THATS A WRAP FOLKS

THIS IS THE LAST POST OF 2015!!! CANT BELIEVE ITS ANOTHER YEAR AND LETS JUST SAY THIS REALLY IS SOME SORT OF END TO THE YEAR... GUESS ILL START OFF BY SAYING I RECENTLY... AND WHEN I SAY RECENTLY I MEAN SUNDAY... I GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT. WHILE DRIVING A FRIEND HOME SOME GUY DECIDES TO MAKE A LAST SECOND LEFT TURN... RIGHT INTO ME... AIRBAGS GO OFF AND IM SHAKEN AND PISSED. YOU CAN IMAGINE HOW PISSED OFF I WOULD BE!!! ANYWAYS I MAKE SURE MY FRIENDS OK THEN GET OUT AND SEE THAT MY CAR IS DONE. SO I CALL THE COPS AND IT TURNS INTO THIS BIG THING. DEALING WITH THIS AT 3AM IS NOT FUN. ANYWAYS HAVE IT ALL FIGURED OUT AND NOW IM JUST DEALING WITH ALL THE AFTERMATH STUFF. THIS IS WHAT I HATE... THE HASSLE OF THE WHOLE THING!!! I GOTTA CALL PEOPLE, WRITE STUFF, SEND STUFF, AND SEE PEOPLE. ITS ALREADY TAKEN UP A FEW DAYS OF MY TIME AND ON TOP OF IT ALL IM INJURED!!! NOW PLACES ARE HURTING AND I HAVE TO FREAKING DEAL WITH THIS BULLCRAP. OH AND ON TOP OF IT ALL SINCE THE CARS PRETTY SURE TOTALLED I HAVE TO GO LOOK TO BUY A NEW CAR... PROBLEM IS THERE ISNT MANY CARS I LIKE RIGHT NOW... SOOOOO THIS IS JUST NICE AND DANDY. THERES TOO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT THIS BUT IM JUST NOT IN THE MOOD FOR ANY OF THIS.

HOW WAS MY HOLIDAY AND CHRISTMAS??? WELL... SORTA RUINED BY THAT BUT BEFORE THAT IT WAS NICE. JUST WENT OVER TO AUNTS PLACE AND HAD DINNER. I TROLLED MY COUSIN AND WHEN SHE REALLY FOUND OUT WHAT I GOT HER SHE WAS PISSED!!! IT WAS FUNNY BUT MAN SHE WASNT HAPPY... NOT AT ALL LOL. SAW SOME FRIENDS HERE AND THERE SO THAT WAS NICE.

JUST LIKE THE END OF EVERY YEAR ITS TIME FOR THE HIGHLIGHTS OF THIS YEAR:

• GOT PROMOTED AT WORK
• 1ST FULL TIME JOB THAT I HELD FOR A FULL YEAR FROM BEGINNING TO END
• 1ST VACATION ON A FULL TIME JOB
• WENT TO VISIT GRANDMA, FRIENDS, AND FAMILY IN HONG KONG
• GAVE MYSELF A GOAL AND A DEADLINE FOR ACHIEVING IT, WHICH IS STILL IN PROGRESS
• WAS SINGLE THE WHOLE YEAR
• DID WHATEVER I WANTED THAT MADE ME HAPPY
• KEPT THIS BLOG GOING EVERY WEEK FOR ANOTHER YEAR... CANT BELIEVE THIS BLOG HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR 4 YEARS NOW... 
• CHALLENGED MYSELF TO DO THE JOURNAL ENTRY A DAY CHALLENGE AGAIN :) SO NOW YOU CAN ASK ME WHAT I HAVE DONE IN THE PAST 2 YEARS AND I CAN ACTUALLY TELL YOU LOL

LOOKING FORWARD I KNOW WORK IS GOING TO CONTINUE TO BE BUSY. I KNOW IM GOING TO CONTINUE WHAT I AM WORKING TOWARDS. I KNOW THAT NOTHING WORTH IT IS GOING TO BE EASY. I KNOW ITS GOING TO BE A LOT OF HARD WORK COMING. I CAN ONLY HOPE THAT EVERYTHING I AM WORKING FOR WORKS OUT. 

