THE FIRST STEP IS ALWAYS THE HARDEST

JUST LIKE EVERYTHING IN LIFE, IT ALL STARTS WITH THAT FIRST STEP. THINK ABOUT IT... WAKING UP IN THE MORNING YOU CAN DECIDE TO SNOOZE IT OR WAKE UP AND GO BRUSH UP. DECIDING WHETHER TO EAT SOMETHING EASY LIKE CEREAL OR MAKE SOME BACON AND EGGS. DECIDING TO START READING A BOOK, LEARNING A NEW LANGUAGE, OR TRYING SOMETHING NEW FOR THE FIRST TIME THAT FIRST STEP IS THE ACT OF ACTUALLY GOING FORWARD AND DOING SOMETHING. EVERYTHING STARTS OFF LIKE THAT AND IT JUST CONTINUES ON UNTIL ITS SECOND NATURE. A BABYS FIRST STEP IS PHYSICALLY THE HARDEST FIRST STEP WE WILL TAKE. LATER IN LIFE DECIDING TO GO TO SCHOOL OR GO BACK TO SCHOOL. FINALLY BUYING A CAR, MOVING OUT. DECIDING TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP, GETTING MARRIED, BUYING A HOUSE, HAVING KIDS, ALL THESE ARE STEPS AND NONE OF WHICH COME EASY. WHAT MOTIVATES YOU ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU TAKE THAT FIRST STEP? THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE A JOB? PERHAPS YOU HAVE RESPONSIBILITIES TO TAKE CARE OF AND ONLY YOU CAN DO IT. WHATEVER IT IS, YOU MADE THE DECISION TO TAKE THAT STEP TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO. FOR ME, PERSONALLY, THE REASON IS CHANGE. I WANT A CHANGE IN SOMETHING, I CANT JUST KEEP DOING WHAT IM DOING. I CONSCIOUSLY KNOW THAT SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE BEFORE OTHER CHANGES CAN OCCUR. EVERYTHING HAPPENS IN STEPS. AFTER I FINISHED SCHOOL I REALLY DIDNT KNOW WHERE TO GO, I MEAN I GOT A JOB BUT IT WASNT WHERE I WANTED TO END UP. I STARTED LOOKING AT SCHOOL AGAIN AND IT WAS HARD TO ACTUALLY TAKE THAT STEP. ESPECIALLY AFTER BEING IN SCHOOL SO LONG, HAVING STUDENT LOANS, AND BASICALLY NOT LIVING MY LIFE THE WAY I WANTED. DEBATED A LOT, AND TOOK A WHILE LOOKING AT WHAT I WANTED TO GO INTO. EVENTUALLY FOUND SOMETHING I LIKED AND KNEW COULD MAKE A LIVING AND JUST WENT FOR IT. TOOK THAT STEP AND REGISTERED AND WENT THROUGH WITH THE PROGRAM. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT THAT FIRST STEP, IF YOU NEVER TRY, HOW WILL YOU EVER KNOW? PEOPLE THESE DAYS ARE JUST TOO COMFORTABLE AND DONT WANT TO LEAVE THEIR COMFORT ZONE. NOTHING EVER WORTH DOING WAS EASY... IF IT WAS THEN EVERYONE WOULD HAVE DONE IT ALREADY. THEN AGAIN A LOT OF PEOPLE THESE DAYS ARE JUST AFRAID TO TRY ANYTHING, NOT KNOWING IF THEY COULD DO IT OR MAKE IT. THEY ARE JUST AFRAID OF WHAT THEY DONT KNOW, SO TO NOT BE AFRAID THEY JUST STAY WHERE THEY ARE AND NEVER TAKING THAT STEP. FEAR OF FAILURE, FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN, FEAR OF DISAPPOINTMENT... NONE OF THESE FEARS ARE REAL... THEY ARE ALL IN YOUR HEAD AND IF YOU CAN GET PAST THAT FEAR, THEN YOU WILL TRULY BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING YOU WANT. IF YOU ALL REMEMBER A FEW MONTHS BACK FOR MY BDAY POST I MENTIONED THAT I GAVE MYSELF A DEADLINE OF 1 YEAR. NOT MANY PEOPLE KNOW WHAT IT IS AND IVE ONLY TOLD A FEW PEOPLE. ITS A HEFTY GOAL THAT I SET FOR MYSELF, AND ODDS ARE THAT IT CANT BE DONE IN JUST 1 YEAR, BUT LIKE I SAID... IF I NEVER TRY, HOW WILL I EVER KNOW? RIGHT??? THE ENTIRE TIME IVE BEEN WANTING TO START AND I KEEP TELLING MYSELF THAT IM GOING TO START... AND A DAY GOES BY... WEEKS... MONTHS... I KEEP SAYING IM TIRED FROM WORK, OR IM GOING OUT, OR AFTER THIS TV SHOW, OR IM JUST LAZY... AND UP TO A FEW DAYS AGO I STILL HAVENT STARTED... THATS ABOUT 100 DAYS GONE... BUT NOW I CAN ACTUALLY SAY THAT I TOOK THAT FIRST STEP, I TOOK THAT HARDEST STEP AND MOVED FORWARD. NOW THAT I HAVE STARTED, ITS NOT THAT HARD TO CONTINUE, JUST HAVE TO KEEP ON GOING, AND KEEP AT IT. WHO KNOWS... MAYBE IF I KEEP THIS UP THAT 1 YEAR DEADLINE MIGHT ACTUALLY HAPPEN LOL. HAVING SPENT THIS MUCH TIME, MONEY, AND ENERGY ON THIS ALREADY MY ONLY CHOICE IS TO STICK THIS OUT AND SEE WHERE IT LEADS TO. IF IT WORKS OUT THEN GREAT, IF IT DOESNT THEN AT LEAST I CAN SAY I TRIED AND I KNOW. IN THE END NO ONE CAN DO IT FOR YOU. YOU HAVE TO DECIDE FOR YOURSELF IF YOU WANT TO TAKE THAT STEP. ITS GOING TO BE HARD, ITS GOING TO BE SLOW, AT TIMES YOU MIGHT FEEL LIKE GIVING UP, BUT IN THE END JUST REMEMBER, HARD WORK ALWAYS PAYS OFF. SO NO MATTER HOW HARD THAT FIRST STEP MIGHT BE... WHATEVER YOUR SITUATION MAY BE... DO IT FOR YOURSELF AND TAKE IT.

