RECOGNIZED

SO I DECIDED TO POST THIS MYSELF INSTEAD OF HAVING SOMEONE ELSE POST IT. I DONT THINK IVE MENTIONED IT BEFORE OR MAYBE I DID AND NOW I FORGOT... ANYWAYS... A WHILE BACK I DID A COMMERCIAL FOR TOYOTA :) YES... A COMMERCIAL. LONG STORY SHORT TOYOTA NEEDED SOMEONE TO FILM A CAMRY AD AND MY FRIEND SHOWED MY IMPROMPTU AD THAT I DID ON INSTAGRAM AND SOMEONE ELSE SAW IT OR SOMETHING AND THEN THEY CONTACTED ME TO DO IT. THATS ALL THERE IS TO IT REALLY LOL. I DID THIS A FEW MONTHS BACK AND IT WAS SUPPOSE TO AIR IN APRIL, IT DIDNT AND I DIDNT REALLY MIND IF IT DIDNT AIR. AS LONG AS I GOT A COPY OF THE SPOT THEN I WOULD BE HAPPY. FAST FORWARD 2 MONTHS... ITS ON TV, RADIO, AND INTERNET... LOL. I MIGHT AS WELL JUST TELL YOU THAT I KNEW THE 30 SECOND SPOT WAS ONLINE, BUT IT WAS ONLY RECENTLY I FOUND OUT THE 60 SECOND SPOT WAS ALSO ONLINE. 30 SECOND ONE I DONT MIND ITS FINE AND ALL BUT THE 60 SECOND... WELL LET JUST SAY MY FRIENDS LIKE THE AWESOME FRIENDS THEY ARE... THEY RIPPED ME A NEW ONE HAHA. IF YOU WATCH IT THEN YOU WILL KNOW WHAT I MEAN. A DISCLAIMER I WILL PUT OUT THERE IS THAT THIS WAS FILMED SHORTLY AFTER MY ACCIDENT AND I COULDNT REALLY MOVE SO IT LOOK NOOB, ALSO IT LOOKS LIKE THEY TOOK THE WORST TAKE OF ME LOL. WELL ITS UP AND FOR ALL TO SEE. IL POST IT BELOW. ANYWAYS SO QUITE A FEW OF MY FRIENDS HAVE MESSAGED ME SAYING OMG I SAW YOU ON TV AND ASKING IF THAT REALLY WAS ME. SOME OF THEM SAW ME ON TV AND SOME HEARD ME ON THE RADIO. I PERSONALLY HAVE YET TO SEE OR HEAR THE AD ON TV OR RADIO, BUT I HAVE SEEN THE ONLINE ONES. OH MAN!!! EVEN TODAY ALONE 3 DIFFERENT CONTRACTORS OF OURS CALLED ME AND SAID THEY SAW ME IN THE COMMERCIAL. WE OF COURSE TALKED ABOUT SOME WORK TOO HAHA. IT WAS FUN IN A WAY AND IM HAPPY I DID IT. LETS NOW HOPE IT WILL BRING OTHER THINGS OR MORE WORK LOL. ANYWAYS HERE IT IS FOR ALL OF YOU TO ENJOY AND TO GIVE IT MORE VIEWS AND LIKES LOL :)

