BIG WEEKEND!!!

MAN OH MAN THIS WEEKEND WILL BE A BIG ONE. I GUESS HAPPY EASTER IS IN ORDER AS WELL. I HAD 4 DAYS OFF WHICH WAS NICE, AND JUST RELAXED, HUNG OUT, AND PLAYED SOME MJ. THIS WEEKEND HOWEVER... I GOT A WEDDING, AVENGERS: ENDGAME, AND GAME OF THRONES! BOTH OF WHICH I AM WATCHING ON SUNDAY. ITS GOING TO BE A CRAZY WEEKEND. WE HAVE WAITED FOR A YEAR FOR ONE AND TWO FOR THE OTHER!!! FOR THOSE WHO ACTUALLY FOLLOW MARVEL OR GAME OF THRONES, YOU ALL KNOW HOW BIG THIS WEEKEND WILL BE. ENDGAME IS A COMBINATION AND THE PRODUCT OF OVER 10 YEARS OF WORK. IT HAS ALL BROUGHT US TO THIS POINT AND I CANT WAIT FOR THAT 3 HOUR EPIC. NEXT WEEK WILL BE THE REVIEW FOR THAT SO LOOK FORWARD TO THAT! FOR EVERYONE THAT WATCHES GAME OF THRONES, CAN YOU BELIEVE ITS THE FINAL SEASON? FIRST OF ALL, I WANT MORE. SECONDLY, HOW CAN IT ONLY BE 6 EPISODES... IT MAKES NO SENSE... THE NEXT EPISODE IS THE ONE WE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR. ITS ALSO A COMBINATION AND PRODUCT OF ALMOST 10 YEARS OF WORK. MY BROTHER AND I WERE TALKING ABOUT IT AND GUESSED WHAT WILL HAPPEN... BUT THERES JUST NO WAY TO KNOW RIGHT NOW, WHO KNOWS WHAT WILL HAPPEN, ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN. IVE KEPT AWAY FROM BOTH ENDGAME AND GAME OF THRONES SPOILERS AND ONLINE STUFF. I DONT WANT TO RUIN ANYTHING ABOUT IT AND ITS GOING TO BE HARD SINCE YOU ALL KNOW SPOILERS WILL BE POSTED RIGHT AWAY LOL. THIS WILL BE THE END FOR MANY OF THE ACTORS AND CHARACTERS THAT THEY PORTRAY AS WELL. THATS WHY THERES JUST SO MUCH EXCITEMENT RIGHT NOW AND I CANT WAIT TO WATCH IT ALL LOL.

ANYWAYS THAT WASNT REALLY MUCH OF A POST BUT THIS PART IS. FOR BOTH AVENGERS AND GAME OF THRONES A TON OF BUILDINGS ARE DESTROYED AND EVEN MORE PEOPLE ARE HURT OR KILLED. IN THE SHOW AND MOVIES PEOPLE JUST CARRY ON TO THE NEXT THING AND NO ONE REALLY ACKNOWLEDGES THEYRE GONE.. I SORT OF WROTE ABOUT THIS BEFORE HOW IT DOESNT SHOW THE NEXT DAY AFTER A HERO SAVES THE WORLD OR WHATEVER AND THEYRE JUST BUYING GROCERIES OR GOING TO EAT OR WHATEVER. SOMETIMES THEY ACKNOWLEDGE THE PEOPLE HAVE PASSED BUT ITS LIKE NO ONE  REALLY CARES AND ITS JUST PART OF LIFE FOR THEM. I REWATCHED THE AVENGERS AND INFINITY WAR AND ITS JUST LIKE HOW CAN THEY POSSIBLY FIX ALL THAT AND RECOVER FROM IT LIKE THAT... SPIDERMAN: HOMECOMING AND AGENTS OF SHIELD TOUCHED ON SOME OF THE DISPOSAL AND RECOVERY BUT THERES JUST NOW WAY TO DEAL WITH ALL THAT LIKE THEY SAY AND REBUILD LIKE THEY DO. YES YES YES, I KNOW ITS ALL FAKE AND ALL BUT IF YOU WERE ACTUALLY IN THAT UNIVERSE I WOULD BE LIKE HOW THE HELL IS ALL THIS HAPPENING.. ALSO ANOTHER THING IS IMAGINE YOURE ONE OF THOSE MINOR CHARACTERS, NOT THE MAIN ONES AND NOT EVEN A SUPPORT BUT ONE OF THE SOLDIERS OR BYSTANDERS THAT JUST GETS KILLED FOR NOTHING OR OUT OF NOWHERE. IT WOULD BE HARD TO KEEP TRACK OF WHO DIES AND WHAT HAPPENED. IN THE CASE OF INFINITY WAR THOSE WHO DIED WOULDNT EVEN KNOW WHO ELSE DIED AND MAYBE NO ONE EVEN KNEW THAT THEY DIED OR ISNT DEAD. ITS JUST CONFUSION! HOW WOULD YOU EVEN BEGIN TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT THAT? WELL I GUESS THATS WHAT THIS MOVIE WILL BE ABOUT, BUT THEY GOING TO BE ABOUT THE BIG PICTURE, BUT I WANT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS TO THE GROCERY WORKER OR THE OFFICE WORKER THAT SURVIVED AND HOW THEY DEAL WITH IT. IS IT WEIRD THAT I WANT TO KNOW WHAT EVERYONE ELSE IS DOING? ANYWAYS... SORTA GOING OFF ON A TANGENT LOL. THERES JUST SO MUCH TO THINK ABOUT ON THE OTHER SIDE OF EVERYTHING ELSE THAT IS HAPPENING. IT REALLY MAKES YOU WONDER...

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BACK IN ZEE MOTHERLAND

WELL MANY OF YOU MIGHT HAVE NOTICED THAT THERE WAS NO POST LAST WEEK... OR MAYBE NO ONE EVEN NOTICED AT ALL... EITHER WAY I WAS ON VACA AND TOTALLY BLANKED ON ONE SMALL DETAIL... THE ENTIRE COUNTRY OF CHINA HAS BLOCKED OFF FACEBOOK, INSTAGRAM, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY MY BLOG!!! THEY BLOCKED MY BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!! AND ALSO GOOGLE SO THAT TOO LOL. LAST WEEK IN CHINA AND THIS WEEK IN HONG KONG BEFORE HEADING HOME. ITS BEEN A WHIRLWIND OF A TRIP SO FAR AND ITS NOT GOING TO SLOW DOWN ANY TIME SOON... THE PAST WEEK HAS BEEN WAKING UP AT AROUND 5AM... EATING AT 6:30AM... AND LEAVING THE HOTEL AT LIKE 7:15AM-ISH... THEN BUS TO A STOP, WALK AROUND, TAKE SOME PICTURES, GET BACK ON THE BUS, AND OFF TO THE NEXT STOP... THE MOMENT I GET BACK ON THE BUS IM SLEEPING AGAIN LOL. I LITERALLY EAT, SLEEP, WALKED AROUND, AND REPEATED. THE WEIRD PART IS I ACTUALLY DIDNT GAIN WEIGHT... I THINK I LOST A POUND TOO HAHA. THE FOOD THOUGH WASNT THAT GREAT... CHINESE FOOD EVERY MEAL AND IT WAS ALSO COLD SINCE IT WAS OUT WAITING FOR US, NOT TO MENTION THE FOOD WAS EXTRA OILY AND SPICY LOL. NOW THAT I LEFT THE COMMUNIST HOMELAND AND IM BACK IN CIVILIZATION I HAVE MANY MORE PLEASURES LOL. EVEN WIFI WAS A HIT OR MISS THERE... SOME OF THE HOTELS I STAYED AT HAD NO WIFI... COME ON!!!!!!!! JEZZ!!! ANYWAYS... BEING BACK HERE IN HONG KONG MOST OF MY DAYS ARE ALSO BOOKED UP ALREADY... SEEING FAMILY AND OLD FRIENDS I HAVENT SEEN IN A LONG TIME. VACATIONS REALLY NOT A VACATION... OH AND DONT FORGET THE RUSH FOR WORK BEFORE GOING ON VACA AND THE RUSH OF STUFF TO FOLLOW UP ON AFTER YOU RETURN.

