THE LAST POST OF MY 20'S

WOW... JUST WOW... CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT THIS IS REALLY GOING TO BE THE VERY LAST POST OF MY 20'S... IM TURNING 30 IN A MATTER OF DAYS AND AND ONCE I HIT THAT MARK, ITS GOING TO BE A WHOLE NEW BALL GAME... I CANT BELIEVE ANOTHER DECADE HAS PASSED BY AND IM GOING TO ENTER A NEW CATEGORY... IT STILL REALLY HASNT HIT ME YET, OR MAYBE IT HASNT SUNK IN YET, BUT I DONT THINK IT WOULD AFFECT ME THAT MUCH. I MEAN, EVERYTHING IS THE SAME BUT THE MAJOR THING NOW IS, WHEN I SAY MY AGE THERES NO "TWENTY" INFRONT OF IT. NOW ITS A "THIRTY." TO ME IT FEELS JUST LIKE ANY OTHER DAY, BUT EVERYONE WILL MAKE A BIG DEAL OF IT. THERS SO MUCH I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT THIS BUT IM TIRED... LETS SEE HOW FAR I GET BEFORE I PASS OUT LOL. LOOKING BACK, THE PAST 10 YEARS REALLY WENT BY QUITE FAST. IT REALLY DID SEEM LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I WAS STILL IN CLASS AT LANGARA AND SFU. OR IT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I STARTED A REAL JOB... EVERYTHING SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY AT THIS POINT, PARTIALLY BECAUSE IT IS... BUT JUST BECAUSE IM FEELING NOSTALGIC. FORGET ABOUT TURNING 30... THIS BLOG ITSELF IS ALMOST 5 YEARS OLD... THINKING ABOUT, IVE BEEN BLOGGING FOR ALMOST HALF A DECADE... TIME REALLY DOES FLY. LOOKING BACK, IM REALLY NOT THAT SAME PERSON I WAS 10 YEARS AGO. IVE GROWN (OBVIOUSLY) AND CHANGED IN EVERY WAY POSSIBLE, AND IVE LEARNED A LOT IN MY 30 YEARS ON EARTH, MUCH IVE LEARNED IN THE PAST 10 YEARS. FORGET ABOUT THE THINGS YOU LEARN IN ELEMENTARY AND HIGH SCHOOL. THAT STUFF IS CHILDS PLAY AND EVERYONE GOES THROUGH IT. IM TALKING ABOUT LIFE LESSONS AND EVERYTHING ELSE. INSTEAD OF JUST TELLING YOU WHAT IVE DONE, WHICH I ALREADY DO ON THIS BLOG, IM GOING TO TELL YOU SOME OF THE THINGS IVE LEARNED THE PAST 10 YEARS. I TRULY BELIEVE IN THEM AND IVE WRITTEN ABOUT SOME OF THEM IN THE PAST, BUT HERE IT IS, MY LIFE LESSONS THAT I HAVE LEARNED THE PAST 10 YEARS (IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER):

1. PATIENCE / GIVING A FUCK

LIFE HAS TAUGHT ME THAT SOMETIMES YOU NEED TO BE PATIENT AND GIVE A FUCK, WHILE AT OTHER TIMES PATIENCE DOESNT EXIST AND YOU REALLY DONT GIVE A FUCK. I THINK BECAUSE OF LIFE AND EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING I HAVE TO DEAL WITH, IM A MORE PATIENT MAN, BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM LESS PATIENT WHEN IT COMES TO BULLSHIT. YOU JUST HAVE TO READ THE SITUATION, AND WHEN YOU NEED TO, CARE ABOUT IT. WHEN YOU DONT, THEN DONT EVEN BOTHER. A LOT OF TIME ITS JUST A BIG WASTE OF EFFORT AND ENERGY, SO JUST DONT EVEN BOTHER. YOU WILL BE HAPPIER FOR HAVING DONE SO. TIME IS MONEY!!!

2. NOT ENOUGH TIME

FUNNY HOW THAT LEAD INTO THIS. ITS TRUE, YOU REALLY NEVER HAVE ENOUGH TIME. I ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING I WANT TO DO, BUT NEVER HAVE ENOUGH TIME FOR IT. BY THE TIME I WANT TO DO IT, EITHER ITS TOO LATE OR IT JUST DOESNT WORK. BETWEEN SLEEPING, EATING, WORKING, AND WHATEVER ELSE, THERE REALLY ISNT ENOUGH HOURS IN A DAY TO DO WHAT ELSE YOU WANT TO DO. SO USE YOUR TIME WISELY. 

