SIMPLE AND TRUE... NOTHING LASTS FOREVER... WHAT CAN YOU NAME THAT CAN LAST FOREVER??? NOTHING... YOU KNOW WHY??? CAUSE EVERYTHING WILL EVENTUALLY... IRREVOCABLY... INEVITABLY... END!!! THE EARTH WILL END ONE DAY, THE UNIVERSE WILL END ONE DAY... TREES WILL DIE... THE MOUNTAINS WILL ERODE AWAY... ANIMALS WILL DIE... BUILDINGS CRUMBLE... EMPIRES FALL... EVERYTHING WILL END OR DIE. IF YOU WANT TO TAKE IT TO THE PHILOSOPHICAL SIDE... IDEAS DIE... LOVE DIES... MEMORIES DIE... WHICH BRINGS ME BACK TO THE TITLE OF NOTHING LASTS FOREVER. PRETTY DARK AND EMO EH LOL. HEY DONT TAKE ME WRONG... I WISH IT WASNT TRUE BUT UNFORTUNATELY IT IS... NO MATTER HOW BAD YOU WANT SOMETHING OR THINK SOMETHING SHOULD BE AROUND... SOMEHOW IT WILL END... MAYBE NOT TODAY OR TOMORROW... BUT SOMEWHERE DOWN THE ROAD IT WILL... EVEN WHEN IT DOES LAST "FOREVER" OUR UNDERSTANDING OF IT WILL ONLY LAST AS LONG AS SOMEONE REMEMBERS IT. SO BASICALLY UNTIL THAT SOMEONE OR SOMETHING ENDS OR DIES. THEN IT WILL LIKE ALL THE OTHERS... FADE INTO DARKNESS AND BE FORGOTTEN. LOOK AT ALL THE GREAT EMPIRES OF THE WORLD... THEY TRIED TO MAKE IT LAST FOREVER AND ALTHOUGH IT LASTED A LONG TIME, THEY ALL STILL DIDNT LAST FOREVER... THE EMPIRES STILL ENDED. WE HAVE MEMORIES OF IT OR DRAWINGS OR ARTIFACTS OR WHAT NOT BUT NONE OF THEM REMAIN... THEIR THOUGHTS AND DREAMS AND THINGS ABOUT THEM ARE GONE. ITS INTERESTING HOW IN THIS SHORT MEASLY LIFE OF OURS WE TRY TO MAKE OUR MARK IN HISTORY SO TO SHOW AS LONG AS THERE IS STILL A WE HERE THAT WE EXISTED. WE TRY TO MAKE THAT SMALL BLIP OF A BLIP OF A BLIP SIGNIFICANT AND TRY TO HOLD ON TO WHAT WE HAVE. DOES ANYONE EVEN REALLY CARE IN THE END??? ITS OVER AND GONE WITH... I GUESS WE REALLY CANT ASK ANYONE SINCE THERES NO ONE LEFT... WELL... HERES TO US TRYING THE IMPOSSIBLE FEAT OF MAKING IT LAST FOREVER... HOWEVER LONG THAT FOREVER IS...
SO LUCKY YOU!!! EVERYONE GETS A BONUS THOUGHT OF MINE FOR YOUR PENNY... WELL... ACTUALLY IT WOULD BE A NICKEL SINCE WE STOPPED PRODUCING PENNIES LOL. THIS COULD EASILY BE ANOTHER POST SO IM JUST GONNA SAY A FEW WORDS... LIFES A BITCH... AND TRYING TO BE A GOOD GUY OR A NICE GUY IN IT JUST DOESNT WORK... YOU TRY TO DO THE RIGHT THING, AND YOU CAN TRY NOT TO MAKE A MISTAKE BUT SOMEHOW BY TRYING TO BE THE GOOD GUY YOU END UP BEING THE ASSHOLE. SOMETIMES DONT YOU JUST WISH COULD DO THE BAD THING ABOUT IT... THAT WAY EVERYTHING IS MUCH EASIER... BUT THATS JUST NOT WHO I AM.
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Wednesday, 28 January 2015
Wednesday, 21 January 2015
WHAT DO YOU MISS...???
