ADULTING...

WELL IVE BEEN ADULTING FOR A WHILE NOW AND ITS HARD... FOR THOSE WHO DONT UNDERSTAND, ADULTING IS BASICALLY DOING GROWN UP PEOPLE STUFF LIKE HAVING RESPONSIBILITIES, A JOB, RENT AND BILLS TO PAY, AND ALL THOSE LOVELY THINGS THAT GROWN UPS GET THE PLEASURE OF HAVING. IVE SORTA TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE HERE AND THERE BUT IT REALLY HIT ME HARD WHEN I STARTED BUYING BABY STUFF FOR FRIENDS KIDS... WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT I WOULD BE THE ONE TO BE DOING THESE KINDS OF THINGS... BEING A GROWN UP IS HARD... IT TAKES TIME AND MONEY AND YOU NEVER HAVE ENOUGH OF EITHER. HAVING RESPONSIBILITIES IS STRESSFUL!!! IT REALLY MAKES YOU THINK ABOUT YOURSELF AND WHERE YOU ARE IN LIFE AND WHAT YOU REALLY WANT AND WHAT YOU WANT TO DO. GROWING UP YOU HAVE ALL THESE DREAMS AND GOALS OF BEING A SPY OR AN ACTOR OR A DOCTOR, ONLY TO GROW UP AND REALIZE THAT ITS NOT POSSIBLE OR YOU JUST CANT DO IT OR THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO DO CANT PAY THE BILLS. ITS EVEN WORSE THESE DAYS SINCE EVERYTHING COSTS SO MUCH, HOW CAN YOU EVEN AFFORD TO DO ANYTHING? THERES JUST SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT THIS TOPIC. IT ALL GOES BACK TO THE BOTTOM LINE OF ARE YOU HAPPY??? IF YOU ARE HAPPY WITH EVERYTHING THEN THATS GREAT, BUT THE ODDS ARE IF YOURE AN ADULT, YOU ARE NOT HAPPY. NOTHING EVER GOES YOUR WAY...AINT THAT RIGHT... LIFE WAS SO MUCH EASIER... NOT A CARE IN THE WORLD AND NOW IM WORRYING ABOUT BABY PRODUCT INSTEAD... YOU JUST HAVE TO GO WITH IT AND MAKE THE BEST OF IT.

I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO WRITE ABOUT THIS BUT IM PASSING OUT... SOOOO UNTIL NEXT TIME :)

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THE FUTURE'S NOT OURS TO SEE

IVE BEEN LOOKING AT THE PAST AND THINKING ABOUT THE FUTURE QUITE A BIT RECENTLY... ESPECIALLY WHEN I WAS ON MY TRIP A FEW WEEKS AGO. ONCE AGAIN IVE REACHED THE AGE WHERE ITS TIME TO SERIOUSLY THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING AND WHERE I AM. IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH MY POSTS THAT IVE WRITTEN OVER THE PAST 4 YEARS AND YES, SOME ARE RANDOM AND DONT REALLY HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING WHILE BUT THERE ARE THOSE THAT MAKE ONE THINK MORE DEEPLY. IVE WRITTEN ABOUT A LOT OF DIFFERENT TOPICS BUT THE SAME THOUGHTS KEEP COMING BACK UP OVER AND OVER. I DONT REGRET ANYTHING IVE DONE IN THE PAST BUT THERE IS THE THOUGHT OF ALWAYS WONDERING WHAT IF... WHAT IF I DID THIS INSTEAD, WHERE WOULD I HAVE ENDED UP THEN? WOULD I STILL BE HERE DOING THE SAME THING? WOULD I BE BETTER OFF OR WORSE OFF? THESE QUESTIONS WILL NEVER BE ANSWERED. THE SAME NOW GOES THROUGH MY HEAD BUT MORE OF WHATS NEXT AND WHERE WILL I BE? I THINK IT JUST HAS TO DO WITH MANY OF MY FRIENDS GETTING OLDER AND EITHER GETTING MARRIED OR HAVING KIDS. THINGS WERE SO MUCH SIMPLER BACK THEN... LESS WORRIES AND RESPONSIBILITIES, BUT NOW IT SEEMS THAT IM ALWAYS WORRYING ABOUT SOMETHING. THATS JUST PART OF LIFE I SUPPOSE. WHATS NEXT FOR ME? DONT GET ME WRONG, IM HAPPY WHERE I AM AND WHAT IM DOING BUT SOMETIMES I REALLY WISH THERE WAS A CRYSTAL BALL TO SEE WHERE I END UP. I HAVE A PLANS AND GOALS FOR MYSELF, BUT IT WOULD BE NICE TO FIND OUT IF EVERYTHING THAT I WANT AND AM WORKING TOWARDS REALLY DO COME TO FRUITION. I GUESS ITS JUST THE WANT... NO, THE NEED TO KNOW IF I AM GOING TO ACHIEVE MY GOALS OR IF IM ACTUALLY JUST WASTING TIME. I REALLY HATE WASTING TIME THESE DAYS, I REALIZE THAT THERES NEVER ENOUGH OF IT... I GUESS THIS IS REALLY SHOWING MY AGE NOW... I REALLY HAVE TO START ON MY PLAN TO GET THE FUTURE I HAVE PLANNED AND ENVISIONED. THEN AGAIN... WHO KNOWS... THE FUTURES NOT OURS TO SEE...

