FANCY AND SPIFFY

OK... SO I HAVE 3 TOPICS THAT I COULD WRITE ABOUT TODAY... BUT IM TOO LAZY, TOO TIRED, AND DONT FEEL LIKE WRITING ABOUT ANY OF THEM. ANY ONE OF THOSE TOPICS WILL BE A FULL POST AND I JUST CANT DO IT RIGHT NOW. BETWEEN PASSING OUT AND ZONING OUT, IM NOT ACTUALLY SURE I KNOW WHATS GOING ON RIGHT NOW LOL. SO INSTEAD OF GETTING A MEANINGFUL POST, YOU GET THIS... AN EXPLANATION OF WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN INSTEAD HAHA. I PROMISE I WILL HAVE A REAL POST NEXT WEEK. ITS JUST THAT I ALSO HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY TOMORROW AND ALSO HAVE A MEETING AT NIGHT TIME THAT I WANT TO GET SOME SLEEP.

HOWEVER I WILL SAY THAT LAST NIGHT I WENT TO THIS CHARITY GALA EVENT HOSTED BY OUR VANCOUVER CANUCKS. ITS TO RAISE MONEY FOR KIDS AND HELP WITH TREATMENTS AND SUCH. I WAS LUCKY TO BE INVITED AND WHAT A NIGHT IT WAS. TOTALLY FANCY AND SPIFFY AND TOTALLY DIFFERENT THAN THE NORMAL PARTIES I GO TO. ALL THE PLAYERS AND COACHES WERE THERE AND YOU GET TO INTERACT AND TALK TO THEM. FIRST PART OF THE NIGHT THE PLAYERS WERE CASINO DEALERS AND YOU GET TO PLAY WITH FAKE MONEY AND JUST HANG OUT. YOU CAN ALSO TAKE PHOTOS WITH THE PLAYERS AND ENTER DRAWS AND SUCH, WHICH WERE ALL BY DONATIONS. THE FUNNY THING IS THAT I HAVENT REALLY FOLLOWED HOCKEY IN YEARS... AND MOST OF THE PLAYERS THAT I KNEW ARE EITHER RETIRED OR NO LONGER ON THE TEAM. SO ALL THESE NEW PEOPLE I HAVE NO IDEA WHO THEY ARE. SURE IVE HEARD OF SOME OF THEM BUT DO I ACTUALLY RECOGNIZE THEM OR KNOW WHO THEY ARE OR THEIR STAT... NO. LOL. THEN THE ACTUAL PARTY PART WE WENT INTO THIS BIG BALLROOM AND THE TABLE SET UP WAS REALLY NICE. A BUNCH OF PEOPLE TALKED AND WE GOT 3 COURSE MENU OF SALAD, STEAK, AND DESSERT. MORE PEOPLE TALKED, AND THERE WAS A SILENT AUCTION, A LIVE AUCTION, AND GAMES. ITS WAS PRETTY IMPRESSIVE THE AMOUNTS THAT THE PRIZES WERE GOING FOR. I MEAN IT WAS DEFINITELY FOR A GOOD CAUSE, BUT THE MONEY THROWN AROUND WAS JUST SOMETHING ELSE, BUT ITS ALSO A TAX WRITE OFF SO I GUESS ITS A WIN WIN LOL. IT ALSO HELPS THAT IT WAS AN OPEN BAR AS WELL AND EVERYONE WAS GETTING HAMMERED HAHA. OVERALL IT WAS AN AMAZING, INTERESTING, FUN, LOUD, CRAZY NIGHT. FOR SURE IT WAS ONE OF THE FANCIEST PARTIES AND HIGH CALIBRE PARTIES IVE BEEN TO.

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HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

I JUST WANTED TO WISH EVERYONE A HAPPY NEW YEAR. I WISH EVERYONE HAPPINESS, GOOD HEALTH, AND PLENTY OF WEALTH.  I THINK I SAID THIS BEFORE THAT ITS GREAT HAVING TWO NEW YEARS. IF YOU DIDNT HAVE A GOOD START TO THE FIRST NEW YEAR, YOU CAN ALWAYS HOPE IT GETS BETTER THE SECOND TIME AROUND. ITS SORTA FUNNY BECAUSE THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED TO ME LOL. THE FIRST ONE COULD HAVE BEEN BETTER AND THE SECOND ONE STARTED OFF GREAT!!! THIS IS GOING TO BE THE YEAR! I KNOW IVE SAID THIS BEFORE AND IN A WAY THEY ALL REALLY HAVE BEEN THE YEAR. JUST THAT THIS YEAR WILL BE THE YEAR OF THE YEARS LOL. ITS THE YEAR OF THE PIG SO I GUESS OINK OINK IS IN ORDER, AND FROM WHAT I HEARD ITS ACTUALLY SUPPOSE TO BE A GOOD YEAR FOR ME TOO LOL. GOT A BUNCH OF THINGS IM WORKING ON SO LETS SEE IF ANYTHING PANS OUT. OH YA TECHNICALLY MY BROTHER HAS TO GIVE ME A RED ENVELOPE THIS YEAR!!! IM GONNA MAKE HIM GIVE ME ONE TOMORROW WHEN I SEE HIM AND MY NEPHEW FOR FAMILY DINNER LOL. MY FAMILY DOESNT REALLY DO THINGS THE DAY OF, WE NOT REALLY CRAZY TRADITIONAL IN A THAT SENSE. I ACTUALLY HAD A TOPIC TO WRITE ABOUT TODAY AS WELL BUT I TOTALLY FORGOT WHAT IT WAS NOW... SO YOU GET THIS SHORT POST INSTEAD AND NEXT WEEK IT WILL BE BACK TO YOUR NORMALLY SCHEDULED PROGRAMMING. HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GREAT TIME AND ENJOYS THEMSELVES. UNTIL NEXT WEEK, SEE YOU THEN.