THIS REALLY BRINGS ME TO THE QUESTION OF WHETHER OR NOT I WILL KEEP THIS BLOG GOING... I REALLY DONT KNOW... 4 YEARS... EVERY WEEK FOR 4 YEARS... WITHOUT FAIL... THAT OVER 200 POSTS IVE WRITTEN!!! IVE ALREADY CUT BACK ON THE PICTURES BECAUSE IT WAS JUST WAY TOO MUCH WORK TO HAVE THEM UPLOADED AND INSERTED AND EVERYTHING. LAST YEAR I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO JUST POST HERE AND THERE WHENEVER I WANT... YET IT SEEMS LIKE I HAVE SURVIVED ANOTHER YEAR. I GUESS EVERYTHING WILL BE REVEALED ALL IN GOOD TIME LOL. 

WHAT AM I GOING TO DO FOR THE NEW YEAR??? PROB JUST HAND OUT WITH SOME FRIENDS. NOTHING BIG, I NEVER ACTUALLY LIKED BIG PARTIES LOL. FUNNY EH.

HOPE 2016 WILL START BETTER THAN THE WAY IT ENDED!!! ITS GOING TO BE A GOOD YEAR :) I CAN FEEL IT. WITH THAT I WISH EVERYONE AND YOUR FAMILY A HAPPY NEW YEAR. SEE YOU ALL NEXT YEAR. 

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LIVE SHOWS

SO I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT ALL THE SHOWS I HAVE GONE TO RECENTLY OR HEARD ABOUT. IM TALKING ABOUT CONCERTS, EVENTS, AND LIVE SPORTS. I DONT GO TO MANY CONCERTS BUT I HAVE BEEN TO A BUNCH FOR THE PEOPLE I LIKE A LOT, BUT I HAVE GONE TO MANY MANY MANYYYYYYYYY EVENTS, WHEN I SAY EVENTS I MEAN DJ SHOWS HAHA, AND TO QUTIE A FEW LIVE SPORTS. FOR BOTH CONCERTS AND EVENTS YOU ALREADY KNOW THEIR SONGS, YOUVE HEARD IT BEFORE THERES NOT MUCH NEW ABOUT IT. FOR BOTH CONCERTS AND SPORTS A LOT OF TIME YOU CAN WATCH IT ON TV OR ONLINE. SO FOR MOST OF THEM YOU HAVE EITHER HEARD IT BEFORE OR YOU CAN WATCH IT ELSEWHERE. THEN WHY IS IT THAT EVERYONE MAKES SUCH A BIG DEAL ABOUT GOING TO SEE IT LIVE...??? THE MAIN REASON IS THE ATMOSPHERE!!! WATCHING SOMETHING LIVE WITH FRIENDS OR FAMILY IS COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FROM JUST WATCHING OR LISTENING TO IT BY YOURSELF AT HOME. THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU AND THE ENERGY IN THE VENUE JUST BRINGS THE EMOTIONS AND ENERGY UP. BEING SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE WHO HAVE THE SAME INTERESTS JUST MAKES FOR A BETTER TIME. THERES BEEN TIMES WHERE IM WATCHING A HOCKEY GAME OR BASKETBALL GAME OR SOCCER GAME AT HOME BY MYSELF AND WHEN THEY SCORE ITS JUST LIKE OK GOOD FOR THEM, BUT WHEN IM AT THE GAME ITS LIKE THE WHOLE PLACE JUST ERUPTS AND SCREAMS LIKE THERES NO TOMORROW. SAME THING FOR A PENALTY... AT HOME I WOULD JUST BE LIKE MEH, BUT AT A GAME I WOULD YELL AND SWEAR. IT ALL JUST TIES IN TO THE PSYCHOLOGY OF GROUP BEHAVIOUR/HERD BEHAVIOUR AND HOW PEOPLE ALIKE ACT IN GROUP SETTINGS. A BIG PART OF GOING TO SHOWS THESE DAYS ARE MORE ABOUT SOCIAL STATUS THAN ACTUALLY GOING FOR THE SHOW ITSELF. PEOPLE POST ALL OVER SOCIAL MEDIA TELLING EVERYONE AND SHOWING EVERYONE WHERE YOU ARE, HOW CLOSE YOU ARE, EITHER YOU HAVE THE MONEY TO GO, OR WHO YOU KNOW. ITS ALL TOO TRUE THAT BEING ABLE TO GO TO SOMETHING THAT IS EXCLUSIVE OR SOLD OUT JUST MAKES THEM THINK IT ELEVATES THEM SOMEHOW. HONESTLY IVE DONE THE SAME THING BEFORE... IF YOU CHECK MY IG YOU CAN SEE A BUNCH OF THEM, BUT FOR ME I FEEL ITS MORE OF A JOURNAL OF MY LIFE... THEN AGAIN ITS NOT MUCH DIFFERENT OF TRYING TO LET PEOPLE KNOW WHAT OR WHERE I AM OR HAVE GONE. IT REALLY IS HUMAN NATURE ALWAYS TRYING TO ONE UP EACH OTHER, TRYING TO PROVE THAT THEY ARE BETTER, OR IN OTHER WORDS SHOW OFF LOL. NOT MUCH YOU CAN REALLY DO ABOUT THAT SINCE WE LIVE IN THE DIGITAL AGE AND WHERE SOCIAL MEDIA IS SO PREVALENT EVERYWHERE IN KEEPING EVERYONE CONNECTED. SNAPCHAT IS A PRIME EXAMPLE OF THIS AND PERISCOPE IS LIVE BROADCASTING TO THE WORLD WHERE YOU ARE. IT CAN ONLY GET WORSE IS WHAT I THINK... SO... WITH EVERYTHING SAID IM GOING TO A PARTY THIS WEEKEND AND IL MOST LIKELY HAVE PICTURES AND SNAPS UP ABOUT IT... AHEAHEHAHA