WORK, TV, FRIENDS, FAMILY, AND THE REST IS THE SAME OLD. WE DID HOWEVER START A VOLLEYBALL TEAM :) LOL THE LAST TIME I PLAYED VOLLEYBALL WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL GYM CLASS... DECIDED TO MAKE A TEAM SO WE CAN KEEP ACTIVE UNTIL FOOTBALL STARTS BACK UP AGAIN. VOLLEYBALL IS THE ONE SPORT THAT WILL HURT ME THE MOST... MY SHOULDER IS SO SCREWED UP THAT SPIKING THE BALL WILL BE INTERESTING. YOU ALL KNOW THAT IVE DISLOCATED MY SHOULDER MORE THAN I CAN EVEN REMEMBER AND ANYTHING THAT REQUIRES ME TO THROW OR HIT A BALL IN THAT MOTION IS JUST ASKING FOR TROUBLE HAHA. JUST GOTTA BE MORE CAREFUL THAN NORMAL. THIS IS GOING TO BE FUN SINCE THERES ONLY A FEW PEOPLE THAT HAVE ACTUALLY PLAYED BEFORE. OH WELL LOL.

ITS STARTING TO GET DARK PRETTY EARLY THESE DAYS AND ITS ALSO GETTING COLDER TOO... STARTING TO FEEL LIKE DOING LESS AND LESS AND EVERYTHING SEEMS QUIETER AS WELL... EVERY YEAR THERES LESS GOING ON AND PEOPLE JUST DONT WANT THE HASSLE ANYMORE, OH WELL. LIFE GOES ON... C'EST LA VIE

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366 DAYS UNTIL DEADLINE

SO GUESS WHAT!!! IT'S THAT TIME OF YEAR AGAIN :) YES!!! ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE ITS ANOTHER YEAR THAT SOON... IT SEEMED LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I SAID IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY POST AND NOW HERE WE GO AGAIN. LOOKING BACK IT WAS A BIG YEAR!!! I WAS A REAL GROWN UP ADULT... HAHA. ITS THE FIRST YEAR THAT IVE ACTUALLY WORKED FULL TIME THE WHOLE YEAR AT THE SAME JOB, I ALSO FINALLY FINISHED ALL MY SCHOOLING, AND TONS OF RANDOMNESS HAPPENED THROUGHOUT. FRIENDS WERE MADE, EVENTS WERE ATTENDED, AND I LEARNED A LOT ABOUT MYSELF THIS YEAR. I REALLY FOUND OUT WHAT I WAS MADE OF, AND NOW LOOKING FORWARD TO THE COMING YEAR I GOT BIGGER DREAMS AND BIGGER PLANS. IM AT THE AGE WHERE I REALIZE I HAVE TO BE MORE GROWN UP AND THINGS ARENT EASY LIKE THE WAY THEY WERE BEFORE. I CANT KEEP DOING WHAT IM DOING AND IN ORDER TO CONTINUE I NEED TO CHANGE. I HAVE TO BE BETTER, I HAVE TO LEARN MORE, I HAVE TO BE DIFFERENT. WHICH BRINGS ME TO THE TITLE... 366 DAYS UNTIL DEADLINE... FROM MY BIRTHDAY THIS WEEKEND I AM GIVING MYSELF 1 YEAR TO GET TO WHERE I WANT TO BE. ITS AN AMBITIOUS GOAL AND I KNOW THERES A LOT OF HARD WORK AHEAD OF ME IF I WANT TO BE ABLE TO ACHIEVE WHAT I WANT IN THAT SHORT TIME, BUT THERES NO POINT IN JUST THINKING AND HOPING FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN. ITS 366 DAYS SINCE ITS A LEAP YEAR THIS YEAR LOL SO TECHNICALLY I GET A BONUS DAY ACTUALLY LOL. I FIGURE THERES NO BETTER TIME THAN NOW AND SINCE ITS MY BIRTHDAY, THE MORE REASON TO START. YOU CAN ALL HOLD ME TO THIS AND I WILL LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW IT GOES IN A YEAR. WELL... IM GOING TO KEEP THIS BLOG GOING SO I GUESS YOU WILL STILL GET UPDATES AND I HOPE THAT THROUGH THE YEAR THE UPDATES WILL ONLY GET BETTER AND BETTER TOWARDS MY GOAL. THIS IS GOING TO BE MY YEAR AND JUST LIKE I HAVE SAID IN MANY OF MY PREVIOUS POSTS, THERES NO ONE ELSE THAT CAN DO IT FOR YOU EXCEPT FOR YOURSELF, IN THE END YOURE THE ONLY ONE THAT MATTERS, NEVER GIVE UP ON WHAT YOU WANT, DO WHAT IT TAKES TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE, HARD WORK PAYS OFF, AND NEVER LET ANYTHING STAND IN YOUR WAY OF OBTAINING YOUR GOALS AND DREAMS. EVERYONE IS CAPABLE OF DOING ANYTHING, AND IM GOING TO START TAKING MY OWN ADVICE AND DO WHAT I WANT. I REALLY CANT WAIT TO SEE WHERE I WILL BE IN A YEAR, AND I CANT WAIT TO SHARE WITH YOU ALL TOO :) SO LET THE COUNTDOWN BEGIN!!!

