LOST & FOUND

OK... SO THAT WAS WEIRD... I THOUGHT I WAS TYPING AND HAD WORDS ON THIS PAGE... WHAT I REALLY THINK HAPPENED WAS THAT I PASSED OUT AND STARTED IMAGINING THINGS LOL. ANYWAYS, TIME FOR THIS WEEKS POST!

NOW I DONT MEAN THE REGULAR LOST AND FOUND, WHERE YOU FIND SOMETHING THAT YOU MISPLACED AND LEFT BEHIND. WHAT I MEAN IS WHAT DID YOU LOSE THAT WAS YOURS? OK... LET ME TRY THAT AGAIN. I MEAN PERSONALLY, DEEPLY, INTRINSICALLY, PRIVATE, OR PERSONALITY. TAKE THIS BLOG FOR EXAMPLE. I USE TO LOOK FORWARD TO WRITING MY BLOG. IT WAS EXCITING AND I WANTED TO SEE HOW MANY VIEWS I CAN GET, WHAT KIND OF COMMENTS PEOPLE WILL POST, HOW WILL PEOPLE REACT. I USE TO ENJOY IT AND IT WAS FUN AND IT WAS MEANINGFUL. NOW, SOMETIMES, A LOT OF THE TIME, I DONT EVEN WANT TO WRITE ANYMORE... IM JUST SO TIRED AND LAZY, AND I DONT WANT TO WRITE IT ANYMORE. I EVEN PASSED OUT MULTIPLE TIMES WRITING THIS, HELL I PASSED OUT BEFORE I EVEN STARTED WRITING LOL. I SPENT SO MUCH TIME ON THIS BLOG, I USE TO THINK ABOUT THE TOPICS, POST A TON OF PICTURE, ORGANIZE EVERYTHING, AND WRITE A LOT! THESE DAYS I CANT EVEN GET A DECENT TOPIC OUT AND I RESORT TO MOVIE REVIEWS BECAUSE ITS EASY. WHAT I LOST IS MY MOTIVATION, MY WILL, MY DRIVE FOR THIS. THEN RECENTLY I FORGOT WHEN, BUT WHEN I WAS WRITING I FELT GOOD ABOUT IT. IT MADE ME HAPPY AND BROUGHT ME BACK TO THE DAYS WHEN I STILL ENJOYED IT. THEN I FOUND MY MOTIVATION BACK TO CONTINUE ON WRITING... SOMETIMES. I STARTED WRITING ABOUT REAL TOPICS AGAIN, TOPICS THAT I HAVE WANTED TO WRITE ABOUT BUT ITS JUST TOO HARD TO DO IT. I GUESS SINCE IM STILL WRITING IL HAVE A CHANCE TO WRITE THEM, BUT IF I STOP, THEN IT WILL NEVER BE POSTED. OK... I HAVE A FEELING THIS ISNT REALLY MAKING SENSE ANYMORE. I HOPE YOU GET MY POINT...

SEE IM SO LAZY THAT IM GOING TO MAKE THIS INTO A 2 PARTER LOL. COME BACK NEXT WEEK AND SEE IF YOU GET WHAT IM SAYING... CAUSE I DONT LOL. GOODNIGHT.

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RECOGNIZED

SO I DECIDED TO POST THIS MYSELF INSTEAD OF HAVING SOMEONE ELSE POST IT. I DONT THINK IVE MENTIONED IT BEFORE OR MAYBE I DID AND NOW I FORGOT... ANYWAYS... A WHILE BACK I DID A COMMERCIAL FOR TOYOTA :) YES... A COMMERCIAL. LONG STORY SHORT TOYOTA NEEDED SOMEONE TO FILM A CAMRY AD AND MY FRIEND SHOWED MY IMPROMPTU AD THAT I DID ON INSTAGRAM AND SOMEONE ELSE SAW IT OR SOMETHING AND THEN THEY CONTACTED ME TO DO IT. THATS ALL THERE IS TO IT REALLY LOL. I DID THIS A FEW MONTHS BACK AND IT WAS SUPPOSE TO AIR IN APRIL, IT DIDNT AND I DIDNT REALLY MIND IF IT DIDNT AIR. AS LONG AS I GOT A COPY OF THE SPOT THEN I WOULD BE HAPPY. FAST FORWARD 2 MONTHS... ITS ON TV, RADIO, AND INTERNET... LOL. I MIGHT AS WELL JUST TELL YOU THAT I KNEW THE 30 SECOND SPOT WAS ONLINE, BUT IT WAS ONLY RECENTLY I FOUND OUT THE 60 SECOND SPOT WAS ALSO ONLINE. 30 SECOND ONE I DONT MIND ITS FINE AND ALL BUT THE 60 SECOND... WELL LET JUST SAY MY FRIENDS LIKE THE AWESOME FRIENDS THEY ARE... THEY RIPPED ME A NEW ONE HAHA. IF YOU WATCH IT THEN YOU WILL KNOW WHAT I MEAN. A DISCLAIMER I WILL PUT OUT THERE IS THAT THIS WAS FILMED SHORTLY AFTER MY ACCIDENT AND I COULDNT REALLY MOVE SO IT LOOK NOOB, ALSO IT LOOKS LIKE THEY TOOK THE WORST TAKE OF ME LOL. WELL ITS UP AND FOR ALL TO SEE. IL POST IT BELOW. ANYWAYS SO QUITE A FEW OF MY FRIENDS HAVE MESSAGED ME SAYING OMG I SAW YOU ON TV AND ASKING IF THAT REALLY WAS ME. SOME OF THEM SAW ME ON TV AND SOME HEARD ME ON THE RADIO. I PERSONALLY HAVE YET TO SEE OR HEAR THE AD ON TV OR RADIO, BUT I HAVE SEEN THE ONLINE ONES. OH MAN!!! EVEN TODAY ALONE 3 DIFFERENT CONTRACTORS OF OURS CALLED ME AND SAID THEY SAW ME IN THE COMMERCIAL. WE OF COURSE TALKED ABOUT SOME WORK TOO HAHA. IT WAS FUN IN A WAY AND IM HAPPY I DID IT. LETS NOW HOPE IT WILL BRING OTHER THINGS OR MORE WORK LOL. ANYWAYS HERE IT IS FOR ALL OF YOU TO ENJOY AND TO GIVE IT MORE VIEWS AND LIKES LOL :)