THAT WAS ONE TYPE OF BEING RECOGNIZED. THE OTHER ONE I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT TODAY IS BEING RECOGNIZED. I KNOW I WROTE THE SAME THING, BUT THERES A DIFFERENCE IF YOU HEARD ME SAY IT OUT LOUD HAHA. THIS RECOGNIZED IS MORE OF THE ONE WHERE YOU ARE RECOGNIZED FOR YOUR WORK, YOUR EFFORT, YOUR SKILL, BASICALLY SOMETHING YOU DO. IT DOESNT MATTER IF ITS AT WORK, OR AT HOME, OR ANYWHERE ELSE. I THINK EVERYONE NEEDS TO BE RECOGNIZED FROM TIME TO TIME. SOMETIMES ITS FOR SOMETHING BIG BUT SOMETIMES IT CAN BE FOR THE SMALLEST THINGS. IT DOESNT MATTER IF ITS FOR WINNING THE BIGGEST CASE IN THE HISTORY OF MANKIND, OR IF ITS FOR HOLDING A DOOR OPEN. BEING RECOGNIZED FOR IT IS JUST A WAY OF CONFIRMATION. SOME PEOPLE DO IT TO BE RECOGNIZED BUT SOME PEOPLE DO IT JUST BECAUSE THEY WANT TO. RECOGNITION CAN BE AS SIMPLE AS A THANK YOU OR GOOD JOB, IT DOESNT ALWAYS HAVE TO BE A PARTY WITH PLAQUES AND AWARDS. RECOGNITION PLAYS SUCH AN IMPORTANT ROLE IN MOTIVATION AND SELF ESTEEM AND HELPS IN BUILDING CHARACTER. THINK ABOUT IT, AFTER DOING SOMETHING THAT IS RECOGNIZED, THE ODDS ARE YOU WILL DO IT AGAIN. ITS LIKE POSITIVE REINFORCEMENT. SINCE WE TALKING ABOUT PSYCHOLOGY THEN LETS JUST ADD IN MASLOW'S HIERARCHY OF NEEDS. THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT ESTEEM IS ALL ABOUT. THAT RECOGNITION MAKES THEM FEEL GOOD ABOUT THEMSELVES AND EVERYONE NEEDS TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT THEMSELVES FROM TIME TO TIME. ITS JUST NATURAL. WE HAVE TO BE ABLE TO MOTIVATE OURSELVES TO CONTINUE. WE NEED THAT AFFIRMATION. IF WE DONT, THEN WHATS THE POINT OF CONTINUING ON? WE WOULD JUST NOT BOTHER WITH IT AT ALL AND WHATEVER HAPPENS JUST HAPPENS. LONG STORY SHORT... MAKE SURE YOU RECOGNIZE!!! 

REST OF LIFE? WELL KEEPING BUSY OF COURSE. MEETINGS ALL WEEK. OH WE DID HANG OUT WITH A DIFFERENT GROUP AND THAT WAS CHILL. THE FOOTBALL TEAM IS OUT OF THE PLAYOFFS IN THE QUARTER FINAL ROUND. ANYWAYS STARTING TO PASS OUT. SO... SEE YOU ALL NEXT WEEK.

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BABIES EVERYWHERE!!!

PEOPLE GOT TO STOP HAVING BABIES!!! HOLY JEZZ!!! ITS LIKE MY FB, IG, AND EVERYTHING ELSE... ALL I SEE IS MY FRIENDS PREGO OR HAVING KIDS... ON A SIDENOTE... CONGRATS TO MY BEST FRIEND WHO JUST HAD HIS DAUGHTER TODAY AND I CANT WAIT TO SEE HER TOMORROW :) BUT JUST RECENTLY ANOTHER ONE OF MY CLOSE FRIENDS HAD A KID, MY TEAM MATE HAD A KID, OLD CLASSMATE HAD A KID, SOME OTHER PEOPLE HAD A KID, AND A WHOLE BUNCH PREGNANT. WELL... I GUESS I AM AT THE AGE WHERE IM LOOKING AT SETTLING DOWN AND HAVING A FAMILY... I DO WANT KIDS. I WANT 2 OF THEM, A SON FIRST, THEN A DAUGHTER. THE BROTHER HAS TO WATCH OUT FOR HIS LITTLE SISTER. YA, I SORTA HAVE THIS ALL PLANNED OUT, THE ONLY THING MISSING IS THE MRS RIGHT NOW. THEN AGAIN REALLY THINKING ABOUT IT IM A FEW YEARS FROM BEING READY TO HAVE A KID, BUT I WANT A KID. ITS JUST EVERYONE AROUND IS HAVING THEM AND I WANT OUR KIDS TO BE THE SAME AGE OR ROUGHLY THE SAME AGE. MY GROUPS PLANS IS THAT ALL OUR KIDS WILL BE FRIENDS AND BEST FRIENDS WITH EACH OTHER WHETHER THEY LIKE IT OR NOT!!! THEY HAVE NO CHOICE IN THE MATTER LOL. ITS SO MUCH FUN TO PLAY WITH BABIES FOR THAT HOUR OR WHATEVER BUT HAVING TO DEAL WITH THEM ALL THE TIME WOULD BE A LOT. WELL OBVIOUSLY YOU HAVE TO 24/7 BECAUSE THEY A BABY BUT JEZZ!!! BABY JUST GO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF ALREADY!!! LOL. THEN YOU HAVE TO RAISE THEM FOR WHO KNOWS HOW LONG BEFORE THEY FINALLY LEAVE HOME AND MAKE ME RICH!!! YES, MY KIDS WILL MAKE ME RICH!!! THEN AGAIN IL BE RICH WHEN SOON SOOOOOO TECHNICALLY ITS THE OTHER WAY AROUND HAHA. THINKING ABOUT IT IS JUST CRAZY THAT WHEN MY KID IS 10 OR 20 IL BE... MUCH MUCH OLDER AND ALL MY FRIENDS WILL BE THAT AGE TOO... SO MUCH WILL HAPPEN BETWEEN NOW AND THEN IT JUST BOGGLES THE MIND. BUT... WHO KNOWS WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN OR WHEN ITS GOING TO HAPPEN... EVERYTHING IS ALL UP IN THE AIR UNTIL THAT STUFF HAPPENS ANYWAY. SOOOOOO IN THE MEANTIME IL JUST ENJOY BEING THE AWESOME GODFATHER THAT I AM AND PLAY WITH OTHER PEOPLES BABIES :)

