CANT THINK OF A TITLE...

OK... SO... APPARENTLY I THOUGHT I WAS WRITING HERE AND IT TURNS OUT I WAS PASSED OUT AND DREAMING ABOUT WRITING HERE... THAT IS BOTH PRETTY COOL AND AWESOME AND SAD AT THE SAME TIME LOL. NOT MUCH TO SAY SINCE NOT MUCH HAPPENED THE PAST WEEK. JUST BEEN BUSY, AND ITS GOING TO BE LIKE THAT FOR A BIT LONGER. I WAS GOING TO WRITE SOMETHING THAT WAS GOING TO BE GOOD BUT I FORGOT NOW... IT WAS ABOUT A THING BUT IT WAS TWO THINGS... SOOO I GUESS IT WILL BE FOR ANOTHER DAY IF I EVER REMEMBER... SIGH...

REWATCHED INTERSTELLAR THE OTHER DAY BECAUSE I WANTED TO AND BECAUSE ITS A GREAT MOVIE LOL.

WAS AT MY BROTHERS PLACE EARLIER EATING AND HANGING OUT WITH THE BABY AND WE WERE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT A "COUSIN ONCE OR TWICE REMOVED" MEANS. THIS HAS ALWAYS BOTHERED ME AND TURNS OUT ITS THE SAME FOR HIM TOO LOL. IT JUST DOESNT MAKE SENSE. IN CHINESE CULTURE EVERYONE IS RELATED... EVERYONE IN A COUSIN... AND THEN THERES A REAL BREAKDOWN DEPENDING ON WHETHER IT IS ON YOUR MOTHERS SIDE OR YOUR FATHERS SIDE. IN WESTERN CULTURE ONLY THE REMOVED PART DOESNT MAKE SENSE, SO WE SPENT A WHILE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHO WOULD BE IN OUR FAMILY. AFTER SOME DISCUSSION, WE CAME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT IT IS STUPID AND WE DONT CARE ANYMORE HAHA. IM STILL GOING TO FIND OUT CAUSE ITS BOTHERING ME LOL.

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WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

OKAY... SO I HAD LIKE 3 IDEAS FOR TOPIC THIS WEEK BUT THEN I SORTA FORGOT ABOUT THEM AND I DONT REALLY FEEL LIKE WRITING ABOUT WHAT I HAVE ON MY MIND SO THATS SAVED FOR ANOTHER DAY... UNTIL I FORGET ABOUT IT AGAIN HAHA. ANYWAYS... THIS HAS BEEN TOUCHED UPON IN THE PAST BUT LATELY ITS BEEN COMING BACK INTO MY HEAD AND IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT QUITE A BIT. SO WHAT DO YOU WANT? I MEAN WHAT DO I WANT? THATS THE HARDEST QUESTION TO ANSWER. IVE HAD AN IDEA OF WHAT I WANT FOR THE LONGEST TIME BUT THINGS KEEP HAPPENING AND CHANGING THAT WHAT I WANT KEEPS CHANGING ALONG WITH IT. RIGHT NOW, WHAT IS IT THAT I REALLY WANT? I DONT THINK THERES REALLY ANYTHING I REALLY WANT EXCEPT WHERE I REALLY WANT TO GET TO. EVERYTHING I WANT IS MORE OF THE MATERIALISTIC THING BUT DONT EVERYONE WANT MATERIALISTIC THINGS? THATS REALLY WANT WE WANT, BUT WHAT DO WE REALLY NEED? SOME PEOPLE WANT NICE CARS AND A BIG HOUSE BUT DO WE REALLY NEED IT? WHAT I REALLY WANT IS TO BE IN THE POSITION I WANT, DOING WHAT I WANT, AND NOT ANSWERING TO ANYONE. IM WORKING ON THAT BUT LATELY IT JUST SEEMS LIKE ITS BEEN GETTING PUSHED FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY. THE MOTIVATION AND DETERMINATION IS STILL THERE, JUST THAT THE TIME AND ENERGY IS NOT. BETWEEN WORK, LIFE, FAMILY, AND ALL THE RANDOM STUFF I DO IN BETWEEN, I DONT HAVE TIME TO PUT MYSELF IN THE PLACE WHERE I CAN MOVE FORWARD. I KNOW THAT SOUNDS LIKE AN EXCUSE AND IF I REALLY WANTED IT, I WOULD MAKE TIME FOR IT. I REALLY NEED TO GET BACK INTO THAT HEADSPACE TO GO AND GET WHAT I WANT. SOME OF YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT I GAVE MYSELF 1 YEAR FROM MY BIRTHDAY LAST YEAR TO GET TO WHERE I WANT TO BE, BUT THAT IS LOOKING FARTHER AWAY AND LESS LIKELY I WILL BE THERE BY MY BIRTHDAY. EVERYONE HAS DREAMS OF SOMETHING. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN DREAMING AND MAKING IT A REALITY, IS ACTION. RIGHT NOW THERE IS A LACK OF ACTION...I REALLY JUST NEED TO GET BACK TO IT. ANOTHER THING IS WHAT YOU WANT CHANGES WITH TIME, WHAT I WANTED BEFORE IS NOT WHAT I WANT NOW AND SOMETIMES ONCE ITS PAST THAT TIME, WHAT I WANT I CANT HAVE... YA YA I KNOW THIS POST IS ALL OVER THE PLACE BUT IM REALLY JUST DUMPING EVERYTHING ON TO THIS RIGHT NOW. WHEN DO WE STOP WANTING WHAT WE WANT??? WHEN WE CANT HAVE IT? WHEN ITS GONE? WHEN YOU KNOW IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE? SOMETIMES THAT MAKES YOU JUST WANT IT MORE AND SOMETIMES IT JUST MAKES YOU REALIZE YOU JUST HAVE TO MOVE ON. I THINK THOSE WHO LET GO OF WHAT THEY WANT ARE ALL THOSE WHO GET STUCK IN WHERE THEY ARE. YOU CANT LET GO OF WHAT YOU WANT. I DONT KNOW... I JUST REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT ANYMORE. LIFE IS ALREADY CONFUSING ENOUGH, THEN THROW IN EVERYTHING THAT YOU WANT JUST MAKES IT EVEN WORSE. I REALLY JUST WANT TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND REALLY THINK ABOUT WHAT I WANT AND WHERE I WANT TO BE. NO ONE CAN TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT, NO ONE CAN DECIDE ANYTHING FOR YOU. I JUST NEED TO KNOW WHAT I WANT. WELL... I WISH YOU ALL FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU WANT, WHAT YOU REALLY WANT. SO, WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

