END OF AN ERA

WELL...AFTER 400 POSTS AND COUNTLESS TIMES TALKING ABOUT ENDING THIS BLOG OR CHANGING OVER TO SOMETHING ELSE... GUESS WHAT... ITS FINALLY HAPPENING. THIS WILL OFFICIALLY BE THE VERY LAST POST THAT I WILL EVER WRITE. I CANT BELIEVE I KEPT THIS THING GOING FOR MORE THAN 7.5 YEARS... ITS BEEN QUITE A RUN... THIS THING STARTED OFF STRONG AND WITH SO MUCH POTENTIAL, AND THEN IT JUST GOT KILLED BY TIME. OH THERES GEMS HERE AND THERE BUT SOMETIMES THE POSTS ARE JUST SAD... LITERALLY SAYING NOTHING, YOU KNOW THAT AND I KNOW THAT TOO. SO MANY POSTS WERE FORCED JUST SO I CAN KEEP THAT ONE A WEEK POST GOING. I HAVE SO MANY TOPICS THAT I WANTED TO WRITE ABOUT BUT EITHER ITS HARD TO WRITE, TOO LONG TO WRITE, JUST DIDNT FEEL LIKE IT, TIRED, OR WHATEVER THE REASON WAS AT THAT MOMENT. I REALLY DONT EVEN KNOW HOW MANY OF YOU ACTUALLY KEPT UP AND READ ALL THESE POSTS. I KNOW THERES A HANDFUL OF YOU, AND AFTER THE LAST POST I REALIZED THERES A FEW MORE. HOWEVER... THERE WOULD BE MORE READERS IF I DIDNT TYPE IN ALL CAPS FOR THE WHOLE DAM THING LOL. SOMETHING ABOUT ME SCREAMING AT EVERYONE OR IT BEING HARD TO READ... WHO KNOWS LOL. EVERYONE THAT I KNOW WHO BLOGGED AND EVEN JUST RANDOM PAGES THAT YOU GO TO MOST OF THEM HAVE STOPPED AS WELL. ITS HARD TO WRITE, ITS EASY BUT AT THE SAME TIME ITS HARD. IVE FLOATED THE IDEA OF A YOUTUBE CHANNEL BUT THAT TAKES EVEN MORE TIME AND EFFORT AND WOULD BE A BIGGER PRODUCTION, AND I ALREADY DONT EVEN WANT TO WRITE THE BLOG, SO HOW WOULD I MAKE VIDEOS... LOL... IVE LEARNED A LOT OVER THE PAST YEARS BLOGGING AND ITS FINALLY TIME TO MOVE ON, TIME FOR A CHANGE. EVEN WITH ALL THAT SAID IL NOW BE STARTING UP A PODCAST!!! SO NO MORE READING POSTS AND IMAGINING MY VOICE INSIDE YOUR HEAD, NOW YOU CAN LITERALLY LISTEN TO ME TALK AT ANYTIME YOU WANT!!! NOT MANY PEOPLE READ ANYMORE BUT LOTS OF PEOPLE LISTEN TO PODCASTS, SO I FIGURED YOU KNOW WHAT... LETS SEE HOW THIS GOES. THE PODCAST OFFICIALLY START NEXT WEEK... LETS SEE HOW LONG THAT LASTS... COULD IT GO FOR ANOTHER 7.5 YEARS... WITH WEEKLY EPISODES... THAT WOULD BE QUITE IMPRESSIVE LOL. I GUESS THERES ONLY ONE WAY TO FIND YOU, AND THATS TO GO AND LISTEN!!! THE LINK IS BELOW, SO GO AND BOOKMARK IT NOW!!! LOL

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AND WITH THAT, I THANK ALL MY READERS FOR KEEPING UP AND PUTTING UP WITH THIS. IT SURE HAS BEEN A TRIP. IVE CERTAINLY ENJOYED IT... MOST OF IT... SORTA... LOL... BUT I GUESS ALL GOOD THINGS MUST COME TO AN END. THIS MARKS THE END OF AN ERA. THANK YOU ALL AGAIN FOR THIS JOURNEY.



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UPDATE

SO... ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE IVE UPDATED EVERYONE ON EVERYTHING. I KNOW SOMETIMES THERE MIGHT BE A LINE OR TWO ABOUT WHATS GOING ON BUT HAVENT REALLY SAID MUCH MORE THAN THAT. MAIN REASON FOR THAT IS BECAUSE IM TIRED AND LAZY LOL. ALSO BECAUSE THERES NOT MUCH MORE TO TELL THAN THAT... HONESTLY... JUST BEEN BUSY WORKING AND GETTING REST. I COME HOME AND IM TIRED AND THEN SOMETIMES WHEN I DO THIS ITS LATE. THATS WHY THE POST SOUNDS LIKE THE WAY IT SOUNDS. SOMETIMES I JUST WOKE UP FROM A NAP LOL. I KNOW I COULD POST THIS EARLIER BUT ITS JUST SO HARD SOMETIMES. YES YES THERES A TWSS RIGHT THERE. THE OTHER REASON IS BECAUSE I DONT HAVE MUCH TO WRITE ABOUT. I SAID IT BEFORE, THAT THERES ACTUALLY QUITE A FEW TOPICS I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT, BUT I JUST DONT HAVE THE TIME OR ENGERY TO DO IT. THATS WHY I END UP WRITING MOVIE REVIEWS BECAUSE ITS QUICK AND EASY. IF I ONLY WROTE POSTS ABOUT THE MEANINGFUL TOPICS, THEN THE POSTS WOULD NOT BE WEEKLY AND I WOULD RUN OUT OF MATERIAL QUICKLY. THE ODDS ARE THAT THE POST WOULD HAVE MORE DEPTH AND QUALITY COMPARED TO WHAT IM PUMPING OUT RIGHT NOW LOL. I MEAN THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH WHAT IM POSTING RIGHT NOW, ITS JUST THAT YOU CAN SEE THE QUALITY DROPPING THESE FEW YEARS COMPARED TO THE EARLY DAYS AKA THE FIRST FEW YEARS LOL. THATS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU WRITE EVERY WEEK FOR THE PAST 7+ YEARS... IVE ALSO SAID THAT IM NOT SURE IF IM GOING TO KEEP THIS BLOG GOING AND THAT IM WORKING ON SOMETHING THAT WOULD BE BETTER. I REALLY DONT KNOW WHERE I AM WITH THAT. I LOOKED INTO IT BUT IT WOULD EITHER TAKE MORE TIME OR I WOULD HAVE TO POST LESS. THERES A LOT TO CONSIDER... I WOULD BASICALLY HAVE TO RESTART FROM THE BEGINNING IF I END UP DOING IT THIS CERTAIN WAY. IT WOULD BE A LOT OF REBUILDING. IT WOULD BE A CHALLENGE BUT IT WOULD BE FUN TO DO LOL. SO I GUESS IN THE MEANTIME YOU WILL GET WHAT YOU GET UNTIL I FIGURE THIS OUT LOL. ANY SUGGESTIONS? LOL.

SO WHAT HAVE I BEEN UP TO THEN? WELL... BEEN WORKING, CATCHING UP ON SHOWS AND MOVIES, PLAYING MJ, HANGING OUT WITH FAMILY AND THE NEPHEW, HANGING OUT WITH FRIENDS, AND WORKING ON RANDOM THINGS. ITS QUIET THESE DAYS. NOT MUCH REALLY TO DO AND NOT MUCH I REALLY WANT TO DO. MAN... I NEED A VACATION... I NEED A PERMANENT VACATION LOL. UNTIL THEN... BACK TO THE GRIND.

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ANOTHER NEW YEAR

WELL FIRST OFF I WISH YOU ALL HAD A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE READING THIS. ANOTHER YEAR HAS COME AND GONE AND ANOTHER YEAR HAS STARTED AGAIN. IN THE PAST IVE GIVEN SUMMARIES OF THE YEAR OR THINGS IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS YEAR, BUT HONESTLY I JUST DONT FEEL LIKE IT ANYMORE LOL. I THINK IVE SAID THIS BEFORE... NEW YEARS RESOLUTION IS STRAIGHT UP BULLSHIT. IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT, YOU CAN REALLY START ANYTHING ANY TIME YOU WANT, YOU DONT NEED TO WAIT UNTIL THE NEW  YEAR TO BEGIN SOMETHING. ITS JUST AN EXCUSE, YA YA, IT MIGHT GIVE YOU TIME TO PREPARE OR JUST HAVE A "CLEAN SLATE" KIND OF GO AT IT. I SAY IF YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING OR CHANGE SOMETHING THEN JUST DO IT. WHO CARES IF ITS THE MIDDLE OF MARCH OR THE END OF JUNE? THE MAIN THING IS THAT YOU START. WITH THAT BEING SAID I DO HAVE SOME PLANS FOR THIS YEAR LOL. I GOT SOME BIG PLANS AND I WORKING ON IT. IT JUST SO HAPPENS TO BE NOW SO I GUESS IL START IN THE NEW YEAR LOL... OH DONT GET ME STARTED ABOUT NEW YEARS PARTIES. ITS JUST FOR EVERYONE TO MAKE MONEY. EVERYTHINGS BEEN QUIETING DOWN OVER THE YEARS AND HONESTLY THERES NOTHING SPECIAL ABOUT NEW YEARS. ITS REALLY THE SAME AS BEFORE. WELL IVE BEEN WORKING ON SOME THINGS FOR THE PAST BIT AND IT JUST HASNT REALLY GOTTEN TO THE POINT OF IT WORKING YET BUT I THINK THIS IS THE YEAR TO MAKE IT ALL HAPPEN. EVERYTHING JUST TAKES TIME, YOU CANT RUSH THESE THINGS. I HAVE A GOOD FEELING ABOUT THIS YEAR, EVEN THOUGH EVERY YEAR IS A NEW YEAR AND I SAY THE SAME THING LOL. LETS ALL CRUSH IT!!! SPEAKING OF WHICH... ITS ONLY JANUARY 2... THE SECOND DAY IN... AND ITS ALREADY BEEN A HELL OF A NEW YEAR. SO HONESTLY NOTHING FAZES ME. SO LETS GO GET IT AND JUST DO IT! DO IT!!! DO IT!!!

THERE ARE PLANS FOR A CHANGE TO THIS BLOG. WHEN... WHO KNOWS. WHAT... I HAVE AN IDEA BUT HAVE TO SEE IF IT WILL WORK AS WELL. GUESS YOU ALL WILL HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE.

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7 YEARS...

