THAT HEADSPACE...

ONCE AGAIN INEVITABLY YOU WILL REACH THAT HEADSPACE WHERE YOU WONDER... WONDER ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE DOING... WONDER WHERE YOU ARE GOING... WONDER WHAT IT ALL MEANS... ITS A NATURAL PART OF LIFE, AND IN EACH OF YOUR MINDS A STORM IS BREWING AND A BATTLE IS WAGED. HOW DO YOU LOOK FOR ANSWERS AND WHERE DO YOU DO THAT... ANSWERS THAT CANT BE ANSWERED BY ANYONE BUT YOURSELF. IVE WROTE ABOUT THIS BEFORE BUT LIKE CLOCKWORK THESE QUESTIONS WILL CREEP BACK INSIDE YOUR HEAD AND MAKE YOU WONDER... MAKE YOU QUESTION IT ALL... QUESTION EVERYTHING YOU KNOW AND EVERYTHING YOU ARE. NO ONE CAN ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS AND THATS WHATS FRUSTRATING... EVERYONE IS ON THEIR OWN PATH... THEIR OWN JOURNEY... AND NO ONE KNOWS WHERE IT BEGINS OR ENDS. SOME PEOPLE FIGURE IT ALL OUT QUICKLY AND OTHERS TAKE A LIFETIME TO KNOW, AND SOME WILL NEVER FIND OUT THE ANSWER. PEOPLE TAKE TIME OFF TO FIND THEMSELVES AND SOME ARE LUCKY ENOUGH TO FIND THE ANSWERS THEY ARE LOOKING FOR. ANSWERS CAN COME FROM ANYWHERE, IT MIGHT BE SOMETHING YOU READ OR SEE OR HEAR, IT COULD BE A MEMORY, OR IT COULD COME TO YOU IN A DREAM AND WHEN YOU WAKE UP, ALL IS CLEAR. ANSWERS COULD COME FROM INSPIRATION, PASSION, LOVE, HATE, HAPPINESS, SADNESS, AND A MILLION DIFFERENT FEELINGS AND PLACES. POETS AND PHILOSOPHERS HAVE ALL TRIED TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS AND EVEN TO THEM THE ANSWERS ARE NOT CLEAR. TOO MANY QUESTIONS IN LIFE AND TOO LITTLE TIME TO FIGURE IT ALL OUT AND WHAT IT ALL MEANS. I GUESS IL LOOK WITHIN AND SEE IF IT COMES TO ME IN MY DREAM TONIGHT. I JUST NEED TO GET LOST TO FIND MYSELF. IN THE END, DONT WE ALL JUST WANT ANSWERS TO THE QUESTIONS THAT WE HAVE???

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VALUES & PRIORITIES

SO WHAT DO YOU VALUE??? EVERYONE VALUES SOMETHING, AND IM NOT TALKING ABOUT JUST MONEY OR OBJECTS. IM TALKING ABOUT PERSONAL VALUES AND HOW YOU LIVE YOUR LIFE. IM TALKING ABOUT THE RELATIONSHIPS YOU FORM. IM TALKING ABOUT FAMILY. IM TALKING ABOUT ALL THE THINGS THAT MONEY CANT BUY. ITS THE VALUES THAT EACH ONE OF US HAS THAT DETERMINE HOW WE LIVE OUR LIVES AND WHAT WE HOLD DEAR. THE PROBLEM THESE DAYS IS WHAT DO WE DO WHEN OUR VALUES CONFLICT AGAINST WHAT OR WHERE WE WANT TO GO? HOW DO WE GET OVER IT? CAN MONEY REALLY BUY EVERYTHING? EVERYONE HAS A PRICE AND ITS TRUE... EVEN THOUGH MONEY CANT BUY EVERYTHING IT REALLY CAN... VALUES ARE WHAT MAKES US WHO WE ARE. CAN YOU REALLY GIVE UP OR BREAK YOUR VALUES TO GET WHAT YOU WANT? ARE WE REALLY STILL US IF WE GIVE THAT ALL UP? YA... JUST BEEN THINKING LATELY AS YOU CAN TELL. SORTA JUST RAMBLING... I HAD THIS THOUGHT OUT ACTUALLY BUT NOW IT JUST BLURRED INTO ONE BIG CLUSTER OF WORDS... I THINK IT THE REASON THIS TOPIC CAME UP IS ONE OF MY CLOSE BUDDY JUST HAD A KID AND WHAT HE VALUES NOW REALLY SHOWS. HE VALUES EVERY MOMENT HE HAS WITH HIS NEW KID. I PERSONALLY VALUE MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY, IT IS THEM WHO HAVE MADE ME WHO I AM. I ALSO VALUE THE RELATIONSHIPS AND OPPORTUNITIES THAT I HAVE BEEN GIVEN, BOTH THE GOOD AND THE BAD. HAVING SOMETHING TO HOLD ON TO GIVES US PURPOSE, GIVES US DIRECTION, GIVES US MOTIVATION TO CONTINUE ON AND KEEP ON MOVING FORWARD.

