THOUGHT OBSESSED THOUGHTS

HONESTLY IF YOU CAN BELIEVE IT OR NOT... TODAY THERE REALLY IS NO POST... I COULDNT COME UP WITH A TOPIC AND THE TOPIC I CAME UP WITH TURNS OUT I WROTE ABOUT IT ALREADY... IVE BEEN QUITE BUSY AT WORK THAT I REALLY HAVENT DONE MUCH BESIDES THAT... BETWEEN WORKING LATE AND THE MEETINGS, I COME HOME AND JUST CHILL OUT... EAT A BIT AND WATCH A BIT OF TV BEFORE PASSING OUT... LOL. LAST WEEK WAS A LONG... LONGGGGGGGG WEEK... AT THE END OF LAST WEEK I WAS JUST SO BEAT THAT I NEED TO JUST PARTY IT ALL OUT HAHA. LAST MINUTE DECISION AND ENDED UP GOING TO MARK SIXMA. HIS STYLES A BIT DIFFERENT THAN EVERYTHING ELSE BUT IT WAS A GOOD PARTY. JUST HUNG OUT WITH THE BOYS AND FOR $25 IT WAS WELL WORTH IT. THE RECOVERY THOUGH... LETS JUST SAY IM NOT AS YOUNG AS I USE TO... RECOVERY TIME IS A BIT SLOW NOW... LOL. WELL COMING UP I DO HAVE 2 PARTIES... GET TOGETHER WITH GARETH EMERY, MS54, AND ILAN BLUESTONE WHO I HAVENT SEEN YET AND ITS GONNA BE A GOOD PARTY :) GOT SOME TIME TO RECOVER SINCE ITS GOING TO BE OVER THE FAMILY WEEKEND AND NEXT WEEK I GOT ORJAN NILSEN ONE OF THE DJS I REALLY LIKE AND I FINALLY GET TO SEE HIM TOO WOOOO AND THATS GOING TO BE ON VALENTINES DAY... LOL THATS QUITE INTERESTING... PARTY ON THAT DAY??? WELL NOT LIKE I HAVE ANYTHING ELSE BETTER TO DO OR HAVE ANYONE TO SPEND IT WITH... HAHA........... WAIT... *CRIES A BIT* LOLOL JKJK ACTUALLY IVE BEEN SO BUSY AND FOCUSED ON WORK THE PAST LITTLE WHILE THAT ITS HASNT REALLY BEEN ON MY MIND... I HAVE TONS TO DO RIGHT NOW AND I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT END OF FEBRUARY WILL BE CRAZY BUSY FOR ME... DONT GET ME WRONG I MEAN I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT BUT ITS DIFFERENT... I DONT REALLY KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT... WELL I DO... SORTA... BUT HEY THATS FOR ME TO KNOW AND YOU TO FIND OUT HAHA.

BESIDES HOW MUCH FUN WORK IS OCCUPYING MY EVERY THOUGHT... THERES ACTUALLY ANOTHER THOUGHT THATS BEEN ON MY MIND NONSTOP... AND THERES NOT MUCH I CAN REALLY DO ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW... HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT SOMETHING SO MUCH THAT IT CONSUMES YOUR ENTIRE DAY??? THE FIRST THOUGHT IN THE MORNING WHEN YOU WAKE UP, AND THE LAST THOUGHT BEFORE YOU FALL  ASLEEP IS OF THAT... THE THOUGHT JUST POPS UP NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO AND THERES NO WAY TO SHAKE IT... THE MORE YOU TRY, THE HARDER YOU THINK ABOUT IT AND THEN BEFORE YOU REALIZED IT YOU ARE OBSESSING OVER IT AND EVERYTHING ABOUT IT... IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT YOU DO... SOMEHOW THAT AMAZING GREAT BRAIN OF YOURS IS ABLE TO LINK WHATEVER YOU DO TO WHAT YOU ARE OBSESSING OVER... DOESNT MATTER IF YOU ARE WALKING OR DRIVING OR EATING OR WATCHING TV OR PLAYING SPORTS OR WATCHING A MOVIE OR ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING... EVEN OBJECTS... EVERYTHING REMINDS YOU... SOMEHOW YOUR MIND JUST WANDERS BACK TO IT AND YOU WONT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT... WRITING ABOUT IT REALLY DOESNT HELP EITHER SINCE NOW IM FOCUSED SOLELY ON IT... AND I PROBABLY WONT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT... GOOD JOB RICKY... SHOULD YOU JUST STOP THINKING ABOUT IT... WELL YOU CANT... EVEN IF NOTHING REMINDS YOU OF IT, FEELINGS OR EMOTIONS AND JUST GENERAL CURIOSITY WILL BRING YOU BACK TO IT... YOU KNOW WHATS FUNNY... SONGS... SONGS ARE THE WORST!!! EVEN WHEN YOU ARE NOT ACTUALLY THINKING ABOUT IT A SONG AND THEIR LYRICS WILL TRIGGER SOMETHING AND WOOOO HERE WE GO AGAIN... WHAT DO YOU DO... WHAT CAN YOU DO... WHAT SHOULD YOU DO... I GUESS THERES NOT MUCH YOU CAN DO... YOU JUST HAVE TO WAIT... WAIT FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN... WAIT FOR IT TO CLEAR UP... OR DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT... BUT CAN YOU??? WHAT IF ITS NOT UP TO YOU... HOW CAN YOU DO SOMETHING THATS OUTSIDE OF YOUR CONTROL... IS TRYING ENOUGH... IS HOPING ENOUGH... IS ANYTHING ENOUGH... THERES A REASON WHY IT IS SO... AND I GUESS ONCE AGAIN... IT COMES BACK TO MY GOOD OLD FRIEND... TIME...... AND EVENTUALLY... IT WILL WORK ITSELF OUT AND YOU WILL SEE WHAT IT IS FOR WHAT IT IS... BUT UNTIL THAT TIME... I GUESS IL JUST SIT HERE AND OBSESS ABOUT IT...