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SUPERFLY

ALRIGHT! SO THERES A COUPLE OF MOVIES OUT RIGHT NOW I WANT TO WATCH AND SUPERFLY IS ONE OF THEM. WATCHED IT WITH GF LAST NIGHT AND I DID NOT KNOW IT WAS A REMAKE OF THE 1972 VERSION. ANYWAYS THE MOVIE STARS TREVOR JACKSON, JASON MITCHELL, RICK ROSS, JENNIFER MORRISON, LEX DAVIS, ANDREA LONDO, JACOB TRENT, MICHAEL WILLIAMS, ALLEN MALDONADO, ESAI MORALES, AND DIRECTED BY DIRECTOR X. MOVIES ABOUT A SMART DRUG DEALER THAT IS PLANNING TO GET OUT OF THE GAME BY DOING ONE BIG LAST SCORE, AND OF COURSE EVERYTHING GOES WRONG AND HIM TRYING TO SURVIVE. HONESTLY ITS ALL BECAUSE OF ONE INCIDENT THAT THEN SNOWBALLS AND THING AFTER ANOTHER GOES WRONG. HONESTLY I LIKED IT :) IT HAS GANGSTERS, HUSTLE, GUNS, DRUGS, KILLING, MONEY, AND SMARTS. TREVOR PLAYS PRIEST AND AND HES A SMART GUY. HES ABLE TO PLAY THE GAME RIGHT AND BEEN ABLE TO STAY OUT OF THE PUBLIC, UNLIKE THE OTHER CREW. ALSO HIS HAIR FOR THIS MOVIE WAS INSANE! HE HAD A TOTAL GANGSTER SWAG GOING ON. EVEN THE THREADS AND STYLE WAS ON POINT. THE OTHER CREW WAS JUST STRAIGHT UP FUNNY. THERE WERE A FEW ISSUES BUT THE BIGGEST ONE WAS HOW DID THEY SURVIVE OPENING THE AIRPLANE DOOR HATCH WITHOUT DEPRESSURISING THE CABIN THAT EASY AND NOT GETTING SUCKED OUT... THAT PART WAS UNREALISTIC LOL. THERE WERE SOME OTHER ISSUES BUT MEH THAT WAS THE MAIN THING. THE WHOLE MOVIE WAS MADE TO BE MORE SLICK AND HAD A CERTAIN FEEL ABOUT IT. JENNIFER MORRISON AS A BAD GUY WAS PRETTY INTERESTING, SHE PLAYED A CROOKED COP. SHE EVEN LOOKED A BIT SKETCH FOR THE PART, IT WORKED. PRIEST WAS ABLE TO HOLD HIS OWN WITH ALL THE INFO HE HAD. HE PLANNED THINGS AND RAN THINGS CAREFULLY. THEN AGAIN IT DOESNT MATTER HOW GOOD THINGS ARE THERES ALWAYS SOMEONE TO FUCK IT UP. YOU CANT DO EVERYTHING YOURSELF EITHER... IF YOURE DOING STUFF LIKE THIS YOU GOTTA HAVE PEOPLE TO KNOW THEIR PLACE AND KNOWS THEIR ROLE. THATS THE ONLY WAY TO SURVIVE. PEOPLE GETTING IDEAS CAUSED ALL THESE PROBLEMS. ALL THOSE PEOPLE OUT THERE JUST WANT THE MONEY AND THE FLASH... THE TRAILER HOWEVER MAKE IT SEEM LIKE CRYPTO WAS A BIG THING IN THE MOVIE, BUT IN FACT IT WAS ONLY IN THERE FOR A FEW SECONDS... AND IT WAS ALL IN THE TRAILER LOL. THE TRAILER ALSO MADE IT LOOK LIKE A NEW CREW WAS ROLLING IN ON THEM BUT THAT WASNT THE CASE. THE TRAILER TOTALLY CATFISHED US, BUT WE STILL LIKED IT. I LIKED IT MORE THAN THE GF. I SORT OF WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS AFTER... I WONT SPOIL THE ENDING AT LEAST HAHA. WHAT A WAY TO SET UP EVERYTHING, I WONDER IT IT WAS ALL PART OF HIS PLAN... EITHER WAY IF YOUR PLAYING THESE GAMES, YOU GOTTA PLAY THE LONG GAME. ITS ALWAYS ABOUT THE LONG CON. WITH THAT BEING SAID, I GIVE THIS A 8.25/10! YES IT IS MUCH HIGHER THAN YOU EXPECT AND WHAT THE OTHER REVIEWS GAVE IT BUT I LIKE HOW EVERYTHING WAS PUT TOGETHER. THE TRANSITIONS BETWEEN EVERYTHING AND THE NEW TRACKS FROM FUTURE WAS COOL TOO. I CHECKED THE TRAILER OUT FOR THE ORIGINAL MOVIE AND I WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO SIT THROUGH THAT... JUST TOTALLY DIFF AND THE STYLE WAS... INTERESTING... LOL. THEY TRY TO PLAY IT SLEEK BUT I SAY THE NEW ONE IS MUCH CLEANER AND BETTER THAN THE ORIGINAL. GO WATCH IT, SEE WHAT YOU GUYS THINK. LET ME KNOW. AIGHT IM OUT. PEACE.

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ADULTING...

