RIP CHESTER BENNINGTON

BIGGEST NEWS OF THE WEEK AND IM SURE EVERYONE ALREADY HEARD IS THAT LINKIN PARK'S LEAD SINGER CHESTER BENNINGTON COMMITTED SUICIDE. I COULDNT BELIEVE IT WHEN I HEARD IT... I THOUGHT IT WAS A JOKE, A REALLY BAD JOKE TOO. THEN MORE AND MORE NEWS CAME OUT AND SAD TO SAY, IT WAS REAL. ANYONE THAT KNOWS ME, KNOWS THAT I AM A HUGE LINKIN PARK FAN!!! ALWAYS WAS AND ALWAYS WILL BE. FOR ME IT ALL STARTED WITH "IN THE END" WAY BACK IN... 2001/2002 IM GOING TO SAY. I CANT REMEMBER BUT IT WAS BEFORE THEY MADE THEIR FIRST TOUR TO VANCOUVER. THEN IT JUST KEPT GOING WITH EVERYTHING ELSE THEY CAME OUT WITH. TRUE THERE WERE A FEW SONGS, WELL... FEW CDS EVEN THAT WERENT REALLY LIKE HOW THEY WERE IN THE BEGINNING. I STUCK WITH THEM THROUGH IT ALL. OBVIOUSLY THE BAND GOT BIGGER AND BIGGER AND THEY TRIED OTHER STYLES A BIT, EVEN IF IT DIDNT WORK, I STILL LIKE THEM. HONESTLY LINKIN PARK WAS THE GO TO BAND FOR ME THROUGHOUT HIGH SCHOOL AND EVEN A LARGE PART OF MY LIFE. THEIR LYRICS AND SOUND MATCHED HOW I FELT OR WAS GOING THROUGH. IT MAKES SENSE SINCE LINKIN PARK SANG ABOUT THEIR EXPERIENCES. IT ALWAYS FELT LIKE THEY KNEW AND UNDERSTOOD EVERYTHING. CHESTER HAD A ROUGH LIFE AND THROUGH IT ALL MAKES IT EVEN MORE REAL AND RELATABLE. LP DEFINITELY HELPED ME GET THROUGH TOUGH TIMES IN MY LIFE. IT MADE LIFE BETTER AND SITUATIONS LOOK LESS DARK. THE AMOUNT OF OUTPOUR FOR YOU IS UNBELIEVABLE. YOU HAVE TOUCHED SO MANY LIVES AND HAVE HELPED MORE PEOPLE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW. HELL, I EVEN MADE FRIENDS BECAUSE OF YOU. TALK AND SUNG ABOUT YOUR SONGS WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND JUST ENJOYED EVERYTHING THAT YOU CAME UP WITH. IVE JUST BEEN BLASTING LINKIN PARK THE PAST WEEK AND THE LYRICS HIT YOU HARDER NOW THAN EVER. THERE WAS ALWAYS A SONG FOR HOW YOU ARE FEELING. DOESNT MATTER IF YOURE HAPPY OR SAD, THERE WAS ALWAYS SOMETHING FOR YOU. ESPECIALLY FOR WORKING OUT! THERE WAS ALWAYS A SONG THAT CAN GET YOU PUMPED. I CANT BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE GONE, AND I WAS GOING TO SEE YOU IN OCTOBER WHEN YOU CAME BACK BUT I GUESS THATS NOT HAPPENING ANYMORE. IM GLAD THAT I WAS ABLE TO SEE YOU ONCE YEARS AGO. I WASNT ABLE TO GO THE FIRST TIME YOU WERE HERE, BUT I MADE IT THE SECOND TIME. IT WAS MY FAVOURITE CONCERT OF ALL TIME. YOURE GONE NOW, AND I HOPE YOU FIND THE PEACE THAT YOU ARE LOOKING FOR. THERES SO MANY LYRICS THAT CAN FIT HERE... BUT I THINK THE BEST IS THAT "THE SUN WILL SET FOR YOU," REST IN PEACE CHESTER.

