OUT OF IDEAS

WELL... IT HAS HAPPENED... I HAVE RAN OUT OF THINGS I WANTED TO WRITE ABOUT... TECHNICALLY I RAN OUT OF TOPICS I WANT TO TALK ABOUT AND EVERYTHING ELSE I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT IM TOO LAZY OR I JUST DONT FEEL LIKE IT. LOL.

IVE BEEN BUSY AT WORK AS USUAL AND THIS WEEKS BEEN FILLED WITH MEETING AFTER MEETING AND THING AFTER THING... TODAY WE WENT TO BUILDEX AND IT WAS FUN :) GOT THE CHANCE TO TEST DRIVE A BENZ SPRINTER, GET A BUNCH OF SWAG, AND HAD OURSELVES A MASSAGE. TOO BAD THE MASSAGE WASNT HARD ENOUGH... SHE SAID SHE WAS GOING AS HARD AS SHE CAN... IF SHE WAS, THEN SHE FAILS. OH SO WHEN I MEAN I GOT A LOT OF SWAG, I MEAN I GOT A LOTTTTTTT OF SWAG LOL. ITS FUNNY HOW EVERYONE GIVES YOU PENS AND WHATNOT BUT THE ODDS OF ME USING THEM ARE SO SLIM... THE PENS THAT I USE ARE VERY PARTICULAR. ANYWAYS THE TRADE-SHOW WAS FUN AND PICKED UP A BUNCH OF STUFF THAT I WILL NEVER USE :) LOL

OH OH OH ANOTHER THING IS THAT TODAY I HELD MY FIRST WORK MEETING................. IN CHINESE LOL. I WOULD HAVE LOVED TO HAVE MY FIRST ONE WAS IN ENGLISH CAUSE IM BETTER AT IT THAN CHINESE. EITHER WAY I HELD MY OWN AND MADE IT. LOOKS LIKE FROM NOW ON IL BE IN CHARGE OF MORE ISSUES. MEETINGS LOL. OK... IM PASSING OUT BAD RIGHT NOW SO IM GOING TO GO SLEEP. THIS WAS A REALLY REALLY WEAK POST BUT BETTER HAVE POSTED THAN HAVE NOT EH ;) LOL.

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TO EACH THEIR OWN

TO EACH THEIR OWN... THIS WAS THE PHRASE THAT CAUSED A MAJOR DEJA VU YESTERDAY OR MAYBE IT WAS MONDAY... IM NOT EVEN REALLY SURE WHICH DAY IT WAS NOW... OR THE ORDER OF WHICH ONE HAPPENED FIRST... NOW IT SEEMS LIKE IT HAPPENED OUT OF ORDER AS WELL... NOW IM QUESTIONING IF IT REALLY HAPPENED... WAIT... YA IT REALLY HAPPENED!!! SOMEWHERE SOMETIME IT HAPPENED AND THEN I WAS HAVING LUNCH WITH A FRIEND ON MONDAY AND IT CAME UP AGAIN AND INSTANT DEJA VU... BUT I COULDNT REMEMBER WHERE OR WHEN I HEARD IT... IT FELT LIKE IT HAPPENED ON TUESDAY BUT NOW IT COULDNT HAVE CAUSE WHEN I HEARD IT ON MONDAY IT WAS ALREADY DEJA VU SO IT HAD TO HAPPEN ON MONDAY AND  THEN I THOUGHT ABOUT IT ON TUESDAY AND IT WAS STUCK IN MY HEAD ALL DAY TODAY... IT TURNS OUT MY COWORKER MIGHT HAVE SAID IT ON MONDAY OR MAYBE TUESDAY... BUT IT HAS TO BE MONDAY... OMG... THIS IS TOO FUNNY AND SAD AT THE SAME TIME... ANYWAYS... LETS MOVE ON...

