ANOTHER NEW YEAR

WELL FIRST OFF I WISH YOU ALL HAD A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE READING THIS. ANOTHER YEAR HAS COME AND GONE AND ANOTHER YEAR HAS STARTED AGAIN. IN THE PAST IVE GIVEN SUMMARIES OF THE YEAR OR THINGS IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS YEAR, BUT HONESTLY I JUST DONT FEEL LIKE IT ANYMORE LOL. I THINK IVE SAID THIS BEFORE... NEW YEARS RESOLUTION IS STRAIGHT UP BULLSHIT. IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT, YOU CAN REALLY START ANYTHING ANY TIME YOU WANT, YOU DONT NEED TO WAIT UNTIL THE NEW  YEAR TO BEGIN SOMETHING. ITS JUST AN EXCUSE, YA YA, IT MIGHT GIVE YOU TIME TO PREPARE OR JUST HAVE A "CLEAN SLATE" KIND OF GO AT IT. I SAY IF YOU WANT TO DO SOMETHING OR CHANGE SOMETHING THEN JUST DO IT. WHO CARES IF ITS THE MIDDLE OF MARCH OR THE END OF JUNE? THE MAIN THING IS THAT YOU START. WITH THAT BEING SAID I DO HAVE SOME PLANS FOR THIS YEAR LOL. I GOT SOME BIG PLANS AND I WORKING ON IT. IT JUST SO HAPPENS TO BE NOW SO I GUESS IL START IN THE NEW YEAR LOL... OH DONT GET ME STARTED ABOUT NEW YEARS PARTIES. ITS JUST FOR EVERYONE TO MAKE MONEY. EVERYTHINGS BEEN QUIETING DOWN OVER THE YEARS AND HONESTLY THERES NOTHING SPECIAL ABOUT NEW YEARS. ITS REALLY THE SAME AS BEFORE. WELL IVE BEEN WORKING ON SOME THINGS FOR THE PAST BIT AND IT JUST HASNT REALLY GOTTEN TO THE POINT OF IT WORKING YET BUT I THINK THIS IS THE YEAR TO MAKE IT ALL HAPPEN. EVERYTHING JUST TAKES TIME, YOU CANT RUSH THESE THINGS. I HAVE A GOOD FEELING ABOUT THIS YEAR, EVEN THOUGH EVERY YEAR IS A NEW YEAR AND I SAY THE SAME THING LOL. LETS ALL CRUSH IT!!! SPEAKING OF WHICH... ITS ONLY JANUARY 2... THE SECOND DAY IN... AND ITS ALREADY BEEN A HELL OF A NEW YEAR. SO HONESTLY NOTHING FAZES ME. SO LETS GO GET IT AND JUST DO IT! DO IT!!! DO IT!!!

THERE ARE PLANS FOR A CHANGE TO THIS BLOG. WHEN... WHO KNOWS. WHAT... I HAVE AN IDEA BUT HAVE TO SEE IF IT WILL WORK AS WELL. GUESS YOU ALL WILL HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE.

RT

5 YEAR ANNIVERSARY

HOLY CRAP!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT THIS POST MARKS MY 5TH YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF THIS BLOG!!! THIS IS THE EXACT DATE 5 YEARS AGO THAT I STARTED. WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE SURVIVED THIS LONG... TO BE ABLE TO WRITE A POST EVERY WEEK WITHOUT FAIL... BECAUSE I TOTALLY DIDNT THINK I WAS GOING TO KEEP THIS GOING OR KEEP THIS UP THIS LONG... IT REALLY HAS SURPRISED ME... I STILL CANT BELIEVE ITS BEEN 5 YEARS ALREADY. SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED IN THE PAST 5 YEARS... BUT SOMEHOW IVE BEEN ABLE TO KEEP THIS UP. EVEN WHEN I WAS OUT OF THE COUNTRY I WAS STILL ABLE TO POST SOMETHING JUST TO MAKE SURE THAT IT REALLY IS WEEKLY. SO MUCH HAS CHANGED... FAMILY, FRIENDS, CAREER, RELATIONSHIP, AND THE BIGGEST OF ALL MYSELF. LOOKING BACK AT MY POSTS I REALLY CAN SEE HOW IVE GROWN AND CHANGED. I DID KEEP MY WORD OF KEEPING THIS BLOG JUST LIKE ME... AND JUST LIKE THE TITLE SAYS... RANDOM!!! IVE GIVEN YOU ALL A VIEW INTO MY SUBCONSCIOUSNESS AND HOW MY MIND WORKS. I DONT KNOW HOW MANY STILL READ THIS, BUT ITS ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT SOME OF YOU DO. IT HASNT BEEN EASY... I KNOW AT TIMES THE POSTS ARE LACKING IN SUBSTANCE OR NOT EVEN THERE AT ALL... BUT THERES TIMES THAT JUST MAKES YOU TAKE A MOMENT TO THINK. IVE HAD MY UPS AND DOWNS WITH THIS BLOG. IVE THOUGHT ABOUT STOPPING, IVE THOUGHT ABOUT POSTING LESS, IVE THOUGHT ABOUT IT ALL. AFTER EVERYTHING WAS SAID AND DONE, I DECIDED TO KEEP GOING. LIKE I SAID... I DONT REALLY CARE HOW MANY OF YOU READ THIS OR ENJOY THIS, ITS MORE FOR MYSELF. ITS A RELEASE, ITS AN OUTLET FOR ME TO JUST DO AND SAY WHATEVER I WANT. THIS IS COMPLETELY UNFILTERED AND IS RAW. IF YOU EVER WANTED TO MEET THE REAL ME... WELL HERE I AM AND THIS IS IT. I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW IM GOING TO PROCEED IN THE FUTURE. IVE REALLY BEEN THINKING ABOUT CUTTING DOWN THE POSTS. BUT THEN AGAIN I HAVE A LOT OF POSTS THAT I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT... SO AT LEAST IN THE NEAR FORESEEABLE FUTURE IL STILL BE POSTING WEEK AFTER WEEK.

I WONDER WHAT THE NEXT 5 YEARS IS GOING TO LOOK LIKE... I WONDER WHAT THE POSTS ARE GOING TO BE ABOUT... I HAVE SOME POSTS THAT I KNOW IL WRITE BUT WILL I REALLY BE ABLE TO WRITE FOR ANOTHER 5 YEARS.... WELL... THEN AGAIN I ALREADY WROTE 5 SO WHO KNOWS... LOL. I GUESS FOR NOW IL JUST KEEP DOING WHAT IM DOING AND IF SOMETHING CHANGES, YOU ALL WILL BE THE FIRST TO KNOW :) HERES TO 5 GLORIOUS YEARS OF BLOGGING!!! :)

WELL WORKS REALLY BUSY ESPECIALLY SINCE IM LEAVING FOR VACA NEXT WEEK!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO FINALLY. AFTER EVERYTHING THATS HAPPENED THIS YEAR I REALLY NEED TO JUST GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND RECHARGE. I NEED TO CHANGE MY VIEW ON THINGS. I NEED TO JUST RELAX AND ENJOY MYSELF A LITTLE. ITS GOING TO BE GREAT. SO MY NEXT POST WILL BE FROM GOOD OLD CHINA LOL... IF I CAN GET IT TO WORK... LOL. SEE YOU ALL WHEN I COME BACK.

RT