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ITS NOT ABOUT HOW YOU START, ITS ABOUT HOW YOU FINISH

SO THE TITLE IS ALSO THE QUOTE THAT I HEARD THE OTHER DAY WHILE WATCHING "COOK VS CON." ITS A COOKING CONTEST SHOW LIKE IRON CHEF AND PASTRY CONTESTS. ANYWAYS SO I THOUGHT IT WAS ABOUT COOKS VS CONS AS IN CRIMINALS... TURNS OUT ITS REAL LIFE COOKS VS CONS AS IN FAKE CHEFS LOL. HONESTLY YOU WOULD THINK THE SAME AS ME IF YOU JUST LOOKED AT THE PEOPLE ON THE SHOW... THEY ALL LOOK LIKE CRIMINALS LOL. ANYWAYS THATS NOT THE POINT. AT ONE POINT OF THE SHOW THE GUY SAYS THAT HES SHOWING EVERYONE THAT ITS NOT ABOUT HOW YOU START, ITS ABOUT HOW YOU FINISH. HE SAID IT BECAUSE HE WAS ALMOST IN LAST PLACE AND HE WANTED TO LET HIS SON KNOW THAT YOU CAN ALWAYS COME BACK OR DO BETTER OR EVEN WIN... WHICH HE DID END UP WINNING THE SHOW. SO BACK ON TOPIC... THE STATEMENTS PRETTY TRUE AND FOR SOME REASON IT STUCK WITH ME. IN LIFE IT REALLY ISNT ABOUT HOW SOMETHING STARTS, ITS ABOUT HOW IT ENDS OR HOW YOU MAKE IT END. TAKE SCHOOL FOR EXAMPLE, YOU CAN START AND NOT KNOW WHERE OR WHAT YOU WANT TO STUDY. SOMEHOW YOU END UP SOMEWHERE STUDYING SOMETHING, AND GUESS WHAT? WHEN YOU GRADUATE YOURE FINISHED. SOMEHOW IT ALL JUST WORKS OUT. SURE THERES HARD WORK IN BETWEEN AND WHATEVER ELSE YOU NEEDED TO DO TO GET THERE, BUT THE MAIN POINT IS THAT YOU FINISHED AND GOT TO THE END. STARTING A NEW JOB, YOU START IT AND IT MIGHT NOT BE WHERE YOU WANT TO BE OR WHAT YOU WANT TO DO BUT SAME THING YOU HOPEFULLY END UP WHERE YOU WANT TO BE. EVERYTHING IN LIFE STARTS WITH YOU STARTING, YOU MIGHT NOT HAVE HAD THE BEST START, OR YOU JUST FELL INTO IT, OR YOU JUST HAD TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO, BUT SOMEHOW... EVENTUALLY... INEVITABLY... YOU GET TO THE FINISH LINE, YOU GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO GO, YOU DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO. THERES A LOT IN BETWEEN TO GET YOU FROM POINT A TO POINT B, BUT YOU CANT GIVE UP. NO ONE EVER ACHIEVED WHAT THEY ACHIEVED WITHOUT STARTING, AND THEY ONLY ACHIEVED WHAT THEY ACHIEVED BY FINISHING. THIS TIES INTO EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE SAID BEFORE ABOUT DOING WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, IT WILL ALL WORK OUT EVENTUALLY, AND LIKE A DOZEN OTHER POSTS. THINK ABOUT IT, YOU STARTED YOUR DAY AND THEN A BUNCH OF THINGS HAPPEN DURING THE DAY, AND THEN YOU FINISH THE DAY. EVERYTHING IS ALL ABOUT STARTS AND FINISHES. IVE STARTED MANY THINGS, AND I HAVE A GOALS SET IN MIND, A PLACE I WANT TO BE, A THING I WANT TO DO, AND IN ORDER TO GET THERE I NEED TO DO A LOT. IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THE DAY THAT I GET TO THAT FINISH LINE AND SAY THAT I DID IT AND I MADE IT. EVERYTHING I DO IS WORKING TOWARDS THAT FINISH LINE. NOT MANY PEOPLE REMEMBER HOW SOMETHING STARTS, BUT EVERYONE REMEMBERS HOW IT ENDS. YOU NEED TO FINISH STRONG, DONT LET ANYTHING GET IN YOUR WAY, DO IT AND PROVE TO YOURSELF THAT YOU CAN DO IT. BESIDES DOING IT FOR YOURSELF, ITS A GOOD TRAIT TO HAVE, BEING ABLE TO SEE THINGS THROUGH TO THE END. YOU JUST HAVE TO SURVIVE IN THE MEAN TIME. LIFE IS ONE WHOLE PROCESS AS WELL. YOU DONT HAVE A CHOICE OF WHEN YOU WERE BORN, YOU GO THROUGH LIFE, AND IN THE END WHAT WILL YOU BE REMEMBERED FOR? MY ADVICE... DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO, SO AT THE END OF THE DAY, YOU CAN SAY TO YOURSELF THAT YOU GAVE IT YOUR ALL.