TO EACH THEIR OWN... IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYONE IS TRYING TO COPY SOMEONE OR DO SOMETHING SIMILAR... I MYSELF DO NOT FOLLOW ANYONE... IF YOU KNOW ME YOU WILL KNOW THAT I AM FAR FROM NORMAL... LOLOL I MEAN JUST LOOK AT THIS BLOG... OVER 3 YEARS OF WRITING IN ALL CAPSLOCK... THATS NOT THE NORM AND IM ALMOST 100% SURE THERES NO ONE ELSE DOING THIS... WHEN I MEET PEOPLE BELIEVE IT OR NOW... PEOPLE ACTUALLY RECOGNIZE ME AND ASKS IF IM THE GUY WHO WRITES IN CAPSLOCK ALL THE TIME :) ALL MY SOCIAL MEDIA IS CAPSLOCKED EXCEPT WORK... WELL... SOMETIMES WORK IS CAPSLOCKED TOO ACTUALLY HAHA. THIS IS JUST SOMETHING THAT IS ME AND I DONT CARE WHAT ANYONE ELSE SAYS ABOUT IT. DO YOUR OWN THING, YOURE YOUR OWN PERSON. WHO CARES WHAT PEOPLE THINK OR SAY ABOUT IT. AFTER ALL, YOURE THE ONE LIVING YOUR LIFE, NOT THEM. SO FOLLOW YOURSELF, BREAK THE MOLD, AND DONT LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE. PEOPLE THESE DAYS ARE TRYING TO COOKIE CUTTER IT AND WHATS THE POINT??? YOURE GOING TO BE DOING THE SAME THING DAY IN AND DAY OUT... THIS TIES INTO SO MANY OF MY POSTS THAT I HAVE WRITTEN AND WILL WRITE THAT IL BRING IT UP TIME AND TIME AGAIN. WHO CARES WHAT OTHER PEOPLES OPINIONS ARE? YOU HAVE YOUR OWN THOUGHTS AND YOUR OWN OPINIONS AND YOUR OWN PREFERENCES FOR EVERYTHING. WHY LISTEN OR FOLLOW OTHER PEOPLE RIGHT? TO EACH THEIR OWN... RIGHT??? RIGHT!!!

LASTLY, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :) WISH EVERYONE A HEALTHY AND PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR.

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NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE...

EVER FEEL LIKE YOU JUST NEED TO GET OUT OF WHERE YOU ARE...??? I MEAN I NEED TO GET OUT OF THE CITY... GO SOMEWHERE... ANYWHERE... JUST OUT OF HERE... OUT OF THE CITY AND OUT OF THE COUNTRY... I JUST WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE FOR VACATION AND JUST LEAVE EVERYTHING BEHIND. I WANT TO FORGET ABOUT LIFE HERE, WORK, FRIENDS, FAMILY, WORRIES, DUTIES, AND JUST EVERYTHING. JUST GO SOMEWHERE OFF THE GRID IF ONLY FOR A LITTLE WHILE... DONT GET ME WRONG I MEAN EVERYTHING IS GOING GREAT BUT I JUST FEEL LIKE I NEED A GETAWAY AND JUST TO FORGET IT ALL AND COME BACK REFRESHED. IM SURE IVE WRITTEN ABOUT SOMETHING LIKE THIS BEFORE... I THINK ABOUT THIS KIND OF STUFF ALL THE TIME BUT IF I ACTUALLY WRITE IT IS ANOTHER QUESTION... I HAVE WRITTEN SO MUCH THAT SOMETIMES ITS TOO MUCH WORK TO GO LOOK UP IT ALL AND IM GETTING TIRED TOO HAHA. EVERYONE WILL COME TO A TIME WHERE THEY FEEL THE SAME WAY, ITS JUST EVERYTHING AROUND US THAT ADDS UP AND EVENTUALLY WE JUST NEED TO GET RID OF WHATEVER IT IS AND RECHARGE. THATS WHY WE ALL HAVE VACATION TIME :) THIS SORTA TIES INTO MY POST ABOUT LIMITS AND HOW EVERYONE HAS ONE. EACH PERSON CAN ONLY TAKE SO MUCH AND SOONER OR LATER SOMETHING WILL SNAP IF YOU DONT TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. SO NOW THE QUESTION IS WHERE SHOULD I GO FOR VACATION? IVE BEEN TO SOME OF THE PLACES IN THE US, ALL OVER EUROPE, AND ASIA AS IN CHINA, HONG KONG, AND TAIWAN. IM NOT EVEN GOING TO BOTHER LISTING THE PLACES IVE BEEN TOO... THERES TOO MANY AND IM TOO LAZY RIGHT NOW. ALSO IM NOT GOING TO BOTHER LISTING ALL THE PLACES I WANT TO GO TO BECAUSE UNLESS I WIN THE LOTTO OR MAKE IT BIG, THERES NO WAY IL BE ABLE TO GO TO ALL THOSE PLACES EITHER. SO MORE OF A REALISTIC PLACE... SOME PLACE WITH LESS PEOPLE AND JUST ENJOY MYSELF... SOME PLACE THAT I REALLY DONT HAVE TO TALK TO PEOPLE... OR DO ANYTHING... PERHAPS JUST LAY THERE AND NOT CARE... THIS SOUNDS LIKE SOME SORT OF BEACH OR RESORT... THEN AGAIN I DONT WANT THE WHOLE PAMPERED EXPERIENCE... I DO BUT I DONT... IM THINKING LIKE SOMEWHERE LIKE THE AMAZON OR DESSERT BUT NOT AS HOT OR WITH THINGS THAT CAN KILL ME... A MOUNTAIN THATS NOT THAT COLD... SOME PLACE THATS ENJOYABLE AND SECLUDED AND FUN... CAN SOMEONE PLEASE LEND ME A PRIVATE ISLAND WHERE I CAN JUST LAY THERE LOOKING AT THE WATER WITH NO ONE NEARBY??? THERES SOME STUFF ON MY MIND THAT I NEED TO FIGURE OUT AND THE MORE I TRY TO FIGURE IT OUT HERE AT HOME THE MORE MISTAKES AND CONFUSED I GET... THERES JUST TOO MANY DISTRACTIONS TO COME TO A CLEAR AND FOCUSED CONCLUSION... I JUST WANT SOMETHING THAT HAS NOTHING BUT EVERYTHING AND SOMETHING WITH EVERYTHING BUT NOTHING... SERIOUSLY THOUGH... WHERE CAN I GO... I HAVE VACATION AND I DONT KNOW WHERE TO GO... LOL

