DEATH WISH

NO... I DONT HAVE A DEATH WISH... OR DO I... THEN AGAIN TO KNOW IF THERES AN AFTERLIFE IS THE ONLY QUESTIONS THAT PEOPLE WANT TO KNOW THE ANSWER TO... THEN AGAIN IM GOING TO LIVE FOREVER SO IT DOESNT EVEN MATTER LOL. ANYWAYS THIS WOULD BE A CONVERSATION FOR ANOTHER TIME.

DEATH WISH, BRUCE WILLIS, DEAN NORRIS, ROBBERS, WIFE KILLED, DAUGHTER IN COMA, VIGILANTE, KILLS BAD GUYS, NOOB WITH GUN, REVENGE, COPS DONT KNOW WHO IT IS, HERO, VILLIAN, DAUGHTERS OK, BAD GUYS COME AFTER THEM, KILLS BAD GUYS, COP KNOWS WHO IT IS, STOPS BEING VIGILANTE, THE END.

THATS BASICALLY THE STORY. BRUCE WILLIS HAS ABSOLUTELY NO EMOTION IN THIS MOVIE... HES THE SAME THROUGHOUT EVEN THOUGH SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED TO HIM. YES YES THERES A FEW MOMENTS OF EMOTIONS BUT OVERALL ITS JUST LIKE MEH OH WELL... ALSO THE UNCLE SURE IS CREEPY LOL. THE MOVIE WAS FUN, IT HAD SOME TOTALLY FLUKE SCENES WHERE YA... RIGHT... AND SOME FUNNY SCENES. A LOT OF TIME IT MAKES YOU THINK... LIKE REALLY... YOU REALLY DONT KNOW THAT OR YOU REALLY COULDNT SOLVE THAT? COME ON!!! OH WELL. ANYWAYS, THE GF AND MYSELF BOTH LIKED IT. DECENT AMOUNT OF ACTION AND KILLING. LOTS OF PREDICTABLE SCENES AS WELL. SOOO I GIVE THIS A 7.3-7.7/10. OH OH OH AND I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS A REMAKE OF THE OLD ONES UNTIL THIS OLD GUY WAS TALKING TO US. LOOKED IT UP AND ITS CHARLES BRONSON!!! WHO KNEW, NOW I MIGHT WANT TO WATCH IT.