WHAT CAN I SAY ABOUT THE REST OF EVERYTHING? WHAT CAN I SAY... JUST SAME OLD DAY IN AND DAY OUT... FOR NOW. LIKE ALWAYS IM BUSY, IM HERE AND THERE, DOING THIS AND THAT. ITS EITHER GOING TO STAY THE SAME OR GET EVEN WORSE... WHO KNOWS. STILL WORKING ON WHAT I WANT, BUT EVERYTHING TAKES TIME... AS USUAL. PATIENCE REALLY IS A VIRTUE... SOMETIMES YOU JUST WANT A GLIMPSE OF THE FUTURE, JUST TO SEE IF THE ROAD YOU ARE ON, IS THE ROAD THAT YOU ARE MEANT TO BE ON, OR THE ROAD YOU THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE ON. JUST EVEN SEEING A SECOND OF IT WOULD HELP SHAPE AND CHANGE YOUR DECISIONS YOU MAKE THIS MINUTE, TODAY, TOMORROW AND FOREVER. THEN AGAIN I GUESS THATS THE MYSTERY WHICH IS LIFE AND NEVER KNOWING. THE CONSTANT SURPRISE LIFE BRINGS YOU, BOTH THE UPS AND DOWNS. WHO KNOWS WHATS TO COME... GUESS IL FIND OUT WHEN I WAKE UP... :P

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TOJO'S

SO I JUST GOT HOME FROM THE BEST JAPANESE SUSHI MEAL EVER!!! THIS IS GOING TO BE A SHORT POST JUST BECAUSE IM FULL AND IM TIRED :) IF YOU DONT KNOW, TOJOS IS HIDEKAZU TOJO RESTAURANT HERE IN VANCOUVER. HE IS CREDITED WITH THE CREATION OF THE CALIFORNIA ROLL AND THE BC ROLL. WE WENT THERE AND GOT THE OMAKASE, WHICH IS THE JAPANESE TERM FOR "I'LL LEAVE IT TO YOU." SO WE HAD NO IDEA WHAT OUR MEAL WAS GOING TO BE BECAUSE WE LEFT IT IN THE CHEFS HANDS. WE BASICALLY LEFT IT TO THE CHEF TO DECIDE WHAT TO SERVE US. IT WAS DEFINITELY AN AMAZING EXPERIENCE. WE DIDNT KNOW WHAT WE WERE GOING TO GET AND AFTER EACH DISH IT JUST MADE US WONDER WHAT WAS NEXT. I SORTA LOST TRACK OF HOW MANY COURSES WE HAD BUT AT LAST COUNT IM PRETTY SURE IT WAS ABOUT 12... YES!!! 12 COURSES!!! HAHA. I WOULD LOVE TO POST ALL THE PICTURES BUT THAT TAKES TOO MUCH TIME THESE DAYS SO YOURE GONNA HAVE TO FIND MY SNAPCHAT AND INSTAGRAM FOR THE PICTURES LOL. LETS SEE IF I REMEMBER ALL THAT WE HAD:

