WHY?

ITS SUCH A SIMPLE QUESTION... BUT THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS SO COMPLICATED. IT IS ALWAYS THE QUESTION, AND NEVER THE ANSWER. PEOPLE HAVE SPENT THEIR LIFETIME TRYING TO UNDERSTAND IT AND TO ANSWER THAT QUESTION. ITS ALSO THE QUESTION WE ALWAYS ASK OURSELVES... WHY? IT IS THE BIGGEST MYSTERY IN THE UNIVERSE. IT KNOWS NO BOUNDS, IS NOT RESTRICTED BY ANYTHING, AND CROSSES ALL PLAINS. HOW CAN SUCH A SIMPLE QUESTION CAUSE SO MUCH HEADACHE? SO MUCH TROUBLE? SO MUCH... EVERYTHING! TO UNDERSTAND IT, IS TO UNDERSTAND YOURSELF, AND ITS NOT A SIMPLE TASK. SOMEHOW IT DICTATES EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING WE DO... SOMETIMES THERE JUST ISNT AN ANSWER, SOMETIMES ITS JUST THAT, ITS JUST WHAT IT IS, BUT WHY? AND TO THAT I ANSWER:

WHY NOT?

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GOOD MOVIE AND SHOW

OK SO QUICK POST BECAUSE I WAS WATCHING A SHOW AND NOW ITS LATE AND I HAVE AN EARLY MEETING IN THE MORNING LOL. SPOILERS BELOW AS USUAL LOL.

SEARCHING STARING JOHN CHO AND DEBRA MESSING. BASICALLY A DADS DAUGHTER GOES MISSING AND HE GOES ALL OUT TRYING TO FIND WHAT HAPPENED TO HER WITH A DETECTIVE. WATCHED IT WITH THE GF AND I THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE JUST AN ALRIGHT MOVIE, SOMETHING LIKE UNFRIENDED (WHICH I STILL DIDNT SEE YET...) BUT IT WAS SO MUCH MORE! IT WAS PURE SUSPENSE THE WHOLE WAY THROUGH. I WAS TRYING TO PEACE TOGETHER WHO DID IT THE WHOLE WAY THROUGH AS WELL AND IT WAS SO WELL HIDDEN AND KEPT SECRET THAT I ALMOST HAD NO IDEA UNTIL NEAR THE END. THERE WERE A FEW SMALL CLUES THAT I PICKED UP ON BUT IT WAS SUCH A GOOD MYSTERY. IT SHOWS HOW FAR A FATHER IS WILLING TO GO TO FIND THE TRUTH ABOUT HIS KID. THE MOVIE KEPT BOTH SIDES IN THE DARK AND EVERYTHING WAS REVEALED SLOWLY. WHEN IT WAS FINALLY REVEALED IT WAS JUST PERFECT, EVERYTHING MADE PERFECT SENSE. THERE WAS A FAKE OUT THOUGH, TOTALLY THOUGHT THAT WAS THE END BUT IT JUST KEPT GOING. HOWEVER THE WHOLE SITUATION REALLY COULD HAVE BEEN SOLVED IN ABOUT THE FIRST 5 MINUTES... BUT THAT WOULDNT BE MUCH OF A MOVIE EH. JOHN HAD A GREAT PERFORMANCE IN THE FILM, HE PUT A LOT OF EMOTION INTO THE FILM, AND MAKES A CONVINCING CRAZY DAD LOL. DEBRA THOUGH... SHE SOUNDED SO BORING AND MONOTONED OUT. I THINK SHE WAS A WRONG CAST FOR THIS MOVIE... EITHER WAY DEFINITELY A MUST WATCH, ALSO SINCE IT HAS AN ASIAN LEAD AS WELL LOL. I GIVE THIS A 8.3-8.68/10, HIGHLY RECOMMEND.