FIRST THING FIRST. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVELY GF :)

NOW ON TO THE NEXT THING. 7 YEARS... THATS RIGHT... MY BLOG TURNS 7 THIS WEEK. I CANT BELIEVE IT... I HAVE POSTED EVERY WEEK FOR THE PAST 7 YEARS!!! WITHOUT FAIL!!! WELL... EXCEPT FOR THAT ONE TIME I WAS IN CHINA AND EVERYTHING WAS BLOCKED... BUT THAT DOESNT REALLY COUNT LOL. 7 LONG LONG YEARS... WEEK IN AND WEEK OUT I BRING YOU ALL QUALITY POSTS ABOUT THE TOPICS THAT YOU ALL CRAVE FOR... SACRIFICING MY BLOOD, SWEAT, AND TEARS TO BRING YOU THESE GEMS. NO ONE KNOWS HOW MUCH I HAVE GIVEN TO THIS BLOG! IVE LOST SLEEP OVER THIS AND IVE STRUGGLE TO WRITE A POST WHEN IM HALF ASLEEP... WHICH IS EVERY WEEK LOL. I HONESTLY DONT KNOW HOW MANY OF YOU STILL READ THIS... SO IF YOU READ THIS, COMMENT BELOW TELLING ME HOW OFTEN YOU ACTUALLY READ THIS. I WILL PICK A WINNER AND THAT WINNER WILL GET SOMETHING, I DONT KNOW WHAT YET, BUT IT WILL BE AWESOME LOL.

I STARTED THIS BLOG WITH A DIFFERENT GOAL IN MIND. IT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE FUN AND INFORMATIVE. I WAS GOING TO GIVE EVERYONE A LOOK INTO MY MIND AND HOW I SAW THINGS. THEN IT SLOWLY BECAME WHAT I DID AND JUST UPDATING PEOPLE. EVENTUALLY I STARTED GETTING REALLY LAZY AND ENDED UP DOING MOVIE REVIEW... HALF ASS REVIEWS. IT WAS BASICALLY POSTING FOR THE SAKE OF POSTING... FOR A TIME I WAS ABLE TO PULL IT ALL BACK TOGETHER AND ACTUALLY POST A FEW REAL POSTS. COME TO THINK OF IT... THERE WAS A TIME THAT IT WAS ALL REAL POSTS!!! AHHH THOSE WERE GOOD TIMES, BUT THOSE POSTS TAKE A LONG TIME TO WRITE, THERES SO MUCH IN THEM.

ANDDDDDDDDDDDD I JUST PASSED OUT LOL. SEE... THIS IS HARD WORK LOL. IVE WRITTEN ABOUT STOPPING OR CHANGING THE FREQUENCY OF THE POSTS. IVE TALKED ABOUT IT A LOT. THIS TIME IT MIGHT ACTUALLY REALLY POSSIBLY BE THE TIME. I HAVE NO IDEA HOW OR WHEN THIS MIGHT HAPPEN... AND IM NOT SURE IF IM GOING TO DO SOMETHING ELSE... HOWEVER I WAS TALKING TO A SOME OLD FRIENDS AND THEY THINK I SHOULD DO A VLOG OR PODCAST OR SOMETHING ELSE. I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT SOME THING LIKE THAT BEFORE, BUT I JUST DONT HAVE THE TIME FOR IT OR I WOULD NEED TO CHANGE HOW I DO IT, THERE IS JUST A LOT OF QUESTIONS, BUT WHATS STOPPING ME... NOTHING REALLY... I COULD SWITCH OR DO SOMETHING ELSE... I WOULD NEED TO LOOK MORE INTO IT.

I GUESS AT THE END OF THE DAY, IM QUITE HAPPY THAT I MADE IT TO 7 YEARS. THAT I WAS ABLE TO KEEP THIS UP AND WAS COMMITTED TO IT ENOUGH... EVEN THOUGHT THE POST QUALITY WAS... WELL... LETS JUST BE HONEST... AMAZING!!! LOL. EVENTUALLY WHEN I FINALLY MAKE A DECISION, YOU ALL WILL BE THE FIRST TO KNOW. CONGRATS TO ME ON 7 YEARS OF BLOGGING. HAPPY 7 YEARS, AND HERES TO THE NEXT 7... MAYBE... NOT... WHO KNOWS...

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AVENGERS: INFINITY WAR

FINALLY!!! I HAVE TIME TO DO THIS POST THAT IVE BEEN SAYING I WAS GOING TO DO FOR THE LONGEST TIME. ALSO PARTIALLY BECAUSE I DIDNT WATCH A MOVIE LAST NIGHT LOL. ANYWAYS WATCHED THIS WITH THE GF IN VIP :) CAUSE THATS HOW WE ROLL. SO WHO HASNT WATCHED THIS YET? ITS A GOOD TIME TO TALK ABOUT IT NOW SINCE MOST PEOPLE, IF NOT ALL PEOPLE HAVE ALREADY SEEN IT. NOW... WHOS NOT IN THIS MOVIE... EVERYONE IS IN IT... ROBERT DOWNEY JR, CHRIS HEMSWORTH, CHRIS EVANS, MARK RUFFALO, TOM HIDDLESTON, DON CHEADLE, SEBASTIAN STAN, PAUL BETTANY, ANTHONY MACKIE, SCARLETT JOHANSSON, TOM HOLLAND, JOSH BROLIN, CHRIS PRATT, DAVE BAUTISTA, ZOE SALDANA, KAREN GILLAN, CHADWICK BOSEMAN, BENEDICT CUMBERBATCH, ELIZABETH OLSEN, VIN DIESEL, BRADLEY COOPER, PETER DINKLAGE, IDRIS ELBA, BENEDICT WONG, AND THE REST... YA THATS A BIG BIG BIGGGGGGGGGGGGG LIST OF STARS. ANYWAYS YOU ALL KNOW WHAT HAPPENS. THANOS FINDS AND GETS ALL 6 INFINITY STONES AND USES THE INFINITY GAUNTLET TO ERASE HALF OF ALL LIFE IN THE UNIVERSE. SO HERES MY THOUGHTS ON THIS MOVIE... IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER... AND SOME ARE THOUGHTS MANY PEOPLE HAVE AS WELL LOL.

• THE MOVIE WAS LONG BUT IT WAS SUPER FAST PACED. THANOS JUST WENT AROUND AND PICKED UP THE STONES LIKE ITS NOTHING ONE AFTER ANOTHER. 
• STAR LORD REALLY SCREWED EVERYTHING UP!!! THEY WERE LITERALLY A FEW SECONDS AWAY FROM GETTING THE GAUNTLET OFF AND WINNING... BUT OF COURSE THEY DO IT LIKE THIS SO THERES AN ACTUAL MOVIE AND A SEQUEL AND MAKE ANOTHER COUPLE OF BILLION DOLLARS.
• WAS THIS OUTCOME THE ONLY ONE THAT DR. STRANGE SAW THAT WAS GOING TO WORK OUT? OR DID HE JUST DO IT TO SAVE RDJ? STRANGE ONLY WENT THROUGH 14 MILLION POSSIBLE FUTURES... THERE COULD HAVE BEEN MORE WAYS OUT BUT WHO KNOWS...
• I THOUGHT THE WHEN THANOS WAS GETTING THE SOUL STONE AND WOKE UP AND GOT THE SOUL STONE THAT THANOS WAS IN THE SOUL STONE, AND EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS AFTER IS JUST A VISION OF WHAT COULD HAPPEN. THEN AT THE END OF EVERYTHING HE IS FOUND NOT WORTHY OF THE SOUL STONE... AND NONE OF WHAT HE THINKS HAPPENED HAPPENS... AND THE BATTLE CONTINUES NEXT FILM
• RED SKULL SHOWED UP OUT OF NOWHERE LOL
• THANOS IS WAY TOO CG
• HULK WAS BASICALLY USELESS
• TONY IS STRANDED WITH NEBULA SO HOW THEY GOING TO GET BACK
• HOW THEY GOING TO FIND THANOS NOW AND REVERSE IT...
• WE ALL KNOW THAT THEY ARENT GOING TO BE DEAD... ESPECIALLY SINCE WE ALL KNOW THERES BLACK PANTHER AND SPIDERMAN MOVIES COMING OUT LATER LOL
• THE BATTLES NEEDED TO BE BIGGER... IT WAS DECENT BUT I THINK IT COULD HAVE BEEN BIGGER AND BETTER

ITS A GOOD MOVIE... WE JUST NOW HAVE TO WAIT FOR CAPTAIN MARVEL... BUT NOT REALLY SURE HOW SHE CAN STOP HIM ALONE... I NEVER REALLY READ THANOS COMIC AND I DONT REALLY KNOW THE STORY LINE BUT I WAS TOLD SOME INTERESTING FACTS BUT MEH DOESNT REALLY SPOIL IT FOR ME HAHA. I GIVE THIS MOVIE A 8.5-8.8/10. NOW WE HAVE TO WAIT A YEAR TO SEE HOW THEY GOING TO FINISH THIS... BUT WE ALL KNOW THAT MARVEL IS SETTING UP FOR PHASE 4 OF THEIR PLAN TO CONQUER THE WORLD... SOOOO WHO KNOWS... REALLY ANYTHING CAN GO AT THIS POINT. 

LETS SEE WHAT ELSE HAPPENED LATELY... WORK WORK WORK. THE GFS FRIENDS CAME TO VISIT SO HUNG OUT WITH THEM. WENT TO PLAYLAND AND ATE A LOT. PLAYED A POKER TOURNAMENT TODAY... SUPER CARD DEAD... MADE A FEW MOVES, PAID OFF, BUT IN THE END MY POCKET KK RAN INTO POCKET AA... BOTH GOT IT ALL IN PREFLOP AND WE BOTH SLOW ROLLED OUR HANDS... SO SICK... AND I GOT BUSTED OUT BY THE SAME GUY WHO BUSTED ME OUT BEFORE TOO... SO SO SICK... ANYWAYS THATS IT FOR NOW, UNTIL NEXT TIME. 

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AFTER THE END

I HAD A TOPIC IN MIND THAT I WAS GOING TO WRITE BUT ITS LATE AND IM TIRED SOOOOO...

ACTUALLY... SCREW IT IM STILL GOING TO WRITE IT LOL

YOU KNOW WHEN YOU LIKE A TV SHOW OR A MOVIE AND YOU DONT WANT IT TO END? HAVE YOU EVER WONDERED WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE IF IT CONTINUED ON? WHATS NEXT? OR WHAT IF IT WAS REAL AND THEY THINK THAT LIFE IS REAL AND THEY LIVE THE DAY BY DAY BUT IN CHARACTER. SO LIKE IN AN ACTION MOVIE WHERE THEY SHOOT UP A PLACE OR BLOW UP A PLACE AND THEN THE NEXT DAY THEY JUST WAKE UP AND DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN, OR THAT THEY JUST HANG OUT AND EAT. OR LIKE AN ALIEN INVASION WHERE ALIENS BLOW UP A CITY AND YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT. YOURE JUST FIGHTING DAY AFTER DAY. OR LIKE ITS THE HEROS DAY OFF AND NOTHING HAPPENS AND THEY ARE JUST GO SHOPPING. OF COURSE THIS KIND OF STUFF WOULDNT BE SHOWN IN THE MOVIES OR SHOWS, BUT THATS THE DAILY LIFE. IT WOULDNT ALWAYS BE ACTION. THERE WOULD BE REBUILDING AND DOING LAUNDRY. BASICALLY EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN AND ALL THE BORING STUFF. YOU SPEND SO MUCH TIME IN A MOVIE OR ON A SHOW AND YOU JUST WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS AFTER IT ALL. DONT YOU JUST WISH THAT THE MOVIE OR SHOW WAS REAL. LIKE JUSTICE LEAGUE OR AVENGERS OR DRAGONBALL OR STUFF LIKE THAT. WHY COULDNT THAT BE REAL? IM SORT OF GETTING OFF TRACK NOW. DONT YOU WANT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS YEARS DOWN THE ROAD, LIKE WHATS NEXT FOR THEM? YOU GET SO INVESTED IN THESE CHARACTERS AND YOU JUST NEED TO KNOW THAT THEY END UP ALRIGHT, OR SAVE THE WORLD, OR WHAT THEY HAD FOR LUNCH. THERES SO MANY SHOWS THAT I WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS NEXT, EVEN IF IT ENDED ON A GOOD NOTE. I JUST WANT MORE!!! YOU GET MY POINT? THEN AGAIN I ALSO WISH THAT EVERYTHING WAS REAL, THE POWERS, THE GOOD VS BAD, THE SPACE AND UNIVERSE LIFE, AND EVERYTHING ELSE COOL. IMAGINE IT WAS ALL REAL, IT WOULD BE A CRAZY PLACE.

