!!! LOL. BUT LETS BE REAL, HOW MANY OF US WILL ACTUALLY WIN THE LOTTO IN OUR LIFETIME? PROBABLY NONE OF US, THATS WHY DREAMS ARE SO HARD TO OBTAIN. YOU CAN WORK ALL YOUR LIFE FOR YOUR DREAM BUT IN THE END CAN YOU REALLY SAY YOUVE FINALLY REACHED YOUR DREAM? THEN THE PROBLEM IS IF YOU FINALLY DO REACH YOUR DREAM IS IT THE DREAM YOU HAD OR HAVE YOUR DREAM CHANGED ONCE AGAIN AND THAT IS NO LONGER YOUR DREAM... IVE BEEN TOLD BEFORE THAT IM A DREAMER... AND THAT I HAVE TO BE PULLED DOWN TO REALITY CAUSE LOTS OF THE THINGS I WANT ARENT ATTAINABLE... WELL... NOT THAT ITS UNATTAINABLE BUT THAT EVEN WITH HARD WORK AND DEDICATION IT IS NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE. SO THEN... WHY DO WE DREAM? IS IT ALWAYS THE THOUGHT OF WHAT COULD BE, WHAT SHOULD BE, AND WHAT WOULD BE? DREAMS I CAN SAY ARE WHAT KEEPS US GOING, WHAT WE STRIVE FOR, WORK FOR AND IS MOTIVATED FOR. SOMETIMES IT TAKES TIME TO REALIZE ONES DREAM AND TO REALLY KNOW WHAT YOU WANT, UNTIL THEN... JUST KEEP ON DREAMING TIL YOU GET THERE. SO, THIS IS FOR ALL YOU DREAMERS OUT THERE!!! NEVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAM, DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO GET YOURSELF THERE :)

AND NOW ONTO DREAMS THAT YOU DREAM WHEN YOU SLEEP. LATELY IVE BEEN REMEMBERING MY DREAM A LOT MORE AND ITS INTERESTING WHAT YOU DREAM ABOUT. SO FAR ITS BEEN A MIX OF ZOMBIES, RANDOM CARS, HANGING OUT, PARTYING, AND THINGS THAT DONT MAKE SENSE. THERE ARE HOWEVER PEOPLE I KNOW IN MY DREAM, AND THEN THERE ARE THE FACELESS/I DONT REMEMBER WHO THEY ARE PEOPLE IN THE DREAM. ITS BEEN SAID THAT EVERYONE YOU SEE IN YOUR DREAM IS AN ACTUAL PERSON YOU HAVE MET OR SEEN IN REAL LIFE BUT WHEN YOU TRY TO REALLY REMEMBER WHO THEY ARE CAN YOU? I CAN SAY I DONT RECALL WHERE OR WHEN IVE SEEN THEM, AND THATS KINDA FREAKY... LOL. WHY CANT OUR DREAMS BE OUR REAL DREAMS IN REAL LIFE? LIKE... WHY CANT OUR DREAMS BE REALITY? MOST DREAMS ARE GREAT AND YOU ARE ON TOP OF THE WORLD, AND EVERYTHING IS JUST THE WAY YOU WANT IT. JUST WHEN YOU HAVE EVERYTHING YOU HAVE EVER WANTED BEEP BEEP BEEEEEEEEEEEEP YOUR DAM ALARM GOES OFF AND YOU SNAP BACK TO REALITY... WAKE UP AND REALIZE YOU ARE BACK IN THIS RAT RACE YOU CALL LIFE. I GUESS THAT ONLY MAKES SENSE SINCE YOUR DREAMS ARE YOUR DREAMS AND THOSE ARE DREAMS YOU CAN ONLY DREAM ABOUT. SOMETIMES I JUST WISH WE CAN DREAM FOREVER AND JUST BE HAPPY.

WELL... THIS IS A DEEPER POST THAN NORMAL EH... THINGS YOU THINK ABOUT...

THANKS FOR LETTING ME KNOW... LOL

TOO HUNGRY TO TAKE PICS LOL

HAPPY BDAY BUDDY :) AND YES HES KOREAN LOL

JUST PHO LOL

SPRING ROLLS... OK I GUESS... BUT SHRIMP ROLL... WTF HAPPENED... SO SMALL...

FUEL DOOR NOT WORKING??? 

NO WORRIES :) I GOT THIS!!! LOL FIX IT YOURSELF :) AND YES I BRUISED MY THUMB FIXING THE DAM THING... FEELS FUNNY ACTUALLY HAHA

OK ANOTHER THING ABOUT DREAMS... HOW MANY OF YOU ARE ACTUALLY WHERE YOU THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE TODAY??? I CAN SAY IM NOT WHERE I THOUGHT I WOULD BE AT ALL... LOTS HAVE HAPPENED TO CHANGE MY COURSE AND I HAVE NOT YET REACHED WHERE I WANT TO BE... AND YET I STILL KEEP DREAMING. SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST FINE WITH WHERE THEY ARE AND SOME DREAM OF BIGGER AND BETTER THINGS. SO, DREAM THE DREAM EVERYONE, DREAM THE DREAM.

ALSO, LUCID DREAMS ARE SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!! IN THOSE DREAMS YOU REALLY DO GET TOO DREAM WHAT YOU WANT TO DREAM :) LOL.

AS FOR THE REALITY OF MY LIFE??? WELL... WORKS WORK AND THE REST IS JUST LIFE. NOTHING NEW, NOTHING TO SAY.

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