IN OTHER NEWS... IM STILL BLOCKED FROM FACEBOOK... I REALLY DONT NOTICE IT ANYMORE... I DONT GET CONSTANT NOTIFICATION FROM THEM SO THATS ACTUALLY PRETTY GOOD. WORKS WORK, GOT A FEW DAYS OFF FOR CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR SO SHORT WEEK THIS WEEK AND NEXT. THATS GOOD SINCE ITS A MUCH NEEDED LITTLE BREAK. JUST BEEN GOING OVERDRIVE FOR THE PAST YEAR ALMOST AND NEED A LITTLE BIT OF A BREATHER. EVEN MY VACATION WAS BUSY... SO NOW I GET A CHANCE TO JUST HANG OUT AND CHILL A BIT WITH THE FAMILY AND FRIENDS. OH OH OH THE PAST MONDAY WAS THE ANNUAL COMPANY CHRISTMAS DINNER. IT WAS NICE AND EVERYONE HAD A GREAT TIME :) AS THE SOCIAL COORDINATOR I HAD 5 GAMES SET UP, TALKED A BIT, AND DELIVERED THE SECRET SANTA PRESENTS. IT WAS GREAT JUST RELAXING WITH EVERYONE AND STUFFING OUR FACES LOL.

WELL CHRISTMAS IS ON FRIDAY SO I WISH ALL MY READERS AND THEIR FAMILIES A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY :)

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GOING TO SLEEP NOW...

THIS IS GOING TO BE A SAD SAD POST... SAD IN THE SENSE THAT ITS GOING TO BE SHORT AND REALLY NOT ABOUT ANYTHING. I HAD A FEW TOPICS BUT TOO LAZY AND TIRED TO WRITE ABOUT IT.

SO THERE WAS JUST ONE THING... ITS ALMOST CHRISTMAS AND THAT MEANS NEW YEARS IS AROUND THE CORNER. WHEN PEOPLE MAKE NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS OR GOALS TO REACH, I ALWAYS FIND IT FUNNY. FUNNY HOW THEY ALL WANT TO START IT ON JANUARY 1. THAT DATE IS SO ARBITRARY. I MEAN IT DOESNT REALLY MATTER WHEN YOU START, YOU COULD EVEN START THE DAY YOU DECIDED TO START IT. PEOPLE JUST WANT TO THINK THAT THEY CAN DO IT SO THEY GIVE THEMSELVES TIME TO PREPARE AND START, BUT IN THE MEAN TIME THEY WANT TO KEEP DOING WHAT THEY ARE DOING... IF YOU REALLY WANTED A CHANGE OR SOMETHING YOU CAN DO IT ANY DAY!!! EVERYDAY IS JUST ANOTHER DAY. THERES NOTHING SPECIAL ABOUT NEW YEAR, ITS JUST ANOTHER DAY. 