QUITE AN INTERESTING TITLE THIS WEEK... AFTER A CERTAIN TIME IN YOUR LIFE YOU LOOK BACK AND REALIZE THAT YOU MISS SOME THINGS SOMETIMES... RIGHT NOW AT WHERE I AM AT IN LIFE I MISS:
EVERYTHING THAT I MISS CAN BE TIED INTO ONE OF THOSE GROUPS... SOMETIMES IT TAKES A WHILE TO REALIZE WHAT YOU HAVE LOST DUE TO YOU HAVING TO GROW UP, BUT HONESTLY SOME OF THOSE TIMES WERE THE BEST AND THE MEMORIES WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU. JUST THIS PAST WEEK THERE WAS A LOT OF REMINISCING ABOUT THE GOOD OLD DAYS LOL. I RECENTLY HUNG OUT WITH A FRIEND I HAVENT SEEN IN A LONG TIME AND WE WERE TALKING ABOUT HOW WE USE TO BE ON THE PHONE LATE AT NIGHT AND JUST WATCHING TV TOGETHER AND HOW THINGS WERE SO MUCH EASIER... LIFE REALLY WAS EASIER WHEN WE WERE YOUNGER... BUT NO MORE... WE HAVE ALL GROWN UP AND NOW WE ALL HAVE GROWN UP ISSUES... JOB... MONEY... BILLS... CAR... HOUSE... FAMILY... FRIENDS... IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYONE IS JUST GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS NOW JUST GOING THROUGH IT ALL. WE ALL HAVE DIFFERENT RESPONSIBILITIES NOW TOO... SOME OF MY FRIENDS ARE MARRIED... OTHERS ARE HAVING KIDS... AND SOME ARE JUST THE SAME OLD. PERHAPS SOMETIMES WE JUST FALL INTO THE HABITS THAT ARE COMFORTABLE AND JUST FAMILIAR TO US, WE DONT WANT TO LOSE A TIME IN OUR LIVES THAT WAS EASY AND CARE FREE. THOSE TIMES ARE PRECIOUS TO US AND WE JUST WANT TO ALWAYS LIVE IT... OR RELIVE IT IN SOME CASES. SOMETIMES I REALLY WISH I COULD GO BACK TO A TIME THAT WAS MUCH SIMPLER THAN THIS... BUT WHAT CAN YOU DO... LIFE GOES ON... WITH... OR WITHOUT YOU...
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- THE OLD DAYS WHERE I HAD LESS TO WORRY ABOUT
- NOT HAVING MONEY AND STILL HAVING FUN
- BEING INNOCENT AND LESS CYNICAL
- TALKING TO PEOPLE ALL NIGHT ON THE PHONE
- HANGING OUT WITH FRIENDS
- PARTYING ALL NIGHT
- SOME OF THE FRIENDSHIPS/RELATIONSHIPS I HAD
EVERYTHING THAT I MISS CAN BE TIED INTO ONE OF THOSE GROUPS... SOMETIMES IT TAKES A WHILE TO REALIZE WHAT YOU HAVE LOST DUE TO YOU HAVING TO GROW UP, BUT HONESTLY SOME OF THOSE TIMES WERE THE BEST AND THE MEMORIES WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU. JUST THIS PAST WEEK THERE WAS A LOT OF REMINISCING ABOUT THE GOOD OLD DAYS LOL. I RECENTLY HUNG OUT WITH A FRIEND I HAVENT SEEN IN A LONG TIME AND WE WERE TALKING ABOUT HOW WE USE TO BE ON THE PHONE LATE AT NIGHT AND JUST WATCHING TV TOGETHER AND HOW THINGS WERE SO MUCH EASIER... LIFE REALLY WAS EASIER WHEN WE WERE YOUNGER... BUT NO MORE... WE HAVE ALL GROWN UP AND NOW WE ALL HAVE GROWN UP ISSUES... JOB... MONEY... BILLS... CAR... HOUSE... FAMILY... FRIENDS... IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYONE IS JUST GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS NOW JUST GOING THROUGH IT ALL. WE ALL HAVE DIFFERENT RESPONSIBILITIES NOW TOO... SOME OF MY FRIENDS ARE MARRIED... OTHERS ARE HAVING KIDS... AND SOME ARE JUST THE SAME OLD. PERHAPS SOMETIMES WE JUST FALL INTO THE HABITS THAT ARE COMFORTABLE AND JUST FAMILIAR TO US, WE DONT WANT TO LOSE A TIME IN OUR LIVES THAT WAS EASY AND CARE FREE. THOSE TIMES ARE PRECIOUS TO US AND WE JUST WANT TO ALWAYS LIVE IT... OR RELIVE IT IN SOME CASES. SOMETIMES I REALLY WISH I COULD GO BACK TO A TIME THAT WAS MUCH SIMPLER THAN THIS... BUT WHAT CAN YOU DO... LIFE GOES ON... WITH... OR WITHOUT YOU...
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Wednesday, 14 January 2015
AMAZING START TO THE YEAR!!!