REST OF LIFE IS WHAT YOU EXPECT. NOTHING REALLY NEW, KEEPING BUSY, KEEPING DISTRACTED. OH I WENT TO NIGHT MARKET :) THAT WAS NICE. BIG LINE UP TO GET IN AND THEY RAISED THE PRICE OF ENTRY AGAIN... IT WAS $3.25... THEN BOUGHT A BUNCH OF FOOD AND PLAYED THOSE CARNEY GAMES LOL. THAT QUARTER TOSSING ONTO A PLATE AND MAKE IT STAY IS THE EASIEST GAME EVER HAHA. WELL... AS LONG AS YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING HAHA. 1 ON PLATE WINS SMALL AND 4 WINS A LARGE. WELL I GOT 6 IN ABOUT 40 TRIES SOOOOO WINNER!!! ANYWAYS NOW IM OUT OF HERE. GOT PLACES TO GO, PEOPLE TO SEE, STUFF TO DO. THIS IS ALSO WHY THIS WEEKS POST IS SO EARLY. PEACE.

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THAT HEADSPACE...

ONCE AGAIN INEVITABLY YOU WILL REACH THAT HEADSPACE WHERE YOU WONDER... WONDER ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE DOING... WONDER WHERE YOU ARE GOING... WONDER WHAT IT ALL MEANS... ITS A NATURAL PART OF LIFE, AND IN EACH OF YOUR MINDS A STORM IS BREWING AND A BATTLE IS WAGED. HOW DO YOU LOOK FOR ANSWERS AND WHERE DO YOU DO THAT... ANSWERS THAT CANT BE ANSWERED BY ANYONE BUT YOURSELF. IVE WROTE ABOUT THIS BEFORE BUT LIKE CLOCKWORK THESE QUESTIONS WILL CREEP BACK INSIDE YOUR HEAD AND MAKE YOU WONDER... MAKE YOU QUESTION IT ALL... QUESTION EVERYTHING YOU KNOW AND EVERYTHING YOU ARE. NO ONE CAN ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS AND THATS WHATS FRUSTRATING... EVERYONE IS ON THEIR OWN PATH... THEIR OWN JOURNEY... AND NO ONE KNOWS WHERE IT BEGINS OR ENDS. SOME PEOPLE FIGURE IT ALL OUT QUICKLY AND OTHERS TAKE A LIFETIME TO KNOW, AND SOME WILL NEVER FIND OUT THE ANSWER. PEOPLE TAKE TIME OFF TO FIND THEMSELVES AND SOME ARE LUCKY ENOUGH TO FIND THE ANSWERS THEY ARE LOOKING FOR. ANSWERS CAN COME FROM ANYWHERE, IT MIGHT BE SOMETHING YOU READ OR SEE OR HEAR, IT COULD BE A MEMORY, OR IT COULD COME TO YOU IN A DREAM AND WHEN YOU WAKE UP, ALL IS CLEAR. ANSWERS COULD COME FROM INSPIRATION, PASSION, LOVE, HATE, HAPPINESS, SADNESS, AND A MILLION DIFFERENT FEELINGS AND PLACES. POETS AND PHILOSOPHERS HAVE ALL TRIED TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS AND EVEN TO THEM THE ANSWERS ARE NOT CLEAR. TOO MANY QUESTIONS IN LIFE AND TOO LITTLE TIME TO FIGURE IT ALL OUT AND WHAT IT ALL MEANS. I GUESS IL LOOK WITHIN AND SEE IF IT COMES TO ME IN MY DREAM TONIGHT. I JUST NEED TO GET LOST TO FIND MYSELF. IN THE END, DONT WE ALL JUST WANT ANSWERS TO THE QUESTIONS THAT WE HAVE???

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WHAT TO DO...