ANYWAYS WORKS STILL AS BUSY AS EVER AND WITH ALL THIS RAIN ITS CAUSING HELL WITH TONS OF PLACES. SOMETHING SOMETHING SOMETHING... BLA BLA BLA. SCREW IT!!! IM GOING TO SLEEP!!!

POSITIVE POSITIVITY

I REALLY DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO WRITE ABOUT THIS WEEK AND EVEN HAD TO ASK SOME FRIENDS FOR TOPICS. LETS JUST SAY THIS WAS THE ONLY ONE THAT I DECIDED THAT ITS A PRETTY GOOD ONE. I WAS ALSO LAZY AND DIDNT WANT TO TYPE ANYTHING UP. I ACTUALLY PASSED OUT TRYING TO GET THIS POST GOING...

IM A PRETTY POSITIVE PERSON... EVEN THOUGH IT MIGHT NOT SEEM LIKE IT ESPECIALLY SINCE I LOOK AND SOUND MORE LIKE A PESSIMIST... I WOULD CONSIDER MYSELF MORE OF A REALIST... I KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT AND WHAT THE LIMITS OF REALITY REALLY SHOULD BE... WITH THAT BEING SAID... IM STILL REALLY OPTIMISTIC ABOUT MY ABILITIES AND WHAT I REALLY CAN DO. YOU HAVE TO BE POSITIVE TO ACHIEVE ANYTHING IN YOUR LIFE. ITS LIKE THE THE WORLD KNOWS WHEN YOU ARE BEING A DOWNER AND EVERYTHING JUST GOES THAT WAY AS WELL, BUT WHEN YOU ARE POSITIVE EVERYTHING JUST SEEMS TO WORK OUT SOMEHOW. NOT ONLY THAT BUT BEING POSITIVE IS STRONG CHARACTERISTIC TO HAVE. IT ALLOWS YOU TO BE ABLE TO HANDLE SITUATIONS THAT DONT GO YOUR WAY. WHEN THINGS DONT WORK OUT YOURE ABLE TO KEEP GOING AND SURVIVE. BEING POSITIVE ALSO LETS YOU KEEP SEEING ALL THE DIFFERENT POSSIBILITIES THAT THERE COULD BE, COMPARED TO JUST GIVING UP. EVEN PEOPLE AROUND YOU CAN FEEL THE POSITIVITY ABOUT A PERSON, AND THAT POSITIVENESS ATTRACTS ALIKE. THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU WILL BE ABLE TO HELP YOU STAY POSITIVE, AND REMIND YOU WHEN THINGS DONT GO AS PLANNED. ITS A CIRCLE, POSITIVITY BREEDS POSITIVITY WHICH BRINGS POSITIVENESS.

YA... THIS WASNT MY BEST POST BUT I GOTTA STAY POSITIVE :) RIGHT!!! REST OF LIFE IS AS USUAL. STARTING TO GET CHIRSTMAS STUFF FROM CLIENTS AND BEEN EATING A BUNCH OF CHOCOLATES AND COOKIES LOL. SO I WAS DESIGNATED THE SOCIAL COORDINATOR FOR THE OFFICE AND ITS FUN. I ORDER FOOD OR SET THINGS UP, BUT THE MAIN THING IS THE COMPANY CHRISTMAS DINNER WHERE I GET TO MAKE GAMES AND MAKE SURE THE DINNER ISNT BORING LOL. ALSO I GET SECRET SANTA GOING. ITS ACTUALLY HARDER TO THINK OF GAMES FOR A WORK APPROPRIATE DINNER SETTING THAN YOU THINK... YOU HAVE TO HAVE GAMES THAT EVERYONE CAN UNDERSTAND AND THAT THEY WOULD KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING. A LOT OF TIME THERES GENERATIONAL GAPS BETWEEN COWORKERS AND THAT CAN MAKE IT LOB SIDED AND THAT IS WHY ITS HARD TO MAKE GAMES THAT EVERYONE UNDERSTAND, BUT SINCE I AM RUNNING THIS FOR THE 2ND TIME, I GOT THE HANG OF IT HAHA. DONT REMEMBER IF I MENTIONED WE MADE A VOLLEYBALL TEAM... BUT ANYWAYS ITS PRETTY FUN. WE DROPPED IN ON SOME GAMES AND HONESTLY IT DEPENDS ON THE TEAM THAT YOU GET DROPPED INTO. MY TEAM WELL... LETS JUST SAY NEEDS A LOT OF PRACTICE HAHA. ISSUE IS THAT WHEN I WENT UP FOR A BLOCK I MADE THE BLOCK, BUT THE OTHER GUY LANDED 1ST AND THEN I LANDED ON HIS FOOT AND I TWISTED MY ANKLE... SO THAT WAS FUN... IT BRUISED UP A BIT AND WAS TENDER FOR A FEW DAYS AND ACTUALLY THERES STILL SOME PAIN IF I BEND MY FOOT THIS ONE WAY.