THERES ANOTHER POINT TO THIS POST BUT IM TOO TIRED. IVE BEEN EATING WAY TOO MUCH LATELY. LUNCHES AND DINNERS AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN. NO MOVIE THE PAST WEEK CAUSE I HAD A CLIENT THING LAST NIGHT, BUT MOVIE WITH THE GF TOMORROW SO ITS GONNA BE A DOUBLE REVIEW NEXT WEEK LOL.

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6 YEARS OF BLOGGING...

I DIDNT EVEN NOTICE IT... IT DIDNT EVEN COME TO MIND... BUT... TURNS OUT THIS BLOG TURNED 6 YEARS OLD!!! WOW... ITS REALLY BEEN THAT LONG... I CANT BELIEVE IT... NEITHER CAN MOST OF YOU I BET LOL. THAT 6 LONG YEARS OF RANDOMNESS... 6 LONG YEARS OF CAPSLOCK... 6 LONG YEARS OF SEEING UPDATES THAT YOU MIGHT OR MIGHT NOT CARE ABOUT... 6 FREAKING LONG ASS YEARS!!! HELL... LOTS OF TV SHOWS DONT EVEN LAST 6 YEARS... IVE HAD 312 POSTS... THAT WOULD BE 312 EPISODES... THEN AGAIN SHOWS DONT RUN ALL YEAR ROUND... SO IN A WAY... THIS BLOG IS EVEN BETTER THAN TV :) THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN FAITHFUL READERS HAVE SEEN MY UPS AND DOWNS AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN. I SEE PEOPLE WHO HAVE COME AND GONE AND THOSE WHO STILL STUCK AROUND... AND IM TALKING ABOUT THOSE WHO ACTUALLY READ THIS HAHA. HOW MANY OF YOU ACTUALLY FOLLOWED SINCE THE BEGINNING?  HOW MANY OF YOU ACTUALLY READ EACH AND EVERY SINGLE POST? HOW MANY OF YOU WANT TO SEE ME CONTINUE? AND HOW MANY OF YOU WANT TO SEE ME STOP? I GUESS THAT REALLY IS THE QUESTION... I DO HAVE TOPICS I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT BUT IM NOT SURE IF I SHOULD... ITS BECAUSE THERES SO MUCH GOING ON THAT I HAVENT REALLY HAD TIME TO SIT DOWN AND WRITE IT ALL OUT... SHOULD I JUST LEAVE IT FOR ANOTHER TIME? SHOULD I POST LESS OFTEN BUT HIGHER QUALITY? OR SHOULD I JUST STOP... MAYBE EVEN CREATE A NEW PAGE THAT NO ONE KNOWS ABOUT AND WRITE ABOUT EVERYTHING I WANT TO THERE. A COMPLETELY SECRET PAGE WHERE IF YOU STUMBLED ON TO IT, YOU WONT KNOW ITS ACTUALLY ME AND MY PAGE... WHAT SHOULD I DO... DECISIONS DECISIONS... WHAT DO YOU ALL THINK??? IF YOU ACTUALLY READ ALL THE WAY DONE HERE, THEN YOU REALLY SHOULD LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK I SHOULD DO... ITS BEEN 6 LONG YEARS. ITS BEEN A CRAZY JOURNEY. ITS BEEN UNBELIEVABLE... I GUESS EVERYONE IS GOING TO HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE WHAT I DECIDE TO DO... DONT BOTHER ASKING ME SINCE I DONT EVEN KNOW EITHER...

THE PAST WEEKEND WAS ACTUALLY OUR THANKSGIVING WEEKEND. JUST SPENT SOME TIME WITH THE GF AND SOME FRIENDS. HUNG OUT, PLAYED SOME GAMES, WENT TO THE NIGHT MARKET, AND ATE WAY WAY WAYYYYYYYYY TOO MUCH LOL. IT WAS JUST A NICE RELAXING WEEKEND. NOW TIME TO GO PASS OUT.

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BACK TO REVIEWS

ALRIGHT WELL BACK TO MORE REVIEWS LOL :)

SO I WATCHED SPIDERMAN: HOMECOMING LAST WEEK. THIS WAS GOING TO BE POSTED THEN, BUT THE WHOLE CHESTER THING HAPPENED AND THIS DIDNT SEEM TO FIT SO HERE WE ARE. THIS MOVIE IS THE 3RD REMAKE, WELL YOU CANT REALLY CALL IT A REMAKE SINCE ITS NOT REALLY A REMAKE. IT IS THE 3RD SPIDERMAN AND ITS A NEW STORY LINE AS WELL. WE ALL REMEMBER TOBEY MAGUIRE AND THEN CAME ANDREW GARFIELD... WELL NOW COMES TOM HOLLAND. I WOULD SAY THIS IS MORE SPIDERMAN THAN THE OTHER FILMS, SINCE TOM ACTUALLY LOOKS LIKE A HIGH SCHOOL STUDENT LOL. ANYWAYS THE MOVIE ALSO STARS MICHAEL KEATON, ROBERT DOWNEY JR, ZENDAYA, AND SOME OTHERS THAT ARE FAMILIAR BUT NEVERMIND THEM LOL. YOU KNOW WHY I LIKE THIS MOVIE? ITS NOT A ORIGIN MOVIE!!! THIS WAS ALREADY SET UP A LITTLE BIT THANKS TO AVENGERS: CIVIL WAR, AND IT WAS GREAT THEY HAVE THAT PLAYED INTO THIS MOVIE. IRONMAN MAKING ALL THE CAMEOS WAS GREAT TOO. THIS MOVIE WAS ABLE TO STAND ALONE TOO. THE WHOLE WAITING GAME AND JUST THE IMPATIENCE OF A YOUNG KID WORKED. THEY UPPED EVERYTHING FROM THE COMICS AND MADE SPIDERMAN MORE HIGH TECH, THEY MADE VULTURE MORE HIGH TECH, AND INCORPORATED THE WHOLE CURRENT MARVEL UNIVERSE INTO IT, ALONG WITH THE ALIEN TECH AND TIMELINE OF THE REST OF THE UNIVERSE AS WELL. IT REALLY SHOWS HOW THEY REALLY ARE EXISTING IN THE SAME TIMELINE BUT IN DIFFERENT CITIES. THERES LOTS OF GROWING UP IN THIS MOVIE AND LOTS OF SPACE FOR THIS SERIES TO EXPAND. IT WAS PRETTY FUNNY TOO, AND IM GLAD THEY FINALLY MADE SOMEONE PUT 1 + 1 TOGETHER INSTEAD OF EVERYONE JUST ACTING DUMB NOT KNOWING WHATS GOING ON OR WHOS WHO. THIS IS A GOOD SERIES AND WILL DO WELL FOR THE NEW GENERATION OF KIDS AS IT RELATES TO THEM MORE. SO HOW DOES THIS WHOLE SONY/MARVEL THING WORK... WELL SONY HAS THE RIGHTS TO SPIDERMAN SINCE THEY BOUGHT IT YEARS AGO WHEN THEY FIRST STARTED THE MOVIE, BUT THEN WE KNOW THAT MARVEL MADE THEIR OWN STUDIOS TO MAKE THE FILMS THEY WANT TO MAKE. WE NEVER THOUGHT THAT THEY WOULD OR EVEN COULD MEET BECAUSE OF THE RIGHTS ISSUE. WELL TURNS OUT SONY GETS ALL THE PROFITS FROM THE MOVIE, WHILE MARVEL WILL GET ALL THE RIGHTS FOR MERCHANDISE LIKE TOYS AND SHIRTS. EITHER WAY WHO CARES WHO GETS WHAT, AS LONG AS WE GET TO SEE SPIDEY IN THE MARVEL UNIVERSE LOL. SO I LIKED THE MOVIE, THE GF LIKED THE MOVIE TOO. SO IMA GIVE IT 7.8/10. NOSTALGIA OF THE GOOD OLD DAYS AS WELL. ALSO MICHAEL KEATON AS VULTURE LOL AHHH GOOD OLD BATMAN ;) LOL

LAST NIGHT I WATCHED BABY DRIVER WITH THE GF. EVEN THOUGH THE MOVIE HAS BEEN OUT FOR A WHILE AND IS PROBABLY GOING TO BE TAKEN OFF SOON, THE MOVIE WAS PRETTY FULL. THE MOVIE STARS ANSEL ELGORT, JON HAMM, KEVIN SPACEY, JON BERNTHAL, JAMIE FOXX, LILY JAMES, AND EIZA GONZALES. I REALLY LIKED THIS MOVIE, ITS FUNNY, PACKED WITH ACTION, GREAT CAST, AND THE MUSIC TRACKS FOR THIS WAS PERFECT. THEY ASKED IF THE MUSIC MAKE THE FILM OR DID THE FILM MAKE THE FILM... I THINK ITS BOTH, ITS A PERFECT SELECTION AND COMPLIMENTED EACH OTHER. THE STUNTS WAS GREAT AND THE FILM PLOT VAGUELY RESEMBLES DRIVE, THE MOVIE WITH RYAN GOSLING. EVERYONE IN THE MOVIE IS BADASS, AND THEN YOU HAVE BABY, WHO JUST DOESNT FIT IN THE CRIME WORLD AND ITS JUST A NICE BALANCE. THE ISSUE IS WOULD THEY REALLY BE ABLE TO GET AWAY LIKE THAT ALL THE TIME EVERYTIME? HONESTLY TRAFFIC IS WORSE THAN THAT AND SOMEONE SOMEWHERE WOULD HAVE SEEN SOMETHING THAT WOULD HAVE GOTTEN THEM CAUGHT. THERES JUST TOO MANY EYES AND CAMERAS THESE DAYS. OF COURSE THEY HAVE TO THROW IN A LOVE INTEREST JUST TO MAKE IT INTERESTING LOL. WELL IT WORKED. ALL THOSE IMAGINATION BLACK AND WHITE SCENE REMINDS ME OF LEAVE IT TO BEAVER, AND BACK IN THE 50'S 60'S. THE MOVIE IS FUN AND TOTALLY RECOMMEND IT, SO I GIVE IT A 8.63/10.