WELL AFTER LAST WEEKS POST I WENT TO SLEEP AND WOKE UP EARLY TO GO TO MY EXAM. WHILE DRIVING I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO FOCUSED IN MY LIFE!!! I SO WAS READY TO GO INTO THE EXAM AND DESTROY IT. I GO IN AND I GET MYSELF READY, THEN THE LADY COMES TO SIGN ME INTO THE COMPUTER AND SHE TELLS ME THAT I CANT USE MY OWN PERSONAL PEN OR PENCIL FOR THE EXAM AND THAT I NEED TO USE THE PROVIDED ONE... SO SHE TOOK IT AND SAID THAT I COULD PICK IT UP FROM THE FRONT DESK WHEN I FINISH MY EXAM. I WENT THROUGH THE EXAM 3 TIMES TO MAKE SURE I WAS GOOD BUT AFTERWARDS COUNTING UP THE ONES THAT I WASNT SURE ABOUT... MADE ME A LITTLE BIT UNSURE AS WELL... LOL. ANYWAYS... FAST FORWARD 3 HOURS LATER... I FINISH AND GO TO CLAIM MY PEN AND PENCIL... SHE SAYS ITS RIGHT THERE... NO... ITS NOT... WTF... ITS NOT ON THE SIDE... ITS NOT IN THE BOX... ITS NOT IN THE DRAWER... ITS NOT IN THE CASE... ITS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND... WTF!>!?!@>?!#>$??@?! SOMEONE STOLE MY FREAKING PEN AND PENCIL!!!!!!!!!! WHAT IS THIS!!!!!!!!!! OMG... SO ONLY 3 PEOPLE LEFT THE EXAM BEFORE ME AND THEY SAID WOULD YOU LIKE US TO CALL THEM TO CHECK... OF COURSE I WANT YOU TO CHECK!!! YOURE THE REASON WHY ITS GONE!!! 2 OF THEM PICK UP AND SAID THEY DONT HAVE IT BUT THE THIRD PERSON DIDNT ANSWER... THAT MEANS ITS HIM!!!!! HE STOLE MY AMAZING PEN AND PENCIL!!!!!!!!!! SIGH... :( I LEFT DETAILED DESCRIPTION REGARDING THE PEN AND PENCIL AND TOLD THEM TO CALL ME... WHICH THEY HAVENT SOOO BASICALLY ITS GONE :( ITS THE JAPANESE STYLE BLUE GEL INK PEN THATS SUPER SMOOTH. THE PENCIL IS ANOTHER JAPANESE MECHANICAL LED PENCIL WITH GRIP... THAT... I... ACCIDENTALLY ON PURPOSE LEFT WITH FROM SOMEWHERE OVER 5 YEARS AGO LOLOL YES YES... BASICALLY SOMEONE STOLE THE PENCIL I STOLE HAHA. WELL THATS KARMA FOR YOU EH BUT MY PENS GONE... OH WELL. ANYWAYS THATS NOT THE MAIN POINT HERE... I THINK I DID WELL... I HOPE I DID WELL... I REALLY HAD NO CHOICE... I HAD TO MAKE IT!!! SO AT WORK FRIDAY IT WAS THE MOMENT OF TRUTH... I FINALLY CHECKED IT ANDDDDDDDDDDDDD WOOOOOOOOO :) I PASSED LOL ALL THAT HARD WORK FINALLY PAID OFF!!! ITS LIKE A WEIGHT WAS FINALLY LIFTED... YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH PRESSURE YOU PUT ON YOURSELF TO GET SOMETHING YOU WANT... IT TAKES SO MUCH OUT OF YOU JUST TO TRY AND GET IT AND THE FEELINGS AMAZING FINALLY GETTING TO THE POINT THAT YOU WANT. OH YA AND WITH THIS I ALSO GOT PROMOTED AT WORK!!! :) WOOOOO I AM HAVING A GREAT START TO THE NEW YEAR :)
NOW THAT IVE FINISH ALL THIS AND EVERYTHING ELSE I CAN FINALLY START DOING EVERYTHING ELSE THAT I WANT :) THIS WAS ONLY 1 OF THE MANY THINGS I HAVE ON MY LIST OF THINGS TO TRY AND ACCOMPLISH THIS YEAR, BUT YOU ALWAYS NEED TO MAKE THE FIRST STEP IN GOING FORWARD TO ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING. THIS WAS THE LAST SCHOOLING THAT I WILL EVER EVER FREAKING DO!!! NEVER!!! NO MORE!!! THATS IT!