IT MIGHT COME TO YOUR SURPRISE BUT I ACTUALLY LIKE QUIETNESS... YES... ME... THE LOUD PERSON... THE PERSON THAT TYPES IN CAPSLOCK ALL DAY EVERYDAY... I USE TO BE LOUD AND TALKED A LOT... I STILL AM LOUD AND TALK A LOT... BUT THE DIFFERENCE IS THAT BEFORE IT WAS 24/7/365... NOW IT REALLY DEPENDS ON THE SITUATION... IVE REALIZED THAT NOW I REALLY DONT CARE AS MUCH ANYMORE... SOMETIMES I JUST DONT WANT TO BOTHER WITH GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS. I FIND THAT THE BEST TIMES NOW IS WHEN IM DRIVING OR WHEN IM ALONE... IM WITH MY THOUGHTS. WHEN IM WITH PEOPLE SOMETIMES I REALLY JUST WANT THEM TO SHUT UP!!! YOU REALLY DO NOTICE MORE WHEN YOURE SILENT. SOMETIMES I JUST LIKE WATCHING PEOPLE DIG THEMSELVES DEEPER AND DEEPER AS TO BEFORE I WOULD JUST SHUT THEM UP... NOW SOMETIMES THEY SHUT THEMSELVES UP OR I JUST REALIZE HOW BAD THEY ARE MAKING THEMSELVES LOOK. IVE LEARNED A LOT BY BEING QUIET... YOU OBSERVE MORE THAN YOU WOULD HAVE NOTICED IF YOU KEPT ON GOING. WELL GUESS IL LEAVE IT AT THERE... ALSO NOW IM PASSING OUT... LOL SO TIME TO UNSCRAMBLE ZEE BRAIN :)

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THOUGHT OBSESSED THOUGHTS

HONESTLY IF YOU CAN BELIEVE IT OR NOT... TODAY THERE REALLY IS NO POST... I COULDNT COME UP WITH A TOPIC AND THE TOPIC I CAME UP WITH TURNS OUT I WROTE ABOUT IT ALREADY... IVE BEEN QUITE BUSY AT WORK THAT I REALLY HAVENT DONE MUCH BESIDES THAT... BETWEEN WORKING LATE AND THE MEETINGS, I COME HOME AND JUST CHILL OUT... EAT A BIT AND WATCH A BIT OF TV BEFORE PASSING OUT... LOL. LAST WEEK WAS A LONG... LONGGGGGGGG WEEK... AT THE END OF LAST WEEK I WAS JUST SO BEAT THAT I NEED TO JUST PARTY IT ALL OUT HAHA. LAST MINUTE DECISION AND ENDED UP GOING TO MARK SIXMA. HIS STYLES A BIT DIFFERENT THAN EVERYTHING ELSE BUT IT WAS A GOOD PARTY. JUST HUNG OUT WITH THE BOYS AND FOR $25 IT WAS WELL WORTH IT. THE RECOVERY THOUGH... LETS JUST SAY IM NOT AS YOUNG AS I USE TO... RECOVERY TIME IS A BIT SLOW NOW... LOL. WELL COMING UP I DO HAVE 2 PARTIES... GET TOGETHER WITH GARETH EMERY, MS54, AND ILAN BLUESTONE WHO I HAVENT SEEN YET AND ITS GONNA BE A GOOD PARTY :) GOT SOME TIME TO RECOVER SINCE ITS GOING TO BE OVER THE FAMILY WEEKEND AND NEXT WEEK I GOT ORJAN NILSEN ONE OF THE DJS I REALLY LIKE AND I FINALLY GET TO SEE HIM TOO WOOOO AND THATS GOING TO BE ON VALENTINES DAY... LOL THATS QUITE INTERESTING... PARTY ON THAT DAY??? WELL NOT LIKE I HAVE ANYTHING ELSE BETTER TO DO OR HAVE ANYONE TO SPEND IT WITH... HAHA........... WAIT... *CRIES A BIT* LOLOL JKJK ACTUALLY IVE BEEN SO BUSY AND FOCUSED ON WORK THE PAST LITTLE WHILE THAT ITS HASNT REALLY BEEN ON MY MIND... I HAVE TONS TO DO RIGHT NOW AND I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT END OF FEBRUARY WILL BE CRAZY BUSY FOR ME... DONT GET ME WRONG I MEAN I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT BUT ITS DIFFERENT... I DONT REALLY KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT... WELL I DO... SORTA... BUT HEY THATS FOR ME TO KNOW AND YOU TO FIND OUT HAHA.