1. SASHIMI SALAD - SUPER FRESH AND OMG!!!
2. ASSORTED TEMPURA - SUPER LIGHT AND FLAVOURFUL 
3. OCTOPUS SALAD - THE TAKO WAS SO SOFT AND NOT LIKE REGULAR CHEWY
4. SPOT PRAWNS - PERFECTLY COOKED SO THE HEAD WAS GOOEY
5. WOOD SMOKED FISH - SMELLED SO GOOD!!! TASTED EVEN BETTER
6. LOBSTER ROLL - JUST LIKE IT SOUNDS :) CLASSY ROLL 
7. 5 CHEFS CHOICE SUSHI - BEST PIECE OF BLUEFIN TUNA I HAVE EVER HAD!!!
8. FISH ROE ROLL - SO MUCH WASABI!!!
9. 2 OTHER CHEFS CHOICE SUSHI - WHOLE SCALLOPS AND SMOKED SALMON
10. TOJO ROLL - THE REAL CALIFORNIA ROLL WITH REAL CRAB MEAT
11. GRAPEFRUIT JELLO - SUPER REFRESHING
12. SOME SORT OF PLUM ALCOHOL DRINK
13. AND LOTS OF SAKE IN BETWEEN :)

WELL I GUESS PICTURES OF ALL THE FOOD HELPS IN REMEMBERING. IVE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS MEAL FOR ABOUT A MONTH AND A HALF I THINK AND IT DEFINITELY DID NOT DISAPPOINT. WE EVEN GOT A PICTURE WITH THE MAN HIMSELF. IF IT WAS BECAUSE OF A WORK THING, I DONT THINK I WOULD HAVE GONE THERE FOR A WHILE. BECAUSE IT IS SO GOOD, ITS ALSO REALLY EXPENSIVE. THE INTERIOR LOOKS REALLY NICE, LOTS OF SERVERS AROUND, AND A MIDDLE SUSHI BAR WHERE YOU CAN SEE EVERYTHING BEING MADE. IF I GET THE CHANCE AGAIN I WOULD DEFINITELY GO... ITS MORE OF A SPECIAL OCCASION PLACE. UNTIL NEXT TIME :)

REST OF LIFE... SAME OLD, WORK, HANGING OUT. NOT MUCH HAS CHANGED IN THE WEEK. OH I DID GO TO PLAYLAND FOR THIS THING AND IT WAS PRETTY GOOD. HUNG OUT WITH THE FAMILY AND EVERYONE ELSE, ATE, AND THEN WENT TO THE HORSE RACING TRACK TO EAT SOME MORE. I HAVENT BEEN THERE IN YEARS AND IT WAS FUN. END OF THE DAY AFTER BEING UP AND DOWN, I LEFT ONLY BEING DOWN $10, WHICH WAS REALLY GOOD. ITS JUST A DIFFERENT ATMOSPHERE. NICE WEEKEND ALL TOGETHER. NOW TIME TO GO SLEEP. PEACE!