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OLYMPICS

SO CURRENTLY THE 2016 SUMMER OLYMPICS IS BEING HELD IN RIO, BRAZIL. MY DAD HAS BEEN WATCHING ALMOST ALL DAY AND ALL NIGHT, ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING THAT CATCHES HIS EYES. MYSELF ON THE OTHER HAND SWIMMING, TRACK AND FIELD, AND TAEKWONDO OF COURSE, PLUS ALL THE RANDOM STUFF THAT IS AROUND. WATCHING IT ALL REALLY MAKES ME THINK... COULD I HAVE MADE IT INTO THE OLYMPICS IF I KEPT AT A SPORT??? THE SIMPLE ANSWER IS... YES!!! THATS BECAUSE IM AMAZING AND TOTALLY SKILLED IN EVERYTHING. THE LONG ANSWER IS REALLY DEPENDS ON WHAT SPORT... THERES SOME IM BETTER IN, SOME THAT I DONT EVEN PLAY, SOME I SUCK IN, AND SOME I DONT CARE FOR... SWIMMING AND TAEKWONDO WOULD BE THE OBVIOUS CHOICE AND PROB HIGH JUMP AND LONG JUMP FOR TRACK. I WAS GOOD BACK IN THE DAY... CAUSE IM OLD NOW... BUT IF I REALLY KEPT AT IT... INSTEAD OF GOING TO SCHOOL, GOING OUT, MAKING FRIENDS, PARTYING, AND ALL THE OTHER RANDOM STUFF, I PROBABLY COULD HAVE MADE IT. I HAVE A FRIEND THAT ACTUALLY MADE OLYMPICS AND EVEN THOUGH THEY WERE NATIONAL CHAMPION OR LIKE TOP RANKED IN THE COUNTRY, OR RANKED HIGHLY ON THE WORLD STAGE, IT DOESNT MEAN THAT IT WILL TRANSLATE ON THE OLYMPIC STAGE. USUALLY IT DOES, BUT SOMETIMES IT DOESNT. THAT IS WHY IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT, ALL THE WORLD RECORDS ARE SO MUCH FASTER AND HIGHER THAN THE OLYMPIC RECORDS. THATS CAUSE WORLD CHAMPIONSHIPS AND REGULAR EVENTS ARE HELD ALL THE TIME, WHERE AS OLMPICS IS ONCE EVERY 4 YEARS. SO YOU ONLY HAVE A CHANCE TO BEAT IT ONCE EVERY 4 YEARS. THE ONLY REASON YOU HEAR OLYMPIC SO MUCH MORE IS BECAUSE IT ISSSSSSS EVERY 4 YEARS, AND BECAUSE THEY MAKE THE BIGGEST THING OUT OF IT. EVERYONE IS WATCHING, THE WHOLE WORLD IS WATCHING, EVERYONE KNOWS ABOUT IT. WORLD CHAMPIONSHIPS... NOT SO MUCH... UNLESS YOURE INTO IT. SWIMMING I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE BEEN BEAT IN, TAEKWONDO I PROBABLY COULD HAVE MADE IT, LONG JUMP MOST LIKELY, AND HIGH JUMP EASY. THEN AGAIN... WITH ALL OF LIFE HAPPENING, HOW WOULD I HAVE MADE THAT WORK? MANY ATHLETES HAVE A DAY JOB AND IT TAKES A LOT OF WORK TO MAKE IT TO THE OLYMPICS. THE TIME AND EFFORT AND MONEY THAT IS NEEDED TO GET YOURSELF TO THAT LEVEL IS NOT EASY. ON THE OTHER HAND, THERE ARE THOSE WHOS SOLE JOB IS TO GO TO THE OLYMPICS AND WIN... AKA CHINA AND PLACES. EVERYONE DOES IT FOR THE SPORT THAT THEY LOVE. I PROBABLY COULD HAVE DONE FENCING AND SHOOTING TOO BUT NEVER GOT THE CHANCE TO. THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE WHO WOULD HAVE PROBABLY BEEN AMAZING AT SOMETHING BUT NEVER GET THE CHANCE TO TRY IT. I REALLY WISH I KEPT UP WITH SOMETHING... ESPECIALLY SINCE I KNOW I CAN TAKE ON ALL THE PEOPLE THERE RIGHT NOW. BESIDES ALL THAT... CANADA DOESNT HAVE THE SUPPORT SYSTEM IN PLACE FOR ATHLETES WHO SOLE PURPOSE TO TRAIN AND WIN. THEY HAVE REGULAR JOBS AND ALL THE REST OF THE STUFF I MENTIONED ABOVE. ITS HARD ON THEM. CANADA SPONSORS THEM SO LITTLE AND WHEN THEY WIN, THE GET SO LITTLE AS WELL AND JUST GOES BACK TO WORK THE NEXT DAY. PEOPLE WHO WIN IN OTHER COUNTRIES ARE TREATED LIKE HEROES AND ARE GIVEN WHATEVER THEY WANT. CANADA IS TOO EXCITED WHEN THEY SEE A MEDAL... OTHER COUNTRIES HAVE 10 TIMES THAT OF WHICH WE HAVE. YOU KNOW WHAT... IM GONNA GO TRY FOR THE OLYMPICS :) START TRAINING AND BY 34 IL BE THERE HAHA. HEY, WHO KNOWS... STRANGER THINGS HAVE HAPPENED. NOT TO MENTION THERE ARE A LOT OF ATHLETES WHO ARE OLDER TOO LOL.

I WAS ALSO GONNA SAY THAT EVERYTHING I SAID UP TOP REALLY CAN RELATE TO EVERYTHING ELSE AND IN LIFE IN GENERAL. THATS FOR ANOTHER TIME. IM TIRED, GONNA GO SLEEP.