THE VACATION STARTED OFF ON A BAD NOTE CONSIDERING WE HAD TO WAIT 4 FREAKING HOURS AT THE AIRPORT IN SHANGHAI... WE WERE THE 1ST GROUP TO ARRIVE FOR THE TOUR GROUP AND WE HAD TO GO TO THE OTHER TERMINAL TO WAIT FOR THE OTHER GROUPS OF PEOPLE. WE THOUGHT IT WOULD BE A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME... MAN WERE WE WRONG... TURNS OUT THERE WAS A 2ND 3RD AND 4TH FLIGHT AND GROUP OF PEOPLE COMING IN FOR THIS TRIP... IN TOTAL THERE WAS 175-ISH PEOPLE............ BEING THE 1ST TO ARRIVE AT 5PM... I THOUGHT I WOULD BE AT THE HOTEL AROUND 6... NO... LETS JUST SAY I GOT THERE LIKE 10 SOMETHING... I MADE PLANS WITH A FRIEND TO MEET UP AND WELL THEY BASICALLY SCREWED ME OVER... AT ONE POINT I BITCHED OUT THE LADY TOUR PERSON... THEN MY DAD BITCHED THEM OUT AND THEN MY UNCLE AND AUNTIE AND A BUNCH OF OTHER PEOPLE. THEY ROYALLY SCREWED UP!!! THEY SHOULD HAVE TAKEN THE 1ST GROUP TO THE HOTEL AND THEN COME BACK AND GO AGAIN. THEY COULD HAVE DONE THAT WITH 2 BUSES... INSTEAD THEY WAITED TIL EVERYONE WAS THERE AND STILL HAD MULTIPLE BUSES... SO THAT WAS A COMPLETE FAIL... WASTED MY FREAKING TIME!!!! ARGG!!! EVERYONE COMPLAINED ABOUT THAT AT THE END OF THE TRIP IN THE COMMENTS SECTION. IT WAS TOTALLY RIDICULOUS AND UNORGANIZED. TRIP CONSISTED OF VISITING SOME PARKS AND SOME TEMPLES AND SOME MUSEUMS AND STUFF AND ALSO A BUNCH OF PLACES WHERE YOU CAN BUY STUFF... YUP... IT WAS ONE OF THOSE TOURS... I MEAN HOW ELSE COULD WE HAVE GOTTEN SUCH A GOOD DEAL ON THE TOUR AND PLANE TICKET EH HAHA. ANYWAYS IT WAS FINE I SUPPOSE, AND NOW MY REAL VACA BEGINS :)

I CAME TO REALIZATION OF SOME THINGS WHILE TRAVELLING THROUGH THE BOONIES OF CHINA... AND PERHAPS ONE DAY I WILL SHARE WITH EVERYONE HERE BUT FOR NOW IL JUST LEAVE IT BE. ITS REALLY INTERESTING WHAT YOU THINK OR FEEL WHEN YOU GO THROUGH PLACES. YOUR VIEWS AND OPINIONS CHANGE.

I WAS ACTUALLY GOING TO POST SOME PICS BUT IM TOO LAZY... YES THAT IS HONESTLY THE TRUTH... TRUST ME I TOOK PLENTY OF PICTURES HAHA.

SOOO... THIS WAS REALLY THE 1ST WEEK IN THE 4 YEARS THAT I MISSED A POST... BUT LIKE I SAID... WHEN AN ENTIRE COUNTRY BLOCKS YOU OUT... THERE ONLY SO MUCH I CAN DO... WHICH IS ALSO SOMETHING IVE THOUGHT ABOUT... SHOULD I CONTINUE POSTING WEEK TO WEEK... I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW MANY OF YOU ACTUALLY STILL READ THIS... IM THINKING LESS THAN WHAT IM ACTUALLY THINKING... I DUNO... I GUESS IL TAKE THIS WEEK BY WEEK AND SEE HOW I FEEL LOL. THEN AGAIN... I REALLY AM RUNNING OUT OF TOPICS TO WRITE ABOUT... PERHAPS ANOTHER WAY IS TO WRITE THE TOPICS I WANT TO IN WAY MORE DETAIL AND DEPTH LIKE I WANT TO AND IS MEANT TO BE WRITTEN... IF I AM GOING TO DO THAT THEN I WONT BE DOING WEEKLY POSTS... THIS BLOG WILL PROBABLY ONLY BE UPDATED ONCE A MONTH JUST DUE TO THE NATURE OF THE TOPICS AND WHAT I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT IT... ANYWAYS... I GUESS ONLY TIME CAN TELL... WHATEVER WILL BE WILL BE......................

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TOO MANY IDEAS...

WELL HERES A SURPRISE... QUITE IRONIC ACTUALLY... LAST WEEK I WAS OUT OF IDEAS, THIS WEEK I HAVE TOO MANY... NOW I DONT KNOW TO WRITE ABOUT... I GUESS IL JUST WRITE A BIT ABOUT A FEW... SOME TOPICS WILL PROBABLY OVERLAP WITH ALL THE OTHER STUFF THAT I HAVE WRITTEN IN THE PAST BUT MEH... ITS MY BLOG AND IL WRITE ABOUT WHATEVER I FEEL LIKE WRITING ABOUT :)

ASPECTS OF LIFE
FOR ME THIS IS THE WEIRD THING... IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS... ONE ASPECT OF MY LIFE WILL BE GOING WELL AND ANOTHER WILL ALWAYS BE GOING POORLY. THATS JUST THE BALANCE OF LIFE... CANT FORCE AND CANT DO MUCH ABOUT IT. KARMA IS BIG ON THIS. THERE HAS TO BE A BALANCE. THEN WHILE TRYING TO TIP THE BALANCE TO ANOTHER ASPECT OF MY LIFE, A DIFFERENT PART OF LIFE WILL ALWAYS SURELY FALL... ITS JUST THE NATURAL ORDER OF THINGS. YOU CANT HAVE IT GOING WELL IN ALL ASPECTS BUT YOU CAN MOST DEFINITIVELY HAVE ALL ASPECTS GOING BADLY. MURPHYS LAW ALL THE WAY. WHILE SEEKING TO MAKE ONE ASPECT BETTER, YOU LOSE SIGHT OF WHAT WAS REALLY IN FRONT OF YOU, WHAT REALLY MATTERED, AND WHEN YOU REALIZE IT... ITS TOO LATE. THEN WHEN YOU TRY TO GO BACK TO IT... THE DAMAGE IS DONE OR EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED SO MUCH THAT THE ASPECT NO LONGER EXIST. I AM ALWAYS TRYING TO GET TO THAT BETTER SPOT, AND I FINALLY THERE, FINALLY IN A PLACE WHERE ONE ASPECT IS GOING WELL, BUT LOOKING BACK I REALIZE SOMETHING IS DIFFERENT, SOMETHING CHANGED, SOMETHING LOST. AT LEAST NOW KNOWING THAT I CAN TRY TO GET THAT OTHER ASPECT BACK AND BALANCE IT BACK OUT. THIS TIES INTO MY THOUGHTS ON TRADE-OFFS, YOU ALL KNOW HOW I FEEL AND ITS TRUE. EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS A TRADE-OFF, EVERYTHING YOU DO IS A TRADE-OFF. ITS JUST A MATTER OF WHAT YOU ARE TRADING OFF.