FACEBOOK IS STILL LOCKED... WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!!! ARGGG I DONT USE FACEBOOK MUCH BUT I DO NEED IT TO LINK THIS BLOG TO IT!!! ALSO LOTS OF GAMES ARE LINKED TO THAT ALONG WITH SITES SO I DONT HAVE TO CREATE AN ACCOUNT HAHA. I AM WHO I AM AND WHO CARES JEZZ AND I ALREADY VERIFIED SO WHO CARES IF MY LAST NAME IS JUST 1 LETTER!!! ARGGGG!!!

SO THE CRA SENT ME A LETTER BASICALLY SAYING THAT MY TAXES IS WRONG AND IM BEING REASSESSED... MY NUMBERS ARE BEING CHANGED BECAUSE I CANT SUPPORT THAT CLAIM... AND THAT I CANT CARRY FORWARD MY SCHOOL CREDIT... WHICH IS BULLSHIT BECAUSE YOU CAN. ANYWAYS... SHOULD BE ALL GOOD SINCE I GOT PROOF, SO ONCE AGAIN GOVERNMENT YOU CAN GO SUCK IT!!!

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FACEBOOK IS BEING A DOUCHE

SO... I DONT USE FACEBOOK ANYMORE EXCEPT TO LINK WEEKLY BLOG POSTS, LINK INSTAGRAM PICTURES, AND TO SAY HAPPY BDAY TO PEOPLE... BUT GUESS WHAT... THEY HAVE FINALLY LOCKED ME OUT AND WANT ME TO PROVE MY IDENTITY BEFORE THEY LET ME BACK IN AGAIN. I AM ONE OF THE VERY FEW PEOPLE TO HAVE MY FACEBOOK NAME WITH ONLY MY FIRST NAME AND 1 SINGLE LETTER FOR MY LAST NAME. I FIRST SIGNED UP FOR IT WITH 1 LETTER AND HAVE BEEN USING THAT SINCE I STARTED. IVE ONLY SEEN 1 OTHER FRIEND WHO WAS LUCKY ENOUGH TO DO THAT TOO. ANYONE WHO TRIES TO DO THAT THESE DAYS IT SAYS THAT YOU CANT HAVE A LAST NAME WITH 1 LETTER. SO IN ORDER TO GET MY ACCOUNT BACK I HAVE TO PROVE THAT I AM WHO I AM. I SENT IN MY DRIVERS LICENSE WITH EVERYTHING REDACTED EXCEPT MY FIRST NAME, 1 LETTER LAST NAME, PICTURE OF ME, AND BDAY SHOWN, AND THEY LET ME BACK IN................ UNTIL THEY ACTUALLY REVIEWED IT AND SENT ME A MESSAGE SAYING THEY COULD NOT VERIFY WHO I AM AND NEEDS ME TO SEND IN MORE VERIFICATION ID... SO I SENT THE SAME THING IN AGAIN AND NOW I DONT HAVE FACEBOOK UNTIL THEY VERIFY THAT AGAIN... THIS IS SO STUPID... JUST BECAUSE I WANT 1 LETTER FOR A LAST NAME THEY WONT LET ME BACK... WELL THATS JUST BULLSHIT!!! I KNOW A BUNCH OF PEOPLE WITH FAKE NAMES AND FAKE ACCOUNTS AND NOTHING HAPPENS BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THE ONE GUY WHOS HAD FACEBOOK WITH 1 LETTER FOR THE PAST 10 YEARS GETS CHECKED... AND BLOCKED... I SWEAR IT MUST BE BECAUSE IM ASIAN!!! THATS ALWAYS THE REASON!!! FACEBOOK IS RACIST!!! LOL. SEE I DONT USE FACEBOOK MUCH WHICH IS ALRIGHT, BUT THE ISSUE IS THAT THERE ARE A LOT OF APPS AND SITES THAT I CAN USE FACEBOOK TO LOG IN AND NOW I CANT... OMG!!! IM NOT GOING TO MAKE AN ACCOUNT FOR THIS AND AN ACCOUNT FOR THAT!<>?%*#@)$(@!9 ARG!!! THIS IS JUST SO STUPID BECAUSE THAT MEANS THIS POST ISNT GOING TO BE LINKED EITHER... I SWEAR I BETTER BE ABLE TO GET MY NAME BACK WITH 1 LETTER... REALLY... FACEBOOK HAS NOTHING BETTER TO DO... SIGH...