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THE LAST POST OF MY 20'S

WOW... JUST WOW... CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT THIS IS REALLY GOING TO BE THE VERY LAST POST OF MY 20'S... IM TURNING 30 IN A MATTER OF DAYS AND AND ONCE I HIT THAT MARK, ITS GOING TO BE A WHOLE NEW BALL GAME... I CANT BELIEVE ANOTHER DECADE HAS PASSED BY AND IM GOING TO ENTER A NEW CATEGORY... IT STILL REALLY HASNT HIT ME YET, OR MAYBE IT HASNT SUNK IN YET, BUT I DONT THINK IT WOULD AFFECT ME THAT MUCH. I MEAN, EVERYTHING IS THE SAME BUT THE MAJOR THING NOW IS, WHEN I SAY MY AGE THERES NO "TWENTY" INFRONT OF IT. NOW ITS A "THIRTY." TO ME IT FEELS JUST LIKE ANY OTHER DAY, BUT EVERYONE WILL MAKE A BIG DEAL OF IT. THERS SO MUCH I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT THIS BUT IM TIRED... LETS SEE HOW FAR I GET BEFORE I PASS OUT LOL. LOOKING BACK, THE PAST 10 YEARS REALLY WENT BY QUITE FAST. IT REALLY DID SEEM LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I WAS STILL IN CLASS AT LANGARA AND SFU. OR IT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I STARTED A REAL JOB... EVERYTHING SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY AT THIS POINT, PARTIALLY BECAUSE IT IS... BUT JUST BECAUSE IM FEELING NOSTALGIC. FORGET ABOUT TURNING 30... THIS BLOG ITSELF IS ALMOST 5 YEARS OLD... THINKING ABOUT, IVE BEEN BLOGGING FOR ALMOST HALF A DECADE... TIME REALLY DOES FLY. LOOKING BACK, IM REALLY NOT THAT SAME PERSON I WAS 10 YEARS AGO. IVE GROWN (OBVIOUSLY) AND CHANGED IN EVERY WAY POSSIBLE, AND IVE LEARNED A LOT IN MY 30 YEARS ON EARTH, MUCH IVE LEARNED IN THE PAST 10 YEARS. FORGET ABOUT THE THINGS YOU LEARN IN ELEMENTARY AND HIGH SCHOOL. THAT STUFF IS CHILDS PLAY AND EVERYONE GOES THROUGH IT. IM TALKING ABOUT LIFE LESSONS AND EVERYTHING ELSE. INSTEAD OF JUST TELLING YOU WHAT IVE DONE, WHICH I ALREADY DO ON THIS BLOG, IM GOING TO TELL YOU SOME OF THE THINGS IVE LEARNED THE PAST 10 YEARS. I TRULY BELIEVE IN THEM AND IVE WRITTEN ABOUT SOME OF THEM IN THE PAST, BUT HERE IT IS, MY LIFE LESSONS THAT I HAVE LEARNED THE PAST 10 YEARS (IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER):

1. PATIENCE / GIVING A FUCK

LIFE HAS TAUGHT ME THAT SOMETIMES YOU NEED TO BE PATIENT AND GIVE A FUCK, WHILE AT OTHER TIMES PATIENCE DOESNT EXIST AND YOU REALLY DONT GIVE A FUCK. I THINK BECAUSE OF LIFE AND EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING I HAVE TO DEAL WITH, IM A MORE PATIENT MAN, BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM LESS PATIENT WHEN IT COMES TO BULLSHIT. YOU JUST HAVE TO READ THE SITUATION, AND WHEN YOU NEED TO, CARE ABOUT IT. WHEN YOU DONT, THEN DONT EVEN BOTHER. A LOT OF TIME ITS JUST A BIG WASTE OF EFFORT AND ENERGY, SO JUST DONT EVEN BOTHER. YOU WILL BE HAPPIER FOR HAVING DONE SO. TIME IS MONEY!!!

2. NOT ENOUGH TIME

FUNNY HOW THAT LEAD INTO THIS. ITS TRUE, YOU REALLY NEVER HAVE ENOUGH TIME. I ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING I WANT TO DO, BUT NEVER HAVE ENOUGH TIME FOR IT. BY THE TIME I WANT TO DO IT, EITHER ITS TOO LATE OR IT JUST DOESNT WORK. BETWEEN SLEEPING, EATING, WORKING, AND WHATEVER ELSE, THERE REALLY ISNT ENOUGH HOURS IN A DAY TO DO WHAT ELSE YOU WANT TO DO. SO USE YOUR TIME WISELY. 

3. ALWAYS HAVE A PLAN / GOAL

I HAVE ALWAYS HAD A PLAN... SORTA... I KNEW WHAT I WANTED TO DO AND PLANNED FOR IT. WE ALL KNOW THAT PLANS RARELY WORK OUT THE WAY IT IS SUPPOSE TO. YOU ALWAYS NEED A PLAN, IF YOUR PLAN DOESNT SUCCEED THE FIRST TIME, THEN TRY TRY TRY AGAIN. ITS SIMILAR TO THE ROADS POST, WHERE LIFE HAS MANY PATHS FOR YOU TO TAKE. JUST BECAUSE ONE PATH DOESNT WORK OTU, DOESNT MEAN YOU SHOULD GIVE UP. ALWAYS HAVE A BACK UP PLAN. ALWAYS HAVE SOME SORT OF GOAL, SOMETHING LIKE A FINISH LINE. NEVER STOP GROWING AND IMPROVING. HAVING THAT GOAL MOTIVATES YOU, MAKES YOU DETERMINED TO KEEP GOING, IT PUSHES YOU TO DO BETTER AND BE BETTER. ALWAYS STRIVE FOR MORE, NEVER SETTLE.