WELL IVE BEEN ADULTING FOR A WHILE NOW AND ITS HARD... FOR THOSE WHO DONT UNDERSTAND, ADULTING IS BASICALLY DOING GROWN UP PEOPLE STUFF LIKE HAVING RESPONSIBILITIES, A JOB, RENT AND BILLS TO PAY, AND ALL THOSE LOVELY THINGS THAT GROWN UPS GET THE PLEASURE OF HAVING. IVE SORTA TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE HERE AND THERE BUT IT REALLY HIT ME HARD WHEN I STARTED BUYING BABY STUFF FOR FRIENDS KIDS... WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT I WOULD BE THE ONE TO BE DOING THESE KINDS OF THINGS... BEING A GROWN UP IS HARD... IT TAKES TIME AND MONEY AND YOU NEVER HAVE ENOUGH OF EITHER. HAVING RESPONSIBILITIES IS STRESSFUL!!! IT REALLY MAKES YOU THINK ABOUT YOURSELF AND WHERE YOU ARE IN LIFE AND WHAT YOU REALLY WANT AND WHAT YOU WANT TO DO. GROWING UP YOU HAVE ALL THESE DREAMS AND GOALS OF BEING A SPY OR AN ACTOR OR A DOCTOR, ONLY TO GROW UP AND REALIZE THAT ITS NOT POSSIBLE OR YOU JUST CANT DO IT OR THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO DO CANT PAY THE BILLS. ITS EVEN WORSE THESE DAYS SINCE EVERYTHING COSTS SO MUCH, HOW CAN YOU EVEN AFFORD TO DO ANYTHING? THERES JUST SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT THIS TOPIC. IT ALL GOES BACK TO THE BOTTOM LINE OF ARE YOU HAPPY??? IF YOU ARE HAPPY WITH EVERYTHING THEN THATS GREAT, BUT THE ODDS ARE IF YOURE AN ADULT, YOU ARE NOT HAPPY. NOTHING EVER GOES YOUR WAY...AINT THAT RIGHT... LIFE WAS SO MUCH EASIER... NOT A CARE IN THE WORLD AND NOW IM WORRYING ABOUT BABY PRODUCT INSTEAD... YOU JUST HAVE TO GO WITH IT AND MAKE THE BEST OF IT.

I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO WRITE ABOUT THIS BUT IM PASSING OUT... SOOOO UNTIL NEXT TIME :)

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CRIMINAL LIFE

IVE ALWAYS WONDERED ABOUT BEING IN THE CRIMINAL LIFE, AND I DONT MEAN BEING A LOW LEVEL DIME BAG PUSHER. I MEAN ABOUT ME BEING A BOSS OR AT LEAST SOME HIGH RANKING LIEUTENANT, OR AN ASSASSIN. FORGET ABOUT BEING KNOWN TO POLICE OR THE THREAT OF GETTING KILLED BY A RIVAL, THERES LOTS THAT I WONT BE ABLE TO DO. I WOULD HAVE TO SPEND THE MONEY BECAUSE OF THE LIFESTYLE, BUT I CANT BUY TOO FLASHY OR GO OVER THE TOP CAUSE THAT WOULD ATTRACT TOO MUCH ATTENTION AND I WOULD GET LOOKED INTO. I CANT REALLY HAVE A NORMAL RELATIONSHIP JUST CAUSE OF ALL THE RISKS. I CANT REALLY HAVE A FAMILY, ONCE AGAIN BECAUSE OF THE RISKS. IT WOULD BE HARD TO GET OUT OF THE LIFE TOO... ESPECIALLY IF I WAS THAT HIGH UP. ALSO THE FACT IL PROBABLY END UP IN JAIL OR DEAD. OF COURSE THERE ARE THOSE WHO DO IT AND HAVE WHAT THEY WANT LIKE CARTEL BOSSES OR LIKE TRIADS AND MOB BOSSES BUT I MEAN HOW MANY OF THEM ARE THERE. THERES THE FEW UP TOP AND MANY BELOW. I WOULDNT MIND BEING AN ASSASSIN... THAT WOULD BE COOL. I REALLY DONT CARE FOR A LOT OF PEOPLE AND IF I GET PAID TO KILL THEM THEN ITS JUST A BONUS ON TOP. I WOULD JUST HAVE TO MAKE SURE THAT THERES NO WAY FOR IT TO TRACE BACK TO ME, BUT I GUESS THATS WHAT WOULD MAKE ME A GOOD KILLER. FORGET ABOUT THIS GANG TYPE OF CRIMINAL... EVEN OTHER CRIMINALS LIKE A CON ARTIST, FORGER, WEAPONS DEALER, THIEF, THESE ALL HAVE PROBLEMS. IF IM DOING WELL THEN SOONER OR LATER SOMEONE MIGHT TRY TO KILL ME FOR MY POSITION. IF THEY DONT AND SOMETHING WENT WRONG WITH A DEAL OR IF I AM ON MY WAY TO GETTING BUSTED THEN I WOULD HAVE TO HIDE OR LEAVE THE COUNTRY. I WOULD HAVE TO START MY LIFE ALL OVER AGAIN. I WOULD NEED A NEW IDENTITY AND THAT PRESENTS A WHOLE NEW PROBLEM. IN THAT CASE I AM A COMPLETELY NEW PERSON, THE OLD ME IS DEAD. I CANT CONTACT MY OLD FRIENDS, BE SEEN WHERE I LIKE TO GO, DO WHAT I USE TO DO. I HAVE TO BE THIS NEW PERSON TO SURVIVE. NO ONE WILL KNOW WHO I USE TO BE OR WHAT IVE DONE. I WOULD MOST LIKELY HAVE TO BE SOMEONE BORING AND AND COMPLETE OPPOSITE OF MYSELF JUST TO HIDE. IF I MEET SOMEONE THEN BASICALLY MY WHOLE LIFE WILL BE A LIE TO THEM. WHAT IF I END UP WITH SOMEONE AND HAVE A KID, THAT WOULD BE AN EVEN BIGGER LIE, AND WHEN THEY GROW UP THEY ARE LIVING A LIE ON TOP OF A LIE AND IT JUST KEEPS GOING ON AND ON. WHAT IF SOMEONE FINDS OUT... WHAT IF THE PAST COMES BACK...??? WHAT IF THE FAKE PERSONS ID DOESNT HOLD UP? THERES SO MANY QUESTIONS AND SO MANY ISSUES. IT SEEMS LIKE IT WOULD ONLY WORK IN THE SHORT RUN AND I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO LIVE OUT MY REAL LIFE. I COULD PROBABLY GET OUT OF THE COUNTRY WITH ALL THE MONEY I MADE AND JUST ENJOY IT ALL OVER THE WORLD BUT I WOULDNT BE ABE TO SETTLE DOWN. IT WOULD BE THE SAME IF I HAD A GIRL OR IF THE GIRL WAS ACTUALLY A CRIMINAL TOO. THERES JUST TOO MANY THINGS THAT DONT WORK. THE ONLY REAL WAY IS IF IT IS KEPT HIDDEN AND I LIE TO EVERYONE BUT BE ABLE TO BACK IT UP. SO LIKE A NIGHT JOB, KEPT QUIET, OUT OF SIGHT. LIKE MY REAL LIFE WOULD BE MY COVER STORY WHILE SECRETLY IM A BOSS OR A KILLER OR AN ASSASSIN AND ALL THE MONEY IS LAUNDERED SO THEN I CAN ENJOY IT. CRIMINALS DO IT ALREADY I KNOW, BUT I JUST WANT ALL THE MONEY. IT TAKES A LOT OF WORK TO BE A SUCCESSFUL CRIMINAL... NOT GETTING CAUGHT OR KILLED. MAKING A LIVING HONESTLY IS A BITCH... LIVING AS A CRIMINAL IS A BIGGER BITCH. WHITE COLLAR CRIME... SAME THING... INSIDER TRADING GETS YOU IN TROUBLE, SAYING SOMETHING THAT DID OR DID NOT HAPPEN GETS YOU IN TROUBLE... EVERYTHING ENDS IN TROUBLE. SIGH... THERES JUST NO WINNING IN LIFE... BEING LEGIT OR NOT. YA... THIS IS THE KIND OF STUFF THAT GOES THROUGH MY HEAD ON THE REGULAR... LOL

