THE BRIDGES YOU BUILD

SO I JUST LOOKED BACK TO SEE IF I WROTE ABOUT THIS TOPIC BEFORE CAUSE I VAGUELY REMEMBER WRITING SOMETHING LIKE THIS ALREADY... ANDDDDD I DID... SORTA... NOT REALLY. THIS ONE IS A LITTLE BIT DIFFERENT FROM WHAT I WROTE ABOUT LAST TIME. THE BRIDGES YOU BUILD, IM REFERRING TO THE RELATIONSHIPS YOU CREATE. THIS APPLIES TO BOTH YOUR WORK LIFE AND PERSONAL LIFE. IM WRITING THIS POST MORE FOR THE WORK SIDE OF THINGS BUT IL WRITE ABOUT PERSONAL SIDE TOO. IVE SAID IT BEFORE IN THE OTHER POST, YOU NEVER WANT TO BURN ANY BRIDGES WITH ANYONE. ESPECIALLY SINCE MY CITY IS SO SMALL WHERE SOMEONE KNOWS SOMEONE WHO KNOWS YOU, YOU REALLY DONT WANT PEOPLE TO START TALKING. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO IN YOUR PAST WILL ACTUALLY HELP YOU IN THE PRESENT OR EVEN THE FUTURE. THROUGH SOME STRANGE EVENT YOU MIGHT END UP DEPENDING ON SOMEONE FOR SOMETHING, WHETHER FOR AN INTRODUCTION, OR PROMOTION, OR JUST TO HELP YOU OUT. IF YOU BURNED THAT BRIDGE, ODDS ARE THEY WONT HELP YOU WHEN YOU NEED IT. IVE BEEN DEALING WITH A LOT OF DIFFERENT CLIENTS AND CONTRACTORS THROUGHOUT THE YEARS AND A LOT OF THEM HAVE ONE THING IN COMMON, THEY TRY TO KEEP GOOD RELATIONS WITH ME. THEY WOULD JUST GIVE ME A CALL, SEND AN EMAIL, OR JUST GRABBING A COFFEE, THEY WOULD MAKE AN EFFORT TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH ME. GRANTED ITS MORE FOR A BUSINESS REASON THAT THEY KEEP IN TOUCH, BUT THIS IS HOW THEY MAKE SURE THAT THEY ARE ON YOUR MIND. THEN WHEN THE TIME COMES, YOU KNOW WHO TO CALL. IF THEY NEVER EVEN TRIED TO BUILD THAT RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW THEM, WHAT ARE THE ODDS OF YOU EVEN BOTHERING LOOKING FOR THEM? LOW!!! MAKING THAT FIRST STEP AT LEAST GETS YOUR FOOT IN THE DOOR, AND POSSIBLY MORE BUSINESS IN THE FUTURE. EVERYTHING IS CALCULATED, AND IT ONLY MAKES SENSE TO INVEST IN RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE YOURE INVESTING IN YOUR OWN FUTURE, AND THATS HOW YOU SURVIVE. FOR PERSONAL LIFE??? IM GETTING TO THE AGE WHERE MY GROUPS OF FRIENDS ARE GETTING MORE SET, SETTLING DOWN, GETTING MARRIED, AND HAVING KIDS. ITS HARDER AND HARDER TO MEET NEW PEOPLE. OF COURSE I HAVE MY MAIN CORE GROUP OF FRIENDS, AND THEN THOSE FRIENDS IM FRIENDS WITH, AND THE FRIENDS OF FRIENDS THAT IM FRIENDS WITH, AND THOSE FRIENDS WHO ARE ACQUAINTANCES AND I DONT REALLY HANG OUT MUCH WITH OR AT ALL. IT JUST SEEMED SO MUCH EASIER BACK IN THE DAY WHERE YOU JUST MEET EVERYONE AND JUST HAD A GREAT TIME, YOU END UP SEEING THEM ALL THE TIME AND THEN FROM THEM YOU MEET MORE PEOPLE AND THEY MEET YOUR PEOPLE AND SO ON AND SO ON. THESE DAYS HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSE TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS... GO OUT AND SAY, HEY! LETS BE FRIENDS? YOU WOULD JUST END UP WITH A WEIRD STARE AND THEY WOULD RUN AWAY FROM YOU. WHEN YOU DO END UP JOINING A NEW GROUP OF PEOPLE, ITS ALWAYS HARD TOO BECAUSE THEY ALREADY HAVE THAT BASE AND HISTORY WITH EACH OTHER THAT YOU DONT HAVE. THEN WHEN SOMEONE BRINGS YOU INTO THEIR GROUP, ITS JUST LIKE... WHAT ARE THEY DOING HERE, OR WHO IS THIS THAT IVE NEVER MET BEFORE. THEN WHEN YOU FINALLY ARE IN THE GROUP IT FEELS LIKE YOU HAVE TO START EVERYTHING AGAIN WITH THE NEW PEOPLE, AND LEARN EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM. MAKING NEW FRIENDS AND BUILDING NEW RELATIONSHIPS TAKES TOO MUCH TIME, ENERGY, AND MONEY... ALL OF WHICH I DONT HAVE ENOUGH OF. YOU ALL KNOW IM A SOCIAL GUY AND WILL JUST TALK AND TALK AND MEET NEW PEOPLE OR GROUPS, BUT SOMETIMES ITS JUST REALLY HARD, AND SOMETIMES I JUST THINK WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER...