3. ALWAYS HAVE A PLAN / GOAL

I HAVE ALWAYS HAD A PLAN... SORTA... I KNEW WHAT I WANTED TO DO AND PLANNED FOR IT. WE ALL KNOW THAT PLANS RARELY WORK OUT THE WAY IT IS SUPPOSE TO. YOU ALWAYS NEED A PLAN, IF YOUR PLAN DOESNT SUCCEED THE FIRST TIME, THEN TRY TRY TRY AGAIN. ITS SIMILAR TO THE ROADS POST, WHERE LIFE HAS MANY PATHS FOR YOU TO TAKE. JUST BECAUSE ONE PATH DOESNT WORK OTU, DOESNT MEAN YOU SHOULD GIVE UP. ALWAYS HAVE A BACK UP PLAN. ALWAYS HAVE SOME SORT OF GOAL, SOMETHING LIKE A FINISH LINE. NEVER STOP GROWING AND IMPROVING. HAVING THAT GOAL MOTIVATES YOU, MAKES YOU DETERMINED TO KEEP GOING, IT PUSHES YOU TO DO BETTER AND BE BETTER. ALWAYS STRIVE FOR MORE, NEVER SETTLE.

4. LOVE / RELATIONSHIP

YOU CANT FORCE THESE THINGS, WHEN ITS RIGHT AND WORKS, IT WORKS. WHEN ITS WRONG, THEN IT JUST WONT WORK NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU WANT IT TO. PEOPLE DO STUPID THINGS IN THEM... JUST DO YOUR PART AND IF IT DOESNT WORK OUT, AT LEAST YOU KNOW THAT YOU DID ALL YOU CAN AND IT JUST WASNT MEANT TO BE. YOU REALLY GET WHAT YOU PUT IN. NEVER DESTROY OR BURN BRIDGES, BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHO AND WHEN YOU WILL NEED THEIR HELP.

5. DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY

DO WHAT MAKE YOU HAPPY. IF YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING THEN DO IT, WHO CARES WHAT PEOPLE MIGHT THINK, ITS YOUR LIFE SO LIVE IT THE WAY YOU WANT. DO THE THINGS YOU WANT. BE THE WAY YOU WANT. YOU WILL NEVER MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY, SO HONESTLY WHY BOTHER... MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY, BECAUSE IN THE END ITS ALL ABOUT YOURSELF ANYWAYS.

6. IT WILL ALL WORK OUT... SOMEHOW

STOP WORRYING!!! WHATEVER YOUR PROBLEM IS, IN THE END, SOMEHOW... EVENTUALLY... INEVITABLY... IT WILL ALL WORK OUT. THE UNIVERSE SOMEHOW ALWAYS DOES. JUST LOOK AT ME!!! EVERYTHING SOMEHOW ENDED UP ALRIGHT. IT MIGHT SEEM TOUGH RIGHT NOW, AND THERES NO LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL, BUT JUST KEEP GOING, NEVER GIVE UP, I MADE IT AND SO WILL YOU.

7. MOTTOS - "NO PAIN, NO GAIN" "LIVE WITH NO REGRETS" "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON"

THESE ARE WHAT I LIVE BY. SOME TIE INTO OTHERS BUT STILL HAVE TO SAY IT. NOTHING EVER WORTH DOING WAS EASY... IF IT WAS THEN EVERYONE WOULD BE DOING IT AND THEN WHAT WOULD THE POINT BE... THATS WHY IF ITS WORTH IT, THEN DO IT. PAIN IS ONLY TEMPORARY. LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR REGRETS, SO JUST GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT AND DO IT. SURE I PROBABLY HAVE A FEW, BUT MOSTLY I DONT HAVE ANY. IVE DONE WHAT I WANTED, WHEN I WANTED. IN LIFE YOU REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN, OR WHY SOMETHING HAPPENS. IN THE WHOLE SCHEME OF THINGS EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. YOU MIGHT NOT UNDERSTAND IT, OR WANT IT, OR EVEN AGREE WITH IT, BUT IT ALL HAPPENS FOR A REASON. IT WILL BECOME CLEAR SOONER OR LATER. 