OH OH OH SO MY VOLLEYBALL TEAM WON OUR LEAGUE!!! WOOOOOO!!! WE ONE OUR SEMI-FINALS GAME NO PROBLEM. OUR FINALS GAME WAS INTENSE!!! SET 1: 21-14 LOSE. SET 2: 21-14 WIN. SET 3: THERE WAS ONLY 5 MINUTES LEFT AND THE HIGHEST POINT WINS. IT WAS EVEN AND THEN WE HAD A BIT OF A LEAD AND THEY CAUGHT UP. SO NOW ITS 6-6 AND TIMES RUN OUT SO LAST POINT WINS. SUPER INTENSE... AND........ WE WON 7-6!!! OMG SO CRAZY!!! IT WAS AWESOME. SO WE GOT OUR TSHIRTS FOR WINNING AND ITS NOT ABOUT THE SHIRTS BUT ITS ABOUT THE FACT WE WON. THE DIGGERS ARE CHAMPIONS THE FIRST SEASON WE ARE TOGETHER WOOOOOO :) IM A CHAMPION TOO... EVEN THOUGH I DIDNT PLAY A SINGLE MINUTE ALL SEASON CAUSE OF MY INJURIES... LOLOL

FOOTBALL HAS STARTED!!! WE ARE CURRENTLY UNDEFEATED LOL 1-0 RECORD SO FAR HAHA. WATCHING MY TEAM PLAY I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO PLAY!!! YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW BAD I WANT TO PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CANT EVEN PLAY IF I WANTED TO... MY NECKS STILL MESSED UP, MY BACK IS SCREWED, MY HAND IS STUPID. IM IN NO CONDITION TO PLAY. I CANT WAIT TIL THE DAY IM ALL HEALED UP AND GOOD TO PLAY AGAIN. I MISS FOOTBALL :(

SOCCER IS STARTING UP AS WELL... AND GUESS WHAT... I ALSO CANT PLAY!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS!!! IM CURRENTLY GOING TO PHYSIO ABOUT 2-3 TIMES A WEEK AND IM GETTING AND FEELING BETTER BUT RECOVERY IS SLOW AND MY RANGE OF MOTION FOR EVERYTHING IS STILL SO LIMITED. I CANT REALLY LOOK UP, I CANT LOOK RIGHT, I CANT MAKE SHARP TURNS, MY NECK HURTS, MY BACK HURTS, MY HAND IS NUMB... IM SUPER GIMPED RIGHT NOW. THIS WHOLE THING PISSES ME OFF... BUT WHAT CAN I DO... THINGS HAPPEN... AND NOW IM PAYING THE PRICE.

WALKING DEAD JUST FINISHED AND IT WAS PRETTY GOOD. LAST EPISODE WAS A BIT SLOW, THE ENDING WAS DRAGGED OUT TOO, BUT IT WAS PRETTY GOOD. A NEW SHOW CALLED THE CATCH STARTED AND PART OF THAT SHOW MADE ME THINK ABOUT BEING A THIEF BASICALLY AND WRITING THIS POST. I THINK A LOT ABOUT A LOT OF THINGS AND THIS JUST WORKED OUT. IT STARTS A BUNCH OF PEOPLE I DONT KNOW BUT ITS NOT BAD SO FAR. COULD BE BETTER AND THEY SHOULD ACTUALLY CUT ONE OF THEM

REST OF LIFE IS BUSY, FRIENDS, AND FAMILY. WORK IS EVEN MORE BUSY AND THATS NOT GOING TO CHANGE ANY TIME SOON.., SOOOO WITH THAT BEING SAID, IM GOING TO SLEEP... MUCH LESS TO THINK ABOUT :)

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THE FIRST STEP IS ALWAYS THE HARDEST

