THE HEART WANTS WHAT IT WANTS

WELCOME BACK EVERYONE TO THE 1ST POST OF 2015 :) HOPE EVERYONE HAD A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY, I KNOW I DID. NOW BACK TO IT!!! SO... YES... THE TITLE IS FROM SELENA GOMEZ... YES I WATCHED SOME OF WIZARDS OF WAVERLY PLACE... SO WHAT!!! SHES HOT!!! LOL AND ACTUALLY THIS HAS BEEN A TOPIC THAT I WANTED TO WRITE FOR A WHILE AGO TOO AND IT SEEMED LIKE NO BETTER TIME THAN NOW... RIGHT??? I ACTUALLY DONT HAVE MUCH TIME TONIGHT TO WRITE MUCH EITHER BECAUSE I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY FOR AN EXAM, BUT THAT ALSO TIES INTO THIS... BASICALLY IL SPARKNOTES THIS POST LOL. ITS QUITE FUNNY EH... YOU REALLY CANT HELP BUT WANT THE THINGS YOU WANT IN LIFE... OR EVEN KNOW WHEN YOU WANT IT... SURE THERES THINGS YOU WANT BUT HOW MANY THINGS DO YOU ACTUALLY NEED? WANTS AND NEEDS ARE SO FAR APART FROM EACH OTHER BUT SOMETIMES THEY ARE BOTH EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT AND NEED. YOU GO THROUGH LIFE NOT KNOWING WHAT YOU WANT OR NEED AND THEN ONE DAY YOU WAKE UP ONLY TO REALIZE THAT YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT AND NEED. WHAT IS IT THAT MAKES YOU WANT SOMETHING ANYWAYS... I GUESS THATS WHERE THE TITLE COMES IN... YOUR HEART... THAT TELLS YOU WHAT YOU WANT... IT SORT OF RIDICULOUS... THE HEARTS JUST A MUSCLE... AN ORGAN... A PIECE OF MEAT... IT DOESNT WANT ANYTHING EXCEPT OXYGEN AND BLOOD... IT CANT TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT... BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT DOES... AND DOES SO ALL THE TIME... SO WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU FINALLY REALIZE YOU WANT WHAT YOU WANT??? WELL... YOU DO EVERYTHING YOU POSSIBLY CAN TO GET IT, YOU WORK HARD FOR IT, YOU DONT GIVE IT, YOU DONT SURRENDER, YOU FIGHT FOR IT BECAUSE YOU KNOW YOU WANT IT AND DESERVE IT. SOMETIMES IT MIGHT SEEM IMPOSSIBLE TO GET WHAT YOU WANT... THAT THE ROAD SEEMS SO FAR TO GET TO WHAT YOU WANT... YOU MIGHT STUMBLE ON THE WAY THERE... YOU MIGHT WANT TO GIVE UP... BUT IF YOU REALLY WANT IT... JUST KEEP GOING FOR IT UNTIL THE VERY END. YOU ALL KNOW I LIVE BY 3 MOTTOS FOUND IN THIS POST: "NO PAIN, NO GAIN" "LIVE WITH NO REGRETS" AND "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON" AND THESE ALL HOLD VERY VERY TRUE TO WANTING WHAT YOU WANT. NOTHING YOU EVER WANT COMES EASY... GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT AND DONT REGRET HAVING GONE FOR IT... AND YOU WANT WHAT YOU WANT FOR A REASON. THERES LOTS OF THINGS I WANT... THAT IM TRYING TO GET... AND EVEN SOME THINGS THAT I BASICALLY HAD... BUT JUST ENDED UP LOSING THEM. SO WHAT NOW... SHOULD I GIVE UP? SHOULD I WAVE THE WHITE FLAG? SHOULD I JUST MOVE ON? NO!!! NOW IT MAKES ME WANT TO WORK HARDER FOR IT, TO GET IT, TO GET IT BACK. IT REALLY IS QUITE FUNNY... THE SAYING: "YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOUVE GOT UNTIL ITS GONE" AND YOU REALLY DONT REALIZE IT UNTIL YOU DONT HAVE SOMETHING... YOU REALLY DO TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED... ITS AMAZING WHAT PEOPLE REALIZE AFTERWARDS... THE SOONER YOU REALIZE WHAT YOU LOST, THE SOONER YOU CAN WORK TO GET IT BACK... AND IF YOU DESERVE IT THEN MAYBE... POSSIBLY... HOPEFULLY... YOU CAN GET IT BACK. IF OR WHEN YOU GET IT BACK YOU REALLY DO AND WILL APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE. WELL... WITH THAT ALL BEING SAID IM GOING TO SLEEP, I GOTTA GO GET WHAT I WANT TOMORROW LOL.