I WAS JUST WATCHING JACK RYAN JUST NOW. NO, NOT THE MOVIE, THE MOVIE WAS MEH, BUT THE SERIES THAT JUST CAME OUT ON AMAZON PRIME. I ONLY STARTED WATCHING YESTERDAY AND NOW I HAVE 1 EPISODE LEFT LOL. WELL THERES ONLY 8 EPISODES BUT OMG IS IT GOOD. IT STARS JOHN KRASINSKI, WENDELL PIERCE, ABBIE CORNISH, DINA SHIHABI, AND ALI SULIMAN. EVERYONE NEEDS TO GO WATCH THIS NOW!!! THIS IS WAY BETTER THAN THE MOVIE AND I SWEAR PRIME JUST THREW MONEY AT THIS SERIES, AND IT WORTH IT. JOHN YOU RECOGNIZE AS JIM FROM THE OFFICE, BUT IN RECENT YEARS HE GOT SUPER JACKED AND DID A FEW SOLDIER MOVIES INCLUDING 13 HOURS: THE SECRET SOLDIERS OF BENGHAZI. THEN THE MORE RECENT ONE QUIET PLACE, WHICH WAS ALSO AMAZING. HES TOTALLY ON A ROLL RIGHT NOW. ANYWAYS SOME OF YOU MIGHT KNOW JACK RYAN FROM THE TOM CLANCY BOOKS. I NEVER READ THEM, BUT I KNOW OF THIS CHARACTER. BASICALLY HES AN ANALYST WHO SORT OF BECOMES AN AGENT TO FIGHT TERRORIST. HE WAS ABLE TO FIND THINGS OUT AND SOLVE THE PUZZLE AND OTHER PEOPLE DIDNT. ITS A TOTAL CAT AND MOUSE SHOW. AFTER THIS I SWEAR IM FLUENT IN ARABIC AND FRENCH HAHA. IT IS ALSO A GOOD SPY TYPE SHOW. HIGHLY SUGGEST THIS SHOW AS WELL. IL WATCH THE FINALE TOMORROW ON MY LUNCH BUT I BET ITS GOING TO END SPECTACULARLY SOOO IL JUST HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE. I SUGGEST THIS TO EVERYONE, AND I GIVE IT A 8.5-8.8/10. THATS HOW MUCH I LIKE IT.

WELL... I GUESS IM GOING TO KEEP GOING WITH THIS FOR NOW... LETS SEE HOW LONG IT LASTS LOL

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THE LAST POST OF MY 20'S

WOW... JUST WOW... CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT THIS IS REALLY GOING TO BE THE VERY LAST POST OF MY 20'S... IM TURNING 30 IN A MATTER OF DAYS AND AND ONCE I HIT THAT MARK, ITS GOING TO BE A WHOLE NEW BALL GAME... I CANT BELIEVE ANOTHER DECADE HAS PASSED BY AND IM GOING TO ENTER A NEW CATEGORY... IT STILL REALLY HASNT HIT ME YET, OR MAYBE IT HASNT SUNK IN YET, BUT I DONT THINK IT WOULD AFFECT ME THAT MUCH. I MEAN, EVERYTHING IS THE SAME BUT THE MAJOR THING NOW IS, WHEN I SAY MY AGE THERES NO "TWENTY" INFRONT OF IT. NOW ITS A "THIRTY." TO ME IT FEELS JUST LIKE ANY OTHER DAY, BUT EVERYONE WILL MAKE A BIG DEAL OF IT. THERS SO MUCH I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT THIS BUT IM TIRED... LETS SEE HOW FAR I GET BEFORE I PASS OUT LOL. LOOKING BACK, THE PAST 10 YEARS REALLY WENT BY QUITE FAST. IT REALLY DID SEEM LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I WAS STILL IN CLASS AT LANGARA AND SFU. OR IT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY THAT I STARTED A REAL JOB... EVERYTHING SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY AT THIS POINT, PARTIALLY BECAUSE IT IS... BUT JUST BECAUSE IM FEELING NOSTALGIC. FORGET ABOUT TURNING 30... THIS BLOG ITSELF IS ALMOST 5 YEARS OLD... THINKING ABOUT, IVE BEEN BLOGGING FOR ALMOST HALF A DECADE... TIME REALLY DOES FLY. LOOKING BACK, IM REALLY NOT THAT SAME PERSON I WAS 10 YEARS AGO. IVE GROWN (OBVIOUSLY) AND CHANGED IN EVERY WAY POSSIBLE, AND IVE LEARNED A LOT IN MY 30 YEARS ON EARTH, MUCH IVE LEARNED IN THE PAST 10 YEARS. FORGET ABOUT THE THINGS YOU LEARN IN ELEMENTARY AND HIGH SCHOOL. THAT STUFF IS CHILDS PLAY AND EVERYONE GOES THROUGH IT. IM TALKING ABOUT LIFE LESSONS AND EVERYTHING ELSE. INSTEAD OF JUST TELLING YOU WHAT IVE DONE, WHICH I ALREADY DO ON THIS BLOG, IM GOING TO TELL YOU SOME OF THE THINGS IVE LEARNED THE PAST 10 YEARS. I TRULY BELIEVE IN THEM AND IVE WRITTEN ABOUT SOME OF THEM IN THE PAST, BUT HERE IT IS, MY LIFE LESSONS THAT I HAVE LEARNED THE PAST 10 YEARS (IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER):