JUST LIKE EVERYTHING IN LIFE, IT ALL STARTS WITH THAT FIRST STEP. THINK ABOUT IT... WAKING UP IN THE MORNING YOU CAN DECIDE TO SNOOZE IT OR WAKE UP AND GO BRUSH UP. DECIDING WHETHER TO EAT SOMETHING EASY LIKE CEREAL OR MAKE SOME BACON AND EGGS. DECIDING TO START READING A BOOK, LEARNING A NEW LANGUAGE, OR TRYING SOMETHING NEW FOR THE FIRST TIME THAT FIRST STEP IS THE ACT OF ACTUALLY GOING FORWARD AND DOING SOMETHING. EVERYTHING STARTS OFF LIKE THAT AND IT JUST CONTINUES ON UNTIL ITS SECOND NATURE. A BABYS FIRST STEP IS PHYSICALLY THE HARDEST FIRST STEP WE WILL TAKE. LATER IN LIFE DECIDING TO GO TO SCHOOL OR GO BACK TO SCHOOL. FINALLY BUYING A CAR, MOVING OUT. DECIDING TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP, GETTING MARRIED, BUYING A HOUSE, HAVING KIDS, ALL THESE ARE STEPS AND NONE OF WHICH COME EASY. WHAT MOTIVATES YOU ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU TAKE THAT FIRST STEP? THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE A JOB? PERHAPS YOU HAVE RESPONSIBILITIES TO TAKE CARE OF AND ONLY YOU CAN DO IT. WHATEVER IT IS, YOU MADE THE DECISION TO TAKE THAT STEP TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO. FOR ME, PERSONALLY, THE REASON IS CHANGE. I WANT A CHANGE IN SOMETHING, I CANT JUST KEEP DOING WHAT IM DOING. I CONSCIOUSLY KNOW THAT SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE BEFORE OTHER CHANGES CAN OCCUR. EVERYTHING HAPPENS IN STEPS. AFTER I FINISHED SCHOOL I REALLY DIDNT KNOW WHERE TO GO, I MEAN I GOT A JOB BUT IT WASNT WHERE I WANTED TO END UP. I STARTED LOOKING AT SCHOOL AGAIN AND IT WAS HARD TO ACTUALLY TAKE THAT STEP. ESPECIALLY AFTER BEING IN SCHOOL SO LONG, HAVING STUDENT LOANS, AND BASICALLY NOT LIVING MY LIFE THE WAY I WANTED. DEBATED A LOT, AND TOOK A WHILE LOOKING AT WHAT I WANTED TO GO INTO. EVENTUALLY FOUND SOMETHING I LIKED AND KNEW COULD MAKE A LIVING AND JUST WENT FOR IT. TOOK THAT STEP AND REGISTERED AND WENT THROUGH WITH THE PROGRAM. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT THAT FIRST STEP, IF YOU NEVER TRY, HOW WILL YOU EVER KNOW? PEOPLE THESE DAYS ARE JUST TOO COMFORTABLE AND DONT WANT TO LEAVE THEIR COMFORT ZONE. NOTHING EVER WORTH DOING WAS EASY... IF IT WAS THEN EVERYONE WOULD HAVE DONE IT ALREADY. THEN AGAIN A LOT OF PEOPLE THESE DAYS ARE JUST AFRAID TO TRY ANYTHING, NOT KNOWING IF THEY COULD DO IT OR MAKE IT. THEY ARE JUST AFRAID OF WHAT THEY DONT KNOW, SO TO NOT BE AFRAID THEY JUST STAY WHERE THEY ARE AND NEVER TAKING THAT STEP. FEAR OF FAILURE, FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN, FEAR OF DISAPPOINTMENT... NONE OF THESE FEARS ARE REAL... THEY ARE ALL IN YOUR HEAD AND IF YOU CAN GET PAST THAT FEAR, THEN YOU WILL TRULY BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING YOU WANT. IF YOU ALL REMEMBER A FEW MONTHS BACK FOR MY BDAY POST I MENTIONED THAT I GAVE MYSELF A DEADLINE OF 1 YEAR. NOT MANY PEOPLE KNOW WHAT IT IS AND IVE ONLY TOLD A FEW PEOPLE. ITS A HEFTY GOAL THAT I SET FOR MYSELF, AND ODDS ARE THAT IT CANT BE DONE IN JUST 1 YEAR, BUT LIKE I SAID... IF I NEVER TRY, HOW WILL I EVER KNOW? RIGHT??? THE ENTIRE TIME IVE BEEN WANTING TO START AND I KEEP TELLING MYSELF THAT IM GOING TO START... AND A DAY GOES BY... WEEKS... MONTHS... I KEEP SAYING IM TIRED FROM WORK, OR IM GOING OUT, OR AFTER THIS TV SHOW, OR IM JUST LAZY... AND UP TO A FEW DAYS AGO I STILL HAVENT STARTED... THATS ABOUT 100 DAYS GONE... BUT NOW I CAN ACTUALLY SAY THAT I TOOK THAT FIRST STEP, I TOOK THAT HARDEST STEP AND MOVED FORWARD. NOW THAT I HAVE STARTED, ITS NOT THAT HARD TO CONTINUE, JUST HAVE TO KEEP ON GOING, AND KEEP AT IT. WHO KNOWS... MAYBE IF I KEEP THIS UP THAT 1 YEAR DEADLINE MIGHT ACTUALLY HAPPEN LOL. HAVING SPENT THIS MUCH TIME, MONEY, AND ENERGY ON THIS ALREADY MY ONLY CHOICE IS TO STICK THIS OUT AND SEE WHERE IT LEADS TO. IF IT WORKS OUT THEN GREAT, IF IT DOESNT THEN AT LEAST I CAN SAY I TRIED AND I KNOW. IN THE END NO ONE CAN DO IT FOR YOU. YOU HAVE TO DECIDE FOR YOURSELF IF YOU WANT TO TAKE THAT STEP. ITS GOING TO BE HARD, ITS GOING TO BE SLOW, AT TIMES YOU MIGHT FEEL LIKE GIVING UP, BUT IN THE END JUST REMEMBER, HARD WORK ALWAYS PAYS OFF. SO NO MATTER HOW HARD THAT FIRST STEP MIGHT BE... WHATEVER YOUR SITUATION MAY BE... DO IT FOR YOURSELF AND TAKE IT.