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LIFE'S ROAD IS NEVER STRAIGHT

SO I GUESS THE TIME IVE BEEN WAITING FOR HAS FINALLY COME. WENT AND DID THE LICENSING EXAM ON MONDAY... IT WAS HARD... I HAD ANSWER I KNEW, ANSWERS I WAS SORTA OK WITH, ANSWERS IM NOT TOO SURE ABOUT, AND ANSWERED I HAD NO FREAKING CLUE ABOUT... ALSO I KNEW I GOT 2 QUESTIONS WRONG SO AUTOMATICALLY I CAN ONLY GET 98/100... I WAS PREPPED AND KNEW MY STUFF. FIRST 20 QUESTIONS I WAS LIKE OH YAAAA NO PROBLEM :) THEN AS IT WENT FURTHER IN... FROM ABOUT 40-80 IS WAS SORT OF A BLUR... WTF!!! SOME HAD MULTIPLE RIGHT ANSWERS AND THEY DIDNT TEST ON THE INFO FROM THE BOOK... IT WASNT EVEN APPLY THE LEARNING, IT WAS SOME RANDOM CRAP... SOME I DONT EVEN THINK I READ ABOUT!!! MAN I WAS PISSED OFF AFTER THE EXAM... I REALLY HAD NO IDEA HOW I DID... LIKE SERIOUSLY I HAD NO IDEA... ARGGGG WELL ANYWAYS THE MARKS CAME OUT YESTERDAY AND I REALLY DIDNT WANT TO CHECK IT... FINALLY HAD TO ANDDDDDDDDDDD I FAILED... YAY... I NEEDED 65 TO PASS AND GOT MYSELF A 59... SO EVEN WITH THE 2 ANSWERED THAT I NEW I GOT WRONG IT WOULD ONLY BE 61 AND I WOULD STILL BE MISSING A FEW MARKS. I WOULDNT EVEN KNOW WHICH ONES I COULD HAVE CHANGED OR ANYTHING... I TOOK THE WHOLE 3 HOURS TO WRITE IT AND I EVEN CHANGED A BUNCH OF ANSWERS AND I WENT OVER THE EXAM TWICE SINCE I FINISHED AN HOUR AHEAD OF TIME. WELL... I WAS PISSED YESTERDAY AS WELL. TODAY SOME OF THE RAGE CARRIED OVER. IM JUST SO FREAKING PISSED AT IT ALL. I KNEW I WAS GOING TO BARELY PASS OR JUST FAILED... WELL... NOT MUCH I CAN DO ABOUT IT NOW SINCE ITS DONE... IM HAPPY THAT I WAS SOBER AT A PARTY OVER THE WEEKEND. AT LEAST I CANT BLAME MYSELF FOR PARTYING OR WHATEVER. MAYBE I RUSHED IT TOO MUCH... DOING IT ALL IN A MONTH... WHO KNOWS. ALL THE QUESTIONS COME FROM A TEST BANK SO THEY JUST PICK 100 OUT OF LIKE 1000. WHY DID THEY ASK ME THAT INSTEAD OF THIS... ITS LIKE TRIGONOMETRY... YOU HAVE TO PASS IT BUT WHEN THE HELL ARE YOU EVER GOING TO USE IT? AND IF YOU NEED IT JUST LOOK IT UP? WELL THAT WAS LIKE THIS COURSE... I KNEW IT ALL AND IM JUST PISSED AT THE RESULT OF HOW IT WENT DOWN. LIFES ROAD IS A MYSTERY AND IT IS NEVER A STRAIGHT LINE. I HAVE HAD QUITE A FEW HICK UPS HERE AND THERE AND I FINALLY GOT TO A POINT WHERE I LIKE HAPPY AND THIS CRAP HAPPENS...WHAT CAN I DO NOW? GET UP, PREP MORE, AND WORK HARDER. THIS IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE OF HOW LIFE NEVER PROGRESSES IN A STRAIGHT LINE. SOMETHING ALWAYS HAPPENS AND THROWS YOU OFF. ITS THE UNIVERSES WAY OF SCREWING WITH YOU. YOU JUST HAVE TO PICK YOURSELF UP, DUST YOURSELF OFF, AND GET BACK AT IT AGAIN. NEVER GIVE UP. MY LIFES ROAD HASNT BEEN STRAIGHT ONE EITHER. I HAVE HAD SETBACK, ISSUES, AND FAILURES AS WELL. ITS ABOUT HOW YOU CAN OVERCOME IT AND  CONTINUE TO MOVING FORWARD. JUST BECAUSE THERES A DETOUR DOESNT MEAN GIVING UP, YOU GO BACK AT IT EVEN HARD. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. THE REASON MIGHT NOT BE THAT CLEAR RIGHT NOW OR MAYBE I AM SUPPOSE TO STAY WHERE I AM RIGHT NOW...