AUGUST IS ALWAYS THE BEST MONTH OF THE YEAR, BESIDES THE MASSIVE AMOUNT OF FRIENDS BDAYS THAT I HAVE, THE SUN IS OUT AND TIME TO PLAY :) JUST THE OTHER DAY I HAD THE MOST PACKED DAY EVER... BARELY SLEPT SINCE I PARTIED THE NIGHT BEFORE... WENT TO DENNYS IN THE MORNING, THEN HIT UP THE GOLF RANGE, GRABBED SOME STARBUCKS, THEN WENT TO SING KARAOKE FOR 3...4... HOURS..., GRABBED SOME DINNER AT QUIZNOS LOL, WENT GO-CARTING, AND ENDED THE NIGHT UP WITH SOME BOWLING HAHA. THAT WAS A LONG DAY AND MOST OF IT WAS RANDOM, WE DIDNT END UP WHERE WE WANTED TO FOR DINNER BUT ENDED UP WITH SOME RANDOM GOOD TIMES INSTEAD. ITS WAS A LONG WEEKEND AS WELL SO HAD BBQ FOR ONE OF MY FRIENDS BDAY. LASTLY AND OBVIOUSLY I WOULD MAKE SURE THAT I MENTION IS THAT TOMORROW IM GOING TO WATCH THE NEW DRAGONBALL MOVIE!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! DRAGONBALL Z: RESURRECTION "F" AHHHHH FRIEZA IS BACK... AGAIN... HAHA. I GREW UP WITH DRAGONBALL AND HAVE TONS OF FIGURES AND SUCH AT HOME TOO. I ALSO CANT WAIT TIL I GO BACK TO HK IN OCT SO I CAN GET MORE STUFF TO ADD TO THE COLLECTION. OH OH OH YA SO DID I MENTION I FINALLY FIGURED OUT WHERE IM GOING FOR VACA? WELL IM GOING TO TELL YOU AGAIN EITHER WAY IF I DID HAHA. TICKET FROM HERE TO CHINA TO HK BACK TO CHINA TO HOME, PLUS 7 DAYS TRIP IN CHINA, 5 STAR HOTELS, 3 MEALS A DAY, ALL TRAVEL AND ENTRANCE FEES PAID FOR, GUESS HOW MUCH??? ITS REALLY CHEAP!!! WHATEVER YOU ARE THINKING, GO AHEAD AND HALF THAT AND PROB TAKE SOME MORE OFF WHAT YOU ARE THINKING. YA!!! THAT CHEAP!!! ITS NUTS!!! SO CRAZY THAT HOW COULD WE NOT GO!!! IVE ONLY BEEN TO 1 OF THE LOCATIONS THAT THEY ARE INCLUDING IN THE TRIP BUT WHO CARES, SINCE I HAVENT BEEN TO THE OTHER PLACES AND THAT ITS SUPER CHEAP!!! THIS ENDED UP AS A FAMILY TRIP ALONG WITH MY AUNT AND COUSIN AND SOME OTHER FAMILY FRIENDS. THEN I GET SOME TIME IN HK TO CHILL WITH MY FRIENDS THERE. IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS VACA CAUSE I REALLY NEED IT. JUST NEED SOME TIME TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND RELAX AND JUST RECHARGE. ITS BEEN A LONG YEAR... SO I ALSO HAVE THAT TO LOOK FORWARD TO :) WELL THATS ALL FOR NOW, SEE YOU ALL NEXT WEEK WHERE I WILL BE ANOTHER YEAR WISER................. AHEAHEHAHEA