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MONEY MONEY MONEY

MONEY MAKES THE WORLD GO ROUND. ITS TRUE, EVERYTHING COST SOMETHING AND EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING HAS ITS PRICE. MONEY IS THE SOURCE OF ALL EVIL AND THE SOURCE OF ALL ENJOYMENT. YOU NEED MONEY FOR EVERYTHING, FROM BUYING GROCERIES TO SURVIVE, TO BUYING A PLACE TO LIVE IT. EVERYTHING HAS A COST, AND THIS DAY IN AGE YOU REALLY CANT DO MUCH WITHOUT MONEY. FORGET ABOUT ALL THE WANTS YOU WANT, JUST GETTING THE NEEDS YOU NEED IS ALREADY TOUGH. WITH EVERYTHING HAVING A HIGHER PRICE TAG THESE DAYS HOW ARE WE SUPPOSE TO KEEP UP??? HOW DO ALL THE PEOPLE ON MINIMUM WAGE SURVIVE, HOW DO THEY SUPPORT THEIR KIDS AND PAY FOR RENT? I MEAN IM DOING OKAY RIGHT NOW AND THERES NO WAY THAT I CAN GO BACK TO WHAT I USE TO MAKE. ITS NOT EVEN ABOUT BEING ABLE TO DO THE THINGS I WANT, ITS THE FACT THAT MY EXPENSES HAVE INCREASED, AND BECAUSE I LIKE NICE THINGS AND WANT TO BE ABLE TO GO OUT AND HAVE WHAT I WANT HAHA. ITS FUNNY THAT WE ALWAYS WANT MORE MONEY, WE ARE NEVER SATISFIED... ALWAYS WANTING MORE. YOU BECOME ACCUSTOMED TO YOUR LIFESTYLE AND ONCE YOU BEGIN YOU JUST CANT GO BACK. THAT IS WHY SO MANY PEOPLE ARE IN DEBT, OR SO MANY PEOPLE ARE WILLING TO DO WHAT IT TAKES TO HAVE MONEY, INCLUDING ROBBING SOMEONE OR A BANK. IF YOU LOOK AT EVERYTHING IT ALL COMES DOWN TO HOW MUCH SOMETHING COSTS. THE FUNNIEST LINE THAT I EVER HEAR IS THAT MONEY CANT BUY YOU EVERYTHING... I BEG TO DIFFER... MONEY CAN BUY YOU ANYTHING, EVERYTHING, AND EVERYONE. THERE IS A PRICE TAG ON EVERYTHING, INCLUDING PEOPLE. EVERYONE HAS A NUMBER AND IF SOMEONE THREW ENOUGH MONEY AT A PROBLEM, I HATE TO SAY IT, BUT IT WILL BE SOLVED. WE ALL JUST WANT TO MAKE A BETTER LIFE FOR OURSELF, AND IF THE OPPORTUNITY CAME UP DO YOU REALLY THINK YOU COULD PASS IT UP? MY BUDDIES AND I HAVE DISCUSSED THIS BEFORE MANY TIMES LIKE HOW MUCH WOULD IT TAKE FOR YOU TO... SO AND SO OR SUCH AND SUCH. EVERYONE HAS A PRICE. EVENTUALLY EVERYONE WILL HAVE A NUMBER WHERE THEY WOULD GO BACK ON ANY BELIEF OR MORAL THEY HAVE TO ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING FOR THE AMOUNT OF MONEY OFFERED. THE ONLY REASON WE DONT ACTUALLY DO IT, IS USUALLY THE AMOUNT THAT WE NEED TO CONVINCE OURSELVES TO DO IT IS A REALLY BIG NUMBER AND NOT MANY PEOPLE CAN AFFORD IT. I LOVE HOW SOME PEOPLE SAY THAT MONEY CANT BUY YOU HAPPINESS... THAT IS ABSOLUTELY UNTRUE AND INSULTING!!! MONEY CAN ABSOLUTELY BUY YOU HAPPINESS!!! IT CAN BUY YOU ANYTHING YOU WANT!!! HATE TO SAY IT BUT THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO EVER SAY THAT ARE PEOPLE WHO DONT HAVE MONEY. LETS BE HONEST... MONEY CAN EVEN BUY YOU LOVE!!! MONEY CAN REALLY BUY ANYTHING. THERE IS NOT MANY THINGS IN THE WORLD THAT MONEY CANT BUY... THE ONLY REAL THING I CAN THINK OF IS TIME. EXCEPT YOU ARE USING TIME TO BE ABLE TO MAKE THE MONEY TO BE ABLE TO HAVE EVERYTHING YOU WANT, SO ITS MORE OF AN INVESTMENT IF YOU ASK ME LOL. WITH THAT BEING SAID... MONEY COMES WITH ITS OWN PROBLEMS... SOMETIMES YOU JUST DONT HAVE THE TIME, OR PEOPLE WILL ARGUE ABOUT IT, OR YOU CAN NEVER HAVE ENOUGH. IN THE SEARCH FOR MORE MONEY YOU MAY END UP GOING TO PLACES YOU NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD GO, YOU MIGHT END UP NOT RECOGNIZING YOURSELF, YOU MIGHT LOSE YOUR FRIENDS, LOSE YOUR FAMILY, LOSE YOURSELF... THE TIME YOU HAVE TO SACRIFICE FOR IT... THERES ALWAYS A TRADE-OFF, AND IF YOU THINK ITS WORTH IT THEN ITS WORTH IT. RIGHT NOW I THINK CAUSE IM STILL YOUNG, THAT MONEY IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN A LOT OF THINGS. IM STILL TRYING TO GET EVERYTHING THAT I WANT IN LIFE AND ITS OK TO WANT WHAT I WANT AND DO WHAT I NEED TO, TO GET IT ALL. ALWAYS GOT MONEY ON MY MIND AND MY MIND ON MY MONEY... LOL :)