ITS FINALLY DECEMBER AND YOU ALL KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS!!! ALL THE SHOWS GO ON MID-SEASON BREAKS!!! BOOOOO!!! LOL OH AND ALSO XMAS... YA THAT TOO... BUT ONCE AGAIN IL BRING YOUR ATTENTION TO MY PREVIOUS RANTS ABOUT HOW CHRISTMAS IS GETTING QUIETER AND QUIETER AND NOT AS MANY PEOPLE WANT TO DO ANYTHING THESE DAYS. THERES LESS TO DO, LESS PEOPLE TO HAVE THE PARTIES, AND JUST THE ATMOSPHERE HAS QUIETED DOWN. I PERSONALLY DONT REALLY CARE... IM FINE EITHER WAY... IM NOT SUPER CRAZY INTO AND IF ITS GONE THEN MEH. CHRISTMAS IS JUST LIKE ALL THE REST OF THE HOLIDAYS WHERE THE GOVERNMENT MAKES A HOLIDAY UP TO CELEBRATE AND FOR PEOPLE TO BUY THINGS TO HELP THE ECONOMY. THERES REALLY NOTHING DIFFERENT ABOUT THAT DAY FROM ANY OTHER NORMAL DAY. SURE YOU GET THE DAY OFF AND THAT HELPS BUT ITS ALL REALLY THE SAME. I MEAN YOU CAN MAKE ANYDAY YOUR CHRISTMAS DAY. YOU CAN MAKE CANADA ANYDAY. IT DOESNT EVEN REALLY MATTER. SAME WITH YOUR BIRTHDAY. YOU DIDNT REALLY DO MUCH EXCEPT SURVIVE. YOU CAN HAVE YOUR PARTY ANY DAY YOU WANT. THERES NOTHING SPECIAL ABOUT IT. ESPECIALLY VALENTINES DAY... THATS THE WORSE!!! THERES NOTHING SPECIAL AND IT IS A HALLMARK HOLIDAY THAT THEY MADE UP TO SELL THINGS TO PEOPLE. IF YOU REALLY CARE FOR THE PERSON THEN ANY DAY AND EVERYDAY CAN BE VALENTINES DAY. I JUST FIND IT ALL SO STUPID AS WELL. WHATEVER... I GET A DAY OFF ON TOP SO IM FINE WITH IT LOL.

ENOUGH OF THAT CRAP... LETS SEE WHATS NEW WITH LIFE... WORKS WORK... NOTHING NEW THERE EXCEPT BUSY AS USUAL... STARTED A VOLLEYBALL TEAM AND STARTING TO PRACTICE TO GET READY SINCE IT STARTS IN JANUARY. THIS IS A BIT BETTER THAN THE FOOTBALL TEAM SINCE MOST OF THE TEAM HAS PLAYED SOME VOLLEYBALL BEFORE... COMPARED TO FOOTBALL WHERE NONE OF US HAVE... HAHA. ALSO THIS IS CO-ED TEAM SO ITS A LITTLE DIFFERENT. OH WENT SHOPPING AND WASNT LOOKING FOR ANYTHING AND FOUND SOME SHIRTS... THEN WENT SHOPPING AND WASNT LOOKING FOR ANYTHING AND ENDED UP WITH A SUIT... ITS FUNNY LIKE THAT EH LOL. LASTLY, STARTED WORKING ON WHAT I WAS SUPPOSE TO BE WORKING ON FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS. ITS GOING A LONG SLOWLY... WELL KEEP WORKING AT IT I SAY... RIGHT?