SO PREPARE YOURSELVES... THIS POST IS GOING TO BE LATE :) TECHNICALLY THIS POST ISNT LATE CAUSE IM POSTING IT RIGHT NOW ON A WEDNESDAY WHICH ITS THE DAY IT IS SUPPOSE TO BE UP, BUT... IM CURRENTLY FINISHING UP MY ASSIGNMENT FOR MY COURSE WHICH IS DUE TOMORROW. SOOOO IL WRITE MORE AFTER IM DONE AND I ACTUALLY HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY TODAY TOO. SO ENJOY YOURSELF A BIT, IL BE BACK!!!

SOME TIME LATER...

OK IM BACK :) I FINISHED MY ASSIGNMENT AND NOW IM WRITE THIS AND GO TO SLEEP CAUSE I HAVE WORK AND THEN SCHOOL TOMORROW... LONG DAY... YAY... SO ANYWAYS... LAST WEEK I WENT TO MY COUSINS HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATION AND IM JUST SITTING THERE LISTENING TO WHAT THEY ARE SAYING AND THEN WHAT THE STUDENTS WROTE ABOUT WHAT THEY ARE GOING TO DO AFTER HIGH SCHOOL AND ALL... SIDE NOTE... THIS YEAR IS MY 10 YEAR HIGH SCHOOL REUNION... SOOOO KIDS ARE SAYING OH IM GOING TO TRAVEL FOR A YEAR AND THEN GO TO SCHOOL, OR IM GOING TO VCC FOR THIS, OR GO TO SFU FOR THIS, OR UBC FOR THIS. MOST OF THEM WERE LIKE THE SAME OLD BUSINESS OR ENGINEER OR WHATEVER. NONE WERE CRAZY AMBITIOUS... WHICH MADE ME THINK ABOUT MY OWN GRAD... I SAID THAT I WAS GOING TO LANGARA AND THEN SFU... WHICH I DID... AND SOMEHOW I ENDED UP AT BCIT... AND SFU... AND NOW UBC... PLUS THE FACT THAT IVE WORKED JOBS THAT I DIDNT THINK I WOULD OR GO PLACES I DIDNT THINK I WOULD EITHER. ALL 168 OR HOWEVER MANY THERE WAS OF THEM THINK THEY ARE GOING 1 ROUTE AND I BET YOU 150 OF THEM WILL NOT BE DOING WHAT THEY THINK THEY WILL BE DOING RIGHT NOW. 10 YEARS IS A LONG TIME AND A LOT CAN CHANGE... FORGET 10 YEARS A LOT CAN CHANGE IN A YEAR... A MONTH... A DAY. ALL THESE KIDS HAVE SO MUCH POTENTIAL AND THINK SO DIFFERENTLY... BUT JUST WAIT TIL YOU GET INTO THE REAL WORLD... ITS GOING TO BE SO DIFFERENT THAT YOU WONT KNOW WHATS GOING ON OR WHERE TO GO. SOME ARE JUST SO NAIVE AND HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHAT THEY ARE IN FOR... THEIR SOULS ARE GOING TO BE CRUSHED WHEN THEY FINALLY KNOW THAT NOT ALL OF THEM CAN DO WHAT THEY WANT TO DO LOL YA... THIS SOUNDS BAD BUT HONESTLY ITS THE TRUTH... THE EARLIER YOU REALIZE IT THE BETTER. I WAS TALKING TO MY DAD AFTER THE GRADUATION AND HE AGREES... THESE KIDS HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEY ARE IN FOR HAHA. WELL CONGRATS AND SURPRISE!!! WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD :)

SO IN OTHER NEWS... UNLESS YOU BEEN LIVING UNDER A ROCK... ITS WORLD CUP!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SOOO THAT MEANS MASSIVE AMOUNT OF FOOTBALL AKA SOCCER FOR ME :) HEHE. AS USUAL MY TEAMS THE NETHERLANDS AND THEY ARE OFF TO A GOOD START MAKING IT INTO KNOCKOUT. BEST PART IS THAT THEY KILLLLLLLED SPAIN :) SORTA REVENGE FOR LAST TIME AROUND BUT NOT REALLY CAUSE THAT WAS FINALS AND THIS WAS JUST GROUP STAGE... BUTTTTT CHILE WON TODAY AND KNOCKED SPAIN OUT!!! AHEAHEHAHEAH SPAIN CHAMPIONS 4 YEARS AGO COULDNT GET OUT OF GROUP STAGE!!! LOL GG THAT IS JUST PRICELESS. AS FOR THE OTHER TEAMS... HMMMM ENGLAND... MEH. PORTUGAL I HATE CAUSE OF RONALDO AND HE MIGHT HAVE HURT HIMSELF... I SAY GOOD!!! YA PANSY!!! LOL. GERMANY... NO BALLACK SO YOU OK :) THE REST MEH. WATCHING A LOT OF SOCCER FOR THE NEXT MONTH... AND YA... THOSE DAYTIME GAMES... HEHE ;)

1ST GAME OF WORLD CUP!!! WOOOOOOOO PLUS WENDYS OF COURSE LOL

PRETTY GOOD ACTUALLY :)

OWE COWORKER $2 AND I HAD NO LOONIE OR TOONIE... SOOO QUARTER NICKLE AND DIME IT IS LOL

TEPPANYAKI!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOO MMMMMMMM

AWWW YEAHHHH PEEEEEEEL 

I SHOT SOME CRAZY LAST HAND TO WIN 190 POINTS LOL

PERFECT 118 POINT THROW TO WIN THE GAME WOOOOOOOO

GARETH EMERY!!!!!!!!!!