WENT TO WALK WITH THE DRAGON THE PAST WEEK AND IT WAS THE SAME AS USUAL. WEATHER WAS GREAT... HOT AS HELL... WENT THERE AND CHECKED THINGS OUT, GOT SOME SWAG, PLAYED SOME GAMES. OMG!!! SO THERE WAS A GAME WHERE YOU HAD TO THROW 3 PLASTIC BALLS INTO THE MIDDLE NET TO WIN A TEDDY BEAR... THE BALLS ARE THOSE BALL PIT BALLS AND ITS LIGHT... WELL LETS JUST SAY WE SPENT ALMOST ALL OF OUR TICKETS AND THEN SOME TRYING TO WIN IT... IF YOU MISS THE 1ST ONE BASICALLY YOU CANT WIN... SO WE KEPT ON PLAYING KEPT ON LINING UP NONSTOP AND FINALLY ON MY 2ND LAST TICKET I DID IT!!! ONE OF US FINALLY WON IT!!! OMG!!! CANT BELIEVE IT. AFTER THAT I WAS DONE, ITS THE KIND OF GAME THAT PISSES YOU OFF AND YOU JUST WANT SOMEONE TO WIN, AND WHEN I WON IT WE WERE ALL SO HAPPY HAHAHA. BESIDES THAT WENT TO SING K TWICE THE PAST WEEK AND WORK IS WORK. STARTED WORKING ON MY SIDE THING AND JUST NEED MORE TIME TO BE ABLE TO REALLY LOOK AT IT HARD AND WORK AND GETTING TO WHERE I WANT TO BE. ONCE AGAIN EVERYTHING ALWAYS ENDS BACK UP WITH THE ISSUE OF MONEY... HAHA.

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WHAT ARE YOU LEAVING BEHIND???

SO CONTINUING ON WITH SOME DEEP THOUGHTS OF MINE IS THIS WEEKS TOPIC OF "WHAT ARE YOU LEAVING BEHIND" AND I MEAN AT THE END OF YOUR LIFE... WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WANT TO BE REMEMBERED FOR OR WANT TO HAVE ACCOMPLISHED IN THE END. WHATS YOUR LEGACY BASICALLY. IF YOU REALLY THINK ABOUT THIS, ITS ACTUALLY REALLY HARD TO ANSWER... I MEAN IM IN MY MID 20'S AND I HAVE THE REST OF MY LIFE AHEAD OF ME STILL TO DECIDE WHERE TO GO AND WHAT TO DO... ITS HARD TO THINK WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN IN THE NEXT 50-75 YEARS, I PERSONALLY PLAN TO LIVE FOREVER CAUSE I WANT TO SEE THEM FLYING CARS AND SPACESHIPS LOL. SO MAYBE A LITTLE BIT MORE DOWN TO EARTH OF WHATS ACTUALLY GOING TO HAPPEN. HONESTLY I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE I WILL BE OR WHAT IM GOING TO DO BUT I THINK ITS GOING TO BE SOMETHING LIKE THIS:

• MARRIED WITH 2 KIDS - A SON THATS THE OLDER ONE, AND A DAUGHTER FOR THE YOUNGER
• LIVE IN A HOUSE IN WHO KNOWS WHERE
• DOING SOMETHING I LIKE AND NOT JUST A JOB THAT I HAVE TO
• STILL HAVE THE SAME FRIENDS I HAVE NOW BUT HAVE EVEN MORE FUN CAUSE OUR KIDS WOULD PLAY TOGETHER AND BE BEST FRIENDS WITH EACH OTHER
• HAVE VACATIONS TO AWESOME PLACES AROUND THE WORLD

THATS ABOUT HOW FAR IT GOES... EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN I HAVE NO CLUE. SO THATS THE PART OF WHAT IM LEAVING BEHIND, BUT WHAT ABOUT HOW IM GOING TO BE REMEMBERED? SOME PEOPLE ARE CONTENT WITH WHAT THEY HAVE OR WHERE THEY ARE. SOME PEOPLE WANT THE WORLD AND HAVE THEIR NAMES IN THE STARS. SOME PEOPLE WANT TO BE FAMOUS AND HISTORY WILL REMEMBER THEM. WHERE DO I FALL UNDER? I DONT KNOW... I GUESS I WANT TO BE REMEMBERED FOR... BEING AWESOME :) LOL. I DONT KNOW... WHAT WILL PEOPLE SAY ABOUT ME AFTER IM GONE... I MEAN I DONT WANT TO BE REMEMBERED FOR ANYTHING BAD OF COURSE, BUT I KNOW I WONT DO SOMETHING LIKE CREATING A CURE FOR SOME DISEASE... OR BE THE 1ST PERSON TO DO SOMETHING NEVER DONE BEFORE... ACTUALLY... NOW COME TO THINK OF IT, I KNOW I CAN BREAK SOME OF THOSE GUINNESS WORLD RECORDS... SOOOOOOO TIME TO GO READ THE BOOK AND BREAK A BUNCH OF RECORDS SO AT LEAST MY NAME WILL BE IN THERE :) YA!!! THATS WHAT IM GOING TO DO LOL. MY NAME WILL BE THERE AND OF COURSE THIS BLOG WILL STILL BE UP SOMEWHERE ON THE INTERNET SO I GUESS IN A WAY THIS IS WHAT IM LEAVING BEHIND... ME SCREAMING AND YELLING AT EVERYONE HAHA. 

MMMMM BEANS AND CHOPS :) CEPT RICE WAS MEH LOL

CLAN FOOD!!!!!!!!! WOOOOO LOVE THIS STUFF HEHE

YA... SO THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED... I HAVE A LACK OF PHOTOS... JUST BEEN BUSY WITH WORK AND SCHOOL AND SOMETIMES I WISH THERE WAS MORE TIME IN THE DAY FOR EVERYTHING I NEED TO GET DONE...

