IM ALL TANNED!!!

ALRIGHT WELL IM BACK FROM MEXICO AND LET ME SAY IM NEVER GOING BACK...LOL. WE WENT TO AN ALL INCLUSIVE AND YOU WOULD THINK YOU WOULDNT NEED TO PAY FOR ANYTHING... YOURE WRONG!!! EVERY ROOM GETS THESE "CREDITS" WHICH YOU CAN USE TOWARDS GOING TO THE WATERPARK, TOURS, AND OTHER ADVENTURES. WHAT YOU DONT KONW OR DIDNT KNOW OR DIDNT CARE, IS THAT THEY CHARGE YOU A 16% TAX ON THE PACKAGES. THAT IS WHAT YOU NEED TO PAY FOR. WELL THEY DO HAVE TO MAKE UP THE COST SOMEHOW... THE FOOD WASNT THAT GOOD EITHER... SOMEHOW THEY MANAGED TO MAKE IT TASTE BLAND OR NO GOOD... SO WE ALL HUNG OUT, WENT ON A TOUR, CHECKED OUT TULUM, WENT TO THE WATER PARK, AND HAD A WEDDING THERE. YOU SHOULD REALLY TRY WEARING A SUIT IN TH SUN... YOU WILL LEARN TO FIND THAT YOU CAN SWEAT IN SOME FUNNY WAYS LOL. THE WHOLE WEEK I WAS THERE AND I DIDNT EVEN TAN MUCH... I WAS PUTTING ON SUNSCREEN LIKE 3 TIMES A DAYS... THEN FOR SOME UNKNOWN REASON... THE LAST FEW DAYS I BURNED... NOW IM TANNED... IM REALLY DARK... THIS IS ONE OF THE DARKEST I HAVE EVER SEEN MYSELF... ITS QUITE FUNNY. ALL THE PEOPLE THERE WANTED TO TAN AND ALL WE SEE IS WHITE PPL ALL RED, BURNED. OUCH... HAVE FUN WITH THAT. WELL I SURVIVED AND IM  BACK... THERE WAS SOME MORE STUFF LIKE DELAYS GETTING THERE AND SPLITTING PEOPLE IN OUR GROUP ON THE WAY BACK... BUT WHATEVER, ITS DONE WITH AND WE ALL GOT BACK SO... IM TIRED AND SLEEPY, GOODNIGHT.

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TIME MAKES ONE THINK...

SO IVE TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE IN SOME FORM OR ANOTHER BUT DUE TO ME BEING ON INJURY LEAVE FROM WORK CAUSE OF THE CAR ACCIDENT THE TOPIC IS MORE PREVALENT. WHEN IM LAYING THERE, YOUR MIND JUST LIKES TO WORK OVERTIME AND A FLOOD OF QUESTIONING AND JUDGEMENT CREEPS IN... QUESTIONING AND JUDGEMENT OF WHERE I AM, WHERE IVE BEEN, WHERE IM GOING, WHAT IM DOING, WHY..., AND THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE OF ALL... WHAT IF... TIME JUST MAKES YOU THINK OF EVERYTHING YOU DONT WANT TO... I RATHER BE BUSY AND HAVE OTHER THINGS ON MY MIND THAN TO HAVE ME QUESTIONING MYSELF. THE WORST PART IS THAT ITS NOT JUST ONE THING... IT ALWAYS STARTS OFF WITH SOMETHING SMALL WHICH CONNECTS TO SOMETHING BIGGER AND THEN YOU JUMP ISSUES AND SOMEHOW END UP LOOKING BACK AT EVERYTHING YOUVE DONE. IT JUST SNOWBALLS AND SPIRALS OUT OF CONTROL... AND IN THE END YOU DONT EVEN KNOW HOW YOU ENDED UP WHERE YOU WERE WHEN ALL YOU WANTED TO KNOW WAS SOMETHING SIMPLE. YOUR BRAIN REALLY IS AN ASSHOLE... IT CONNECTS THINGS IN THE DUMBEST OF WAYS TO MAKE YOU FEEL THE SHITTIEST OF WAYS... BUT THEN... C'EST LA VIE... 