THERE IS A TON OF OTHER THINGS I COULD WRITE ABOUT BUT I HONESTLY THINK THESE ARE THE TOP ONES. IVE LEARNED A LOT AND CHANGED A LOT IN THE PAST 10 YEARS. NOW THINKING ABOUT IT, I WONDER WHAT THE NEXT 10 WILL BE LIKE. IT SEEMS LIKE A FAR AWAY DREAM RIGHT NOW, BUT WHEN I WAS 20... SO WAS 30... AND THAT CAME IN A BLINK OF AN EYE. 

MY ORIGINAL DUE DATE THAT I GAVE MYSELF OF 1 YEAR IS BASICALLY UP. I DID A LOT TO ACHIEVE THAT GOAL, BUT IT JUST WASNT ENOUGH AT THIS TIME. I HAD A FEW SET BACKS BUT THESE ARENT EXCUSE. IM STILL PLANNING TO CONTINUE THAT GOAL, BUT INSTEAD OF A YEAR ITS LOOKING MORE LIKE 2 OR 3 YEARS TO ACHIEVE. 

COME TO THINK OF IT... A LARGE PORTION OF MY 20'S I WAS STILL IN SOME KIND OF SCHOOL. IT WAS ONLY THE LATER HALF OF MY 20'S THAT I STARTED WORKING. MY 20'S I MET PEOPLE, I LOST PEOPLE, I GAINED PEOPLE, AND I FORGOT ABOUT PEOPLE. I TRAVELLED, I PLAYED, I ATE, AND I ENJOYED. I LEARNED A LOT ABOUT MYSELF, ABOUT WHAT IM MADE OF, WHAT IM CAPABLE OF, AND WHAT I TRULY THOUGHT AND FELT. IF I COULD DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN WOULD IT? I WOULD PROBABLY HAVE CHANGED A FEW THINGS, BUT FOR THE MOST PART... I AM THE WAY I AM NOW, AND I AM WHO I AM BECAUSE OF IT ALL, SO IM GOING TO SAY NO. THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I AM SUPPOSE TO BE. 

I REALLY WONDER WHATS IN STORE FOR ME IN MY 30'S... THIS IS MOST DEFINITELY GOING TO BE DIFFERENT. I GUESS IL LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW IT FEELS NEXT WEEK. 

GOODBYE TO MY 20'S. SEE YOU ALL IN MY 30'S

RT  

LOOKING FORWARD... CANT WAIT...

EVERYONE HAS AT ONE POINT OR ANOTHER LOOK FORWARD TO OR COULDNT WAIT FOR SOMETHING. THE RESULT OF THAT IS EITHER OF SADNESS/DISAPPOINTMENT OR OF HAPPINESS/PURE JOY. THERES NO POINT IN JUST BEING OK WITH IT SINCE YOU ALREADY HYPED IT UP SO MUCH THAT IT WOULD JUST FEELS LIKE YOU WASTED TIME IF YOU ONLY FELT OK. WHY DO WE SOMETIMES PUT THINGS SO HIGH UP ONLY TO HAVE US REALIZE THAT IT HAS SUNKEN SO LOW? WE ALL WANT IT, WE ALL THINK WE NEED IT, WE ALL THINK WE DESERVE IT. WHO MAKES THIS DECISION THAT WE SHOULD GET WHAT WE GET? I MEAN WE REALLY ONLY GET WHAT WE PUT IN RIGHT??? OF COURSE THERE ARE THOSE THAT LUCK OUT AND GET MORE THAN WHAT THEY DESERVE OR JUST HAVE THINGS HANDED TO THEM, BUT MAJORITY OF PEOPLE JUST GET WHAT THEY GET. SO WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU DESERVE AND WHY DO YOU THINK THAT... I GUESS ITS NATURAL TO ONLY WANT THE BEST FOR YOURSELF. NO ONE WANTS TO WAIT OR UNTIL THEY ACTUALLY BELIEVE THEY DESERVE IT. YOU KNOW... ORIGINALLY I WAS GOING TO WRITE ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE BUT THEN I STARTED THIS TITLE AND EVENTUALLY IM NOT EVEN SURE THAT IT MAKES SENSE OR IS EVEN RELATED TO THE FIRST PART ANYMORE. THE TITLE IS A LITTLE CONFUSING TOO I SUPPOSE. YOU CAN TAKE IT AS LOOKING FORWARD TO SOMETHING AND CANT WAIT FOR IT TO HAPPEN, OR YOU CAN TAKE IT AS YOU WANT TO MOVE ON. RIGHT NOW I DONT EVEN KNOW WHICH ONE IT IS ANYMORE... I GUESS THERES ONLY ONE WAY TO FIND OUT... AND IM GOING HAVE TO WAIT TO SEE WHICH IT IS. 