SO THERE YOU GO, A SHORT POST :) BUT BEEN THINKING A LOT ABOUT A LOT OF THINGS THESE DAYS. WHICH HAS BROUGHT US TO THIS POST, LIFES HARD AND IT SUCKS A LOT OF THE TIMES. I JUST SEE PEOPLE GOING DAY IN AND DAY OUT GRINDING AWAY... THERE HAS TO BE SOMETHING BETTER AND THERE IS!!! PROBLEM IS THAT EVERYTHING REQUIRES MONEY... ISNT IT FUNNY HOW IT ALWAYS ENDS UP BEING ABOUT MONEY? GUESS WE CAN ONLY WAIT TO SEE WHERE IT ALL LEADS TO EH...

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RANDOM DAY IN THE STATES

WELL I CAN REALLY SAY THAT ALL IVE BEEN DOING IS WORK... IM WORKING 8-4 AND I COME HOME AND SOMETIMES I PASS OUT FOR A BIT CAUSE IM REALLY TIRED... ONLY REASON IS IM STILL TRAINING AND HAVE TO LEARN EVERYTHING BEFORE THE GUY LEAVES NEXT WEEK. OH FUN FUNNNNNN SOOOOOO MUCH TO DO. LIKE TODAY I WENT CROSS EYED LOOKING AT REPORTS HAHA. DONT REALLY GO OUT ON WEEKDAY ANYMORE SINCE I HAVE TO SLEEP EARLY... WELL I TRY BUT ITS HARD... NOT REALLY USE TO IT BUT GETTING BETTER. FOR THE FIRST TIME I SLEPT AT 11:15ISH AND WAS LIKE OH MANNNN THIS IS AWESOME THEN I SLEPT AROUND 10:30... AND FOUND MYSELF WAKING UP AT 4AM... AHEAHEHA

SO SOME FRIENDS PLANNED TO GO TO THE STATES FOR A WHILE AND WE JUST DECIDED TO DO IT. WENT DOWN ALL THE WAY DOWN TO SEATTLE DT WORKING OUR WAY BACK UP BELLEVUE AND OUTLET. MY CAR ONLY HAD ME AND THE DRIVER AND WE THOUGHT WE WERE GOING TO NEED MUSIC TO MAKE THAT 3 HOUR DRIVE... BUT OMG!!! WE LISTENED TO LIKE 3 MINS OF MUSIC CAUSE THE REST OF THE TIME WE WERE JUST TALKING ABOUT EVERYTHING AND BEING LOUD HAHA. THE TIME FLEW BY SOOOO FAST!!! RANDOM TALKING AND REMINISCING ABOUT THE PAST HAHA OHHHHHH THE GOOD OLD DAYS. WE REALLY JUST WANTED TO CHILL AND CHECK PLACES OUT. WENT TO THE FARMERS MARKET AND ATE HERE AND THERE AND MALLED IT AND SHOPPED IT. IT WAS A NICE DAY OUT OF THE CITY... WELL... INTO ANOTHER CITY BUT JUST NICE TO GET OUT ONCE IN A WHILE. AND OHHHH THE SHENANIGANS ON THE DRIVE BACK UP HAHA AHHHH GOOD TIMES HEHE OH OH OH AND I COULDNT FIND WHAT I WANTED BUT I FOUND SOMETHING I NEED... LIKE NEXT YEAR HAHA

SAW WRECK IT RALPH YESTERDAY :) I HAVENT REALLY WATCHED ANYTHING SINCE IVE BEEN BUSY BUT MAN IT WAS PACKED. THE MOVIE WAS JUST... OK... WASNT THAT GREAT, WAS PREDICTABLE AND WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER THE WAY I THOUGHT IT SHOULD HAVE ENDED. FEW FUNNY PARTS AND SOME ANNOYING PARTS BUT MEH

BUU... :(

THE MOST SOUR-EST LEMON/LIME I HAVE EVER DRANK!!! AND I CAN DRINK SOUR LIKE NO OTHER TOO!!!

BORDER WAIT... 5 MINS :)

CHOWDER!!! 

SO HOT SO GOOD :)

1ST EHHH MISSING A FEW YEARS XD AHEHAEHA

IM TAKING A PICTURE OF PEOPLE LEARNING TO TAKE PICTURES HAHA

CRAZY LADY WITH A PARROT 

LOTS OF PRODUCE

PASTA GALORE

FLOWERS ALL OVER AND KALE!!! I KNEW IT!!!

THIS DUDE HAS TALENT!!! OMG SO PRO!!!

COOL FLOWERS

SIGN

HONEY COMB

ENTRANCE 

RANDOM... WTF... HAHA

BLUE TREES EHHH

RANDOM PROMOTION FOR COLUMBIA

SOOOO BAD!!! TOO MUCH WATER

THIS GUY WAS PRO!!!

... YA... STUCK IN TRAFFIC FOR A WHILE 

YA... 3 INTO 1...

ALWAYS FUNNY WHEN I SEE THIS PLACE HEHE

YA... KIDS PLAYING FINE, GIRL WHO WORKS THERE FINE, BUT OTHER DUDE UMMM

BASICALLY A CESAR SALAD IN A PITA

JEREMY SCOTT LINE HAHA RECOGNIZED!!!

GUESS WHICH 1 I BOUGHT??? BLUE LOOKS COOL BUT HAS LITTLE TO NO ANKLE PROTECTION AND THE SLIVER ONE HAS A HARDER PLASTIC CUP ANKLE PROTECTION. I CHOSE PROTECTION OVER NONE CAUSE WHO KNOWS HAHA. PLUS IT MATCHES MY BLACK SOCKS AND BLACK SHOES AND BLACK SHORTS XD AHEHAEHAH

RASPBERRY SODA YUM 

SOUP 1 - CHEEEEESE

SOUP 2 - MORE CHEEEEEEEEEEESE

CHICKEN WAS OK

MORE CHEEEEEESE :)

PINEAPPLE CAKE SO GOOD

ASSORTED SASHIMI

EGG CORNED BEEF SALADISH SANWICH :)

WELL JUST A BIT MORE SURFING AND TV THEN TIME FOR SLEEP SO I CAN MAKE MONEY MONEY MONEYYYYYYYYY HAHA

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