OH SO MY COMPUTER AT WORK BROKE DOWN THE PAST WEEK... BEEN ACTING UP AND ON THE FRITZ... HAD TO USE A DIFFERENT COMPUTER AND TURNS OUT ITS NOT THE BEST EITHER... ANYWAYS JUST PISSING, BUT HEY NOW I GOT A NEW COMPUTER HAHA. ITS ALSO THE LAST WEEK OF ME BEING 30... YA I GUESS IL PUT IT IN HERE TOO... NEXT WEEK IS MY BDAY AND DAM... REALLY INTO THE 30'S NOW... LOL. ONCE AGAIN THE DEADLINE DIDNT WORK OUT... BUT I DID MAKE IMPROVEMENTS TOWARDS IT... GUESS WE SHALL SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT. SEE YOU ALL WHEN IM 31................. YA... SIGH... LOL.

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2016 YEAR END REVIEW

WOW!!! I CANT BELIEVE 2016 FINALLY ENDED. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE :) 2017 WILL BE YOUR YEAR, YOU WILL ATTAIN WHATEVER YOU PUT YOUR MIND TO. I CANT WAIT TO SEE WHATS IN STORE THIS YEAR :) I JUST SPENT THE NEW YEARS WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS. IT WAS NICE AND RELAXING.

WELL LETS LOOK BACK AT LAST YEAR. 2016 WAS JUST A BAD YEAR FOR ME... AND IM GLAD ITS OVER AND DONE WITH. THE CAR ACCIDENT ACTUALLY HAPPENED THE LAST WEEK OF DECEMBER, BUT BASICALLY THE WHOLE THING WAS IN THE NEW YEAR. SO TO KEEP WITH TRADITION... SEE BELOW FOR THE HIGHLIGHTS OF THE PAST YEAR.

• GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT... AND ANOTHER... AND TECHNICALLY ANOTHER... NOT MY FUALTS!!! BEEN IN RECOVERY EVER SINCE... TOTALLY NOT FUN.... ITS BEEN SUCH A HEADACHE... JUST DEALING WITH EVERYTHING WHILE EVERYTHING HURTS
• MY BEST FRIEND HAD THEIR KID!!! ITS A BABY GIRL AND IM A GODFATHER NOW :) 
• VISITED GRANDMA AGAIN IN HK
• KEPT THIS BLOG GOING FOR ANOTHER YEAR, SOME POSTS MIGHT HAVE BEEN SUB PAR... BUT I HOPE ON CHANGING THAT. LOTS OF REVIEWS LAST YEAR TOO ESPECIALLY SINCE I WAS TIRED LOL
• LEARNED EVEN MORE ABOUT MYSELF
• KEPT THAT JOURNAL THING GOING
• LAST BUT NOT LEAST... I HAVE A NEW GIRLFRIEND :) YUP, IT HAS HAPPENED HAHA. SHES PROBABLY READING THIS RIGHT NOW. SOOOO... HELLO THERE :P 

MOST OF THE TIME IM JUST BUSY WITH WORK, FAMILY, AND FRIENDS. HOWEVER MY 1 YEARS DEADLINE HAS PAST. I WAS NOT ABLE TO COMPLETE WHAT I WANTED. I KNEW IT WAS GOING TO BE A HARD TASK, I DID TRY BUT IT WAS JUST TOO RUSHED I THINK. WELL... I GUESS THAT IS BACK ON THE LIST OF WHAT I WANTED TO ACCOMPLISH THIS YEAR. 

FOR THOSE WHO THINK ITS A NEW  YEAR, SO THERES GOING TO BE NEAR YOU THING... YOU CAN REALLY DO THAT ANYTIME YOU WANT... YOU JUST NEED TO WANT WHATEVER YOU WANT  ENOUGH TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. THEN AGAIN IT IS A NEW YEAR SO WHO KNOWS, ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN. THERES A BIT MORE TO SAY BUT THIS IS BASICALLY IT. SO WELCOME TO THE NEW YEAR AND WISH YOU ALL THE VERY BEST IN IT. LETS CRUSH IT THIS YEAR :)

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CATCHING UP

WELL... ITS GOING TO BE ANOTHER SHORT POST SINCE IVE BEEN BUSY CATCHING UP ON EVERYTHING... FAMILY... FRIENDS... WORK... LIFE... TV... AND SLEEP. THERES NEVER AN END TO THE AMOUNT OF THINGS TO CATCH UP ON. ITS REALLY GOOD TO JUST CATCH UP AND HAVE EVERYTHING CURRENT. ITS WEIRD BUT I DONT REALLY LIKE TO BE BEHIND... IN ANYTHING. WITH THAT BEING SAID... THIS BLOG IS BEHIND... THIS IS REALLY THE ONLY THING IM BEHIND IN. IVE BEEN PUSHING THIS FURTHER AND FURTHER AND STILL TRYING TO DECIDE WHAT TO DO WITH THIS. THERES JUST TOO MUCH IN LIFE TO FIGURE OUT BEFORE I CAN FIGURE OUT ON THIS. SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT AND SO LITTLE TIME... I REALLY THINK THAT VLOG I WAS PLANNING TO DO WOULD BE MUCH SIMPLER... BUT THAT HAS ITS OWN WORK IN AND OF IT SELF. EVERYTHING NEEDS WORK... OH LIFE... HOW YOU SUCK THE LIFE OUT OF EVERYTHING... THEN AGAIN... THERES ALWAYS TOMORROW... AND IT WILL HAVE TO BE TOMORROW WHEN I WILL THINK ABOUT ALL THIS AGAIN... SOOOO IM GOING TO SLEEP, JUST SLEEP THE PROBLEMS AND EVERYTHING AWAY... FOR NOW.

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5 YEAR ANNIVERSARY

HOLY CRAP!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT THIS POST MARKS MY 5TH YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF THIS BLOG!!! THIS IS THE EXACT DATE 5 YEARS AGO THAT I STARTED. WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE SURVIVED THIS LONG... TO BE ABLE TO WRITE A POST EVERY WEEK WITHOUT FAIL... BECAUSE I TOTALLY DIDNT THINK I WAS GOING TO KEEP THIS GOING OR KEEP THIS UP THIS LONG... IT REALLY HAS SURPRISED ME... I STILL CANT BELIEVE ITS BEEN 5 YEARS ALREADY. SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED IN THE PAST 5 YEARS... BUT SOMEHOW IVE BEEN ABLE TO KEEP THIS UP. EVEN WHEN I WAS OUT OF THE COUNTRY I WAS STILL ABLE TO POST SOMETHING JUST TO MAKE SURE THAT IT REALLY IS WEEKLY. SO MUCH HAS CHANGED... FAMILY, FRIENDS, CAREER, RELATIONSHIP, AND THE BIGGEST OF ALL MYSELF. LOOKING BACK AT MY POSTS I REALLY CAN SEE HOW IVE GROWN AND CHANGED. I DID KEEP MY WORD OF KEEPING THIS BLOG JUST LIKE ME... AND JUST LIKE THE TITLE SAYS... RANDOM!!! IVE GIVEN YOU ALL A VIEW INTO MY SUBCONSCIOUSNESS AND HOW MY MIND WORKS. I DONT KNOW HOW MANY STILL READ THIS, BUT ITS ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT SOME OF YOU DO. IT HASNT BEEN EASY... I KNOW AT TIMES THE POSTS ARE LACKING IN SUBSTANCE OR NOT EVEN THERE AT ALL... BUT THERES TIMES THAT JUST MAKES YOU TAKE A MOMENT TO THINK. IVE HAD MY UPS AND DOWNS WITH THIS BLOG. IVE THOUGHT ABOUT STOPPING, IVE THOUGHT ABOUT POSTING LESS, IVE THOUGHT ABOUT IT ALL. AFTER EVERYTHING WAS SAID AND DONE, I DECIDED TO KEEP GOING. LIKE I SAID... I DONT REALLY CARE HOW MANY OF YOU READ THIS OR ENJOY THIS, ITS MORE FOR MYSELF. ITS A RELEASE, ITS AN OUTLET FOR ME TO JUST DO AND SAY WHATEVER I WANT. THIS IS COMPLETELY UNFILTERED AND IS RAW. IF YOU EVER WANTED TO MEET THE REAL ME... WELL HERE I AM AND THIS IS IT. I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW IM GOING TO PROCEED IN THE FUTURE. IVE REALLY BEEN THINKING ABOUT CUTTING DOWN THE POSTS. BUT THEN AGAIN I HAVE A LOT OF POSTS THAT I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT... SO AT LEAST IN THE NEAR FORESEEABLE FUTURE IL STILL BE POSTING WEEK AFTER WEEK.

I WONDER WHAT THE NEXT 5 YEARS IS GOING TO LOOK LIKE... I WONDER WHAT THE POSTS ARE GOING TO BE ABOUT... I HAVE SOME POSTS THAT I KNOW IL WRITE BUT WILL I REALLY BE ABLE TO WRITE FOR ANOTHER 5 YEARS.... WELL... THEN AGAIN I ALREADY WROTE 5 SO WHO KNOWS... LOL. I GUESS FOR NOW IL JUST KEEP DOING WHAT IM DOING AND IF SOMETHING CHANGES, YOU ALL WILL BE THE FIRST TO KNOW :) HERES TO 5 GLORIOUS YEARS OF BLOGGING!!! :)

WELL WORKS REALLY BUSY ESPECIALLY SINCE IM LEAVING FOR VACA NEXT WEEK!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO FINALLY. AFTER EVERYTHING THATS HAPPENED THIS YEAR I REALLY NEED TO JUST GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND RECHARGE. I NEED TO CHANGE MY VIEW ON THINGS. I NEED TO JUST RELAX AND ENJOY MYSELF A LITTLE. ITS GOING TO BE GREAT. SO MY NEXT POST WILL BE FROM GOOD OLD CHINA LOL... IF I CAN GET IT TO WORK... LOL. SEE YOU ALL WHEN I COME BACK.