BESIDES HOW MUCH FUN WORK IS OCCUPYING MY EVERY THOUGHT... THERES ACTUALLY ANOTHER THOUGHT THATS BEEN ON MY MIND NONSTOP... AND THERES NOT MUCH I CAN REALLY DO ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW... HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT SOMETHING SO MUCH THAT IT CONSUMES YOUR ENTIRE DAY??? THE FIRST THOUGHT IN THE MORNING WHEN YOU WAKE UP, AND THE LAST THOUGHT BEFORE YOU FALL  ASLEEP IS OF THAT... THE THOUGHT JUST POPS UP NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO AND THERES NO WAY TO SHAKE IT... THE MORE YOU TRY, THE HARDER YOU THINK ABOUT IT AND THEN BEFORE YOU REALIZED IT YOU ARE OBSESSING OVER IT AND EVERYTHING ABOUT IT... IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT YOU DO... SOMEHOW THAT AMAZING GREAT BRAIN OF YOURS IS ABLE TO LINK WHATEVER YOU DO TO WHAT YOU ARE OBSESSING OVER... DOESNT MATTER IF YOU ARE WALKING OR DRIVING OR EATING OR WATCHING TV OR PLAYING SPORTS OR WATCHING A MOVIE OR ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING... EVEN OBJECTS... EVERYTHING REMINDS YOU... SOMEHOW YOUR MIND JUST WANDERS BACK TO IT AND YOU WONT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT... WRITING ABOUT IT REALLY DOESNT HELP EITHER SINCE NOW IM FOCUSED SOLELY ON IT... AND I PROBABLY WONT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT... GOOD JOB RICKY... SHOULD YOU JUST STOP THINKING ABOUT IT... WELL YOU CANT... EVEN IF NOTHING REMINDS YOU OF IT, FEELINGS OR EMOTIONS AND JUST GENERAL CURIOSITY WILL BRING YOU BACK TO IT... YOU KNOW WHATS FUNNY... SONGS... SONGS ARE THE WORST!!! EVEN WHEN YOU ARE NOT ACTUALLY THINKING ABOUT IT A SONG AND THEIR LYRICS WILL TRIGGER SOMETHING AND WOOOO HERE WE GO AGAIN... WHAT DO YOU DO... WHAT CAN YOU DO... WHAT SHOULD YOU DO... I GUESS THERES NOT MUCH YOU CAN DO... YOU JUST HAVE TO WAIT... WAIT FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN... WAIT FOR IT TO CLEAR UP... OR DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT... BUT CAN YOU??? WHAT IF ITS NOT UP TO YOU... HOW CAN YOU DO SOMETHING THATS OUTSIDE OF YOUR CONTROL... IS TRYING ENOUGH... IS HOPING ENOUGH... IS ANYTHING ENOUGH... THERES A REASON WHY IT IS SO... AND I GUESS ONCE AGAIN... IT COMES BACK TO MY GOOD OLD FRIEND... TIME...... AND EVENTUALLY... IT WILL WORK ITSELF OUT AND YOU WILL SEE WHAT IT IS FOR WHAT IT IS... BUT UNTIL THAT TIME... I GUESS IL JUST SIT HERE AND OBSESS ABOUT IT...

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