THE BRIDGES YOU BUILD

SO I JUST LOOKED BACK TO SEE IF I WROTE ABOUT THIS TOPIC BEFORE CAUSE I VAGUELY REMEMBER WRITING SOMETHING LIKE THIS ALREADY... ANDDDDD I DID... SORTA... NOT REALLY. THIS ONE IS A LITTLE BIT DIFFERENT FROM WHAT I WROTE ABOUT LAST TIME. THE BRIDGES YOU BUILD, IM REFERRING TO THE RELATIONSHIPS YOU CREATE. THIS APPLIES TO BOTH YOUR WORK LIFE AND PERSONAL LIFE. IM WRITING THIS POST MORE FOR THE WORK SIDE OF THINGS BUT IL WRITE ABOUT PERSONAL SIDE TOO. IVE SAID IT BEFORE IN THE OTHER POST, YOU NEVER WANT TO BURN ANY BRIDGES WITH ANYONE. ESPECIALLY SINCE MY CITY IS SO SMALL WHERE SOMEONE KNOWS SOMEONE WHO KNOWS YOU, YOU REALLY DONT WANT PEOPLE TO START TALKING. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO IN YOUR PAST WILL ACTUALLY HELP YOU IN THE PRESENT OR EVEN THE FUTURE. THROUGH SOME STRANGE EVENT YOU MIGHT END UP DEPENDING ON SOMEONE FOR SOMETHING, WHETHER FOR AN INTRODUCTION, OR PROMOTION, OR JUST TO HELP YOU OUT. IF YOU BURNED THAT BRIDGE, ODDS ARE THEY WONT HELP YOU WHEN YOU NEED IT. IVE BEEN DEALING WITH A LOT OF DIFFERENT CLIENTS AND CONTRACTORS THROUGHOUT THE YEARS AND A LOT OF THEM HAVE ONE THING IN COMMON, THEY TRY TO KEEP GOOD RELATIONS WITH ME. THEY WOULD JUST GIVE ME A CALL, SEND AN EMAIL, OR JUST GRABBING A COFFEE, THEY WOULD MAKE AN EFFORT TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH ME. GRANTED ITS MORE FOR A BUSINESS REASON THAT THEY KEEP IN TOUCH, BUT THIS IS HOW THEY MAKE SURE THAT THEY ARE ON YOUR MIND. THEN WHEN THE TIME COMES, YOU KNOW WHO TO CALL. IF THEY NEVER EVEN TRIED TO BUILD THAT RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW THEM, WHAT ARE THE ODDS OF YOU EVEN BOTHERING LOOKING FOR THEM? LOW!!! MAKING THAT FIRST STEP AT LEAST GETS YOUR FOOT IN THE DOOR, AND POSSIBLY MORE BUSINESS IN THE FUTURE. EVERYTHING IS CALCULATED, AND IT ONLY MAKES SENSE TO INVEST IN RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE YOURE INVESTING IN YOUR OWN FUTURE, AND THATS HOW YOU SURVIVE. FOR PERSONAL LIFE??? IM GETTING TO THE AGE WHERE MY GROUPS OF FRIENDS ARE GETTING MORE SET, SETTLING DOWN, GETTING MARRIED, AND HAVING KIDS. ITS HARDER AND HARDER TO MEET NEW PEOPLE. OF COURSE I HAVE MY MAIN CORE GROUP OF FRIENDS, AND THEN THOSE FRIENDS IM FRIENDS WITH, AND THE FRIENDS OF FRIENDS THAT IM FRIENDS WITH, AND THOSE FRIENDS WHO ARE ACQUAINTANCES AND I DONT REALLY HANG OUT MUCH WITH OR AT ALL. IT JUST SEEMED SO MUCH EASIER BACK IN THE DAY WHERE YOU JUST MEET EVERYONE AND JUST HAD A GREAT TIME, YOU END UP SEEING THEM ALL THE TIME AND THEN FROM THEM YOU MEET MORE PEOPLE AND THEY MEET YOUR PEOPLE AND SO ON AND SO ON. THESE DAYS HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSE TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS... GO OUT AND SAY, HEY! LETS BE FRIENDS? YOU WOULD JUST END UP WITH A WEIRD STARE AND THEY WOULD RUN AWAY FROM YOU. WHEN YOU DO END UP JOINING A NEW GROUP OF PEOPLE, ITS ALWAYS HARD TOO BECAUSE THEY ALREADY HAVE THAT BASE AND HISTORY WITH EACH OTHER THAT YOU DONT HAVE. THEN WHEN SOMEONE BRINGS YOU INTO THEIR GROUP, ITS JUST LIKE... WHAT ARE THEY DOING HERE, OR WHO IS THIS THAT IVE NEVER MET BEFORE. THEN WHEN YOU FINALLY ARE IN THE GROUP IT FEELS LIKE YOU HAVE TO START EVERYTHING AGAIN WITH THE NEW PEOPLE, AND LEARN EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM. MAKING NEW FRIENDS AND BUILDING NEW RELATIONSHIPS TAKES TOO MUCH TIME, ENERGY, AND MONEY... ALL OF WHICH I DONT HAVE ENOUGH OF. YOU ALL KNOW IM A SOCIAL GUY AND WILL JUST TALK AND TALK AND MEET NEW PEOPLE OR GROUPS, BUT SOMETIMES ITS JUST REALLY HARD, AND SOMETIMES I JUST THINK WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER...