THAT WAS ONE TYPE OF BEING RECOGNIZED. THE OTHER ONE I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT TODAY IS BEING RECOGNIZED. I KNOW I WROTE THE SAME THING, BUT THERES A DIFFERENCE IF YOU HEARD ME SAY IT OUT LOUD HAHA. THIS RECOGNIZED IS MORE OF THE ONE WHERE YOU ARE RECOGNIZED FOR YOUR WORK, YOUR EFFORT, YOUR SKILL, BASICALLY SOMETHING YOU DO. IT DOESNT MATTER IF ITS AT WORK, OR AT HOME, OR ANYWHERE ELSE. I THINK EVERYONE NEEDS TO BE RECOGNIZED FROM TIME TO TIME. SOMETIMES ITS FOR SOMETHING BIG BUT SOMETIMES IT CAN BE FOR THE SMALLEST THINGS. IT DOESNT MATTER IF ITS FOR WINNING THE BIGGEST CASE IN THE HISTORY OF MANKIND, OR IF ITS FOR HOLDING A DOOR OPEN. BEING RECOGNIZED FOR IT IS JUST A WAY OF CONFIRMATION. SOME PEOPLE DO IT TO BE RECOGNIZED BUT SOME PEOPLE DO IT JUST BECAUSE THEY WANT TO. RECOGNITION CAN BE AS SIMPLE AS A THANK YOU OR GOOD JOB, IT DOESNT ALWAYS HAVE TO BE A PARTY WITH PLAQUES AND AWARDS. RECOGNITION PLAYS SUCH AN IMPORTANT ROLE IN MOTIVATION AND SELF ESTEEM AND HELPS IN BUILDING CHARACTER. THINK ABOUT IT, AFTER DOING SOMETHING THAT IS RECOGNIZED, THE ODDS ARE YOU WILL DO IT AGAIN. ITS LIKE POSITIVE REINFORCEMENT. SINCE WE TALKING ABOUT PSYCHOLOGY THEN LETS JUST ADD IN MASLOW'S HIERARCHY OF NEEDS. THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT ESTEEM IS ALL ABOUT. THAT RECOGNITION MAKES THEM FEEL GOOD ABOUT THEMSELVES AND EVERYONE NEEDS TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT THEMSELVES FROM TIME TO TIME. ITS JUST NATURAL. WE HAVE TO BE ABLE TO MOTIVATE OURSELVES TO CONTINUE. WE NEED THAT AFFIRMATION. IF WE DONT, THEN WHATS THE POINT OF CONTINUING ON? WE WOULD JUST NOT BOTHER WITH IT AT ALL AND WHATEVER HAPPENS JUST HAPPENS. LONG STORY SHORT... MAKE SURE YOU RECOGNIZE!!! 

REST OF LIFE? WELL KEEPING BUSY OF COURSE. MEETINGS ALL WEEK. OH WE DID HANG OUT WITH A DIFFERENT GROUP AND THAT WAS CHILL. THE FOOTBALL TEAM IS OUT OF THE PLAYOFFS IN THE QUARTER FINAL ROUND. ANYWAYS STARTING TO PASS OUT. SO... SEE YOU ALL NEXT WEEK.