OH AND EVERYTHING ELSE THE PAST WEEK? NOT MUCH... FOR NEW YEARS JUST HUNG OUT WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY. HAD A PARTY AT ONE OF MY BUDDIES PLACE WHICH WAS FUN AND THATS ABOUT ALL. I HAVENT GONE OUT ALL WEEKEND OR WEEK CAUSE IVE BEEN STUDYING. SO NOTHING INTERESTING HAPPENED LOL. WITH THAT I BID YOU GOODNIGHT... UNTIL NEXT WEEK OF COURSE :)

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WHAT CODE DO YOU LIVE BY???

SO NO... THIS IS NOT ABOUT WHAT AREA CODE YOU LIVE NEAR OR ANYTHING OF THAT SORT... ITS ABOUT WHAT MORAL OR LIFE CODE YOU LIVE BY. FOR ME ITS EASY, IVE ALWAYS HAD 3 SIMPLE MOTTOS THAT I LIVE BY AND THEY HAVE TREATED ME WELL IN THE MANY YEARS I HAVE BEEN ON THIS FAIR EARTH LOL. SO HERES ANOTHER POST THAT DELVES INSIDE THE PSYCHE THAT WHICH IS ME :)

MY 3 MOTTOS IN LIFE ARE:

1. NO PAIN, NO GAIN

SIMPLE AND TRUE!!! NOTHING EVER COMES EASY, NOT BEING GOOD AT SOMETHING OR ATTAINING SOMETHING. TAKE SCHOOL AS AN EASY EXAMPLE, YOU WANT TO GRADUATE, WELL THE PAIN IS ALL THE READING AND EXAMS AND PROJECTS YOU GO THROUGH TO GET YOURSELF TO THE FINISH LINE AND GRADUATING. PLAYING SPORTS, NO ONE IS GOOD AT IT RIGHT AWAY. YOU CAN BE DECENT OR PRETTY GOOD IN IT BUT YOU HAVE TO PUT TIME AND EFFORT INTO PRACTICING TO GET YOURSELF TO THE POINT OF BEING A PROFESSIONAL. SOME READERS MIGHT KNOW THAT I HAVE MENTIONED THAT IM A SWIMMER. I WAS ACTUALLY THE FASTEST SWIMMING IN THE LOWER MAINLAND AND ACTUALLY RANKED 10TH IN THE PROVINCE. YES, I WAS PROVINCIALLY RANKED BACK IN MY HEY DAYS LOL. I DIDNT GET THERE BY JUST JUMPING IN A POOL AND BAM THERE YOU GO. I STARTED SWIMMING WHEN I WAS 5 AND PRACTICED HOURS AND HOURS AND TRAINED MULTIPLE DAYS A WEEK. IT WAS SOMETHING I WANTED TO DO AND I LIKE SO I PUT A LOT OF ENERGY INTO IT. SAME GOES WITH EVERYTHING IN LIFE. IF YOU JUST GET SOMETHING WITHOUT PUTTING YOUR EVERYTHING INTO IT THEN YOU JUST WONT APPRECIATE IT AS MUCH AS YOU WOULD OR SHOULD. YES YES THERE ARE THOSE THAT JUST GET EVERYTHING OFF THE BAT AND THEY MIGHT ENJOY IT, BUT ITS ALWAYS MORE SATISFYING WHEN ACCOMPLISHING SOMETHING ON YOUR OWN, IT JUST IS.