SO IM NOT EVEN QUITE SURE THE PARAGRAPH UP TOP MAKES SENSE... I PASSED OUT QUITE A FEW TIMES WRITING IT. WORKS BEEN GETTING BETTER AND I JUST CANT WAIT TIL THESE LAST FEW THINGS ARE TAKEN CARE OF SO I CAN HAVE SOME MORE TIME. FOOTBALL??? WELL... THE PAST WEEKEND WAS A MUST WIN SO WE CAN MAKE PLAYOFFS FOR SURE... LETS JUST SAY WE DIDNT DO AS WELL AS WE WOULD HAVE LIKED. WE WERE SHORT PLAYERS AND THOSE WERE OUR FAST GUYS TOO... SO THAT HURT US. NOW ITS ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE FOR US TO MAKE IT SINCE WE NEED 1 TEAM TO WIN, 1 TEAM TO LOSE, AND OH YA... WE NEED TO WIN AS WELL. IF ANYTHING ELSE HAPPENS THEN WE WOULD NEED TO WIN AS WELL. THE ISSUE IS THAT WE PLAY THE #1 RANKED TEAM TWICE AND THE TEAM THAT WE ARE IN A RACE AGAINST IS PLAYING THE BOTTOM BOTTOM RANKED TEAM. THAT BOTTOM TEAM EVEN FORFEITED THEIR FIRST MEET AND THEY GOT EASY POINTS. THAT BOTTOM TEAM HASNT WON AND I THINK ITS ABOUT TIME FOR THEM TO :) HAHA THEN WE CAN ACTUALLY HAVE A CHANCE OF MAKING IT. JUST WATCH THEM FORFEIT AGAIN... THEY DONT CARE ANYMORE SO ITS LOOKING LIKE WE SCREWED :( SIGH. WHO KNOWS THOUGH :) WE CAN STILL MAKE IT. REST OF LIFE IS FINE FOR NOW. STILL THINKING OF WHERE I SHOULD GO FOR VACA... ANY SUGGESTIONS ANYONE? WELL WHEN IM NOT TIRED OR LAZY IL ACTUALLY WRITE A FULL POST. UNTIL THEN... GOODNIGHT.

RT 

CONFUSED AT WHAT THE TITLE SHOULD BE... SO...

I GUESS THE TITLE IS THE THOUGHT ABOUT THE TITLE... LOL. ORIGINALLY THIS POST WAS GOING TO BE ABOUT FRIENDS AND THEN I WANTED TO WRITE SOMETHING ABOUT LOVING THE LIFE YOU LIVE AND ALL BUT THEN OPTED FOR SOME RANDOM VAGUE TITLE LIKE I ALWAYS DO LOL.

YOU ALL KNOW I HAVE A BUNCH OF CLOSE FRIENDS AND TONS OF OTHER FRIENDS TOO. WELL NEEDLESS TO SAY THE CLOSE ONES HAVE BEEN THERE A LONG TIME AND HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME AND ME FOR THEM. BEEN HANGING OUT AND JUST TALKING AND REALIZED WHY AND HOW WE REMAINED FRIENDS OVER ALL THESE YEARS. ITS OUR OUT LOOK ON LIFE AND SITUATIONS AND THE ADVICE THEY GIVE WHEN YOU NEED IT. OF COURSE THIS IS NOTHING NEW, I MEAN WHO DOESNT KNOW THIS RIGHT. BUT OUR FRIENDSHIPS GO BEYOND THAT, TO THE POINT WHERE THE UNSAID IS NOT NEEDED OR WE KNOW WHAT EACH OTHER IS THINKING. HONESTLY I THOUGHT THERE WAS MORE TO WRITE BUT REALLY WHAT IS THERE TO WRITE BESIDES THE FACT THAT THOSE ARE THE PEOPLE YOU ARE HAPPY TO HAVE IN YOUR LIFE AND THAT ARE THE BONDS THAT WE CHERISH RIGHT?