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366 DAYS UNTIL DEADLINE

SO GUESS WHAT!!! IT'S THAT TIME OF YEAR AGAIN :) YES!!! ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE ITS ANOTHER YEAR THAT SOON... IT SEEMED LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I SAID IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY POST AND NOW HERE WE GO AGAIN. LOOKING BACK IT WAS A BIG YEAR!!! I WAS A REAL GROWN UP ADULT... HAHA. ITS THE FIRST YEAR THAT IVE ACTUALLY WORKED FULL TIME THE WHOLE YEAR AT THE SAME JOB, I ALSO FINALLY FINISHED ALL MY SCHOOLING, AND TONS OF RANDOMNESS HAPPENED THROUGHOUT. FRIENDS WERE MADE, EVENTS WERE ATTENDED, AND I LEARNED A LOT ABOUT MYSELF THIS YEAR. I REALLY FOUND OUT WHAT I WAS MADE OF, AND NOW LOOKING FORWARD TO THE COMING YEAR I GOT BIGGER DREAMS AND BIGGER PLANS. IM AT THE AGE WHERE I REALIZE I HAVE TO BE MORE GROWN UP AND THINGS ARENT EASY LIKE THE WAY THEY WERE BEFORE. I CANT KEEP DOING WHAT IM DOING AND IN ORDER TO CONTINUE I NEED TO CHANGE. I HAVE TO BE BETTER, I HAVE TO LEARN MORE, I HAVE TO BE DIFFERENT. WHICH BRINGS ME TO THE TITLE... 366 DAYS UNTIL DEADLINE... FROM MY BIRTHDAY THIS WEEKEND I AM GIVING MYSELF 1 YEAR TO GET TO WHERE I WANT TO BE. ITS AN AMBITIOUS GOAL AND I KNOW THERES A LOT OF HARD WORK AHEAD OF ME IF I WANT TO BE ABLE TO ACHIEVE WHAT I WANT IN THAT SHORT TIME, BUT THERES NO POINT IN JUST THINKING AND HOPING FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN. ITS 366 DAYS SINCE ITS A LEAP YEAR THIS YEAR LOL SO TECHNICALLY I GET A BONUS DAY ACTUALLY LOL. I FIGURE THERES NO BETTER TIME THAN NOW AND SINCE ITS MY BIRTHDAY, THE MORE REASON TO START. YOU CAN ALL HOLD ME TO THIS AND I WILL LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW IT GOES IN A YEAR. WELL... IM GOING TO KEEP THIS BLOG GOING SO I GUESS YOU WILL STILL GET UPDATES AND I HOPE THAT THROUGH THE YEAR THE UPDATES WILL ONLY GET BETTER AND BETTER TOWARDS MY GOAL. THIS IS GOING TO BE MY YEAR AND JUST LIKE I HAVE SAID IN MANY OF MY PREVIOUS POSTS, THERES NO ONE ELSE THAT CAN DO IT FOR YOU EXCEPT FOR YOURSELF, IN THE END YOURE THE ONLY ONE THAT MATTERS, NEVER GIVE UP ON WHAT YOU WANT, DO WHAT IT TAKES TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE, HARD WORK PAYS OFF, AND NEVER LET ANYTHING STAND IN YOUR WAY OF OBTAINING YOUR GOALS AND DREAMS. EVERYONE IS CAPABLE OF DOING ANYTHING, AND IM GOING TO START TAKING MY OWN ADVICE AND DO WHAT I WANT. I REALLY CANT WAIT TO SEE WHERE I WILL BE IN A YEAR, AND I CANT WAIT TO SHARE WITH YOU ALL TOO :) SO LET THE COUNTDOWN BEGIN!!!