GARETHHHHHHHHH EMERYYYYYYYYYYYY

TRIPPY GARETH EMERY LOL

HMMMM NOT LIKE I ATE ANYTHING LOL

AFTER SOCCER GAME FOOD :) AND THEY WERE CLOSED AND WE WERE THE ONLY ONES LEFT LOL

WHOLE CHICKEN PLEASE HEHE

SPICY PORK NECK... APPARENTLY ITS REALLY SPICY AND COWORKERS COULD ONLY EAT 1 PIECE AND THEN THEY DIED... I ATE MOST OF THE PLATE AND WAS FINE... HMMMM LOL SOOO GOOD HAHA

I LOVE GRASS JELLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND I LOVE FRUTIPS TOO LOL

ART THINGY...

LUNCH TIME WOOOOOOOO A&W FTW!!!

OH SO SAD... LUCKY ITS JUST THE TRUNK LID LOL. SOME CHINESE KID OF COURSE... TOO MUCH MONEY... AND SUCKS AT DRIVING. I WAS STUCK ON THAT STREET AND WAS LIKE WTF IS TAKING SO LONG!!! THEN WHEN I GET CLOSER I REALIZE OHHHHH PEOPLE ARE TAKING PICS... SOOOO I DID THE SAME THING HAHA

RACK O LAMB FOR ME!!!

SPICY BUFFALO CHICKEN POUTINE MMMMM 

WHAT DID I DO THE PAST WEEK... WELL WORK... PLAYED POOL AND DARTS WITH SOME BUDDIES. PLAYED DARTS TIL THEY CLOSED AT 2... 2:15... 2:20... THEY KEPT SAYING THEY CLOSING AND MAN WE WERE SO CLOSE TO FINISHING THE LAST GAME BUT WAS LIKE DUDE WE SHOULDNT PUSH OUR LUCK WITH THEM HAHA SO WE LEFT. THEN OH YA GARETH EMERY :) THAT WAS FUN. PARTIED HARD AS USUAL AND THEN FATHERS DAY JUST HAD DIM SUM WITH THE FAMILY. WENT AND PLAYED SOCCER. DID SOME STUDYING. DID SOME HW. AND BACK TO WORK I GO. STARTING TO DO LESS CAUSE I HAVE MORE TO DO NOW... STILL GOT LOTS OF STUFF I WANT TO DO BUT RIGHT NOW... THERES NO TIME... THERES ACTUALLY NO TIME... *SIGH. WELL... I WASNT GOING TO PARTY BUTTTT THIS WEEKEND IS MARKUS SCHULZ, THEN NEXT WEEKEND IS W&W, WEEK AFTER THAT IS COSMIC GATE YACHT PARTY... LOLOL :) SOOO AFTER THAT IL BE DONE... FOR A WHILE... HEHE.

OH YA I FINALLY BEAT 2048!!! THATS AN ACCOMPLISHMENT LOL THAT STUPID GAME PISSED ME OFF SOOOO MUCH LOL NOW THAT I BEAT IT I CAN STOP PLAYING IT HAHA. THEN THERES THE TILE GAME... I FINALLY ALSO GOT A RECORD THAT IS GONNA STAY FOR A WHILE!!! WOOOOOOOOOOO GG ALL AROUND LOL

I WAS GONNA SAY SOMETHING BUT I DONT REALLY REMEMBER WHAT NOW... SOMETHING ABOUT SOMETHING. IT TIES INTO THE TOP PARAGRAPH ABOUT THE REAL WORLD. DONT BE AFRAID OF TRYING TO DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO. ONLY THOSE WHO ARE AFRAID GO THE SAFE ROUTE. THOSE WHO ARENT AFRAID LIVE. FUNNY HOW IT SEEMS THAT I SAID 1 THING BUT NOW SAY THIS... WELL CURRENTLY IM IN THE SAFE ROUTE... JUST CAUSE I DONT HAVE THE MONEY TO DO WHAT I WANT... PLUS I LIKE THIS JOB SO ITS ACTUALLY A WIN WIN FOR ME. THOSE NEW GRADS SHOULD DO WHAT THEY BELIEVE THEY CAN DO AND NEVER STOP BELIEVING IN IT. AS MORE TIME PASSES I THINK PEOPLE LOSE THEIR BELIEFS THAT THEY CAN DO WHAT THEY BELIEVE THEY CAN DO... YOU JUST HAVE TO KEEP DREAMING THE DREAM... AND IF YOU DONT MAKE IT YOU CANT SAY YOU DIDNT TRY. ALWAYS LIVE WITH NO REGRETS. ALWAYS BETTER TO HAVE TRIED AND FAILED THAN TO WONDER WHAT IF.