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THE LAST POST OF MY 20'S

WOW... JUST WOW... CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT THIS IS REALLY GOING TO BE THE VERY LAST POST OF MY 20'S... IM TURNING 30 IN A MATTER OF DAYS AND AND ONCE I HIT THAT MARK, ITS GOING TO BE A WHOLE NEW BALL GAME... I CANT BELIEVE ANOTHER DECADE HAS PASSED BY AND IM GOING TO ENTER A NEW CATEGORY... IT STILL REALLY HASNT HIT ME YET, OR MAYBE IT HASNT SUNK IN YET, BUT I DONT THINK IT WOULD AFFECT ME THAT MUCH. I MEAN, EVERYTHING IS THE SAME BUT THE MAJOR THING NOW IS, WHEN I SAY MY AGE THERES NO "TWENTY" INFRONT OF IT. NOW ITS A "THIRTY." TO ME IT FEELS JUST LIKE ANY OTHER DAY, BUT EVERYONE WILL MAKE A BIG DEAL OF IT. THERS SO MUCH I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT THIS BUT IM TIRED... LETS SEE HOW FAR I GET BEFORE I PASS OUT LOL. LOOKING BACK, THE PAST 10 YEARS REALLY WENT BY QUITE FAST. IT REALLY DID SEEM LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I WAS STILL IN CLASS AT LANGARA AND SFU. OR IT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I STARTED A REAL JOB... EVERYTHING SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY AT THIS POINT, PARTIALLY BECAUSE IT IS... BUT JUST BECAUSE IM FEELING NOSTALGIC. FORGET ABOUT TURNING 30... THIS BLOG ITSELF IS ALMOST 5 YEARS OLD... THINKING ABOUT, IVE BEEN BLOGGING FOR ALMOST HALF A DECADE... TIME REALLY DOES FLY. LOOKING BACK, IM REALLY NOT THAT SAME PERSON I WAS 10 YEARS AGO. IVE GROWN (OBVIOUSLY) AND CHANGED IN EVERY WAY POSSIBLE, AND IVE LEARNED A LOT IN MY 30 YEARS ON EARTH, MUCH IVE LEARNED IN THE PAST 10 YEARS. FORGET ABOUT THE THINGS YOU LEARN IN ELEMENTARY AND HIGH SCHOOL. THAT STUFF IS CHILDS PLAY AND EVERYONE GOES THROUGH IT. IM TALKING ABOUT LIFE LESSONS AND EVERYTHING ELSE. INSTEAD OF JUST TELLING YOU WHAT IVE DONE, WHICH I ALREADY DO ON THIS BLOG, IM GOING TO TELL YOU SOME OF THE THINGS IVE LEARNED THE PAST 10 YEARS. I TRULY BELIEVE IN THEM AND IVE WRITTEN ABOUT SOME OF THEM IN THE PAST, BUT HERE IT IS, MY LIFE LESSONS THAT I HAVE LEARNED THE PAST 10 YEARS (IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER):

1. PATIENCE / GIVING A FUCK

LIFE HAS TAUGHT ME THAT SOMETIMES YOU NEED TO BE PATIENT AND GIVE A FUCK, WHILE AT OTHER TIMES PATIENCE DOESNT EXIST AND YOU REALLY DONT GIVE A FUCK. I THINK BECAUSE OF LIFE AND EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING I HAVE TO DEAL WITH, IM A MORE PATIENT MAN, BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM LESS PATIENT WHEN IT COMES TO BULLSHIT. YOU JUST HAVE TO READ THE SITUATION, AND WHEN YOU NEED TO, CARE ABOUT IT. WHEN YOU DONT, THEN DONT EVEN BOTHER. A LOT OF TIME ITS JUST A BIG WASTE OF EFFORT AND ENERGY, SO JUST DONT EVEN BOTHER. YOU WILL BE HAPPIER FOR HAVING DONE SO. TIME IS MONEY!!!

2. NOT ENOUGH TIME

FUNNY HOW THAT LEAD INTO THIS. ITS TRUE, YOU REALLY NEVER HAVE ENOUGH TIME. I ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING I WANT TO DO, BUT NEVER HAVE ENOUGH TIME FOR IT. BY THE TIME I WANT TO DO IT, EITHER ITS TOO LATE OR IT JUST DOESNT WORK. BETWEEN SLEEPING, EATING, WORKING, AND WHATEVER ELSE, THERE REALLY ISNT ENOUGH HOURS IN A DAY TO DO WHAT ELSE YOU WANT TO DO. SO USE YOUR TIME WISELY. 

3. ALWAYS HAVE A PLAN / GOAL

I HAVE ALWAYS HAD A PLAN... SORTA... I KNEW WHAT I WANTED TO DO AND PLANNED FOR IT. WE ALL KNOW THAT PLANS RARELY WORK OUT THE WAY IT IS SUPPOSE TO. YOU ALWAYS NEED A PLAN, IF YOUR PLAN DOESNT SUCCEED THE FIRST TIME, THEN TRY TRY TRY AGAIN. ITS SIMILAR TO THE ROADS POST, WHERE LIFE HAS MANY PATHS FOR YOU TO TAKE. JUST BECAUSE ONE PATH DOESNT WORK OTU, DOESNT MEAN YOU SHOULD GIVE UP. ALWAYS HAVE A BACK UP PLAN. ALWAYS HAVE SOME SORT OF GOAL, SOMETHING LIKE A FINISH LINE. NEVER STOP GROWING AND IMPROVING. HAVING THAT GOAL MOTIVATES YOU, MAKES YOU DETERMINED TO KEEP GOING, IT PUSHES YOU TO DO BETTER AND BE BETTER. ALWAYS STRIVE FOR MORE, NEVER SETTLE.

4. LOVE / RELATIONSHIP

YOU CANT FORCE THESE THINGS, WHEN ITS RIGHT AND WORKS, IT WORKS. WHEN ITS WRONG, THEN IT JUST WONT WORK NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU WANT IT TO. PEOPLE DO STUPID THINGS IN THEM... JUST DO YOUR PART AND IF IT DOESNT WORK OUT, AT LEAST YOU KNOW THAT YOU DID ALL YOU CAN AND IT JUST WASNT MEANT TO BE. YOU REALLY GET WHAT YOU PUT IN. NEVER DESTROY OR BURN BRIDGES, BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHO AND WHEN YOU WILL NEED THEIR HELP.

5. DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY

DO WHAT MAKE YOU HAPPY. IF YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING THEN DO IT, WHO CARES WHAT PEOPLE MIGHT THINK, ITS YOUR LIFE SO LIVE IT THE WAY YOU WANT. DO THE THINGS YOU WANT. BE THE WAY YOU WANT. YOU WILL NEVER MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY, SO HONESTLY WHY BOTHER... MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY, BECAUSE IN THE END ITS ALL ABOUT YOURSELF ANYWAYS.

6. IT WILL ALL WORK OUT... SOMEHOW

STOP WORRYING!!! WHATEVER YOUR PROBLEM IS, IN THE END, SOMEHOW... EVENTUALLY... INEVITABLY... IT WILL ALL WORK OUT. THE UNIVERSE SOMEHOW ALWAYS DOES. JUST LOOK AT ME!!! EVERYTHING SOMEHOW ENDED UP ALRIGHT. IT MIGHT SEEM TOUGH RIGHT NOW, AND THERES NO LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL, BUT JUST KEEP GOING, NEVER GIVE UP, I MADE IT AND SO WILL YOU.

7. MOTTOS - "NO PAIN, NO GAIN" "LIVE WITH NO REGRETS" "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON"

THESE ARE WHAT I LIVE BY. SOME TIE INTO OTHERS BUT STILL HAVE TO SAY IT. NOTHING EVER WORTH DOING WAS EASY... IF IT WAS THEN EVERYONE WOULD BE DOING IT AND THEN WHAT WOULD THE POINT BE... THATS WHY IF ITS WORTH IT, THEN DO IT. PAIN IS ONLY TEMPORARY. LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR REGRETS, SO JUST GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT AND DO IT. SURE I PROBABLY HAVE A FEW, BUT MOSTLY I DONT HAVE ANY. IVE DONE WHAT I WANTED, WHEN I WANTED. IN LIFE YOU REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN, OR WHY SOMETHING HAPPENS. IN THE WHOLE SCHEME OF THINGS EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. YOU MIGHT NOT UNDERSTAND IT, OR WANT IT, OR EVEN AGREE WITH IT, BUT IT ALL HAPPENS FOR A REASON. IT WILL BECOME CLEAR SOONER OR LATER. 

THERE IS A TON OF OTHER THINGS I COULD WRITE ABOUT BUT I HONESTLY THINK THESE ARE THE TOP ONES. IVE LEARNED A LOT AND CHANGED A LOT IN THE PAST 10 YEARS. NOW THINKING ABOUT IT, I WONDER WHAT THE NEXT 10 WILL BE LIKE. IT SEEMS LIKE A FAR AWAY DREAM RIGHT NOW, BUT WHEN I WAS 20... SO WAS 30... AND THAT CAME IN A BLINK OF AN EYE. 

MY ORIGINAL DUE DATE THAT I GAVE MYSELF OF 1 YEAR IS BASICALLY UP. I DID A LOT TO ACHIEVE THAT GOAL, BUT IT JUST WASNT ENOUGH AT THIS TIME. I HAD A FEW SET BACKS BUT THESE ARENT EXCUSE. IM STILL PLANNING TO CONTINUE THAT GOAL, BUT INSTEAD OF A YEAR ITS LOOKING MORE LIKE 2 OR 3 YEARS TO ACHIEVE. 

COME TO THINK OF IT... A LARGE PORTION OF MY 20'S I WAS STILL IN SOME KIND OF SCHOOL. IT WAS ONLY THE LATER HALF OF MY 20'S THAT I STARTED WORKING. MY 20'S I MET PEOPLE, I LOST PEOPLE, I GAINED PEOPLE, AND I FORGOT ABOUT PEOPLE. I TRAVELLED, I PLAYED, I ATE, AND I ENJOYED. I LEARNED A LOT ABOUT MYSELF, ABOUT WHAT IM MADE OF, WHAT IM CAPABLE OF, AND WHAT I TRULY THOUGHT AND FELT. IF I COULD DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN WOULD IT? I WOULD PROBABLY HAVE CHANGED A FEW THINGS, BUT FOR THE MOST PART... I AM THE WAY I AM NOW, AND I AM WHO I AM BECAUSE OF IT ALL, SO IM GOING TO SAY NO. THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I AM SUPPOSE TO BE. 

I REALLY WONDER WHATS IN STORE FOR ME IN MY 30'S... THIS IS MOST DEFINITELY GOING TO BE DIFFERENT. I GUESS IL LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW IT FEELS NEXT WEEK. 

GOODBYE TO MY 20'S. SEE YOU ALL IN MY 30'S

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BABIES EVERYWHERE!!!