4. LOVE / RELATIONSHIP

YOU CANT FORCE THESE THINGS, WHEN ITS RIGHT AND WORKS, IT WORKS. WHEN ITS WRONG, THEN IT JUST WONT WORK NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU WANT IT TO. PEOPLE DO STUPID THINGS IN THEM... JUST DO YOUR PART AND IF IT DOESNT WORK OUT, AT LEAST YOU KNOW THAT YOU DID ALL YOU CAN AND IT JUST WASNT MEANT TO BE. YOU REALLY GET WHAT YOU PUT IN. NEVER DESTROY OR BURN BRIDGES, BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHO AND WHEN YOU WILL NEED THEIR HELP.

5. DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY

DO WHAT MAKE YOU HAPPY. IF YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING THEN DO IT, WHO CARES WHAT PEOPLE MIGHT THINK, ITS YOUR LIFE SO LIVE IT THE WAY YOU WANT. DO THE THINGS YOU WANT. BE THE WAY YOU WANT. YOU WILL NEVER MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY, SO HONESTLY WHY BOTHER... MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY, BECAUSE IN THE END ITS ALL ABOUT YOURSELF ANYWAYS.

6. IT WILL ALL WORK OUT... SOMEHOW

STOP WORRYING!!! WHATEVER YOUR PROBLEM IS, IN THE END, SOMEHOW... EVENTUALLY... INEVITABLY... IT WILL ALL WORK OUT. THE UNIVERSE SOMEHOW ALWAYS DOES. JUST LOOK AT ME!!! EVERYTHING SOMEHOW ENDED UP ALRIGHT. IT MIGHT SEEM TOUGH RIGHT NOW, AND THERES NO LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL, BUT JUST KEEP GOING, NEVER GIVE UP, I MADE IT AND SO WILL YOU.

7. MOTTOS - "NO PAIN, NO GAIN" "LIVE WITH NO REGRETS" "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON"

THESE ARE WHAT I LIVE BY. SOME TIE INTO OTHERS BUT STILL HAVE TO SAY IT. NOTHING EVER WORTH DOING WAS EASY... IF IT WAS THEN EVERYONE WOULD BE DOING IT AND THEN WHAT WOULD THE POINT BE... THATS WHY IF ITS WORTH IT, THEN DO IT. PAIN IS ONLY TEMPORARY. LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR REGRETS, SO JUST GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT AND DO IT. SURE I PROBABLY HAVE A FEW, BUT MOSTLY I DONT HAVE ANY. IVE DONE WHAT I WANTED, WHEN I WANTED. IN LIFE YOU REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN, OR WHY SOMETHING HAPPENS. IN THE WHOLE SCHEME OF THINGS EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. YOU MIGHT NOT UNDERSTAND IT, OR WANT IT, OR EVEN AGREE WITH IT, BUT IT ALL HAPPENS FOR A REASON. IT WILL BECOME CLEAR SOONER OR LATER. 

THERE IS A TON OF OTHER THINGS I COULD WRITE ABOUT BUT I HONESTLY THINK THESE ARE THE TOP ONES. IVE LEARNED A LOT AND CHANGED A LOT IN THE PAST 10 YEARS. NOW THINKING ABOUT IT, I WONDER WHAT THE NEXT 10 WILL BE LIKE. IT SEEMS LIKE A FAR AWAY DREAM RIGHT NOW, BUT WHEN I WAS 20... SO WAS 30... AND THAT CAME IN A BLINK OF AN EYE. 

MY ORIGINAL DUE DATE THAT I GAVE MYSELF OF 1 YEAR IS BASICALLY UP. I DID A LOT TO ACHIEVE THAT GOAL, BUT IT JUST WASNT ENOUGH AT THIS TIME. I HAD A FEW SET BACKS BUT THESE ARENT EXCUSE. IM STILL PLANNING TO CONTINUE THAT GOAL, BUT INSTEAD OF A YEAR ITS LOOKING MORE LIKE 2 OR 3 YEARS TO ACHIEVE. 