REALIST
TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE AS WELL... OR MAYBE NOT BUT WHO KNOWS THESE DAYS... A LOT OF POSTS WILL OVERLAP AND THAT CANT BE HELPED. I USE TO BE A DREAMER, THEN A OPTIMIST, AND NOW A REALIST. I KNOW WHATS POSSIBLE AND WHATS NOT EVEN FEASIBLE. IM NOT JADED... WELL SORTA... BUT IM MORE OF A GUY THAT HAS SEEN ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT IN THE END EVERYONE IS LOOKING OUT FOR #1... YOURSELF. ITS TRUE AND DONT EVEN TRY TO ARGUE WITH ME ON THIS BECAUSE YOU WILL LOSE. IF YOU REALLY WANT TO THEN TALK TO ME ABOUT THIS IN REAL LIFE BECAUSE IT CAN GO ON FOREVER. I DONT SEE A POINT IN CARING ANYMORE... NOT TO SAY THAT I DONT CARE BUT MORE THAT IF IT DOESNT AFFECT ME THEN IT DOESNT REALLY MATTER. THINGS ARE THE WAY THEY ARE. THERES NOTHING MORE TO IT. AFTER THEY ARE DONE, THERES NO POINT IN ANYTHING AFTER IT.

LETTING GO / MOVING ON
EVERYONE AT ONE POINT IN THEIR LIVES HAS COME TO THE CONCLUSION OF HAVING TO LET GO OF SOMETHING OR SOMEONE, TO MOVE ON AND MOVE PAST WHAT HAS HAPPENED. THE QUESTION IS HOW DO YOU... EVERYONE HAS A DIFFERENT WAY OF DOING THAT OR COPING WITH IT. SOME PEOPLE GET DRUNK, SOME PEOPLE EXERCISE, SOME PEOPLE WORK, AND OTHERS JUST DO WHATEVER THEY CAN TO STOP THINKING ABOUT IT OR DWELLING ON IT. THE ONLY CONSTANT THAT DETERMINES HOW LONG IT TAKES IS TIME... TIME DETERMINES EVERYTHING. THERES ALSO STAGES... THAT EVERYONE GOES THROUGH BEFORE BEING ABLE TO LET GO AND MOVE ON. IT JUST HAPPENS OVER TIME... THE PAIN GOES AWAY... THE MEMORIES FADE... THE FEELINGS CHANGE... EVENTUALLY SLOWLY YET SURELY YOU WILL LOOK BACK ONE DAY AND REALIZE THAT YOURE NO LONGER WHERE YOU WERE BEFORE, AND THAT YOURE AT A BETTER PLACE NOW, AND WONDER HOW YOU WERE EVER AT THAT POINT. AS USUAL... EVERYTHING TAKES TIME...

WHY... WHY NOT...
IM ALWAYS ASKED THIS QUESTION... WHY... WHY THIS... WHY THAT... WHY... WHY... WHY AND THE ANSWER IS SIMPLE... WHY NOT. YOU NEVER HAVE TO HAVE REASON TO DO ANYTHING. NO ONE CAN TELL YOU WHAT TO DO. WHO CARES IN THE END ANYWAYS. THE ONLY PERSON THAT WOULD CARE IS YOURSELF. SO DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY AND DONT CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE SAY OR DO. IN THE END ITS YOU LIVING YOUR LIFE AND NOT THEM. 

FOCUS / GOALS
EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE A GOAL OR SOMETHING TO FOCUS ON. A FINISH LINE OF WHERE YOU WANT TO BE OR SOMETHING YOU WANT TO ACCOMPLISH. IT GIVES YOU SOMETHING TO DIRECT YOUR ENERGY INTO. YOU DONT WANT TO JUST STAY STAGNANT... YOU ALWAYS WANT TO STRIVE FOR SOMETHING BETTER, SOMETHING THAT GIVES YOU THAT MEANING YOU ARE SEARCHING FOR. SOMETHING TO SHOW THAT ALL THAT TIME AND ENERGY SPENT WAS NOT WORTH NOTHING AND THAT IT ALL MEANT SOMETHING.


SO THERES A FEW THOUGHTS THATS BEEN ON MY MIND THE PAST WEEK. WORKS BEEN BUSY WITH MEETINGS AND REPORTS AND WHAT NOT. BESIDES THAT WE ALSO MADE A FOOTBALL TEAM :) SO NOW IM GOING TO BE PLAYING AMERICAN FOOTBALL OR AS I LIKE TO CALL IT "HAND EGG" AND EUROPEAN FOOTBALL OR AS MANY PEOPLE CALL IT "SOCCER" LOL. ALWAYS WANTED TO MAKE A FOOTBALL TEAM BUT NEVER FOUND ENOUGH PLAYER OR GIRLS TO PLAY. SO ME AND A FEW COWORKERS JOINED UP A MENS LEAGUE AND AFTER LOOKING AROUND IT TURNS OUT THERES ENOUGH INTEREST IN PLAYING SO WE MADE OUR OWN TEAM :) ITS GOING TO BE GREAT. ITS ALSO GOING TO BE TIRING... PLAYING BOTH FOOTBALLS IN ONE DAY... YAY... BESIDES ALL THAT NOT MUCH ELSE HAS BEEN GOING ON. WELL TIME TO CALL IT A NIGHT. GOT MORE WORK TO DO TOMORROW... SEEMS LIKE THE WORK NEVER ENDS EH... LOL

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THOUGHT OBSESSED THOUGHTS

HONESTLY IF YOU CAN BELIEVE IT OR NOT... TODAY THERE REALLY IS NO POST... I COULDNT COME UP WITH A TOPIC AND THE TOPIC I CAME UP WITH TURNS OUT I WROTE ABOUT IT ALREADY... IVE BEEN QUITE BUSY AT WORK THAT I REALLY HAVENT DONE MUCH BESIDES THAT... BETWEEN WORKING LATE AND THE MEETINGS, I COME HOME AND JUST CHILL OUT... EAT A BIT AND WATCH A BIT OF TV BEFORE PASSING OUT... LOL. LAST WEEK WAS A LONG... LONGGGGGGGG WEEK... AT THE END OF LAST WEEK I WAS JUST SO BEAT THAT I NEED TO JUST PARTY IT ALL OUT HAHA. LAST MINUTE DECISION AND ENDED UP GOING TO MARK SIXMA. HIS STYLES A BIT DIFFERENT THAN EVERYTHING ELSE BUT IT WAS A GOOD PARTY. JUST HUNG OUT WITH THE BOYS AND FOR $25 IT WAS WELL WORTH IT. THE RECOVERY THOUGH... LETS JUST SAY IM NOT AS YOUNG AS I USE TO... RECOVERY TIME IS A BIT SLOW NOW... LOL. WELL COMING UP I DO HAVE 2 PARTIES... GET TOGETHER WITH GARETH EMERY, MS54, AND ILAN BLUESTONE WHO I HAVENT SEEN YET AND ITS GONNA BE A GOOD PARTY :) GOT SOME TIME TO RECOVER SINCE ITS GOING TO BE OVER THE FAMILY WEEKEND AND NEXT WEEK I GOT ORJAN NILSEN ONE OF THE DJS I REALLY LIKE AND I FINALLY GET TO SEE HIM TOO WOOOO AND THATS GOING TO BE ON VALENTINES DAY... LOL THATS QUITE INTERESTING... PARTY ON THAT DAY??? WELL NOT LIKE I HAVE ANYTHING ELSE BETTER TO DO OR HAVE ANYONE TO SPEND IT WITH... HAHA........... WAIT... *CRIES A BIT* LOLOL JKJK ACTUALLY IVE BEEN SO BUSY AND FOCUSED ON WORK THE PAST LITTLE WHILE THAT ITS HASNT REALLY BEEN ON MY MIND... I HAVE TONS TO DO RIGHT NOW AND I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT END OF FEBRUARY WILL BE CRAZY BUSY FOR ME... DONT GET ME WRONG I MEAN I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT BUT ITS DIFFERENT... I DONT REALLY KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT... WELL I DO... SORTA... BUT HEY THATS FOR ME TO KNOW AND YOU TO FIND OUT HAHA.