AUGUST IS ALWAYS THE BEST MONTH OF THE YEAR, BESIDES THE MASSIVE AMOUNT OF FRIENDS BDAYS THAT I HAVE, THE SUN IS OUT AND TIME TO PLAY :) JUST THE OTHER DAY I HAD THE MOST PACKED DAY EVER... BARELY SLEPT SINCE I PARTIED THE NIGHT BEFORE... WENT TO DENNYS IN THE MORNING, THEN HIT UP THE GOLF RANGE, GRABBED SOME STARBUCKS, THEN WENT TO SING KARAOKE FOR 3...4... HOURS..., GRABBED SOME DINNER AT QUIZNOS LOL, WENT GO-CARTING, AND ENDED THE NIGHT UP WITH SOME BOWLING HAHA. THAT WAS A LONG DAY AND MOST OF IT WAS RANDOM, WE DIDNT END UP WHERE WE WANTED TO FOR DINNER BUT ENDED UP WITH SOME RANDOM GOOD TIMES INSTEAD. ITS WAS A LONG WEEKEND AS WELL SO HAD BBQ FOR ONE OF MY FRIENDS BDAY. LASTLY AND OBVIOUSLY I WOULD MAKE SURE THAT I MENTION IS THAT TOMORROW IM GOING TO WATCH THE NEW DRAGONBALL MOVIE!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! DRAGONBALL Z: RESURRECTION "F" AHHHHH FRIEZA IS BACK... AGAIN... HAHA. I GREW UP WITH DRAGONBALL AND HAVE TONS OF FIGURES AND SUCH AT HOME TOO. I ALSO CANT WAIT TIL I GO BACK TO HK IN OCT SO I CAN GET MORE STUFF TO ADD TO THE COLLECTION. OH OH OH YA SO DID I MENTION I FINALLY FIGURED OUT WHERE IM GOING FOR VACA? WELL IM GOING TO TELL YOU AGAIN EITHER WAY IF I DID HAHA. TICKET FROM HERE TO CHINA TO HK BACK TO CHINA TO HOME, PLUS 7 DAYS TRIP IN CHINA, 5 STAR HOTELS, 3 MEALS A DAY, ALL TRAVEL AND ENTRANCE FEES PAID FOR, GUESS HOW MUCH??? ITS REALLY CHEAP!!! WHATEVER YOU ARE THINKING, GO AHEAD AND HALF THAT AND PROB TAKE SOME MORE OFF WHAT YOU ARE THINKING. YA!!! THAT CHEAP!!! ITS NUTS!!! SO CRAZY THAT HOW COULD WE NOT GO!!! IVE ONLY BEEN TO 1 OF THE LOCATIONS THAT THEY ARE INCLUDING IN THE TRIP BUT WHO CARES, SINCE I HAVENT BEEN TO THE OTHER PLACES AND THAT ITS SUPER CHEAP!!! THIS ENDED UP AS A FAMILY TRIP ALONG WITH MY AUNT AND COUSIN AND SOME OTHER FAMILY FRIENDS. THEN I GET SOME TIME IN HK TO CHILL WITH MY FRIENDS THERE. IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS VACA CAUSE I REALLY NEED IT. JUST NEED SOME TIME TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND RELAX AND JUST RECHARGE. ITS BEEN A LONG YEAR... SO I ALSO HAVE THAT TO LOOK FORWARD TO :) WELL THATS ALL FOR NOW, SEE YOU ALL NEXT WEEK WHERE I WILL BE ANOTHER YEAR WISER................. AHEAHEHAHEA