OMG SO MANY EPISODES OF PERSON OF INTEREST!!! THERE WERE 3 THIS WEEK AND ITS JUST AHHHHHHHHH!!! FANBOY!!!!!!!!!!! LOL. I REALLY JUST WANTED TO WRITE ABOUT THE TOP ONE CAUSE ITS BEEN REALLY RELEVANT LATELY SO YA... REST OF LIFE? WORKS BUSY, AS A MATTER OF FACT I HAVE MEETINGS ALL DAY AND MEETINGS TO PREPARE FOR. WORK WORK WORK... LONG WEEKEND WAS FINE, JUST HUNG OUT AND ATE A LOT LOL. IM TRED AND TOMORROW IS THE BIGGEST MEETING FOR MY PORTFOLIO SO IM GONNA GO SLEEP. SEE YA NEXT TIME.

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WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

OKAY... SO I HAD LIKE 3 IDEAS FOR TOPIC THIS WEEK BUT THEN I SORTA FORGOT ABOUT THEM AND I DONT REALLY FEEL LIKE WRITING ABOUT WHAT I HAVE ON MY MIND SO THATS SAVED FOR ANOTHER DAY... UNTIL I FORGET ABOUT IT AGAIN HAHA. ANYWAYS... THIS HAS BEEN TOUCHED UPON IN THE PAST BUT LATELY ITS BEEN COMING BACK INTO MY HEAD AND IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT QUITE A BIT. SO WHAT DO YOU WANT? I MEAN WHAT DO I WANT? THATS THE HARDEST QUESTION TO ANSWER. IVE HAD AN IDEA OF WHAT I WANT FOR THE LONGEST TIME BUT THINGS KEEP HAPPENING AND CHANGING THAT WHAT I WANT KEEPS CHANGING ALONG WITH IT. RIGHT NOW, WHAT IS IT THAT I REALLY WANT? I DONT THINK THERES REALLY ANYTHING I REALLY WANT EXCEPT WHERE I REALLY WANT TO GET TO. EVERYTHING I WANT IS MORE OF THE MATERIALISTIC THING BUT DONT EVERYONE WANT MATERIALISTIC THINGS? THATS REALLY WANT WE WANT, BUT WHAT DO WE REALLY NEED? SOME PEOPLE WANT NICE CARS AND A BIG HOUSE BUT DO WE REALLY NEED IT? WHAT I REALLY WANT IS TO BE IN THE POSITION I WANT, DOING WHAT I WANT, AND NOT ANSWERING TO ANYONE. IM WORKING ON THAT BUT LATELY IT JUST SEEMS LIKE ITS BEEN GETTING PUSHED FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY. THE MOTIVATION AND DETERMINATION IS STILL THERE, JUST THAT THE TIME AND ENERGY IS NOT. BETWEEN WORK, LIFE, FAMILY, AND ALL THE RANDOM STUFF I DO IN BETWEEN, I DONT HAVE TIME TO PUT MYSELF IN THE PLACE WHERE I CAN MOVE FORWARD. I KNOW THAT SOUNDS LIKE AN EXCUSE AND IF I REALLY WANTED IT, I WOULD MAKE TIME FOR IT. I REALLY NEED TO GET BACK INTO THAT HEADSPACE TO GO AND GET WHAT I WANT. SOME OF YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT I GAVE MYSELF 1 YEAR FROM MY BIRTHDAY LAST YEAR TO GET TO WHERE I WANT TO BE, BUT THAT IS LOOKING FARTHER AWAY AND LESS LIKELY I WILL BE THERE BY MY BIRTHDAY. EVERYONE HAS DREAMS OF SOMETHING. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN DREAMING AND MAKING IT A REALITY, IS ACTION. RIGHT NOW THERE IS A LACK OF ACTION...I REALLY JUST NEED TO GET BACK TO IT. ANOTHER THING IS WHAT YOU WANT CHANGES WITH TIME, WHAT I WANTED BEFORE IS NOT WHAT I WANT NOW AND SOMETIMES ONCE ITS PAST THAT TIME, WHAT I WANT I CANT HAVE... YA YA I KNOW THIS POST IS ALL OVER THE PLACE BUT IM REALLY JUST DUMPING EVERYTHING ON TO THIS RIGHT NOW. WHEN DO WE STOP WANTING WHAT WE WANT??? WHEN WE CANT HAVE IT? WHEN ITS GONE? WHEN YOU KNOW IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE? SOMETIMES THAT MAKES YOU JUST WANT IT MORE AND SOMETIMES IT JUST MAKES YOU REALIZE YOU JUST HAVE TO MOVE ON. I THINK THOSE WHO LET GO OF WHAT THEY WANT ARE ALL THOSE WHO GET STUCK IN WHERE THEY ARE. YOU CANT LET GO OF WHAT YOU WANT. I DONT KNOW... I JUST REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT ANYMORE. LIFE IS ALREADY CONFUSING ENOUGH, THEN THROW IN EVERYTHING THAT YOU WANT JUST MAKES IT EVEN WORSE. I REALLY JUST WANT TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND REALLY THINK ABOUT WHAT I WANT AND WHERE I WANT TO BE. NO ONE CAN TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT, NO ONE CAN DECIDE ANYTHING FOR YOU. I JUST NEED TO KNOW WHAT I WANT. WELL... I WISH YOU ALL FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU WANT, WHAT YOU REALLY WANT. SO, WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