1. PATIENCE / GIVING A FUCK

LIFE HAS TAUGHT ME THAT SOMETIMES YOU NEED TO BE PATIENT AND GIVE A FUCK, WHILE AT OTHER TIMES PATIENCE DOESNT EXIST AND YOU REALLY DONT GIVE A FUCK. I THINK BECAUSE OF LIFE AND EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING I HAVE TO DEAL WITH, IM A MORE PATIENT MAN, BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM LESS PATIENT WHEN IT COMES TO BULLSHIT. YOU JUST HAVE TO READ THE SITUATION, AND WHEN YOU NEED TO, CARE ABOUT IT. WHEN YOU DONT, THEN DONT EVEN BOTHER. A LOT OF TIME ITS JUST A BIG WASTE OF EFFORT AND ENERGY, SO JUST DONT EVEN BOTHER. YOU WILL BE HAPPIER FOR HAVING DONE SO. TIME IS MONEY!!!

2. NOT ENOUGH TIME

FUNNY HOW THAT LEAD INTO THIS. ITS TRUE, YOU REALLY NEVER HAVE ENOUGH TIME. I ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING I WANT TO DO, BUT NEVER HAVE ENOUGH TIME FOR IT. BY THE TIME I WANT TO DO IT, EITHER ITS TOO LATE OR IT JUST DOESNT WORK. BETWEEN SLEEPING, EATING, WORKING, AND WHATEVER ELSE, THERE REALLY ISNT ENOUGH HOURS IN A DAY TO DO WHAT ELSE YOU WANT TO DO. SO USE YOUR TIME WISELY. 

3. ALWAYS HAVE A PLAN / GOAL

I HAVE ALWAYS HAD A PLAN... SORTA... I KNEW WHAT I WANTED TO DO AND PLANNED FOR IT. WE ALL KNOW THAT PLANS RARELY WORK OUT THE WAY IT IS SUPPOSE TO. YOU ALWAYS NEED A PLAN, IF YOUR PLAN DOESNT SUCCEED THE FIRST TIME, THEN TRY TRY TRY AGAIN. ITS SIMILAR TO THE ROADS POST, WHERE LIFE HAS MANY PATHS FOR YOU TO TAKE. JUST BECAUSE ONE PATH DOESNT WORK OTU, DOESNT MEAN YOU SHOULD GIVE UP. ALWAYS HAVE A BACK UP PLAN. ALWAYS HAVE SOME SORT OF GOAL, SOMETHING LIKE A FINISH LINE. NEVER STOP GROWING AND IMPROVING. HAVING THAT GOAL MOTIVATES YOU, MAKES YOU DETERMINED TO KEEP GOING, IT PUSHES YOU TO DO BETTER AND BE BETTER. ALWAYS STRIVE FOR MORE, NEVER SETTLE.

4. LOVE / RELATIONSHIP

YOU CANT FORCE THESE THINGS, WHEN ITS RIGHT AND WORKS, IT WORKS. WHEN ITS WRONG, THEN IT JUST WONT WORK NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU WANT IT TO. PEOPLE DO STUPID THINGS IN THEM... JUST DO YOUR PART AND IF IT DOESNT WORK OUT, AT LEAST YOU KNOW THAT YOU DID ALL YOU CAN AND IT JUST WASNT MEANT TO BE. YOU REALLY GET WHAT YOU PUT IN. NEVER DESTROY OR BURN BRIDGES, BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHO AND WHEN YOU WILL NEED THEIR HELP.

5. DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY

DO WHAT MAKE YOU HAPPY. IF YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING THEN DO IT, WHO CARES WHAT PEOPLE MIGHT THINK, ITS YOUR LIFE SO LIVE IT THE WAY YOU WANT. DO THE THINGS YOU WANT. BE THE WAY YOU WANT. YOU WILL NEVER MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY, SO HONESTLY WHY BOTHER... MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY, BECAUSE IN THE END ITS ALL ABOUT YOURSELF ANYWAYS.

6. IT WILL ALL WORK OUT... SOMEHOW

STOP WORRYING!!! WHATEVER YOUR PROBLEM IS, IN THE END, SOMEHOW... EVENTUALLY... INEVITABLY... IT WILL ALL WORK OUT. THE UNIVERSE SOMEHOW ALWAYS DOES. JUST LOOK AT ME!!! EVERYTHING SOMEHOW ENDED UP ALRIGHT. IT MIGHT SEEM TOUGH RIGHT NOW, AND THERES NO LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL, BUT JUST KEEP GOING, NEVER GIVE UP, I MADE IT AND SO WILL YOU.

7. MOTTOS - "NO PAIN, NO GAIN" "LIVE WITH NO REGRETS" "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON"

THESE ARE WHAT I LIVE BY. SOME TIE INTO OTHERS BUT STILL HAVE TO SAY IT. NOTHING EVER WORTH DOING WAS EASY... IF IT WAS THEN EVERYONE WOULD BE DOING IT AND THEN WHAT WOULD THE POINT BE... THATS WHY IF ITS WORTH IT, THEN DO IT. PAIN IS ONLY TEMPORARY. LIFE IS TOO SHORT FOR REGRETS, SO JUST GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT AND DO IT. SURE I PROBABLY HAVE A FEW, BUT MOSTLY I DONT HAVE ANY. IVE DONE WHAT I WANTED, WHEN I WANTED. IN LIFE YOU REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN, OR WHY SOMETHING HAPPENS. IN THE WHOLE SCHEME OF THINGS EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. YOU MIGHT NOT UNDERSTAND IT, OR WANT IT, OR EVEN AGREE WITH IT, BUT IT ALL HAPPENS FOR A REASON. IT WILL BECOME CLEAR SOONER OR LATER. 

THERE IS A TON OF OTHER THINGS I COULD WRITE ABOUT BUT I HONESTLY THINK THESE ARE THE TOP ONES. IVE LEARNED A LOT AND CHANGED A LOT IN THE PAST 10 YEARS. NOW THINKING ABOUT IT, I WONDER WHAT THE NEXT 10 WILL BE LIKE. IT SEEMS LIKE A FAR AWAY DREAM RIGHT NOW, BUT WHEN I WAS 20... SO WAS 30... AND THAT CAME IN A BLINK OF AN EYE. 

MY ORIGINAL DUE DATE THAT I GAVE MYSELF OF 1 YEAR IS BASICALLY UP. I DID A LOT TO ACHIEVE THAT GOAL, BUT IT JUST WASNT ENOUGH AT THIS TIME. I HAD A FEW SET BACKS BUT THESE ARENT EXCUSE. IM STILL PLANNING TO CONTINUE THAT GOAL, BUT INSTEAD OF A YEAR ITS LOOKING MORE LIKE 2 OR 3 YEARS TO ACHIEVE. 

COME TO THINK OF IT... A LARGE PORTION OF MY 20'S I WAS STILL IN SOME KIND OF SCHOOL. IT WAS ONLY THE LATER HALF OF MY 20'S THAT I STARTED WORKING. MY 20'S I MET PEOPLE, I LOST PEOPLE, I GAINED PEOPLE, AND I FORGOT ABOUT PEOPLE. I TRAVELLED, I PLAYED, I ATE, AND I ENJOYED. I LEARNED A LOT ABOUT MYSELF, ABOUT WHAT IM MADE OF, WHAT IM CAPABLE OF, AND WHAT I TRULY THOUGHT AND FELT. IF I COULD DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN WOULD IT? I WOULD PROBABLY HAVE CHANGED A FEW THINGS, BUT FOR THE MOST PART... I AM THE WAY I AM NOW, AND I AM WHO I AM BECAUSE OF IT ALL, SO IM GOING TO SAY NO. THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I AM SUPPOSE TO BE. 