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LIFE & DEATH

SOOOOOOOO EVEN MORE OF A GRIMMER POST TODAY... LOL BUT IT TIES INTO MY PREVIOUS POST ABOUT "WHAT ARE YOU LEAVING BEHIND." LIFE AND DEATH IS ALL AROUND US EVERYDAY WHETHER WE SEE IT OR NOT. ITS A FACT OF LIFE AND IT WILL NOT CHANGE. PEOPLE ARE BORN, AND PEOPLE DIE, CIRCLE OF LIFE WILL CONTINUE. THEY SAY WHEN YOU ARE BORN IT IS THE ONE TRUE MOMENT WHEN YOU ARE PURE/PERFECT... UNTIL THE NATURE AND NURTURE COMES INTO PLAY. THEN YOU GROW UP AND EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS SHAPES YOU INTO WHO YOU ARE. THAT STUFF IVE ALREADY TALKED ABOUT OR PROBABLY WILL TALK ABOUT AGAIN SOMETIME IN THE FUTURE... BUT BACK TO IT HAHA. THEN YOU GROW OLD AND EVENTUALLY POSITIVELY... DIE...

LOOKING AT MY FRIENDS WHO HAVE KIDS NOW OR IS GONNA HAVE KIDS I THINK TO MYSELF, WHAT IF I WAS BORN NOW... I WOULD HAVE SO MUCH TIME IN FRONT OF ME. I WOULD GROW UP WITH EVEN MORE AMAZING TECHNOLOGY AND WILL SEE EVEN MORE SPECTACULAR THINGS IN MY LIFE. PLUS I WOULD LIVE PAST THE YEAR 2100, WELL... I PLAN ON DOING THAT ANYWAYS SO NO BIGGIE THERE LOL. BUT HONESTLY I WOULD NOT WANT TO BE BORN NOW. I LOVE THE GENERATION I WAS BORN INTO, IT WAS AWESOME AND LETS BE HONEST... I REALLY DIDNT HAVE MUCH OF A CHOICE OF WHEN I WAS BORN LOL. ANOTHER THING IS EVEN IF I WAS BORN JUST A YEAR EARLIER OR A YEAR LATER, WOULD EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED IN MY LIFE END UP THE SAME WAY? MOST LIKELY NOT, EVERYTHING WOULD BE DIFFERENT AND I WOULD PROBABLY HAVE DIFFERENT FRIENDS, BUT WHO KNOWS, THAT WAS ALWAYS A QUESTION I WONDERED.

LOOKING A DEATH... WHEN IM GONE WILL ANYONE CARE? BESIDES THE OBVIOUS, BUT I MEAN WHAT IF I PASSED ON NOW? WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TO EVERYONE? HOW WOULD THINGS PLAY OUT? TIME WAITS FOR NO ONE SO LIFE GOES ON WITH OR WITHOUT ME. DOES IT EVEN MATTER IN THE GRAND SCHEME OF THINGS THEN? I MEAN OUR LIVES GOES BY IN A BLINK OF AN EYE, AND IN THE UNIVERSE OUR LIVES DONT EVEN REGISTER... WE ARE A SPEC OF A SPEC OF A SPEC IN TIME... SO DOES IT EVEN MATTER??? DOES ANY OF IT REALLY MATTER? ONLY REASON WE LIVE IS TO DIE AND HOPEFULLY HAVE DONE ENOUGH IN OUR LIFETIME THAT IT MIGHT MEAN SOMETHING TO SOMEONE. ALSO TO PROLONG OUR FAMILY AND ENSURE THE SURVIVAL OF OUR LINEAGE.

NOW I CANT SAY ALL THIS WITHOUT MENTIONING WHAT ABOUT THE AFTERLIFE. IS THERE ANY OR ARE WE ALL DESTINED TO BE WORM FOOD? I WOULD LIKE TO BELIEVE THAT THERES SOMETHING, I MEAN ITS GOTTA SUCK JUST NOT SURVIVING... I MEAN THAT, THATS IT. THERES NOTHING, BUT WHEN YOU DIE I GUESS YOU WOULDNT KNOW... YOU WOULD KNOW YOURE DYING OR ABOUT TO DIE OR PROBABLY DIDNT EVEN KNOW YOURE DEAD... JUST EMPTINESS AND BLACKNESS... ONLY PEOPLE THAT WOULD KNOW THAT YOURE DEAD WOULD BE THE PEOPLE ON THE OUTSIDE. SOME PEOPLE SAY THAT THE AFTERLIFE THAT WE COULD OR MIGHT EXPERIENCE IS THE FINAL NEURONS FIRING, SINCE THE BRAIN IS STILL ACTIVE FOR 12 MINUTES AFTER YOU DIE, AND THAT ITS LIKE A DREAM. WE ALL KNOW THAT DREAMS CAN LAST FOREVER. I MEAN DREAM TIME AND REALITY ARENT REALLY THE SAME... YOU CAN DREAM FOR 5 MINS AND IT TURNS OUT TO BE HOURS OR DREAM FOR DAYS AND YEARS AND ITS ONLY BEEN A MINUTE. SO THATS WHAT SOME PEOPLE HAVE SAID. TAKE FALLING ASLEEP FOR EXAMPLE, DO YOU KNOW YOUVE FALLEN ASLEEP??? NO, I GUESS IN A WAY DEATH IS LIKE THAT... ONLY DIFFERENCE IS THAT YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING... THERE REALLY CANT BE NOTHING CAUSE THAT WOULD SUCK... BUT WHO KNOWS... THERES SO MUCH TO THINK ABOUT LOL.