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RIDE OX FIND HORSE

NO I HAVENT GONE CRAZY... OR AT LEAST NO MORE THAN NORMAL... LOL. TO SOME I SUPPOSE THE TITLE IS A LITTLE ODD SOUNDING BUT IF YOUR ARE CHINESE OR MORE SPECIFICALLY CANTONESE THEN DO A STRAIGHT TRANSLATION AND YOU WILL GET IT. FOR EVERYONE ELSE LET ME CLARIFY THIS A BIT BETTER... RIDE OX FIND HORSE SHOULD BE WRITTEN MORE LIKE TO RIDE AN OX LOOKING FOR A HORSE WHICH IS A CHINESE PROVERB WHICH MEANS WORK THE JOB YOU HAVE WHILE LOOKING FOR A BETTER ONE. MUCH CLEARER EH? HAHA. I GUESS THIS POST ALSO TIES INTO A FEW OTHERS... MOSTLY THE PART ABOUT DREAMS AND ALWAYS TRYING TO DO BETTER AND GET BETTER AND TO GO TO BETTER PLACES. 

BEEN THINKING LATELY AND THERES SO MUCH I WANT TO DO AND JUST SO LITTLE TIME. IVE BEEN SAYING THAT THERES A BUNCH OF STUFF THAT I WANT TO DO AND THAT I WAS GOING TO SHARE SOME OF THE LIST WITH YOU ALL... I GUESS THIS IS AS GOOD AS TIME AS ANY... AT 3:45AM... LOL. SO HERES A LITTLE LIST OF THE STUFF I WANT TO GET DONE:

• LEARN DUTCH
• LEARN RUSSIAN
• LEARN GERMAN
• LEARN TO SURF
• TRAVEL THE WORLD
• CLIMB UP A MOUNTAIN (NO NOT THOSE EASY ONES OR THE ONES YOU SNOWBOARD)
• DIVE DEEP INTO AN OCEAN (SCUBA DIVE AND SNORKEL TOO)
• GO ON A SAFARI
• LEARN TO PLAY THE VIOLIN
• JUST DISAPPEAR FOR A WHILE

SO THIS IS JUST A LIST OF STUFF THAT I WANT TO DO NOW... THESE ARE THE REALISTIC ONES LOL. OF COURSE THERES TONS MORE THAT I COULD SHARE... BUT I DONT FEEL LIKE IT HAHA. I MEAN THOSE "WHAT I WANT TO DO" IS MORE OF THE WHERE I WANT TO GO AND WHAT I WANT TO BE... IN LIFE "TO DO" LIST. 

ANYWAYS... WHAT WAS I TALKING ABOUT... OH YES... JOB. WELL WHAT CAN I SAY. JUST RIDING AN OX LOOKING FOR A HORSE, WAITING FOR THAT BETTER THING TO COME. TRYING TO MAKE THINGS HAPPEN BUT SOMETIMES ITS JUST OUTSIDE OF YOUR CONTROL. ANOTHER PROBLEM IS DONT WE ALL BELIEVE WE DESERVE BETTER? WE DO DONT WE? I MEAN THATS WHAT WE ALL WANT. NONE OF US JUST EVER WANT TO SETTLE... BUT SOMETIMES YOU JUST HAVE TO TAKE WHATS GIVEN TO YOU... UNTIL THE DAY COMES WHEN YOU FINALLY GET WHAT YOU WANT. AS ALWAYS THE COMPANIES THAT YOU WANT TO WORK FOR OR THE JOB YOU WANT... THEY MIGHT NOT WANT YOU... YOU KNOW YOU WILL DO GREAT IN THAT POSITION BUT THEY NEVER GIVE YOU THE CHANCE, THEY NEVER CALL YOU FOR THE INTERVIEW AND THEY NEVER WILL KNOW HOW AWESOME YOU COULD BE. I DONT KNOW... I MEAN SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE... SOMETHING HAS TO GIVE... WE ALL CANT JUST GO DAY IN AND DAY OUT... THIS ISNT LIFE... THIS ISNT WHAT ITS SUPPOSE TO BE ABOUT... IS IT??? CAN IT??? SHOULD IT??? WELL... I GUESS ITS BACK TO THE PART I HATE MOST... WAITING... NO CHOICE BUT TO WAIT AND SEE.

MMMM SUSHI :)

YA... STUDYING AND EATING PIZZA AND CHEESE BREAD LOL

WINGS ROUND 1

WINGS ROUND 2

NOW THATSSSSSSSS LOADED WITH SALT LOL

INCEPTION YO!!! OF A COOKIE 

MY ASIAN PLATES LOL AND LUNCH...