I REALLY WONDER WHATS IN STORE FOR ME IN MY 30'S... THIS IS MOST DEFINITELY GOING TO BE DIFFERENT. I GUESS IL LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW IT FEELS NEXT WEEK. 

GOODBYE TO MY 20'S. SEE YOU ALL IN MY 30'S

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ITS ALL A MYSTERY

SO THE NEW OUTLET OPENED UP NEAR THE AIRPORT LATE LAST WEEK AND OVER THE WEEKEND SOME FRIENDS AND I DROPPED BY. THERE WAS NOTHING SPECIAL ABOUT IT AND THE PRICES REALLY WERENT THAT GREAT AND THE SELECTION WAS MEH... THE ARCHITECTURE WAS COOL BUT THATS ABOUT ALL. OH OH OH AND A FREAKING HUGE LINE UP FOR COACH... AND I WAS ALL ASIANS... HAHA. THEN WE WENT TO ONE OF THOSE MYSTERY ROOMS WHERE YOU HAVE TO ESCAPE AND IT WAS MY 1ST TIME TO ONE OF THEM. WE PICKED ONE THAT WAS THE 2ND HARDEST TO BEGIN WITH... AND LET ME JUST SAY THAT IT WAS REALLY WELL MADE AND WE FAILED PRETTY BAD... HONESTLY YOU HAVE TO KNOW A LOT ABOUT RANDOM THINGS CAUSE THEY WILL HAVE CLUES AND ITS LIKE WOW... HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO RECALL OR KNOW THIS... AT THE END WE WERE TOLD WE WERENT EVEN HALF WAY THROUGH... SO YA IF NONE OF YOU HAVE TRIED IT BEFORE YOU SHOULD GO. ITS FUN. ANYWAYS AFTER THAT WENT BACK TO THE OUTLET FOR A BIT MORE LOOKING AROUND. THEN SPAGHETTI FACTORY, AND FOOD MASSAGE. YES, RANDOM, 6 PEOPLE TO FOOT MASSAGE. WE WERE UP THERE TO PAY AND THEY AUTOMATICALLY PUT A $10 TIP ON IT... SHE DIDNT EVEN LET ME CHOOSE... I DIDNT EVEN GET THE MASSAGE YET... HOW CAN I TIP BEFORE I GET THE SERVICE... ANYWAYS SO THAT WASNT TOO COOL. IT WAS A LONG DAY BUT IT WAS QUITE FUN, NOW WE PLANNING FOR ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE ESCAPE ROOMS LOL

SPEAKING OF MYSTERIES... EVERYTHING YOU DO IS A MYSTERY. YOU GO THROUGH LIFE WITHOUT REALLY KNOWING WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT. YOU TRY TO DO EVERYTHING YOU CAN AND PLACE YOURSELF IN A PLACE WHERE YOU YOU KNOW WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT, BUT YOU DONT. NOTHING IS 100% CERTAIN OR GUARANTEED IN THE WORLD. EVERYTHING CAN CHANGE IN A SPLIT SECOND AND YOUR WHOLE WORLD COULD BE FLIPPED UPSIDE DOWN. LIFES A MYSTERY AND THATS PART OF THE FUN PART OF IT. NEVER FULLY KNOWING WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT. I GUESS THIS IS TOPIC CAME UP CAUSE AS MENTIONED IN THE PREVIOUS COUPLE OF POSTS IM STARTING SOMETHING UP, AND ITS READY. EVERYTHING IS GOOD TO GO AND WE WILL NOW SEE IF I AM ABLE TO DO WHAT I WANT TO. RIGHT NOW WITH ALL MY PLANNING AND EVERYTHING I STILL DONT KNOW WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN. OF COURSE I WANT TO SUCCEED AND MAKE IT ALL WORK OUT BUT WHO KNOWS UNTIL I ACTUALLY START IT UP. ONLY ONE WAY. ONLY TIME CAN TELL AND THATS WHY THE MYSTERIES OF LIFE IS SO FASCINATING. I COULD TALK ABOUT THIS TOPIC ALL NIGHT LONG BUT IM TIRED FROM WORK AND EVERYTHING SO IM OUT. OH YA AND I TOOK MY FRIEND TO HER 1ST BASEBALL GAME AND IT WAS FUN. I SWEAR WE WERE THE LOUDEST ONES THERE AND IT WAS GOING TO GET ROWDY HAHA. SO MUCH FUN :)

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