SO WHAT BROUGHT ON THIS POST??? I DUNT KNOW... IVE ALWAYS BEEN FASCINATED BY LIFE AND DEATH AND HOW ITS ALL OVER. SO MANY QUESTIONS ABOUT IT AND ALMOST NO ANSWERS TO THEM.

THATS RIGHT :P CHICKEN WITH CHOPSTICKS LOL THATS HOW PRO I AM LOL

AWWW YEAH LEFT OVER CHICKEN NUGGET FRIED RICE FROM BBT FOR LUNCH HEHE

SMOKED SALMON SALAD :) YAYA

I SPY YOU POPO!!! I SEE YOU THERE LOL

SO ONCE AGAIN ANOTHER POST FROM THE MIND OF WHICH IS MINE LOL. SHOWS YOU WHAT I THINK ABOUT EH LOL. REST OF THE LIFE IS BORING... WORK DAY IN AND DAY OUT, STUDY, SCHOOL, HW... FRIENDS... FAMILY... NOTHINGS REALLY NEW. WAITING FOR SOME OTHER THINGS TO HAPPEN BUT EVERYTHING TAKES TIME AND ONCE AGAIN JUST LIKE IVE SAID... I HATE PLAYING THE WAITING GAME... BUTTTTTT WHAT CAN I DO... NOTHING... SOOOO MUST WAIT.

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DREAMING DREAMER'S DREAM

I FIND IT FUNNY HOW OVER TIME ONES DREAM CHANGES... RIGHT NOW IM TALKING ABOUT YOUR DREAMS AS IN ASPIRATIONS AND GOALS. WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG WHAT DID YOU DREAM OF BECOMING??? AN ASTRONAUT? A PRO SPORTS PLAYER? A MOVIE STAR? WELL I ACTUALLY WANTED TO BE A FARMER... A LAWYER... A PILOT. SINCE WHEN DO OUR DREAMS DIE? AND WE HAVE TO MOVE ON TO REALITY? WHY DO WE HAVE TO GROW UP AND REALIZE THAT WE CAN NEVER LIVE OUR DREAM OUT? KIDS HAVE AN ENDLESS IMAGINATION THAT CANT BE COMPARED TO, AND ITS TRUE... THE OLDER YOU GET THE LESS IMAGINATIVE YOU GET. FORGET ABOUT ALL THE DREAMS ABOUT HAVING MAGICAL POWERS OR A PET DRAGON OR POKEMON OR SOMETHING... BUT MORE ATTAINABLE DREAMS. LIFES ABOUT POSSIBILITIES AND DREAMS... THEN WHY IS IT IMPOSSIBLE TO GET IT? EVERYONE HAS THE DREAM OF WINNING THE LOTTO AND BEING ABLE TO ACTUALLY LIVE OUT THEIR DREAMS BUT CAN YOU REALLY BUY YOUR DREAM WITH MONEY??? WELL... THE OBVIOUS ANSWERS YES!!! LOL. BUT LETS BE REAL, HOW MANY OF US WILL ACTUALLY WIN THE LOTTO IN OUR LIFETIME? PROBABLY NONE OF US, THATS WHY DREAMS ARE SO HARD TO OBTAIN. YOU CAN WORK ALL YOUR LIFE FOR YOUR DREAM BUT IN THE END CAN YOU REALLY SAY YOUVE FINALLY REACHED YOUR DREAM? THEN THE PROBLEM IS IF YOU FINALLY DO REACH YOUR DREAM IS IT THE DREAM YOU HAD OR HAVE YOUR DREAM CHANGED ONCE AGAIN AND THAT IS NO LONGER YOUR DREAM... IVE BEEN TOLD BEFORE THAT IM A DREAMER... AND THAT I HAVE TO BE PULLED DOWN TO REALITY CAUSE LOTS OF THE THINGS I WANT ARENT ATTAINABLE... WELL... NOT THAT ITS UNATTAINABLE BUT THAT EVEN WITH HARD WORK AND DEDICATION IT IS NEARLY IMPOSSIBLE. SO THEN... WHY DO WE DREAM? IS IT ALWAYS THE THOUGHT OF WHAT COULD BE, WHAT SHOULD BE, AND WHAT WOULD BE? DREAMS I CAN SAY ARE WHAT KEEPS US GOING, WHAT WE STRIVE FOR, WORK FOR AND IS MOTIVATED FOR. SOMETIMES IT TAKES TIME TO REALIZE ONES DREAM AND TO REALLY KNOW WHAT YOU WANT, UNTIL THEN... JUST KEEP ON DREAMING TIL YOU GET THERE. SO, THIS IS FOR ALL YOU DREAMERS OUT THERE!!! NEVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAM, DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO GET YOURSELF THERE :)