PEOPLE GOT TO STOP HAVING BABIES!!! HOLY JEZZ!!! ITS LIKE MY FB, IG, AND EVERYTHING ELSE... ALL I SEE IS MY FRIENDS PREGO OR HAVING KIDS... ON A SIDENOTE... CONGRATS TO MY BEST FRIEND WHO JUST HAD HIS DAUGHTER TODAY AND I CANT WAIT TO SEE HER TOMORROW :) BUT JUST RECENTLY ANOTHER ONE OF MY CLOSE FRIENDS HAD A KID, MY TEAM MATE HAD A KID, OLD CLASSMATE HAD A KID, SOME OTHER PEOPLE HAD A KID, AND A WHOLE BUNCH PREGNANT. WELL... I GUESS I AM AT THE AGE WHERE IM LOOKING AT SETTLING DOWN AND HAVING A FAMILY... I DO WANT KIDS. I WANT 2 OF THEM, A SON FIRST, THEN A DAUGHTER. THE BROTHER HAS TO WATCH OUT FOR HIS LITTLE SISTER. YA, I SORTA HAVE THIS ALL PLANNED OUT, THE ONLY THING MISSING IS THE MRS RIGHT NOW. THEN AGAIN REALLY THINKING ABOUT IT IM A FEW YEARS FROM BEING READY TO HAVE A KID, BUT I WANT A KID. ITS JUST EVERYONE AROUND IS HAVING THEM AND I WANT OUR KIDS TO BE THE SAME AGE OR ROUGHLY THE SAME AGE. MY GROUPS PLANS IS THAT ALL OUR KIDS WILL BE FRIENDS AND BEST FRIENDS WITH EACH OTHER WHETHER THEY LIKE IT OR NOT!!! THEY HAVE NO CHOICE IN THE MATTER LOL. ITS SO MUCH FUN TO PLAY WITH BABIES FOR THAT HOUR OR WHATEVER BUT HAVING TO DEAL WITH THEM ALL THE TIME WOULD BE A LOT. WELL OBVIOUSLY YOU HAVE TO 24/7 BECAUSE THEY A BABY BUT JEZZ!!! BABY JUST GO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF ALREADY!!! LOL. THEN YOU HAVE TO RAISE THEM FOR WHO KNOWS HOW LONG BEFORE THEY FINALLY LEAVE HOME AND MAKE ME RICH!!! YES, MY KIDS WILL MAKE ME RICH!!! THEN AGAIN IL BE RICH WHEN SOON SOOOOOO TECHNICALLY ITS THE OTHER WAY AROUND HAHA. THINKING ABOUT IT IS JUST CRAZY THAT WHEN MY KID IS 10 OR 20 IL BE... MUCH MUCH OLDER AND ALL MY FRIENDS WILL BE THAT AGE TOO... SO MUCH WILL HAPPEN BETWEEN NOW AND THEN IT JUST BOGGLES THE MIND. BUT... WHO KNOWS WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN OR WHEN ITS GOING TO HAPPEN... EVERYTHING IS ALL UP IN THE AIR UNTIL THAT STUFF HAPPENS ANYWAY. SOOOOOO IN THE MEANTIME IL JUST ENJOY BEING THE AWESOME GODFATHER THAT I AM AND PLAY WITH OTHER PEOPLES BABIES :)

WHAT CAN I SAY ABOUT THE REST OF EVERYTHING? WHAT CAN I SAY... JUST SAME OLD DAY IN AND DAY OUT... FOR NOW. LIKE ALWAYS IM BUSY, IM HERE AND THERE, DOING THIS AND THAT. ITS EITHER GOING TO STAY THE SAME OR GET EVEN WORSE... WHO KNOWS. STILL WORKING ON WHAT I WANT, BUT EVERYTHING TAKES TIME... AS USUAL. PATIENCE REALLY IS A VIRTUE... SOMETIMES YOU JUST WANT A GLIMPSE OF THE FUTURE, JUST TO SEE IF THE ROAD YOU ARE ON, IS THE ROAD THAT YOU ARE MEANT TO BE ON, OR THE ROAD YOU THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE ON. JUST EVEN SEEING A SECOND OF IT WOULD HELP SHAPE AND CHANGE YOUR DECISIONS YOU MAKE THIS MINUTE, TODAY, TOMORROW AND FOREVER. THEN AGAIN I GUESS THATS THE MYSTERY WHICH IS LIFE AND NEVER KNOWING. THE CONSTANT SURPRISE LIFE BRINGS YOU, BOTH THE UPS AND DOWNS. WHO KNOWS WHATS TO COME... GUESS IL FIND OUT WHEN I WAKE UP... :P

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TIME MAKES ONE THINK...

SO IVE TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE IN SOME FORM OR ANOTHER BUT DUE TO ME BEING ON INJURY LEAVE FROM WORK CAUSE OF THE CAR ACCIDENT THE TOPIC IS MORE PREVALENT. WHEN IM LAYING THERE, YOUR MIND JUST LIKES TO WORK OVERTIME AND A FLOOD OF QUESTIONING AND JUDGEMENT CREEPS IN... QUESTIONING AND JUDGEMENT OF WHERE I AM, WHERE IVE BEEN, WHERE IM GOING, WHAT IM DOING, WHY..., AND THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE OF ALL... WHAT IF... TIME JUST MAKES YOU THINK OF EVERYTHING YOU DONT WANT TO... I RATHER BE BUSY AND HAVE OTHER THINGS ON MY MIND THAN TO HAVE ME QUESTIONING MYSELF. THE WORST PART IS THAT ITS NOT JUST ONE THING... IT ALWAYS STARTS OFF WITH SOMETHING SMALL WHICH CONNECTS TO SOMETHING BIGGER AND THEN YOU JUMP ISSUES AND SOMEHOW END UP LOOKING BACK AT EVERYTHING YOUVE DONE. IT JUST SNOWBALLS AND SPIRALS OUT OF CONTROL... AND IN THE END YOU DONT EVEN KNOW HOW YOU ENDED UP WHERE YOU WERE WHEN ALL YOU WANTED TO KNOW WAS SOMETHING SIMPLE. YOUR BRAIN REALLY IS AN ASSHOLE... IT CONNECTS THINGS IN THE DUMBEST OF WAYS TO MAKE YOU FEEL THE SHITTIEST OF WAYS... BUT THEN... C'EST LA VIE... 

IM CURRENTLY HAPPY WITH WHERE I AM AND WHAT IM DOING BUT AT THE SAME TIME SOMETHINGS JUST MISSING. I HONESTLY THINK ITS JUST THAT THIS WILL BE A BIG YEAR. IT STARTED OFF IN THE WORST POSSIBLE WAY ALREADY AND MY OWN PERSONAL DEADLINE IS COMING UP. NOT TO MENTION THE BDAY THIS YEAR IS ALSO A BIG ONE... EVERYTHING CAN ONLY LOOK UP FROM THIS POINT AM I RIGHT? EVERYTHING IS STARTING TO FEEL LIKE WHATS THE POINT AGAIN. SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO, SO MANY GOALS NOT MET, AND TIME JUST KEEPS ON TICKING. WHO KNOWS WHATS CAUSING THIS... THE TIME OFF, THE MEDS, THE AGE, THE SURROUNDING... WHO KNOWS!!! JUST NEED THAT PUSH AGAIN TO GET MYSELF ON TRACK AGAIN. NEED TO KNOW WHATS IT ALL MEAN OR WHATS THE POINT. THE QUESTIONS THATS BEEN ASKED FOR SO LONG AND THE ANSWER ALWAYS ALLUDES US. SIGH... MAYBE IL BE ABLE TO FIGURE IT ALL OUT... SOONER OR LATER... MAYBE...

HONESTLY THERES SOME THINGS I WANT TO WRITE BUT I DONT WANT TO WRITE THEM... DOES THAT MAKE SENSE... MAYBE ONE DAY WHEN I FINALLY DECIDE TO WRITE ABOUT IT YOU WILL ALL UNDERSTAND.

STILL BEEN BUSY DEALING WITH THE CAR ACCIDENT AND ALL BUT IVE FINALLY BEEN ABLE TO GET A CAR. AFTER SOME SEARCHING AND SOME CONNECTIONS I SHOULD BE PICKING UP THE CAR SOMETIME THIS WEEK.

IM TIRED, IM SORE, I DONT KNOW ANYMORE... JUST... BLA... JUST... BLA... THATS ALL THERE IS TO IT... SO... UNTIL TO NEXT TIME...

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HERES TO ANOTHER NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY READERS OUT THERE. HOPE YOU ALL HAD A WONDERFUL END TO 2015 AND A GREAT START OF 2016. MYSELF... WELL STILL DEALING WITH THE AFTERMATH AND HASSLE OF THE CAR ACCIDENT. TALKING TO LAWYERS, ICBC, DOCTORS, POLICE, ALL SO MUCH FUN... AND NOW ITS CONFIRMED THAT MY CAR IS TOTALLED... WHICH I ALREADY KNEW... SO IM TRYING TO LOOK FOR A NEW CAR RIGHT NOW AND ITS ACTUALLY HARDER THAN YOU THINK... THERES ACTUALLY NO CARS I LIKE RIGHT NOW AND THE CARS THAT I DO LIKE ARE OUT OF MY PRICE RANGE... I NEED TO HAVE A CAR FOR WORK AND AT THE SAME TIME I NEED IT TO BE PRESENTABLE YET REASONABLE AND FITS MY LIFESTYLE. THERE ARE NOT THAT MANY VEHICLES THAT FIT THIS CATEGORY... EXCEPT THE ONES THAT I CANT AFFORD LOL. SO NOW I HAVE FINALLY NARROWED IT DOWN TO 3 VEHICLES WHICH I WILL GO TAKE A LOOK AT AND SEE WHICH ONE I WILL END UP WITH. BESIDES THAT BEEN DEALING WITH PAIN ALL OVER STILL AND ACTUALLY GONNA GO SEE THE DOCTOR TOMORROW CAUSE THIS AINT FUN!!! SERIOUSLY THIS IS THE BIGGEST HASSLE EVER!!! I DONT CARE WHOS RIGHT OR WHATNOT ITS ALL THE PEOPLE I HAVE TO CONTACT AND DEAL WITH THAT ANNOYS ME. I SERIOUSLY WISH THIS NEVER HAPPENED BUT LIKE I ALWAYS SAY... EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. HEY LOOK AT IT THIS WAY... THE YEAR STARTED OFF LIKE THIS SO IT CANT POSSIBLY GET ANY WORSE... *KNOCKS ON WOOD* LOL AND THATS ANOTHER THING I DONT GET... WHAT DOES KNOCK ON WOOD HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING... I REMEMBER SOMEONE TOLD ME BEFORE IT HAS TO DO WITH NATURE AND THAT ITS NATURAL... SO IT VOIDS THE JINX... ACTUALLY HOLD ON... IM GONNA GO CHECK. OK IM BACK... NOTHING IS REALLY CLEAR BUT SOME SAY OLD FOLKLORE SAYS KNOCKING ON WOOD WARDS OFF EVIL SPIRITS... AND IN OTHERS KNOCKING ON WOOD BECAUSE TREE SPIRITS/ELVES/NYMPH LIVES IN THEM AND YOU ARE CALLING THEM TO INVOKE PROTECTION. WELL... YOU LEARN SOMETHING EVERYDAY :) THE MORE YOU KNOW... RIGHT :) ANYWAYS THIS FEELS LIKE ITS GOING TO BE A GOOD YEAR. THEN AGAIN... DONT THEY ALL FEEL LIKE A GOOD YEAR UNTIL SOMETHING COMES ALONG AND JUST SCREWS IT UP? WELL... ONE CAN ONLY HOPE ITS A GOOD YEAR, SO FAR SO GOOD... SORTA... IN A WAY... ISH... MEH YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN HAHA

ON ANOTHER NOTE... MY BATTLE WITH FB IS OVER :) THEY COULDNT BLOCK ME FOR LONG!!! I AM BACK LOL. AFTER SENDING THEM MORE COMPLAINTS AND STUFF THEY APOLOGIZED AND GAVE ME BACK MY ACCOUNT. PSH!!! THATS RIGHT I AM ACTUALLY THAT COOL SO SCREW YOU AND TIME TO START CREEPING AGAIN. ACTUALLY I WAS OFF FACEBOOK FOR ABOUT A MONTH AND A HALF AND AFTER THE FIRST WEEK I DIDNT REALLY NOTICE IT ANYMORE... THE ONLY THING I REALLY DO WITH FB IS LINK THIS BLOG AND MY IG PICS TO IT.

