BRAIN DEAD...

THAT IS ALL... JUST... AND ABSOLUTELY BRAIN DEAD TODAY... MEETING IN THE MORNING... MEETING IN THE AFTERNOON... MEETING AT NIGHT... AND PREPPING FOR A MEETING IN THE MORNING... OH AND NOT MENTION A WHOLE BUNCH OF EMAILS AND CALLS AND OTHER STUFF THAT I WAS SUPPOSE TO DO BUT HAD NO TIME TO DO... IT WAS JUST ONE OF THOSE DAYS WHERE YOU REALLY DO NOT KNOW WHERE YOU ARE OR WHAT YOU ARE DOING ANY MORE... EVERYTHING JUST SEEMS TO BLUR TOGETHER INTO ONE BIG PILE OF GOOP... OH AND DRIVING 100KM ON TOP OF ALL THAT SURE HELPS... NOT!!! ONLY THING YOU CAN DO TRY TO WIPE IT ALL AWAY BECAUSE TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY AND ITS GOING TO BE THE SAME ALL OVER AGAIN...

SEPTEMBER IS GOING TO BE ONE HELL OF A MONTH... AND IT JUST STARTED TOO... SO HERES MY POST, A POST THATS SHORT ON SUBSTANCE AND SHORTER IN LENGTH TOO. IM JUST GONNA SIT IN FRONT OF THE IDIOT BOX FOR A LITTLE BIT AND THEN GET SOME SLEEP. WHO KNOWS... MAYBE TOMORROW WILL HOLD SOME KIND OF SURPRISE AND MAKE EVERYTHING SEEM A LITTLE LESS BLA...

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A LITTLE LOST...

LATELY IVE BEEN FEELING LOST... NOT IN THE SENSE OF WHERE I AM BUT MORE OF THE WHERE I AM GOING. LIKE WHATS MY DIRECTION? EVERYONE FEELS IT SOMETIME, JUST THE FEELING OF NOT KNOWING WHAT YOU ARE DOING ANY MORE. LOOKING BACK IM THINKING HOW DID I GET TO THIS POINT... AND ITS ALL GOOD BECAUSE EVERYTHING HAPPENED THE WAY IT WAS SUPPOSE TO, TO BRING ME TO WHERE I AM, BUT WHERE AM I GOING...??? I CANT REALLY SEE THAT FAR AHEAD RIGHT NOW. I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE I WILL BE IN 5 YEARS, OR SEE WHAT I AM SUPPOSE TO DO... I KNOW EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALL RIGHT BUT I DONT KNOW WHERE IT IS TAKING ME. IM TOO BUSY RIGHT NOW WITH WORK AND FOOTBALL AND SOCCER TO REALLY CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE... I CANT EVEN GUESS WHERE THIS IS ALL LEADING ME TO... MAYBE ALL THIS IS JUST BUILDING UP TO SOMETHING ELSE, BUT WHO KNOWS WHAT THAT IS... IM HAPPY WITH MY JOB, AND WE JUST WON OUR 1ST GAME IN FOOTBALL, AND WE HAVING THE QUARTER-FINALS GAME FOR SOCCER, FRIENDS AND FAMILY IS DOING WELL AND EVERYTHING IS COMING TOGETHER... FOR NOW... I ONLY KNOW THAT IN THE IMMEDIATE FUTURE THAT EVERYTHING IS SORTA SET BUT HOW ABOUT FARTHER DOWN THE ROAD??? I CANT SEE WHERE ALL OF THIS IS LEADING TO... THERES LOTS I WANT TO DO BUT HOW IS IT EVEN POSSIBLE TO GET THERE??? SO MANY QUESTIONS... THE FUTURES A LITTLE BLURRY AND IM A LITTLE LOST... BUT I GUESS THATS THE FUN PART OF LIFE... NOT KNOWING WHATS COMING AND THE ADVENTURE THAT IT WILL BRING... THE ONLY THING I CAN DO IS BE PREPARED FOR WHATS TO COME AND JUST TAKE IT ON HEAD FIRST... I MEAN... AFTERALL... THE BEST HAS YET TO COME, RIGHT?!?!?! :) 

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