LOOKING FORWARD... CANT WAIT...

EVERYONE HAS AT ONE POINT OR ANOTHER LOOK FORWARD TO OR COULDNT WAIT FOR SOMETHING. THE RESULT OF THAT IS EITHER OF SADNESS/DISAPPOINTMENT OR OF HAPPINESS/PURE JOY. THERES NO POINT IN JUST BEING OK WITH IT SINCE YOU ALREADY HYPED IT UP SO MUCH THAT IT WOULD JUST FEELS LIKE YOU WASTED TIME IF YOU ONLY FELT OK. WHY DO WE SOMETIMES PUT THINGS SO HIGH UP ONLY TO HAVE US REALIZE THAT IT HAS SUNKEN SO LOW? WE ALL WANT IT, WE ALL THINK WE NEED IT, WE ALL THINK WE DESERVE IT. WHO MAKES THIS DECISION THAT WE SHOULD GET WHAT WE GET? I MEAN WE REALLY ONLY GET WHAT WE PUT IN RIGHT??? OF COURSE THERE ARE THOSE THAT LUCK OUT AND GET MORE THAN WHAT THEY DESERVE OR JUST HAVE THINGS HANDED TO THEM, BUT MAJORITY OF PEOPLE JUST GET WHAT THEY GET. SO WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU DESERVE AND WHY DO YOU THINK THAT... I GUESS ITS NATURAL TO ONLY WANT THE BEST FOR YOURSELF. NO ONE WANTS TO WAIT OR UNTIL THEY ACTUALLY BELIEVE THEY DESERVE IT. YOU KNOW... ORIGINALLY I WAS GOING TO WRITE ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE BUT THEN I STARTED THIS TITLE AND EVENTUALLY IM NOT EVEN SURE THAT IT MAKES SENSE OR IS EVEN RELATED TO THE FIRST PART ANYMORE. THE TITLE IS A LITTLE CONFUSING TOO I SUPPOSE. YOU CAN TAKE IT AS LOOKING FORWARD TO SOMETHING AND CANT WAIT FOR IT TO HAPPEN, OR YOU CAN TAKE IT AS YOU WANT TO MOVE ON. RIGHT NOW I DONT EVEN KNOW WHICH ONE IT IS ANYMORE... I GUESS THERES ONLY ONE WAY TO FIND OUT... AND IM GOING HAVE TO WAIT TO SEE WHICH IT IS. 

SO IM NOT EVEN QUITE SURE THE PARAGRAPH UP TOP MAKES SENSE... I PASSED OUT QUITE A FEW TIMES WRITING IT. WORKS BEEN GETTING BETTER AND I JUST CANT WAIT TIL THESE LAST FEW THINGS ARE TAKEN CARE OF SO I CAN HAVE SOME MORE TIME. FOOTBALL??? WELL... THE PAST WEEKEND WAS A MUST WIN SO WE CAN MAKE PLAYOFFS FOR SURE... LETS JUST SAY WE DIDNT DO AS WELL AS WE WOULD HAVE LIKED. WE WERE SHORT PLAYERS AND THOSE WERE OUR FAST GUYS TOO... SO THAT HURT US. NOW ITS ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE FOR US TO MAKE IT SINCE WE NEED 1 TEAM TO WIN, 1 TEAM TO LOSE, AND OH YA... WE NEED TO WIN AS WELL. IF ANYTHING ELSE HAPPENS THEN WE WOULD NEED TO WIN AS WELL. THE ISSUE IS THAT WE PLAY THE #1 RANKED TEAM TWICE AND THE TEAM THAT WE ARE IN A RACE AGAINST IS PLAYING THE BOTTOM BOTTOM RANKED TEAM. THAT BOTTOM TEAM EVEN FORFEITED THEIR FIRST MEET AND THEY GOT EASY POINTS. THAT BOTTOM TEAM HASNT WON AND I THINK ITS ABOUT TIME FOR THEM TO :) HAHA THEN WE CAN ACTUALLY HAVE A CHANCE OF MAKING IT. JUST WATCH THEM FORFEIT AGAIN... THEY DONT CARE ANYMORE SO ITS LOOKING LIKE WE SCREWED :( SIGH. WHO KNOWS THOUGH :) WE CAN STILL MAKE IT. REST OF LIFE IS FINE FOR NOW. STILL THINKING OF WHERE I SHOULD GO FOR VACA... ANY SUGGESTIONS ANYONE? WELL WHEN IM NOT TIRED OR LAZY IL ACTUALLY WRITE A FULL POST. UNTIL THEN... GOODNIGHT.