REST OF LIFE IS WHAT YOU EXPECT. NOTHING REALLY NEW, KEEPING BUSY, KEEPING DISTRACTED. OH I WENT TO NIGHT MARKET :) THAT WAS NICE. BIG LINE UP TO GET IN AND THEY RAISED THE PRICE OF ENTRY AGAIN... IT WAS $3.25... THEN BOUGHT A BUNCH OF FOOD AND PLAYED THOSE CARNEY GAMES LOL. THAT QUARTER TOSSING ONTO A PLATE AND MAKE IT STAY IS THE EASIEST GAME EVER HAHA. WELL... AS LONG AS YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING HAHA. 1 ON PLATE WINS SMALL AND 4 WINS A LARGE. WELL I GOT 6 IN ABOUT 40 TRIES SOOOOO WINNER!!! ANYWAYS NOW IM OUT OF HERE. GOT PLACES TO GO, PEOPLE TO SEE, STUFF TO DO. THIS IS ALSO WHY THIS WEEKS POST IS SO EARLY. PEACE.

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DISTRACTED

SO I HAD A TOPIC BUT THEN I FORGOT IT AND THEN I HAD ANOTHER BUT NOW I DONT WANT TO WRITE ABOUT IT... IM A LITTLE BIT TOO DISTRACTED TO WRITE WHAT I WANT ANYWAYS. SO INSTEAD YOU GET THIS POST ABOUT DISTRACTIONS :) LOL. THE PAST LITTLE WHILE IVE BEEN BUSY WITH WORK AND EVERYTHING ELSE GOING ON THAT IVE NEGLECTED WHAT I REALLY WANT TO DO. IVE BEEN DISTRACTED BY SOMETHING ELSE AS WELL. ITS FUNNY HOW SOMETHING CAN CONSUME YOUR THOUGH ALL DAY AND ALL NIGHT. THEN EVERYTHING YOU DO SOMEHOW COMES BACK TO THAT ONE THING AND EVEN THOUGH ITS NOT EVEN REMOTELY RELATED, YOUR BRAIN WILL SOMEHOW MADE A CONNECTION TO THAT ONE THING AND THEN BAM YOURE DISTRACTED FROM WHAT YOU WERE DOING. ITS ALSO NOT THAT HARD TO DISTRACT ME... I HAVE A SHORT ATTENTION SPAN... SO FOR SOMETHING TO KEEP MY ATTENTION LIKE THAT, IT REALLY MUST BE SOMETHING. I EVEN WANTED TO WRITE MORE ABOUT ADULTING, BUT NOW IM JUST TOO DISTRACTED AND I ALREADY WROTE ABOUT THE MAIN POINTS. I GUESS DISTRACTIONS ARE ALSO NICE, THEY TAKE YOU AWAY FOR A MOMENT AND MAKE YOU FORGET ALL YOUR WORRIES AND WHATNOT, BUT THE MOMENT YOU ARE BACK YOU REALIZE THAT NOTHING HAS HAPPENED OR CHANGED. ITS TIME TO FOCUS BACK, FORGET THESE DISTRACTIONS, AND GET BACK ON TRACK TO WHAT I WAS DOING AND THINKING.