BESIDES HOW MUCH FUN WORK IS OCCUPYING MY EVERY THOUGHT... THERES ACTUALLY ANOTHER THOUGHT THATS BEEN ON MY MIND NONSTOP... AND THERES NOT MUCH I CAN REALLY DO ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW... HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT SOMETHING SO MUCH THAT IT CONSUMES YOUR ENTIRE DAY??? THE FIRST THOUGHT IN THE MORNING WHEN YOU WAKE UP, AND THE LAST THOUGHT BEFORE YOU FALL  ASLEEP IS OF THAT... THE THOUGHT JUST POPS UP NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO AND THERES NO WAY TO SHAKE IT... THE MORE YOU TRY, THE HARDER YOU THINK ABOUT IT AND THEN BEFORE YOU REALIZED IT YOU ARE OBSESSING OVER IT AND EVERYTHING ABOUT IT... IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT YOU DO... SOMEHOW THAT AMAZING GREAT BRAIN OF YOURS IS ABLE TO LINK WHATEVER YOU DO TO WHAT YOU ARE OBSESSING OVER... DOESNT MATTER IF YOU ARE WALKING OR DRIVING OR EATING OR WATCHING TV OR PLAYING SPORTS OR WATCHING A MOVIE OR ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING... EVEN OBJECTS... EVERYTHING REMINDS YOU... SOMEHOW YOUR MIND JUST WANDERS BACK TO IT AND YOU WONT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT... WRITING ABOUT IT REALLY DOESNT HELP EITHER SINCE NOW IM FOCUSED SOLELY ON IT... AND I PROBABLY WONT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT... GOOD JOB RICKY... SHOULD YOU JUST STOP THINKING ABOUT IT... WELL YOU CANT... EVEN IF NOTHING REMINDS YOU OF IT, FEELINGS OR EMOTIONS AND JUST GENERAL CURIOSITY WILL BRING YOU BACK TO IT... YOU KNOW WHATS FUNNY... SONGS... SONGS ARE THE WORST!!! EVEN WHEN YOU ARE NOT ACTUALLY THINKING ABOUT IT A SONG AND THEIR LYRICS WILL TRIGGER SOMETHING AND WOOOO HERE WE GO AGAIN... WHAT DO YOU DO... WHAT CAN YOU DO... WHAT SHOULD YOU DO... I GUESS THERES NOT MUCH YOU CAN DO... YOU JUST HAVE TO WAIT... WAIT FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN... WAIT FOR IT TO CLEAR UP... OR DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT... BUT CAN YOU??? WHAT IF ITS NOT UP TO YOU... HOW CAN YOU DO SOMETHING THATS OUTSIDE OF YOUR CONTROL... IS TRYING ENOUGH... IS HOPING ENOUGH... IS ANYTHING ENOUGH... THERES A REASON WHY IT IS SO... AND I GUESS ONCE AGAIN... IT COMES BACK TO MY GOOD OLD FRIEND... TIME...... AND EVENTUALLY... IT WILL WORK ITSELF OUT AND YOU WILL SEE WHAT IT IS FOR WHAT IT IS... BUT UNTIL THAT TIME... I GUESS IL JUST SIT HERE AND OBSESS ABOUT IT...

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BE HAPPY

WELL ON A LIGHTER NOTE COMPARED TO LAST WEEKS POST... LETS TALK ABOUT SOMETHING HAPPIER. TWO SIMPLE WORDS THAT ARE ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE TO FOLLOW:

BE HAPPY

WHY IS IT SO HARD? WELL WE ALL KNOW WHY... THERE IS JUST TOO MANY THINGS IN THE WORLD TO PISS US OFF!!! DAM BUG FLYING AROUND YOUR FACE, STUPID DRIVERS ON THE ROAD, YOUR SPORTS TEAM LOSING, CUSTOMERS ARE RUDE TO YOU, SOMETHING DIDNT WORK OUT, WORK RELATED ISSUES, FAMILY, FRIENDS, AND EVEN THE THINGS YOU DO TO YOURSELF. THERE IS JUST TOO MUCH TO BE PISSED ABOUT. SO HOW CANNNN YOU BE HAPPY??? THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS? TAKE A BREATH? I SAY DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO, TO BE HAPPY. DO WHAT YOU NEED TO, TO GET TO WHERE YOU NEED TO GO, OR TO THE RIGHT STATE OF MIND. ITS ALL ABOUT YOUR STATE OF MIND. IF YOU CAN BE HAPPY THROUGH TOUGH TIMES THEN NOTHING CAN PHASE YOU.

IVE ACTUALLY BEEN HAVING A GREAT TIME LATELY. SOMETIMES I JUST WAKE UP AND HAVE A GOOD DAY, FEELING GOOD ABOUT LIFE AND EVERYTHING. THEN... GETS RUINED OR I GET CAUGHT UP WITH EVERYTHING THATS GOING ON... AND THAT JUST RUINS MY MOOD, AND BACK TO SQUARE 1...  THEN AGAIN THERE ARE THOSE MOMENTS THAT I JUST LOOK UP TO THEY SKY AND REALIZE HOW GOOD THINGS ARE RIGHT NOW. WHEN LISTENING TO MUSIC AND KNOWING THAT EVERYTHING WILL WORK OUT OR WORK ITSELF OUT. JUST THOSE SMALL LITTLE MOMENTS WHEN EVERYTHING COMES TOGETHER AND YOU ARE A HAPPY ABOUT EVERYTHING. THATS WHAT WE ARE LOOKING FOR IN LIFE.

AWWW YEAH!!! LOL STARTED TO BEFORE I TOOK A PIC. BEEF SASHIMI!!! SABA, SALMON, MISO AND OTHERS THAT WE JUST DEVOURED

AWESOME LEFTOVERS LOL

WE WIN GOLD... AGAIN... BIG SURPRISE EH? LOL

JUST FOLLOW YOUR NOSE HAHA

HOME COOKED MEAL :) LASAGNA, SCALLOPS, PEAS, ROAST BEEF 

MY PLATE... X2 :) WOOOOOO

SO MUCH FOOD THAT I HAD LEFTOVERS FOR WORK :) AND DIDNT HAVE ENOUGH CHEESE SO PUT SOME CHEESE STRING ON IT HAHA

YES YES YESSSSSSS SNOW!!!!!!!!!!! :)

SO THIS WAS A SHORTER POST... THERES LOTS TO SAY ABOUT IT AND A LOT OF IT HAS ALREADY BEEN SAID BEFORE IN THE PREVIOUS POSTS. ALSO THE FACT THAT IM PASSING OUT TRYING TO POST THIS, SO WE SHALL SEE... PERHAPS IL POST THIS IN THE MORNING AFTER I TAKE A LOOK AT IT AGAIN.