WHAT ABOUT PRIORITIES??? VALUES AND PRIORITIES TIE INTO EACH OTHER. THEY DEFINE EACH OTHER. WHAT YOU VALUE DETERMINES HOW MUCH OF A PRIORITY THEY ARE TO YOU. EVERYONES PRIORITIES ARE DIFFERENT, AND THEY WILL BE DIFFERENT DEPENDING ON WHERE IN LIFE YOU ARE. GROWING UP YOUR PRIORITIES REALLY DO CHANGE. SOMEHOW WITHOUT KNOWING IT... SLOWLY YET SURELY YOUR PRIORITIES WILL CHANGE. PERHAPS SOMEONE OR SOMETHING MADE YOU REALIZE THAT THINGS NEED TO CHANGE. ITS THEN YOU REALIZE THAT YOU CANT KEEP GOING THE WAY YOU ARE GOING AND MAKE A CHANGE HOPEFULLY FOR THE BETTER. SAME THING AS BEFORE... I WENT AND SAW MY BUDDIES KID AND BASICALLY HIS WHOLE WORLD WAS FLIPPED UPSIDE DOWN... EVERYTHING THAT WAS A PRIORITY FOR HIM CHANGED AND NOW THE KID IS HIS FIRST PRIORITY. WHEN YOU WERE YOUNGER IT WAS SCHOOL, WHEN YOU GET OLDER ITS WORK AND MONEY AND FRIENDS. WHEN YOU GET EVEN OLDER ITS YOUR OWN FAMILY. ITS WEIRD JUST WATCHING EVERYONE YOU HAVE KNOWN FOR SO LONG GROW UP AND MOVE ON TO DIFFERENT PRIORITIES. THEN AGAIN WITHOUT PRIORITIES HOW DO YOU KNOW WHATS REALLY IMPORTANT. I GUESS... UNTIL YOU REALLY KNOW WHAT YOUR PRIORITIES ARE YOU REALLY DONT KNOW YOURSELF. ONCE AGAIN... KNOWING YOUR PRIORITIES TAKES TIME... AS USUAL EVERYTHING COMES BACK DOWN TO TIMING... SIGH...

WORKS BEEN BUSY BUT WORKS WORK AND ITS FUN :) JUST BEEN IN MEETINGS AND WORKING ON PAPERWORK BUT I MUST SAY CHRISTMAS SURE DOES HAVE ITS PERKS LOL. PEOPLE ARE BRINGING IN ALL SORTS OF GOODIES. BESIDES THE CARDS WE GOT CANDY AND CANDY AND CANDY AND CUPCAKES AND COOKIES AND CHOCOLATES AND SUCH AND SUCH HAHA. FRIDAY IS THE COMPANIES CHRISTMAS DINNER PARTY AND LIKE I SAID IM IN CHARGE OF THE SOCIAL ACTIVITIES... DID YOU KNOW ITS REALLY HARD TO COME UP WITH GAMES THAT ARE AGE APPROPRIATE AND WORK APPROPRIATE??? AND THAT IT HAS TO BE FUN!??!?!?!?! ITS ACTUALLY A LOT HARDER THAN YOU THINK... BUT I DID IT!!! I CAME UP WITH 3 GAMES :) BUT THEN I FORGOT THE 2ND ONE... SO I CREATED A 3RD ONE LOL AND THEN I REMEMBERED SO THEN I HAD 4 GAMES BUT NOW I WAS TOLD THERES A 5TH PRIZE BUT THAT 5 GAME IM JUST GONNA CRAP OUT AND BE LIKE HERE LETS JUST PICK AN WINNER HAHA. I DONT HAVE MUCH SHOPPING TO DO... USUALLY ITS JUST SECRET SANTA BUT THATS NOT THAT HARD HAHA. MY FAMILY DONT REALLY DO CHRISTMAS GIFTS... ITS REALLY HARD TO BUY THINGS FOR EACH OTHER SO WE SORTA... JUST... DONT... LOL. WE JUST HANG OUT WITH FAMILY AND WE HAVE A GOOD TIME AND THAT MAKES EVERYTHING GRAVY LOL. NEXT WEEKS POST IS GOING TO BE CHRISTMAS EVE BUT HEY I GOTTA KEEP UP WITH THE WEEKLY POST EH. WELL ANOTHER WEEK ANOTHER POST. THERE AND THERE.

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