AND NOW ONTO DREAMS THAT YOU DREAM WHEN YOU SLEEP. LATELY IVE BEEN REMEMBERING MY DREAM A LOT MORE AND ITS INTERESTING WHAT YOU DREAM ABOUT. SO FAR ITS BEEN A MIX OF ZOMBIES, RANDOM CARS, HANGING OUT, PARTYING, AND THINGS THAT DONT MAKE SENSE. THERE ARE HOWEVER PEOPLE I KNOW IN MY DREAM, AND THEN THERE ARE THE FACELESS/I DONT REMEMBER WHO THEY ARE PEOPLE IN THE DREAM. ITS BEEN SAID THAT EVERYONE YOU SEE IN YOUR DREAM IS AN ACTUAL PERSON YOU HAVE MET OR SEEN IN REAL LIFE BUT WHEN YOU TRY TO REALLY REMEMBER WHO THEY ARE CAN YOU? I CAN SAY I DONT RECALL WHERE OR WHEN IVE SEEN THEM, AND THATS KINDA FREAKY... LOL. WHY CANT OUR DREAMS BE OUR REAL DREAMS IN REAL LIFE? LIKE... WHY CANT OUR DREAMS BE REALITY? MOST DREAMS ARE GREAT AND YOU ARE ON TOP OF THE WORLD, AND EVERYTHING IS JUST THE WAY YOU WANT IT. JUST WHEN YOU HAVE EVERYTHING YOU HAVE EVER WANTED BEEP BEEP BEEEEEEEEEEEEP YOUR DAM ALARM GOES OFF AND YOU SNAP BACK TO REALITY... WAKE UP AND REALIZE YOU ARE BACK IN THIS RAT RACE YOU CALL LIFE. I GUESS THAT ONLY MAKES SENSE SINCE YOUR DREAMS ARE YOUR DREAMS AND THOSE ARE DREAMS YOU CAN ONLY DREAM ABOUT. SOMETIMES I JUST WISH WE CAN DREAM FOREVER AND JUST BE HAPPY.

WELL... THIS IS A DEEPER POST THAN NORMAL EH... THINGS YOU THINK ABOUT...

THANKS FOR LETTING ME KNOW... LOL

TOO HUNGRY TO TAKE PICS LOL

HAPPY BDAY BUDDY :) AND YES HES KOREAN LOL

JUST PHO LOL

SPRING ROLLS... OK I GUESS... BUT SHRIMP ROLL... WTF HAPPENED... SO SMALL...

FUEL DOOR NOT WORKING??? 

NO WORRIES :) I GOT THIS!!! LOL FIX IT YOURSELF :) AND YES I BRUISED MY THUMB FIXING THE DAM THING... FEELS FUNNY ACTUALLY HAHA

OK ANOTHER THING ABOUT DREAMS... HOW MANY OF YOU ARE ACTUALLY WHERE YOU THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE TODAY??? I CAN SAY IM NOT WHERE I THOUGHT I WOULD BE AT ALL... LOTS HAVE HAPPENED TO CHANGE MY COURSE AND I HAVE NOT YET REACHED WHERE I WANT TO BE... AND YET I STILL KEEP DREAMING. SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST FINE WITH WHERE THEY ARE AND SOME DREAM OF BIGGER AND BETTER THINGS. SO, DREAM THE DREAM EVERYONE, DREAM THE DREAM.

ALSO, LUCID DREAMS ARE SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!! IN THOSE DREAMS YOU REALLY DO GET TOO DREAM WHAT YOU WANT TO DREAM :) LOL.

AS FOR THE REALITY OF MY LIFE??? WELL... WORKS WORK AND THE REST IS JUST LIFE. NOTHING NEW, NOTHING TO SAY.

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I DREAM OF ZOMBIES...

FIRST OFF I HAVE TO TELL YOU ABOUT MY AWESOME DREAM LAST NIGHT!!! GUESS WHAT IT WAS ABOUT??? THATS RIGHT... ZOMBIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS :) OMG IT WAS INSANE!!!!!!!!!!! SO IT WAS ON THIS RANDOM SNOWY MOUNTAIN AND THERE WAS A MALL THERE TOO. IM RUNNING AROUND, HAVING FUN AND MOVING GUNS AROUND... YA THE GUNS PART WAS WEIRD... THEN ZOMBIES CAME OUT OF NOWHERE AND THE GUNS MADE SENSE. EVERYONE RAN INTO THE MALL AND I HEADED FOR SOME OFFICE THAT I STASHED ALL THE GUNS IN. I STARTED SHOOTING THEM AND PEOPLE CAME TO ME TO HELP SAVE THEM. SO I LET MORE AND MORE PEOPLE IN AND KILLED MORE AND MORE ZOMBIES :) AND THEN I GET WOKEN UP BY THE SOUND OF CONSTRUCTION :( BUT OMG ZOMBIE KILLING WAS SO MUCH FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOW BACK TO YOU REGULARLY SCHEDULED PROGRAMMING :)