OMG SO MANY EPISODES OF PERSON OF INTEREST!!! THERE WERE 3 THIS WEEK AND ITS JUST AHHHHHHHHH!!! FANBOY!!!!!!!!!!! LOL. I REALLY JUST WANTED TO WRITE ABOUT THE TOP ONE CAUSE ITS BEEN REALLY RELEVANT LATELY SO YA... REST OF LIFE? WORKS BUSY, AS A MATTER OF FACT I HAVE MEETINGS ALL DAY AND MEETINGS TO PREPARE FOR. WORK WORK WORK... LONG WEEKEND WAS FINE, JUST HUNG OUT AND ATE A LOT LOL. IM TRED AND TOMORROW IS THE BIGGEST MEETING FOR MY PORTFOLIO SO IM GONNA GO SLEEP. SEE YA NEXT TIME.

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WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

OKAY... SO I HAD LIKE 3 IDEAS FOR TOPIC THIS WEEK BUT THEN I SORTA FORGOT ABOUT THEM AND I DONT REALLY FEEL LIKE WRITING ABOUT WHAT I HAVE ON MY MIND SO THATS SAVED FOR ANOTHER DAY... UNTIL I FORGET ABOUT IT AGAIN HAHA. ANYWAYS... THIS HAS BEEN TOUCHED UPON IN THE PAST BUT LATELY ITS BEEN COMING BACK INTO MY HEAD AND IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT QUITE A BIT. SO WHAT DO YOU WANT? I MEAN WHAT DO I WANT? THATS THE HARDEST QUESTION TO ANSWER. IVE HAD AN IDEA OF WHAT I WANT FOR THE LONGEST TIME BUT THINGS KEEP HAPPENING AND CHANGING THAT WHAT I WANT KEEPS CHANGING ALONG WITH IT. RIGHT NOW, WHAT IS IT THAT I REALLY WANT? I DONT THINK THERES REALLY ANYTHING I REALLY WANT EXCEPT WHERE I REALLY WANT TO GET TO. EVERYTHING I WANT IS MORE OF THE MATERIALISTIC THING BUT DONT EVERYONE WANT MATERIALISTIC THINGS? THATS REALLY WANT WE WANT, BUT WHAT DO WE REALLY NEED? SOME PEOPLE WANT NICE CARS AND A BIG HOUSE BUT DO WE REALLY NEED IT? WHAT I REALLY WANT IS TO BE IN THE POSITION I WANT, DOING WHAT I WANT, AND NOT ANSWERING TO ANYONE. IM WORKING ON THAT BUT LATELY IT JUST SEEMS LIKE ITS BEEN GETTING PUSHED FURTHER AND FURTHER AWAY. THE MOTIVATION AND DETERMINATION IS STILL THERE, JUST THAT THE TIME AND ENERGY IS NOT. BETWEEN WORK, LIFE, FAMILY, AND ALL THE RANDOM STUFF I DO IN BETWEEN, I DONT HAVE TIME TO PUT MYSELF IN THE PLACE WHERE I CAN MOVE FORWARD. I KNOW THAT SOUNDS LIKE AN EXCUSE AND IF I REALLY WANTED IT, I WOULD MAKE TIME FOR IT. I REALLY NEED TO GET BACK INTO THAT HEADSPACE TO GO AND GET WHAT I WANT. SOME OF YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT I GAVE MYSELF 1 YEAR FROM MY BIRTHDAY LAST YEAR TO GET TO WHERE I WANT TO BE, BUT THAT IS LOOKING FARTHER AWAY AND LESS LIKELY I WILL BE THERE BY MY BIRTHDAY. EVERYONE HAS DREAMS OF SOMETHING. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN DREAMING AND MAKING IT A REALITY, IS ACTION. RIGHT NOW THERE IS A LACK OF ACTION...I REALLY JUST NEED TO GET BACK TO IT. ANOTHER THING IS WHAT YOU WANT CHANGES WITH TIME, WHAT I WANTED BEFORE IS NOT WHAT I WANT NOW AND SOMETIMES ONCE ITS PAST THAT TIME, WHAT I WANT I CANT HAVE... YA YA I KNOW THIS POST IS ALL OVER THE PLACE BUT IM REALLY JUST DUMPING EVERYTHING ON TO THIS RIGHT NOW. WHEN DO WE STOP WANTING WHAT WE WANT??? WHEN WE CANT HAVE IT? WHEN ITS GONE? WHEN YOU KNOW IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE? SOMETIMES THAT MAKES YOU JUST WANT IT MORE AND SOMETIMES IT JUST MAKES YOU REALIZE YOU JUST HAVE TO MOVE ON. I THINK THOSE WHO LET GO OF WHAT THEY WANT ARE ALL THOSE WHO GET STUCK IN WHERE THEY ARE. YOU CANT LET GO OF WHAT YOU WANT. I DONT KNOW... I JUST REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT ANYMORE. LIFE IS ALREADY CONFUSING ENOUGH, THEN THROW IN EVERYTHING THAT YOU WANT JUST MAKES IT EVEN WORSE. I REALLY JUST WANT TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL AND REALLY THINK ABOUT WHAT I WANT AND WHERE I WANT TO BE. NO ONE CAN TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT, NO ONE CAN DECIDE ANYTHING FOR YOU. I JUST NEED TO KNOW WHAT I WANT. WELL... I WISH YOU ALL FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU WANT, WHAT YOU REALLY WANT. SO, WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT?