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SHORT AND SWEET

WELL... NO REAL TOPIC, NOT MUCH TO UPDATE, TIRED AND LAZY... SO THIS WILL BE ONE OF THOSE WEEKS WHERE THE POST IS REALLY LACKING MUCH SUBSTANCE LOL. ACTUALLY A BIG THING IS ONE OF MY CLOSE FRIENDS GOT ENGAGED. WE WERE ALL PRESENT WHEN IT HAPPENED AND IT WAS PRETTY COOL. MAKES THE REST OF US REALLY THINK THOUGH... WE ALL GETTING OLDER AND AND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHERE WE ARE GOING... I HAVE OTHER FRIENDS WHO ARE MARRIED ALREADY AND SOME OF THEM EVEN HAVE KIDS, AND ITS JUST SO WEIRD THAT THIS IS WHAT IM THINKING ABOUT THESE DAYS... THE DAYS OF PLAYING GAMES AND JUST HAVING FUN ARE OVER... GOTTA START THINKING ABOUT DIAPERS AND MORTGAGES... I REALLY CANT BELIEVE THAT THIS IS LIFE NOW... WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT... GOTTA BE A GROWN UP NOW... TRYING TO LOOK DOWN THE ROAD TO SEE WHATS NEXT AND I REALLY DONT KNOW... REALLY JUST DOING WHATEVER I CAN TO JUST MAKE IT TO THE NEXT STAGE. IVE SAID ALL THIS STUFF BEFORE BUT IT HITS YOU MORE WHEN THINGS HAPPEN AND THEN YOU START THINKING MORE ABOUT IT AND NEXT THING YOU KNOW YOURE STRESSING ABOUT IT... THEN YOU START STRESSING ABOUT STRESSING AND IT WILL JUST CONTINUE AS A VICIOUS CYCLE... UNTIL THAT DAY WHERE IT BUILDS UP SO MUCH THAT YOU JUST CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE AND YOU JUST BLOW... YOU REALLY JUST NEED TO RELAX, YOU CANT LET THINGS GET TO YOU, AND WHEN IT DOES THE RESULT IS NEVER PRETTY. JUST DO WHAT YOU NEED TO, TO KEEP YOURSELF HAPPY. REMEMBER... IN THE ENDS ITS ALWAYS ABOUT YOU :)

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THE FIRST STEP IS ALWAYS THE HARDEST