CURRENTLY JUST TAKING TIME TO RECOVER FROM THE ACCIDENT SO IVE BEEN DOING A FEW THINGS THAT I HAD ON MY LIST OF THINGS TO DO. ITS BEEN PRETTY PRODUCTIVE I WOULD SAY. OH OH OH AND THIS IS MY POST #222. YUP ITS STILL GOING STRONG... 222 POSTS LATER... 222 WEEKS LATER... OVER 4 YEARS OF WRITING WEEK AFTER WEEK. I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN KEEP THIS GOING. I DO HAVE TOPICS TO WRITE ABOUT BUT I JUST DONT WANT TO WRITE THEM. RIGHT NOW THERE IS QUANTITY WEEKLY BUT THERE ARE A FEW POSTS OF QUALITY THAT I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT. I GUESS WHEN I HAVE A LITTLE BIT MORE TIME I WILL DO THOSE. WELL, ENJOY YOURSELVES EVERYONE AND SEE YOU NEXT WEEK.

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THE FUTURE'S NOT OURS TO SEE

IVE BEEN LOOKING AT THE PAST AND THINKING ABOUT THE FUTURE QUITE A BIT RECENTLY... ESPECIALLY WHEN I WAS ON MY TRIP A FEW WEEKS AGO. ONCE AGAIN IVE REACHED THE AGE WHERE ITS TIME TO SERIOUSLY THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING AND WHERE I AM. IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH MY POSTS THAT IVE WRITTEN OVER THE PAST 4 YEARS AND YES, SOME ARE RANDOM AND DONT REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING WHILE BUT THERE ARE THOSE THAT MAKE ONE THINK MORE DEEPLY. IVE WRITTEN ABOUT A LOT OF DIFFERENT TOPICS BUT THE SAME THOUGHTS KEEP COMING BACK UP OVER AND OVER. I DONT REGRET ANYTHING IVE DONE IN THE PAST BUT THERE IS THE THOUGHT OF ALWAYS WONDERING WHAT IF... WHAT IF I DID THIS INSTEAD, WHERE WOULD I HAVE ENDED UP THEN? WOULD I STILL BE HERE DOING THE SAME THING? WOULD I BE BETTER OFF OR WORSE OFF? THESE QUESTIONS WILL NEVER BE ANSWERED. THE SAME NOW GOES THROUGH MY HEAD BUT MORE OF WHATS NEXT AND WHERE WILL I BE? I THINK IT JUST HAS TO DO WITH MANY OF MY FRIENDS GETTING OLDER AND EITHER GETTING MARRIED OR HAVING KIDS. THINGS WERE SO MUCH SIMPLER BACK THEN... LESS WORRIES AND RESPONSIBILITIES, BUT NOW IT SEEMS THAT IM ALWAYS WORRYING ABOUT SOMETHING. THATS JUST PART OF LIFE I SUPPOSE. WHATS NEXT FOR ME? DONT GET ME WRONG, IM HAPPY WHERE I AM AND WHAT IM DOING BUT SOMETIMES I REALLY WISH THERE WAS A CRYSTAL BALL TO SEE WHERE I END UP. I HAVE A PLANS AND GOALS FOR MYSELF, BUT IT WOULD BE NICE TO FIND OUT IF EVERYTHING THAT I WANT AND AM WORKING TOWARDS REALLY DO COME TO FRUITION. I GUESS ITS JUST THE WANT... NO, THE NEED TO KNOW IF I AM GOING TO ACHIEVE MY GOALS OR IF IM ACTUALLY JUST WASTING TIME. I REALLY HATE WASTING TIME THESE DAYS, I REALIZE THAT THERES NEVER ENOUGH OF IT... I GUESS THIS IS REALLY SHOWING MY AGE NOW... I REALLY HAVE TO START ON MY PLAN TO GET THE FUTURE I HAVE PLANNED AND ENVISIONED. THEN AGAIN... WHO KNOWS... THE FUTURES NOT OURS TO SEE...

WORK, TV, FRIENDS, FAMILY, AND THE REST IS THE SAME OLD. WE DID HOWEVER START A VOLLEYBALL TEAM :) LOL THE LAST TIME I PLAYED VOLLEYBALL WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL GYM CLASS... DECIDED TO MAKE A TEAM SO WE CAN KEEP ACTIVE UNTIL FOOTBALL STARTS BACK UP AGAIN. VOLLEYBALL IS THE ONE SPORT THAT WILL HURT ME THE MOST... MY SHOULDER IS SO SCREWED UP THAT SPIKING THE BALL WILL BE INTERESTING. YOU ALL KNOW THAT IVE DISLOCATED MY SHOULDER MORE THAN I CAN EVEN REMEMBER AND ANYTHING THAT REQUIRES ME TO THROW OR HIT A BALL IN THAT MOTION IS JUST ASKING FOR TROUBLE HAHA. JUST GOTTA BE MORE CAREFUL THAN NORMAL. THIS IS GOING TO BE FUN SINCE THERES ONLY A FEW PEOPLE THAT HAVE ACTUALLY PLAYED BEFORE. OH WELL LOL.

ITS STARTING TO GET DARK PRETTY EARLY THESE DAYS AND ITS ALSO GETTING COLDER TOO... STARTING TO FEEL LIKE DOING LESS AND LESS AND EVERYTHING SEEMS QUIETER AS WELL... EVERY YEAR THERES LESS GOING ON AND PEOPLE JUST DONT WANT THE HASSLE ANYMORE, OH WELL. LIFE GOES ON... C'EST LA VIE

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BEEN THINKING... BEEN PLANNING... WHATS NEXT

A CONSTANT THOUGHT THAT KEEPS RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND IS WHATS NEXT... IVE BEEN THINKING AND IVE BEEN PLANNING BUT I CANT REALLY FIGURE IT OUT. CURRENTLY EVERYTHING IS GOING GOOD AND IM IN A GREAT PLACE IN MY LIFE FINALLY BUT IM ALWAYS WONDERING WHATS NEXT... YOU KNOW HOW IN THE OLD INTERVIEW DAYS EVERYONE ASKS YOU "WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF IN 5 YEAR?" THAT QUESTION IS SO HARD TO ANSWER. OF COURSE IN AN INTERVIEW YOU ALWAYS ANSWER THAT YOU SEE YOURSELF IN A MANAGEMENT ROLE OR EXECUTIVE LEVEL BLA BLA BLA AND PERHAPS ITS TRUE, BUT HOW MANY OF US CAN REALLY SAY WHERE WE WILL BE IN 5 YEARS. WE CANT EVEN TELL YOU WHERE WE WOULD BE IN A YEAR. SO MUCH CAN CHANGE IN A YEAR, A MONTH, A DAY, A MINUTE... SURE YOU CAN TRY TO PLAN THINGS OUT AND THATS WHAT IVE BEEN TRYING TO DO, BUT THERES JUST TOO MANY VARIABLES, TOO MANY QUESTIONS, TOO MANY DECISIONS TO MAKE TO REALLY KNOW. IF I LOOK BACK 5 YEARS AND THINK IF I HAD ANY IDEA THAT I WOULD END UP WHERE I CURRENTLY AM NOW THE ANSWER WOULD BE NO. I REALLY HAD NO IDEA WHERE I WOULD END UP... I HAD A PLAN AND HAD HOPE TO END UP AT POINT BUT THINGS CHANGE. THE SAME COULD BE SAID ABOUT NOW LOOKING FORWARD AND TRYING TO SEE WHERE I WILL BE. ONCE AGAIN I HAVE A PLAN AND HOPES BUT WHO KNOWS IF ITS GOING TO CHANGE. IN A WAY THIS REALLY PISSES ME OFF NOT KNOWING. I JUST REALLY WANT TO KNOW IF THINGS WILL END UP THE WAY I THINK AND HOPE THEY WILL. 5 YEARS IS SUCH A LONG TIME AND SO MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN BETWEEN. MAYBE WHAT I THOUGHT CANT EVEN HAPPEN OR WONT OR SHOULDNT EVEN HAPPEN. WHO REALLY KNOWS... ONLY THING I DO KNOW IS DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO, TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE, AND DONT LET ANYTHING STOP YOU. THERES NO POINT IN WAITING FOR 5 YEARS TO SEE IF YOU END UP WHERE YOU THINK YOU WILL END UP... START NOW AND MAKE SURE YOU END UP WHERE YOU SAID YOU WOULD END UP 5 YEARS AGO.

EVERYTHING ELSE? WORKS BETTER, EVERYTHING IS FINALLY FINISHING UP AND IT LOOKS LIKE NOT MUCH MORE OT :) PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS HAVE BEEN ROUGH... JUST TOO MUCH TO DO, BUT THE REST OF THE YEAR IS LOOKING GOOD AND ESPECIALLY GOOD SINCE ITS SUMMER TIME WOOOOOOOOOO. FOOTBALL IS GETTING INTENSE... PLAYING TO MAKE IT INTO THE PLAYOFFS RIGHT NOW AND LETS JUST SAY THE LAST GAME GOT REALLY REALLY LOUD AND ALMOST PHYSICAL... MULTIPLE TIMES... AND PEOPLE GOT KICKED OUT. SO NOW WE JUST CONCENTRATING ON FINISHING THE SEASON IN A PLAYOFF SPOT. THIS WEEK IS A MUST WIN NO MATTER WHAT AND WE GOT THIS!!! NOTHING IS GOING TO STOP US!!! I SAY NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOCCER SEASON IS OVER... TURNS OUT OUR VERY LAST GAME THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN JUST FOR FUN SINCE WE LOST THE QUARTER-FINALS WAS CANCELLED... THE FIELD WAS BOOKED FOR THE AUSTRALIAN NATIONAL SOCCER TEAM FOR PRACTICE... SURE... AND THE REST OF LIFE IS THE SAME. JUST HERE AND THERE DOING THIS AND THAT. ENJOY YOUR WEEK EVERYONE AND SEE YOU NEXT TIME.

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A LITTLE LOST...