PIZZA WITH CHOPSTICKS!!! THATS HOW I ROLL LOL

OH I HAD AN ONLINE MT... WE HAD 2 DAYS TO DO IT... HONESTLY I RATHER DO IT IN CLASS... I WOULD PROBABLY WRITE LESS AND GET A BETTER GRADE LOL. I MEAN THE TEACHER KNOWS THAT YOU ARE PRESSED FOR TIME SO THE QUALITY MIGHT BE A LITTLE LOWER... BUTTTTTTTT WITH MORE TIME SHE EXPECTS IT TO BE OF A HIGHER QUALITY... ALSO LONGER LOL. OH WELL. I HAVE MY OTHER PART OF MY MT TOMORROW AND INSTEAD OF STUDYING I WATCHED SOME TV AND WROTE THIS HAHA. IL BE OK CAUSE ALL I HAVE TO DO IS JUST LOOK OVER A FEW THINGS AND IM GOOD.

SO THIS POST WAS MORE OF THE REGULAR RAMBLINGS OF ME... BACK TO THE OLD STYLE IN A WAY... MOSTLY CAUSE IVE BEEN THINKING LATELY... THINKING ABOUT LIFE AND THE CHOICES I MADE... NOT EVEN GOING TO START ON WRITING ABOUT THAT CAUSE THERES NEVER GOING TO BE ENOUGH CAPS LOCK FOR THAT HAHA. YA... SO LETS JUST LEAVE THAT TOPIC FOR SAY... NEVER!!! HAHA. SOMETIMES I JUST WISH I COULD DO WHAT I LIKE... BUT THAT DOESNT PAY THE BILLS... OH WELL... BACK TO THE GRIND... BACK TO THE OX UNTIL I FIND THAT FREAKING HORSE LOL :)

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WHAT ARE YOU LEAVING BEHIND???

SO CONTINUING ON WITH SOME DEEP THOUGHTS OF MINE IS THIS WEEKS TOPIC OF "WHAT ARE YOU LEAVING BEHIND" AND I MEAN AT THE END OF YOUR LIFE... WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WANT TO BE REMEMBERED FOR OR WANT TO HAVE ACCOMPLISHED IN THE END. WHATS YOUR LEGACY BASICALLY. IF YOU REALLY THINK ABOUT THIS, ITS ACTUALLY REALLY HARD TO ANSWER... I MEAN IM IN MY MID 20'S AND I HAVE THE REST OF MY LIFE AHEAD OF ME STILL TO DECIDE WHERE TO GO AND WHAT TO DO... ITS HARD TO THINK WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN IN THE NEXT 50-75 YEARS, I PERSONALLY PLAN TO LIVE FOREVER CAUSE I WANT TO SEE THEM FLYING CARS AND SPACESHIPS LOL. SO MAYBE A LITTLE BIT MORE DOWN TO EARTH OF WHATS ACTUALLY GOING TO HAPPEN. HONESTLY I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE I WILL BE OR WHAT IM GOING TO DO BUT I THINK ITS GOING TO BE SOMETHING LIKE THIS:

• MARRIED WITH 2 KIDS - A SON THATS THE OLDER ONE, AND A DAUGHTER FOR THE YOUNGER
• LIVE IN A HOUSE IN WHO KNOWS WHERE
• DOING SOMETHING I LIKE AND NOT JUST A JOB THAT I HAVE TO
• STILL HAVE THE SAME FRIENDS I HAVE NOW BUT HAVE EVEN MORE FUN CAUSE OUR KIDS WOULD PLAY TOGETHER AND BE BEST FRIENDS WITH EACH OTHER
• HAVE VACATIONS TO AWESOME PLACES AROUND THE WORLD

THATS ABOUT HOW FAR IT GOES... EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN I HAVE NO CLUE. SO THATS THE PART OF WHAT IM LEAVING BEHIND, BUT WHAT ABOUT HOW IM GOING TO BE REMEMBERED? SOME PEOPLE ARE CONTENT WITH WHAT THEY HAVE OR WHERE THEY ARE. SOME PEOPLE WANT THE WORLD AND HAVE THEIR NAMES IN THE STARS. SOME PEOPLE WANT TO BE FAMOUS AND HISTORY WILL REMEMBER THEM. WHERE DO I FALL UNDER? I DONT KNOW... I GUESS I WANT TO BE REMEMBERED FOR... BEING AWESOME :) LOL. I DONT KNOW... WHAT WILL PEOPLE SAY ABOUT ME AFTER IM GONE... I MEAN I DONT WANT TO BE REMEMBERED FOR ANYTHING BAD OF COURSE, BUT I KNOW I WONT DO SOMETHING LIKE CREATING A CURE FOR SOME DISEASE... OR BE THE 1ST PERSON TO DO SOMETHING NEVER DONE BEFORE... ACTUALLY... NOW COME TO THINK OF IT, I KNOW I CAN BREAK SOME OF THOSE GUINNESS WORLD RECORDS... SOOOOOOO TIME TO GO READ THE BOOK AND BREAK A BUNCH OF RECORDS SO AT LEAST MY NAME WILL BE IN THERE :) YA!!! THATS WHAT IM GOING TO DO LOL. MY NAME WILL BE THERE AND OF COURSE THIS BLOG WILL STILL BE UP SOMEWHERE ON THE INTERNET SO I GUESS IN A WAY THIS IS WHAT IM LEAVING BEHIND... ME SCREAMING AND YELLING AT EVERYONE HAHA. 