IM CURRENTLY HAPPY WITH WHERE I AM AND WHAT IM DOING BUT AT THE SAME TIME SOMETHINGS JUST MISSING. I HONESTLY THINK ITS JUST THAT THIS WILL BE A BIG YEAR. IT STARTED OFF IN THE WORST POSSIBLE WAY ALREADY AND MY OWN PERSONAL DEADLINE IS COMING UP. NOT TO MENTION THE BDAY THIS YEAR IS ALSO A BIG ONE... EVERYTHING CAN ONLY LOOK UP FROM THIS POINT AM I RIGHT? EVERYTHING IS STARTING TO FEEL LIKE WHATS THE POINT AGAIN. SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO, SO MANY GOALS NOT MET, AND TIME JUST KEEPS ON TICKING. WHO KNOWS WHATS CAUSING THIS... THE TIME OFF, THE MEDS, THE AGE, THE SURROUNDING... WHO KNOWS!!! JUST NEED THAT PUSH AGAIN TO GET MYSELF ON TRACK AGAIN. NEED TO KNOW WHATS IT ALL MEAN OR WHATS THE POINT. THE QUESTIONS THATS BEEN ASKED FOR SO LONG AND THE ANSWER ALWAYS ALLUDES US. SIGH... MAYBE IL BE ABLE TO FIGURE IT ALL OUT... SOONER OR LATER... MAYBE...

HONESTLY THERES SOME THINGS I WANT TO WRITE BUT I DONT WANT TO WRITE THEM... DOES THAT MAKE SENSE... MAYBE ONE DAY WHEN I FINALLY DECIDE TO WRITE ABOUT IT YOU WILL ALL UNDERSTAND.

STILL BEEN BUSY DEALING WITH THE CAR ACCIDENT AND ALL BUT IVE FINALLY BEEN ABLE TO GET A CAR. AFTER SOME SEARCHING AND SOME CONNECTIONS I SHOULD BE PICKING UP THE CAR SOMETIME THIS WEEK.

IM TIRED, IM SORE, I DONT KNOW ANYMORE... JUST... BLA... JUST... BLA... THATS ALL THERE IS TO IT... SO... UNTIL TO NEXT TIME...

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BRAIN DEAD...

THAT IS ALL... JUST... AND ABSOLUTELY BRAIN DEAD TODAY... MEETING IN THE MORNING... MEETING IN THE AFTERNOON... MEETING AT NIGHT... AND PREPPING FOR A MEETING IN THE MORNING... OH AND NOT MENTION A WHOLE BUNCH OF EMAILS AND CALLS AND OTHER STUFF THAT I WAS SUPPOSE TO DO BUT HAD NO TIME TO DO... IT WAS JUST ONE OF THOSE DAYS WHERE YOU REALLY DO NOT KNOW WHERE YOU ARE OR WHAT YOU ARE DOING ANY MORE... EVERYTHING JUST SEEMS TO BLUR TOGETHER INTO ONE BIG PILE OF GOOP... OH AND DRIVING 100KM ON TOP OF ALL THAT SURE HELPS... NOT!!! ONLY THING YOU CAN DO TRY TO WIPE IT ALL AWAY BECAUSE TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY AND ITS GOING TO BE THE SAME ALL OVER AGAIN...

SEPTEMBER IS GOING TO BE ONE HELL OF A MONTH... AND IT JUST STARTED TOO... SO HERES MY POST, A POST THATS SHORT ON SUBSTANCE AND SHORTER IN LENGTH TOO. IM JUST GONNA SIT IN FRONT OF THE IDIOT BOX FOR A LITTLE BIT AND THEN GET SOME SLEEP. WHO KNOWS... MAYBE TOMORROW WILL HOLD SOME KIND OF SURPRISE AND MAKE EVERYTHING SEEM A LITTLE LESS BLA...

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SOME RANDOM THOUGHTS

OK... SO I WROTE SOMETHING ABOUT HOW WAITING FOR ANSWERS SUCK BUT I DELETED IT CAUSE I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I WAS WRITING AND WANTED TO WRITE ABOUT... ITS 2:30AM RIGHT NOW AND I HAVE WORK AT 3PM SO HERE I AM... IM CURRENTLY WAITING ON 2 REPLIES FROM GOVERNMENT JOBS AND I JUST HATE HOW THEY WONT JUST TELL YOU ALREADY... THEY JUST STRING YOU ALONG... GET OVER WITH IT ALREADY SO WE CAN MOVE ON IF WE DONT GET IT JEZZ. YOU WAIT A MONTH FOR THE DEADLINE TO EXPIRE, THEN WAIT A MONTH FOR A REPLY OF YES OR NOT TO THE NEXT STAGE, AND THEN WAIT WHO KNOWS HOW LONG BEFORE YOU GET YOUR INTERVIEW OR EVEN A SHOW OF INTEREST OR NOT... BLA AND IN THE MEANTIME IM JUST WORKING AND WAITING. I GUESS LIFES ALSO LIKE THAT EH. FIND MYSELF WAITING FOR THE NEXT THING TO COME UP, WAITING FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN. YOU CANT ALWAYS WAIT FOR THINGS TO HAPPEN AND HELL IM NOT ONE OF THOSE GUYS WHO WAITS ANYWAYS. I HATE WAITING... IM A DO-ER BUT SOMETIMES YOU JUST CANT DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO... EVEN IF YOU REALLY WANT TO DO IT LOL.