HEHE YAY MOON CAKE A WORK LOL TO MANY

ALL YEAH ALL FOR ME LOL

MMMM YUMMY HAWAII COOKIES :)

AWWW YEAH GOT MY FIXING :)

DOGGY STAYED THERE FOR A WHILE LIKE THAT LOL

MS54

HERE WE GO :) AND I WAS SOBER... ALL... NIGHT... LONG LOL

WOOOOOOO

THEY PLAYED LIKE HARDSTLYE ALMOST THE WHOLE NIGHT AND MAN ITS HAD TO RAGE OUT ALL NIGHT TOO LOL

NICE CAPTAIN :)

SIGH... TINY AS HELL ICE CREAM LOL

MY POT :)

ALL THEM POTS LOL

I GOT A CRAB LOL HALF OF 1... QUARTER ACTUALLY... LOL

CRAB CLAW AND ABALONE FOR BREAKFAST :) WHAT YOU GOT HMMM? 

YAY NEW SHOES :) CEPT FOR THE CREASE BUT THATS FROM THE BEND AND WALKING

WOW PRETTY CLEAN BOTTOM TOO 

UMMM YA I ENDED UP AT EUISU MONE THAN ONCE

HAHA

DINNER AFTER MEETING

MMMMMMMMMMM EVEN BETTER WOOOO :)

OH MAN TOO TIRED... I KEPT PASSING OUT TRYING TO WRITE THAT PARAGRAPH UP TOP... UMMM HAVENT DONE MUCH SINCE I WAS STUDYING AND GETTING READY FOR THE EXAM BUT WE ALL KNOW HOW THAT WENT... ALSO WENT TO THE MYON AND SHANE 54 CONCERT AND THAT WAS FUN. ALMOST ALL HARDSTYLE. BESIDES THAT REALLY NOTHING ELSE CEPT HUNG OUT WITH SOME FRIENDS. OH OH OH SAW AS ABOVE, SO BELOW YESTERDAY AND IT WAS PRETTY COOL. I LIKE THAT KIND OF STUFF SO YA FOR $7 SURE WHY NOT HAHA. WELL GUESS IM FREE NOW TO GO BACK OUT AND ALL... NOT REALLY SINCE MY HR COURSE IS STARTING SOON AND ALSO I GOTTA START LOOKING EVERYTHING OVER AGAIN CAUSE IM PISSED THAT I DIDNT GET IT... BLA... LIFE... WHAT A BITCH.

RT