BEEN THINKING... BEEN PLANNING... WHATS NEXT

A CONSTANT THOUGHT THAT KEEPS RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND IS WHATS NEXT... IVE BEEN THINKING AND IVE BEEN PLANNING BUT I CANT REALLY FIGURE IT OUT. CURRENTLY EVERYTHING IS GOING GOOD AND IM IN A GREAT PLACE IN MY LIFE FINALLY BUT IM ALWAYS WONDERING WHATS NEXT... YOU KNOW HOW IN THE OLD INTERVIEW DAYS EVERYONE ASKS YOU "WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF IN 5 YEAR?" THAT QUESTION IS SO HARD TO ANSWER. OF COURSE IN AN INTERVIEW YOU ALWAYS ANSWER THAT YOU SEE YOURSELF IN A MANAGEMENT ROLE OR EXECUTIVE LEVEL BLA BLA BLA AND PERHAPS ITS TRUE, BUT HOW MANY OF US CAN REALLY SAY WHERE WE WILL BE IN 5 YEARS. WE CANT EVEN TELL YOU WHERE WE WOULD BE IN A YEAR. SO MUCH CAN CHANGE IN A YEAR, A MONTH, A DAY, A MINUTE... SURE YOU CAN TRY TO PLAN THINGS OUT AND THATS WHAT IVE BEEN TRYING TO DO, BUT THERES JUST TOO MANY VARIABLES, TOO MANY QUESTIONS, TOO MANY DECISIONS TO MAKE TO REALLY KNOW. IF I LOOK BACK 5 YEARS AND THINK IF I HAD ANY IDEA THAT I WOULD END UP WHERE I CURRENTLY AM NOW THE ANSWER WOULD BE NO. I REALLY HAD NO IDEA WHERE I WOULD END UP... I HAD A PLAN AND HAD HOPE TO END UP AT POINT BUT THINGS CHANGE. THE SAME COULD BE SAID ABOUT NOW LOOKING FORWARD AND TRYING TO SEE WHERE I WILL BE. ONCE AGAIN I HAVE A PLAN AND HOPES BUT WHO KNOWS IF ITS GOING TO CHANGE. IN A WAY THIS REALLY PISSES ME OFF NOT KNOWING. I JUST REALLY WANT TO KNOW IF THINGS WILL END UP THE WAY I THINK AND HOPE THEY WILL. 5 YEARS IS SUCH A LONG TIME AND SO MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN BETWEEN. MAYBE WHAT I THOUGHT CANT EVEN HAPPEN OR WONT OR SHOULDNT EVEN HAPPEN. WHO REALLY KNOWS... ONLY THING I DO KNOW IS DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO, TO GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE, AND DONT LET ANYTHING STOP YOU. THERES NO POINT IN WAITING FOR 5 YEARS TO SEE IF YOU END UP WHERE YOU THINK YOU WILL END UP... START NOW AND MAKE SURE YOU END UP WHERE YOU SAID YOU WOULD END UP 5 YEARS AGO.

EVERYTHING ELSE? WORKS BETTER, EVERYTHING IS FINALLY FINISHING UP AND IT LOOKS LIKE NOT MUCH MORE OT :) PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS HAVE BEEN ROUGH... JUST TOO MUCH TO DO, BUT THE REST OF THE YEAR IS LOOKING GOOD AND ESPECIALLY GOOD SINCE ITS SUMMER TIME WOOOOOOOOOO. FOOTBALL IS GETTING INTENSE... PLAYING TO MAKE IT INTO THE PLAYOFFS RIGHT NOW AND LETS JUST SAY THE LAST GAME GOT REALLY REALLY LOUD AND ALMOST PHYSICAL... MULTIPLE TIMES... AND PEOPLE GOT KICKED OUT. SO NOW WE JUST CONCENTRATING ON FINISHING THE SEASON IN A PLAYOFF SPOT. THIS WEEK IS A MUST WIN NO MATTER WHAT AND WE GOT THIS!!! NOTHING IS GOING TO STOP US!!! I SAY NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOCCER SEASON IS OVER... TURNS OUT OUR VERY LAST GAME THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN JUST FOR FUN SINCE WE LOST THE QUARTER-FINALS WAS CANCELLED... THE FIELD WAS BOOKED FOR THE AUSTRALIAN NATIONAL SOCCER TEAM FOR PRACTICE... SURE... AND THE REST OF LIFE IS THE SAME. JUST HERE AND THERE DOING THIS AND THAT. ENJOY YOUR WEEK EVERYONE AND SEE YOU NEXT TIME.

RT

NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE...

