CRIMINAL LIFE

IVE ALWAYS WONDERED ABOUT BEING IN THE CRIMINAL LIFE, AND I DONT MEAN BEING A LOW LEVEL DIME BAG PUSHER. I MEAN ABOUT ME BEING A BOSS OR AT LEAST SOME HIGH RANKING LIEUTENANT, OR AN ASSASSIN. FORGET ABOUT BEING KNOWN TO POLICE OR THE THREAT OF GETTING KILLED BY A RIVAL, THERES LOTS THAT I WONT BE ABLE TO DO. I WOULD HAVE TO SPEND THE MONEY BECAUSE OF THE LIFESTYLE, BUT I CANT BUY TOO FLASHY OR GO OVER THE TOP CAUSE THAT WOULD ATTRACT TOO MUCH ATTENTION AND I WOULD GET LOOKED INTO. I CANT REALLY HAVE A NORMAL RELATIONSHIP JUST CAUSE OF ALL THE RISKS. I CANT REALLY HAVE A FAMILY, ONCE AGAIN BECAUSE OF THE RISKS. IT WOULD BE HARD TO GET OUT OF THE LIFE TOO... ESPECIALLY IF I WAS THAT HIGH UP. ALSO THE FACT IL PROBABLY END UP IN JAIL OR DEAD. OF COURSE THERE ARE THOSE WHO DO IT AND HAVE WHAT THEY WANT LIKE CARTEL BOSSES OR LIKE TRIADS AND MOB BOSSES BUT I MEAN HOW MANY OF THEM ARE THERE. THERES THE FEW UP TOP AND MANY BELOW. I WOULDNT MIND BEING AN ASSASSIN... THAT WOULD BE COOL. I REALLY DONT CARE FOR A LOT OF PEOPLE AND IF I GET PAID TO KILL THEM THEN ITS JUST A BONUS ON TOP. I WOULD JUST HAVE TO MAKE SURE THAT THERES NO WAY FOR IT TO TRACE BACK TO ME, BUT I GUESS THATS WHAT WOULD MAKE ME A GOOD KILLER. FORGET ABOUT THIS GANG TYPE OF CRIMINAL... EVEN OTHER CRIMINALS LIKE A CON ARTIST, FORGER, WEAPONS DEALER, THIEF, THESE ALL HAVE PROBLEMS. IF IM DOING WELL THEN SOONER OR LATER SOMEONE MIGHT TRY TO KILL ME FOR MY POSITION. IF THEY DONT AND SOMETHING WENT WRONG WITH A DEAL OR IF I AM ON MY WAY TO GETTING BUSTED THEN I WOULD HAVE TO HIDE OR LEAVE THE COUNTRY. I WOULD HAVE TO START MY LIFE ALL OVER AGAIN. I WOULD NEED A NEW IDENTITY AND THAT PRESENTS A WHOLE NEW PROBLEM. IN THAT CASE I AM A COMPLETELY NEW PERSON, THE OLD ME IS DEAD. I CANT CONTACT MY OLD FRIENDS, BE SEEN WHERE I LIKE TO GO, DO WHAT I USE TO DO. I HAVE TO BE THIS NEW PERSON TO SURVIVE. NO ONE WILL KNOW WHO I USE TO BE OR WHAT IVE DONE. I WOULD MOST LIKELY HAVE TO BE SOMEONE BORING AND AND COMPLETE OPPOSITE OF MYSELF JUST TO HIDE. IF I MEET SOMEONE THEN BASICALLY MY WHOLE LIFE WILL BE A LIE TO THEM. WHAT IF I END UP WITH SOMEONE AND HAVE A KID, THAT WOULD BE AN EVEN BIGGER LIE, AND WHEN THEY GROW UP THEY ARE LIVING A LIE ON TOP OF A LIE AND IT JUST KEEPS GOING ON AND ON. WHAT IF SOMEONE FINDS OUT... WHAT IF THE PAST COMES BACK...??? WHAT IF THE FAKE PERSONS ID DOESNT HOLD UP? THERES SO MANY QUESTIONS AND SO MANY ISSUES. IT SEEMS LIKE IT WOULD ONLY WORK IN THE SHORT RUN AND I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO LIVE OUT MY REAL LIFE. I COULD PROBABLY GET OUT OF THE COUNTRY WITH ALL THE MONEY I MADE AND JUST ENJOY IT ALL OVER THE WORLD BUT I WOULDNT BE ABE TO SETTLE DOWN. IT WOULD BE THE SAME IF I HAD A GIRL OR IF THE GIRL WAS ACTUALLY A CRIMINAL TOO. THERES JUST TOO MANY THINGS THAT DONT WORK. THE ONLY REAL WAY IS IF IT IS KEPT HIDDEN AND I LIE TO EVERYONE BUT BE ABLE TO BACK IT UP. SO LIKE A NIGHT JOB, KEPT QUIET, OUT OF SIGHT. LIKE MY REAL LIFE WOULD BE MY COVER STORY WHILE SECRETLY IM A BOSS OR A KILLER OR AN ASSASSIN AND ALL THE MONEY IS LAUNDERED SO THEN I CAN ENJOY IT. CRIMINALS DO IT ALREADY I KNOW, BUT I JUST WANT ALL THE MONEY. IT TAKES A LOT OF WORK TO BE A SUCCESSFUL CRIMINAL... NOT GETTING CAUGHT OR KILLED. MAKING A LIVING HONESTLY IS A BITCH... LIVING AS A CRIMINAL IS A BIGGER BITCH. WHITE COLLAR CRIME... SAME THING... INSIDER TRADING GETS YOU IN TROUBLE, SAYING SOMETHING THAT DID OR DID NOT HAPPEN GETS YOU IN TROUBLE... EVERYTHING ENDS IN TROUBLE. SIGH... THERES JUST NO WINNING IN LIFE... BEING LEGIT OR NOT. YA... THIS IS THE KIND OF STUFF THAT GOES THROUGH MY HEAD ON THE REGULAR... LOL