IT WAY MY BEST FRIENDS BABY SHOWER THE PAST WEEKEND, SO THAT WAS FUN. GOT A CHANCE TO SEE A BUNCH OF OLD FRIENDS I HAVENT SEEN IN A WHILE. ITS ALSO BEEN A WHILE SINCE WE ALL GOT TOGETHER LIKE THAT. EVERYONE IS TOO BUSY THESE DAYS. SOME OF THEM HAVE LEVELLED UP AND ARE FATHERS NOW AND AS EXPECTED, PRIORITIES CHANGE. ITS ALL UNDERSTANDABLE, THATS JUST HOW LIFE IS, BUT THINGS SURE HAVE CHANGED. SOMETIMES I LOOK BACK AND LIFE WAS JUST SO MUCH EASIER, BUT OF COURSE WE ALL HAVE TO GROW UP, AND NOW ITS JUST SO MUCH HARDER AND EVERYTHING ALWAYS JUST SEEM SO MUCH MORE COMPLICATED. WELL... WHAT CAN YOU DO... RIGHT... JUST KEEP AT IT... I SUPPOSE. EVERYTHING WILL JUST FALL IN PLACE LIKE IT SHOULD.

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ADULTING...

WELL IVE BEEN ADULTING FOR A WHILE NOW AND ITS HARD... FOR THOSE WHO DONT UNDERSTAND, ADULTING IS BASICALLY DOING GROWN UP PEOPLE STUFF LIKE HAVING RESPONSIBILITIES, A JOB, RENT AND BILLS TO PAY, AND ALL THOSE LOVELY THINGS THAT GROWN UPS GET THE PLEASURE OF HAVING. IVE SORTA TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE HERE AND THERE BUT IT REALLY HIT ME HARD WHEN I STARTED BUYING BABY STUFF FOR FRIENDS KIDS... WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT I WOULD BE THE ONE TO BE DOING THESE KINDS OF THINGS... BEING A GROWN UP IS HARD... IT TAKES TIME AND MONEY AND YOU NEVER HAVE ENOUGH OF EITHER. HAVING RESPONSIBILITIES IS STRESSFUL!!! IT REALLY MAKES YOU THINK ABOUT YOURSELF AND WHERE YOU ARE IN LIFE AND WHAT YOU REALLY WANT AND WHAT YOU WANT TO DO. GROWING UP YOU HAVE ALL THESE DREAMS AND GOALS OF BEING A SPY OR AN ACTOR OR A DOCTOR, ONLY TO GROW UP AND REALIZE THAT ITS NOT POSSIBLE OR YOU JUST CANT DO IT OR THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO DO CANT PAY THE BILLS. ITS EVEN WORSE THESE DAYS SINCE EVERYTHING COSTS SO MUCH, HOW CAN YOU EVEN AFFORD TO DO ANYTHING? THERES JUST SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT THIS TOPIC. IT ALL GOES BACK TO THE BOTTOM LINE OF ARE YOU HAPPY??? IF YOU ARE HAPPY WITH EVERYTHING THEN THATS GREAT, BUT THE ODDS ARE IF YOURE AN ADULT, YOU ARE NOT HAPPY. NOTHING EVER GOES YOUR WAY...AINT THAT RIGHT... LIFE WAS SO MUCH EASIER... NOT A CARE IN THE WORLD AND NOW IM WORRYING ABOUT BABY PRODUCT INSTEAD... YOU JUST HAVE TO GO WITH IT AND MAKE THE BEST OF IT.

I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO WRITE ABOUT THIS BUT IM PASSING OUT... SOOOO UNTIL NEXT TIME :)

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