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OH WOW... I ACTUALLY MADE SENSE WRITING THAT... YA... I WAS PASSING OUT AND FOR A WHILE I ACTUALLY FELL ASLEEP WRITING THAT AT 3AM... BRAIN WAS NOT WORKING AFTER WORKING A 12 HOUR SHIFT... BUT ANYWAYS... BACK ON TOPIC. SO WHATS GOING TO MAKE ME HAPPY? HARD TO SAY... CAREER? MONEY? LIFE? TOYS? PEOPLE? UNFORTUNATELY RIGHT NOW MONEY IS A BIG FACTOR... IN ORDER FOR ME TO BE HAPPY I NEED MONEY TO DO THIS, MONEY TO DO THAT, MONEY TO BUY THIS, MONEY TO BUY THAT, MONEY TO GO HERE, MONEY TO GO THERE. IN THE END SOMEHOW IT ALWAYS COMES BACK TO MONEY. PROBLEM IS WITH THIS CAPITALISTIC-MATERIALISTIC SOCIETY IT CANT BE HELPED. WE ARE BOMBARDED WITH IMAGES OF WHAT WE SHOULD HAVE OR BE, THAT IT JUST DESTROYS US TRYING TO GET THERE. YOU ALMOST HAVE TO GIVE UP A PART OF YOURSELF TO GET WHAT YOU WANT. ITS ALWAYS LIKE CHOOSE 2 OUT OF 3 SITUATIONS WHERE THE ONES YOU PICK ARE AWESOME BUT THE 3RD CHOICE IS THE ONE THAT IMPACTS YOU AND IS THE ONE YOU LOSE OUT ON.

HERES THE EASIEST EXAMPLE: PICK 2 OUT OF THE 3

1. SLEEP
2. SOCIAL LIFE
3. SMART (DOING WELL IN SCHOOL)

YES YES I KNOW WHAT MOST OF YOU WILL SAY... THAT ITS NOT THAT HARD TO BALANCE THEM OUT AND THEN BAM!!! THERE YOU GO YOUR SMART WITH A SOCIAL LIFE AND GET ENOUGH SLEEP. JUST FOR ARGUMENTS SAKE YOU CAN ONLY PICK 2... THAT LEAVES YOU WITH EITHER NOT ENOUGH SLEEP, NO SOCIAL LIFE, OR NOT DOING WELL IN SCHOOL. ITS ALWAYS A TRADE-OFF, ALWAYS WILL BE. SO WHAT CAN YOU DO...??? THE ONLY THING YOU CANNNNNN DO... DO WHATS RIGHT FOR YOU IN THAT MOMENT IN TIME TO MAKE YOU HAPPY. EVERYTHING CAN BE CHANGED, JUST A MATTER OF HOW YOU APPROACH IT.

TRUE HAPPINESS IS A HARD THING TO ATTAIN, HELL... EVEN BEING HAPPY IS A HARD THING TO ATTAIN, BUT IN THE END IF YOU ARENT HAPPY FOR YOURSELF WHO WILL??? END OF THE DAY IT STILL COMES BACK DOWN TO YOU AND HOW YOU FEEL. SO BE HAPPY, AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

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WHATS IN A NAME...

SO BACK TO MY REGULAR RANDOM POST ABOUT THE RANDOM THOUGHTS I HAVE. WHATS IN A NAME ANYWAYS? SO WHY DID YOUR FAMILY NAME YOU THE NAME YOU HAVE TODAY? WELL OBVIOUSLY MY NAMES RICKY AND THE STORY IS THAT MY GRANDPA LIKED A SINGER NAMED RICKY NELSON AND BOOM THERE YOU GO... IM NAMED AFTER HIM... BUT AT THE SAME TIME RICKY IS ACTUALLY PRETTY CLOSE TO MY CHINESE NAME SO WHICH ONE ACTUALLY CAME FIRST??? PRETTY SURE IT WAS THE CHINESE NAME AND IT JUST SO HAPPENS IT WORKED OUT LOL. SO LETS SEE WHAT MY NAME MEANS:

RICKY

IN GERMAN MEANS: "HARD RULER" 

IN AMERICAN MEANS: "HARD RULER"

IN NORSE MEANS: "EVER OR ETERNAL RULER" "POWERFUL, STRONG RULER" "GIFTED RULER, PEOPLE RULER"

SOUL NUMBER: 9

PEOPLE WITH THIS NAME HAVE A DEEP INNER DESIRE TO SERVE HUMANITY AND TO GIVE TO OTHERS BY SHARING MONEY, KNOWLEDGE AND EXPERIENCE, OR CREATIVE AND ARTISTIC ABILITY

EXPRESSION NUMBER: 3

PEOPLE WITH THIS NAME TEND TO BE CREATIVE AND EXCELLENT AT EXPRESSING THEMSELVES. THEY ARE DRAWN TO THE ARTS, AND OFTEN ENJOY LIFE IMMENSELY. THEY ARE OFTEN THE CENTER OF ATTENTION, AND ENJOY CAREERS THAT PUT THEM IN THE LIMELIGHT. THEY TEND TO BECOME INVOLVED IN MANY DIFFERENT ACTIVITIES, AND ARE SOMETIMES RECKLESS WITH BOTH THEIR ENERGIES AND WITH MONEY.

WHICH IS AWESOME CAUSE IM A RULER LOL. ALSO APPARENTLY ITS SHORT FOR RICHARD...WHICH I NEVER UNDERSTOOD. SAME WITH DICK OR BOB OR ROB OR JIM OR ALL THOSE THAT HAVE A SHORT FORM THAT MAKES NO SENSE... ANYWAYS... SOOOO NOT BAD... I DO EXPRESS MYSELF AND YES IM THE CENTER OF ATTENTION. I DO ENJOY MANY DIFFERENT ACTIVITIES AND I AM SOMETIMES RECKLESS WITH MY ENERGY AND MONEY. IM NOT REALLY SURE IF I SERVE HUMANITY OR LIKE TO SHARE BUT IT CANT ALWAYS BE 100% RIGHT EH.