EVER FEEL LIKE YOU JUST NEED TO GET OUT OF WHERE YOU ARE...??? I MEAN I NEED TO GET OUT OF THE CITY... GO SOMEWHERE... ANYWHERE... JUST OUT OF HERE... OUT OF THE CITY AND OUT OF THE COUNTRY... I JUST WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE FOR VACATION AND JUST LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND. I WANT TO FORGET ABOUT LIFE HERE, WORK, FRIENDS, FAMILY, WORRIES, DUTIES, AND JUST EVERYTHING. JUST GO SOMEWHERE OFF THE GRID IF ONLY FOR A LITTLE WHILE... DONT GET ME WRONG I MEAN EVERYTHING IS GOING GREAT BUT I JUST FEEL LIKE I NEED A GETAWAY AND JUST TO FORGET IT ALL AND COME BACK REFRESHED. IM SURE IVE WRITTEN ABOUT SOMETHING LIKE THIS BEFORE... I THINK ABOUT THIS KIND OF STUFF ALL THE TIME BUT IF I ACTUALLY WRITE IT IS ANOTHER QUESTION... I HAVE WRITTEN SO MUCH THAT SOMETIMES ITS TOO MUCH WORK TO GO LOOK UP IT ALL AND IM GETTING TIRED TOO HAHA. EVERYONE WILL COME TO A TIME WHERE THEY FEEL THE SAME WAY, ITS JUST EVERYTHING AROUND US THAT ADDS UP AND EVENTUALLY WE JUST NEED TO GET RID OF WHATEVER IT IS AND RECHARGE. THATS WHY WE ALL HAVE VACATION TIME :) THIS SORTA TIES INTO MY POST ABOUT LIMITS AND HOW EVERYONE HAS ONE. EACH PERSON CAN ONLY TAKE SO MUCH AND SOONER OR LATER SOMETHING WILL SNAP IF YOU DONT TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. SO NOW THE QUESTION IS WHERE SHOULD I GO FOR VACATION? IVE BEEN TO SOME OF THE PLACES IN THE US, ALL OVER EUROPE, AND ASIA AS IN CHINA, HONG KONG, AND TAIWAN. IM NOT EVEN GOING TO BOTHER LISTING THE PLACES IVE BEEN TOO... THERES TOO MANY AND IM TOO LAZY RIGHT NOW. ALSO IM NOT GOING TO BOTHER LISTING ALL THE PLACES I WANT TO GO TO BECAUSE UNLESS I WIN THE LOTTO OR MAKE IT BIG, THERES NO WAY IL BE ABLE TO GO TO ALL THOSE PLACES EITHER. SO MORE OF A REALISTIC PLACE... SOME PLACE WITH LESS PEOPLE AND JUST ENJOY MYSELF... SOME PLACE THAT I REALLY DONT HAVE TO TALK TO PEOPLE... OR DO ANYTHING... PERHAPS JUST LAY THERE AND NOT CARE... THIS SOUNDS LIKE SOME SORT OF BEACH OR RESORT... THEN AGAIN I DONT WANT THE WHOLE PAMPERED EXPERIENCE... I DO BUT I DONT... IM THINKING LIKE SOMEWHERE LIKE THE AMAZON OR DESSERT BUT NOT AS HOT OR WITH THINGS THAT CAN KILL ME... A MOUNTAIN THATS NOT THAT COLD... SOME PLACE THATS ENJOYABLE AND SECLUDED AND FUN... CAN SOMEONE PLEASE LEND ME A PRIVATE ISLAND WHERE I CAN JUST LAY THERE LOOKING AT THE WATER WITH NO ONE NEARBY??? THERES SOME STUFF ON MY MIND THAT I NEED TO FIGURE OUT AND THE MORE I TRY TO FIGURE IT OUT HERE AT HOME THE MORE MISTAKES AND CONFUSED I GET... THERES JUST TOO MANY DISTRACTIONS TO COME TO A CLEAR AND FOCUSED CONCLUSION... I JUST WANT SOMETHING THAT HAS NOTHING BUT EVERYTHING AND SOMETHING WITH EVERYTHING BUT NOTHING... SERIOUSLY THOUGH... WHERE CAN I GO... I HAVE VACATION AND I DONT KNOW WHERE TO GO... LOL

IT MIGHT COME TO YOUR SURPRISE BUT I ACTUALLY LIKE QUIETNESS... YES... ME... THE LOUD PERSON... THE PERSON THAT TYPES IN CAPSLOCK ALL DAY EVERYDAY... I USE TO BE LOUD AND TALKED A LOT... I STILL AM LOUD AND TALK A LOT... BUT THE DIFFERENCE IS THAT BEFORE IT WAS 24/7/365... NOW IT REALLY DEPENDS ON THE SITUATION... IVE REALIZED THAT NOW I REALLY DONT CARE AS MUCH ANYMORE... SOMETIMES I JUST DONT WANT TO BOTHER WITH GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS. I FIND THAT THE BEST TIMES NOW IS WHEN IM DRIVING OR WHEN IM ALONE... IM WITH MY THOUGHTS. WHEN IM WITH PEOPLE SOMETIMES I REALLY JUST WANT THEM TO SHUT UP!!! YOU REALLY DO NOTICE MORE WHEN YOURE SILENT. SOMETIMES I JUST LIKE WATCHING PEOPLE DIG THEMSELVES DEEPER AND DEEPER AS TO BEFORE I WOULD JUST SHUT THEM UP... NOW SOMETIMES THEY SHUT THEMSELVES UP OR I JUST REALIZE HOW BAD THEY ARE MAKING THEMSELVES LOOK. IVE LEARNED A LOT BY BEING QUIET... YOU OBSERVE MORE THAN YOU WOULD HAVE NOTICED IF YOU KEPT ON GOING. WELL GUESS IL LEAVE IT AT THERE... ALSO NOW IM PASSING OUT... LOL SO TIME TO UNSCRAMBLE ZEE BRAIN :)

RT