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ITS NOT ABOUT HOW YOU START, ITS ABOUT HOW YOU FINISH

SO THE TITLE IS ALSO THE QUOTE THAT I HEARD THE OTHER DAY WHILE WATCHING "COOK VS CON." ITS A COOKING CONTEST SHOW LIKE IRON CHEF AND PASTRY CONTESTS. ANYWAYS SO I THOUGHT IT WAS ABOUT COOKS VS CONS AS IN CRIMINALS... TURNS OUT ITS REAL LIFE COOKS VS CONS AS IN FAKE CHEFS LOL. HONESTLY YOU WOULD THINK THE SAME AS ME IF YOU JUST LOOKED AT THE PEOPLE ON THE SHOW... THEY ALL LOOK LIKE CRIMINALS LOL. ANYWAYS THATS NOT THE POINT. AT ONE POINT OF THE SHOW THE GUY SAYS THAT HES SHOWING EVERYONE THAT ITS NOT ABOUT HOW YOU START, ITS ABOUT HOW YOU FINISH. HE SAID IT BECAUSE HE WAS ALMOST IN LAST PLACE AND HE WANTED TO LET HIS SON KNOW THAT YOU CAN ALWAYS COME BACK OR DO BETTER OR EVEN WIN... WHICH HE DID END UP WINNING THE SHOW. SO BACK ON TOPIC... THE STATEMENTS PRETTY TRUE AND FOR SOME REASON IT STUCK WITH ME. IN LIFE IT REALLY ISNT ABOUT HOW SOMETHING STARTS, ITS ABOUT HOW IT ENDS OR HOW YOU MAKE IT END. TAKE SCHOOL FOR EXAMPLE, YOU CAN START AND NOT KNOW WHERE OR WHAT YOU WANT TO STUDY. SOMEHOW YOU END UP SOMEWHERE STUDYING SOMETHING, AND GUESS WHAT? WHEN YOU GRADUATE YOURE FINISHED. SOMEHOW IT ALL JUST WORKS OUT. SURE THERES HARD WORK IN BETWEEN AND WHATEVER ELSE YOU NEEDED TO DO TO GET THERE, BUT THE MAIN POINT IS THAT YOU FINISHED AND GOT TO THE END. STARTING A NEW JOB, YOU START IT AND IT MIGHT NOT BE WHERE YOU WANT TO BE OR WHAT YOU WANT TO DO BUT SAME THING YOU HOPEFULLY END UP WHERE YOU WANT TO BE. EVERYTHING IN LIFE STARTS WITH YOU STARTING, YOU MIGHT NOT HAVE HAD THE BEST START, OR YOU JUST FELL INTO IT, OR YOU JUST HAD TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO, BUT SOMEHOW... EVENTUALLY... INEVITABLY... YOU GET TO THE FINISH LINE, YOU GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO GO, YOU DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO. THERES A LOT IN BETWEEN TO GET YOU FROM POINT A TO POINT B, BUT YOU CANT GIVE UP. NO ONE EVER ACHIEVED WHAT THEY ACHIEVED WITHOUT STARTING, AND THEY ONLY ACHIEVED WHAT THEY ACHIEVED BY FINISHING. THIS TIES INTO EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE SAID BEFORE ABOUT DOING WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, IT WILL ALL WORK OUT EVENTUALLY, AND LIKE A DOZEN OTHER POSTS. THINK ABOUT IT, YOU STARTED YOUR DAY AND THEN A BUNCH OF THINGS HAPPEN DURING THE DAY, AND THEN YOU FINISH THE DAY. EVERYTHING IS ALL ABOUT STARTS AND FINISHES. IVE STARTED MANY THINGS, AND I HAVE A GOALS SET IN MIND, A PLACE I WANT TO BE, A THING I WANT TO DO, AND IN ORDER TO GET THERE I NEED TO DO A LOT. IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THE DAY THAT I GET TO THAT FINISH LINE AND SAY THAT I DID IT AND I MADE IT. EVERYTHING I DO IS WORKING TOWARDS THAT FINISH LINE. NOT MANY PEOPLE REMEMBER HOW SOMETHING STARTS, BUT EVERYONE REMEMBERS HOW IT ENDS. YOU NEED TO FINISH STRONG, DONT LET ANYTHING GET IN YOUR WAY, DO IT AND PROVE TO YOURSELF THAT YOU CAN DO IT. BESIDES DOING IT FOR YOURSELF, ITS A GOOD TRAIT TO HAVE, BEING ABLE TO SEE THINGS THROUGH TO THE END. YOU JUST HAVE TO SURVIVE IN THE MEAN TIME. LIFE IS ONE WHOLE PROCESS AS WELL. YOU DONT HAVE A CHOICE OF WHEN YOU WERE BORN, YOU GO THROUGH LIFE, AND IN THE END WHAT WILL YOU BE REMEMBERED FOR? MY ADVICE... DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO, SO AT THE END OF THE DAY, YOU CAN SAY TO YOURSELF THAT YOU GAVE IT YOUR ALL.

SO HONESTLY THE POST COULD HAVE KEPT ON GOING I THINK IT WILL GO IN CIRCLES AND CIRCLES. WELL GUESS IL STOP THAT THERE LOL. OH I WENT TO THE VAISAKHI FESTIVAL ON THE WEEKEND AND IT WAS PRETTY COOL. WE ATE A LOT OF CURRY LOL. WENT TO WATCH THE FOOTBALL GAME AND WE WON. WORK IS STILL WORK AND IM TIRED AND IM FALLING ASLEEP, SO GOOD NIGHT IT IS :) ALSO THE POST WAS ACTUALLY ON TOPIC AGAIN... FINALLY A REAL POST LOL

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SO I JUST SAW SOMETHING...