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BEEN THINKING... BEEN PLANNING... WHATS NEXT

A CONSTANT THOUGHT THAT KEEPS RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND IS WHATS NEXT... IVE BEEN THINKING AND IVE BEEN PLANNING BUT I CANT REALLY FIGURE IT OUT. CURRENTLY EVERYTHING IS GOING GOOD AND IM IN A GREAT PLACE IN MY LIFE FINALLY BUT IM ALWAYS WONDERING WHATS NEXT... YOU KNOW HOW IN THE OLD INTERVIEW DAYS EVERYONE ASKS YOU "WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF IN 5 YEAR?" THAT QUESTION IS SO HARD TO ANSWER. OF COURSE IN AN INTERVIEW YOU ALWAYS ANSWER THAT YOU SEE YOURSELF IN A MANAGEMENT ROLE OR EXECUTIVE LEVEL BLA BLA BLA AND PERHAPS ITS TRUE, BUT HOW MANY OF US CAN REALLY SAY WHERE WE WILL BE IN 5 YEARS. WE CANT EVEN TELL YOU WHERE WE WOULD BE IN A YEAR. SO MUCH CAN CHANGE IN A YEAR, A MONTH, A DAY, A MINUTE... SURE YOU CAN TRY TO PLAN THINGS OUT AND THATS WHAT IVE BEEN TRYING TO DO, BUT THERES JUST TOO MANY VARIABLES, TOO MANY QUESTIONS, TOO MANY DECISIONS TO MAKE TO REALLY KNOW. IF I LOOK BACK 5 YEARS AND THINK IF I HAD ANY IDEA THAT I WOULD END UP WHERE I CURRENTLY AM NOW THE ANSWER WOULD BE NO. I REALLY HAD NO IDEA WHERE I WOULD END UP... I HAD A PLAN AND HAD HOPE TO END UP AT POINT BUT THINGS CHANGE. THE SAME COULD BE SAID ABOUT NOW LOOKING FORWARD AND TRYING TO SEE WHERE I WILL BE. ONCE AGAIN I HAVE A PLAN AND HOPES BUT WHO KNOWS IF ITS GOING TO CHANGE. IN A WAY THIS REALLY PISSES ME OFF NOT KNOWING. I JUST REALLY WANT TO KNOW IF THINGS WILL END UP THE WAY I THINK AND HOPE THEY WILL. 5 YEARS IS SUCH A LONG TIME AND SO MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN BETWEEN. MAYBE WHAT I THOUGHT CANT EVEN HAPPEN OR WONT OR SHOULDNT EVEN HAPPEN. WHO REALLY KNOWS... ONLY THING I DO KNOW IS DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO, TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE, AND DONT LET ANYTHING STOP YOU. THERES NO POINT IN WAITING FOR 5 YEARS TO SEE IF YOU END UP WHERE YOU THINK YOU WILL END UP... START NOW AND MAKE SURE YOU END UP WHERE YOU SAID YOU WOULD END UP 5 YEARS AGO.

EVERYTHING ELSE? WORKS BETTER, EVERYTHING IS FINALLY FINISHING UP AND IT LOOKS LIKE NOT MUCH MORE OT :) PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS HAVE BEEN ROUGH... JUST TOO MUCH TO DO, BUT THE REST OF THE YEAR IS LOOKING GOOD AND ESPECIALLY GOOD SINCE ITS SUMMER TIME WOOOOOOOOOO. FOOTBALL IS GETTING INTENSE... PLAYING TO MAKE IT INTO THE PLAYOFFS RIGHT NOW AND LETS JUST SAY THE LAST GAME GOT REALLY REALLY LOUD AND ALMOST PHYSICAL... MULTIPLE TIMES... AND PEOPLE GOT KICKED OUT. SO NOW WE JUST CONCENTRATING ON FINISHING THE SEASON IN A PLAYOFF SPOT. THIS WEEK IS A MUST WIN NO MATTER WHAT AND WE GOT THIS!!! NOTHING IS GOING TO STOP US!!! I SAY NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOCCER SEASON IS OVER... TURNS OUT OUR VERY LAST GAME THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN JUST FOR FUN SINCE WE LOST THE QUARTER-FINALS WAS CANCELLED... THE FIELD WAS BOOKED FOR THE AUSTRALIAN NATIONAL SOCCER TEAM FOR PRACTICE... SURE... AND THE REST OF LIFE IS THE SAME. JUST HERE AND THERE DOING THIS AND THAT. ENJOY YOUR WEEK EVERYONE AND SEE YOU NEXT TIME.

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