REST OF LIFE IS WHAT YOU EXPECT. NOTHING REALLY NEW, KEEPING BUSY, KEEPING DISTRACTED. OH I WENT TO NIGHT MARKET :) THAT WAS NICE. BIG LINE UP TO GET IN AND THEY RAISED THE PRICE OF ENTRY AGAIN... IT WAS $3.25... THEN BOUGHT A BUNCH OF FOOD AND PLAYED THOSE CARNEY GAMES LOL. THAT QUARTER TOSSING ONTO A PLATE AND MAKE IT STAY IS THE EASIEST GAME EVER HAHA. WELL... AS LONG AS YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING HAHA. 1 ON PLATE WINS SMALL AND 4 WINS A LARGE. WELL I GOT 6 IN ABOUT 40 TRIES SOOOOO WINNER!!! ANYWAYS NOW IM OUT OF HERE. GOT PLACES TO GO, PEOPLE TO SEE, STUFF TO DO. THIS IS ALSO WHY THIS WEEKS POST IS SO EARLY. PEACE.

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DISTRACTED

SO I HAD A TOPIC BUT THEN I FORGOT IT AND THEN I HAD ANOTHER BUT NOW I DONT WANT TO WRITE ABOUT IT... IM A LITTLE BIT TOO DISTRACTED TO WRITE WHAT I WANT ANYWAYS. SO INSTEAD YOU GET THIS POST ABOUT DISTRACTIONS :) LOL. THE PAST LITTLE WHILE IVE BEEN BUSY WITH WORK AND EVERYTHING ELSE GOING ON THAT IVE NEGLECTED WHAT I REALLY WANT TO DO. IVE BEEN DISTRACTED BY SOMETHING ELSE AS WELL. ITS FUNNY HOW SOMETHING CAN CONSUME YOUR THOUGH ALL DAY AND ALL NIGHT. THEN EVERYTHING YOU DO SOMEHOW COMES BACK TO THAT ONE THING AND EVEN THOUGH ITS NOT EVEN REMOTELY RELATED, YOUR BRAIN WILL SOMEHOW MADE A CONNECTION TO THAT ONE THING AND THEN BAM YOURE DISTRACTED FROM WHAT YOU WERE DOING. ITS ALSO NOT THAT HARD TO DISTRACT ME... I HAVE A SHORT ATTENTION SPAN... SO FOR SOMETHING TO KEEP MY ATTENTION LIKE THAT, IT REALLY MUST BE SOMETHING. I EVEN WANTED TO WRITE MORE ABOUT ADULTING, BUT NOW IM JUST TOO DISTRACTED AND I ALREADY WROTE ABOUT THE MAIN POINTS. I GUESS DISTRACTIONS ARE ALSO NICE, THEY TAKE YOU AWAY FOR A MOMENT AND MAKE YOU FORGET ALL YOUR WORRIES AND WHATNOT, BUT THE MOMENT YOU ARE BACK YOU REALIZE THAT NOTHING HAS HAPPENED OR CHANGED. ITS TIME TO FOCUS BACK, FORGET THESE DISTRACTIONS, AND GET BACK ON TRACK TO WHAT I WAS DOING AND THINKING.