NO ITS NOT WHAT YOU THINK... WHATEVER YOURE THINKING THATS NOT IT LOL. ANYWAYS I JUST SAW SOME INSPIRATIONAL PICTURE AND THE CAPTION WAS: "SELF DISCIPLINE BETTER PREDICTS SUCCESS THAN IQ." I THOUGHT ABOUT IT A TOTAL OF 2 SECONDS AND I TOTALLY AGREE WITH IT. I TALKED ABOUT THIS HERE AND THERE BEFORE BUT ITS REALLY PERTINENT TO ME RIGHT NOW. IF YOU ARE REALLY SMART OR HAVE A HIGH IQ BUT YOU DONT DO ANYTHING WITH IT THEN YOURE NOT SUCCEEDING NOW ARE YOU? YOURE WASTING ALL THAT POTENTIAL. ON THE OTHER HAND, IF YOU HAVE GREAT SELF DISCIPLINE THEN ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. YOUR SELF DISCIPLINE KEEPS YOU WORKING HARD, MAKES YOU STUDY MORE, CONTROLS HOW MUCH YOU PUT IN, AND PUSHES YOU FARTHER. THATS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN HAVING SELF DISCIPLINE AND NOT HAVING IT. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE PEOPLE WHO DO SOMETHING THAT MAKES A CHANGE AND THOSE WHO DONT OR JUST SAYS THEY WILL BUT NEVER DOES. GRANTED THERE ARE A LOT OF REASONS THAT CAN STOP YOU FROM TAKING THAT FIRST STEP AND MOVING FORWARD TOWARDS WHAT YOU WANT, BUT IN THE END ITS ALL JUST EXCUSES. IF YOU REALLY WANTED TO DO SOMETHING JUST DO IT. ONES OWN SELF DISCIPLINE DECIDES WHERE YOU GO AND WHAT YOU DO. YOU CAN DO IT, BUT ITS ALL UP TO YOU TO SEE IF YOU HAVE THE CONTROL TO ACTUALLY GO AHEAD WITH IT. WHEN YOU FINALLY ACTUALLY HAVE THE SELF DISCIPLINE OR THE DETERMINATION TO DO SOMETHING OR KEEP ON DOING SOMETHING, THERE IS NO WAY YOU CAN FAIL. EVEN IF YOU DO FAIL THE FIRST TIME, YOU DONT QUIT, YOU JUST KEEP GOING UNTIL YOU SUCCEED, AND THATS WHAT THE DIFFERENCE IS BETWEEN THOSE WHO DO AND CAN TO THOSE WHO DONT AND CANT. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT SELF DISCIPLINE, SELF CONTROL, DETERMINATION, AND MOTIVATION. IF YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING OR MAKE A CHANGE JUST DO IT ALREADY!!! THERES NO POINT IN PUTTING IT OFF OR SAYING YOU CANT, THERES ONLY ONE PERSON IN THE WORLD THAT CAN STOP YOU FROM ATTAINING WHAT YOU WANT, AND THATS YOU, THE PERSON LOOKING BACK IN THE MIRROR. LIKE RIGHT NOW, AFTER 4 YEARS IM STILL WRITING THIS BLOG, WEEK IN AND WEEK OUT, 4 YEARS STRAIGHT WITHOUT FAIL. EVEN ON VACATION I STILL FOUND A WAY TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN. ITS ALL ABOUT HOW MUCH YOU WANT IT. YOU HAVE TO FORCE YOURSELF TO DO IT. EVEN THOUGH A LOT OF TIME I RATHER JUST SIT THERE AND WATCH TV OR PLAY GAMES, I TELL MYSELF NO! I HAVE TO DO IT! TURN OFF THE TV AND GO WRITE THE POST!!! ITS ACTUALLY HARDER THAN YOU THINK SITTING HERE AND DOING THIS EVERY WEEK. YOU GUYS OUT THERE HAVE NO IDEA HOW MANY TIMES I WAS DEBATING AND THINKING ABOUT STOPPING THIS OR SLOWING DOWN. YOU HEARD IT ALL BEFORE, BUT IN THE END YOU STILL SEE ME POSTING EVERY SINGLE WEEK. THIS ISNT ALL I DO YOU KNOW... BESIDES WORK FULL TIME YOU ALL KNOW IM WORKING TOWARDS SOMETHING AND THAT WAS WHAT THE 1 YEAR DEADLINE WAS FOR, FOR MYSELF. THAT WAS ME FORCING MYSELF, MOTIVATING MYSELF, DISCIPLINING MYSELF TO GET THAT DONE. NOW RECENTLY IM THINKING AND RESEARCHING ABOUT SETTING BACK UP A YOUTUBE CHANNEL, ALL THE MEANWHILE A NEW POST IS STILL BEING WRITTEN EVERY WEEK. THATS 4 THINGS THAT IM MAKING MYSELF DO, KEEPING THAT DISCIPLINE AND NOT LETTING ANYTHING MAKE ME WAIVER IN MY PURSUIT OF EVERYTHING. THERES LOTS OF WAYS TO MEASURE SUCCESS, AND EVERYONES DEFINITION OF SUCCESS IS DIFFERENT. THERES TOO MANY EXAMPLES I COULD GIVE AND THERE WOULD BE NO WAY TO POSSIBLY COVER THEM ALL EITHER. SO IN WHATEVER YOUR QUEST IS, DONT FRET THAT YOU ARENT THE SMARTEST PERSON IN THE WORLD, BECAUSE HARD WORK DOES PAY OFF AND THE SELF DISCIPLINE YOU HAVE TO CONTINUE WILL ALLOW YOU TO SUCCEED IN THE FUTURE. THEY SAY IT TAKES ROUGHLY 10,000 HOURS TO BECOME A MASTER AT SOMETHING OR A SKILL. THATS ABOUT A YEAR AND A BIT STRAIGHT. IF ALL IT TAKES IS A YEAR THEN WHY NOT GO FOR IT. A YEAR IS REALLY SHORT AND A YEAR FROM NOW YOU WILL LOOK BACK AND REALIZE THAT IT WAS THE BEST DECISION OF YOUR LIFE, AND THAT DISCIPLINE WILL TAKE YOU ACROSS THE FINISH LINE.