SO HERE COMES TO THE POINT OF WHERE THIS ALL CAME UP... I JUST STARTED THINKING HOW DID PEOPLE COME UP WITH THEIR NAMES. I MEAN THE VERY FIRST PERSON TO BE LIKE OH IM GOING TO BE CALLED "NAME" LIKE HOW DID THE PERSON PICK IT? HOW DID THEY KNOW THAT, THAT WOULD BE THEIR NAME? HOW DID THEY KNOW THE NAME IS A NAME? OR GO EVEN FURTHER BACK, HOW DID THE HOMO SAPIENS KNOW THAT A CERTAIN SOUND IS THAT PERSON? A GRUNT? A COUGH? A SCREAM? HOW DID THEY CREATE A NAME? WHAT IS THE OLDEST RECORDED NAME IN HISTORY??? LIKE THE FIRST NAME TO EVER APPEAR. SO I DID A LITTLE BIT OF RESEARCH AND ITS NOT CLEAR... SOME PEOPLE SAY EGYPTIAN PHARAOHS NAME SOME SAY BEFORE THAT, SOME SAY SOME GODDESS'S NAME. WHO REALLY KNOWS? AND IF SO ITS ONLY IN THE PAST FEW DECADES OF GENERATIONS THAT ALL THE WORDS HAVE BEEN CREATED TO ACTUALLY KNOW WHATS WHAT AND WHATS CALLED WHAT. SO TECHNICALLY BEFORE EVEN NAMING SOMETHING THAT COULD HAVE BEEN A NAME FOR A PERSON. LIKE 1000 YEARS AGO THE WORD LIGHT BULB WASNT INVENTED SO TECHNICALLY I COULD HAVE BEEN NAMED LIGHT BULB OR BEEN CALLED SATELLITE. HOW ARE NAMES EVEN CREATED...??? I MEAN NOW ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO JUST COME UP WITH AN ORIGINAL NAME THAT HAS NEVER BEEN HEARD OF BUT HOW DID THEY COME UP WITH THEM THOUSANDS OF YEARS AGO? THIS JUST BOGGLES THE MIND... WHICH ALSO GOES INTO HOW ARE THINGS NAME FOR WHAT THEY ARE NAMED... I MEAN AN ORANGE ISNT AN ORANGE... ITS ONLY AN ORANGE BECAUSE WE CALL IT AN ORANGE... IT COULD ACTUALLY BE AN APPLE, OR SOMETHING THAT DOESNT EVEN HAVE A NAME. ITS FASCINATING TO THINK ABOUT HOW NAMES COME TO AND ITS JUST A LABEL THAT WE HAVE COME UP WITH, BUT I REALLY WANT TO KNOW HOW NAMES CAME TO...

SO THERE YOU ALL GO AGAIN, ANOTHER RANDOM INSIGHT INTO THE MIND THAT IS MINE AND THE THINGS THAT GOES ON INSIDE IT... LOL :)

AWWW YEAH!!! I WIN!!! WOOO FREE POUTINE :)

I THINK THE DRESS IS A LITTLE LOW... UNLESS ITS A NEW FAD GOING AROUND... I WOULDNT COMPLAIN LOL

MMMMM KOREAN FOOD :)

SO I WAS 2 STALLS OVER TO THE RIGHT... I WAS ABOUT TO LEAVE AND HEAR A HONKKKKKKKK THEN SCREECH AND SMASH. LOOK OVER AND SEE THIS AND THERE WAS A GUY SCREAMING. SO I GOT OUT AND CHECK AND THE GUY WAS PINNED AGAINST THE PUMP BUT GOT OUT OK. APPARENTLY THE CAR THATS NOT IN THE PICTURE CUT THE BENZ OFF AND HIT IT AND THEN PULLED TO THE RIGHT AND CRASHED INTO THAT CAR. YEAH... AND THE GUY OF THE GMC SAID THAT HE WAS LATE FOR HIS HOCKEY GAME LOL NOW YOU GONNA BE EVEN MORE LATE... IF YOUR CAR CAN STILL DRIVE... SINCE IT MAY HAVE DAMAGED THE REAR TIRE... BUT I LEFT BEFORE THEY SOLVED IT SINCE I DIDNT SEE ANYTHING. 

RANDOM SNACKS LATE AT NIGHT EQUAL EGG TARTS, DORITOS, AND MOZZA CHEESE HEHE

FOUND OUT MY COWORKERS ARE SCARED OF SPIDERS WHEN THIS GUY WAS JUST HANGING NEAR OUR HEADS FROM THE CEILING THE OTHER DAY LOL. SO I PUT IT IN A BOX AND TOOK IT OUTSIDE AND LET IT GO FREE :) BUT YA WHEN IT SPREAD OPEN IT WAS HUGE!!! PICTURE DOESNT REALLY DO IT JUSTICE...

FAMILY DIM SUM :) WOOOOOO

AWWW YEAH SOUP DUMPLING :)

SO ANOTHER THING IS HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE :) YUPS IT WAS JUST A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO LAST FRIDAY. THATS THE GOOD THING ABOUT BEING CHINESE, I GET 2 NEW YEARS :) THE 1ST NEW YEAR I HAD WASNT THAT GREAT... FINALLY JANUARY IS OVER AND NOW ONTO A NEW NEW YEAR IN FEBRUARY. I ACTUALLY WENT TO TEMPLE LAST MONTH AND ITS SUPPOSE TO BE A GOOD YEAR FOR ME, NOT TO MENTION ITS THE YEAR OF THE HORSE WHICH IS ALSO SUPPOSE TO BE GOOD FOR ME. SOOOO DOUBLE AS GOOD... I HOPE :) BUT I MEAN I ALREADY HAVE A FEELING THAT ITS GOING TO BE A GOOD YEAR. SO BRING IT ON :) I CANT WAIT FOR THIS YEAR TO GET STARTED... AGAIN... LOL

SO HOWS EVERYTHING ELSE IN MY LIFE? WELL... WORK IS WORK, SCHOOL IS SCHOOL, AND I REALLY HAVE NO DAY OFF SINCE 1 OF THEM IM AT SCHOOL AND THE OTHER IM STUDYING FOR SCHOOL... SO TECHNICALLY IM WORKING EVERYDAY... YAY... HAHA. BESIDES THAT? HMM JUST GRINDING LIKE ALWAYS.

ALSO IF YOU GUYS EVER WANT TO SEE ME WRITE ABOUT SOMETHING OR ANYTHING JUST MSG ME :) EITHER JUST TO SEE WHAT MY THOUGHTS ARE, OR WANTING TO SEE WHERE MY RANDOMNESS MAY LEAD. I MEAN... IM PRETTY RANDOM ALREADY... YOU COULD PROBABLY TELL BY ALL THE RANDOM STUFF I HAVE WRITTEN ABOUT. A LOT OF THEM HAVE MEANING, A LOT OF THEM ARE RANDOM, AND A LOT OF THEM ARE JUST THERE... LOL. SO DONT BE A STRANGER :)

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WHAT CODE DO YOU LIVE BY???

SO NO... THIS IS NOT ABOUT WHAT AREA CODE YOU LIVE NEAR OR ANYTHING OF THAT SORT... ITS ABOUT WHAT MORAL OR LIFE CODE YOU LIVE BY. FOR ME ITS EASY, IVE ALWAYS HAD 3 SIMPLE MOTTOS THAT I LIVE BY AND THEY HAVE TREATED ME WELL IN THE MANY YEARS I HAVE BEEN ON THIS FAIR EARTH LOL. SO HERES ANOTHER POST THAT DELVES INSIDE THE PSYCHE THAT WHICH IS ME :)

MY 3 MOTTOS IN LIFE ARE:

1. NO PAIN, NO GAIN

SIMPLE AND TRUE!!! NOTHING EVER COMES EASY, NOT BEING GOOD AT SOMETHING OR ATTAINING SOMETHING. TAKE SCHOOL AS AN EASY EXAMPLE, YOU WANT TO GRADUATE, WELL THE PAIN IS ALL THE READING AND EXAMS AND PROJECTS YOU GO THROUGH TO GET YOURSELF TO THE FINISH LINE AND GRADUATING. PLAYING SPORTS, NO ONE IS GOOD AT IT RIGHT AWAY. YOU CAN BE DECENT OR PRETTY GOOD IN IT BUT YOU HAVE TO PUT TIME AND EFFORT INTO PRACTICING TO GET YOURSELF TO THE POINT OF BEING A PROFESSIONAL. SOME READERS MIGHT KNOW THAT I HAVE MENTIONED THAT IM A SWIMMER. I WAS ACTUALLY THE FASTEST SWIMMING IN THE LOWER MAINLAND AND ACTUALLY RANKED 10TH IN THE PROVINCE. YES, I WAS PROVINCIALLY RANKED BACK IN MY HEY DAYS LOL. I DIDNT GET THERE BY JUST JUMPING IN A POOL AND BAM THERE YOU GO. I STARTED SWIMMING WHEN I WAS 5 AND PRACTICED HOURS AND HOURS AND TRAINED MULTIPLE DAYS A WEEK. IT WAS SOMETHING I WANTED TO DO AND I LIKE SO I PUT A LOT OF ENERGY INTO IT. SAME GOES WITH EVERYTHING IN LIFE. IF YOU JUST GET SOMETHING WITHOUT PUTTING YOUR EVERYTHING INTO IT THEN YOU JUST WONT APPRECIATE IT AS MUCH AS YOU WOULD OR SHOULD. YES YES THERE ARE THOSE THAT JUST GET EVERYTHING OFF THE BAT AND THEY MIGHT ENJOY IT, BUT ITS ALWAYS MORE SATISFYING WHEN ACCOMPLISHING SOMETHING ON YOUR OWN, IT JUST IS.

2. LIVE WITH NO REGRETS

LIFES TOO SHORT FOR REGRETS. IM PLANNING ON LIVING FOREVER, NOT SURE ABOUT THE REST OF YOU BUT IL JUST SAY MOST PEOPLE LIVE FOR AN DEFINITE AMOUNT OF TIME. AT THE END OF YOUR LIFE DO YOU REALLY WANT TO LOOK BACK AND THINK OF ALL THE WHAT IFS??? ALL THE WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN, SHOULD HAVE BEEN, OR WOULD HAVE BEEN? I SAY JUST DO IT AND DONT CARE ABOUT IT. IF YOU REALLY WANT TO DO IT THEN DO IT. THERES NOTHING STOPPING YOU BUT YOURSELF. THATS WHY ALL MY FRIENDS KNOW THAT IF I WANT TO DO SOMETHING I WOULD DO IT NOT CARING IF ITS STUPID OR CRAZY. THATS JUST ME, WHATS THE POINT OF WANTING TO DO SOMETHING BUT YOURE TOO AFRAID OF THE CONSEQUENCES? WHO CARES!?!?!?! OF COURSE IM NOT CONDONING VIOLENCE AND ROBBING A BANK OR KILLING ANYONE BUT THE MINOR THINGS IN LIFE. LIKE I SEE EVERYONE WORRYING ABOUT WHAT THEY EAT AND WHAT THEY DO ABOUT THEIR BODIES WHETHER TATTOOS OR PIERCINGS... IF YOU WANT THEM, THEN DO IT. ITS YOUR OWN BODY WHO CARES. I GUESS ITS A LITTLE EASIER SAID FOR ME SINCE I CAN EAT WHATEVER THE HELL I WANT AND STILL LOSE WEIGHT... LOL. YA... MY COWORKERS DONT LIKE ME IN THAT DEPARTMENT HAHA WOOOOOO GO CRAZY METABOLISM :) BUT SERIOUSLY THIS GOES WITH TAKING CHANCES AND TRYING SOMETHING NEW. WHICH IS WHY IM ALWAYS DOWN FOR NEW FOODS CAUSE ITS AN EXPERIENCE, PLUS I LOVE FOOD HEHE. TAKE SKYDIVING, I DID IT CAUSE I WANTED TO JUMP OUT OF A PLANE. IT WAS AWESOME AND I WOULD LOVE TO DO IT AGAIN (PROBABLY CAUSE IM AN ADRENALINE JUNKIE TOO). IF YOU THOUGHT ABOUT DOING BUT NEVER DID THEN WHATS STOPPING YOU? AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? ITS DANGEROUS? WELL THATS PART OF THE FUN. STOP MAKING EXCUSES FOR YOURSELF AND JUST DO IT. HALF THE FUN IS NOT KNOWING THE RESULT, AND THATS WHAT INTRIGUES ME INTO FINDING OUT.

3. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

I BELIEVE THIS WHOLEHEARTEDLY, IM BUDDHIST AND I BELIEVE IN KARMA TOO. LIFE IS NOT JUST A RANDOM MASH UP OF EVENTS THAT HAPPEN RANDOMLY. IM NOT SAYING THERES NO FREE WILL BUT IF FATE WANTED SOMETHING TO HAPPEN, THEN IT WILL EVENTUALLY AND INEVITABILITY HAPPEN. EVERYONE MAKES THEIR OWN DECISIONS BUT DO YOU REALLY THINK THAT SOMEONE SOMEWHERE CAME TO THE EXACT SAME CONCLUSION AND EXACT SAME LOCATION AS YOU RANDOMLY? SOMETHING HAD TO HAVE MADE THE OTHER PERSON ARRIVE AT THE SAME SPOT IN TIME AND SPACE. TAKE THE PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW IN THIS INSTANT. HOW DO YOU THINK YOU ALL ARRIVED AT THE SAME SPOT? WHY ARE THEY THERE? WAS IT BY ACCIDENT OR DID SOMEHOW FATE PUT YOU AT THAT EXACT MOMENT TO MEET THAT EXACT PERSON? SAY WHAT IF YOU MISSED YOUR BUS THAT DAY AND YOU ENDED UP WAITING WITH SOMEONE WHO EVENTUALLY BECOMES YOUR FRIEND. LIFE IS FULL OF MYSTERIES LIKE THAT. NOW TAKE THE PEOPLE THAT COME AND GO IN YOUR LIFE, THE ACQUAINTANCES, WE ALL HAVE THOSE PEOPLE IN OUR LIVES. PEOPLE WHO YOU MEET AND ARE THERE BUT NEVER REALLY THERE OR IS THERE AND EVENTUALLY LEAVE. WHY IS THAT? PROBABLY BECAUSE THEIR TIME AND THEIR REASON OF BEING THERE HAS COME TO AN IMPASSE. AT THAT POINT IN TIME YOU JUST HAVE TO SAY THANKS FOR EVERYTHING AND MOVE ON. SOME PEOPLE MAY CALL IT LUCK, WHETHER GOOD OR BAD, THERE WAS A REASON FOR IT. IN THE END YOU JUST HAVE TO TAKE IT FOR WHAT IT WAS OR IS AND HOPEFULLY THROUGH EVERYTHING YOU LEARNED SOMETHING OUT OF IT, THATS THE BEST ANYONE COULD EVER HOPE FOR.

IN A WAY ALL 3 OF THEM TIE INTO EACH OTHER AND I GUESS THATS WHY I AM THE WAY I AM AND THINK AND DO THE THINGS I DO. DO I GO THROUGH PAIN TO GET TO THE GAIN? OF COURSE I DO. DO I REGRET THINGS IN LIFE? TRY NOT TO BUT THERE ARE LESS THAN A HANDFUL OF SITUATIONS AND THEY CAN ALL BE CHANGED STILL. DO I LEARN FROM EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS? YES, CAUSE HOW ELSE ARE YOU SUPPOSE TO GROW AS A PERSON? 