2. LIVE WITH NO REGRETS

LIFES TOO SHORT FOR REGRETS. IM PLANNING ON LIVING FOREVER, NOT SURE ABOUT THE REST OF YOU BUT IL JUST SAY MOST PEOPLE LIVE FOR AN DEFINITE AMOUNT OF TIME. AT THE END OF YOUR LIFE DO YOU REALLY WANT TO LOOK BACK AND THINK OF ALL THE WHAT IFS??? ALL THE WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN, SHOULD HAVE BEEN, OR WOULD HAVE BEEN? I SAY JUST DO IT AND DONT CARE ABOUT IT. IF YOU REALLY WANT TO DO IT THEN DO IT. THERES NOTHING STOPPING YOU BUT YOURSELF. THATS WHY ALL MY FRIENDS KNOW THAT IF I WANT TO DO SOMETHING I WOULD DO IT NOT CARING IF ITS STUPID OR CRAZY. THATS JUST ME, WHATS THE POINT OF WANTING TO DO SOMETHING BUT YOURE TOO AFRAID OF THE CONSEQUENCES? WHO CARES!?!?!?! OF COURSE IM NOT CONDONING VIOLENCE AND ROBBING A BANK OR KILLING ANYONE BUT THE MINOR THINGS IN LIFE. LIKE I SEE EVERYONE WORRYING ABOUT WHAT THEY EAT AND WHAT THEY DO ABOUT THEIR BODIES WHETHER TATTOOS OR PIERCINGS... IF YOU WANT THEM, THEN DO IT. ITS YOUR OWN BODY WHO CARES. I GUESS ITS A LITTLE EASIER SAID FOR ME SINCE I CAN EAT WHATEVER THE HELL I WANT AND STILL LOSE WEIGHT... LOL. YA... MY COWORKERS DONT LIKE ME IN THAT DEPARTMENT HAHA WOOOOOO GO CRAZY METABOLISM :) BUT SERIOUSLY THIS GOES WITH TAKING CHANCES AND TRYING SOMETHING NEW. WHICH IS WHY IM ALWAYS DOWN FOR NEW FOODS CAUSE ITS AN EXPERIENCE, PLUS I LOVE FOOD HEHE. TAKE SKYDIVING, I DID IT CAUSE I WANTED TO JUMP OUT OF A PLANE. IT WAS AWESOME AND I WOULD LOVE TO DO IT AGAIN (PROBABLY CAUSE IM AN ADRENALINE JUNKIE TOO). IF YOU THOUGHT ABOUT DOING BUT NEVER DID THEN WHATS STOPPING YOU? AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? ITS DANGEROUS? WELL THATS PART OF THE FUN. STOP MAKING EXCUSES FOR YOURSELF AND JUST DO IT. HALF THE FUN IS NOT KNOWING THE RESULT, AND THATS WHAT INTRIGUES ME INTO FINDING OUT.

3. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

I BELIEVE THIS WHOLEHEARTEDLY, IM BUDDHIST AND I BELIEVE IN KARMA TOO. LIFE IS NOT JUST A RANDOM MASH UP OF EVENTS THAT HAPPEN RANDOMLY. IM NOT SAYING THERES NO FREE WILL BUT IF FATE WANTED SOMETHING TO HAPPEN, THEN IT WILL EVENTUALLY AND INEVITABILITY HAPPEN. EVERYONE MAKES THEIR OWN DECISIONS BUT DO YOU REALLY THINK THAT SOMEONE SOMEWHERE CAME TO THE EXACT SAME CONCLUSION AND EXACT SAME LOCATION AS YOU RANDOMLY? SOMETHING HAD TO HAVE MADE THE OTHER PERSON ARRIVE AT THE SAME SPOT IN TIME AND SPACE. TAKE THE PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW IN THIS INSTANT. HOW DO YOU THINK YOU ALL ARRIVED AT THE SAME SPOT? WHY ARE THEY THERE? WAS IT BY ACCIDENT OR DID SOMEHOW FATE PUT YOU AT THAT EXACT MOMENT TO MEET THAT EXACT PERSON? SAY WHAT IF YOU MISSED YOUR BUS THAT DAY AND YOU ENDED UP WAITING WITH SOMEONE WHO EVENTUALLY BECOMES YOUR FRIEND. LIFE IS FULL OF MYSTERIES LIKE THAT. NOW TAKE THE PEOPLE THAT COME AND GO IN YOUR LIFE, THE ACQUAINTANCES, WE ALL HAVE THOSE PEOPLE IN OUR LIVES. PEOPLE WHO YOU MEET AND ARE THERE BUT NEVER REALLY THERE OR IS THERE AND EVENTUALLY LEAVE. WHY IS THAT? PROBABLY BECAUSE THEIR TIME AND THEIR REASON OF BEING THERE HAS COME TO AN IMPASSE. AT THAT POINT IN TIME YOU JUST HAVE TO SAY THANKS FOR EVERYTHING AND MOVE ON. SOME PEOPLE MAY CALL IT LUCK, WHETHER GOOD OR BAD, THERE WAS A REASON FOR IT. IN THE END YOU JUST HAVE TO TAKE IT FOR WHAT IT WAS OR IS AND HOPEFULLY THROUGH EVERYTHING YOU LEARNED SOMETHING OUT OF IT, THATS THE BEST ANYONE COULD EVER HOPE FOR.

IN A WAY ALL 3 OF THEM TIE INTO EACH OTHER AND I GUESS THATS WHY I AM THE WAY I AM AND THINK AND DO THE THINGS I DO. DO I GO THROUGH PAIN TO GET TO THE GAIN? OF COURSE I DO. DO I REGRET THINGS IN LIFE? TRY NOT TO BUT THERE ARE LESS THAN A HANDFUL OF SITUATIONS AND THEY CAN ALL BE CHANGED STILL. DO I LEARN FROM EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS? YES, CAUSE HOW ELSE ARE YOU SUPPOSE TO GROW AS A PERSON? 

I REALLY DONT KNOW HOW MANY OF YOU READERS OUT THERE ACTUALLY READ ALL THAT I RANT AND RAVE ABOUT BUT I WOULD HOPE THAT THOSE THAT DO TAKE AWAY SOMETHING HERE OR THERE, IF ITS ABOUT SOME RANDOM THING YOU NEVER KNEW OR JUST NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT. IVE ASKED MYSELF WHY I KEEP WRITING? I WAS NEVER ANY GOOD AT WRITING, AND IF YOU READ MY POSTS YOU PROBABLY CAN TELL TOO CAUSE OF EVERYTHING THAT WOULD DRIVE A GRAMMER NAZI MAD LOL. I DO IT FOR THE HELL OF DOING IT AND CAUSE I WANT TO. CALL THIS AN OUTLET IF YOU WILL OR JUST THE RANDOM RANDOMNESS OF A CRAZY 27 YEAR OLD WHOS TRYING TO FIGURE THIS CRAP OUT. 

GOOD JOB KOREA :) LOL HMMM WAIT... 4 HOURS TO GET TO THE SUN??? SOUNDS FISHY HERE HAHA

BUAHAHAHA HOW LUCKY MY DAD WAS TO GET A SURPRISE... ON HIS LEG BY A NICE BIRD LOL

DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO EAT THEN THE LADY GAVE US A COUPON TO EAT AND HEY WHAT A DEAL LOL

ONCE SEEN... IT CANNOT BE UNSEEN LOL. YOU WILL GET IT IF YOU FOLLOW STUFF ONLINE LOL OR USE YOUR IMAGINATION HAHA

LOOK HOW FANCY I AM AT WORK. I HAVE SALMON SUSHI, CRAB CLAWS AND AN ICE TEA LOL

WORK IS WORK. SCHOOL IS BACK IN SESSION. WHICH I REALLY SHOULD START READING... ANOTHER $177 FOR A TEXTBOOK... YAY... THANKS... LOL. EVERYTHING ELSE IN LIFE? WELL... AS ALWAYS IT CAN BE BETTER BUT AT LEAST ITS NOT WORSE.