JUST LIKE EVERYTHING IN LIFE, IT ALL STARTS WITH THAT FIRST STEP. THINK ABOUT IT... WAKING UP IN THE MORNING YOU CAN DECIDE TO SNOOZE IT OR WAKE UP AND GO BRUSH UP. DECIDING WHETHER TO EAT SOMETHING EASY LIKE CEREAL OR MAKE SOME BACON AND EGGS. DECIDING TO START READING A BOOK, LEARNING A NEW LANGUAGE, OR TRYING SOMETHING NEW FOR THE FIRST TIME THAT FIRST STEP IS THE ACT OF ACTUALLY GOING FORWARD AND DOING SOMETHING. EVERYTHING STARTS OFF LIKE THAT AND IT JUST CONTINUES ON UNTIL ITS SECOND NATURE. A BABYS FIRST STEP IS PHYSICALLY THE HARDEST FIRST STEP WE WILL TAKE. LATER IN LIFE DECIDING TO GO TO SCHOOL OR GO BACK TO SCHOOL. FINALLY BUYING A CAR, MOVING OUT. DECIDING TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP, GETTING MARRIED, BUYING A HOUSE, HAVING KIDS, ALL THESE ARE STEPS AND NONE OF WHICH COME EASY. WHAT MOTIVATES YOU ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU TAKE THAT FIRST STEP? THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE A JOB? PERHAPS YOU HAVE RESPONSIBILITIES TO TAKE CARE OF AND ONLY YOU CAN DO IT. WHATEVER IT IS, YOU MADE THE DECISION TO TAKE THAT STEP TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO. FOR ME, PERSONALLY, THE REASON IS CHANGE. I WANT A CHANGE IN SOMETHING, I CANT JUST KEEP DOING WHAT IM DOING. I CONSCIOUSLY KNOW THAT SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE BEFORE OTHER CHANGES CAN OCCUR. EVERYTHING HAPPENS IN STEPS. AFTER I FINISHED SCHOOL I REALLY DIDNT KNOW WHERE TO GO, I MEAN I GOT A JOB BUT IT WASNT WHERE I WANTED TO END UP. I STARTED LOOKING AT SCHOOL AGAIN AND IT WAS HARD TO ACTUALLY TAKE THAT STEP. ESPECIALLY AFTER BEING IN SCHOOL SO LONG, HAVING STUDENT LOANS, AND BASICALLY NOT LIVING MY LIFE THE WAY I WANTED. DEBATED A LOT, AND TOOK A WHILE LOOKING AT WHAT I WANTED TO GO INTO. EVENTUALLY FOUND SOMETHING I LIKED AND KNEW COULD MAKE A LIVING AND JUST WENT FOR IT. TOOK THAT STEP AND REGISTERED AND WENT THROUGH WITH THE PROGRAM. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT THAT FIRST STEP, IF YOU NEVER TRY, HOW WILL YOU EVER KNOW? PEOPLE THESE DAYS ARE JUST TOO COMFORTABLE AND DONT WANT TO LEAVE THEIR COMFORT ZONE. NOTHING EVER WORTH DOING WAS EASY... IF IT WAS THEN EVERYONE WOULD HAVE DONE IT ALREADY. THEN AGAIN A LOT OF PEOPLE THESE DAYS ARE JUST AFRAID TO TRY ANYTHING, NOT KNOWING IF THEY COULD DO IT OR MAKE IT. THEY ARE JUST AFRAID OF WHAT THEY DONT KNOW, SO TO NOT BE AFRAID THEY JUST STAY WHERE THEY ARE AND NEVER TAKING THAT STEP. FEAR OF FAILURE, FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN, FEAR OF DISAPPOINTMENT... NONE OF THESE FEARS ARE REAL... THEY ARE ALL IN YOUR HEAD AND IF YOU CAN GET PAST THAT FEAR, THEN YOU WILL TRULY BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING YOU WANT. IF YOU ALL REMEMBER A FEW MONTHS BACK FOR MY BDAY POST I MENTIONED THAT I GAVE MYSELF A DEADLINE OF 1 YEAR. NOT MANY PEOPLE KNOW WHAT IT IS AND IVE ONLY TOLD A FEW PEOPLE. ITS A HEFTY GOAL THAT I SET FOR MYSELF, AND ODDS ARE THAT IT CANT BE DONE IN JUST 1 YEAR, BUT LIKE I SAID... IF I NEVER TRY, HOW WILL I EVER KNOW? RIGHT??? THE ENTIRE TIME IVE BEEN WANTING TO START AND I KEEP TELLING MYSELF THAT IM GOING TO START... AND A DAY GOES BY... WEEKS... MONTHS... I KEEP SAYING IM TIRED FROM WORK, OR IM GOING OUT, OR AFTER THIS TV SHOW, OR IM JUST LAZY... AND UP TO A FEW DAYS AGO I STILL HAVENT STARTED... THATS ABOUT 100 DAYS GONE... BUT NOW I CAN ACTUALLY SAY THAT I TOOK THAT FIRST STEP, I TOOK THAT HARDEST STEP AND MOVED FORWARD. NOW THAT I HAVE STARTED, ITS NOT THAT HARD TO CONTINUE, JUST HAVE TO KEEP ON GOING, AND KEEP AT IT. WHO KNOWS... MAYBE IF I KEEP THIS UP THAT 1 YEAR DEADLINE MIGHT ACTUALLY HAPPEN LOL. HAVING SPENT THIS MUCH TIME, MONEY, AND ENERGY ON THIS ALREADY MY ONLY CHOICE IS TO STICK THIS OUT AND SEE WHERE IT LEADS TO. IF IT WORKS OUT THEN GREAT, IF IT DOESNT THEN AT LEAST I CAN SAY I TRIED AND I KNOW. IN THE END NO ONE CAN DO IT FOR YOU. YOU HAVE TO DECIDE FOR YOURSELF IF YOU WANT TO TAKE THAT STEP. ITS GOING TO BE HARD, ITS GOING TO BE SLOW, AT TIMES YOU MIGHT FEEL LIKE GIVING UP, BUT IN THE END JUST REMEMBER, HARD WORK ALWAYS PAYS OFF. SO NO MATTER HOW HARD THAT FIRST STEP MIGHT BE... WHATEVER YOUR SITUATION MAY BE... DO IT FOR YOURSELF AND TAKE IT.

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