WELL ONCE AGAIN I SEEM TO BE STUCK IN THAT WEIRD SPOT AGAIN. DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT BUT LETS JUST SAY THINGS CAN ONLY LOOK UP FROM HERE ON OUT LOL. REFERRING TO LAST WEEKS POST ABOUT THE BIT WHERE INSTAGRAM AND FB HAVING PICS OF THAT SAYING HOW TODAY IS PAGE 1 OF A NEW 365 PAGE BOOK AND HOW WRITE SOMETHING AMAZING... LETS JUST SAY IVE HAD ONE HELL OF A START TO THE NEW YEAR... AND NOT THE GOOD KIND OF START... ITS ALWAYS LIKE THAT EH... IVE SAID IT MANY TIMES IN THE PAST BEFORE BUT MURPHYS LAW IS A BITCH!!! HAHA. WITH THIS KIND OF A START I CAN REALLY TAKE ON WHATEVER THIS YEAR HAS TO THROW AT ME... SOOOO BRING IT 2014!!!

WAS TALKING TO A FRIEND THE OTHER DAY ABOUT EVERYTHING AND THINKING BACK LIFE WAS SO MUCH SIMPLER, NOT A CARE IN THE WORLD JUST DOING WHAT WE WANTED TO DO JUST CAUSE WE WANTED TO DO... BUT NOW PRIORITIES CHANGE AND WE HAVE TO GROW UP. JUST TALKING ABOUT THE GOOD OLD TIMES AND HOW DID WE END UP WHERE WE ARE NOW... HOW THINGS COULD HAVE BEEN OR SHOULD HAVE BEEN OR WOULD HAVE BEEN IF THINGS WERE JUST A BIT DIFFERENT. DECISIONS THAT WE HAVE MADE IN LIFE, WHETHER FOR THE BETTER OR FOR THE WORSE. THEN AGAIN YOU CANT REALLY SAY THAT SINCE IT IS BECAUSE OF YOUR EXPERIENCE YOU ARE THE PERSON YOU ARE TODAY. LIVE LIFE WITH NO REGRETS, IVE ALWAYS SAID THAT AND THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. TRUE, THAT THE REASON MIGHT NOT SHOW UP AT FIRST BUT EVENTUALLY YOU WILL FIND OUT WHY IT WAS MEANT TO BE.

JUST THE VIEW WHILE WAITING FOR THE BUS

OUR EPIC JENGA OF DEATH LOL

THANKS FOR THE CABBAGE AND TOFU... WHERES THE PORK!!! :(

THE LAPTOP HAS RETURNED :) NOW THE FUN PART OF UPDATING... AND REINSTALLING EVERYTHING AND REDOWNLOADING EVERYTHING ELSE TOO... OH JOY...

NEW WALLPAPER FOR THE NEW YEAR :) AWWW YEAHHH RX-93 NU GUNDAM :)

THERE WAS GOING TO BE A FEW MORE TOPICS I WANTED TO WRITE AND RANT AND TALK ABOUT BUT I JUST DONT FEEL LIKE IT... LOL YA... ME NOT FEELING LIKE TALKING HAHA. WHAT A JOKE RIGHT? WELL IF YOU KNOW ME IM A LOUD, OUTSPOKEN, AND TALKATIVE GUY AND THAT IS TRUE, BUT I DO ENJOY MY PEACE AND QUIETNESS TOO, HARD TO BELIEVE EH? ONCE AGAIN I WAS WRITING SOMETHING AND I JUST STOPPED... WELL... SCREW IT LOL

ON A SIDENOTE... CHRISTMAS BREAK IS OVER SO NEW EPISODES OF ALL MY FAVE TV SHOWS ARE BACK WOOT WOOT :)

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