ACTUALLY... I THINK I WROTE ABOUT THIS TOPIC BEFORE... AND LIKE 10 MINS LATER I FOUND IT LOL. I FOUND WHERE I MENTIONED IT CAUSE I REMEMBER I WROTE IT SOMEWHERE BUT I NEVER ACTUALLY POSTED A POST ABOUT IT. SO HERE YOU ALL GO. HAPPY READINGS :) 

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LAST DAY OF FREEDOM... THEN BACK TO THE GRIND...

WELL... THATS ALL SHE WROTE. TOMORROW WILL BE THE 1ST DAY AT THE NEW JOB. WORKING 12 HOUR SHIFTS... BUT I WORK 3 DAYS ON THEN 3 DAYS OFF AND 4 DAYS ON WITH 4 DAYS OFF... SOOOO THATS PRETTY GOOD. JUST BEEN CHILLING OUT THE PAST WEEK SINCE I KNEW I WAS STARTING THIS JOB SOON. WATCHED A BUNCH OF SHOWS AND CHILLED WITH SOME FRIENDS AND THATS ABOUT ALL. ITS FINALLY TIME TO START REBUILDING AGAIN. GOTTA GET BACK TO THE GRIND AND SEE WHERE I CAN GO FROM HERE. ACTUALLY ITS PRETTY FUNNY... I KNEW AFTER GETTING CALLED FOR THIS JOB/INTERVIEW THAT MORE INTERVIEWS WOULD COME... I MEAN ITS ALWAYS LIKE THAT... EITHER NOTHING FOR MONTHS OR ALL OF A SUDDEN EVERYONE WANTS YOU LOL. OF COURSE IT HAPPENED TO ME... I ACCEPT THIS JOB AND THEN BAM!!! CALLED FOR ANOTHER INTERVIEW AND BAM!!! APPLICATION FOR THIS OTHER JOB WENT THROUGH AND IS GOING TO THE NEXT STAGE... THANKS... WELL WHO KNOWS WHAT ELSE IS GOING TO CALL RIGHT? BUT FOR NOW IL BE WORKING THERE. IF YOU ALL ARE WONDERING WHAT IM GONNA DO??? WELL AT LEAST ITS RELATED TO WHAT I STUDY AND WHAT I WANT LOL. IM GONNA BE IN AN OPERATIONS CENTER, SO YOU FIGURE OUT WHAT I DO LOL :) BUT NOW IM GONNA WATCH 1 MORE SHOW THEN GO SLEEP CAUSE GOTTA GET BACK TO THE NORMAL WAKING TIME OF 6AM... *SIGH... LOL

1ST XMAS PARTY WITH FRDS :)

DARTS WIN BY 3... WHAT A CLOSE GAME :)

DARTS WIN BY 361... NOW THATS A WIN!!! :P LOL

WE OUT OF ICE CREAM SANDWICHES :(

MMMM :) TAPIOCA BALLS WITH RED BEAN HEHE

IVE HAD ABOUT 5 OF THESE TYPES  OF BOXES OF SUSHI THE PAST WEEK LOL

SO THE PAST LITTLE WHILE IVE BEEN THINKING AGAIN... AS USUAL ON THE BUS... WALKING... SITTING... LAYING ON THE GROUND... IN BED... IN THE CAR... EATING... ON THE COMP... WATCHING TV... JUST THINKING AGAIN... ALL THE DIFFERENT THINGS THAT I COULD HAVE DONE, SHOULD HAVE DONE, AND WOULD HAVE DONE... HOW THINGS BE DIFFERENT FROM WHAT IT IS LIKE NOW... BUT LIKE I ALWAYS SAY "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON" AND "NO PAIN, NO GAIN" PLUS "LIVE WITH NO REGRETS" WELL... GUESS WE CAN ONLY WAIT TO SEE WHATS NEXT EH. IT ALSO HELPS WHEN THERES SOMEONE THERE TO PUT A SMILE ON YOUR FACE AND JUST REMIND YOU OF EVERYTHING ELSE. YES!!! IM TALKING ABOUT YOU ROGUE (AKA THE GIRLFRIEND) LOL. THANKS :)

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