IT WAY MY BEST FRIENDS BABY SHOWER THE PAST WEEKEND, SO THAT WAS FUN. GOT A CHANCE TO SEE A BUNCH OF OLD FRIENDS I HAVENT SEEN IN A WHILE. ITS ALSO BEEN A WHILE SINCE WE ALL GOT TOGETHER LIKE THAT. EVERYONE IS TOO BUSY THESE DAYS. SOME OF THEM HAVE LEVELLED UP AND ARE FATHERS NOW AND AS EXPECTED, PRIORITIES CHANGE. ITS ALL UNDERSTANDABLE, THATS JUST HOW LIFE IS, BUT THINGS SURE HAVE CHANGED. SOMETIMES I LOOK BACK AND LIFE WAS JUST SO MUCH EASIER, BUT OF COURSE WE ALL HAVE TO GROW UP, AND NOW ITS JUST SO MUCH HARDER AND EVERYTHING ALWAYS JUST SEEM SO MUCH MORE COMPLICATED. WELL... WHAT CAN YOU DO... RIGHT... JUST KEEP AT IT... I SUPPOSE. EVERYTHING WILL JUST FALL IN PLACE LIKE IT SHOULD.

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ADULTING...

WELL IVE BEEN ADULTING FOR A WHILE NOW AND ITS HARD... FOR THOSE WHO DONT UNDERSTAND, ADULTING IS BASICALLY DOING GROWN UP PEOPLE STUFF LIKE HAVING RESPONSIBILITIES, A JOB, RENT AND BILLS TO PAY, AND ALL THOSE LOVELY THINGS THAT GROWN UPS GET THE PLEASURE OF HAVING. IVE SORTA TALKED ABOUT THIS BEFORE HERE AND THERE BUT IT REALLY HIT ME HARD WHEN I STARTED BUYING BABY STUFF FOR FRIENDS KIDS... WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT I WOULD BE THE ONE TO BE DOING THESE KINDS OF THINGS... BEING A GROWN UP IS HARD... IT TAKES TIME AND MONEY AND YOU NEVER HAVE ENOUGH OF EITHER. HAVING RESPONSIBILITIES IS STRESSFUL!!! IT REALLY MAKES YOU THINK ABOUT YOURSELF AND WHERE YOU ARE IN LIFE AND WHAT YOU REALLY WANT AND WHAT YOU WANT TO DO. GROWING UP YOU HAVE ALL THESE DREAMS AND GOALS OF BEING A SPY OR AN ACTOR OR A DOCTOR, ONLY TO GROW UP AND REALIZE THAT ITS NOT POSSIBLE OR YOU JUST CANT DO IT OR THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO DO CANT PAY THE BILLS. ITS EVEN WORSE THESE DAYS SINCE EVERYTHING COSTS SO MUCH, HOW CAN YOU EVEN AFFORD TO DO ANYTHING? THERES JUST SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT THIS TOPIC. IT ALL GOES BACK TO THE BOTTOM LINE OF ARE YOU HAPPY??? IF YOU ARE HAPPY WITH EVERYTHING THEN THATS GREAT, BUT THE ODDS ARE IF YOURE AN ADULT, YOU ARE NOT HAPPY. NOTHING EVER GOES YOUR WAY...AINT THAT RIGHT... LIFE WAS SO MUCH EASIER... NOT A CARE IN THE WORLD AND NOW IM WORRYING ABOUT BABY PRODUCT INSTEAD... YOU JUST HAVE TO GO WITH IT AND MAKE THE BEST OF IT.

I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO WRITE ABOUT THIS BUT IM PASSING OUT... SOOOO UNTIL NEXT TIME :)

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