AS FOR THE USUAL UPDATES...WORKS GETTING BUSY AGAIN DUE TO STUFF THAT NEEDS TO GET DONE AND ALL THE MEETINGS THAT I HAVE TO HAVE. SLOWLY GETTING BETTER FROM THE ACCIDENT, IM ON THE ROAD TO RECOVERY!!! LOL. WORKING ON ALL THE THINGS IM WORKING ON. OH I DID GO WATCH THE BOY OVER THE WEEKEND AND IT WAS A BAD BAD MOVIE... LOL IT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE SCARY BUT MEH... ONLY SMALL PARTS HERE AND THERE AND ENDING WAS HMM... WELL... THATS ANOTHER WEEK FOR YOU. SO WISH YOU ALL A GREAT WEEK.

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THE FIRST STEP IS ALWAYS THE HARDEST

JUST LIKE EVERYTHING IN LIFE, IT ALL STARTS WITH THAT FIRST STEP. THINK ABOUT IT... WAKING UP IN THE MORNING YOU CAN DECIDE TO SNOOZE IT OR WAKE UP AND GO BRUSH UP. DECIDING WHETHER TO EAT SOMETHING EASY LIKE CEREAL OR MAKE SOME BACON AND EGGS. DECIDING TO START READING A BOOK, LEARNING A NEW LANGUAGE, OR TRYING SOMETHING NEW FOR THE FIRST TIME THAT FIRST STEP IS THE ACT OF ACTUALLY GOING FORWARD AND DOING SOMETHING. EVERYTHING STARTS OFF LIKE THAT AND IT JUST CONTINUES ON UNTIL ITS SECOND NATURE. A BABYS FIRST STEP IS PHYSICALLY THE HARDEST FIRST STEP WE WILL TAKE. LATER IN LIFE DECIDING TO GO TO SCHOOL OR GO BACK TO SCHOOL. FINALLY BUYING A CAR, MOVING OUT. DECIDING TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP, GETTING MARRIED, BUYING A HOUSE, HAVING KIDS, ALL THESE ARE STEPS AND NONE OF WHICH COME EASY. WHAT MOTIVATES YOU ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU TAKE THAT FIRST STEP? THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE A JOB? PERHAPS YOU HAVE RESPONSIBILITIES TO TAKE CARE OF AND ONLY YOU CAN DO IT. WHATEVER IT IS, YOU MADE THE DECISION TO TAKE THAT STEP TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO. FOR ME, PERSONALLY, THE REASON IS CHANGE. I WANT A CHANGE IN SOMETHING, I CANT JUST KEEP DOING WHAT IM DOING. I CONSCIOUSLY KNOW THAT SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE BEFORE OTHER CHANGES CAN OCCUR. EVERYTHING HAPPENS IN STEPS. AFTER I FINISHED SCHOOL I REALLY DIDNT KNOW WHERE TO GO, I MEAN I GOT A JOB BUT IT WASNT WHERE I WANTED TO END UP. I STARTED LOOKING AT SCHOOL AGAIN AND IT WAS HARD TO ACTUALLY TAKE THAT STEP. ESPECIALLY AFTER BEING IN SCHOOL SO LONG, HAVING STUDENT LOANS, AND BASICALLY NOT LIVING MY LIFE THE WAY I WANTED. DEBATED A LOT, AND TOOK A WHILE LOOKING AT WHAT I WANTED TO GO INTO. EVENTUALLY FOUND SOMETHING I LIKED AND KNEW COULD MAKE A LIVING AND JUST WENT FOR IT. TOOK THAT STEP AND REGISTERED AND WENT THROUGH WITH THE PROGRAM. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT THAT FIRST STEP, IF YOU NEVER TRY, HOW WILL YOU EVER KNOW? PEOPLE THESE DAYS ARE JUST TOO COMFORTABLE AND DONT WANT TO LEAVE THEIR COMFORT ZONE. NOTHING EVER WORTH DOING WAS EASY... IF IT WAS THEN EVERYONE WOULD HAVE DONE IT ALREADY. THEN AGAIN A LOT OF PEOPLE THESE DAYS ARE JUST AFRAID TO TRY ANYTHING, NOT KNOWING IF THEY COULD DO IT OR MAKE IT. THEY ARE JUST AFRAID OF WHAT THEY DONT KNOW, SO TO NOT BE AFRAID THEY JUST STAY WHERE THEY ARE AND NEVER TAKING THAT STEP. FEAR OF FAILURE, FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN, FEAR OF DISAPPOINTMENT... NONE OF THESE FEARS ARE REAL... THEY ARE ALL IN YOUR HEAD AND IF YOU CAN GET PAST THAT FEAR, THEN YOU WILL TRULY BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING YOU WANT. IF YOU ALL REMEMBER A FEW MONTHS BACK FOR MY BDAY POST I MENTIONED THAT I GAVE MYSELF A DEADLINE OF 1 YEAR. NOT MANY PEOPLE KNOW WHAT IT IS AND IVE ONLY TOLD A FEW PEOPLE. ITS A HEFTY GOAL THAT I SET FOR MYSELF, AND ODDS ARE THAT IT CANT BE DONE IN JUST 1 YEAR, BUT LIKE I SAID... IF I NEVER TRY, HOW WILL I EVER KNOW? RIGHT??? THE ENTIRE TIME IVE BEEN WANTING TO START AND I KEEP TELLING MYSELF THAT IM GOING TO START... AND A DAY GOES BY... WEEKS... MONTHS... I KEEP SAYING IM TIRED FROM WORK, OR IM GOING OUT, OR AFTER THIS TV SHOW, OR IM JUST LAZY... AND UP TO A FEW DAYS AGO I STILL HAVENT STARTED... THATS ABOUT 100 DAYS GONE... BUT NOW I CAN ACTUALLY SAY THAT I TOOK THAT FIRST STEP, I TOOK THAT HARDEST STEP AND MOVED FORWARD. NOW THAT I HAVE STARTED, ITS NOT THAT HARD TO CONTINUE, JUST HAVE TO KEEP ON GOING, AND KEEP AT IT. WHO KNOWS... MAYBE IF I KEEP THIS UP THAT 1 YEAR DEADLINE MIGHT ACTUALLY HAPPEN LOL. HAVING SPENT THIS MUCH TIME, MONEY, AND ENERGY ON THIS ALREADY MY ONLY CHOICE IS TO STICK THIS OUT AND SEE WHERE IT LEADS TO. IF IT WORKS OUT THEN GREAT, IF IT DOESNT THEN AT LEAST I CAN SAY I TRIED AND I KNOW. IN THE END NO ONE CAN DO IT FOR YOU. YOU HAVE TO DECIDE FOR YOURSELF IF YOU WANT TO TAKE THAT STEP. ITS GOING TO BE HARD, ITS GOING TO BE SLOW, AT TIMES YOU MIGHT FEEL LIKE GIVING UP, BUT IN THE END JUST REMEMBER, HARD WORK ALWAYS PAYS OFF. SO NO MATTER HOW HARD THAT FIRST STEP MIGHT BE... WHATEVER YOUR SITUATION MAY BE... DO IT FOR YOURSELF AND TAKE IT.