SO HONESTLY THE POST COULD HAVE KEPT ON GOING I THINK IT WILL GO IN CIRCLES AND CIRCLES. WELL GUESS IL STOP THAT THERE LOL. OH I WENT TO THE VAISAKHI FESTIVAL ON THE WEEKEND AND IT WAS PRETTY COOL. WE ATE A LOT OF CURRY LOL. WENT TO WATCH THE FOOTBALL GAME AND WE WON. WORK IS STILL WORK AND IM TIRED AND IM FALLING ASLEEP, SO GOOD NIGHT IT IS :) ALSO THE POST WAS ACTUALLY ON TOPIC AGAIN... FINALLY A REAL POST LOL

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THE EFFORT YOU PUT IN

IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THE EFFORT THAT ONE PUTS INTO SOMETHING, WHETHER IT BE YOUR JOB OR RELATIONSHIP OR ANYTHING ELSE IN LIFE. THERE IS NO HALF ASS, YOU CAN ONLY DO THINGS FULLY TO ALL OF YOUR CAPABILITY. YOU REALLY GET WHAT YOU PUT IN, AND IN LIFE DO YOU REALLY WANT TO SETTLE? NOT REALLY SETTLE BUT IF YOU ARE ALREADY GOING TO TRY SO HARD WHY NOT TRY YOUR HARDEST? JUST PUT THAT LITTLE BIT MORE EFFORT INTO SOMETHING AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS. YOU CAN SOMETIMES GET AWAY WITH HALF THE EFFORT BUT IN THE LONG RUN ISNT IT BETTER TO GIVE IT YOUR ALL FOR EVERYTHING? AT LEAST IN THE END YOU CAN LOOK BACK AND KNOW THAT YOU TRIED YOUR HARDEST AND THAT YOU DIDNT LEAVE ANYTHING OUT. THAT YOU CANT SAY WHAT IF? THAT YOU KNOW YOU LEFT IT ALL ON THE LINE AND IT EITHER WORKED OUT OR IT DIDNT. HONESTLY, YOU GET WHAT YOU PUT IN. LOOK AT ATHLETES, SURE SOME OF IT IS GENETICS OR NATURAL SKILLS BUT THEY ALL PRACTICE AND PRACTICE AND PRACTICE OVER AND OVER AGAIN. THAT KIND OF EFFORT AND DEDICATION RESULTS IN WHERE THEY ARE. THEY DO NOT JUST GET TO WHERE THEY ARE BY NOT TRYING. THE WAY I HAVE ALWAYS SEEN THINGS IS THAT THERE ARE 3 TYPES OF PEOPLE, IVE SAID IT BEFORE AND IL SAY IT AGAIN...

1. CONTENT

THESE ARE THE PEOPLE WHO ARE JUST HAPPY WITH BEING WHERE THEY ARE, DOING WHAT THEY ARE DOING. THEY DONT ASK FOR MUCH AND DONT NEED MUCH IN RETURN. DAY IN DAY OUT THEY ARE JUST CONTENT WITH EVERYTHING. NOTHING REALLY CHANGES AND NOTHING REALLY HAPPENS, BUT THEY ARE CONTENT WITH THAT. THERES NO HASSLE OR PROBLEMS OR WORRIES EXCEPT FOR THEIR EVERYDAY LIVES.