I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW MANY OF YOU READERS OUT THERE ACTUALLY READ ALL THAT I RANT AND RAVE ABOUT BUT I WOULD HOPE THAT THOSE THAT DO TAKE AWAY SOMETHING HERE OR THERE, IF ITS ABOUT SOME RANDOM THING YOU NEVER KNEW OR JUST NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT. IVE ASKED MYSELF WHY I KEEP WRITING? I WAS NEVER ANY GOOD AT WRITING, AND IF YOU READ MY POSTS YOU PROBABLY CAN TELL TOO CAUSE OF EVERYTHING THAT WOULD DRIVE A GRAMMER NAZI MAD LOL. I DO IT FOR THE HELL OF DOING IT AND CAUSE I WANT TO. CALL THIS AN OUTLET IF YOU WILL OR JUST THE RANDOM RANDOMNESS OF A CRAZY 27 YEAR OLD WHOS TRYING TO FIGURE THIS CRAP OUT. 

GOOD JOB KOREA :) LOL HMMM WAIT... 4 HOURS TO GET TO THE SUN??? SOUNDS FISHY HERE HAHA

BUAHAHAHA HOW LUCKY MY DAD WAS TO GET A SURPRISE... ON HIS LEG BY A NICE BIRD LOL

DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO EAT THEN THE LADY GAVE US A COUPON TO EAT AND HEY WHAT A DEAL LOL

ONCE SEEN... IT CANNOT BE UNSEEN LOL. YOU WILL GET IT IF YOU FOLLOW STUFF ONLINE LOL OR USE YOUR IMAGINATION HAHA

LOOK HOW FANCY I AM AT WORK. I HAVE SALMON SUSHI, CRAB CLAWS AND AN ICE TEA LOL

WORK IS WORK. SCHOOL IS BACK IN SESSION. WHICH I REALLY SHOULD START READING... ANOTHER $177 FOR A TEXTBOOK... YAY... THANKS... LOL. EVERYTHING ELSE IN LIFE? WELL... AS ALWAYS IT CAN BE BETTER BUT AT LEAST ITS NOT WORSE.

ACTUALLY... I THINK I WROTE ABOUT THIS TOPIC BEFORE... AND LIKE 10 MINS LATER I FOUND IT LOL. I FOUND WHERE I MENTIONED IT CAUSE I REMEMBER I WROTE IT SOMEWHERE BUT I NEVER ACTUALLY POSTED A POST ABOUT IT. SO HERE YOU ALL GO. HAPPY READINGS :) 

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SOME RANDOM THOUGHTS

OK... SO I WROTE SOMETHING ABOUT HOW WAITING FOR ANSWERS SUCK BUT I DELETED IT CAUSE I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I WAS WRITING AND WANTED TO WRITE ABOUT... ITS 2:30AM RIGHT NOW AND I HAVE WORK AT 3PM SO HERE I AM... IM CURRENTLY WAITING ON 2 REPLIES FROM GOVERNMENT JOBS AND I JUST HATE HOW THEY WONT JUST TELL YOU ALREADY... THEY JUST STRING YOU ALONG... GET OVER WITH IT ALREADY SO WE CAN MOVE ON IF WE DONT GET IT JEZZ. YOU WAIT A MONTH FOR THE DEADLINE TO EXPIRE, THEN WAIT A MONTH FOR A REPLY OF YES OR NOT TO THE NEXT STAGE, AND THEN WAIT WHO KNOWS HOW LONG BEFORE YOU GET YOUR INTERVIEW OR EVEN A SHOW OF INTEREST OR NOT... BLA AND IN THE MEANTIME IM JUST WORKING AND WAITING. I GUESS LIFES ALSO LIKE THAT EH. FIND MYSELF WAITING FOR THE NEXT THING TO COME UP, WAITING FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN. YOU CANT ALWAYS WAIT FOR THINGS TO HAPPEN AND HELL IM NOT ONE OF THOSE GUYS WHO WAITS ANYWAYS. I HATE WAITING... IM A DO-ER BUT SOMETIMES YOU JUST CANT DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO... EVEN IF YOU REALLY WANT TO DO IT LOL.

WELL ONCE AGAIN I SEEM TO BE STUCK IN THAT WEIRD SPOT AGAIN. DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT BUT LETS JUST SAY THINGS CAN ONLY LOOK UP FROM HERE ON OUT LOL. REFERRING TO LAST WEEKS POST ABOUT THE BIT WHERE INSTAGRAM AND FB HAVING PICS OF THAT SAYING HOW TODAY IS PAGE 1 OF A NEW 365 PAGE BOOK AND HOW WRITE SOMETHING AMAZING... LETS JUST SAY IVE HAD ONE HELL OF A START TO THE NEW YEAR... AND NOT THE GOOD KIND OF START... ITS ALWAYS LIKE THAT EH... IVE SAID IT MANY TIMES IN THE PAST BEFORE BUT MURPHYS LAW IS A BITCH!!! HAHA. WITH THIS KIND OF A START I CAN REALLY TAKE ON WHATEVER THIS YEAR HAS TO THROW AT ME... SOOOO BRING IT 2014!!!

WAS TALKING TO A FRIEND THE OTHER DAY ABOUT EVERYTHING AND THINKING BACK LIFE WAS SO MUCH SIMPLER, NOT A CARE IN THE WORLD JUST DOING WHAT WE WANTED TO DO JUST CAUSE WE WANTED TO DO... BUT NOW PRIORITIES CHANGE AND WE HAVE TO GROW UP. JUST TALKING ABOUT THE GOOD OLD TIMES AND HOW DID WE END UP WHERE WE ARE NOW... HOW THINGS COULD HAVE BEEN OR SHOULD HAVE BEEN OR WOULD HAVE BEEN IF THINGS WERE JUST A BIT DIFFERENT. DECISIONS THAT WE HAVE MADE IN LIFE, WHETHER FOR THE BETTER OR FOR THE WORSE. THEN AGAIN YOU CANT REALLY SAY THAT SINCE IT IS BECAUSE OF YOUR EXPERIENCE YOU ARE THE PERSON YOU ARE TODAY. LIVE LIFE WITH NO REGRETS, IVE ALWAYS SAID THAT AND THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. TRUE, THAT THE REASON MIGHT NOT SHOW UP AT FIRST BUT EVENTUALLY YOU WILL FIND OUT WHY IT WAS MEANT TO BE.

JUST THE VIEW WHILE WAITING FOR THE BUS

OUR EPIC JENGA OF DEATH LOL

THANKS FOR THE CABBAGE AND TOFU... WHERES THE PORK!!! :(

THE LAPTOP HAS RETURNED :) NOW THE FUN PART OF UPDATING... AND REINSTALLING EVERYTHING AND REDOWNLOADING EVERYTHING ELSE TOO... OH JOY...

NEW WALLPAPER FOR THE NEW YEAR :) AWWW YEAHHH RX-93 NU GUNDAM :)

THERE WAS GOING TO BE A FEW MORE TOPICS I WANTED TO WRITE AND RANT AND TALK ABOUT BUT I JUST DONT FEEL LIKE IT... LOL YA... ME NOT FEELING LIKE TALKING HAHA. WHAT A JOKE RIGHT? WELL IF YOU KNOW ME IM A LOUD, OUTSPOKEN, AND TALKATIVE GUY AND THAT IS TRUE, BUT I DO ENJOY MY PEACE AND QUIETNESS TOO, HARD TO BELIEVE EH? ONCE AGAIN I WAS WRITING SOMETHING AND I JUST STOPPED... WELL... SCREW IT LOL

ON A SIDENOTE... CHRISTMAS BREAK IS OVER SO NEW EPISODES OF ALL MY FAVE TV SHOWS ARE BACK WOOT WOOT :)

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