COME TO THINK OF IT... A LARGE PORTION OF MY 20'S I WAS STILL IN SOME KIND OF SCHOOL. IT WAS ONLY THE LATER HALF OF MY 20'S THAT I STARTED WORKING. MY 20'S I MET PEOPLE, I LOST PEOPLE, I GAINED PEOPLE, AND I FORGOT ABOUT PEOPLE. I TRAVELLED, I PLAYED, I ATE, AND I ENJOYED. I LEARNED A LOT ABOUT MYSELF, ABOUT WHAT IM MADE OF, WHAT IM CAPABLE OF, AND WHAT I TRULY THOUGHT AND FELT. IF I COULD DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN WOULD IT? I WOULD PROBABLY HAVE CHANGED A FEW THINGS, BUT FOR THE MOST PART... I AM THE WAY I AM NOW, AND I AM WHO I AM BECAUSE OF IT ALL, SO IM GOING TO SAY NO. THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I AM SUPPOSE TO BE. 

I REALLY WONDER WHATS IN STORE FOR ME IN MY 30'S... THIS IS MOST DEFINITELY GOING TO BE DIFFERENT. I GUESS IL LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW IT FEELS NEXT WEEK. 

GOODBYE TO MY 20'S. SEE YOU ALL IN MY 30'S

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THE BRIDGES YOU BUILD

SO I JUST LOOKED BACK TO SEE IF I WROTE ABOUT THIS TOPIC BEFORE CAUSE I VAGUELY REMEMBER WRITING SOMETHING LIKE THIS ALREADY... ANDDDDD I DID... SORTA... NOT REALLY. THIS ONE IS A LITTLE BIT DIFFERENT FROM WHAT I WROTE ABOUT LAST TIME. THE BRIDGES YOU BUILD, IM REFERRING TO THE RELATIONSHIPS YOU CREATE. THIS APPLIES TO BOTH YOUR WORK LIFE AND PERSONAL LIFE. IM WRITING THIS POST MORE FOR THE WORK SIDE OF THINGS BUT IL WRITE ABOUT PERSONAL SIDE TOO. IVE SAID IT BEFORE IN THE OTHER POST, YOU NEVER WANT TO BURN ANY BRIDGES WITH ANYONE. ESPECIALLY SINCE MY CITY IS SO SMALL WHERE SOMEONE KNOWS SOMEONE WHO KNOWS YOU, YOU REALLY DONT WANT PEOPLE TO START TALKING. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO IN YOUR PAST WILL ACTUALLY HELP YOU IN THE PRESENT OR EVEN THE FUTURE. THROUGH SOME STRANGE EVENT YOU MIGHT END UP DEPENDING ON SOMEONE FOR SOMETHING, WHETHER FOR AN INTRODUCTION, OR PROMOTION, OR JUST TO HELP YOU OUT. IF YOU BURNED THAT BRIDGE, ODDS ARE THEY WONT HELP YOU WHEN YOU NEED IT. IVE BEEN DEALING WITH A LOT OF DIFFERENT CLIENTS AND CONTRACTORS THROUGHOUT THE YEARS AND A LOT OF THEM HAVE ONE THING IN COMMON, THEY TRY TO KEEP GOOD RELATIONS WITH ME. THEY WOULD JUST GIVE ME A CALL, SEND AN EMAIL, OR JUST GRABBING A COFFEE, THEY WOULD MAKE AN EFFORT TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH ME. GRANTED ITS MORE FOR A BUSINESS REASON THAT THEY KEEP IN TOUCH, BUT THIS IS HOW THEY MAKE SURE THAT THEY ARE ON YOUR MIND. THEN WHEN THE TIME COMES, YOU KNOW WHO TO CALL. IF THEY NEVER EVEN TRIED TO BUILD THAT RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW THEM, WHAT ARE THE ODDS OF YOU EVEN BOTHERING LOOKING FOR THEM? LOW!!! MAKING THAT FIRST STEP AT LEAST GETS YOUR FOOT IN THE DOOR, AND POSSIBLY MORE BUSINESS IN THE FUTURE. EVERYTHING IS CALCULATED, AND IT ONLY MAKES SENSE TO INVEST IN RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE YOURE INVESTING IN YOUR OWN FUTURE, AND THATS HOW YOU SURVIVE. FOR PERSONAL LIFE??? IM GETTING TO THE AGE WHERE MY GROUPS OF FRIENDS ARE GETTING MORE SET, SETTLING DOWN, GETTING MARRIED, AND HAVING KIDS. ITS HARDER AND HARDER TO MEET NEW PEOPLE. OF COURSE I HAVE MY MAIN CORE GROUP OF FRIENDS, AND THEN THOSE FRIENDS IM FRIENDS WITH, AND THE FRIENDS OF FRIENDS THAT IM FRIENDS WITH, AND THOSE FRIENDS WHO ARE ACQUAINTANCES AND I DONT REALLY HANG OUT MUCH WITH OR AT ALL. IT JUST SEEMED SO MUCH EASIER BACK IN THE DAY WHERE YOU JUST MEET EVERYONE AND JUST HAD A GREAT TIME, YOU END UP SEEING THEM ALL THE TIME AND THEN FROM THEM YOU MEET MORE PEOPLE AND THEY MEET YOUR PEOPLE AND SO ON AND SO ON. THESE DAYS HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSE TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS... GO OUT AND SAY, HEY! LETS BE FRIENDS? YOU WOULD JUST END UP WITH A WEIRD STARE AND THEY WOULD RUN AWAY FROM YOU. WHEN YOU DO END UP JOINING A NEW GROUP OF PEOPLE, ITS ALWAYS HARD TOO BECAUSE THEY ALREADY HAVE THAT BASE AND HISTORY WITH EACH OTHER THAT YOU DONT HAVE. THEN WHEN SOMEONE BRINGS YOU INTO THEIR GROUP, ITS JUST LIKE... WHAT ARE THEY DOING HERE, OR WHO IS THIS THAT IVE NEVER MET BEFORE. THEN WHEN YOU FINALLY ARE IN THE GROUP IT FEELS LIKE YOU HAVE TO START EVERYTHING AGAIN WITH THE NEW PEOPLE, AND LEARN EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM. MAKING NEW FRIENDS AND BUILDING NEW RELATIONSHIPS TAKES TOO MUCH TIME, ENERGY, AND MONEY... ALL OF WHICH I DONT HAVE ENOUGH OF. YOU ALL KNOW IM A SOCIAL GUY AND WILL JUST TALK AND TALK AND MEET NEW PEOPLE OR GROUPS, BUT SOMETIMES ITS JUST REALLY HARD, AND SOMETIMES I JUST THINK WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER...