2. HIGH ACHIEVER

THESE ARE THOSE THAT DEMAND AND STRIVE FOR THE SKY. THEY DONT REACH, THEY TAKE, THEY MAKE, THEY GRIND. NOTHING IS EVER GOOD ENOUGH OR THEY WANT MORE. USUALLY A LITTLE BIT MORE BRANDED AND NEED TO SHOW THAT THEY MADE IT. SOMETIMES THEY COME OFF THE WRONG WAY AND RUB THOSE AROUND THEM THE WRONG WAY AS WELL. ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING TO PROVE, AND DEMAND WHAT THEY WANT.

3. SEARCHING

THIS IS WHERE I AM, THOSE IN THE MIDDLE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT THEY WANT OR WHERE THEY WANT TO GO. THEY WILL NOT SETTLE, AND WANT EVERYTHING THAT THEY DESERVE. WE WORK HARD AND NEVER GIVE UP. WE APPRECIATE WHAT WE HAVE BECAUSE WE MAKE OUR OWN. WE ARE NEVER CONTENT AT WHERE WE ARE AND WE DO NOT NEED TO REACH FOR THE STARS. WE WANT TO BE THOSE THAT CAN HAVE THEIR CAKE AND EAT IT TOO.

FORGET ALL THOSE LUCKY PEOPLE WHO WIN THE LOTTERY, OR ARE IN THE RIGHT PLACE AT THE RIGHT TIME. YOU MAKE YOUR OWN  LUCK AND YOU MAKE YOUR OWN PATH. SO WORK HARD FOR WHAT YOU WANT, GIVE EVERYTHING YOU DO YOUR ALL, AND WATCH IT ALL PAY OFF.

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THAT HEADSPACE...

ONCE AGAIN INEVITABLY YOU WILL REACH THAT HEADSPACE WHERE YOU WONDER... WONDER ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE DOING... WONDER WHERE YOU ARE GOING... WONDER WHAT IT ALL MEANS... ITS A NATURAL PART OF LIFE, AND IN EACH OF YOUR MINDS A STORM IS BREWING AND A BATTLE IS WAGED. HOW DO YOU LOOK FOR ANSWERS AND WHERE DO YOU DO THAT... ANSWERS THAT CANT BE ANSWERED BY ANYONE BUT YOURSELF. IVE WROTE ABOUT THIS BEFORE BUT LIKE CLOCKWORK THESE QUESTIONS WILL CREEP BACK INSIDE YOUR HEAD AND MAKE YOU WONDER... MAKE YOU QUESTION IT ALL... QUESTION EVERYTHING YOU KNOW AND EVERYTHING YOU ARE. NO ONE CAN ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS AND THATS WHATS FRUSTRATING... EVERYONE IS ON THEIR OWN PATH... THEIR OWN JOURNEY... AND NO ONE KNOWS WHERE IT BEGINS OR ENDS. SOME PEOPLE FIGURE IT ALL OUT QUICKLY AND OTHERS TAKE A LIFETIME TO KNOW, AND SOME WILL NEVER FIND OUT THE ANSWER. PEOPLE TAKE TIME OFF TO FIND THEMSELVES AND SOME ARE LUCKY ENOUGH TO FIND THE ANSWERS THEY ARE LOOKING FOR. ANSWERS CAN COME FROM ANYWHERE, IT MIGHT BE SOMETHING YOU READ OR SEE OR HEAR, IT COULD BE A MEMORY, OR IT COULD COME TO YOU IN A DREAM AND WHEN YOU WAKE UP, ALL IS CLEAR. ANSWERS COULD COME FROM INSPIRATION, PASSION, LOVE, HATE, HAPPINESS, SADNESS, AND A MILLION DIFFERENT FEELINGS AND PLACES. POETS AND PHILOSOPHERS HAVE ALL TRIED TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS AND EVEN TO THEM THE ANSWERS ARE NOT CLEAR. TOO MANY QUESTIONS IN LIFE AND TOO LITTLE TIME TO FIGURE IT ALL OUT AND WHAT IT ALL MEANS. I GUESS IL LOOK WITHIN AND SEE IF IT COMES TO ME IN MY DREAM TONIGHT. I JUST NEED TO GET LOST TO FIND MYSELF. IN THE END, DONT WE ALL JUST WANT ANSWERS TO THE QUESTIONS THAT WE HAVE???

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