MMMMM BEANS AND CHOPS :) CEPT RICE WAS MEH LOL

CLAN FOOD!!!!!!!!! WOOOOO LOVE THIS STUFF HEHE

YA... SO THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED... I HAVE A LACK OF PHOTOS... JUST BEEN BUSY WITH WORK AND SCHOOL AND SOMETIMES I WISH THERE WAS MORE TIME IN THE DAY FOR EVERYTHING I NEED TO GET DONE...

SO THERE YOU GO, A SHORT POST :) BUT BEEN THINKING A LOT ABOUT A LOT OF THINGS THESE DAYS. WHICH HAS BROUGHT US TO THIS POST, LIFES HARD AND IT SUCKS A LOT OF THE TIMES. I JUST SEE PEOPLE GOING DAY IN AND DAY OUT GRINDING AWAY... THERE HAS TO BE SOMETHING BETTER AND THERE IS!!! PROBLEM IS THAT EVERYTHING REQUIRES MONEY... ISNT IT FUNNY HOW IT ALWAYS ENDS UP BEING ABOUT MONEY? GUESS WE CAN ONLY WAIT TO SEE WHERE IT ALL LEADS TO EH...

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CONFUSED AT WHAT THE TITLE SHOULD BE... SO...

I GUESS THE TITLE IS THE THOUGHT ABOUT THE TITLE... LOL. ORIGINALLY THIS POST WAS GOING TO BE ABOUT FRIENDS AND THEN I WANTED TO WRITE SOMETHING ABOUT LOVING THE LIFE YOU LIVE AND ALL BUT THEN OPTED FOR SOME RANDOM VAGUE TITLE LIKE I ALWAYS DO LOL.

YOU ALL KNOW I HAVE A BUNCH OF CLOSE FRIENDS AND TONS OF OTHER FRIENDS TOO. WELL NEEDLESS TO SAY THE CLOSE ONES HAVE BEEN THERE A LONG TIME AND HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME AND ME FOR THEM. BEEN HANGING OUT AND JUST TALKING AND REALIZED WHY AND HOW WE REMAINED FRIENDS OVER ALL THESE YEARS. ITS OUR OUT LOOK ON LIFE AND SITUATIONS AND THE ADVICE THEY GIVE WHEN YOU NEED IT. OF COURSE THIS IS NOTHING NEW, I MEAN WHO DOESNT KNOW THIS RIGHT. BUT OUR FRIENDSHIPS GO BEYOND THAT, TO THE POINT WHERE THE UNSAID IS NOT NEEDED OR WE KNOW WHAT EACH OTHER IS THINKING. HONESTLY I THOUGHT THERE WAS MORE TO WRITE BUT REALLY WHAT IS THERE TO WRITE BESIDES THE FACT THAT THOSE ARE THE PEOPLE YOU ARE HAPPY TO HAVE IN YOUR LIFE AND THAT ARE THE BONDS THAT WE CHERISH RIGHT?

SO THIS TIES IN A BIT TO LAST WEEKS POST ABOUT DREAMS I SUPPOSE. LOVE THE LIFE YOU LIVE. IN LIFE YOU CANT JUST DO WHAT PEOPLE TELL YOU. YOU HAVE TO BE TRUE TO YOURSELF AND DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY. WHATS THE POINT IN GOING THROUGH LIFE BEING MISERABLE DAY IN AND DAY OUT HATING YOUR JOB OR HATING YOUR LIFE? I SEE IT EVERYDAY, PEOPLE JUST DOING WHAT THEY HAVE TO DO, WHO KNOWS I MEAN... SOME MIGHT ACTUALLY LIKE WHAT THEY DO BUT A MAJORITY DONT. THEY SAY IF YOU LOVE YOUR JOB YOU NEVER WORK A DAY IN YOUR LIFE... AND ITS TRUE. IF I COULD DO SOMETHING I LIKE THEN IT WOULDNT MATTER IF I WAS BEING PAID A LOT OR NOT, CAUSE IT MAKES ME HAPPY. BUT THEN AGAIN IF IM WORKING AT A JOB I HATE BUT THE PAY IS AMAZING... WELL... IM JUST WORKING THERE FOR THE MONEY. HOPEFULLY THAT MONEY COULD HELP LET ME LIVE THE WAY I WANT LOL. NOT EVERYONE HAS A CHOICE I UNDERSTAND, BUT I RATHER CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY CAUSE IN THE END ITS ALL ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOURSELF AND EVERYTHING. IVE ALWAYS SUPPORTED EVERYONE IN DOING WHAT THEY WANT TO DO, YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME TELLING SOMEONE NOT TO DO IT, ALWAYS ENCOURAGING THEM TO GO FOR IT. IF YOU NEVER TRY THEN YOU NEVER FAIL, AND IF YOU NEVER FAIL, YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU ARE CAPABLE OF OR WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY. RIGHT NOW UNFORTUNATELY IM WAITING FOR THE DAY WHERE I CAN DO WHAT I LIKE TO DO AND BE TRULY HAPPY.