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL NEVER GO BACK TO SCHOOL EVER AGAIN............!!!!!!!!!!!! UNLESS... I END UP BEING SOOOOO SMART AND GOING BACK TO LEARN SOMETHING ELSE... WHY DO I KEEP DOING THIS TO MYSELF... MEH MAYBE I JUST LOVE BEING IN SCHOOL... THAT CANT BE IT... MORE LIKE I JUST LOVE PUTTING MYSELF THROUGH THE PAIN OF LEARNING LOL. WELL... I DO WANNA LEARN DUTCH AND GERMAN AND RUSSIAN... SOOO I GUESS THATS NEXT ON THE LIST OF THINGS TO GO TO SCHOOL FOR HAHA. IVE BEEN TO ALL THE BIG 3 SCHOOLS IN THIS TOWN... SO LETS SEE WHATS NEXT EH... HAHA. NOW, TIME TO GO AND ENJOY MYSELF AND DO WHAT I WANT TO DO... LIKE CATCH UP ON ALL MY TV SHOWS THAT IVE BEEN NEGLECTING FOR THE PAST MONTHS HAHA. REST OF MY LIFE??? JUST HANGING OUT WITH FRIENDS AND ENJOYING MYSELF. COULDNT ASK FOR ANYTHING BETTER :)
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NOW THAT IVE FINISH ALL THIS AND EVERYTHING ELSE I CAN FINALLY START DOING EVERYTHING ELSE THAT I WANT :) THIS WAS ONLY 1 OF THE MANY THINGS I HAVE ON MY LIST OF THINGS TO TRY AND ACCOMPLISH THIS YEAR, BUT YOU ALWAYS NEED TO MAKE THE FIRST STEP IN GOING FORWARD TO ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING. THIS WAS THE LAST SCHOOLING THAT I WILL EVER EVER FREAKING DO!!! NEVER!!! NO MORE!!! THATS IT!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL NEVER GO BACK TO SCHOOL EVER AGAIN............!!!!!!!!!!!! UNLESS... I END UP BEING SOOOOO SMART AND GOING BACK TO LEARN SOMETHING ELSE... WHY DO I KEEP DOING THIS TO MYSELF... MEH MAYBE I JUST LOVE BEING IN SCHOOL... THAT CANT BE IT... MORE LIKE I JUST LOVE PUTTING MYSELF THROUGH THE PAIN OF LEARNING LOL. WELL... I DO WANNA LEARN DUTCH AND GERMAN AND RUSSIAN... SOOO I GUESS THATS NEXT ON THE LIST OF THINGS TO GO TO SCHOOL FOR HAHA. IVE BEEN TO ALL THE BIG 3 SCHOOLS IN THIS TOWN... SO LETS SEE WHATS NEXT EH... HAHA. NOW, TIME TO GO AND ENJOY MYSELF AND DO WHAT I WANT TO DO... LIKE CATCH UP ON ALL MY TV SHOWS THAT IVE BEEN NEGLECTING FOR THE PAST MONTHS HAHA. REST OF MY LIFE??? JUST HANGING OUT WITH FRIENDS AND ENJOYING MYSELF. COULDNT ASK FOR ANYTHING BETTER :)
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Wednesday, 7 January 2015
THE HEART WANTS WHAT IT WANTS
WELCOME BACK EVERYONE TO THE 1ST POST OF 2015 :) HOPE EVERYONE HAD A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY, I KNOW I DID. NOW BACK TO IT!!! SO... YES... THE TITLE IS FROM SELENA GOMEZ... YES I WATCHED SOME OF WIZARDS OF WAVERLY PLACE... SO WHAT!!! SHES HOT!!! LOL AND ACTUALLY THIS HAS BEEN A TOPIC THAT I WANTED TO WRITE FOR A WHILE AGO TOO AND IT SEEMED LIKE NO BETTER TIME THAN NOW... RIGHT??? I ACTUALLY DONT HAVE MUCH TIME TONIGHT TO WRITE MUCH EITHER BECAUSE I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLY FOR AN EXAM, BUT THAT ALSO TIES INTO THIS... BASICALLY IL SPARKNOTES THIS POST LOL. ITS QUITE FUNNY EH... YOU REALLY CANT HELP BUT WANT THE THINGS YOU WANT IN LIFE... OR EVEN KNOW WHEN YOU WANT IT... SURE THERES THINGS YOU WANT BUT HOW MANY THINGS DO YOU ACTUALLY NEED? WANTS AND NEEDS ARE SO FAR APART FROM EACH OTHER BUT SOMETIMES THEY ARE BOTH EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT AND NEED. YOU GO THROUGH LIFE NOT KNOWING WHAT YOU WANT OR NEED AND THEN ONE DAY YOU WAKE UP ONLY TO REALIZE THAT YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT AND NEED. WHAT IS IT THAT MAKES YOU WANT SOMETHING ANYWAYS... I GUESS THATS WHERE THE TITLE COMES IN... YOUR HEART... THAT TELLS YOU WHAT YOU WANT... IT SORT OF RIDICULOUS... THE HEARTS JUST A MUSCLE... AN ORGAN... A PIECE OF MEAT... IT DOESNT WANT ANYTHING EXCEPT OXYGEN AND BLOOD... IT CANT TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT... BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT DOES... AND DOES SO ALL THE TIME... SO WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU FINALLY REALIZE YOU WANT WHAT YOU WANT??? WELL... YOU DO EVERYTHING YOU POSSIBLY CAN TO GET IT, YOU WORK HARD FOR IT, YOU DONT GIVE IT, YOU DONT SURRENDER, YOU FIGHT FOR IT BECAUSE YOU KNOW YOU WANT IT AND DESERVE IT. SOMETIMES IT MIGHT SEEM IMPOSSIBLE TO GET WHAT YOU WANT... THAT THE ROAD SEEMS SO FAR TO GET TO WHAT YOU WANT... YOU MIGHT STUMBLE ON THE WAY THERE... YOU MIGHT WANT TO GIVE UP... BUT IF YOU REALLY WANT IT... JUST KEEP GOING FOR IT UNTIL THE VERY END. YOU ALL KNOW I LIVE BY 3 MOTTOS FOUND IN THIS POST: "NO PAIN, NO GAIN" "LIVE WITH NO REGRETS" AND "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON" AND THESE ALL HOLD VERY VERY TRUE TO WANTING WHAT YOU WANT. NOTHING YOU EVER WANT COMES EASY... GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT AND DONT REGRET HAVING GONE FOR IT... AND YOU WANT WHAT YOU WANT FOR A REASON. THERES LOTS OF THINGS I WANT... THAT IM TRYING TO GET... AND EVEN SOME THINGS THAT I BASICALLY HAD... BUT JUST ENDED UP LOSING THEM. SO WHAT NOW... SHOULD I GIVE UP? SHOULD I WAVE THE WHITE FLAG? SHOULD I JUST MOVE ON? NO!!! NOW IT MAKES ME WANT TO WORK HARDER FOR IT, TO GET IT, TO GET IT BACK. IT REALLY IS QUITE FUNNY... THE SAYING: "YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOUVE GOT UNTIL ITS GONE" AND YOU REALLY DONT REALIZE IT UNTIL YOU DONT HAVE SOMETHING... YOU REALLY DO TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED... ITS AMAZING WHAT PEOPLE REALIZE AFTERWARDS... THE SOONER YOU REALIZE WHAT YOU LOST, THE SOONER YOU CAN WORK TO GET IT BACK... AND IF YOU DESERVE IT THEN MAYBE... POSSIBLY... HOPEFULLY... YOU CAN GET IT BACK. IF OR WHEN YOU GET IT BACK YOU REALLY DO AND WILL APPRECIATE WHAT YOU HAVE. WELL... WITH THAT ALL BEING SAID IM GOING TO SLEEP, I GOTTA GO GET WHAT I WANT TOMORROW LOL.
OH AND EVERYTHING ELSE THE PAST WEEK? NOT MUCH... FOR NEW YEARS JUST HUNG OUT WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY. HAD A PARTY AT ONE OF MY BUDDIES PLACE WHICH WAS FUN AND THATS ABOUT ALL. I HAVENT GONE OUT ALL WEEKEND OR WEEK CAUSE IVE BEEN STUDYING. SO NOTHING INTERESTING HAPPENED LOL. WITH THAT I BID YOU GOODNIGHT... UNTIL NEXT WEEK OF COURSE :)
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OH AND EVERYTHING ELSE THE PAST WEEK? NOT MUCH... FOR NEW YEARS JUST HUNG OUT WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY. HAD A PARTY AT ONE OF MY BUDDIES PLACE WHICH WAS FUN AND THATS ABOUT ALL. I HAVENT GONE OUT ALL WEEKEND OR WEEK CAUSE IVE BEEN STUDYING. SO NOTHING INTERESTING HAPPENED LOL. WITH THAT I BID YOU GOODNIGHT... UNTIL NEXT WEEK OF COURSE :)
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