SO THIS TIES IN A BIT TO LAST WEEKS POST ABOUT DREAMS I SUPPOSE. LOVE THE LIFE YOU LIVE. IN LIFE YOU CANT JUST DO WHAT PEOPLE TELL YOU. YOU HAVE TO BE TRUE TO YOURSELF AND DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY. WHATS THE POINT IN GOING THROUGH LIFE BEING MISERABLE DAY IN AND DAY OUT HATING YOUR JOB OR HATING YOUR LIFE? I SEE IT EVERYDAY, PEOPLE JUST DOING WHAT THEY HAVE TO DO, WHO KNOWS I MEAN... SOME MIGHT ACTUALLY LIKE WHAT THEY DO BUT A MAJORITY DONT. THEY SAY IF YOU LOVE YOUR JOB YOU NEVER WORK A DAY IN YOUR LIFE... AND ITS TRUE. IF I COULD DO SOMETHING I LIKE THEN IT WOULDNT MATTER IF I WAS BEING PAID A LOT OR NOT, CAUSE IT MAKES ME HAPPY. BUT THEN AGAIN IF IM WORKING AT A JOB I HATE BUT THE PAY IS AMAZING... WELL... IM JUST WORKING THERE FOR THE MONEY. HOPEFULLY THAT MONEY COULD HELP LET ME LIVE THE WAY I WANT LOL. NOT EVERYONE HAS A CHOICE I UNDERSTAND, BUT I RATHER CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY CAUSE IN THE END ITS ALL ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOURSELF AND EVERYTHING. IVE ALWAYS SUPPORTED EVERYONE IN DOING WHAT THEY WANT TO DO, YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME TELLING SOMEONE NOT TO DO IT, ALWAYS ENCOURAGING THEM TO GO FOR IT. IF YOU NEVER TRY THEN YOU NEVER FAIL, AND IF YOU NEVER FAIL, YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU ARE CAPABLE OF OR WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY. RIGHT NOW UNFORTUNATELY IM WAITING FOR THE DAY WHERE I CAN DO WHAT I LIKE TO DO AND BE TRULY HAPPY.

NICE DAY :) 

TOUCH IT... TOUCH IT... AWWW SO CUTE LOL

SOMEHOW ENDED BACK UP IN THE CLUB... LOL AND LOOK... ITS PACKED!!! SO BUSY LOL

FAMILY DINNER :)

YA... DRUNK SLOPPY GIRL AT THE CLUB STEPPED ON ME IN HER FREAKING HEELS AND STUMBLES OFF... THIS IS THE RESULT THE NEXT DAY... THANKS... BITCH!!!

FINALLY HAD A MCD POUTINE LOL IT WAS OK HAHA

SOOOOO GOT A CALL FROM WHAT I THOUGHT WOULD BE THE CALL IVE BEEN WAITING FOR... ONLY TO PICK UP AND NO ONE ANSWER... AND THEN EVENTUALLY HANG UP... THANKS... GETTING MY HOPES UP WITH A STRANGE NUMBER THAT I HAVE NEVER SEEN BEFORE LOL.

WELL... WORKS INTERESTING NOW... I HAVE SUNDAYS AND WEDNESDAYS OFF SINCE I HAVE THAT NEW COURSE STARTING TODAY. SO WORK 2 DAYS GET A DAY OFF AND WORK 3 DAYS AND GET A DAY OFF... BUT SCHOOL... SO THAT TECHNICALLY NULLS IT SOOOO WORK 6 DAYS A WEEK PLUS READING AND STUFF SOOOO I REALLY WORK 27/4... SIGH. JUST GOTTA LOOK FOR THE END OF THE ROAD. JUST CANT WAIT TIL EVERYTHING IS DONE AND I CAN SEE WHERE THIS ALL LEADS TO.

RT