NICE DAY :) 

TOUCH IT... TOUCH IT... AWWW SO CUTE LOL

SOMEHOW ENDED BACK UP IN THE CLUB... LOL AND LOOK... ITS PACKED!!! SO BUSY LOL

FAMILY DINNER :)

YA... DRUNK SLOPPY GIRL AT THE CLUB STEPPED ON ME IN HER FREAKING HEELS AND STUMBLES OFF... THIS IS THE RESULT THE NEXT DAY... THANKS... BITCH!!!

FINALLY HAD A MCD POUTINE LOL IT WAS OK HAHA

SOOOOO GOT A CALL FROM WHAT I THOUGHT WOULD BE THE CALL IVE BEEN WAITING FOR... ONLY TO PICK UP AND NO ONE ANSWER... AND THEN EVENTUALLY HANG UP... THANKS... GETTING MY HOPES UP WITH A STRANGE NUMBER THAT I HAVE NEVER SEEN BEFORE LOL.

WELL... WORKS INTERESTING NOW... I HAVE SUNDAYS AND WEDNESDAYS OFF SINCE I HAVE THAT NEW COURSE STARTING TODAY. SO WORK 2 DAYS GET A DAY OFF AND WORK 3 DAYS AND GET A DAY OFF... BUT SCHOOL... SO THAT TECHNICALLY NULLS IT SOOOO WORK 6 DAYS A WEEK PLUS READING AND STUFF SOOOO I REALLY WORK 27/4... SIGH. JUST GOTTA LOOK FOR THE END OF THE ROAD. JUST CANT WAIT TIL EVERYTHING IS DONE AND I CAN SEE WHERE THIS ALL LEADS TO.

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DREAMING DREAMER'S DREAM

I FIND IT FUNNY HOW OVER TIME ONES DREAM CHANGES... RIGHT NOW IM TALKING ABOUT YOUR DREAMS AS IN ASPIRATIONS AND GOALS. WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG WHAT DID YOU DREAM OF BECOMING??? AN ASTRONAUT? A PRO SPORTS PLAYER? A MOVIE STAR? WELL I ACTUALLY WANTED TO BE A FARMER... A LAWYER... A PILOT. SINCE WHEN DO OUR DREAMS DIE? AND WE HAVE TO MOVE ON TO REALITY? WHY DO WE HAVE TO GROW UP AND REALIZE THAT WE CAN NEVER LIVE OUR DREAM OUT? KIDS HAVE AN ENDLESS IMAGINATION THAT CANT BE COMPARED TO, AND ITS TRUE... THE OLDER YOU GET THE LESS IMAGINATIVE YOU GET. FORGET ABOUT ALL THE DREAMS ABOUT HAVING MAGICAL POWERS OR A PET DRAGON OR POKEMON OR SOMETHING... BUT MORE ATTAINABLE DREAMS. LIFES ABOUT POSSIBILITIES AND DREAMS... THEN WHY IS IT IMPOSSIBLE TO GET IT? EVERYONE HAS THE DREAM OF WINNING THE LOTTO AND BEING ABLE TO ACTUALLY LIVE OUT THEIR DREAMS BUT CAN YOU REALLY BUY YOUR DREAM WITH MONEY??? WELL... THE OBVIOUS ANSWERS YES!!! LOL. BUT LETS BE REAL, HOW MANY OF US WILL ACTUALLY WIN THE LOTTO IN OUR LIFETIME? PROBABLY NONE OF US, THATS WHY DREAMS ARE SO HARD TO OBTAIN. YOU CAN WORK ALL YOUR LIFE FOR YOUR DREAM BUT IN THE END CAN YOU REALLY SAY YOUVE FINALLY REACHED YOUR DREAM? THEN THE PROBLEM IS IF YOU FINALLY DO REACH YOUR DREAM IS IT THE DREAM YOU HAD OR HAVE YOUR DREAM CHANGED ONCE AGAIN AND THAT IS NO LONGER YOUR DREAM... IVE BEEN TOLD BEFORE THAT IM A DREAMER... AND THAT I HAVE TO BE PULLED DOWN TO REALITY CAUSE LOTS OF THE THINGS I WANT ARENT ATTAINABLE... WELL... NOT THAT ITS UNATTAINABLE BUT THAT EVEN WITH HARD WORK AND DEDICATION IT IS NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE. SO THEN... WHY DO WE DREAM? IS IT ALWAYS THE THOUGHT OF WHAT COULD BE, WHAT SHOULD BE, AND WHAT WOULD BE? DREAMS I CAN SAY ARE WHAT KEEPS US GOING, WHAT WE STRIVE FOR, WORK FOR AND IS MOTIVATED FOR. SOMETIMES IT TAKES TIME TO REALIZE ONES DREAM AND TO REALLY KNOW WHAT YOU WANT, UNTIL THEN... JUST KEEP ON DREAMING TIL YOU GET THERE. SO, THIS IS FOR ALL YOU DREAMERS OUT THERE!!! NEVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAM, DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO GET YOURSELF THERE :)