OMG SO MANY EPISODES OF PERSON OF INTEREST!!! THERE WERE 3 THIS WEEK AND ITS JUST AHHHHHHHHH!!! FANBOY!!!!!!!!!!! LOL. I REALLY JUST WANTED TO WRITE ABOUT THE TOP ONE CAUSE ITS BEEN REALLY RELEVANT LATELY SO YA... REST OF LIFE? WORKS BUSY, AS A MATTER OF FACT I HAVE MEETINGS ALL DAY AND MEETINGS TO PREPARE FOR. WORK WORK WORK... LONG WEEKEND WAS FINE, JUST HUNG OUT AND ATE A LOT LOL. IM TRED AND TOMORROW IS THE BIGGEST MEETING FOR MY PORTFOLIO SO IM GONNA GO SLEEP. SEE YA NEXT TIME.

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THE FIRST STEP IS ALWAYS THE HARDEST

JUST LIKE EVERYTHING IN LIFE, IT ALL STARTS WITH THAT FIRST STEP. THINK ABOUT IT... WAKING UP IN THE MORNING YOU CAN DECIDE TO SNOOZE IT OR WAKE UP AND GO BRUSH UP. DECIDING WHETHER TO EAT SOMETHING EASY LIKE CEREAL OR MAKE SOME BACON AND EGGS. DECIDING TO START READING A BOOK, LEARNING A NEW LANGUAGE, OR TRYING SOMETHING NEW FOR THE FIRST TIME THAT FIRST STEP IS THE ACT OF ACTUALLY GOING FORWARD AND DOING SOMETHING. EVERYTHING STARTS OFF LIKE THAT AND IT JUST CONTINUES ON UNTIL ITS SECOND NATURE. A BABYS FIRST STEP IS PHYSICALLY THE HARDEST FIRST STEP WE WILL TAKE. LATER IN LIFE DECIDING TO GO TO SCHOOL OR GO BACK TO SCHOOL. FINALLY BUYING A CAR, MOVING OUT. DECIDING TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP, GETTING MARRIED, BUYING A HOUSE, HAVING KIDS, ALL THESE ARE STEPS AND NONE OF WHICH COME EASY. WHAT MOTIVATES YOU ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU TAKE THAT FIRST STEP? THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE A JOB? PERHAPS YOU HAVE RESPONSIBILITIES TO TAKE CARE OF AND ONLY YOU CAN DO IT. WHATEVER IT IS, YOU MADE THE DECISION TO TAKE THAT STEP TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO. FOR ME, PERSONALLY, THE REASON IS CHANGE. I WANT A CHANGE IN SOMETHING, I CANT JUST KEEP DOING WHAT IM DOING. I CONSCIOUSLY KNOW THAT SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE BEFORE OTHER CHANGES CAN OCCUR. EVERYTHING HAPPENS IN STEPS. AFTER I FINISHED SCHOOL I REALLY DIDNT KNOW WHERE TO GO, I MEAN I GOT A JOB BUT IT WASNT WHERE I WANTED TO END UP. I STARTED LOOKING AT SCHOOL AGAIN AND IT WAS HARD TO ACTUALLY TAKE THAT STEP. ESPECIALLY AFTER BEING IN SCHOOL SO LONG, HAVING STUDENT LOANS, AND BASICALLY NOT LIVING MY LIFE THE WAY I WANTED. DEBATED A LOT, AND TOOK A WHILE LOOKING AT WHAT I WANTED TO GO INTO. EVENTUALLY FOUND SOMETHING I LIKED AND KNEW COULD MAKE A LIVING AND JUST WENT FOR IT. TOOK THAT STEP AND REGISTERED AND WENT THROUGH WITH THE PROGRAM. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT THAT FIRST STEP, IF YOU NEVER TRY, HOW WILL YOU EVER KNOW? PEOPLE THESE DAYS ARE JUST TOO COMFORTABLE AND DONT WANT TO LEAVE THEIR COMFORT ZONE. NOTHING EVER WORTH DOING WAS EASY... IF IT WAS THEN EVERYONE WOULD HAVE DONE IT ALREADY. THEN AGAIN A LOT OF PEOPLE THESE DAYS ARE JUST AFRAID TO TRY ANYTHING, NOT KNOWING IF THEY COULD DO IT OR MAKE IT. THEY ARE JUST AFRAID OF WHAT THEY DONT KNOW, SO TO NOT BE AFRAID THEY JUST STAY WHERE THEY ARE AND NEVER TAKING THAT STEP. FEAR OF FAILURE, FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN, FEAR OF DISAPPOINTMENT... NONE OF THESE FEARS ARE REAL... THEY ARE ALL IN YOUR HEAD AND IF YOU CAN GET PAST THAT FEAR, THEN YOU WILL TRULY BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING YOU WANT. IF YOU ALL REMEMBER A FEW MONTHS BACK FOR MY BDAY POST I MENTIONED THAT I GAVE MYSELF A DEADLINE OF 1 YEAR. NOT MANY PEOPLE KNOW WHAT IT IS AND IVE ONLY TOLD A FEW PEOPLE. ITS A HEFTY GOAL THAT I SET FOR MYSELF, AND ODDS ARE THAT IT CANT BE DONE IN JUST 1 YEAR, BUT LIKE I SAID... IF I NEVER TRY, HOW WILL I EVER KNOW? RIGHT??? THE ENTIRE TIME IVE BEEN WANTING TO START AND I KEEP TELLING MYSELF THAT IM GOING TO START... AND A DAY GOES BY... WEEKS... MONTHS... I KEEP SAYING IM TIRED FROM WORK, OR IM GOING OUT, OR AFTER THIS TV SHOW, OR IM JUST LAZY... AND UP TO A FEW DAYS AGO I STILL HAVENT STARTED... THATS ABOUT 100 DAYS GONE... BUT NOW I CAN ACTUALLY SAY THAT I TOOK THAT FIRST STEP, I TOOK THAT HARDEST STEP AND MOVED FORWARD. NOW THAT I HAVE STARTED, ITS NOT THAT HARD TO CONTINUE, JUST HAVE TO KEEP ON GOING, AND KEEP AT IT. WHO KNOWS... MAYBE IF I KEEP THIS UP THAT 1 YEAR DEADLINE MIGHT ACTUALLY HAPPEN LOL. HAVING SPENT THIS MUCH TIME, MONEY, AND ENERGY ON THIS ALREADY MY ONLY CHOICE IS TO STICK THIS OUT AND SEE WHERE IT LEADS TO. IF IT WORKS OUT THEN GREAT, IF IT DOESNT THEN AT LEAST I CAN SAY I TRIED AND I KNOW. IN THE END NO ONE CAN DO IT FOR YOU. YOU HAVE TO DECIDE FOR YOURSELF IF YOU WANT TO TAKE THAT STEP. ITS GOING TO BE HARD, ITS GOING TO BE SLOW, AT TIMES YOU MIGHT FEEL LIKE GIVING UP, BUT IN THE END JUST REMEMBER, HARD WORK ALWAYS PAYS OFF. SO NO MATTER HOW HARD THAT FIRST STEP MIGHT BE... WHATEVER YOUR SITUATION MAY BE... DO IT FOR YOURSELF AND TAKE IT.