OH OH OH SO MY VOLLEYBALL TEAM WON OUR LEAGUE!!! WOOOOOO!!! WE ONE OUR SEMI-FINALS GAME NO PROBLEM. OUR FINALS GAME WAS INTENSE!!! SET 1: 21-14 LOSE. SET 2: 21-14 WIN. SET 3: THERE WAS ONLY 5 MINUTES LEFT AND THE HIGHEST POINT WINS. IT WAS EVEN AND THEN WE HAD A BIT OF A LEAD AND THEY CAUGHT UP. SO NOW ITS 6-6 AND TIMES RUN OUT SO LAST POINT WINS. SUPER INTENSE... AND........ WE WON 7-6!!! OMG SO CRAZY!!! IT WAS AWESOME. SO WE GOT OUR TSHIRTS FOR WINNING AND ITS NOT ABOUT THE SHIRTS BUT ITS ABOUT THE FACT WE WON. THE DIGGERS ARE CHAMPIONS THE FIRST SEASON WE ARE TOGETHER WOOOOOO :) IM A CHAMPION TOO... EVEN THOUGH I DIDNT PLAY A SINGLE MINUTE ALL SEASON CAUSE OF MY INJURIES... LOLOL

FOOTBALL HAS STARTED!!! WE ARE CURRENTLY UNDEFEATED LOL 1-0 RECORD SO FAR HAHA. WATCHING MY TEAM PLAY I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO PLAY!!! YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW BAD I WANT TO PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CANT EVEN PLAY IF I WANTED TO... MY NECKS STILL MESSED UP, MY BACK IS SCREWED, MY HAND IS STUPID. IM IN NO CONDITION TO PLAY. I CANT WAIT TIL THE DAY IM ALL HEALED UP AND GOOD TO PLAY AGAIN. I MISS FOOTBALL :(

SOCCER IS STARTING UP AS WELL... AND GUESS WHAT... I ALSO CANT PLAY!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS!!! IM CURRENTLY GOING TO PHYSIO ABOUT 2-3 TIMES A WEEK AND IM GETTING AND FEELING BETTER BUT RECOVERY IS SLOW AND MY RANGE OF MOTION FOR EVERYTHING IS STILL SO LIMITED. I CANT REALLY LOOK UP, I CANT LOOK RIGHT, I CANT MAKE SHARP TURNS, MY NECK HURTS, MY BACK HURTS, MY HAND IS NUMB... IM SUPER GIMPED RIGHT NOW. THIS WHOLE THING PISSES ME OFF... BUT WHAT CAN I DO... THINGS HAPPEN... AND NOW IM PAYING THE PRICE.

WALKING DEAD JUST FINISHED AND IT WAS PRETTY GOOD. LAST EPISODE WAS A BIT SLOW, THE ENDING WAS DRAGGED OUT TOO, BUT IT WAS PRETTY GOOD. A NEW SHOW CALLED THE CATCH STARTED AND PART OF THAT SHOW MADE ME THINK ABOUT BEING A THIEF BASICALLY AND WRITING THIS POST. I THINK A LOT ABOUT A LOT OF THINGS AND THIS JUST WORKED OUT. IT STARTS A BUNCH OF PEOPLE I DONT KNOW BUT ITS NOT BAD SO FAR. COULD BE BETTER AND THEY SHOULD ACTUALLY CUT ONE OF THEM

REST OF LIFE IS BUSY, FRIENDS, AND FAMILY. WORK IS EVEN MORE BUSY AND THATS NOT GOING TO CHANGE ANY TIME SOON.., SOOOO WITH THAT BEING SAID, IM GOING TO SLEEP... MUCH LESS TO THINK ABOUT :)

RT