RT

366 DAYS UNTIL DEADLINE

SO GUESS WHAT!!! IT'S THAT TIME OF YEAR AGAIN :) YES!!! ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE ITS ANOTHER YEAR THAT SOON... IT SEEMED LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I SAID IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY POST AND NOW HERE WE GO AGAIN. LOOKING BACK IT WAS A BIG YEAR!!! I WAS A REAL GROWN UP ADULT... HAHA. ITS THE FIRST YEAR THAT IVE ACTUALLY WORKED FULL TIME THE WHOLE YEAR AT THE SAME JOB, I ALSO FINALLY FINISHED ALL MY SCHOOLING, AND TONS OF RANDOMNESS HAPPENED THROUGHOUT. FRIENDS WERE MADE, EVENTS WERE ATTENDED, AND I LEARNED A LOT ABOUT MYSELF THIS YEAR. I REALLY FOUND OUT WHAT I WAS MADE OF, AND NOW LOOKING FORWARD TO THE COMING YEAR I GOT BIGGER DREAMS AND BIGGER PLANS. IM AT THE AGE WHERE I REALIZE I HAVE TO BE MORE GROWN UP AND THINGS ARENT EASY LIKE THE WAY THEY WERE BEFORE. I CANT KEEP DOING WHAT IM DOING AND IN ORDER TO CONTINUE I NEED TO CHANGE. I HAVE TO BE BETTER, I HAVE TO LEARN MORE, I HAVE TO BE DIFFERENT. WHICH BRINGS ME TO THE TITLE... 366 DAYS UNTIL DEADLINE... FROM MY BIRTHDAY THIS WEEKEND I AM GIVING MYSELF 1 YEAR TO GET TO WHERE I WANT TO BE. ITS AN AMBITIOUS GOAL AND I KNOW THERES A LOT OF HARD WORK AHEAD OF ME IF I WANT TO BE ABLE TO ACHIEVE WHAT I WANT IN THAT SHORT TIME, BUT THERES NO POINT IN JUST THINKING AND HOPING FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN. ITS 366 DAYS SINCE ITS A LEAP YEAR THIS YEAR LOL SO TECHNICALLY I GET A BONUS DAY ACTUALLY LOL. I FIGURE THERES NO BETTER TIME THAN NOW AND SINCE ITS MY BIRTHDAY, THE MORE REASON TO START. YOU CAN ALL HOLD ME TO THIS AND I WILL LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW IT GOES IN A YEAR. WELL... IM GOING TO KEEP THIS BLOG GOING SO I GUESS YOU WILL STILL GET UPDATES AND I HOPE THAT THROUGH THE YEAR THE UPDATES WILL ONLY GET BETTER AND BETTER TOWARDS MY GOAL. THIS IS GOING TO BE MY YEAR AND JUST LIKE I HAVE SAID IN MANY OF MY PREVIOUS POSTS, THERES NO ONE ELSE THAT CAN DO IT FOR YOU EXCEPT FOR YOURSELF, IN THE END YOURE THE ONLY ONE THAT MATTERS, NEVER GIVE UP ON WHAT YOU WANT, DO WHAT IT TAKES TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE, HARD WORK PAYS OFF, AND NEVER LET ANYTHING STAND IN YOUR WAY OF OBTAINING YOUR GOALS AND DREAMS. EVERYONE IS CAPABLE OF DOING ANYTHING, AND IM GOING TO START TAKING MY OWN ADVICE AND DO WHAT I WANT. I REALLY CANT WAIT TO SEE WHERE I WILL BE IN A YEAR, AND I CANT WAIT TO SHARE WITH YOU ALL TOO :) SO LET THE COUNTDOWN BEGIN!!!