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DOING THE RIGHT THING!!!

DO YOU ALWAYS DO THE RIGHT THING??? WHAT IS RIGHT ANYWAY??? RIGHT IS SUCH A SUBJECTIVE TERM. WHAT ONE PERSON SEES AS RIGHT COULD BE TOTALLY WRONG TO ANOTHER. SOMETIMES IM NOT SURE IF WHAT IM DOING IS RIGHT OR NOT... IN THE MOMENT OF THINGS IT SEEMS RIGHT, IT IS ONLY AFTER THAT YOU REALIZE THAT IT MIGHT BE WRONG... IT IS WRONG... I CANT HELP MYSELF, I TRY TO DO THE RIGHT THING AND SOMETIMES LOOKING BACK WHY DID I DO IT? WHY COULDNT I JUST HAVE DONE IT WRONG, WHY BE THE GOOD GUY AND DO THE RIGHT THING. THERE IS NO REAL PRIZE FOR GOING THE RIGHT THING, YOU JUST FEEL BETTER. SOMETIMES THE RESULT OF DOING THE RIGHT THING IS EVEN WORSE THAN DOING THE WRONG THING... SO WHATS THE POINT? IT ALL JUST ENDS WITH WHAT YOU CAN LIVE WITH. IF YOU CAN LIVE WITH YOURSELF DOING IT WRONG, THEN ODDS ARE YOU WILL DO IT THAT WAY. SOMEHOW IT TURNS OUT THAT I WANT TO DO THE RIGHT THING AND BE ABLE TO EXPLAIN AND LIVE WITH MYSELF... BUT SOMETIMES I REALLY WISH I DID THINGS ANOTHER WAY. SOMETIMES ITS JUST SO HARD TRYING TO DO THE RIGHT THING. YOU TRY TRY TRY AND YOU JUST CANT DO IT. SOMEHOW TRYING SO HARD TO DO THE RIGHT THING YOU END UP MESSING IT UP... LIFES FUNNY LIKE THAT, AND WHEN YOU REALLY DONT CARE ANYMORE, THATS WHEN THINGS GO RIGHT AND WORK THEMSELVES OUT... FROM WHEN WE WERE YOUNG, WE WERE ALWAYS TAUGHT TO DO THE RIGHT THING... BUT WE SEE ALL THOSE WHO DONT FOLLOW THAT RULE DO SO MUCH BETTER THAT MAKES US RETHINK IT. EVERYTHING JUST WORKS OUT FOR THOSE PEOPLE... BUT REMEMBER KARMA ALWAYS COMES BACK SO THINK OF IT IN THE LONG RUN. JUST DO WHAT YOU WANT TO... IF YOU CAN LIVE WITH YOURSELF... BUT IF YOU DONT DO IT SOMEONE ELSE WILL... SO WHY NOT YOU BETTER THAN THEM??? THAT LAST BIT DOESNT REALLY APPLY TO EVERYTHING... AND IT ALWAYS GOES BACK TO WHERE THERE IS ALWAYS AN EXCEPTION TO EVERY RULE LOL.

NOTHING NEW BUT THE SAME OLD WORK AND LIFE. STARTED A FEW NEW TV SHOWS AND BURNING THROUGH THEM QUITE QUICKLY LOL. ITS 2 WEEKS INTO MY 366 DAY DEADLINE AND I REALLY SHOULD NOT HAVE FOUND THOSE SHOWS... IL GET RIGHT BACK TO THE WORK SOON ENOUGH... LOL

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