LATELY IVE BEEN FEELING LOST... NOT IN THE SENSE OF WHERE I AM BUT MORE OF THE WHERE I AM GOING. LIKE WHATS MY DIRECTION? EVERYONE FEELS IT SOMETIME, JUST THE FEELING OF NOT KNOWING WHAT YOU ARE DOING ANY MORE. LOOKING BACK IM THINKING HOW DID I GET TO THIS POINT... AND ITS ALL GOOD BECAUSE EVERYTHING HAPPENED THE WAY IT WAS SUPPOSE TO, TO BRING ME TO WHERE I AM, BUT WHERE AM I GOING...??? I CANT REALLY SEE THAT FAR AHEAD RIGHT NOW. I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE I WILL BE IN 5 YEARS, OR SEE WHAT I AM SUPPOSE TO DO... I KNOW EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALL RIGHT BUT I DONT KNOW WHERE IT IS TAKING ME. IM TOO BUSY RIGHT NOW WITH WORK AND FOOTBALL AND SOCCER TO REALLY CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE... I CANT EVEN GUESS WHERE THIS IS ALL LEADING ME TO... MAYBE ALL THIS IS JUST BUILDING UP TO SOMETHING ELSE, BUT WHO KNOWS WHAT THAT IS... IM HAPPY WITH MY JOB, AND WE JUST WON OUR 1ST GAME IN FOOTBALL, AND WE HAVING THE QUARTER-FINALS GAME FOR SOCCER, FRIENDS AND FAMILY IS DOING WELL AND EVERYTHING IS COMING TOGETHER... FOR NOW... I ONLY KNOW THAT IN THE IMMEDIATE FUTURE THAT EVERYTHING IS SORTA SET BUT HOW ABOUT FARTHER DOWN THE ROAD??? I CANT SEE WHERE ALL OF THIS IS LEADING TO... THERES LOTS I WANT TO DO BUT HOW IS IT EVEN POSSIBLE TO GET THERE??? SO MANY QUESTIONS... THE FUTURES A LITTLE BLURRY AND IM A LITTLE LOST... BUT I GUESS THATS THE FUN PART OF LIFE... NOT KNOWING WHATS COMING AND THE ADVENTURE THAT IT WILL BRING... THE ONLY THING I CAN DO IS BE PREPARED FOR WHATS TO COME AND JUST TAKE IT ON HEAD FIRST... I MEAN... AFTERALL... THE BEST HAS YET TO COME, RIGHT?!?!?! :) 

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AMAZING START TO THE YEAR!!!

WELL AFTER LAST WEEKS POST I WENT TO SLEEP AND WOKE UP EARLY TO GO TO MY EXAM. WHILE DRIVING I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO FOCUSED IN MY LIFE!!! I SO WAS READY TO GO INTO THE EXAM AND DESTROY IT. I GO IN AND I GET MYSELF READY, THEN THE LADY COMES TO SIGN ME INTO THE COMPUTER AND SHE TELLS ME THAT I CANT USE MY OWN PERSONAL PEN OR PENCIL FOR THE EXAM AND THAT I NEED TO USE THE PROVIDED ONE... SO SHE TOOK IT AND SAID THAT I COULD PICK IT UP FROM THE FRONT DESK WHEN I FINISH MY EXAM. I WENT THROUGH THE EXAM 3 TIMES TO MAKE SURE I WAS GOOD BUT AFTERWARDS COUNTING UP THE ONES THAT I WASNT SURE ABOUT... MADE ME A LITTLE BIT UNSURE AS WELL... LOL. ANYWAYS... FAST FORWARD 3 HOURS LATER... I FINISH AND GO TO CLAIM MY PEN AND PENCIL... SHE SAYS ITS RIGHT THERE... NO... ITS NOT... WTF... ITS NOT ON THE SIDE... ITS NOT IN THE BOX... ITS NOT IN THE DRAWER... ITS NOT IN THE CASE... ITS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND... WTF!>!?!@>?!#>$??@?! SOMEONE STOLE MY FREAKING PEN AND PENCIL!!!!!!!!!! WHAT IS THIS!!!!!!!!!! OMG... SO ONLY 3 PEOPLE LEFT THE EXAM BEFORE ME AND THEY SAID WOULD YOU LIKE US TO CALL THEM TO CHECK... OF COURSE I WANT YOU TO CHECK!!! YOURE THE REASON WHY ITS GONE!!! 2 OF THEM PICK UP AND SAID THEY DONT HAVE IT BUT THE THIRD PERSON DIDNT ANSWER... THAT MEANS ITS HIM!!!!! HE STOLE MY AMAZING PEN AND PENCIL!!!!!!!!!! SIGH... :( I LEFT DETAILED DESCRIPTION REGARDING THE PEN AND PENCIL AND TOLD THEM TO CALL ME... WHICH THEY HAVENT SOOO BASICALLY ITS GONE :( ITS THE JAPANESE STYLE BLUE GEL INK PEN THATS SUPER SMOOTH. THE PENCIL IS ANOTHER JAPANESE MECHANICAL LED PENCIL WITH GRIP... THAT... I... ACCIDENTALLY ON PURPOSE LEFT WITH FROM SOMEWHERE OVER 5 YEARS AGO LOLOL YES YES... BASICALLY SOMEONE STOLE THE PENCIL I STOLE HAHA. WELL THATS KARMA FOR YOU EH BUT MY PENS GONE... OH WELL. ANYWAYS THATS NOT THE MAIN POINT HERE... I THINK I DID WELL... I HOPE I DID WELL... I REALLY HAD NO CHOICE... I HAD TO MAKE IT!!! SO AT WORK FRIDAY IT WAS THE MOMENT OF TRUTH... I FINALLY CHECKED IT ANDDDDDDDDDDDDD WOOOOOOOOO :) I PASSED LOL ALL THAT HARD WORK FINALLY PAID OFF!!! ITS LIKE A WEIGHT WAS FINALLY LIFTED... YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH PRESSURE YOU PUT ON YOURSELF TO GET SOMETHING YOU WANT... IT TAKES SO MUCH OUT OF YOU JUST TO TRY AND GET IT AND THE FEELINGS AMAZING FINALLY GETTING TO THE POINT THAT YOU WANT. OH YA AND WITH THIS I ALSO GOT PROMOTED AT WORK!!! :) WOOOOO I AM HAVING A GREAT START TO THE NEW YEAR :)

NOW THAT IVE FINISH ALL THIS AND EVERYTHING ELSE I CAN FINALLY START DOING EVERYTHING ELSE THAT I WANT :) THIS WAS ONLY 1 OF THE MANY THINGS I HAVE ON MY LIST OF THINGS TO TRY AND ACCOMPLISH THIS YEAR, BUT YOU ALWAYS NEED TO MAKE THE FIRST STEP IN GOING FORWARD TO ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING. THIS WAS THE LAST SCHOOLING THAT I WILL EVER EVER FREAKING DO!!! NEVER!!! NO MORE!!! THATS IT!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL NEVER GO BACK TO SCHOOL EVER AGAIN............!!!!!!!!!!!! UNLESS... I END UP BEING SOOOOO SMART AND GOING BACK TO LEARN SOMETHING ELSE... WHY DO I KEEP DOING THIS TO MYSELF... MEH MAYBE I JUST LOVE BEING IN SCHOOL... THAT CANT BE IT... MORE LIKE I JUST LOVE PUTTING MYSELF THROUGH THE PAIN OF LEARNING LOL. WELL... I DO WANNA LEARN DUTCH AND GERMAN AND RUSSIAN... SOOO I GUESS THATS NEXT ON THE LIST OF THINGS TO GO TO SCHOOL FOR HAHA. IVE BEEN TO ALL THE BIG 3 SCHOOLS IN THIS TOWN... SO LETS SEE WHATS NEXT EH... HAHA. NOW, TIME TO GO AND ENJOY MYSELF AND DO WHAT I WANT TO DO... LIKE CATCH UP ON ALL MY TV SHOWS THAT IVE BEEN NEGLECTING FOR THE PAST MONTHS HAHA. REST OF MY LIFE??? JUST HANGING OUT WITH FRIENDS AND ENJOYING MYSELF. COULDNT ASK FOR ANYTHING BETTER :)

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LAST DAY OF FREEDOM... THEN BACK TO THE GRIND...

WELL... THATS ALL SHE WROTE. TOMORROW WILL BE THE 1ST DAY AT THE NEW JOB. WORKING 12 HOUR SHIFTS... BUT I WORK 3 DAYS ON THEN 3 DAYS OFF AND 4 DAYS ON WITH 4 DAYS OFF... SOOOO THATS PRETTY GOOD. JUST BEEN CHILLING OUT THE PAST WEEK SINCE I KNEW I WAS STARTING THIS JOB SOON. WATCHED A BUNCH OF SHOWS AND CHILLED WITH SOME FRIENDS AND THATS ABOUT ALL. ITS FINALLY TIME TO START REBUILDING AGAIN. GOTTA GET BACK TO THE GRIND AND SEE WHERE I CAN GO FROM HERE. ACTUALLY ITS PRETTY FUNNY... I KNEW AFTER GETTING CALLED FOR THIS JOB/INTERVIEW THAT MORE INTERVIEWS WOULD COME... I MEAN ITS ALWAYS LIKE THAT... EITHER NOTHING FOR MONTHS OR ALL OF A SUDDEN EVERYONE WANTS YOU LOL. OF COURSE IT HAPPENED TO ME... I ACCEPT THIS JOB AND THEN BAM!!! CALLED FOR ANOTHER INTERVIEW AND BAM!!! APPLICATION FOR THIS OTHER JOB WENT THROUGH AND IS GOING TO THE NEXT STAGE... THANKS... WELL WHO KNOWS WHAT ELSE IS GOING TO CALL RIGHT? BUT FOR NOW IL BE WORKING THERE. IF YOU ALL ARE WONDERING WHAT IM GONNA DO??? WELL AT LEAST ITS RELATED TO WHAT I STUDY AND WHAT I WANT LOL. IM GONNA BE IN AN OPERATIONS CENTER, SO YOU FIGURE OUT WHAT I DO LOL :) BUT NOW IM GONNA WATCH 1 MORE SHOW THEN GO SLEEP CAUSE GOTTA GET BACK TO THE NORMAL WAKING TIME OF 6AM... *SIGH... LOL

1ST XMAS PARTY WITH FRDS :)

DARTS WIN BY 3... WHAT A CLOSE GAME :)

DARTS WIN BY 361... NOW THATS A WIN!!! :P LOL

WE OUT OF ICE CREAM SANDWICHES :(

MMMM :) TAPIOCA BALLS WITH RED BEAN HEHE

IVE HAD ABOUT 5 OF THESE TYPES  OF BOXES OF SUSHI THE PAST WEEK LOL

SO THE PAST LITTLE WHILE IVE BEEN THINKING AGAIN... AS USUAL ON THE BUS... WALKING... SITTING... LAYING ON THE GROUND... IN BED... IN THE CAR... EATING... ON THE COMP... WATCHING TV... JUST THINKING AGAIN... ALL THE DIFFERENT THINGS THAT I COULD HAVE DONE, SHOULD HAVE DONE, AND WOULD HAVE DONE... HOW THINGS BE DIFFERENT FROM WHAT IT IS LIKE NOW... BUT LIKE I ALWAYS SAY "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON" AND "NO PAIN, NO GAIN" PLUS "LIVE WITH NO REGRETS" WELL... GUESS WE CAN ONLY WAIT TO SEE WHATS NEXT EH. IT ALSO HELPS WHEN THERES SOMEONE THERE TO PUT A SMILE ON YOUR FACE AND JUST REMIND YOU OF EVERYTHING ELSE. YES!!! IM TALKING ABOUT YOU ROGUE (AKA THE GIRLFRIEND) LOL. THANKS :)

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