AUGUST IS ALWAYS THE BEST MONTH OF THE YEAR, BESIDES THE MASSIVE AMOUNT OF FRIENDS BDAYS THAT I HAVE, THE SUN IS OUT AND TIME TO PLAY :) JUST THE OTHER DAY I HAD THE MOST PACKED DAY EVER... BARELY SLEPT SINCE I PARTIED THE NIGHT BEFORE... WENT TO DENNYS IN THE MORNING, THEN HIT UP THE GOLF RANGE, GRABBED SOME STARBUCKS, THEN WENT TO SING KARAOKE FOR 3...4... HOURS..., GRABBED SOME DINNER AT QUIZNOS LOL, WENT GO-CARTING, AND ENDED THE NIGHT UP WITH SOME BOWLING HAHA. THAT WAS A LONG DAY AND MOST OF IT WAS RANDOM, WE DIDNT END UP WHERE WE WANTED TO FOR DINNER BUT ENDED UP WITH SOME RANDOM GOOD TIMES INSTEAD. ITS WAS A LONG WEEKEND AS WELL SO HAD BBQ FOR ONE OF MY FRIENDS BDAY. LASTLY AND OBVIOUSLY I WOULD MAKE SURE THAT I MENTION IS THAT TOMORROW IM GOING TO WATCH THE NEW DRAGONBALL MOVIE!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! DRAGONBALL Z: RESURRECTION "F" AHHHHH FRIEZA IS BACK... AGAIN... HAHA. I GREW UP WITH DRAGONBALL AND HAVE TONS OF FIGURES AND SUCH AT HOME TOO. I ALSO CANT WAIT TIL I GO BACK TO HK IN OCT SO I CAN GET MORE STUFF TO ADD TO THE COLLECTION. OH OH OH YA SO DID I MENTION I FINALLY FIGURED OUT WHERE IM GOING FOR VACA? WELL IM GOING TO TELL YOU AGAIN EITHER WAY IF I DID HAHA. TICKET FROM HERE TO CHINA TO HK BACK TO CHINA TO HOME, PLUS 7 DAYS TRIP IN CHINA, 5 STAR HOTELS, 3 MEALS A DAY, ALL TRAVEL AND ENTRANCE FEES PAID FOR, GUESS HOW MUCH??? ITS REALLY CHEAP!!! WHATEVER YOU ARE THINKING, GO AHEAD AND HALF THAT AND PROB TAKE SOME MORE OFF WHAT YOU ARE THINKING. YA!!! THAT CHEAP!!! ITS NUTS!!! SO CRAZY THAT HOW COULD WE NOT GO!!! IVE ONLY BEEN TO 1 OF THE LOCATIONS THAT THEY ARE INCLUDING IN THE TRIP BUT WHO CARES, SINCE I HAVENT BEEN TO THE OTHER PLACES AND THAT ITS SUPER CHEAP!!! THIS ENDED UP AS A FAMILY TRIP ALONG WITH MY AUNT AND COUSIN AND SOME OTHER FAMILY FRIENDS. THEN I GET SOME TIME IN HK TO CHILL WITH MY FRIENDS THERE. IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS VACA CAUSE I REALLY NEED IT. JUST NEED SOME TIME TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND RELAX AND JUST RECHARGE. ITS BEEN A LONG YEAR... SO I ALSO HAVE THAT TO LOOK FORWARD TO :) WELL THATS ALL FOR NOW, SEE YOU ALL NEXT WEEK WHERE I WILL BE ANOTHER YEAR WISER................. AHEAHEHAHEA

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WHY DO I KEEP WRITING...