AND NOW ONTO DREAMS THAT YOU DREAM WHEN YOU SLEEP. LATELY IVE BEEN REMEMBERING MY DREAM A LOT MORE AND ITS INTERESTING WHAT YOU DREAM ABOUT. SO FAR ITS BEEN A MIX OF ZOMBIES, RANDOM CARS, HANGING OUT, PARTYING, AND THINGS THAT DONT MAKE SENSE. THERE ARE HOWEVER PEOPLE I KNOW IN MY DREAM, AND THEN THERE ARE THE FACELESS/I DONT REMEMBER WHO THEY ARE PEOPLE IN THE DREAM. ITS BEEN SAID THAT EVERYONE YOU SEE IN YOUR DREAM IS AN ACTUAL PERSON YOU HAVE MET OR SEEN IN REAL LIFE BUT WHEN YOU TRY TO REALLY REMEMBER WHO THEY ARE CAN YOU? I CAN SAY I DONT RECALL WHERE OR WHEN IVE SEEN THEM, AND THATS KINDA FREAKY... LOL. WHY CANT OUR DREAMS BE OUR REAL DREAMS IN REAL LIFE? LIKE... WHY CANT OUR DREAMS BE REALITY? MOST DREAMS ARE GREAT AND YOU ARE ON TOP OF THE WORLD, AND EVERYTHING IS JUST THE WAY YOU WANT IT. JUST WHEN YOU HAVE EVERYTHING YOU HAVE EVER WANTED BEEP BEEP BEEEEEEEEEEEEP YOUR DAM ALARM GOES OFF AND YOU SNAP BACK TO REALITY... WAKE UP AND REALIZE YOU ARE BACK IN THIS RAT RACE YOU CALL LIFE. I GUESS THAT ONLY MAKES SENSE SINCE YOUR DREAMS ARE YOUR DREAMS AND THOSE ARE DREAMS YOU CAN ONLY DREAM ABOUT. SOMETIMES I JUST WISH WE CAN DREAM FOREVER AND JUST BE HAPPY.

WELL... THIS IS A DEEPER POST THAN NORMAL EH... THINGS YOU THINK ABOUT...

THANKS FOR LETTING ME KNOW... LOL

TOO HUNGRY TO TAKE PICS LOL

HAPPY BDAY BUDDY :) AND YES HES KOREAN LOL

JUST PHO LOL

SPRING ROLLS... OK I GUESS... BUT SHRIMP ROLL... WTF HAPPENED... SO SMALL...

FUEL DOOR NOT WORKING??? 

NO WORRIES :) I GOT THIS!!! LOL FIX IT YOURSELF :) AND YES I BRUISED MY THUMB FIXING THE DAM THING... FEELS FUNNY ACTUALLY HAHA

OK ANOTHER THING ABOUT DREAMS... HOW MANY OF YOU ARE ACTUALLY WHERE YOU THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE TODAY??? I CAN SAY IM NOT WHERE I THOUGHT I WOULD BE AT ALL... LOTS HAVE HAPPENED TO CHANGE MY COURSE AND I HAVE NOT YET REACHED WHERE I WANT TO BE... AND YET I STILL KEEP DREAMING. SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST FINE WITH WHERE THEY ARE AND SOME DREAM OF BIGGER AND BETTER THINGS. SO, DREAM THE DREAM EVERYONE, DREAM THE DREAM.

ALSO, LUCID DREAMS ARE SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!! IN THOSE DREAMS YOU REALLY DO GET TOO DREAM WHAT YOU WANT TO DREAM :) LOL.

AS FOR THE REALITY OF MY LIFE??? WELL... WORKS WORK AND THE REST IS JUST LIFE. NOTHING NEW, NOTHING TO SAY.

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