RT 

EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES

I KNOW WHAT YOURE ALL THINKING... ME... MAKE MISTAKES??? THATS UNPOSSIBLE!!! LOL IM TOO PERFECT AND EVERYTHING THAT THERES NO WAY THAT I CAN MAKE A MISTAKE. WELL... THE HONEST BRUTAL COLD TRUTH IS THAT EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES... EVEN ME... WE MAKE MISTAKES ALL THE TIME, I MEAN MAKING A WRONG TURN, OR SAYING SOMEONES NAME WRONG, OR GETTING A FACT WRONG, THESE ARE ALL MISTAKES, BUT THE MISTAKES IM TALKING ABOUT ARE A LITTLE BIT BIGGER AND AFFECT A PERSON MORE. THE MISTAKE IM TALKING ABOUT IS MAKING THE DECISION THAT LEADS YOU DOWN A DIFFERENT PATH. NOW... THAT COULD BE A CAREER PATH, A FUN PATH, A BAD PATH. THERES SUCH A BIG SPECTRUM THAT I REALLY CANT COVER AND WONT COVER BUT YOU ALL GET MY POINT. SO YOU MADE A MISTAKE AND NOW YOURE GOING DOWN A DIFFERENT PATH THAN YOU THOUGHT YOU WOULD HAVE GONE, YOU THOUGHT THIS WAS THE RIGHT PATH... BUT ITS NOT... BUT IN A WAY IT WAS RIGHT... FOR THAT MOMENT IN TIME, IT WAS THE RIGHT DECISION OR AT LEAST YOU THOUGHT IT WAS... SO WHAT DO YOU DO... CAN YOU GO BACK AND TAKE THE MISTAKE BACK??? YOU JUST WISH YOU CAN TAKE IT BACK AND JUST GO BACK TO THE WAY THINGS WERE PREVIOUSLY. GUESS WHAT... ITS TOO LATE... THINGS WERE SAID, THINGS WERE DONE, PEOPLE MOVE ON. SO THE QUESTION IS STILL WHAT DO YOU DO... DO YOU TRY TO FIX YOUR MISTAKE? DO YOU MOVE ON? DO YOU GIVE IT TIME? WHO KNOWS... EVERYTHING IS UP TO YOU AND NOTHING IS UP TO YOU. ONE MISTAKE, ONE CHOICE, ONE DECISION HAS A RIPPLE EFFECT THROUGH EVERYTHING. WHAT I CAN TELL YOU IS FROM EXPERIENCE... THE SOONER YOU REALIZE YOU MADE A MISTAKE, THE SOONER YOU CAN LEARN FROM IT AND MOVE ON. IF YOU CAN RECOGNIZE IT AND LEARN FROM IT THEN ITS NOT A WASTED MISTAKE. YOU LEARN THAT 1 + 1 DOESNT EQUAL 5 AND THAT 1 + 1 IS ACTUALLY 2 THEN NEXT TIME YOU WILL KNOW AND CAN APPLY YOUR KNOWLEDGE TO IT. NEVER WASTE A CHANCE TO LEARN BECAUSE IT ONLY BETTERS YOURSELF IN THE END. EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES, ITS NATURAL, ITS HUMAN, ITS HOW WE GROW AS PEOPLE.

WELL... THAT WAS MOST DEFINITELY A POST WITH MORE SUBSTANCE, JUST LIKE OLD TIMES LOL. LOTS OF THINKING LATELY IF YOU HAVENT NOTICED... REALLY WANTED TO WRITE THIS POST THIS WEEK ACTUALLY... BEEN WAITING TO WRITE THIS ALL WEEK... IF YOU HAVENT ALREADY GUESSED IT... I MADE A MISTAKE... IT EATS AT YOU... AND YOU JUST WANT TO SAY EVERYTHING YOU WANT BUT YOU CANT... NOT THAT YOU CANT BUT YOU JUST DONT HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO DO IT... ON ANOTHER NOTE... WORKS WORK AS USUAL... BEEN BUSY PAST COUPLE OF WEEKS WITH MEETINGS AND THEN PAST WEEK JUST BEEN PLAYING CATCH UP WITH PAPERWORK... CHRISTMAS TIME SO I GUESS I SHOULD GET SOME PRESENTS... MEH LOL. OH YA... SO LAST THURSDAY WAS MY LAST FINAL FINAL EXAM!!! IM ACTUALLY DONE DONE!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS COURSE WAS THE HARDEST BUT IT WAS OK, JUST THE FINAL WAS HARDER THAN NORMAL I THINK. THIS IS GONNA BRING MY MARK DOWN A BIT BUT WHO CARES IM DONE!!! NOW I CAN APPLY TO GET ANOTHER PIECE OF PAPER HAHA. AS I MENTIONED LAST TIME FOR SOME REASON IM STILL IN SCHOOL... IM REALLY DONE THIS TIME... I THINK... I HOPE... HAHA. GUESS WE JUST HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE... WELL I DO HAVE 1 MORE THING TO DO BUT THATS IN JANUARY AND IM STARTING ON THAT NOW CAUSE I NEED TIME TO PREP. IM ALSO BEHIND IN ALMOST ALL MY SHOWS... BUT SOON!!! I SHALL WATCH YOU ALL!!! LOL THERES ANOTHER WEEK FOR YOU ALL FOLKS. GOODNIGHT :)

RT