IVE BEEN WRITING THIS BLOG FOR 3.5 YEARS NOW... EVERY WEDNESDAY WITHOUT FAIL... SO THE QUESTION IS WHY DO I KEEP WRITING... HONESTLY SOMETIMES I DONT KNOW... SOMETIMES I DONT HAVE A TOPIC OR I FEEL LAZY AND I JUST DONT WANT TO DO IT... BUT I HAVE TO!!! ITS JUST SOMETHING THAT I FEEL HELPS ME. NOT THE FACT THAT I EXPECT TONS OF PEOPLE TO ACTUALLY READ THIS... I DONT EVEN EXPECT 10  PEOPLE TO READ IT... I THINK MAYBE LIKE 5 PEOPLE EVER READ THIS... AND HALF OF THEM ARE PART TIME READERS TOO HAHA. I JUST DO IT FOR MYSELF. ITS SOMETHING THAT GETS WHATEVER IM THINKING OR RANTING ABOUT OUT. SOME PEOPLE READ AND SOME PEOPLE WORK OUT, I WRITE THIS ALL CAPS LOCKED GIANT RUN ON PARAGRAPH LOL. I LIKE BEING ABLE TO PUT MY THOUGHTS OUT AND JUST HAVING IT OUT THERE. I KNOW LOTS OF PEOPLE MAY AGREE AND LOTS MAY DISAGREE BUT THATS NOT THE POINT, THIS IS MY OPINION AND IF YOU DONT LIKE IT THEN LEAVE!!! THE MAIN REASON IVE ACTUALLY KEPT UP WITH THIS WEEK AFTER WEEK IS THAT ITS LIKE A GOAL... YOU HAVE TO WORK HARD AND KEEP AT IT OBTAIN IT, AND I KNOW THAT IF I CAN DEDICATE TIME EVERY WEEK WITHOUT FAIL TO WRITE SOMETHING DOWN AND POST IT THEN I CAN PUT THAT KIND OF ENERGY, EFFORT, MOTIVATION, AND DETERMINATION INTO ANYTHING ELSE I WANT. IF I CAN DO THIS THEN I CAN REALLY DO ANYTHING ELSE I PUT MY MIND TO. ITS AS SIMPLE AS THAT.

OTHER NEWS... OUR FOOTBALL TEAM WON AGAIN :) WE STANDING AT 2-2 AND AFTER WE WIN THIS WEEK WE GOING TO BE 3RD IN THE DIVISION AND GONNA MAKE PLAYOFFS. HALF OF THE TEAM HAS SAID THAT THIS IS WHAT THEY LOOK FORWARD TO ALL WEEK AND THAT THEY CANT WAIT TO PLAY AND I HAVE TO ADMIT THAT I LOVE PLAYING FOOTBALL. OUR TEAM IS JUST AWESOME!!! WE HAVE A GREAT BUNCH OF GUYS WHO GET ALONG WITH EVERYONE AND HAS EACH OTHERS BACK. WE ARE IMPROVING WEEK AFTER WEEK AND YOU SHOULD SEE HOW LOUD I GET AT THE GAMES... ITS SO INTENSE!!! ITS JUST SOMETHING ABOUT PLAYING THAT GETS YOU SO FIRED UP AND READY TO GO. PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN A 5 BLOCK RADIUS OF THE PARK IS ABLE TO HEAR ME... IM NOT EVEN KIDDING... LOL. MY SOCCER TEAM HOWEVER LOST THE QUARTER-FINALS GAME SO NOW WE JUST PLAY FOR PRIDE IN THE CONSOLATION GAMES. WORK.... WELL WORKS BEEN MAD BUSY... MEETINGS ALL OVER THE PLACE AND WORKING LATE EVERYDAY THAT SEEMS TO BE THE NORM... FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS... I THOUGHT AFTER THE RUSH WHICH WOULD HAVE BEEN FEBRUARY I WOULD BE GOOD... BUT NOPES... THERES A RUSH IN APRIL AND A BIT IN MAY/JUNE ALONG WITH ALL THE OTHER STUFF IN BETWEEN... BUT I CAN SEE THE LIGHT!!! AFTER MID JUNE IT WILL ALL CALM DOWN... I WILL FINALLY HAVE TIME AND BE MORE NORMAL LOL. THERES JUST TOO MUCH TO DO AND TOO LITTLE TIME... AND WITH THAT SAID IM GOING TO SLEEP CAUSE IM TIRED... THEN BACK TO IT AGAIN TOMORROW............

RT