SO LAST THURSDAY THE GF AND I WENT TO THE SCREENING OF "THIS MEANS WAR" WITH REESE WITHERSPOON, CHRIS PINE AND TOM HARDY. IT WAS A COMEDY-ACTION-ROMANCE MOVIE. IT WAS ACTUALLY NOT BAD AND QUITE FUNNY. ALSO LIKE HALF OF THE MOVIE WAS FILMED AROUND MY AREA AND SCHOOL. HERES WHAT I DONT UNDERSTAND... I USE TO WORK IN THE FILM/TV INDUSTRY AND I NEVER EVERRRRRR GOT TO GO TO ANY SCREENERS... NOT EVEN THE MOVIE THAT I WAS IN!!!!!!!!! ITS TOTAL BULLSHIT!!! ALSO THE PEOPLE WHO GO ARE PEOPLE WHO JUST ENTER THE CONTEST OR JUST GET TO FOR FREE... AND THOSE PEOPLE MOST OF THE TIME HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA WHAT THEY ARE WATCHING!!! FOR EXAMPLE THE 50 YEAR OLD LADIES SITTING NEXT TO US WHO SPOKE NOT A WORD OF ENGLISH WAS WATCHING THIS MOVIE PROB THINKING WTF IS GOING ON, AND IM THINKING WTF ARE YOU DOING HERE!!! JEZZ!!! ARGGG BLAAA IT JUST GETS ME SO RATTLED SOMETIMES *RANT*

RANDOM PIC OF YOUR DAY: BK CHICKEN FRIES, ONION RINGS AND MOZZA STICKS :)

AFTER THE MOVIE I GOT HUNGRY SO BK I WENT AND GOT MYSELF SOME FAVES :) NOMSSSSSSSSS. GOT MYSELF CHICKEN FRIES, ONION RINGS AND MOZZA STICKS. IT MIGHT NOT LOOK MUCH BUT ITS ONE OF THOSE GUILTY PLEASURES :) HEHE

RANDOM PIC OF YOUR DAY: HMMM...

SO DECIDED TO JUST WALK AROUND THE MALL AND CHILL OUT AND FOUND THIS WALKING IN FRONT OF ME... QUITE CONFUSED AT WHATS GOING ON ACTUALLY... NOT SURE IF IT WAS FOR REAL OR NOT... IT COULD:

1. 3 WAY :)
2. GUYS CHEATING
3. MOM DAD AND DAUGHTER
4. NOTHING... JUST VERY AFFECTIONATE WITH EVERYONE
5. MAKING SURE NO ONE GETS LOST

WHEN I WENT AROUND TO CHECK... IT IS DEFINETLY NOT #3... AND IM MORE LEANING TO #2 BECAUSE WHEN ONE OF THE GIRLS LEFT HE WAS STILL WITH THE OTHER. THEN AGAIN THERE ARE THE OTHER PICS OF CRAZY PEOPLE CHEATING SOOOO WHO KNOWS...

RANDOM PIC OF YOUR DAY: LAMB!!!

FOR THOSE WHO KNOW ME, KNOWS THAT I LIKE GREEK FOOD. LAMB IS ONE OF MY FAVE FOODS AND GREEK SALAD IS AMAZING AND TZATZIKI IS YUMMY. OPA'S FOOD IS NOT BAD, THEIR LAMB GOOD AND SALAD IS GOOD TOO AND THEIR FLATBREAD IS GREAT. ONLY THING IS THEY CHARGE EXTRA FOR LAMB AND THE PRICES HAVE BEEN RAISING STEADILY OVER THE YEARS. 

RANDOM PIC OF YOUR DAY: MORE FRIESSSSSSSS

WHICH BASICALLY BRINGS US BACK TO YESTERDAY MOVIE TUESDAY :) MET UP WITH THE GF AT AND HAD SOME MORE NEW YORK FRIES. THIS TIME THE GIRL KNEW WHAT SHE WAS DOING. SHE HAD THE WORKS WHILE I TRIED THE BUTTER CHICKEN ONE. IT WASNT THAT BAD ACTUALLY. 

WE WENT TO WATCH "UNDERWORLD 4: AWAKENING" WITH KATE BECKINSALE, AND IT WAS ALSO FILMED AROUND HERE AND AT SCHOOL. I SWEAR THE ONLY REASON THERES ANOTHER UNDERWORLD IS TO MAKE MONEY... THEY ARE PUMPING THESE MOVIES OUT LIKE NOTHING XD AHEHAHEA. PLOT WAS SIMPLE AND NOT MUCH REALLY HAPPENED. THATS ALL IM GONNA SAY :)

RANDOM PIC OF YOUR DAY: Y U SO HIGH SODIUM!!! :(

ONCE AGAIN... I DID IT AGAIN... ANOTHER HIGH SODIUM NOODLE LUNCH XD AHEHAEHA DAMMMMMM WHO KNEW ABALONE CHICKEN SOUP NOODLES WOULD BE  89%... JEZZ AHEHAHEA BUT IT WAS SOOOOO GOOD. AEHAHEHA

ANOTHER DAY ANOTHER POST. BEEN LOOKING FOR A JOB AND WRITING COVER LETTERS SUCK!!! REALLY REALLY NEED A GOOD SPEECH TO TEXT PROGRAM... OR MIND READING... OR JUST NO MORE COVER LETTERS XD AHEAHEHAH. WELL KEEP SEARCHING RIGHT??? HEHE 

RT